Push me back down
Into the rotting earth
Too many years
To find what life is worth
Do it now pray
For me I taste the dirt
Pray for me do it now
Release my soul
Into the atmosphere
Come quench my thirst
Extinguish all my fears
Do it now
The truth burns I taste the dirt
Pray for me do it
Now deep down
You're december's spawn
Agony you hold within you
Since the dawn of time
You're compelled to do what you do
Broken skin so dry
Burning lungs, I breathe so slowly
I can't see the sun
I can't see it, feel it
Gone from heaven to hell
And it's oh so cold
Raining darkness and pain
Bastard child be gone
Bring me warmth and light one more time
I can't see the sun
I chose the long hard path
Iæ¦ wandering
In self-denial for so long I bled
To find the truth in all I say and do
My darkest hour
Iæ¦ upon the suicide wall
Still I condemn myself
Look for the answer now
All Iæ³e denied myself
Kill me
In the end you know Iæ£l live again
Remember all those things that passed me by
In looking back thru hate I lost my way
Iæ³e fallen low before but now Iæ¦ there
Looking at me smothering you
Destroying all
Looking at me punishing you
Destroying it
Pushing you down
Pulling you down
Iæ¦ crushing all
Pushing you down
Pulling you down
Iæ¦ dragging you under
Your time is coming sooner than you will ever know
How does it feel to be so far below?
I know you never thought that I would rise again
I stand beside all that I am
Alive through all my fears
A drive inside me to succeed
Will that never dies
I'm spilling all my problems to you
I cry
You're deaf
So no one's hearing me at all
A weaker man would lose his faith
So many days without end
Undying need to take it all
Will that never dies
I've never turned my head to see
How it might have been
If I were weaker than my peers
I drown in fear north winds I hear,
Grey dawn greets me sorrow I see
Everywhere
The sand of time slow burn my mind
One life, one man to touch the hand
Of god
The end I feel these things aren't real
Too weak to stand I touch the hand
Under that smile, behind those eyes I see it all
Your words breed lies, you cry for sympathy
Sometimes the truth unleashes more than you can take
Lost world, lost hope, lost vision, killing you
Don't kill before it grows
Throughout this all, you've learned a lot from me still it grows
That weight you bear is destined to crush your everything
Through time through pain my yearning has never ever wanned
Don't be the slave
Don't let your weakness show
To build a mountain takes a long, long time
Use what you've learned like a catapult
And load the cannon when you need to fire
I know the way you feel
It's time to take the step
Don't walk away
Don't let your weakness show
It's such a journey to the promised land
When you arrive learn to take control
Gone six long years
It's been so hard without you
Deep in my head
I feel the way that you do
Never can I forget you're gone
Never can I forget you're gone
I've been so scared
But I have grown so far
You took your life
You made it all so hard
Never can I forget you're gone
Behind this fear new life awaits
In awe you stand to break the stone that's crushing you
You taste it now
I've seen you drown
Thru the ashes I've watched you burn
You hate that smell
You love the high that it brings to you
Now walk that line and learn the way to end it all
your backbone is shaking the pounding and aching are real
It drives you back down into the blackness
The cold ugly blackness you feel
Again and again
You can try me I won't break
Again and again
You can try me, you can't take
You were fucking my mind
As you drove me down
Fucking my mind
As you drove me down
I said stay with me
I said stay with me
But those are things you can't understand
Setting me free
Was the best thing you gave me
Setting me free
Was the best thing you gave me
You were fucking my mind
As you drove me down
Fucking my mind
The eyes of God are looking down
His tears, they flood the earth
Reality's an awful truth
As mankind self-destructs
The violent reaction
The ever-growin fear
The gravity it pulls us down
An unrelenting force
A lesson learned in ignorance
A wasteland of broken bones
The violent reaction
A mess of human debris
The loss of direction
The ever growing fear
The eyes of God are looking down
His tears, they flood the earth
Sometimes I need the fuel I drain from you
That lasting dose turns cold and blue
I've died before so many times
In time reborn, in time I'll find
That everlasting glow that blinds my view
My apathy turns thru and thru
This war inside has drained my will
Those things I've done were overkill
I've felt the pain of a brutal war
You gave me wings
And took the sky away
Clawing and fighting to live another day
You seduced me and took away my mind
But now I control you
I'm leaving scars behind
And through the darkness and knowledge I've gained
Will carry me
Building the mountain again and again
They watch over me...
I've heard the lie
And lived the misery
Now I'm accepting the man that I can be
It takes the magic
That only brings you down
Sooner or later we all give in and drown
And through all the darkness and knowledge I've gained
Will carry me
Building the mountain again and again
Alone in this fight I believe in myself
It carries me
Building the mountain again and again
They watch over me...
