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Friday, August 3, 2012

Wobbly times number 152


Fighting Gonzales
Set San Diego, California, 1959


There was a trace of fog in the air from the night before.  Jack awoke to another cool, grey morning, knowing that temps would jump to the sunny seventies by eleven or so.  It was 6:30 am just another April school day.  His mom was calling to him from the kitchen where she was already  busying herself with breakfast for the family. 

His dad was eating his bacon, eggs and toast washing his breakfast down with milk, about ready to leave for work.  From his bedroom down the hall, Jack could only hear his parents as a low, mumbling murmur.  He didn’t bother  trying to decipher what it was they were speaking about or even to look down the hall, which he could easily do from his bedroom.  Undoubtedly, whatever they were saying was irrelevant.  At least to him, it was irrelevant.  When they wanted his attention, they usually yelled in his direction.  The sound of crickets combing their legs together held more interest for him than eavesdropping his parents’ buzz.  At least crickets were soothing  Most things that people his parent’s age did were of little consequence and sometimes, irritating to Jack. 

His father drove a delivery truck for Sparklett’s Water, all dressed-up in a uniform.   The cap had a shiny, brown, patent leather brim.  Jack’s dad wore this outfit on his route.  Shoes were the employee’s own choice, as long as they were brown leather with brown laces. 

Delivering bottled water was a heavy lifting job.  His pop had to lift a five gallon glass bottle, filled with water from the loading rack of the truck and then, heave it across his shoulder.  He’d deliver it into one of the suburban residences or local businesses.  Carrying the empties back out to the truck was much easier.  His father mentioned once, during a  commercial break on TV, that he was sometimes  able to take two empties at the same time back to the truck.  “Work could be done faster”, he said.  “Attitude is key.” 

But Jack’s attitude was none too good.  In fact, he prided himself on cultivating a bad attitude.  Bad got mixed up with cool and cool got mixed up with bad.  So, to be bad was to be good in Jack’s youngish lexicon.  That’s the way things worked in Jack’s world.  He had little idea of why his father went to work for Sparklett’s--other than for the money.

Sparklett’s was non-union of course.  Jack’s dad didn’t mind one little bit.  In fact, he preferred matters that way.  He was proud to be an individual.   He distrusted organization.  Organization meant bureaucracy and bureaucracy meant the death of individual freedom.  Among other things, Jack’s father staked a claim to having seen the movie version of “1984" on TV. 



Peter Goetz was a  working-class Republican of the Eisenhower era, meaning that his voting behaviour was a form of brand loyalty rather than a choice of social/economic policy or expression of satisfaction or dissatisfaction. He kept voting for one brand of political party for the same reason that he kept buying one brand of car, soda, fast food, or for that matter, going to the same church - because this was what he was familiar with.   Evaluating all available options and making a rational decision was not the way he did things.   Like most of his fellow workers, Peter was not a rational utility maximiser. Instead, he was a  transaction cost minimizer and ex-post facto rationalizer. He wouldn’t necessarily go for what could give him maximum gain. Instead, he went for what required minimum effort in the here and now.    He told himself, and everyone else who’d listen, what he did was, “a good deal” for himself and for his family.

In order to distinguish himself from his parents, in short, to rebel, Jack developed a fascination for Nazis.  He figured that they’d gotten a rotten deal.  He saw through the phoniness of it all when he watched movies on TV.   TV stations were incessantly mining their stocks of World War II  films.   “Victory at Sea”, one of Jack’s favourites, was another matter.  Be that as it may, in the Hollywood and British versions of filmed fiction,  German soldiers were almost always bumbling about with single shot rifles.  To be sure, they had cooler helmets and uniforms, but pulling the bolt back to put another round in the chambre of their Mausers made them look too dumb.  Meanwhile, G.I.s would be shooting bullets one after the other from their M1s.  Result: busloads of dead Germans.  “Highly unlikely,” Jack thought.  Very few Americans ‘bought it’ in the films Jack saw on TV.  It was all so unfair and probably another deception foisted on the young by his parents’ generation.  That’s what Jack thought.  Anyway, the Germans were clearly the ‘underdog’.   Instinctually, Jack felt an affinity for underdogs. 

He remembered his father telling him once, “The Nazis were just a bunch of gangsters.  They were just a bunch of thugs.”  That statement alone made it possible for Jack to admire Frank Nitti when it came time for the next “Untouchables” episode on TV and may have had the direct effect of making “The Godfather” an essential movie going rite of passage for himself later in life. 

His pop also told him that when he worked at the Ryan aircraft assembly plant during the war, he got to look at two or three captured German planes.  The company brought them in so that their employees could examine them and compare quality.  His dad said that he noticed that the workmanship was, “shoddy”.  “Japs made their planes the same way”, he said.  Jack could believe it about the Japs, but the Germans? 

Jack spitefully maintained his interest in the Nazis even after this ‘little talk’.  He continued to suspect that Germans were not as clumsy and stupid as the Hollywood movies made them out to be.  Certainly, they could never have been as evil as the movies portrayed them.  Yet, after his dad’s anti-Nazi spiel, he became suspicious of the Germans as well.  Maybe there was something to the anger adults felt and were still feeling against them, the Japs and even the Italians. 



Jack’s dad loved Westerns and war movies, anything where the rebelliously tinged hero wound his way successfully through the obstacles which crum-bums, rotten no-goods, Mexicans and other undesirables put in his way .  Both his mom and dad would sit down together and watch “Gunsmoke” and “Have Gun Will Travel” once a week.  They were prime-time shows.   “Dragnet” was prime-time too:  the fifties reality show where, “only the names have been changed to protect the innocent.”   For a change of pace, there were “The Twilight Zone” and “The Honeymooners”.  Jack liked watching TV with his parents, although he was sometimes frustrated with their channel choices. 

On Sundays, the family went to worship in the protestant church of their choice.  They were exercising, what they believed to be, a fundamental American freedom.   They worshipped a  fellow Jack’s pop called,  “the good Lord”.  

Jack reckoned that going to church was not freedom.  It was a tedious exercise which involved hanging out with the odious Sunday school crowd.  Sunday school teachers and their lame attempts at something they called ‘moral instruction’ made him sleepy.  “How,” he thought, “could the ‘good lord’ send an angel of death to kill all of Egypt’s first born children?”

“What the heck was good about killing babies?”

Jack would always brighten up when the Sunday school teacher started handing out  little brochures to be taken home.  This act meant the end was near and lunch was at hand.

Jack imagined that his parents felt themselves to be very honest, decent people, even though his dad didn’t like pushy Jews or dirty people.  It seemed, especially in Jack’s father’s eyes, that the darker the person was, the more likely the person in question would be corrupt, slovenly, dishonest, generally disorganized and most likely, unemployed. 

Jack’s father traced his European roots to the Netherlands.  People were white and clean in Holland–no crum-bums.  Jack noticed that in the movies he watched on TV about the war, the Nazis had some of the same attitudes which his father exhibited.  “The poor quality of workmanship in German fighter aircraft was most likely due to Nazi thuggery plus, their bureaucratic organization,” Jack thought.

His mom was not quite so concerned with the darker people as with preservation.  According to Jack’s dad, that was because, “..she never goes out very much.”  She had encased all her cloth-covered furniture in plastic.  To her, this was an ingenious act of tidiness.  It followed that if seat covers were good for the car, they were even more needed for home furniture. 

