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I do something similar, except I grab the 6 and 9 first and then add the resulting 15 to 50+20 to get 85.

Not even the Foresaken are that evil…

I was born premature and have been drinking coffee most days since I was about 8. I’m still a 5’10” woman…

It’s okay, I go the opposite route and start rambling when I’m nervous. Somehow I’ve managed to find jobs that appreciate a certain chaotic energy though 😅

Working through trauma on your own is a really challenging process. I’m not an expert on any of this stuff outside my own experience, and I haven’t gotten therapy either so please take everything I say with a grain of salt. I would check out the book I’ve mentioned a couple times on this thread, The Body Keeps the Score to get an understanding of what happens in the brain when we experience trauma.

You could also try journaling, though I’d recommend looking into specific types of journaling for trauma because just stream of consciousness writing can lead to rumination which is counterproductive. Your goal is to process the emotions and let them go. It likely won’t be a fun process so give yourself time and grace as you work through them.

I would also maybe speak to a friend or loved one you trust very well if you can because having a support system can be crucial. Most importantly, remind yourself (out loud if you need to) that what happened wasn’t your fault, and that you are working to make sure you are safe and taken care of. It’s surprising how much hearing those words out loud even from yourself can impact you. Hope things get better for you!

It was mentioned further down but Auditory Processing Disorder and ADHD are worth looking into if you never have. As is the book I mentioned to someone else The Body Keeps the Score. I’m not a mental health professional but the things you talked about here sound similar to my own experiences with depression and ADHD. Basically you can feel fine on the surface but your brain is running stuff in the background that’s chewing up bandwidth and it can manifest in issues like this. Again, not a pro but if it’s negatively affecting your day to day life, it worth seeing if there’s anything going on.

They’re just trying to reach you about your cars extended warranty

The other commenter already mentioned APD which is a good place to start, especially if you have ADHD as the two often go hand in hand. Depression, anxiety, trauma and other mental health issues can also make it worse or more noticeable. I’m not really an expert outside of my own experience, but I’ve been reading the book The Body Keeps the Score and one of the early chapters talks a lot about what is going on in the brain to cause this. It’s not a pleasant read per se since it’s dealing with how trauma affects our entire system, but it is fascinating and could potentially be helpful.

The parts of your brain that handle speech become less active when the areas that handle stress/heightened emotions become active. Basically your brain fight or flight response. You don’t need words when you’re running from bears. (Which is troublesome when those bears are actually emails you need to send and conversations with loved ones…)

What does yellow taste like?

There are many different kinds of friends. Some friendships are more surface level and/or focused around a shared interest, job, mutual friend or whatever. Maybe you don’t tell them your darkest secrets, but you still enjoy their company, or you know you can call them if you need help moving. There’s nothing wrong with this level of friendship at all.

Deeper friendships are built not discovered. It takes time to develop trust and a true emotional connection with someone. There may be disagreements along the way, even about more important issues, but real friends will at least try to see each others perspective and respect each others feelings. That often requires honesty and vulnerability from both sides, which can be difficult for some people who’ve been burned before.

Genuine friendship to me is defined by mutual respect and reciprocity, regardless of how close a friendship it is.

Same! Mine are a very warm green hazel with a dark ring and golden flecks in direct sunlight. Most of the time they just look light brown though. Either way I like my eyes so I’m not too bothered lol

NTA. I’m an artist, and this is a really scummy “sales tactic” imo. I know how tough it is to break into selling artwork but this is absolutely not the way to do it.

However, I do think it would be better for both of you if you were direct about not liking her work. The rejection will hurt in the moment but art is subjective and your tastes differ. I fear this situation will repeat itself and escalate if you don’t speak to her about it now.

Thank you :)

Shock isn’t the right word per se, but the sheer variety of accents/dialects across the country. Like talking to one person who sounds one way and their buddy down the road who sounds distinctly different. It’s pretty cool to me.

I find most insects/bugs pretty cute. Jumping spiders, mantises, bees, ladybugs, horn beetles. In a weird way cockroaches are kinda cute too, though obviously I don’t want them in my apartment. I loathes flies and mosquitoes and used to be scared of moths and butterflies, but those are growing on me finally.

XNTP I make surrealist pop culture inspired artwork. I use a lot of different media and draw inspiration from a lot of different areas. Here’s a recent sketchbook spread

My thoughts exactly!