I dunno how this works on reddit but I wanted to thank all the people who gave meaningfull insight on the situation and good advice on moving on and on why I made the right call

As you could probably guess english is not my first language (overused excuse I know) and i am rusty as hell so please forgive the grammatical errors.

Also I guess I just needed to vent. I know reddit aint the best of therapists but I love my friends and they are the best at many things but I know they fucking suck at talking feelings and stuff like this and my family isnt very availaible either.

I guess I didnt realize just how crazy the whole situation was. And believe me, if you told me we would break up over this grays anatomy looking ass bullshit I would have laughed at your face but here I am. With my heart broken because she meant the world to me

A part of me really did felt like an asshole and that I maybe jumped the gun by breaking up and didnt made the effort to try and make things work again. But that part is gone or at least is in the process of doing so

Thank you all for the responses and it will really help to move on to better things in my life