They watch over me...
A distant lonely night
I lie awake
I don't know where I am
Just know I'm safe
All that I love at home
So far away
Tomorrow brings new light
Another day
You hold me up in times of weakness
And in return I set you free
My heart I give to all of you
Now part of you belongs to me
And after all these years
This dream is real
I never lost my will
It's strength I feel
Don't ever lose desire
Or you will fade
I stand behind myself
And all I've made
You hold me up in times of weakness
And in return I set you free
My heart I give to all of you
Now part of you belongs to me
Fly on!
Fly on!
Fly on!
Now part of you belongs to me!
And through your eyes I look at you
I'm feeling what's inside of you
And every night you give me strength
Slowley drowning in my thoughts Of yOuu
You feel the mountain shaking
Your broken body aching
The suffering I give you
Is going to help you pull through
You'll never feel this way again
Just let it go and it will end
The thunder shakes your backbone
While hearing you're not alone
These things will make you stronger
Depressing you no longer!
You'll never feel this way again
Just let it go and it will end
Never let it bring you down
Stay strong til' the bitter end!
Take control and never drown
I'll never lose the scars you gave
No longer can I live in peace
I'll carry anguish to the grave
Frustration that I can't release
Self-Inflicted
Self-Inflicted
To see you smile it cuts me deep
Knowing that you're no longer here
I see you dying as I sleep
Wish I could leave it all:
Self-Inflicted
Self-Inflicted
All my pain is
All this pain is
Self-Inflicted
Broken dreams scattered pieces lay
Pulling the plug wash the life away
Underneath far into my soul
Grinding teeth throw the dirt into the hole
I walk into the light now into it
Eulogy left me feeling cold
Burning me burning mind explodes
Torn apart life drawn from my soul
Bury me throw the dirt into the hole
You lead me nowhere
You hide the truth
Destroyed by something real
Still you come to me
I'll carry all your pain
Believe in my words
They'll carry all your pain
My walls are coming down
Yours long ago
The threat of something real
I saw your future
Die in your hands
Glass full of liquid pain
Understand
Don't you buy everything
They try to sell you?
I've gone there again and again.
Find yourself gazing into the sun
New age of quarrel becoming one
Just know the light you see
Leads to eternity
I've gone there
Again and again
Just know the light
You see leads to eternity
Guardians of children
All sinners and saints
The walls of the temple are beckoning
Centuries of torment of unending pain
The cries of the tortured are deafening
At dawn all I hear are cries of pain
At dusk those inside the shrine will reign
Reign over you!
Conquering all
The chosen few
Dawn will awake
With hope for you
Warriors and cowards and all inbetween
The spirits of those are stuck on you
Live by the strong hand
And die by the weak
The savior protects us in all we do
At dawn all I hear are cries of pain
At dusk those inside the shrine will reign
Reign over you!
Conquering all
The chosen few
Dawn will awake
With hope for you
We bring new life
With strength and pride
Heroes were lost
Fall back to zero - come back to life
You can't hold me down (2x)
That light ahead has always shown the way
That voice above is why I'm here today
Take all my sorrow - leave all my love
You can't hold me down (2x)
That light ahead has always shown the way
That voice above is why I'm here today
A better life has grown from all the pain
War it's been a long time coming from the underground
Blood I've got to fuel my fire
With the strength I've found stay strong
Take in all I tell you do the things that I do
And pray to god you'll make it
'cause there is a hard world waiting for your crumbling
Blood you've got to sacrifice to end the suffering pray hard
I've been frozen
By all you said
Broken body and burning head
All I've known left me torn
Been reborn
You continue
To crush yourself
Weak and hungry you cry for help
Time is not healing your inner wounds
Growth by anger
Is not the rules.
All you've known gone away
Not reborn - never
I pray for you when I lay down
Fault back my tears without a sound
I hope you know just what you mean to me
You bring me light just like the sun
You give this light to everyone
Just realize how much you strengthen me
Innocence
Beauty and innocence
Make me whole
The ray of light
Fuck this dying world!
Fuck this dying world!
In times of need you set me free
Though miles away you're there for me
So wonderful
So wise beyond your years
Innocence
Beauty and innocence
Make me whole
The ray of light
Fuck this dying world!
