Marsbar Playlist ~ 5-29-2016

May 29, 2016

bigmars1David Marsden streaming live via the Internet. Join the fun and get some interesting (and always entertaining) information at the forum on Marsden Global.

Be sure to catch David and an eclectic collection of guest DJs streaming 24/7 on NYTheSpirit.com. Experience music unique to David Marsden and his tenure at CFNY-FM–music that defines not only an era, but a lifetime.

Typically, David presents a live show from 8PM until midnight on Saturday and Sunday nights; but, you just never know when he’ll pop in during the week.

Here’s the almost-complete list, thanks to post-10PM assistance from JerusalemSlim. David managed to stump us on 2 songs: the one just before Iggy Pop (lyrics include: “Life is so beautiful, why don’t you sing with me?”) and the artist for “Walking in Memphis.” Any help is greatly appreciated!

??? – Walking In Memphis
Barney Bentall – Outskirts Of Buffalo
Barns Courtney – Fire
Beautiful South – Everybody’s Talkin’
Billy Myles – Boogie Woogie Blues
Box – Live On T.V.
Chalk Circle – April Fool
Colin James – Why’d You Lie
Cowboy Junkies – Sweet Jane
Cure – The Caterpillar (Flicker mix)
David Bowie – Sound And Vision (remix)
David Bowie – Aladdin Sane
David Sylvian – Money For All
Dee Long – Good Night Universe
Iggy Pop – German Days
Jason Collett – Vanderpool Vanderpool
Joe Bonamassa & Beth Hart – Strange Fruit
John Lee Hooker/Carlos Santana – Chill Out (Things Gonna Change)
John Legend – Glory
July Talk – Don’t Call Home
Kate Bush – Running Up That Hill (12″ mix)
Leon Russell – A Song For You
Living Colour – Glamour Boys
Long John Baldry – A Thrill’s A Thrill
Mark Knopfler – Lights Of Taormina
Massive Attack – Protection
Michael Cretu – Samurai
Moby feat. Patti LaBelle – One Of These Mornings
My Morning Jacket – Get The Point
Orchestral Manoeuvres In The Dark – Enola Gay (Dancefloor Killa Remix By David Guetta & Joachim Garraud)
Orchestral Manoeuvres In The Dark – Enola Gay
Peter Murphy – Cuts You Up
Pink Floyd – Shine On You Crazy Diamond
Playing For Change – Stand By Me
Porcupine Tree – Lazarus
Queen – These Are The Days Of Our Lives
Rob Stuart – A Beautiful Thing
Roger Waters – The Tide Is Turning (After Live Aid)
Silencers – Bulletproof Heart
Sing Street – To Find You
Sound Of Contact – Pale Blue Dot
Stranglers – Always The Sun (12″ mix)
This Mortal Coil – Song To The Siren
Timelords – Doctorin’ The Tardis (12″ mix)
Toni Childs – The Dead Are Dancing
Wild Nothing – Paradise
Willy DeVille – Across The Borderline
Yello – The Race (12″)

Marsbar Playlist ~ 5-28-2016

May 28, 2016

bigmars1David Marsden streaming live via the Internet. Join the fun and get some interesting (and always entertaining) information at the forum on Marsden Global.

Be sure to catch David and an eclectic collection of guest DJs streaming 24/7 on NYTheSpirit.com. Experience music unique to David Marsden and his tenure at CFNY-FM–music that defines not only an era, but a lifetime.

Typically, David presents a live show from 8PM until midnight on Saturday and Sunday nights; but, you just never know when he’ll pop in during the week.