Light was a fact of Nature which greatly disturbed Jack’s mother.  Light, especially sunlight, tended to make furniture colours fade.  It also affected the carpet.  As a consequence, both were covered over with sheets of protective plastic.  To be sure, it was clear plastic.  Unfortunately, clear plastic sheeting did allow light to fade material.  Therefore, it was thought best by Jack’s mom to shut off all but a few lights and to draw the curtains after Jack’s dad left for work.  That way, their home would be sparkling clean for the evening when they sat on the furniture to watch TV.

Jack was ready to take the plunge.  He had been in bed up to the last moment possible.  Like his father, Jack had a timetable to meet.  He pulled the covers from his body.  He sat up, then wheeled his legs around whereupon, he put his feet on to the cold linoleum floor.  He felt hurriedly under the bed for his slippers.  “Ah yes, there they are,” he told himself as he grabbed one, then the other from the position that he’d left them in the night before. 



“Jack!  Get in the shower!  You’ve only got half an hour before your bus comes,” his mom bellowed from the kitchen. 

“All right ma,” he yelled down the hall.  He got up and slipper-shuffled into the bathroom, looking at himself, flexing his biceps in the long mirror as he passed on the way to the shower.  His tan was fading and his hair was messed up. He’d work on his tan this summer.  His hair didn’t matter at this moment. 

He still had a pee hard-on, so he propped himself up against the wall to face the toilet and angled his penis towards the toilet bowl.  “A bean’s a bean but a pee’s a relief,” he recited under his breath with a slight grin.  Somehow, that aphorism hadn’t left his head since he first learned it on a school field trip at age seven.  (An image of the inside walkway within a dark train carriage passed through his head-- then it vanished).  Jack tried to remember, but his dreams melted away as he tried to grasp them.

When he’d finished urinating, he turned the shower on.   Hot first, then he started mixing in the cold and when that was ready, he stepped in tub. 

First, he stood directly under the shower and scrubbed his hair with Head & Shoulders Shampoo.  He dug his nails, hard into his scalp as the lather plopped into the tub water.  As he shampooed, he planned his attire–today, his black turtleneck.  He didn’t want a bunch of dandruff falling on his shoulders.  He let the clear, strong stream rinse his hair thoroughly. 

Jack had yet to learn the social benefits of deodorant.  He wasn’t  quite sure why it was that people put “that shit” on.  Didn’t seem natural to him.  He racked it up to another inane adult behaviour which people copied without knowing why.  But he, he knew about Head and Shoulders and about putting Clearasil on his pimples.  Jack didn’t have many of them.  He scrubbed his back and face too hard with Lifeboy for that.  When a blemish erupted, he immediately applied a small mound of Clearasil directly to it.   Sometimes, for the really serious eruptions, he used his dad’s Pragmatar.  

He peered out through the clear, plastic shower curtain. There it sat, near the sink with the lid off, all white and shiny in a squat, green jar.  “God, that stuff stinks!” he thought as he washed his torso completely clean.  Then, he turned the water off, got out of the shower, got a nice, fluffy towel to dry himself and proceeded to his bedroom to get dressed:  jeans, turtleneck, sneakers.  On his way to breakfast, he went back to the bathroom to put some Clearasil on a pimple he’d just noticed popping up on his cheek. 

“Jack?”

“Yeah ma,” he yelled from the bathroom.

“Do you want one egg or two?”

“Two eggs, ma.”



Jack sauntered into the kitchen and sat down for breakfast.  His dad had already left.  Jack scarfed down the bacon, eggs and toast in a matter of a minute and like his father, washed it all down with a cold glass of milk.  He got up from the table and went back to his bedroom to get his books and binder. 

“Ok ma, I’m off.” 

“Jaaack!”

“Yeah ma.”

His mother stopped him in the hallway.  She had a worried look on her face.  “Jack, your father says that you should be looking for a job this summer.”

“Ah come on, ma, it’s only April.  Summer is a long way off.”

“Your father says that now is the time to be looking.”

“Oh jeez, ma.”

“I want you to go to the school counsellor and ask her if she knows where 15 year olds can look for summer jobs.”

“Ah ma.”

Jack...” she said with that special raised eyebrow.  The expression on her face indicated, she meant it.

“Ah ok, ma.” 

“Good then.  Hurry up.  You’ll be late for the bus.”

Jack left the house and walked briskly down the sidewalk towards the bus top on Cabrillo Mesa Drive.  After about ten steps, he stopped, made a u-turn and went back to the house.  He walked in with a deep breath.

“Jack!  What are you doing here?  You know the bus is coming.” his mother said as she pulled the drapes shut.

“I just want to say that if he touches me, I’m going to hit him hard.”  Jack felt his muscles tense.

“Peter only wants what’s right for you,” his mother said quickly.

Jack could tell that she was afraid.  He’d never seen that look before.  He retreated.  “Ok ma.  Just tell him not to touch me.”  And then, he turned and went back out the door, walking briskly toward the curb where the V-bus stopped to pick up kids on their way to Linda Vista Junior High.  He’d never liked the idea that his mother had re-married.


There weren’t any blacks in Cabrillo Mesa.  Most of them went to school  in Logan Heights.  “Man, that’s a bad-ass neighbourhood,” Jack thought.  He’d never been there.  He didn’t have to go there.  He knew.  It was simple.  Blacks were badass-mohz.

As he approached the stop, he saw the usual bunch: James, Susie, Claire, Don, Roger and Roger’s brother Randy.  Louis, pronounced ‘lew-ee’, was there too.  Louis Chavez was a Mexican, different from the majority.  The kids were all milling about, mostly making comments about the previous night’s TV episode of “Zorro”.  Jack noticed the hair under Claire’s arm  “She must be Italian,” he thought.

“I like it when he does that zip-zip,zip, zip thing with his sword, man,” Louis said

Yeah man, that’s so bad,”  Randy said.

“You know it,” Jack added.

Roger Toosher was on his haunches, expertly blowing smoke rings into the quiet air.  “Marlboro is the coolest brand.  No doubt about it,” Jack thought.  He checked and confirmed that Roger had the hard pack.  Susie quickly glanced at Roger.  His shirt was open, three buttons from the top, his belt buckle was  secured at the second loop from the button-front of his jeans, his hair fanned large on top of his head like some Spartan warrior.  He wore a waist length, tan cloth jacket over white t-shirt and jeans.

The guys listened intently as Roger taught them the art of blowing rings.  Roger and his brother Randy were outsiders.  They’d only moved to Cabrillo Mesa a year ago.  Still, they were an impressive pair because everybody knew they were, bad.  Word was that they had to move down from Idaho because Roger was a suspect in a local store robbery.  It was also rumoured that Roger and sometimes Randy, along with him, did  stuff at night, stuff that would get you sent to juvee, if the cops caught you.  Nobody knew what exactly the brothers did on these alleged sojourns.  There were only  rumours.  Truth was: nobody wanted to know for sure.  It was dangerous to ask.  Both Roger and Randy were known to be ready to throw punches at the first sign of an uncool move.

Randy took a hard pack of Marlboro’s out of his shirt pocket and  hit it deftly,  rhythmically, top-down on to the palm of his hand.

“Hey Essay, lemme bum a cigarette.” Louis more or less asked.  “Come on, man.  Don’t be cold.

Randy opened the package, throwing the cellophane down on the sidewalk, and got out a cigarette for himself and one for Louis. Louis wouldn’t have asked Roger.



