DAY 5234
Kheu, Hyds June 11, 2022 Sat 11:24 AM
The night was disjointed , inclined to ignore the test of writing , to drive away into the confines of the self less , to be un enthusiastic , to avoid , to just allow the temperament to ride before , to feel compelled to be un compelled .. to just ..
SHUT UP .. !!! 🤐🤐🤐
But the morn has been alive .. drifting through the library of books behind me and randomly did pick one that has letters of Babuji collected and printed by them that have been able to gather several from several sources .. and for a while spent time in rushing through its pages , until after many that gave reason, sense, learnings , I found messages that gave reverence to Hanuman, just when I received images on my mobile of the deity , and quite by coincidence, came across this portion of a letter Babuji had written in response to a query by a letter writer ..
Apart from the religiosity of the matter and content, which really is not the intention - has never been on this platform - there were some aspects which were universal ..
The moments in his life when he was a non believer , an atheist , a nastik and then a change again ..
“Destiny has a brighter side to it as well .. religious belief is a gift of your upbringing your ‘ संस्कार ‘ sanskaar , the parental or generational up bringing .. it is difficult to get rid of it .. even when I was an atheist , I was a theist in some form or the other .. what we believe in, quite honestly, we ourselves do not know ..”
“Hanuman is the devta ‘देवता ‘ a divine presence , of will power .. nothing is impossible in the power of his will .. he is humble in front of God .. ‘मैं सेवक सचराचर’ .. mai sevak sacharachar .. I the server of the universe ( is the quote in his mention of him ) .. I believe in Hanuman .. on the Tuesday’s, the day of Hanuman, I do not eat , I fast .. in his ‘उपासना’ .. upasana , his worship his reverence , I believe I find strength and increased will power .. he is humble in front of God .. he sees the presence of the Almighty in ‘चर-अचर’ char-achar .. the moveable and the immoveable .. there is a very exalted sateek ‘सटीक’ description of him - Hanuman - in the Ram Charit Manas .. ‘रामचरितमानस’ .. ‘the lake of the good deeds of Ram’ “
(Ramayana was written by sage Valmiki in Treta Yuga in the Sanskrit language. Sage Valmiki was a contemporary of Lord Ram.
RamCharitManas was written by great Awadhi poet Goswami Tulsidas in Kaliyuga in Awadhi language. Tulsidas lived in the 15th century AD (1511–1623). The word Ramayana is made of two words — Ram and Aayanam (Story), thus the meaning of Ramayana is Ram’s story.
The word RamCharitManas is made of three words — Ram, Charita (good deeds) and Manas (lake), thus the meaning of RamCharitManas is Lake of good deeds of Ram.)
“In this World, for a struggling person like me , there is ever the need for will power .. and at the same time , humility ..really, how much there is to respect and praise the ‘मनीषा’ - thought , wisdom, intelligence .. of an Indian a Bharatiya .. he created or made the बानर ‘baanar’ , the animal monkey, a symbol, a प्रतीक prateek of will power .. his, the baanar , will power is the power strength that is ‘pashwik’ , पाशविक - pertaining to or characterising animals, bestial .. but he, Hanuman, was deputed in the service of Ram, Lord Ram ..”
“There was will power in Hitler and Gandhi too .. but Gandhi’s will power was designated, assigned for higher principles ..”
“Each one of us should choose our उपास्य upaasya .. that which is worthy of adoration, reverence , according to our nature .. perhaps our reverence bends towards it , on its own ..”
“I do not know why I found myself closer to Hanuman ..”
~ Harivansh Rai Bachchan
👣👣👣👣👣👣👣 .. 🙏🙏🙏 … 🚩🚩🚩
In the mode of rest and moderation ..
