Okay so this was earlier this year and I had self esteem issues and whenever I would see someone talk about fast metabolism or see a skinny person I would genuinely get angry
I would be like "damn that guy needs to eat more" basically skinny shaming
This was when I was still doing a diet and trying to lose weight. Eventually I would lose it but I still would be dissatisfied with my body, and I had body dysmorphia and depression for like a month. And I was actively participating in weight loss/eating disorder communities. I had to completely stop watching food videos and only participated in weight loss communities
I absolutely hated when skinny people complained that building muscle is hard. I would spew hatred and vitriol against them one time. I also had this weird victim complex where I was praying on the downfall of people with fast metabolism and telling them that they're gonna get fat eventually and it'll catch up to them. I was literally trying to get below the recommended weight
I was in the worst mental state of my life. I literally cried myself to sleep one night because I didn't lose the weekly amount of weight I was "supposed to" and then I binge ate for a few days, then a few months later I got a little bit better mentally. My biggest problem was cutting calories far, far too low. Then around a month or two ago I stopped caring about all this diet shit and body shaming etc and I can say my self worth has improved a ton since last year and my mental health is back to normal
I literally never get mad about body or weight topics anymore. I just accept that that's how other people's bodies work and that's how their diet is.
If there's any take away from this story it would be to just not go too extreme with self emprovement. It will take you down a path full of exhaustion and burnout.
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