agnostic

so much corruption and deception.

and yet, i am trying to figure out what is the meaning of life and which religion/theory is the truth.

People share different ideas not only about the creation of life but also about politics. People have beliefs, ideas and disagreements between them.

There are people who have claimed to have the truth through psychedelics. other people claim to have the truth with religion.

so, according to christianity i must consider them all as false and simply put my faith in Jesus even though there is no evidence that he is the truth.

Christians will mention scriptures and prophecy fullfilment as a strong evidence for christianity, but dont these things also apply to other religions.

So, I cant see why I must simply accept as Jesus the truth. it really seems suspicious to me to believe people that claimed to have had the word of God. It really seems illogical to me.

Different interprations, science/bible contradictions, disagreements between christians. All that suggest to me that christianity is just another religion created by humans and some were decieved to believe that it was God's command.

I want Jesus to be the truth because I have hope. But i think i cant have faith for the reasons i mentioned. I want Jesus to be the truth because its good to know that someone is taking care of me.

Without faith, my mind is filled with what ifs. What if there is no God? what if there is a God who is not mentioned in any religion? what will happen if i die? what if we are living in a simulation? what if i am trapped in prison earth (read prison earth theory)?