Here’s the complete list from an extra-long show, thanks to TheBarron’s late-night assistance:

Arcade Fire – We Exist
Blackmore’s Night – Rainbow Eyes
Cure – Lullaby (Extended remix)
David Bowie – Love Is Lost (Hello Steve Reich Mix By James Murphy For The DFA)
David Gilmour – Red Sky At Night (Live In Gdansk)
Dear Rouge – Black To Gold
Death Cab For Cutie – The Ghosts Of Beverly Drive
Delerium – Myth
Depeche Mode – Master And Servant (Slavery Whip mix)
Echo & The Bunnymen – Bring On The Dancing Horses
Electronic Dream Factory – Violent Crime
Ellie Goulding – High For This (Kygo Remix)
Empire Of The Sun – Without You
Field Music – Disappointed
Frank Zappa – Dancin’ Fool
Goldfrapp – Ride A White Horse
Grace Jones – La Vie En Rose
Guy Garvey – Unwind
Japan – Quiet Life
Jeff Wayne – Horsell Common And The Heat Ray
KLF – All Bound For Mu Mu Land (Justified & Ancient)
Motels – Total Control
My Morning Jacket – Touch Me I’m Going To Scream Part II
New Order – Tutti Frutti (extended)
New Order Feat. Iggy Pop – Stray Dog
Nine Horses – Seratonin (Burnt Friedman Remix)
Peter Schilling – The Different Story (World Of Lust And Crime)
Phil Manzanera – 1960 Caracas
Pink Floyd – Talkin’ Hawkin’
Prince – Rock & Roll Love Affair
Project Pitchfork – I Live Your Dream (Gary Numan remix)
Propellerheads – Velvet Pants
Psychedelic Furs – Love My Way
Public Service Broadcasting – Everest
Rammstein – Stripped
Real Life – Send Me An Angel
Richard Strange & The Engine Room – Damascus
Rob Stuart – A Beautiful Thing
Roger Waters – Who Needs Information
Scissor Sisters – Invisible Light (Stuart Price US 12” Remix)
Simple Minds – Waterfront
Slave to the SQUAREwave – Casino
Slave To The SQUAREwave – Johnny 3:16
Streets – Dry Your Eyes Mate
Thomas Dolby – Windpower (High Power Extended Play)
Ultravox – Dancing With Tears In My Eyes (Special Remix)
Ultravox – White China (Special mix)
Underworld – Low Burn
Underworld – Nylon Strung
Unheilig – Unter Deiner Flagge
Wallflowers – Reboot The Mission
XPrime – Closer

Marsbar Playlist ~ 5-22-2016

May 22, 2016

bigmars1David Marsden streaming live via the Internet. Join the fun and get some interesting (and always entertaining) information at the forum on Marsden Global.

Be sure to catch David and an eclectic collection of guest DJs streaming 24/7 on NYTheSpirit.com. Experience music unique to David Marsden and his tenure at CFNY-FM–music that defines not only an era, but a lifetime.

Typically, David presents a live show from 8PM until midnight on Saturday and Sunday nights; but, you just never know when he’ll pop in during the week.

Here’s the complete list–finally–thanks to the combined efforts of TheBarron and JerusalemSlim while I was out of town. Thank you for your patience!

