i'll answer this from the heart.. in terms of how it feels? difficult to pinpoint. i am a former smoker of around close to 20 years who quit 4 years ago through vaping, i still vape. i have weight issues and am definitely at a point health wise where if i get the virus i would think that i may likely not survive. so as a heavy set person from that perspective having the shot gives me a little sense of security, however false it maybe.

i understand that if anything it maybe buys me time? like it keeps the virus at bay because i have the shot but as a now 10 year hospital worker i have come to realize that there are no quick fixes and no magic pill that keeps the trouble that is eventually going to come from not being healthy. i see all manner of patients on my floor and in the end all it comes down to is a human being laid on the hospital bed alone going through x number of various things because ultimately in the end sometimes things happen to you without your control and sometimes we place ourselves into situations where we become at severe risk for having something bad happen.

so from that aspect while internally i guess as a big guy there's a little relief there like ok maybe i have a shot to now not catch this thing because god forbid if i did catch it pre shot based on my co-morbidities there's maybe 80 - 100 percent chance i'd be in major trouble.

i have my two senior parents with me who also have many health issues so they fall into high risk category. i have a sibling who came back into town to have her baby so we have a brand new baby in our home so those dynamics give me relief that at least i have gotten my shot and my parents/sibling/new baby will be safe.

ultimately in the end i think as a heavy person i am doing my best to try and just get my head out of this funk i have become glued to and get my health back in order. sometimes i think oh i got the shot i'll be ok but then when you work at a hospital you quickly realize that there is no magic bullet so to speak that can save you if you do not place yourself in a position where you are healthy. and i also realize that i have been working at a hospital for ten years and i should have made lifestyle changes the first year i started working at a hospital and started seeing just how devastating things can be when a person falls ill so it speaks to other mental struggles i guess.

i think for the mass populace of people this should be a wake up call if you are not healthy to try and make the kind of lifestyle changes you need to that will at least give you a "fighting chance" when a health issue befalls you. i am doing my best in that regards but i mean life is struggle. you fall you get up you fall you get up but after a certain age the getting up is not so easy anymore so i am doing my best to realize that i am getting to the age where the getting up is not gonna be easy so to wrap up your question if anything has changed it's i am trying to get my health back in order and hopefully i will succeed.