Currently watching Parks and Rec Season 6 and di ko expect na bigla akong maiiyak at magkakaron ng realization sa line ni Aubrey Plaza sa first episode 30:31 minute mark. Simpleng "I believe in you" lang. Pero sobrang tagos sakin.

Minomotivate nya yung asawa nya na si Andy (Chris Pratt) to take a job na medyo big for Andy at yun yung sinabi nya. I believe in you. Sa show, si Andy yung pinakagoofy and most of the time wala kang maeexpect na serious sa kanya. Kaya siguro ang strong nung line para sakin.

Siguro gusto ko din na may maniwala sakin ng ganun. Na kaya ko. Kase even ako sa sarili ko hindi ko kaya pagkatiwalaan. I doubt my actions everytime. Pero lagi pa din ako nagkakamali.

Yung mga parents ko naman at family ineexpress naman yung support nila sakin. But you know, alam mong gagawin nila yun no matter what. Parang natural programming ng pamilya yun.

Sometime ago may isang tao din na naniwala sakin ng totoo. Sobrang grabeng suporta at pag intindi. Despite my flaws and past mistakes. And I still ended up ruining that. Biggest wake up call sa buhay ko kase ngayon, I miss that trust and belief. I would do anything to feel that again pero alam kong wala ng words, sorry, or promise na magpapabalik that ng 100%. I really want to pick myself up and find motivation but nothimg seems to work these days. I lost my April Ludgate.