Alabama 3 – Woke Up This Morning
Amanda Lear – Hollywood Flashback
Arkitex – If A Tree Falls In The Forest
Beck – Heart Is A Drum
Beth Hart and Joe Bonamassa – A Sunday Kind Of Love
Book of Love – Boy (Peter Rauhofer Club Mix)
Carmen Twillie – Circle Of Life
Cocteau Twins – Know Who You Are At Every Age
David Bowie – Starman
David Gilmour – Red Sky At Night (Live From Gdansk)
Dee Long – Good Night Universe
Electronic Dream Factory – So, What Of Tomorrow
Feargal Sharkey – Loving You
Frankie Goes To Hollywood – Rage Hard (Broad)
Gary Moore – Looking For Somebody
It’s Immaterial – Driving Away From Home (Jim’s Tune)
Jeff Lynne’s ELO – Alone In The Universe
Jethro Tull – Bouree
Joe Ely – Sunday Morning Coming Down
Joe Jackson – Real Men
Kevin Ayers – The Confessions of Doctor Dream (Doctor Dream Theme)
King Crimson – Walking On Air
Kinks – Sunny Afternoon
Kygo – Stole The Show
Long John Baldry & Kathi McDonald – You’ve Lost That Lovin’ Feelin’
Manfred Mann’s Earth Band – Father Of Day, Father Of Night
Marillion – Lavender
Mark Cole & Jerry Huber – Little Wing
Mark Knopfler – Lights Of Taormina
Martha and the Muffins – Echo Beach (30th Anniversary Version)
Mick Jagger – Sweet Thing
Moody Blues – The Other Side Of Life
Muse – Panic Station
Nash The Slash – Dance After Curfew
Nick Cave and the Bad Seeds + Kylie Minogue – Where The Wild Roses Grow
Nick Lowe – I Love The Sound Of Breaking Glass
No Doubt – Easy
Oran “Juice” Jones – The Rain
Peter Murphy – A Strange Kind Of Love
Peter Schilling – Major Tom (Coming Home)
Pink Floyd – Talkin’ Hawkin
Pink Floyd – Wish You Were Here (alternate mix featuring Stephane Grappelli)
Public Service Broadcasting – Everest
Renaissance – Ashes Are Burning
Richard O’Brien – The Time Warp
Richard O’Brien – The Time Warp (1989 Extended Remix)
Rob Stuart – A Beautiful Thing
Roxy Music – Do The Strand
Sing Street – To Find You
Slave to the SQUAREwave – Summertown
Stranglers – You’ll Always Reap What You Sow
Take 6 feat. Aaron Neville – Do You Know What It Means To Miss New Orleans?
Tegan And Sara – Closer
Thinkman – Best Adventures
Tony Joe White – Polk Salad Annie
Underworld – Nylon Strung
Waterwalk – Never Leaving Eden Again
Willy DeVille – I Call Your Name
Yello – Rubberband Man (Rubber Remix)

 

Marsbar Playlist ~ 5-21-2016

May 21, 2016

bigmars1David Marsden streaming live via the Internet. Join the fun and get some interesting (and always entertaining) information at the forum on Marsden Global.

Be sure to catch David and an eclectic collection of guest DJs streaming 24/7 on NYTheSpirit.com. Experience music unique to David Marsden and his tenure at CFNY-FM–music that defines not only an era, but a lifetime.

Typically, David presents a live show from 8PM until midnight on Saturday and Sunday nights; but, you just never know when he’ll pop in during the week.

Here’s the complete list thanks to invaluable post-10PM help form TheBarron. Complete lists may be slow to materialize this week, as I am out of town. Please keep checking back for Sunday’s list later in the week. Thank you for your patience!

Associates – Club Country
Atom – Her
Brandon Flowers – I Can Change
Brian Eno/John Cale – Spinning Away
City And Colour – Lover Come Back
Conjure One – Centre Of The Sun (Solarstone’s Chilled-Out Remix)
Crimea – Lottery Winners On Acid
Cut Copy – Lights & Music
Dear Rouge – Black To Gold
Delerium – Metaphor
Depeche Mode – Strangelove (Tim Simenon/Mark Saunders remix)
DJ Kodi – Purple Rain
Econoline Crush – All That You Are (X3; Boomtang extended remix)
FM – Phasors On Stun
Genesis – Watcher Of The Skies
Godley & Creme – An Englishman In New York
Hooters – All You Zombies
Intaferon – Get Out Of London
Japan – Television
Jesus Jones – International Bright Young thing
KD Lang/Roy Orbison – Crying
Lindsey Buckingham – Holiday Road
Love And Rockets – Haunted When The Minutes Drag
Luciano Pavarotti/U2/Passengers – Miss Sarajevo
Man Of The Year Excerpt
Midge Ure – Breathe
Moev – Open Mind
New Order – Plastic
Pink Floyd – One Slip (2011 Remaster)
Porcupine Tree – Glass Arm Shattering
Prefab Sprout – When Love Breaks Down
Prince – Rocknroll Loveaffair
Project Pitchfork – Timekiller (And One remix)
Psychedelic Furs – President Gas
Rivingtons – Papa-Oom-Mow-Mow
Rob Stuart – A Beautiful Thing
Roger DeLong – Acid Rain
Rolling Stones – Miss You
Scissor Sisters – Return To Oz
Simple Minds – Rockets
Slave To The SQUAREwave – Dirty Disco (Son!x Metal Mix)
Stranglers – Peaches
Tame Impala – Let It Happen
Violent Kin – Velvet Hideout

