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I don’t think he made it…I’m not into the horror/gore movies like I used to be, with the exception of Brain Dead which transcends genre. There’s enough horror and gore in the real world.
Being bummed out is no bueno, it really isn’t…it’s a hole, a deep dark hole, so deep there is no light. I made two promises to my boy…no suicide and no going back to the bottle….damn….hahahah. I know that shits not funny, but who the fuck cares, what’s so funny anyway about life anyway? It’s more pathetic than anything. I’m turning in to a sober Bukowski…
Is love something you decide to do, like turning off and on a light switch or is it something unavoidable and permanent like a big fucking rock…hahahahha…you gotta haul that shit around with you the rest of your life and then they’re dead or just gone?
In a manic moment, they’re more frequent now, I have changed my mind and decided to carry on…borrowing from my old pal, Bill W., taking it one post at a time. There’s nobody here, just me at the moment as I’ve hit the old private button (that I didn’t know existed). Perfect timing anyway because there’s been no visitors today. It’d just be PR motherfuckers wanting a review. I mean I have an eclectic musical taste (much more so than most folks), and I want to like the music I listen to, but damn, fuck optimism, some music just plain sucks. Yeah that hasn’t been my stand for the last 14 fucking years, but I have been proven wrong (definitely won’t be the last time) and have been officially poisoned. Long story short, with all that said, the composition below is sheer perfection…at this and any other moment.
What do you think…fuck the lot of you?
Mustard asks himself, “what next?” So what do you do dude? Post a shit song dedicated to a shit world…excellent tune but too fucking short…it’s one of those ones you want to roll around and wallow in for a bit…
Having this thing right now where I don’t trust anyone. It’s a weird feeling that…lonely. What better song to go with that vibe than this one, from my personal collection, later featured on the phenomenal 4AD comp, Lonely Is An Eyesore…
This next one is also from said comp…someone called it goth rock…I can’t believe how angry that just made me…fucking goth rock??? This is an angel sending me a message…sending us all a message. I don’t know what the fuck that message is but it’s important. Maybe it’s just a vibe…all I know is I have played it 10 times in a row now and I just can’t seem to get the piece of shit stereo to play it loud enough…perhaps in the next life I will get the stereo system a music lover deserves.
I think that when baby Jesus decides it’s time for me to go I’m hoping for something way the fuck out there like spontaneous combustion. Is that a real thing? According to Wikipedia, “Spontaneous human combustion (SHC) is the pseudoscientific concept of the combustion of a living (or recently deceased) human body without an apparent external source of ignition.”
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I turned my Mom onto the album below but she hated it.
The water running out of the filter pump on the aquarium sounds like someone talking to me. It could be the lone male betta in my 20 gallon tank. Be free my friend, no more 8oz cup home for you pal.
I wish I had a masculine intuition…handy for those quandaries that make your mind wander. I love the hilarity of these old lip synced vids, these guys were hot though!
For a friend I’ve been thinking about…
Picture I took a while back…
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The sprawling metropolis of Bogue off in the distance…the white grain elevator in the middle and the black water tower to the left…there’s not much in between. I lived on the outskirts of town for several years, shared a turn of the century house with multitudes of mice…it’s a wonder I never got the plague
You ever get a really bad feeling…you know, impending doom…having that all the time is hopelessness..
We’re all mad we’re all insane/we’ve only got half a brain
(AAAAAAAHHHHHH!!!) Rampton!
Said I wasn’t very well/now I’ve got this padded cell
(AAAAAAAHHHHHH!!!) Rampton!
Doctor said I was very ill/gave me pretty coloured pills
(AAAAAAAAHHHHHHH!!!) Rampton!…
Thanx to lupatica and Edhead 101, for joining the fold. This has just been sort of a journaling of what’s gone through me head and ears in the past several days…nothing life threatening just some disdain that needed to be documented.