TW- sexual content and bodily fluids?

So this happened two nights ago and I’ve been wanting to die of embarrassment ever since then.

So basically bf woke me in the middle of the night/morning for sex. It was probably like 4 am and idk if anyone else has experienced this but my gag reflex is so much worse in the morning.

You can probably see where this is headed.

He starts guiding my head there and I didn’t really want to but he was pretty adamant on it. I eventually gave in. As I’m… doing my thing down there, he’s pushing my head a lot, a thrusting into my mouth. I told him to stop but he didn’t, and one ill timed head push made me vomit. All over him. And his peen. And the bed. I immediately started to sob because that’s so fucking embarrassing and I was just overwhelmed. I have no idea why that happened, I’ve never even felt like I was gonna vomit before. I didn’t have a chance to stop. I felt horrible and immediately apologized, to which he responded by pushing me away from him.

He was so mad which I kinda understand, getting vomited on was not his ideal situation but he did absolutely nothing to make me feel better. I was in the bathroom for like 20 mins debating if I was gonna die of embarrassment or not. Again idk how this happened and I felt so horrible.

When I came back to bed he had cleaned up in the other bathroom and just went back to bed without saying anything. I cried for a bit again and the next morning he told me was really disgusted still. I said yeah, me too and apologized again for whatever that was. He rolled his eyes and now has been reminding me how disgusting it was. But I’ve already apologized for it, and I feel like he’s just doing too much as this point. I told him to leave me alone about it and he told me I was being an asshole about the whole situation.

Am I really? I’ve apologized so many times like idk what else he wants from me. AITAH?