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You can forgive some people without welcoming them back into your life.
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DISCUSSION
So I guess quick background, I used to be a morbidly obese alcoholic, over the last 2 years I’ve worked really hard to lose weight, and also drop alcohol (have had some stumbles but I’m doing really well and currently have 6 months of sobriety)
So now that im objectively a better person, I find myself now more than ever like really nitpicking at my imperfections, hell it’s not nitpicking I have a lot of faults with me still, but it’s like to a unhealthy degree I’m browsing social media, and I just see somebody with a crazy physique, or someone that’s making millions of dollars and find myself to be inadequate and just feeling despair.
It also extends to like dating and speaking to women because I just think why would they even speak to me they’d rather speak to the guy with a 6 pack or the millionaire, and I know, that is such a disservice and honestly pretty insulting to women to reduce them to such simple minded beings, but that’s what my mind just does.
I really want to stop doing this, and be comfortable with who I am, I try to limit my social media use (hell Reddit is social media) but I still find myself to be inadequate.
