Monday 5 March 2012
So had another fucked up dream last night... from what i remember there was a big house, levels, people like ghosts freaking me out and all kinds of weird stuff. I remember having two younger sisters, which i don't have, one about 4-5ish and the other around 1-2 years. For some reason we all had weird watches that started buzzing and tightening. I removed the watches from all of us and ran outside the room yelling "whats going on??" up the stairs. i think i said that aloud cause my poor boy woke me up. it was just like a weird horror movie... I don't think that oil stuff is working... i'm still dreaming. I think once we get back from the honeymoon need to do the counseling thing... maybe not. who knows. Might not dream so much once its all over :P
Sunday 26 February 2012
Wedding planning!
Well, 19 days to go. Just the little nit bits now to do. Problem is with having a wedding thats 4.5 hours away from home is I have to be super organised. Lucky i am :P
Dress is being picked up on Thursday, quite excited. Its pretty simple, very me like. which is always good. Sometimes i feel that I look good in something, then i see myself in a photo and I hate how i look. I really hope this doesn't happen for the wedding, considering that i'm paying $1300 for them. But they are professional rather than normal shot ones, so should be better... I hope LOL.
I've put all the table decorations into little bags for each of the bowls... and labeled them etc. Its pretty sad. But since other people will be doing them for me (as i'm getting my nails done that day lol) I need to be organised.
Hmmmm hungry... like really hungry. Need food :)
Dress is being picked up on Thursday, quite excited. Its pretty simple, very me like. which is always good. Sometimes i feel that I look good in something, then i see myself in a photo and I hate how i look. I really hope this doesn't happen for the wedding, considering that i'm paying $1300 for them. But they are professional rather than normal shot ones, so should be better... I hope LOL.
I've put all the table decorations into little bags for each of the bowls... and labeled them etc. Its pretty sad. But since other people will be doing them for me (as i'm getting my nails done that day lol) I need to be organised.
Hmmmm hungry... like really hungry. Need food :)
Never get friends to do anything....
Friends. I've got some absolutely wonderful friends. These wonderful friends would do almost anything for me. Unfortunately I've found relying on friends to do things (even when they've begged you to help out) ends up with more stress for me, or having to do it myself.
Last year, other half had his tax done by a friend, and only got done just before the 31st Oct cut-off. As of this point we're still waiting for his tax refund, because something went wrong when she submitted them, and then she went overseas. She's been back for almost 2 months now, and everytime she says its being sorted, or says she'll call him, she doesn't. Apparently he should be getting it back next week. Kinda would be handy for the wedding.
The major thing that got me was one of other half's uni friend, who is obsessed with weddings. I dread her wedding, her poor boyfriend. Anyway, she "had to do the invitations" and I'm not creative at all, so was like, okay. This was organised in october. Even did the writing etc for her to print. Anyway,, oct goes, she's having uni exams and say it will be sorted soon. Then she goes on holidays for a week. Then she gets an extra job. I see her end of november, ask for it to be done soon, as I wanted them for xmas (so could give to family in person), so she finally made a mockup, after i had to type out all the invitation wording to print. Then she got a bit sick, and asked for an extra week. I said yep as long as its by xmas. Week before xmas, i message her and ask if i can pick them up that weekend. No, they're not done. So i organise to get them on wednesday. I take other half with me, and she's quickly giving me a bag, and lets me know she hasn't done 1/3 of them, but its all in there to do ourselves, and shoves us out. I was sooooooo angry. Both of us sat there that night, and put together the rest of them ourselves. Argh!!!
Even to the point of I can't trust them to turn up to something organised for them. I had my Hens party last night. Was supposed to be drinking, dancing, night out. I was home by 11:30, and people who had said that day that they would see me that night, didn't show. Not taking away from those that showed up... its just we're getting old and people want to go home. To be fair out of my group of friends i'm one of the last to get married. But I had told many people where and when i'll be out, and they said, yep i'll be there. And they're not. Its sad :(
I just feel that I can't rely on anyone, and so this makes me sad :( But also makes me stressed because I feel that I can't let anyone help me...
Last year, other half had his tax done by a friend, and only got done just before the 31st Oct cut-off. As of this point we're still waiting for his tax refund, because something went wrong when she submitted them, and then she went overseas. She's been back for almost 2 months now, and everytime she says its being sorted, or says she'll call him, she doesn't. Apparently he should be getting it back next week. Kinda would be handy for the wedding.
The major thing that got me was one of other half's uni friend, who is obsessed with weddings. I dread her wedding, her poor boyfriend. Anyway, she "had to do the invitations" and I'm not creative at all, so was like, okay. This was organised in october. Even did the writing etc for her to print. Anyway,, oct goes, she's having uni exams and say it will be sorted soon. Then she goes on holidays for a week. Then she gets an extra job. I see her end of november, ask for it to be done soon, as I wanted them for xmas (so could give to family in person), so she finally made a mockup, after i had to type out all the invitation wording to print. Then she got a bit sick, and asked for an extra week. I said yep as long as its by xmas. Week before xmas, i message her and ask if i can pick them up that weekend. No, they're not done. So i organise to get them on wednesday. I take other half with me, and she's quickly giving me a bag, and lets me know she hasn't done 1/3 of them, but its all in there to do ourselves, and shoves us out. I was sooooooo angry. Both of us sat there that night, and put together the rest of them ourselves. Argh!!!