Randy’s pack-to-hand ritual had  forced the tobacco hard against the filter, leaving the cigarette with an empty pocket, a one-sixteenth of an inch pack-down in the cylindrical  tip.  Randy cupped his hands into a perfectly windless bowl as he struck his match.  The paper lit quickly and the cigarette was burning. Then, he passed the match, with cupped hands, on to Louis.   They both took deep drags.  Randy pursed his lips flat then blew smoke between them in two, quick, audible breaths.  Louis let it out of both his nose and mouth, his words accented with smoke as he plaintively remarked, “Aw man....”

The V-bus turned the corner and started up Cabrillo Mesa Drive. 

“Shit,” Randy said as he took a long drag he could from his cigarette.

Jack impatiently nudged his arm, “Give me drag off that man.” 

Randy passed Jack the cigarette and then shot spit between his teeth onto the sidewalk.  No disrespect was meant.  Spitting was more akin to punctuation.   Jack took a long drag, then gently put the burning head out on the sidewalk and handed it back to Randy.  Randy smiled and put the butt back into his hard pack. He already had the teeth of a forty-year-old.. 

Randy’s  hair was shiny black.  It was combed back into a duck’s ass–a DA.  Hair tonic glistened from his ‘fenders’. His white face was pockmarked with small craters and occasional pink and red tipped pimples.

The bus stopped and the doors opened to a noisy interior, jammed with teenagers.  Jack and Randy showed their bus passes to the driver and pushed their way toward the back.  School bus riding wasn’t so bad.  It was always close quarters and sometimes a guy could cop a feel. Some of the kids in the back seat were signing “Charlie Brown” and “Yakety-Yak”.  Jack spotted Claire seated about three down from him toward the front, seemingly oblivious to the crowd.  She was amazing and so brown.  Even her hair was brown.  She was also developed.  Not like some of the girls.  Claire was special.   Claire had tits and fine, fine, superfine legs.  “She must be Italian,” Jack thought.  He really would have liked to see more movies with Steve Reeves, Gina Lolabridgida and Sophia Loren in them.  In the Sixties, he would turn more attention to “Playboy” ‘Playmates of the Month’, Monica Vita and eventually, the “Barbarella” version of Jane Fonda. 

The V-bus swayed round road curves.  It dipped at stop lights and jerked at take-offs.  The bus was so packed that Jack felt like it was going to flip over at times when the driver turned his steering wheel to the left and then, mercifully, to the right again.  Flesh fell against flesh.  At the halfway mark, the V-bus passed Sharpes Hospital.  Jack could never figure out why the hospital was named ‘Sharpes’.  Hell, he didn’t even know enough to ask the question.  For Jack, it was school now.  That’s what counted.  Getting to school and to classes and maybe having some fun in between and then coming home to watch TV. 

As soon as the bus parked outside the gray stucco building, the building that exemplified all that was LVJHS, Jack walked to the place where the badest guys would be gathered –those guys who would hang out at the steel horizontal bars, in the sand pit near the boys’ gym.   



Randy exited and quickly went his way, off to smoke at the periphery of the school grounds.  Sure, Randy was bad, but that kind of bad eventually meant trouble and Jack didn’t want that. The rule was that you couldn’t smoke on school property, but hey, cross the street and you could hang out with your crowd and smoke to your heart’s content, but only until the bell rang.  Once, about three months ago, Jack had ditty-bopped over to that side of the street.  He bummed a couple of drags.  “Hey man, give me a drag.”   He was able to gape at some real ‘Tijuana Bibles’, one with Wimpy fucking Olive Oil and another with Minnie giving Mickey a blow-job.   

But today, there were matters to prove–to himself and the others who would notice.  Jack had set himself a challenge.  He gripped the medium-sized bar and tried his latest–a kip.  He swung his legs behind and then forward and then jack-knifed his belly toward the bar.  The move was not successful.  He dropped back to the hanging position and held on to the bar for a moment, seemingly in contemplation of the sand.  Actually, he was bit frightened.  He tried again.  This time the kip succeeded and beautifully as well.  He decided to dismount, starting in the sit-around position. Sitting on the bar, he forced his head backwards, hanging on with his legs.  As he plunged towards a six o’clock somersault, he let go and landed feet-first, standing ankle-deep in sand. 

Some other guy stood at the base of the bars next, so Jack stood aside.  He’d had his turn.  He’d done it.  He’d done a kip.  Pride surged through his body. 

He stood at the edge of the pit and watched the others, all boys.  Anthony Ferguson was doing a cheery drop.   The horizontal bars stood high over the sand pit.  One mistake and you fell the wrong way.  It would no not be a soft landing either.  Tony positioned himself in the sit-around position after ‘kipping’ up to the top of the bar.  Then, he lay back and in a moment of perfect balance, legs straight out, head out the other direction board-straight, he shifted the weight of his body backward and flipped his feet over his head in a perfect dismount.  Like the ‘hock-circle’, Jack would never see the Cherry-drop done in any competition on TV, including the Olympics.

The bell rang school to a start.  Unlike his dad, Jack didn’t have to wear a uniform during school.  Catholic school kids did.  LVJHS was public.  Jack wore jeans a t-shirt and a khaki coloured Eisenhower jacket.  His hair was slick-combed back with Brylcreem.  He tried other hair tonics. Brylcreem was the coolest, especially as it was heavily advertised by the ‘Fearless Fosdick’.  Hah, what a cool thing it was to be combing Brylcreem in your hair in the morning–much better than Vitalis.  And it wasn’t greasy either.  It had something called ‘lanolin’ in it.  Nope, no greasy kids’ stuff for Jack.



First period was English with Miss Briggs.  Miss Briggs had wide hips.  Jack thought of her wide hips as he crossed the playing field towards the bungalow where English class was taught.  Miss Briggs must have been old,  like 29 or something.  She didn’t have much in the way of tits.  Practically, flat-chested, Miss Briggs was.  She did have a nice smile though and Jack felt that he learned a lot from her in class.  Jack wanted to learn.  He didn’t like wasting his time.  Miss Briggs would parade back and forth down the aisles of the classroom in her black, horn-rimmed glasses, her book close to her face as she read the lesson aloud in her long, tightly fitted dress.  Jack like her red one best.  Then, she’d put the book down at her side.  Yeah, that great side of hers... and ask questions about what she had just read.  And, yep, she’d be smiling.  What a joke.  Most of the kids couldn’t care less and they showed it.  Besides, most didn’t  really know.  It was more like they were pretending to be too smart to learn that kind of stuff–like we’ve got way more important things to think about, like maybe whose jacket Cheryl was wearing today.  Now that was something which mattered.  Cheryl was recognized as being one of the coolest chicks.  If she wore a guy’s jacket draped over her shoulders, it meant that they were ‘going steady’, a highly significant event.  Cheryl was wearing Frenchie’s jacket.  Frenchie was probably the worst student in school and also the baddest.  Word was that Frenchie would soon be transferred downtown to the tech-school.

After first period English, Jack was walking across the school ground to PE.  On the way, Pancho Gonzales started taunting him.  “What are you looking at, Goetz?  You think you’re bad or something?  Hey Goetz-lips.  Yo-mama wears combat boots.”  Pancho was a fat kid, but he was a fat kid who lived in Linda Vista, which meant that he was probably bad.   Jack ignored him.  Then, Gonzales got up close and said, “I’m choosing you off, Goetz.  Meet me across the road after school today.”   Jack just walked on.  Pancho stood there and laughed and yelled after him, “Don’t forget, mamma-hamma.”  Jack turned his back and said , “Forget you.”

