this is a community like r/AmITheAsshole except unlike that subreddit here you can post interpersonal conflicts, anything that's AITA but is not allowed there even posting about Scar from the lion king and trying to convince redditors that he was not the AH. rules: don't berate others and no pornography we have children here
First update -
This one is quick and for the people who wanted me to verify that I am okay <3
I genuinely don’t know what to say about the amount of support I got. Thank you so so so very much.
August 7th I posted my update, and I mentioned having Braxton hicks for the first time. I was urged to go to the hospital. I originally wasn’t going to but thank goodness that I did because by the time I walked in the door, I was bleeding so heavily it was down my legs.
Turns out I had a placental abruption. August 7th at 10:37 PM, my daughter was born via emergency c section. She is now only less than a old as I post this but I am being forced to deal with an attorney and all of this already.
She was only 33 weeks and 5 days when she was born. She is tiny, but still doing relatively well so they tell me. She is in the NICU now and I am in the hospital still as well. I have received lots of care and while it is all scary and hard, seeing my daughter makes it better. I’m fine, I will be fine, and so will she. The nurses here are amazing and the doctor told me as long as everything goes well, I get to take my daughter home in just a few weeks <3
As for my situation, my SIL came shortly after my daughter was born and she’s been by my side all day and very supportive. The attorney advised us to allow my husband visitation with my daughter while she is still in the NICU, so I did. I do not have a concern of him hurting our daughter while in the hospital or anything like that. I have received lots of supportive messages from his coworkers and his side of the family so I am sure he is spinning the story that we are together and everything is fine. He is trying to act like that too.
He’s seen our daughter several times today and I think that he was in the hospital with me during the c section but I am honestly not sure. He came up to my room this morning while the nurses were helping me take that first walk after the c section. I was just emotional enough to let him in. I have to be honest and say it wasn’t easy to try and hate him after all of this. I still let him comfort me and I still cried to him. But at the end when he said “you wouldn’t have had to do this alone if you weren’t acting that way” and grabbed my face to make me kiss him, it reminded me of why exactly I am doing this.
So yeah, I am not so sure what I am going to do. Originally I really wanted to have my daughter in my home state so that I could stay there with her and my SIL and brother but I highly doubt my husband will allow me to take her there. My attorney says I have options (and the options are heavily in my favor, as I did what you all suggested and got the medical records of the rapes, including the one I posted about and two more I went to the hospital for over the years, as well as in writing my dr saying that my placental abruption was likely caused by trauma and stress) for custody and stuff like that but likely only here where we currently live.
Honestly, that’s okay. Being able to briefly hold my baby and seeing her and loving her so much has replaced much else in my mind. I want to be safe but I want her safe most of all. I won’t do anything to put her in the situation I was in. She is only 16 hours old and she is all I think about, and will ever think about for the rest of my life.
I probably won’t update again (as I am hoping they will let me spend more time with my daughter soon) but I just wanted to say that this whole post literally changed my life, and I cannot say thank you enough. If anyone else finds themselves in this sort of situation, I wanna say do not be scared to speak up. And if anyone has survived it, you’re so brave. Thank you <3