Even to the point of I can't trust them to turn up to something organised for them. I had my Hens party last night. Was supposed to be drinking, dancing, night out. I was home by 11:30, and people who had said that day that they would see me that night, didn't show. Not taking away from those that showed up... its just we're getting old and people want to go home. To be fair out of my group of friends i'm one of the last to get married. But I had told many people where and when i'll be out, and they said, yep i'll be there. And they're not. Its sad :(
I just feel that I can't rely on anyone, and so this makes me sad :( But also makes me stressed because I feel that I can't let anyone help me...
Dreams and Wedding Rant
Its been a while since I wrote in a blog... But my dreams are weird, and they need recording apparently. Easier to type than it is to write it up in a book.
20 days until I get married. I know. I'm doing something totally grown up, and although i'm 27, i'm definitely not too young... But i don't feel it anyway.
My dreams are weird. Sometimes really upsetting - nightmares really.
The most recent nightmare was that I was walking around the town (like a run down town that the houses were built into rock or something) and I was out and these two girls were bullying me cause they thought I was a "slut" per say cause I had a son, tried explaining to them I was married and stuff but I ended up running from one of them. I ran into my house and went to see Brendan, and found him and who I assume was my son hanging from their necks in the middle of the lower room. There was someone else there dead as well, but I don't know who. Then people I know started coming in and walking away when they saw me crying.
The other dreams that have upset me have revolved around people ignoring me.... much like my uni friends from my pharmacy degree do already. It was saturday morning, and I woke up feeling really shitty and angry. Which isn't like me. But what i quickly realised is that the dream I was having (Meaning I continue a dream once i drift off to sleep again), I was angry and frustrated in the dream. The dream goes - i'm at a what I assume is a pharmacy conference, but its like at Tuggerah westfield. Anyway many people I know there are all from my pharmacy degree. They spend the whole time ignoring me, which annoys me. It appears to be a weekend conference, and I tell Brendan I want to go home. We pack up our things, and I get shitty at brendan because he's not picking up all our stuff, which some is still sitting on the floor. Anyway, next scene is we're eating "breakfast" at the hotel, and i've got fruit on my plate, and the waitress comes and takes my food away, even though i'm not finished (barely started) and I complain, and she tells me i'm done. I tell her I'm making a formal complaint. So this is why I wake up shitty.
My remedial Massage therapist is also trained in aromatherapy... he's made me up a concoction of a few oils to use a drop at nighttime on my pillow. Its got Lavender, Fragonia, Sandalwood, Rose Geranium and Vetiver. Lets see how this works. I need to sleep, I'm getting married! And I stress way too much. I just want to be married to my man and not having anything go wrong. I've been working so much trying to pay for this wedding... that i didn't really want anyway. I would have preferred to go somewhere and elope.
20 days until I get married. I know. I'm doing something totally grown up, and although i'm 27, i'm definitely not too young... But i don't feel it anyway.
My dreams are weird. Sometimes really upsetting - nightmares really.
The most recent nightmare was that I was walking around the town (like a run down town that the houses were built into rock or something) and I was out and these two girls were bullying me cause they thought I was a "slut" per say cause I had a son, tried explaining to them I was married and stuff but I ended up running from one of them. I ran into my house and went to see Brendan, and found him and who I assume was my son hanging from their necks in the middle of the lower room. There was someone else there dead as well, but I don't know who. Then people I know started coming in and walking away when they saw me crying.
The other dreams that have upset me have revolved around people ignoring me.... much like my uni friends from my pharmacy degree do already. It was saturday morning, and I woke up feeling really shitty and angry. Which isn't like me. But what i quickly realised is that the dream I was having (Meaning I continue a dream once i drift off to sleep again), I was angry and frustrated in the dream. The dream goes - i'm at a what I assume is a pharmacy conference, but its like at Tuggerah westfield. Anyway many people I know there are all from my pharmacy degree. They spend the whole time ignoring me, which annoys me. It appears to be a weekend conference, and I tell Brendan I want to go home. We pack up our things, and I get shitty at brendan because he's not picking up all our stuff, which some is still sitting on the floor. Anyway, next scene is we're eating "breakfast" at the hotel, and i've got fruit on my plate, and the waitress comes and takes my food away, even though i'm not finished (barely started) and I complain, and she tells me i'm done. I tell her I'm making a formal complaint. So this is why I wake up shitty.
My remedial Massage therapist is also trained in aromatherapy... he's made me up a concoction of a few oils to use a drop at nighttime on my pillow. Its got Lavender, Fragonia, Sandalwood, Rose Geranium and Vetiver. Lets see how this works. I need to sleep, I'm getting married! And I stress way too much. I just want to be married to my man and not having anything go wrong. I've been working so much trying to pay for this wedding... that i didn't really want anyway. I would have preferred to go somewhere and elope.
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