r/covidlonghaulers
It was 2021 when I got sick for 2 weeks. I had been working on a business. I was moving forward with life as a 34 year old with ambition. I was going to get this company rolling and get a house and move to the next stages of life.
In December of 2021 the depression shows up. Like nothing I’ve ever felt. It was strong and unnatural. A couple weeks later I start blacking out. It turns to dysautonomia/syncope. I start having auras and deja vu. I would be stuck in fight or flight mode and just stare at the wall.
I developed a list of symptoms like brain fog, trouble comprehending lyrics, conversations, and reading. I had eye sister issues. Trouble with spelling. Couldn’t recall words and didn’t know what time of the week it was. I still thought it was 2021 everyday of 2022. I started having absence seizures with all 6 symptoms leading up to them.
Burning plastic, deja vu, tunnel vision etc then spacing out for a couple minutes.
^ this was happening 5-7 times a day. With hours of fight or flight mode in-between.
I had tachycardia. I had GI issues. I had 2 gran mal seizures where I’d go into this ictal phase where I was incoherent.
My 3rd gran mal seizure in the middle of the night in 2022 of October. I went into a post ictal psychosis. Destroyed some things in the apartment. This psychosis I wa snot conscious for. I don’t remember any of it and I was not there when it happened.
I explained this to my wife.
I had apparently scared my wife so bad with this I had physically lifted her up and “tossed her” as she told me to the side.
I finally came too hours later and my parents were there and my wife said I would be staying with them.
I asked what happened every 5 minutes for about 30 minutes because I had no memory.
I told my wife as much time as she needs to recover is fine with me and she never has to go through what happened that night as I imagine it’s traumatic.
She says she needs some time like a week.
3 days later my friend dies. A week later is his funeral. After his funeral she tells me she needs 6-12 months. Gave her that time with at most reaching out on month 6 and a couple of times after that to see if she could talk. No answer. Today a year to the date of my friends funeral she serves me divorce papers.
Fuck long covid. It’s ruined my life. Fuck fuck fuck. I’ve lost everything and now my wife.
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Anyone like the idea of a massive protest? Obviosily not everyone can make it but I’m starting to get tired of feeling like this for a damn year. I want answers now. Not years from now because at that point it’s to late and I would have lost everything in my life. Let’s get some heads turning. Or Atleast let’s start writing to our senators and saying why is nothing being done with this. I don’t want to hear they are researching because that’s complete bs. They made a covid vaccine in a month. Find out what the hell is going on with us now and do your freaking job