Amitabh Bachchan
DAY 5233
Hyds,K June 10, 2022 Fri 10:25 PM
Birthday - EF - Dharmesh Kumar Patel .. Chitra Sinha .. Saturday, June 11 .. and wishes for them to be safe and in wellness and in celebration of the day .. from the Ef ..
thoughts and books littered about .. the unable consequences of such .. neither the thought be known nor the book .. impressive all the same .. and then the conversation too lingers on to the deeds of them that care for others in a way that seems so honourable, just and with such clarity .. the worth of generosity had never moved away .. it remained glued and in the considered directional care of them that had presumed that the world of giving had been volcanoed in a tremendous sweep of the inevitable .. a disaster , a natural disaster of proportions beyond .. but it survived and gave birth to belief and the cause for it to bring the factor of faith in the billions that inhabit the universe ..
I wish to rest ..
I shall be in elaboration by the morrow ..
Amitabh Bachchan
DAY 5232
Hyds,Kehu June 9/10, 2022 Thu/Fri 2:42 AM
💜 ,
Ef Mahek Shukla from Gujarat .. happy birthday to you for June 9th .. remain safe and happy .. 🌸🙏🏻
work takes time and time takes your work in scores .. back now but never hesitant to deliver that which the Ef waits for each day .. a sincerity as rare as the next .. not accomplished to declare or speak on it under oath ..
music invades the very pores of the instruments that collectively surround you and pound you with the offensive of a different nature and state .. drives the cares and the apprehensions of the world into small screens of the notes under the baton of them that have the capacity to challenge the others in great respect, and divisive state of the Country ..
Campaigns that involve the making and thinking of the subject, are subjected to the most elaborate tests of research and discussion before they find their way to the domains that shall decide the outcome of the make ..
the littlest of detailing whether in shape size or form, does become the ultimate mode to persist with the creative surge, that has brought us to this pass .. and in all likelihood remain so, till the banner of hoisted independence flutters in the skies above our heads ..
.. but it takes time and hours of discussion .. in the end revealing, that there is a sense of inferiority among us .. about the presence of them that shall obey the Law and behave in the best manner possible .. or bring their complexities to such an extent that it may be too late eventually ..
they that divulge in this preordained practice of delivery , shall ever be loved to a state of ultimate attraction with that, which has been with you but without or vice versa ..
finally they succumb to the process that has been extended to the minds and talents of the common many, to respectfully accept and be in the thanksgiving of the efforts made ..
often that is overlooked and forgotten , for the cause of better presents with the heads of the client .. the client, the overall master of the domain it thrones over , atop the decorative seater , crafted to express the power of the beholder , and the incentive for the rest of the clan to work towards it .. if at all ..
and while the administration does take cause of the exercise , they that had delivered in their best capacity, have sat in the ante room .. at times disgusted with the wait .. or in time slept through it all .. mostly the latter ..
can a creative be reduced to suit , yes suit , the need of commerce .. did it start off first in the conditions of the written signed .. perhaps .. and that is what has provoked the ante room antics .. hah .. ante room antics .. lovely expression , but wait this is not the order of self aggrandisement .. it be the grinding to please they , that have from time and trust relied on the opinion of someone else ..
blasphemous ..
reliance on another .. and the dictate of the present .. surely that does not make sense .. or perhaps it does .. our or rather my myopic vision has destroyed all that contained reason and justification ..
in life that be the challenge .. the destruction of the vision that contains reason and justification .. never too far away , but never too close in its vicinity to access the strength of what I did or you did or whoever did the deed .. !!
my deed for the DAY just reached conclusion ..
Amitabh Bachchan
DAY 5231
Khu,Hyde June 9, 2022 Thu 8:21 AM
The human mind .. it has the brains of intense options .. it has the capacity to bring the vivid to an extreme unknown to all living being .. at times to the non as well .. its manufacture has been under grave study and research , words expressions in diverse languages and thoughts , that have ironically been built by the cerebrum itself in its generosity .. and has to date never been replicated .. never, because of its complexity .. among many other convolutions ..
and ..
the ultimate example of its undeserving complexity has been demonstrated last night on this DAY dated Blog ..
time and the vagaries of time , bring the state of the body , either in remission or the other extreme of heightened velocity .. a velocity that creates , imbibes , imports and exports a variety of modes , hidden within it and released at inopportune moments ..
last night was one such .. and I extend my deepest apologies for that ..
it is a most liberal extension of my selfish belief that the Ef has the tolerance to be able to digest what comes their way each night and still have the strength and the courage to be with the platform in continuance of following ..