“What’d you say mo-fug?”  faded into the background....

A crowd of kids had gathered.  There was no escape from their penetrating eyes.  If Pancho showed up across the road and Jack wasn’t there, they’d know that he had, “ H’d him out”. They’d know, because they’d all be there in that lot.   Jack just kept walking to PE class.  Pancho grinned triumphantly.

PE was always enjoyable for Jack.  He was pretty good at sports and today the coach was organizing games of flag football for the boys.  The girls went to a separate PE class.  Jack liked playing end.  He caught two touchdown passes during the class. 

After PE was lunch.  Jack got the brown paper bag containing the lunch his mother had made for him out of his locker and went back out to the sunshine of PE area.

 “Hmm, peanut butter and jelly,” he thought.  Jack stopped at the cafeteria to pick up some milk, to wash his sandwich down with.  After he woofed down the last crust, he got involved in a pick up game of softball.  Then, the bell rang and it was back to school–this time science class.  After that was history and then shop. 

As the day worn on, Jack felt his stomach churning with greater frequency.   He moved through crowds of students changing classes.  He felt detached.  He found it difficult to concentrate on what any of his teachers were saying.  In history, his favourite class, Mr. Evans asked him point blank in the middle of the lesson what year the battle of Actium occurred in.  As it happened, Mr. Evans had just a moment beforehand, read that date to the class.  Jack drew a blank.  Mr. Evans then asked Jack what the significance of the Battle of Actium was for Cleopatra.  But Jack hadn’t a clue.  During the whole class, he had one concern.  The fight played itself out again and again to different ends in his imagination, like some kind of psycho-dramatic scenario.

When the last bell rang, Jack found himself walking inexorably in the direction of the lot across the street where he knew Gonzales would be waiting and the crowds would be gathering.  He screwed up his courage.  It seemed, his palms were sweating blood.



Pancho’s girlfriend was on his arm.  Yolanda saw Jack first and squealed, “There’s the little white dickhead!”  Pancho looked in Jack’s direction.  Gonzales did not look quite as arrogant as he had on the playground that morning.  His jacket hung like a cape over his girlfriend’s shoulders.  She was smiling up at him. 

When Jack got within forty paces, he stopped.  The crowd formed a circle around the two, the middle emptying and milling back towards the circumference.  Pancho looked at Jack quizzically.  Jack removed his jacket and layed it softly on the dirt.  The two approached the centre.  Pancho threw the first blow, a hay-maker towards Jack’s head but Jack ducked.  Then he thrust forward and plowed head first into Pancho’s gut.  With an “Ooff!”  Pancho bent over.  The wind had been knocked out him.  Then Jack hooked his right foot over Pancho’s left foot while pushing the Mexican’s torso to the right and back.  Gonzales fell with a thud to the ground.  Jack turned and walked back towards his jacket.  Pancho got up ran towards Jack.  Hearing the quickened footsteps, Jack looked back over his shoulder.  Pancho was coming at him full speed at about one second to impact.  Jack started to run, but not soon enough.  Gonzales caught him from behind, around the neck with his fat left arm.  The pointed end of a beer can opener appeared rolled between the thumb and index finger of his right hand.  With it, Pancho tore an inch of flesh from Jack’s cheek.  Then, he let Jack slip from his grip.

Jack yelped with a ten-year old’s voice.  As he dropped into the dust cloud scuffed up by the fight, sirens wailed. 

“Get outta here, the fuzz!” a lone voice yelled from the stampeding herd of kids.

Jack was writhing and moaning in a fetal position.  His jacket lay ten feet in front of him.  Dust plumed thickly again as three police cars skidded into the vacant lot.

 


   



   


    

Monday, May 14, 2012

Wobbly times number 148




Long Black and  Flat White


The radio was always tuned to the Italian station at Conca’s.  A barrage of polysyllabic static emanated from the speaker. 

“Sounds like a soccer game?”

“Yayes”, the elder woman said.  “Is Italia?  What would you and the young lady desire this morning?”

“I don’t know.  What do you want Frances?  Hey, look there’s some meat,”I peered into the glassed in counter case, “ looks like good Italian sausage.”

“Yayes.  Is very good.” 

“I think I’ll just have the regular breakfast.” Frances said.

“You want a coffee or something to drink too?” the white haired woman asked.

“Yes.  I’ll have a long black and  a sport drink–one of the Red Bulls.”

I decided, “I’d like to have eggs and toast.”

“What?  You want no meat?”

“No.  I’d rather, just have—some potatoes, perhaps, instead.”

“We don’t have no potatoes, Signore.  How about, I give you extra egg and some pineapple and maybe a fried tomato?”

“Sounds great.” 

“Do you want a coffee or something too.”

“Yes.  I’ll have a flat white and bottle of that orange juice.”

“Ok.  You just go sit down; get your orange juice and Red Bool over there in the cooler and I bring everything else out.”

“Where do you want to sit, Tommy?”

“Here’s good.  Ok?”

“Fine.” 



“Can I get a paper too?”

“But of course, Signore.  That will be $14.50,” bells ringing as she pushed the cash register keys.

“Grazie.”

“Prego, prego, Signore.  Are you Canadian?”

“No; I’m an American.  I’m from San Francisco.”

Frances, her blond streaked hair bobbing, made her way to the cooler then smiling with her sly grin, brought our drinks back to the table.

“Bravo Signore.  Are you here on vacation?”

“Sort of.  I’ll be here for another five months or so.”

“I hope, you will enjoy yourself, Signore.”

“I’m sure. I will.  In fact; I already am.”

The  table itself was situated on the line which separated the light from the dark sections of Conca’s.  The Formica topped tables decorated with lilies, surviving miraculously without water.  In the darker corners of the café, a grey haired woman sat under a  old, framed movie poster depicting a broadly smiling fellow, in a yellow t-shirt with black gloves and a Texaco, gas- station -of- the- 50's kind of hat,  in,“Un Americano in Roma”, a Carlo Ponti production, her eyes glued to the coin operated computer screen as a middle aged man next to her (her son?) prompted her every move on the internet–instructional mode.  On another wall, a poster of James Dean walking down rain splattered streets of New York on the “Bolulevard of Broken Dreams”.   Other wall decorations had Humphrey Bogart, Clark Gable and a chewing gum advertisement for Wrigley’s written in German.  The pin ball machine’s hastily scrawled “Out of Order” sign, still there after weeks of these Sunday morning outings irritated me.

“Scheisse.  I thought, they’d have it fixed by now.”

“What’s that Tommy?”

“The damn pinball machine.  It’s been like that for weeks.”

“No worries, Tommy.  They’ll have it fixed soon,” Frances demurely replied.

Time, is what it was.  Time was going at another, slower speed now.  I was still in hyper-drive, but not “me mates”.  They hadn’t experienced the complete boot up of Silicon Valley ‘Chip Kultur’.  It was “hurry up and wait” there, taken to the nth degree of absurdity.  These people were still in the 60's or even 70's in terms of the killer pace.  I was just glad to be on the edge of the planet; out of the way in Western Australia; a rat out of the race, a winner, transforming himself back into a human.


“Babe; you know what I am?”

“No, what are you Tommy?”  Frances said as she put down the “Sunday Times”. 

“I’m a runaway slave; that’s what.  I’m a runaway slave.”

“That’s fine, Tommy.  Do you want some of the paper?”