Marsbar Playlist ~ 5-15-2016

May 15, 2016

bigmars1David Marsden streaming live via the Internet. Join the fun and get some interesting (and always entertaining) information at the forum on Marsden Global.

Be sure to catch David and an eclectic collection of guest DJs streaming 24/7 on NYTheSpirit.com. Experience music unique to David Marsden and his tenure at CFNY-FM–music that defines not only an era, but a lifetime.

Typically, David presents a live show from 8PM until midnight on Saturday and Sunday nights; but, you just never know when he’ll pop in during the week.

Here’s the complete list thanks to double-duty post-10PM assistance from the ever-cheerful TheBarron:

10cc – I’m Not In Love
Amy Winehouse – Our Day Will Come
B52s – Planet Claire
Beth Hart/Joe Bonamassa – I’ll Take Care Of You
Chalk Circle – April Fool
Colin Blunstone/Dave Stewart – What Becomes Of The Broken Hearted
Concrete Blonde – Mexican Moon
Conjure One – Centre Of The Sun (Solarstone’s Chilled-Out Remix)
Cure – Never Enough
David Bowie – Queen Bitch
David Gilmour – Rattle That Lock (extended mix)
Delerium – A Poem For Byzantium
Earons – Land Of Hunger
Elliott Randall – Sour Flower
Eric Clapton – My Father’s Eyes
Etta James – I’ll Be Seeing You
Flash And The Pan – California
Freedom Or Death – Inside
Genesis – I Know What I Like (In Your Wardrobe)
Hidden Cameras – Gay Goth Scene
Hollies – The Air That I Breathe
Hudson-Ford – I Don’t Understand
James Bay – Let It Go
Japan – I Second That Emotion
John Martyn & Beverley Martyn – Stormbringer
Kate Bush – The Dreaming
Kinks – Catch Me Now I’m Falling
Lee Hazelwood & Kate Moss & Primal Scream – Some Velvet Morning (extended mix)
Manfred Mann’s Earth Band – Spirits In The Night
Mark Knopfler – Lights Of Taormina
Moody Blues – The Other Side Of Life
My Morning Jacket – Touch Me I’m Going To Scream Pt. 2
Nazz – Hello It’s Me
Pendragon – It’s Only Me
Pink Floyd – One Of These Days
Prince – When he Comes
Propellerheads – History Repeating
Rob Stuart – A Beautiful Thing
Robbie Robertson – Showdown At Big Sky
Roxy Music – Love Is The Drug
Sing Street – To Find You
Sound Of Contact – Pale Blue Dot
Southside Johnny & The Asbury Jukes – Walk Away Renee
Unheilig – Unter deiner Flagge
Waterboys – Blues For Your Baby

Marsbar Playlist ~ 5-14-2016

May 14, 2016

bigmars1David Marsden streaming live via the Internet. Join the fun and get some interesting (and always entertaining) information at the forum on Marsden Global.

Be sure to catch David and an eclectic collection of guest DJs streaming 24/7 on NYTheSpirit.com. Experience music unique to David Marsden and his tenure at CFNY-FM–music that defines not only an era, but a lifetime.

Typically, David presents a live show from 8PM until midnight on Saturday and Sunday nights; but, you just never know when he’ll pop in during the week.