I have no idea what the posts meant of the night of the yester .. and have not been able to decipher its meaningless bumpff ..
I am also, impertinent enough to - in all unwanted humility - take the allow to keep it as it is ..
who knows , down the line when the cerebrum has been robotically recreated and in discovery of meaning, some elements of the written shall be found to be explaining the gibberish that has come about ..
what really gives me the confident belief of this, is the fact, that something did come out .. it came out because it was functional, albeit in an cerebral retroflexed condition , devastated by some cells that provoked it , into the darkness of senseless thought ..
( .. and truly we are able to say so too, by the functionality of the very object we deride .. )
so ..
sorry and apologies again ..
and on to more pleasant thoughts .. though there are many that are unpleasant also ..
another friend was lost yesterday - Ali Peter John , an eminent journalist, a gentle mind , fair and sturdy in his often ‘yellowed’ profession , and one that respected the text of his expressions in his reporting .. his simplicity was adorable , and his manner sublime .. they do not make them like him any more .. my prayers and condolences .. for his soul in eternity ..
the other .. is the sudden spread of the virus in and about the region of our living .. the city and many cities have erupted with a resurgence and the acts of the past years are being asked to be in repeat ..
one prays for all to be well and safe .. and kept away from discomfort .. for there are many that are in repeat situations , surprisingly ..
but .. the cycle of work continues ..
and music , if not at Saptaswar is recreated here in fresh environs ..
the job is at hand and in the need for approval , and one hopes it does get its due , for, many that head the teams of acceptance are being asked to travel to us rather than us to them .. and that is generous ..
the tests shall be installed by the passing of noon , but we shall be in preparation even as this DAY is being reconstructed 😳 ..
the surroundings were filled with respect and reverence , something that embarrasses me .. but how to counter it .. when they 👣 .. I 👣 do it too .. they are respectful , and I am too , for their respect .. I am not other than them ..
the colour of our blood is red .. universal , omnipresent and all-embracing .. it is not different from any other .. then why the distinction ..
be one .. live one .. hold one .. respect one ..
… may there be more today in the meaning of the above .. and may your prayers for its acceptance prevail ..
love and may the Gods be with you all .. in reverence and in its deliverence !
Amitabh Bachchan
DAY 5230 … stirred on him with patience .. and dedication of many so, your time cometh and leaveth .. so help me God sitting on the pathway, and seeking guidance and encouraged courage to fight the excy emil bhln nachadram .. ( a decided recital of the classically randomised Ab
.. auu
wear it round it gets rough ….
Amitabh Bachchan , as has been seen ..
DAY 5229
Kyu, Hyd June 8/9, 2022 Wed/Thu 1:40 am
💜 ,
June 9 .. birthday .. Ef Naresh Bhatt .. Ef Ratna Mukherjee urf Mili .. Ef Dr. Sona Vikas .. and Ef RB Prajapati .. love and happiness .. 🌸🌸🌸
And to Ef Prasha Ganesh .. getting married tomorrow .. June 9th , 2022 .. all the blessings of joy , love , understanding , and togetherness .. from all your Ef .. 💐💕💍 .. thank you Ef Subash Vaid for the info .. 🙏🏻
options in the lives of today open the eyes of posterity .. one that delivers for the love of giving .. and in Nepal, the neighbouring land of accepted Hidden keys live of the Guru , in the belief that if longer could mean when it was given and when you returned .. then life is on ..
uff !! i lecture far too much ..
in the sleep of the morning night ..
Amitabh Bachchan
DAY 5228
Khur, dera June 7, 2022 Tue 11;13 PM
💜 ,
June 8th .. birthday of Ef Tejas Mankodi .. and Ef Rekha .. greetings and wishes of fulfilment and happiness .. love 🌸🌸
Wishes also to Atharv Rajgor on her birthday for the 7th ..
And to Bhavika Surana Bhuwalka , daughter of our lovely Smiley Poonam Ef .. for her birthday on the 7th as well .. all our affection and wishes from the Ef ..
