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@rowdykat

fen | 17 | they/them

Hello! Oh my gosh it’s been a while, hasn’t it?

I’m so sorry for the very long hiatus, I never planned for this to happen.

I feel I should explain. I caught the virus last year in December, and every time I went on Tumblr I would constantly be bombarded with posts about how dangerous it is (which it is!) and it really freaked me out, so I decided I needed to leave, at least until I recovered.

But then I never did. And so I decided to put off coming back just a little bit longer...until I completely forgot about it. That is, until I was checking my old email earlier today, and I noticed one from Tumblr from just two weeks ago. An ask from a very kind anon wishing me well.

I am doing a lot better now. It did leave me disabled-I’m actually in the process of getting a wheelchair- but I’ve never been happier. I’ve been learning a lot about myself these past few months, and learning to accept myself as who I am :)

I’ve missed you all so so much and I am so sorry this happened :( I’m still a little unsure and nervous to be here, but as of right now

I am back !

i love when ppl who constantly use self deprecating humor interact with me, theyre never sure how to react. theyre like "lol well we all hate ourselves anyways" and im like "no, im sexy as hell actually" like oil and water everytime

Self-appreciating humor even when u 100% don’t believe what you’re saying is legitimately such an esteem-booster & i’d recommend everyone to try and replace deprecating jokes with exaggeratedly-positive & validating ones whenever u can

And tbh, it’s funnier/more comfortable for everyone involved anyway. Like, failing spectacularly at something but going “lol y’all WISH you had my talents” instead? Hilarious. Its funny, alleviates the pressure on other ppl to validate your negativity, AND even when what you’re saying “isn’t true” your brain still responds to hearing positive input & your attitude towards yourself & your situation becomes so much healthier after a while. This kind of thing has been proven to improve mental health & curb self-harming tendencies, as well as contribute to healthier social environments ;0;

Yes I do, actually 

we all just need to emulate the raw confidence of the kid who has the power of god AND anime on his side

Doing this has genuinely saved me. Pls be kind to yourself even when you don't believe it

ya know what, this year sucked so much in so many ways. it was painful, unfair, cruel and difficult, to say the least. the new year won’t magically erase all of the problems and issues we’ve faced in 2020 but i genuinely hope you and your loved ones are able to catch a break. i hope 2021, in whatever ways possible, is kinder to you. i hope healing comes fast and i hope all the heaviness put upon you starts to lessen

important things to remember

  • if someone doesn’t reply to your message they are probably busy, not ignoring you
  • just because someone doesn’t message you first, it doesn’t mean they don’t care about you
  • if someone seems upset or distant they probably aren’t upset at you in particular
  • lots of people love you and you’re not annoying