“Yeah.  Hand me the sports section, will you, Beautiful?  I’m determined to learn what the hell is going on with this cricket game.  I mean they bounce the ball in front of the plate and all.  A mystery, a complete mystery.”

“Sure thing.” Frances said, as she peered over the business section and handed me the sports.

“Ah Signora.  Here you are.”  Granny Italiana said with a smile as the plate touched gently on the formica –a typical Australian breakfast of: sausage; ham; fried tomato; an egg, cooked sunny side up, plopped onto toasted white bread. 

 After setting Frances’ long black down she presented mine, “And for you Signore–is these ok?  You see; we have here a little pineapple too.  And a one flat white.” 

“I see.  Very good.  Looks great.  Grazie Signora.”

“Prego, Signore, prego.  Enjoy.” And with that she withdrew back into the kitchen; the heat of the recently lit pizza ovens and Italian conversation with another older woman; the two working, as they did every day at Conca’s; preparing  homemade pizza and breakfasts for their incoming retinue.

Stirring two packets of sugar into the thickened milk and then sipping, I relished the un-frothed, cappuccino like quality of my flat white.  As usual, the sunny side up egg had been placed directly on top of my toast.  I deftly moved it off and picked up the partially soggy tan bread in my hand.. 

“Quaint, how they do the egg ON the toast.”

“It’s the Australian way, dear.” Frances replied with her usual blended tone of sarcasm and irony.



 A hot breath of air blew through Conca’s open door. Outside, blinding white brightness splashed over a landscape of dry brown and green suburban lawns.  A Pizza Hut chain restaurant sat kitty corner cross the street, slowly sucking the Conca’s customer base away. A sun of 40 degrees centigrade burned down from a relentlessly clear, blue sky.  A man of about 45, breezed through the door and picked up one of the “Sunday Times” from the pile of those still for sale.  After perusing it for five minutes, he replaced it neatly on the stack, then, sauntered out again.  The grannies remained in the kitchen, oblivious to the man’s commercial violation.  Then the TV came on.  More soccer from bella Italia.  A teen, sans shirt with girlfriend in tow, arrived seeking shelter from the incessant sun.  Frances scooped up the last slab of egg white into her mouth, then fed her caffeine addiction once more with another sip of  Red Bull as the teen and his woman friend shared coke; she clad black on black: black shirt, pants, ankle high boots, rounded with silver studs.  They exited arm in arm  into a blaze of sunshine.

“She must sweat like a stuck pig in that outfit.”

“Excuse me?”  Frances questioned.

“I mean that woman in black.”

“I see.  Yes, she must.  Are you ready to go back now?”

“Yeah.”

“So long, Signoras” I called.

“Oh, you leaving now?”

“Yes.  We’ll be back though.  When do you start making pizzas?”

“We start now.”

“Already?  It’s only 11.”

“All day, ‘till night Signore.”

“Ok then, we’ll be back sometime for pizzas.”  We stepped out into gush of hot wind.

“You want to give me a massage when we get back?” Frances asked.

“Sounds a delightful proposition.” I smiled.

The car was at least 10 degrees hotter.  We hurriedly rolled the windows down; did a U-turn and made our way back down the Albany Highway and finally down King George Street to our upstairs apartment.  Frances took her clothes off and put a towel down over the Turkish rug.  I got the “Exstress” massage oil out of the refrigerator.

“Eureka!”

“What are you talking about now, Tommy?”

“That’s what’s written on the side of the oil bottle.  Advert gimmick.”

“Hmm.  You want to do the front or back first?”

“Front.”

“Ok, start with the top.”


I massaged her from her top, just below her chin, to the to bottom of her feet.  She turned over and I started immediately in the middle.

“WHAT ARE YA DOIN’.  GIVE ME...YOU GET OUT HERE.  GO!  GET OUT OF HERE!”

“Sounds like it’s coming from the next building.  Those people are always fighting.”

“Yeah.”  Frances said. 

Neither of us, I think, wanted especially to do anything or find anything out about what the cretins around us were doing, yet again.  It seemed like harmless lovers’ spats broke out between couples all the time in our neighbourhood–“Leetal Napoli”, I liked to call it.   But the noises persisted and began to sound a bit closer.  So, I reluctantly got up and peered out the small bathroom window, conveniently located head high.  Nothing to be seen across to the neighbours.  And as I listened more carefully, I determined that the disturbance seemed to be located within our own complex.

“What are you doing, Tommy?  Come back here and finish.”

“I don’t know, Frances.  It’s beginning to sound a bit weird.  Maybe, I better check outside.”

“Are you sure, Tommy?  Could be dangerous.”

The disturbance was getting louder now.  It seemed to have broken out of doors downstairs.

“I’m going down,” I said as I put my trousers back on.

“You be careful, Tommy.”

“Don’t worry.  Remember, we’ve been taking martial arts at Muay Thai.”

“Stop joking, Tommy.”

“Ok, no worries, Frances.” I said with mock confidence.

So, I proceeded outside the front screen door and down the cement stairs.  When I peered over the railing I saw.

“Give mih back ma knife.”  Scotty, our seventy year old downstairs neighbour was saying to a hefty black woman in her late thirties with a long kitchen dagger in her right hand, as they both lurched out of his apartment door; she moving backwards and he approaching her, hands up, with his absurdly demanding appeal.  The knife was in stabbing position.  That it to say, it was being held in her fist with the blade pointing downwards, ready to deliver the fatal blow.

“You get him away from me,” she said.



Then, I noticed the him, she was talking about, a short, puffy eyed black man, in his forties, I estimated.  He made gestures and grunting sounds then, he looked at me in partial shock and partial fear, whether of me or the knife wielding woman or both, I couldn’t ascertain.  He dropped  his half-filled  litre of Emu Bitter in the dead grass near the wall of Scotty’s apartment.

“Get AWAY FROM ME!” she screamed.  And the black man loped off, away and towards the nearby sidewalk, looking furtively over his shoulder as she continued to stare menacingly in his direction, then whirling back towards Scotty who repeated, “ I want ma knife back.”

“Scotty!”  I shouted.  “It’ ok.  Let her have the knife.”

She turned and noticed me then, breaking down in tears, “You call the police!  Call them!  Tell them to make him stop bothering me.  You do that now.  Do it now!”

“Ok, ok”, I said.  And I ran upstairs to phone.

“What’s the number of the police, Frances?  Do you have like a universal number here or something?”

“I don’t know.” she said.

“I’ll look them up in the phone book.  Lets see, yes, here,  police services.”

I pushed the numbers in and waited.

“Police or Fire or some other emergency.  How shall I direct your call?”  the voice at the other end of the line calmly asked.

“Hello.  This is police service.  What is the nature of the problem?”

“I’m an American.  I don’t know whether I’ve got the right number or not.  I haven’t been in Perth very long.  But the situation is that there’s a woman with a knife downstairs and she’s waving it around rather threateningly.  An old guy lives downstairs and he’s asking for his knife back.  And then there was this other guy...”

“Sir?”

“Yes?”

“Where do you live, sir?”

“I live at unit ten, 20 King George Street in Victoria Park.”

“What is the apartment number where the disturbance is taking place.?”

“It’s right below this one.  I ‘m not sure of correct number.  Do you want me to go down and look?”

“No.  That’s quite all right, Sir.  And your phone number?”


“9366-77, let’s see.  I’ve got it here somewhere.”

“9366-789 is it?”

“Yes, that’s it.  How did you know?”

“We’ll be sending someone right out.  Thank-you, Sir.”