Remain in safety and in life of joys and blessings .. love 🙏🏻🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸
The joys and the absolute nothingness of a day .. nothingness in its reality avataar .. no morning formalities except the brushes of poetic dispatches to them that be in desire of a company and gup shup !
gup shup .. गप शप .. unauthorised, undiluted , undulating vacant talk .. primarily in the rumour genre .. leading up to nothing .. and yes , the time to skip through the pages of immense value in the literary universe - BABUJI .. !!
each sentence, thought, fraught with the power of philosophic thinking and worldly-wise authority ..
they never do get their due do they .. the genius of art literature and thought !
a shame .. many , so many examples from the past , that have suffered ignominy and withdrawn attention .. a realisation coming upon them long after they have gone to a better place .. of respect and divinity ..
.. and I look upon the deeds of those that have managed the perfect projection of notice .. and their standing today ..
no more to be said or written on this .. for it shall get very inappropriate, infelicitous .. and not within the radius of grace culture and respectability ..
sometimes regard and such , do find space much beyond the expected .. in comparison to those that machine their way onto the front seats - of notice !
they that do find prominence in the expect of a deserve - from them themselves - often find they need to keep looking back to acknowledge them that are deserving and getting the better attention and accolades ..
“किसी function जाना तो , तो एक दम पिछली last सीट पे जाकर बैठना , last row पे ! क्यूँकि वहाँ से हटाए गए तो , आगे ही जाओगे ।”
If ever you go to a function, always sit on the last seat in the last row .. because if you are moved from their , you will always be moved ahead .. 🤣🤣
It often happens, does it not, that you arrive at an event and they put you in the first, front row .. until the bigger VIP arrives and they move you to go to a back seat , on the row behind ..
thats like a demotion ..
better to be in the last and moved up, than to be up in the first and moved back ..
the plucky loser in the boxing ring .. lost , but gives such a brilliant valiant fight, that he almost won against a superior and stronger opponent !
( you are talking to a plucky loser now , in the boxing ring at Sherwood )
No harm in being number 2 .. in any run up .. you are just 1 behind the top .. look where the others are .. !!!
the highest floor in a skyscraper trembles and moves the most in a storm .. the lower ones barely move .. firm steady resilient and in sturdy comfort ..
Lethargy shall find space and time, finally, by the morrow, when work begins not for what I be here, but for that which haunts when there is isolation .. music !
they come from Saptaswar to create .. to convince the agencies of marketing the results of not what they prescribed , but that which we prescribe to them ..
humbly ..
and the read of the pages that demand recognition coerce me to do a page at a time .. I did today .. pages .. for , once begun, is difficult to put down .. the clarity, honesty and the detailed memory of Volume 1 - ‘kya bhoolun kya yaad karun main ‘ .. क्या भूलूँ क्या याद करूँ मैं .. what to forget and what to remember .. the opening line of one of his poems .. forming the title of his auto biography ..
अमिताभ बच्चन : Amitabh Bachchan
DAY 5227
Hydskehur June 6, 2022 Mon 8:47 PM
💜 ,
June 7th .. .. birthday wishes to ..
.. Ef Aguilar Marie .. 💐
.. Ef Santonu Mukherjee from Kolkata .. 💐
.. Ef Ashesh Dave from USA .. 💐
.. Ef Jitendra Ashoke Jain from Kolkata .. 💐
Birthday EF - Aguilar Marie .. Ef Ashesh Dave .. Tuesday, June 7 .. and the wishes for the day .. happiness and prosperity and love of the Ef .. ❤️❤️❤️
It is true .. work is the essence of routine and regularity .. without it there is the uncertain horizon of debilitating uncertainty , leading to conditions that are not conducive to life and living ..
one considers the possibility of a break to energise the mind and body , but never has it been proven or discussed in the elements of its pertinence , whether it has actually in reality worked - pun unintended !!
