A place to get personal things off your chest. Not for opinions, not for relationship advice, and not for preaching.
I was hysterical but now I'm pissed. I've been married to my husband for 4 years and we've been together for 9. I had a baby last year and "let myself go" according to him because I couldn't lose the baby weight. I couldn't find time for myself between caring for our baby, caring for him, cleaning, cooking, and going back to work after maternity leave. He hasn't been attracted to me since and refuses to even touch me most days. I know his type is fit blondes and I was just that until, well, our son. He was perfect until I got fat.
My husband is out cheating on me as I'm writing this. He's out with his "work wife". He asked me if I would be angry if he cheated on me out of nowhere months ago before bed and when I obviously said yes he got an attitude and was angry with me. I was suspicious ever since he asked me that stupid question and today I finally got my answer. He's cheating and who knows for how long. I saw him get into his co worker's car and kiss her right in our driveway before they left. I let him call me crazy for months and drove myself insane trying to figure out if he was cheating on me or not. "It was just a stupid question, you're being dramatic" was his favorite thing to say to me. I stupidly let it go every single time because post partum is hard and I just wanted to be a good wife and mom for our baby.
Congratulations to me for being the world's biggest idiot dating the world's biggest catch. I can't wait for him to come home and lie to my face. I'm happy to know that I'm married to a man who lied to me daily about loving me no matter what. Clearly, I'm unlovable if I'm fat, even if it was from giving birth to his child and picking up after him. I hope his work wife is worth the divorce costs.