I’m scared that I’m losing a part of my personality.

I’m scared that who I am as a person is going to change.

I’m scared at the fact that I now have to do something with my time instead of playing video games and watching tv.

I’m scared that I’m going to lose my friends.

I’m scared that my new girlfriend isn’t going to want me anymore.

Most of all I’m scared for the future. I’m scared by my own thoughts.

Weed was what kept me calm, and friendly. I already feel alienated. I feel like a spastic freak. Weed kept my self disgust at bay.

I’m scared at the fact that I can’t simply push all the stress out of my brain with the spark of a lighter.

I can’t calm down. I can’t relax. Im on edge.

I wish I could smoke for the rest of my life.