I've just closed my eyes again
Climbed aboard the dream weaver train
Driver take away my worries of today
And leave tomorrow behind
Dream weaver, I believe you can get me through the night
Dream weaver, I believe we can reach the morning light
Fly me high through the starry skies
Maybe to an astral plane
Cross the highways of fantasy
Help me to forget today's pain
Dream weaver, I believe you can get me through the night
Dream weaver, I believe we can reach the morning light
Though the dawn may be coming soon
There still may be some time
Fly me away to the bright side of the moon
And meet me on the other side
Dream weaver, I believe you can get me through the night
Dream weaver, I believe we can reach the morning light
Releasing the hatred of enemies - lost friends
You give me a smile for some sympathy
I can’t hide it now
A tribute to man’s doubt in loyalty - it’s long gone
You talk about honor then spit on me
I won’t hold it
Cold, dead, sun I feel
Love for you is gone
The deep ugly scars that you’ve given me
- they won’t die -
The need to forgive is haunting me
Twisting All That Iæ¦ saying and doing
Abandonment
Burning even in pleasure
Iæ¦ burning
Melting away
Impact
Taking the impact
Look back
Take time to look back
Die in my own way
Conquering
In time Iæ¦ conquering
Growing
The urging and needing are growing
Rotting in me
Over
Itæ¯ happening over and over
I've felt lost before
I don't want you suffering anymore
But it can't feel right using day and night
And I hope that you'll soon find your way
The walls are closing in on you
Your world is coming down on you
Going down
Coming down
Now watch your whole world pass by you
How much time is left before you're not craving it anymore
Still the smell comes through - it's killing you
Three days of detox
I'm sweating and scared
My head's spinning out of control
It's draining my will
And it's leaving me weak
It's taking my body and soul
I'm all alone
Fighting to live
Taking my all
There's nothing to give
Please God take my hand
And lead me through the dark times
I'm weak I know
Lead me with a clear mind
Don't let me go!
I answer to my own lies
My weakness shows
Slowly my disease dies
Don't let me go!
I'm seeing the light
But it's distant and dim
At least it is bringing me hope
Created this world I am struggling in
At last I am learning to cope
I'm all alone
Dying to live
It's taking my all
There's nothing to give
Please God take my hand
And lead me through the dark times
I'm weak I know
Lead me with a clear mind
Don't let me go
I answer to my own lies
My weakness shows
Slowly my disease dies
Don't let me go!
I'm gonna pull through!
Cleanse me
Heal me
Cleanse me
Save me
Lead me through the dark times
I'm weak I know
Lead me with a clear mind
Cleanse me
Heal me
Cleanse me
Save me
Cleanse me
Your fear
Your weakened shallowed emptiness
All that is beckoning me
For years
Iæ³e seen your lack of everything
Pushing me far beyond you
To hold
In my hands all Iæ£l ever need
Turning the gears in my head
The sweating
Iæ£l have to deal with it now
The Strength
Iæ³e always known that I possess
Scratching and tearing at me
The pain
In knowing all youæ³e ever done
Turns into dust at my feet
Your end
The churning hallowed nothingness
Driving you into your grave
The sweating and bleeding
The growing and feeding
No more white line fever - no more counting change
Eternal slumber calling me
Awakening a bold new rage
Buried in the bottle - lost what I was thinking
A decade plus of hard abuse
A lonely man left weak and sinking
The truth won't always shine on you
Hapiness ain't money - happiness ain't greed
Have the strength to dig the hole
Crawl back from the dead
Set me free at last
Forevermore
Taste the freedom
Now I can be one
Spirit rising up
Into the clouds
Ride the winds of change (change, change, change)
Hands of death letting me go
I'm reinventing the man that you all thought was gone
Crawl back into life
Death grip on my soul forevermore
Taste the new life
Now I've become one
I am rising up into the sky
Ride the winds of change (change, change, change)
Hands of death letting me go
I'm reinventing the man that you all thought was gone
Ride the winds of change!
Hands of death letting me go!
