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GRAVITY CANT HOLD US DOWN

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donnie, she/her, adult
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sometimes i remember gillion, despite being considered the party’s tank, in actuality has barely any more health than jay does and the reason he’s considered the “tank� is less bc he has more health than the rest and more bc he shoves himself in the way between everyone else and his friends to protect them and i

now I could be remembering this wrong. So forgive me if I am but.

every now and then I remember there was literally a brief period of time where jay actually had More health than Gil did. ​and when it was made apparent in a rolled bizly and condi could barely believe it (and holy fuck neither could I) bc they swore down that gillion took so much damage, surely more than that HP would allow, that in both their (and presumably their characters minds) Gillion was a tank, a health shield, extremely strong/difficult to down. Because that’s how he was so consistently and confidently behaving (and definitely how charlie was playing him).

And Charlie Slimecicle (that motherfucker) just chuckled like, nah. i only act like i still have lots of health to spare. majority of the time gillion’s kicking about under 10 HP in battle. the point is to take as many hits for you guys as possible. and hopefully make the enemy believe I’m the biggest threat/the strongest so they’ll leave chip and jay alone. He also went on to point out that (especially compared to the other two) gillion does go down a lot in combat through out the campaign. it’s just never usually much of a big deal bc jay has her healing too (and once back up gillion is adept at functioning very efficiently in battle at extremely low health—)

They genuinely couldn’t believe he had so little health. Neither could I.

I know from more recent rolled’s that his HP has definitely gone way up since and is now significantly more than Jay’s (so he can be an even better meat shield I’m sure) but I don’t think I’ll ever emotionally recover from the fact that. that gillion was just SO gung-ho and self sacrificingly reckless that he had everyone CONVINCED that he had a huge health bar when truthfully he spent most of the time always on extremely low HP and just never ever let it show, always acted like he could take another blow, another twenty, without any apparent fear at all. even when he was truthfully always one bad roll from going down. and none of the other characters ever even thought about telling him to stop shoving himself in front of them every single battle, never told him to stop taking every hit he could for them, nor admonish him for always getting the big bad to target him— because just from the way he acted alone, they’d assumed he was so much stronger than he actually was. He acted like he could take it, so they all believed he could.

And I imagine that’s exactly how Gillion wanted it.

It absolutely takes years of training to master fighting confidently even when on the brink of collapse, swinging your sword with precision even through unbelievable amounts of pain. So confidently and so convincingly not even your closest allies — your friends, your family — can tell you’re hurt. And I imagine it also takes years of a very different yet very similar type of training to come to believe that all you are is what you’re worth, and that all you’re worth is what you can give. And that it’s his duty to give and sacrifice and give and bleed and give and give and give until everything he has in him is gone and even then to keep giving more that you don’t have but somehow give anyway.

It would take years of training to make someone believe it was their duty to give until their body gave out.

But if there’s nothing else we know about Gillion goddamn Tidestrider, we can be sure of one fucking thing;

He’s had a lifetime of training already.