I could be entirely wrong and misguided ..
but for me it has proven so ..
and one of the immediate results is the inability to punch down some buttons black in colour , to express the daily DAY ..
so GN
Amitabh Bachchan
DAY 5226
Hyd, Khnu June 5, 2022 Sun 11:49 PM
💜 ,
June 6 .. birthday .. Ef Serena Krishnan from Dubai .. Ef Sachin Kelkar from Muscat .. and Ef Marie .. love and wishes for care and safety ever from the Ef ..
.. and to Ef Vijji .. all wishes of affection and togetherness on the wedding anniversary for June 6th .. it’s the 35th anniversary , right ? .. love ..
🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸
.. there be some that count the days of the coming birthday .. it’s almost like the first day in boarding at Sherwood, when after spending a good three months at home for the holidays, we returned to School .. a bit morose and sorrowful .. for , the next term ending was going to be after 9 months !! .. and that was a long way away from home .. !!
yet there were some enterprising among us that felt that a cheerful start of the first day at School, should be with a scribble on the black board in the Class with :
‘hey , its 273 days to be home again ..’ 😳😳😳
and that was like a punch in the solar plexus .. 😩
… and I read a letter among the several that have been printed in the book
‘Bachchan .. in the reflection of his letters’
and surprisingly find this :
‘ ‘ the celebration of my birthday has ever put me in hesitation and doubt .. ‘
( na piddi na piddi ka shorba ) .. a very prominent phrase used to state the state of the person, being small, insignificant, of lesser value .. the piddi being a very small being .. and shorba is a liquidy eat made from this small piddi .. a soup or a stew ..
na piddi na piddi ka shorba - so small and insignificant a piddi, and the shorba of it almost negligible ..
neither a piddi , nor its stew
aaahhh ! it is so difficult to translate ..
(इसे सुनें .. भारतीय लोकसंस्कृति में यह शब्द मुहावरों में भी प्रयोग होता है। मसलन “क्या पिद्दी, क्या पिद्दी का शोरबा” का प्रयोग उस समय किया जाता है जब किसी तुच्छ या अर्थहीन बात के आधार पर आगे कोई बात करी जा रही हो। यानि जब पिद्दी स्वयं ही इतनी छोटी है तो उसका शोरबा तो बन ही नहीं सकता।)
its an adage, an idiom, or a phrase often used , when on the basis of an insignificant meaningless conversation , the attempt is being made to take further the conversation ..
the piddi itself is so small , so its stew or soup can obviously not be made .. so neither a piddi nor a piddi’s shorba !!
so Babuji has responded on the celebration of his birthday that .. na piddi, na piddi ka shorba .. I am myself a piddi, forget about the piddi stew .. an insignificant conversation or an attempt of a conversation - about his birthday !
‘But there is at least consolation, that I do have the control of not being present on such occasions ..’
I am in great appreciation of the courage of them that sit on their own anniversaries to readily accept the bouquets of flowers and greetings from their own devoted disciples !!! 🤣🤣🤣🤣😳😳😳😳🤪🤪🤪 .. O ! dear Lord ! show me the way to any other humiliating insult, but not this !! 🤣🤣🤣
on fate and destiny Babuji has replied to another :
your fate is perhaps the results of your karma - a persons good or bad actions .. niyati नियति , your fate your destiny is independent -स्वतंत्र swatantr , of your karma .. I have accepted that purusharth पुरुषार्थ -courage , in some form becomes your fate .. purusharth - courage , is to work within your abilities and boundaries .. the human has to confront his own destiny, fate, obligation .. in order to control affairs, your siddhant - सिद्धांत realised objective , your संस्कार your finishing - refining your upbringing - can be of help to you .. a final decision on them has perhaps never been given or taken by anyone ..
.. and the absolute joy of travelling wherever , with the company of Babuji’s books and works .. behind and close to my desk - a special request with the Hotel authorities to provide me with one .. the desk, not the books !!
dear o dear .. looked up to the clock to find it quivering at 3 am !
Looked up .. yes indeed .. a contraption gifted to me, knowing my idiosyncrasy about time .. a light that glows above my head or at a designated position, showing the time reflected on the wall of the ceiling … !!
