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I’m still a private, but I’m also a 30 year old man. Joined later in life, probably a mistake. I am so sick and tired of this lifestyle. I’m competent at my job, I get along well enough with the other joes and the ncos. But I am so incredibly homesick, I miss my family and my friends more than anything in the world. I have zero desire to do anything related to my job once I get out

Literally every single day I think about how difficult would it really be to get kicked out and separate with a less than honorable or even a honorable. I am so close to just not giving a fuck about just not doing whatever stupid random thing an nco tells me to do. If an nco tells me to do pushups or otherwise smokes me in some way, what would really happen if I just say no? Im so close to just laughing in the face of the next nco who tells me to get down lol. What’s really the worst that could happen? I know a couple would probably want to punch me in the face but even then so what? I get into a physical altercation with an nco because I think the reason they’re smoking me is fucking stupid. I know I’m rambling but I literally think about his shit every day

If I could get out tomorrow forfeiting all the benefits of being in the military without consequence, I would do it. Fuck it I’d even do it WITH consequences at this point. I hate it here. This is no way to live. My barracks room is a 6ft by 6ft cube, I don’t make any fucking money, cola isn’t nearly enough to live off, I’m sleeping about 3-4 hours a night, there’s so much training going on I can’t even go to school to prepare myself for after getting out. I’m missing out on so much back home, and I’m just fucking depressed all the damn time. And I’m just so fucking homesick

If you’ve read this far, thank you. This was modestly a ramble. I guess I just needed to vent.