 
By this time, Frances had put some clothes on and had  gone out to the balcony to check on the action outside.

“The woman is leaving now.” she said over her shoulder looking back through the screen door at me. “ She’s going down the sidewalk.”

  “ I hope the police don’t hang around all day.” I replied.  “ If it was the States, they’d be here for hours filling out reports and getting statements.” 

“Well, here they are, Tommy.  Quick enough for you?”

The cops came towards the apartment complex and knocked on door below our apartment. 

“Oh no.  It’s not that one,” I said out loud..  “They’re at the wrong apartment.” 

“Here they come upstairs.” Frances observed.

“Ah yes.  I’m the guy who phoned.  It’s apartment one, just down there.”

“What was happening?”  the cop asked as he looked at his partner. 

“Well, there was this guy down there, leaving.  I think that’s his beer bottle down there next to the building.”  I said in a rapid, nervous voice as I went out on the balcony and pointed  towards the Emu Bitter container.  “There’s an older guy who lives down in the apartment.  We heard loud noises coming from down there and so I went out to see what was happening.  When I did, I saw this woman with a knife coming out of the old guy’s apartment.  He was following her and then there was the other guy who sort of took off when he saw me.”

“They were aboriginals.”  Frances stated flatly.

The cops looked at each other, “We’ll go check now.  Thanks for your help.”

They went downstairs to Scotty’s door and knocked.  We heard their muffled voices, speaking with Scotty.  A motorcycle cop drove up outside as well.  And then, all three took off in their vehicles.




I decided to go back downstairs then. Scotty came out, when I did, “Ah, they tahride to steal ma mooney.  They always want that, they do. But I fooled ‘em.  They only got ten dollars from the table.  But Ah  fooled ‘em.”  And he pulled a wad of bills from the back of his shorts.  Scotty always wore shorts, his ultra tan spindly legs forever exposed to the West Australian sun.  “Yes, Ah fooled ‘em.” he said again and chuckled, continuing to wave his money in the air. “They didn’t want ma new toaster.  Hah, they didn’t want anything else.  Just mooney.  I knew them from my old apartment.  Yes, they used to come around there too.  He’s deaf, you know.  Can’t talk.  Oh, she always wants mooney.”

“Did you used to give them money?”

“Ah yes, I gave here some mooney.  Yes, they used to live next doohr to me in Perth before.  I used to live there, ya know.  Right down in the City.  Then that company came and mooved us ahll out.  They tore the building down, don’t ya know.  Made us ahll move out.”

“I see,” I said.  “Well, I guess, I’ll go back upstairs now.  Good that you’re ok.  You know, you should have just let her have that knife.”

“That was ma knife.”

“Yeah, I know.  Anyway, I’ll see you later.”  I said, trying now to escape back upstairs to Frances, massage and the good life, once again.

Noticing my intent, Scotty quickly turned the subject around, “Me brand new toaster won’t work; won’t plug in.  Me sister sent it.  Brand new and it won’t plug in.  Fooking Australians.  Maybe you can make it work, Tommy.  Won’t ya come in for minute and take a look.”


Why he thought, I could fix anything was beyond me.  But I agreed, “Ok, sure,” I said.

Scotty’s  place smelled a  musty mix of sour air.  It was sparsely furnished: a small TV; a couple of plastic chairs; a well worn couch; lamp with a frayed shade.   Clearly his brand new, shiny white toaster would be one of his few luxuries--quite possibly, his only one.  He handed it to me with great care..

“Looks like they moved the refrigerator.”  I observed as I took the toaster in hand.

“Oh yes.  There was a commotion, ah what a commotion.  They moved me fridge; thought they’d find mooney there behind it.  But, I fooled ‘em.  They only took $20.”  And he pulled the fat wad of bills from his back pocket once again, shaking them in my direction.

“So you actually knew these people before?”  I queried.

“Ah yes.  They used to live next to me in the City.  They’d come over and talk.  Sheah would talk. We watched TV.  I tried to keep here inside this time.  I went to the door and closed it and said, ‘Now you can’t leave.’ But I forgot,” he laughed and hit his forehead with his hand, “ it only lowcks from the outside.  She got right out.  Took me knife as well.”



“Here’s the problem,” I said as I removed the plastic shipping covers from the prongs of the toaster’s electrical plug.  “No wonder you couldn’t get it into the electrical socket.  The plug’s still got this thing on it.”

I plugged it in and pushed the toast lever down.  As the internal wires turned orange, he said, “Oh, oh, thank-ya.  Thank-ya.  Me eyes aren’t too good, don’t yah know.”

I looked at his eyes more closely this time.  His searching, grateful gaze came through  pale blue colour, clouded by a greyish haze.  Perhaps cataracts; perhaps glaucoma, I couldn’t tell.  It was obvious though that his sight was pretty severely impaired. 

“Won’t you stay and have some beer,” he offered. 

I saw, he was drinking Emu Bitter from litre sized bottles.

“Not right now, Scotty. It’s a bit early for me.  Besides, Frances is waiting for me upstairs.  Maybe later, huh.”

“Oh, oh, thanks for fixin’ me toaster.  It’s brand new, yah know. Me sister sent it to me.  They didn’t take it.  They didn’t want anything but some mooney.”






























Saturday, October 1, 2011

Wobbly times number 131


When an Old Woman Vanishes a Library                             Burns






Tommy opened his eyes.  A blue plane flash-flew ceiling high, passing just over his head.  As soon as it appeared, the plane vanished along with any memory of why it had been there.

He was awake now,  the covers felt good.  Frances lay warm, gorgeous and sexy next to him.  Tommy would have liked nothing better than to snuggle up next to her. But Frances had  to be up for job training by five.  Waking her with a cuddle, possibly poking her with his boney knees was not an option.  So, he decided to get up.

It seemed the coldest part of the day was blowing through the partially open bedroom window.  He moved in a semi-drunken, slow manner toward the bathroom.  Shock hit his body like a cold fist, as he splashed cold water over his face, scrubbing night’s crud from his eyes.  “Bald guys need to keep a wool beret around in the winter.”  This was but one of the many thoughts erupting in his head.

He put on his heaviest black sweater, his thickest sweat pants along with the olive green socks Frances had been issued during her stint in the Australian Defence Force.   Moving outside the bedroom, he carefully closed the door and tip-toed into the darkened living room.  He was finally able to switch the living room light on.   “When you have nothing, you have nothing to lose.”  He spied his flip-flops on the rug.  It was 3am. “Damn, I thought it was closer to five.”  Tommy had become an inveterate insomniac. It seemed the only time he could write was in the wee hours of the morning when it was quiet and he could be alone with his imagination. 

Now properly, warmly, deliciously shoed, “coffee!”  He made his way to their drip style machine and began his holy morning ritual.  Three tablespoons of espresso beans into the grinder : water up to the  ‘seven’ level.  “Must be seven demitasse.”   As he pressed down on the mill’s cover, the electrical connection was made and it whined, constantly changing pitch turning the dry beans to powder.  “What begins with a whine and ends with a wine .”   After fingering the powder into the filter basket and switching the machine, on gurgling water began splurging over the freshly ground coffee, dripping thick-black into the glass pot.



 At the push of a button, the familiar “beep” and “whirr” of the computer booting up came on as  Tommy began doing his Cobra-trained, full push-ups.  “Chest to the floor. Twenty-five, twenty-six. Not bad,” he mused breathlessly.  Rolling his body over on the red, Turkish-style carpet, Tommy  crunched thirty sit-ups.  He stood up without using his hands and walked backed to the coffee maker, where he poured himself a cuppa.  From a condition of total destruction, his mind was now cooking with gas.

