Two days ago was your birthday, and I find myself back at our cabin. As I sit here, surrounded by the echoes of our laughter and the gentle whispers of the trees, I want to write you this letter, to tell you how much I love you and miss you, my little Star Sailor.
Tima, you are the very heart of who I am. Your love and smiles in the garden, your endless curiosity, and the joy you found in the stories we shared—these are the things that continue to shape me, even now. You taught me to see the beauty in the smallest details, to appreciate the world with the wonder of a child. Every time I walk through the garden or stand by the ocean, I feel you there with me, guiding me, reminding me of what truly matters.
I miss you, more than words can ever express. And I miss your mother, just as much. The two of you were my world, my everything. Losing you both left me adrift, and for a long time, I was too afraid to face the world without you. I’m so sorry it took me so long to come back to the cabin, to the place we loved so much. I was scared, and I let that fear keep me away. I hope you can forgive me for that.
Today, I wrote these songs for you, my love, as a way to hold you close, to keep you safe in the only way I can now. Every note, every word, is a way of wrapping my arms around you, to protect you, to let you know that you are never forgotten. These songs are my embrace, my lullaby to you, as I carry your spirit with me through every day.
Being here now, I feel closer to you than I have in years. I know you would both want me to find joy again, to live my life fully, and to carry your light with me. I want you to know that I’m here now, that I’m trying to honor you both by living in a way that reflects the love and beauty you brought into my life.
My little Star Sailor, always navigating the night sky, leading me with your light. You are my Butterfly, fluttering on the breeze, touching everything with your gentle grace. I will never forget us, my love. You and your mother are in every part of me, in every flower that blooms, in every story I tell, in every breath I take.
Say hello to your grandparents, your grandmother, grandfather, and your great-grandmother. I know they are there with you, surrounding you with their love, keeping you safe and warm. They watch over you, and in that, I find a small comfort, knowing you are not alone.
Happy birthday, my little Star Sailor. I love you more than words could ever convey.
With all my love, forever and always, Dad