Very rarely does one search for the time on ceilings and floors .. I do .. time must be seen in which ever direction my eyes go ..
and so the ceiling and the floor reflecting or encompassing a clock of time .. !!
Amitabh Bachchan
dear O dear ! there seem to be some serious problems with the Internet here .. posted the Blog last night .. err .. early this morning by around 3 am and just been reminded ‘no Blog’ .. so sorry .. 😳 .. here be it in its undiluted measurements ..🤣
ab
DAY 5225
Nur Htl, Hyd June 4, 2022 Sat 8:42 PM
💜 ,
June 5 .. birthday .. Ef Mayur Sejpal .. Ef Mandakini Patel from USA .. to you the greetings and the wishes for manifestation of everything that you desire to manifest .. love .. 🌸🌸✨
Birthday - EF - Mayur Sejpal .. Mandakini Patel USA .. Sunday, June 5 .. and the wishes for the birthday Ef’s with love understanding and care .. 🌹 ❤️
the desire for the aloof and the need for the solitude , often breaks barriers that perhaps never existed .. care not for what did or did not .. care for the present in the state of the desire .. honour , welcome it , bring it to fructified utility in what has been minded by the mind for long .. to relive the range and the legacy ..
so shall it be ..
‘A mirror to the letters of Bachchan’ .. . another book has been published .. by the son of another dear friend of Babuji, where all the correspondence in letters has been compiled by him ..
Babuji was a great letter writer .. he hand wrote all the replies to the mail he got and would personally walk to the nearest post box to post them .. hundreds of letters were written on this card sized letter post cards .. and delivered to the red coloured Post Box - such a romantic emblem of my times - to make sure they went ..
this was an activity of his during his early morning walk .. and fortunately or coincidentally, the Post Box was inevitably within a couple of yards from our place wherever we lived
many a times when I had the privilege to accompany him on his walks, he would pause in front of the Post Box , and peer inside the drum like vessel that stored the mail, from the opening where letters used to be pushed it, to check if the letters were still inside or taken away for delivery .. !!!
this then below is an extract from one of the responses he wrote to a friend who had perhaps forwarded or told him about someone who had taken umbrage to his work ‘Madhushala’, by saying that it invoked alcoholism ..
.. of course the translate shall not only be difficult, but will have the capacity to loose the essence of his response in the language it has been delivered ..
the first page or the first picture of the copy of the letter from the book, says that :
“the struggle of an individual is an aspect of the struggle of the generational age .. I do not give an opinion of my works “ … “ if you shall look at the generational age a little more comprehensively, perhaps you shall find a place for ‘Nisha Nimantran’ ( Invitation of the Night )- another title of his works, subtle emotional romantic in nature - a sarcastic counter to the writer of the criticism of Madhushala - “ whatever I have been able to assimilate towards social awareness in my own, has perhaps been reflected in Madhushala ..”
“ my time is limited, I have time constraints .. should I devote it to idiotic fools or put it to creative use ..”
“ I await your opinion or reaction to another work of mine .. ‘Dhaar ke idhar Udhar’ (On either side of the flow of the Stream) .. - another rejoinder I am assuming, reeking of garlic in every pore - stinking in sarcasm .. !
‘these days I am busy translating Othello in Hindi , (in the same graph and tenor of the Bard) and am writing my poems in blank verse which are getting serialised and printed in the ‘Aajkal’ , magazine - perhaps guiding the letter writer to his other works so the ‘fool’ gets access to Babuji’s other works as well, and not limited to the ones he assumes is ‘selling alcoholism’ !!
the author of the collection of his letters writes in the
PS : that Madhushala, as one that was propagating alcoholism, has had many criticisms, why don’t you respond to them .. to which Babuji has replied in the letter to him saying .. ‘my time is limited , do I respond to idiotic fools or give my time to work on some creativity ‘
And when you read this , you wonder how ‘then’ it was in the similarity of the ‘now’ .. how the situations never changed, merely multiplied and gave rise to the defeated egos .. of many ..
generational gaps shall change , get filled up and be different - but generational aspects, headed by the elders of the family shall never change -
do I waste my time on fools or get going on my creativity ..
Amitabh Bachchan