Once he’d shuffled back in front of the blue lit computer screen, he launched into the Internet.  He keyed-in his Yahoo password  and perused  news on his home page. 

“Nothing much unusual...ah Bob Hope died.  He was 100.  And some 22 year old American GI  bought it yesterday Iraq.  Wonder why we’re there?”

“Yankee, you die!” the old refrain from a black and white John Garfield movie passed through his mind.

 “But of course, oil. Here you are boys.  Here’s what you’re fighting for.   Hope was smiling as two bikini-clad starlets rolled out a barrel of crude.   And there was Bob, waving good-bye from a rising Army helicopter to his old theme song, “Thanks for the memories....”

An unkind thought, to be sure.  But hell, it was war and humour helped make the absurdities of same more palatable.  Hope knew that.  The joke was probably lost on the kid though.  Too young to know better.  Never to know better, really when you thought about it.  The kid lying there, bleeding, last thoughts about home, his girlfriend, fading, the pain, then nothing.  Sad really.  “But what could a ‘Poe’ Boy do, sep to play for a rock n roll band....stop it!”  he thought.

He clicked on  his e-mail setting.  Some postings from his various virtual acquaintances across the globe popped up on the screen.  M wrote from Brazil on the vegetarian list about sprouting alfalfa seeds and E passed an article on to the P list from “The Financial Times” concerning the ins and outs of the U.S. dollar’s lower exchange rate.  Then, one guy, who worked in advertising, said that the success of the industry he was employed in was more or less proof of the practical degree that behaviourism worked in manipulating contemporary society.

Tommy got up and got another cup of coffee.  He flip-flopped back to the blue sheet, which served as a curtain and gently moved both ends toward the middle so that he could see outside.  Starlit darkness ruled.

Most predators who eat people are nocturnal. It must be that the equation of darkness with evil is embedded there.  After all, it exists in African societies as well as elsewhere.”

 The cement balcony looked ice cold grey and dull.    “Must be something like seven degrees out there now.”  Walking back toward the kitchen, he grabbed   
his black wool beret impermeable from where he’d left it on top of the fridge the night before.  Immediately on donning it, he felt warmer.  “Funny that, about heat and bald heads,” he half-whispered to himself.



This time, he sat down for the duration, wandering off into his imagination,  writing until first-light began to peek through the thin, blue window sheet.  He immediately immersed himself at the foot of a gorge in pre-historic France.  Cro-Magnons spoke to one another in staccato tones.  They did not speak often.  This tribe was more reserved with speech than perhaps others were.  At least, that’s how he imagined it.

Then, the scene was gone.  After an hour-straight of typing, it was over.  Like the blue plane he’d awakened to, the images of pre-historic life vanished.  Perfect timing really, as Frances had just begun to stir.  He could hear ABC classical radio switching itself on automatically in the bedroom.  Music from Prokofiev’s “Romeo and Juliet” wafted from the darkened door.

Frances stuck her head around the corner in a  t-shirt, greeting  Tommy  with an, “AbBa!”   She was a funny animal.

 Tommy answered by frying sliced potatoes and onions with the pan cover on.  He also put  bacon in and finally two eggs.  He opened some baked beans and placed them in the pan as well. When the potatoes were brown, he spread a small amount of barley bran and parsley over them.  Then he flipped the whole conglomeration over.

Tommy and Frances didn’t speak  Frances checked and responded to her e-mail, while absentmindedly eating her eggs, bacon and potatoes.   Tommy launched into the beans and potatoes spreading gobs of Farmland Tomato Sauce and Bornier’s Dijon Mustard over his fried spuds.

When they’d finished breakfast, they jumped into the car and drove to the train station. Frances’ trip to Joondalup would take thirty minutes, about as long as it would be  for her to drive there, plus there was the hassle of parking.

Tommy saw the usual gaggle of workers and students making their way to their expected, allotted places by 8 in the morning.  “Disturbed honey bees.”

When he got back to the apartment, he took a shower, got dressed and swept a bit.  The only thing he absolutely had to do was pay Frances’ credit card at the Post Office.  It was a fine day outside.  The prediction in the “West Australian” was that the temperature would hit 29.   Twenty-nine and partly cloudy was his  favourite brand of weather.

After pounding out a newsy letter to his daughter asking her what she thought of ANNE OF GREEN GABLES, he folded it in half and half again and put in an envelope, sealing it with a lick of his tongue.  Then he wet the stamp and air mail sticker and carefully addressed it to Texas.          
    
Tommy did the morning dishes then stepped out, credit card and bill in hand, along with his letter to Solange.  Down the sun-drenched sidewalk he walked, heading for the Albany Highway some two city blocks away.  He turned right, making his way past the local news vendor, the music store, the clothing store, past Verlanda’s coffee shop, the Vic Park launderette and then crossed the highway to the Australian P. O. 



“Small line as usual,” he thought to himself.  Just another thing that he liked about living in Australia, at least Western Australia.  The post office seemed oh so much more efficient and friendly than the ones back the U.S..  And why?  Of course, it was because they were more adequately staffed.  It stood to reason.  But another, more amazing thing was that one could pay most of one’s bills there, including one’s credit card.

“Good day, sir.  How can I help you?” the woman smiled. 

“I need to pay my wife’s credit card.”

“Certainly sir.  How much were you going to put in?”

“A hundred.”

“Check or savings?”

“Savings.  There you go.”

“Thank-you.  Is there anything else?”

“No.”

“Ok....Next?”

As he exited the flourescent lit P.O.,  he noticed a grey-haired woman sitting on the sun drenched sidewalk propped up against the shade of a wall of the Commonwealth Bank. 
“I say,” he said after crossing the Albany Highway, “you seem to have picked the right spot.”  Tommy was being half sarcastic, half serious.   Actually, he felt a bit powerless.  Charity was never an option for him.  He was poor and he knew it.  No illusions here, not for Tommy anyway.  The poor giving to the poor, sharing crumbs, this wasn’t the way out of the cycle of poverty.  Sure, you could be a good Muslim or Christian by being charitable.  But Tommy was neither and as far as he was concerned, charity only kept people from the kind of righteous indignation they needed to stoke fighting spirit.  Charity was not the same thing as solidarity in struggle.  Most poor souls, most of whom were workers or formerly employed workers never understood this dynamic and actually preferred the role of errant members of the flock who just needed a hand out now and again.  As he looked down on her in her in what seemed to him to be a passive position,  he felt a bit stronger.

 Tommy was prepared to walk on as he usually did when he encountered homeless people.   Then he heard the woman remark, “There’s no place like home, until you have to clean it.”

 “Excuse me!  Are you ok mam?” 
“What a strange thing to say,” he thought to himself.


She looked up and startled him again.  “What’s housework?  Just something you do that nobody notices unless you don’t do it.”    

“Mam?”

“The amount of sleep required by the average person is five minutes more, don’t you know.” she muttered. 

“Are you ok?” he asked again.

“Yes.  I’m fine,” she said looking up through squinting eyes.  Two of her teeth flashed golden in the sunlight. 

“Haven’t I seen you somewhere before?”  Tommy asked.

“Don’t know,” she answered.  “I’ve been a lot of places in my life.”

“I mean, where do you live?”  Tommy asked.

“I live here,” she answered.

“Where’s here?”  he insisted.

“Just up the street....”