Here’s the complete list, thanks to some very much-appreciated late-night assistance from TheBarron:

A-Ha – Crying In The Rain
Beatles – Ain’t She Sweet
Box Tops – The Letter
Common & John Legend – Glory
Cut Copy – Lights & Music
David Bowie – Blue Jean (Extended Dance Remix)
Depeche Mode – Strangelove (Tim Simenon/Mark Saunders remix)
Echo & The Bunnymen – Bring On The Dancing Horses
Electronic Dream Factory – The Haas Effect, Part 4
Elliott Murphy – Thirty Was A Long Time Ago
Everlast – Ends
Feargal Sharkey – A Good Heart
Freur – Doot Doot
Gentleman Reg – We’re In A Thunderstorm
Gigi D’Agostino – Sweetly
Hunter Valentine – Van City
Icehouse – Electric Blue (12″ remix)
Iggy Pop – Pumpin’ For Jill
Johnny Warman – Screaming Jets
Joyslam – Re-Invent Yourself
Julian Troiano – Try
Kirsty MacColl – Walking Down Madison
Lighthouse Family – High
Martha And The Muffins – Echo Beach (30th Anniversary Remix)
New Order – Plastic
Of Monsters And Men – Empire
Peter Murphy – All Night Long (Ultrasound Remix)
Pop Will Eat Itself – Def Con One
Pop Will Eat Itself – X, Y & Zee
Prince – Rocknroll Loveaffair
Project Pitchfork – Orange Moon
Propaganda – Dr. Mabuse
Rob Stuart – A Beautiful Thing
Roger Waters – Sunset Strip
Rolling Stones – Sympathy For The Devil (Fatboy Slim Full remix)
Scissor Sisters – Invisible Light (Stuart Price Us 12″mix)
Shriekback – My Spine Is The Bass Line
Silencers – Painted Moon
Slave To The SQUAREwave – New York’s A Go-Go
Sly & The Family Stone – Family Affair
Tame Impala – Yes I’m Changing
Tangerine Dream – Little Blonde In The Park Of Attractions
The The – Infected
Thomas Dolby – Hyperactive!
Ultravox – Dancing With Tears In My Eyes (Special Remix)
Waterboys – Independence Day
Whitley – More Than Life

Marsbar Playlist ~ 5-8-2016

May 8, 2016

bigmars1David Marsden streaming live via the Internet. Join the fun and get some interesting (and always entertaining) information at the forum on Marsden Global.

Be sure to catch David and an eclectic collection of guest DJs streaming 24/7 on NYTheSpirit.com. Experience music unique to David Marsden and his tenure at CFNY-FM–music that defines not only an era, but a lifetime.

Typically, David presents a live show from 8PM until midnight on Saturday and Sunday nights; but, you just never know when he’ll pop in during the week.

Here’s the complete list, thanks to much-appreciated late-night assistance from JerusalemSlim:

Alan Parsons Project – A Dream Within A Dream
Alan Parsons Project – The Raven
Albert Collins – Master Charge
Al Stewart – Roads To Moscow
B.B. King & Tracy Chapman – The Thrill Is Gone
Beth Hart – Your Heart Is As Black As Night
Blood, Sweat & Tears – I Can’t Quit Her
Blue Rodeo – Lost Together (Live)
Bryan Ferry – Is Your Love Strong Enough?
Cars – Moving In Stereo
Cure – Pictures Of You
David Bowie – Lazarus
David Sylvian – Money For All
David Sylvian & Ryuichi Sakamoto – Forbidden Colours
Dee Long – Good Night Universe
Duran Duran – The Chauffeur (Live)
Electric Light Orchestra – Mr. Radio
Eric Clapton feat. John Mayer – Magnolia
Frank Zappa – Peaches En Regalia
Grapes Of Wrath – I Am Here
Harold Melvin and the Blue Notes – Wake Up Everybody
James Bay – Let It Go
John Lee Hooker – Chill Out (Things Gonna Change)
Johnny Cash – Hurt
Joywave – Traveling At The Speed Of Light
Kate Bush – Running Up That Hill
Matthew Sweet – Dark Secret
Midge Ure – Breathe
Mike Posner – I Took A Pill In Ibiza
Monty Python – Every Sperm Is Sacred
Mumford & Sons – Tompkins Square Park
Peter Gabriel – Here Comes The Flood
Pink Floyd – The Narrow Way
Public Service Broadcasting – Late Night Final
Prince – Heaven Is Keeping Score
Prince – When She Comes
Procol Harum – Grand Hotel
Rob Stuart – A Beautiful Thing
Rolling Stones – Lady Jane
Rose Royce – Wishing On A Star
Steve Harley & Cockney Rebel – Sebastian
Stranglers – You’ll Always Reap What You Sow
Strawbs – Queen Of Dreams
Tanita Tikaram – Twist In My Sobriety
Ten Years After – I’d Love To Change The World
This Mortal Coil – Song To The Siren
Tim Curry – Birds Of A Feather

