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How Do You Forgive Yourself For Evil Things You've Said Or Done To Others In The Past?
Consider the person you were when you did those things and consider the person you are now. I hurt people when I was younger, but that was an entirely different person than who I am today. That person was hurting and was in a place where they wanted to lash out. It's understandable and relatable, but that doesn't mean it was OK. People lash out and harm others when they are hurting themselves. I don't want to remove responsibility, but I do want to say that if you are NOT the same person you were then, then you absolutely took responsibility and grew into a more caring and less harmful person. Forgiving the old you, the one that hurt people, is just reminding yourself that you've changed and reminding yourself that you still remember that part of yourself so that you will not become that again. Forgiveness is not about saying "what I did was OK", it's about saying "I have grown to become someone who would not do those things anymore".
There really isn't any other option than to forgive yourself. Think about it. If you don't forgive yourself then you're not accomplishing anything. You're not growing by dwelling on the past, you're not being a better person by ruminating on the bad things you did. All you're doing is causing yourself pain. You will never change what happened by continuing to hurt yourself over it, and you're not going to suddenly become a better person just because you're hurting yourself. Hopefully you've learned your lesson and you've already grown. Continuing to let those memories harm you today, if you have grown, is just preventing you from being happy and thus preventing you from sharing your happiness with others. It's in everyone's best interest that you learn from your mistakes, grow from them, and then move on (which does not mean forgetting them, it just means not letting yourself suffer).
I think people tend to act strangely about the word forgiveness. They act as if forgiveness means entirely forgetting that something happened. That's not what forgiveness is. Forgiveness is not letting past behaviors inform your current behaviors. Forgiving someone else who hurt you means giving them the opportunity to hurt you again, expecting that they wont. Likewise, forgiving yourself means trusting that you are no longer the person who will do those harmful things. It NEVER means forgetting that they happened. It just means that you trust that they wont happen again.
So no.. you can't change the past, but whoever you were in the past is not who you are now, so my best advice is to acknowledge that these are two distinct people and stop holding one accountable for the actions of the other. If you've learned nothing from your past.. and you are still repeating the same behavior.. well, that's a different story. That doesn't sound like the case here though.