learning the contours of your new body, exploring its shape, taking stock of its qualities: is it soft or firm? curved or angular? pliable or solid? and finding yourself enthralled by this new iteration of you, this fat body you constructed for yourself as a perfect expression of pleasure and sensuality, Or, haha belly goes jiggle
I keep noticing how fat I’m getting in more than just the usual stuff. Like my belly and ass knocking into things, and how I can’t twist myself around to scratch my back anymore bc even my hypermobile joints are no match for the very newly large rolls of fat on my back. I still am amazed by how sudden and drastic the change in my body has been-let’s hear it for antipsychotics, folks-and even by how much i love this, this rapid, uncontrolled weight gain, how happy it makes me, how in love with my body I finally am 💕
God just every time I turn around I’m fatter than before and it is so fuckin hot 🥵 I didn’t really expect to blow up like this but I should have, nobody gets to go over two years unable to eat any more than once a day without crashing their metabolism lol.
Finally made it back home after being w my partners for like a week and got to weigh myself-I’ve officially hit my highest ever weight!!! Sitting at 214 babyyyy~ nowhere to go but up up up!
Lol I can’t wait to get so fat that someone feels the need to tell me they’re worried about my health and when that happens I know I’m finally getting where I wanna be. I’m very pleased w my progress so far-i mean I did gain like 40lbs in three months, that’s kinda impressive I think-and it’s kinda exciting to know that cracking 200 is only the beginning! So pleased w myself 😌
But… They fit last summer? I haven’t gotten *that* fat, right? I mean I’ve been trying to get myself back on track after this winter weight. Well, actually, fall weight too. And I might have packed on a couple spring pounds… I mean how much weight can someone really gain in eight months?
Yeesh have I been packing it on 😳 this is an entirely empty belly, no water weight or bloating, just soft bouncy lard 🥵 so much of it, but still not enough!