The energy inside - the damage I can't hide
Got me by the throat as I become another slave
This angel's wings still growing from the cradle to the grave
An attitude exhumed
The poison I've consumed - an attitude exhumed
Carry me back to a place I once loved - nothing below me
It's all up above
Please take me back to the place that I love
Dirt underneath me but light up above
Destroy what's in your way and never lose love for yourself
Confess, throwing the lies away
I come clean
Hate myself for another day
I come clean
Bound and tied got to break through
Still I slave
Feel all that you can do for me
Still I crave
Letting it go
Promised myself
This time I've got to hold my head up
Down, sick, worn on my knees again
I let go
Hold me up watch my every move
Let me grow
Bound and tied got to break through
Still I slave
Feel all that you can do for me
Speak Not
Blind Eye
No Will
No Mind
In Time
Somehow
Someway
Youæ£l Find
I never thought you could sink so low
A slave to the dying
Turn Away
Turn Away
Breath
Below
Lace up your boots and we'll broom on down
To a knocked out shack on the edge of town
There's an eight beat combo that just won't quit
Keep walkin' 'til you see a blue light lit
Fall in there and we'll see some sights
At the house of blue lights
There's fryers and broilers and Detroit barbecue ribs
But the treat of the treats
Is when they serve you all those fine eight beats
You'll want to spend the rest of your brights
Down at the house, the house of blue lights
We'll have a time and we'll cut some rug
While we dig those tunes like they should be dug
It's a real home comin' for all the "Cats"
Just trilly down a path of welcome mats
Fall in there and we'll see some sights
At the house of blue lights
There's fryers and broilers and Detroit barbecue ribs
But the treat of the treats
Is when they serve you all those fine eight beats
You'll want to spend the rest of your brights
It's beautiful - so far beyond real
Colliding worlds - regaining my feel
Beneath myself - the answers I hold
My inner strength begins to unfold
Holding something
Never lose my grip
This war I've waged is far from through
For decades now it's all I can do
I've learned to live and how to survive
Holding nothing
Scratch the walls just to survive
You can't fathom what that's like
You can listen to you lies
In the end you'll do your time
Holding nothing
Staring at myself again
What I see would swallow you
In your eyes I'll always be nothing
Never did you understand
Never did you give respect
Never did you ever love
Never
I've been pushing so hard
I've been pushing so many years
Still that fire will always burn.
Count on me until I die
I command of myself
I believe in the things I'll do
You should know to trust in me
'cause the mirror won't lie
And to myself I'm always true
Look at me
Gone away my friend
Can't you see
Buried once again
Endless time
Reached the promised land
State of mind
Suffer by my hand
The end is still long, long way
Overdosed
On my own damn fears
Felt the most
Pain I've felt in years
Sacrificed
My own sanity
Burn by love I taste the memories
I lick my wounds with pride
Count my days and nights in misery
Fueled by this rage inside
I can't look back
Can't look back
Nothing you could ever say to me
Could drain this swollen mind
Driving nails into my hands and feet
You left me crucified
I can't look back
Burning hunger to rid you from my mind
You control me, the blind leading the blind
You are poison but you numb all my pain
Dying slowly, dying life that you drain
My blood is toxic and my veins burn for you
You are nothing but you're all that I do
Reign over you another day
Take all I can
Slave to me there's no other way
Break all I can
Come and taste me
Stay and praise me
Take all I can while I burn you down
Weak man
Weak mind
You know you never will be free
Come for you time after time and again
Crawl with me
Give me what I need from you
Don't question why
On your knees in front of me
Weak man
I gave my heart and soul to you my friend
You let me fall
If you could only see what's in my heart
You'd take my hand
I've lived this life as a man would do
Why's it so hard to find the truth?
My faith is strong within myself
I bleed of pride
Inside
I won't forgive
You can't take it back now
It's to hard to swallow
No words
No conviction
I've found the truth inside myself
But I am still doing time
Opened my eyes to what is real
This world is hard
It's cold
How long have I given all I've got?
Here I stand
My days and nights now are solitude
I struggle on
I've paid my price
All I had I gave
So much still lingers inside my head
I've lost it all
No trace of tolerance I can find
An empty heart
I've paid my price
All I had I gave
Sunken eyes
Look of death upon me
Feeling cold
Feeling tired and empty
Still I long
Can't find what I'm after
I can't sleep
Slowly die in my own world
Learn thru me
I've done it all before
Learn thru me
I've done it all
Feel the strain
Veins are lined with poison
Laid to waste
Eating away at my body and soul
So tired of all that youæ³e taken
Iæ³e always known that Iæ be on my own
Not knowing how hard Iæ fallen
In your arms
(Destroying all I ever wanted)
Now itæ¯ gone
(Losing all I ever needed)
Been so long
(Destroying all I ever wanted)
Itæ¯ all gone
(Youæ³e taken all I ever needed)
Believed in all Iæ ever known
Left me to die here on my own
You took it all and left me
You took it all and left me (nothing)
If I survive long enough to come back
I got a call to rule the underworld
That passion burns in me
I've got a gift and a commanding mind
My faith will set me free
Stand before me now
Take what I give and you will make it back
There ain't a law
There ain't a reson why
No man should feel that hurt
What's in your heart should be enough for you
Believe in what you're worth
Forget the past
Rorget the negative
Just crush what brings you down
Be merciless in your awakening
Accept the things you've found
Release that hold
Take all you've known
Release that hold