 

Marsbar Playlist ~ 5-7-2016

May 7, 2016

bigmars1David Marsden streaming live via the Internet. Join the fun and get some interesting (and always entertaining) information at the forum on Marsden Global.

Be sure to catch David and an eclectic collection of guest DJs streaming 24/7 on NYTheSpirit.com. Experience music unique to David Marsden and his tenure at CFNY-FM–music that defines not only an era, but a lifetime.

Typically, David presents a live show from 8PM until midnight on Saturday and Sunday nights; but, you just never know when he’ll pop in during the week.

Here’s the complete list, thanks to the wonder of multitasking and TheBarron’s valuable post-10PM assistance:

69 Eyes – Gothic Girl
Alarm – Rain In The Summertime (Thunder Remix)
B.E.F. – Groove Thang
Brandon Flowers – I Can Change
Brilliant – Ultravox
Cabaret Voltaire – Sensoria (12″ Mix)
Darkroom – A Test Of Time
David Bowie – Sound And Vision
David Bowie/Queen – Under Pressure (Rah mix)
Depeche Mode – Strangelove
Electronic Dream Factory – Violent Crime
Empire Of The Sun – Without You
Evermore vs. Dirty South – It’s Too Late
Frankie Goes To Hollywood – Two Tribes (Annihilation)
Gazebo – I Like Chopin
Howard Jones & Nik Kershaw – Like To Get To Know You Well/What Is Love/Wouldn’t It Be Good/The Riddle/I Won’t Let The Sun Go Down On Me/New Song/Wide Boy/Pearl In The Shell (Mash-Up)
Ian Dury & The Blockheads – Sex & Drugs & Rock & Roll
Iggy Pop – Play It Safe
Interview – St. Jean Wires
Japan – Adolescent Sex
Joe Bonamassa – Drive
Joywave – Carry Me
Nero – Dark Skies
New Order – Plastic
Peter Murphy – A Strange Kind Of Love (Version 1)
Pink Floyd – Astronomy Domine
Pink Floyd – Run Like Hell
Prince – Rocknroll Loveaffair
Prince – When She Comes
Project Pitchfork – Timekiller (And One remix)
Psychedelic Furs – Heartbeat (New York remix; clean version)
Richard Strange & The Engine Room – Damascus
Rob Stuart – A Beautiful Thing
Roger Waters – Perfect Sense (Pt. 1 & 2)
Sigue Sigue Sputnick – Bullet With Butterfly Wings
Slave To The SQUAREwave – Texan Thugs And Rock ‘N’ Roll
Status Quo – In The Army Now
Tame Impala – Let It Happen
Tin Star Orphans – Jaw Wired Shut
Tubes – Slipped My Disco
Wild Nothing – Paradise

How a Starman (David Bowie) and a Hero (DanBH) Validated My Life

David-Bowie-1974Nearly four months on, and I am still trying to grasp the concept of a world without the physically comforting cosmic genius of David Bowie. But, that’s nothing new for me. It has been 3 years, 8 1/2 months since my late husband Dan passed, and I’ve not really moved on from that. Sure, I’ve changed jobs (and subsequently returned to my original company), moved residence, resumed most of my creative interests…but the grieving process seems to be stuck. It must be the stuff I’m made of.