“I know where it was!  You’re the person living in the wash house,” Tommy blurted.

She looked up at him in earnest now.  “I don’t know that’s any of your business.”

“Brendan told me that there was someone sleeping in the wash house.  I saw you going down the driveway yesterday.”

“Ok, you got me,” she said.

“Hmm.  So, why are you doing that?”  Tommy asked.

“I need a place to sleep,” she mumbled.  “You wouldn’t begrudge me that.”

“No, no.  I mean, what in the world made you end up sleeping in our wash house?”

“Life. Besides, it’s not your wash house.  It belongs to the landlord.”

“Sure, ok, but what’s your story?” 

“I’ll tell you for a bottle of wine,” she answered with a twinkle in her eye.

“You got it,” he said.


“First the wine,” she grinned.

They walked like the most unlikely couple down to  Liquor Barn, where she insisted on a bottle of “Poet’s Corner” shiraz. 

“Got something to open that with?” he asked.

“Don’t you worry your pretty little head about that sonny,” she replied, pulling a jack-knife complete with cork screw out of her pocket. 

“You know, you don’t have bad taste in wine for a street person.”

“Look, this stuff isn’t that expensive.  I know what’s what with the reds though.  You alright about that sonny?”


“Look, I’m as old as you are.  How about laying off the sonny stuff.”

“Sure.”  She took a large swig.        

“Ok, how about that story.”          

“Okay mate,”  she said, sitting down on the kerb under a gum tree near a seagull infested parking lot.  “You see, it was like this,” taking another pull.   “By the way, why do you want to know?  You’re not a social worker or a cop or something, are you?”

“I’m just curious.  I’m a writer.  Stories hold great interest for us, do they not?.”

“I see.  Ok.  Here goes.  You’d never know it to look at me but once I was a nice lady.  I had the whole shebang, a husband, a child, a house, the whole shebang.  Everything was going along just fine.  Chuggingly well, really.  Then, it happened.  My husband got layed off from his welding job at the plant.  He’d been working there for fifteen years.  Ever since his mid thirties really.  Well, that put the old financial kybosh on our lives, ‘cause try as he might, he couldn’t find another job–leastwise none he’d take.   When you reach your fifties and beyond the party’s over in the old job market.  He tried though.  I’ve got to give him credit for that. 

“Anyway, we had house payments to make and I had the bright idea to send my son to private school.  Only the best for our son. 



“We’d agreed to that.  Well after I pestered my husband some, we’d agreed.  He really didn’t really fancy it.  Never did.  Well, I wanted my son to have better than we had.  I wanted him to have something more than a crappy welding job like his father.  So, it was off to private school.  The point is that what with his layoff and all, we were beginning to hurt.  Our savings were cleaned out after the first month and bills started piling up, not to mention the already existing credit card.  I decided to start looking for work.  Jack didn’t like that.  He didn’t want me working.  But I told him, someone had to find something, so’s we could  pay the bills.  The bank wasn’t going to let us keep the house for nothing and then there was our son’s private school.  He threatened to take Jimmy out of the school to save cash.  Well, I wouldn’t hear of it.” 

She stopped for awhile and looked around at the traffic, birds and people passing by.  After a few more swigs, she continued.

“In fact, I did manage to find some work at the local Coles.  But they were only paying me $11 an hour.  We needed more than that, just for groceries.  So, I kept looking.  Then one day one of my workmates, a woman, read me this story in the “West Australian” about prostitutes.  I couldn’t believe what they were being payed.  I thought, why not give it a try.  I mean, sex had become something I more or less did as a duty for my husband.  I really did it without wanting to.  Why not do the same thing for $200 a pop?”


She stopped talking and sat silently on the kerb, fingering the label on the wine bottle.

“In fact, when I finally did get in the whoring game–oh mind you, it was a respectable place with lots of respectable men coming and going–but when I finally did get in to the whoring game, I met a lot of women who were like me or who were unlikely candidates for this kind of work.”

“Really?” Tommy asked.  “Who?”

“College girls.  I even met a woman who had done her PhD and who hadn’t been able to find work in her field yet.  She said that she’d more or less worked her way through school this way and she saw no reason not to continue as long as the need arose, so to speak.”

“And who else?”

“Wives.  Lots of wives, supporting their kids and or husbands or both.  I found others in my position there.  It was a good house.  No disease.  Lots of respectable Johns, really they  were.”

“Well, what happened?”

“My husband began to get suspicious.  I mean between footy matches on the telly.   I was able to keep sending Jimmy to school and pay the mortgage.   He’d say, ‘How much you making there at Coles anyway?  I heard they don’t pay much’.  You see, I’d kept my old job as a cover.”

“And then?”

“Well, and then I told him.  I broke down.  I cried!”


“And his response?”

“He hit me.  He hit me hard and then he walked out.”

“What do you mean, ‘he walked out?”

“He left me with a black eye.  I didn’t know where he’d gone, but he left.  I think he ended up in Melbourne.  I’d stopped crying for good by then.  I was only trying to make sure that my son got a good education and that we’d have a nice house for him to come home to.”

“And your son?”

“He found out too.  My husband made sure of that.”

“And what did he do?”

“He was so ashamed.  He screamed at me, ‘Mommy, you’re a whore!’ He wouldn’t speak to me.  For weeks, he locked himself in his bedroom and wouldn’t come out.  My childless sister in America found out about the whole thing.  I think either my husband or son e-mailed her or something.  Anyway, she and her husband flew to Australia and got a whispered court order.  They live in America.  They took him away.  It broke my heart,” she said taking another swig.  “I told them, I told the law that I’d never go back to prostitution.  Soon after my son left, I lost the house.  I’d lost everything, everything that really mattered to me.  It broke my heart.  And so, I’m here.”

“How long ago was all this?”

“Oh, it’s been years.”

“Have you ever seen either your husband or son again?”

“Never saw them again.  They don’t want to see me.  My son goes to Harvard Business School now.  My sister makes sure I know those insipid things.”

“And prostitution?”

“Gave it up permanently when I went on the road.”

“I can’t believe this happened to you.  You sacrificed your integrity for them and they ditched you.”

“Seems all to typical,” she said.

The kerb side conversation fell silent.  What more was there to say?

Trust could exist.  Solidarity could exist.  Even charity could exist.  But what the hell.


If hardly anybody could be counted on, what could you do?

The gulls flew around now and again and the occasional car pulled into the parking lot.  She drank the last of the shiraz and without another word made her way down to the Albany Highway.  Tommy ambled back to the apartment and found the door open. 

“Where have you been?” Frances asked.

“Paying your credit card,” he answered.

That night Tommy dreamt that he was in a forest with three other people.  They were wondering how to warn another group that something bad was about to happen to them.  The trouble was that they were so far away from those people, none of them could think of a way to get to the people who were in danger in time.  Tommy felt a surge of adrenalin go through his body and he jumped, staying in the air for longer than he had expected.  He reached the top of a tall tree and pushed himself upwards and forward again and again to other, further trees and on until he reached the place where the people in danger were.  He shouted to them and awoke in the dark.  Frances kicked him in the knee then pushed him over and told him to stop snoring.  After awhile, they both went back to sleep. 

The next morning, when the Sun had come up, he took the garbage out.  On the way back to the apartment from the trash barrels which were located just outside the wash house, he checked inside.  The woman’s sleeping bag was gone.  She’d vanished.

Nobody ever saw her in Vic Park again, not even Brendan--Brendan sees most everything which goes on around these parts.