It’s kind of sick that in the Philippines, so many products are made that claim they will make your skin lighter. A friend of mine pointed out that one advertisement where the product would turn your skin to lighter tones and it somehow implies that having lighter skin will make you more beautiful.
And it’s also sick now that I think about it. Why did we, as kids, feel ashamed going to school with darker skin tone because we went to the beach and bathed under the sun too much? Why did we think that staying indoors for a longer period of time will make our skin tones lighter?
My mother was teased for having a broad/flat nose when she was a kid. I wasn’t teased for mine but I was conscious of it because of what I’ve heard from others. I didn’t like my frizzy hair and feared getting my hair cut short because it will only look like a mess. When I graduated elementary school at the age of 10, I had my hair straightened because I was conscious of it and I got praised when they saw I had straight hair.
But as I grew up, I tried to erase this kind of thinking. There’s nothing wrong about my skin tone. I see my friends who have curly/frizzy hair and they look beautiful and I found confidence in mine because if I could see beauty in them, there are others who will see beauty in mine. My nose? Excuse me my nose is cute and even though if I wear glasses it will just slide down, at least it gives me an excuse to do that cool anime thing where you push your glasses up.
Also these traits make us US. It’s so nice that when someone (who’s aware that there are other Asians other than Chinese because please for crying out loud here where I am in ZA anyone who sees us just start saying that stereotypical ‘Shiye shiye’ sound someone give them a map) sees me and my family they ask if we’re Filipinos. They could tell because of these traits and I’m proud I could flaunt my nationality and open discussions about it.
Be proud. You are beautiful. Your country and the people of your country and your culture is beautiful. Be proud of it.
I know this won’t erase your doubts immediately because even I am still trying to love myself. I still look at the mirror and wish I had this or that. But it’s good to know and have someone remind you that you are beautiful and there is absolutely nothing wrong about you like what other people might say according to their standards.
You are beautiful!!