One thing I’m usually very good at is blocking the bits of my past life that are dark, desolate, and decidedly depressing. David Bowie’s death dredged that stinking muck back up and forced me to confront it head on. That wasn’t necessarily a bad thing, because now I’ve been able to let go of a lot of repressed anxiety born of stuffing ungodly visions deep down the memory hole. But, it was a thousand times more painful than satisfying.

Thirty-five+ years ago (a lifetime for many), the lifelong feelings of being a misfit in an un-accepting world reached a head. I found an artificial way to cope, which involved ingesting large amounts of illicit substances. The chemical cocktails made me perceive the world to be a place where I actually fit in, felt productive, and gave me a sense of purpose. Little did I know (or want to believe) that the sense of purpose would end up being a daily visceral drive to find new heights of chemically-induced bliss. The miracle in all of this is that I lived through it. That’s where Mr. Bowie comes in.

With no Internet at my disposal back then, I received music news in bits and pieces from magazines and Bowie_smile_3television (MTV was in its infancy stages). I “discovered” David Bowie late-70s and just prior to sinking to my lowest point. I remember reading a story about how he had been in a similar mess, but had the stones to walk away from it and clean up his life. Not only was he creating and delivering superior music, he was having a ball finding himself, a quest that would end up being a lifelong journey. I so admired his strength and his ability to slip seemingly effortlessly through the world; not as a knock-off wanna-be clone, but as himself. Decidedly misfit, but happy in his own skin.

I started sleeping in front of the stereo, Bowie vinyl platters piled high, listening through huge headphones, lulled to sleep by endless stories of struggle, (at times) defeat, and redemption. His poetic verses described cold, unfriendly worlds, damning events, uncaring accomplices, herculean trials–but they always had a glimmer of hope, a glimpse of light at the end of the tunnel, and a sense of purpose in a chaotic world unsympathetic to those who refuse to walk lockstep to the boringly predictable drumbeat.

Bowie_Serious_1Eventually, I, too found the stones to walk away from certain self-destruction, and into the light of the satisfaction of knowing that yes, I’m “different,” but it doesn’t matter what the world thinks of me, as long as I somehow make the world a better place for others. That’s really what it’s all about, isn’t it?

I had a setback a decade later, following a divorce and entering into an abusive relationship. Bowie’s music was forbidden in the new household, lauded as “fag crap,” and only the Rolling Stones (I wonder if Mr. Sensitive knew that Mick and David had had a dalliance) and ZZ Top were allowed. Thank God I had the presence of mind to hide away and hang onto my Bowie vinyl. I remained in that nightmare of a relationship for 5 very long years (queue up Bowie’s “Five Years” here) until I met the second hero of this maudlin story, my late husband Dan. But sadly, I had lost touch with Bowie’s world. I knew he had gotten married, and was still making music, but not much more beyond that. I had been too busy trying to survive by not poking the hornet’s nest.

Dan_Christmas_1999With Dan, another of life’s misfits and a kindred spirit, came a sense of renewal. Not only had I been given a second chance, but now a third, and I was not going to muck it up. He was truly my soul mate, the one that my bad choices put me on the right path to meet. He, too, was a Bowie fan, but we both were bogged down with work and trying to stay afloat financially. We moved from FL to GA and then back to FL, all in the span of 6 years. Life was busy, and something was wrong with Dan’s health, so it became challenging and a balancing act that consumed most of our free time. David Bowie suffered a heart attack in 2004, and Dan had his in 2005. Along with Dan’s attack came the grim news that he also had a rare and incurable vasculitis disease called Churg Strauss Syndrome. The two heroes in my life were forced to make life-altering decisions at almost the same time.

