DISCUSSION
When I was in school, I was an obedient kid. I studied hard, did well in school, and got praised a lot. That boosted my ego.
I graduated from university six months ago with a business degree that I didn't choose. Suddenly, the thing that validates me - score - doesn't exist anymore. I've been unemployed since then. I don't like to apply for any jobs. I just feel very lazy. I heard the whole concept of following your dream. Well, I don't know what my dream is. I don't even have the motivation to prepare for job interviews or to act interested in getting a job.
I don't want to fall into the rabbit hole of getting a job and hate it day after day.
Does passion really exist? I mean, for the majority? What should I do to move forward without feeling like I'm torturing myself?
Edit: Huge THANKS to everybody who replied to my post. I read them all and you guys were really awesome. I realized my problem was that I didn't (have the courage to) take the initiative, and that passion does not necessarily need to match your job. Now I will go out there and take action!
STORY
I've recently been battling an addiction to video games and analysis paralysis where I've been mostly sitting around doing nothing. Then this story happened:
My friend spotted a Mom reading my book to kids at the park and he sent me a text to let me know.
I felt this was an opportunity I couldn't pass up. I asked him to let her know that I was coming out there and I ran over.
When I came over one of the little girls started absolutely beaming and charged at me to give me a big hug. Her Mom was telling me how much that little girl loved the book and that it was her daughter.
The other kids seemed to have enjoyed the book as well and had big beaming smiles.
I had a really nice interaction with the Mom and it sounds like she is going to come to my future events!
She said a lot of nice things about the book and I wish I could remember them all but it was such an incredible experience that it was a bit overwhelming!
Perhaps the cutest part was that the little girl after charging me became a bit shy, but the beaming smile never left her face.
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This story showed me that I don't need to do anything special to help people, but just being out in the world is powerful enough. And the feeling and meaning I got from that experience was so much better than anything I've gotten from a video game that now I have no desire to play.
Do you ever struggle with "doing" vs "being"? I do a lot. And I realized that even if I had tried, I could have never dreamed up such a wonderful story as what I posted above.
So The big lesson I learned what just show up. Just get out there. Don't worry about what you create and how you help people because just being out there is what is important. And if you are addicted to something like video games you're hurting everyone. The most important thing is to just show up and you don't need to have any expectations.