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It happened the other day during my maths exam. I think it was the worst day of my life, I just want to curl up in a ball and die.

Basically we were sitting down doing the maths and I, being a dumbass, didn't go to the toilet first, thinking I could hold it. However, when we got in the exam I realised I had deceived myself. My stomach started groaning insanely loudly after the first 10 minutes and I got really scared the invigilators would tell me off.

The previous day I had explosive diarrhea so I probably should have been more prepared but I wasn't. After about 45 minutes I couldn't even do the paper any more. I had to focus on not shitting myself - it felt like if I even budged over in my seat, the seal would break and it would come gushing out. It was horrible.

Eventually I literally couldn't hold it more. While desperately clasping the sides of the desk for support I accidentally dropped my pen. Shit. Dangerously, I leaned over to pick it up and that's when it happened. Diarhhea started exploding out my ass.

It came with such force that it BROKE THROUGH my trousers and pants and sprayed all over the desks behind me, drenching the 3 people behind me like some sort of shit shotgun. Of course by now the entire exam hall was screaming but I was just wimpering. People started throwing up, covering their exam papers with puke as well as the shit already there. I was on one of the back rows, so the shit silhouettes of the students covered in it were stained on the wall.

Obviously I was immediately excluded and the exam cancelled. Apparently the headmistress is going to try and get special considerations for students affected, although I doubt she'll do it for me. I also heard that the students parents are thinking of pressing charges.

Why didn't I go to the toilet in the exam? Because I have anxiety. Fellow people with anxiety will know the illogical embarrassment they would feel doing that, although I doubt it compares to the embarrassment of what I did.

My future is ruined. I will not be able to go to 6th form or uni. I want to die. All because I shit and fart.

Willing to answer any questions.

Edit: oh yeah and one of the people who got drenched was my crush