I made it my quest to ensure the remainder of Dan’s life had a note of quality and dignity. He died August 21, 2012 after a courageous struggle. Part of me died with him, but I am convinced his spirit walks with me, overseeing many of my decisions and helping me through the rough spots. David Bowie started releasing music a year later (2013) after a long hiatus to be with his beloved family. The floodgates opened for him and remained open until January 10 of this year, right up to the end. He and Dan shared something very special. They refused to accept death as a possibility, and especially not an end,  and for that reason both of their spirits shine brightly among the stars, still very much a part of this life and those who loved them.

Shortly after Bowie’s death, which was incredibly and personally devastating, I started replacing my vinyl, and ripping the CDs to my computer (which has a decent speaker system). I also filled in a few of the missing pieces and put together one helluva playlist. I have been sleeping to it every night (and playing it every day while working) for the past 3 months, and that has been what keeps the decades-old demons at bay.

During those moments when I can see clearly through the haze of grief, I consider myself very lucky, indeed, to have 2 such incredibly gifted and “different” angels watching over me for whatever time I have left on this world. After that, I will make it my eternal mission to follow them both to the ends of the universe.

Marsbar Playlist ~ 5-1-2016

May 1, 2016

bigmars1David Marsden streaming live via the Internet. Join the fun and get some interesting (and always entertaining) information at the forum on Marsden Global.

Be sure to catch David and an eclectic collection of guest DJs streaming 24/7 on NYTheSpirit.com. Experience music unique to David Marsden and his tenure at CFNY-FM–music that defines not only an era, but a lifetime.

Typically, David presents a live show from 8PM until midnight on Saturday and Sunday nights; but, you just never know when he’ll pop in during the week.

Here’s the complete list, with much appreciation for JerusalemSlim’s late night assistance:

Alan Parsons Project – I Wouldn’t Want To Be Like You
Argent – Hold Your Head Up
Be Bop Deluxe – Modern Music
Be Bop Deluxe – Dancing In The Moonlight (All Alone)
Be Bop Deluxe – Honeymoon On Mars
Be Bop Deluxe – Lost In The Neon World
Be Bop Deluxe – Dance Of The Uncle Sam Humanoids
Be Bop Deluxe – Modern Music (Reprise)
Beth Hart – Caught Out In The Rain
Blackmore’s Night – Wish You Were Here
Boy George – The Crying Game
China Crisis – African & White
City Boy – The Violin
Colin James – Freedom
Damned – Eloise
David Gray – Say Hello, Wave Goodbye
Dee Long – Good Night Universe
Doors – The Crystal Ship
Dr. Draw – Danny Boy
Front 242 – Civilization
Gary Numan – Cars (‘E’ Reg Extended Model)
Genesis – The Musical Box
Harrison Fjord – Docking With Jesus
Holly Johnson – Ascension
Howard Devoto – Rainy Season (7″ single version)
Humble Pie – 79th And Sunset
Joe Bonamassa – Drive
Julian Troiano – Try
Leonard Cohen – Democracy
Marillion – White Russian
Moody Blues – The Voice
Motels – Suddenly Last Summer
Nick Cave and the Bad Seeds + Kylie Minogue – Where The Wild Roses Grow
Peter Gabriel & Kate Bush – Don’t Give Up
Peter Murphy – Cuts You Up
Phil Manzanera – 1960 Caracas
Pukka Orchestra – Your Secret Is Safe With Me
Rialto – Monday Morning 5:19
Rob Stuart – A Beautiful Thing
Roger Waters – Get Back To Radio
Scritti Politti – Absolute
Sigue Sigue Sputnik – Love Missile F1-11 (Ultraviolence Mix)
Stranglers – Always The Sun (12″ mix)
The The feat. Sinead O’Connor – Kingdom Of Rain
Tom Robinson – War Baby (1983 12” Single)
William Shatner – Has Been