I have often said negative things both to out loud and to myself. Wrestling with the past, trying to make sense of the twists and turns. I grew up faster than most of my friends. Like most kids, when I was growing up I thought my parents didn’t understand what it was like to be a teen. I now understand my parents and their decisions since having loved and lost, having 3 wonderful children of my own, finding my soulmate, and learning to love being in my 30’s.
My Yesterday
I have looked back at the roads I have traveled
Wasted no time to push my luck and watch my life unravel
Tears no longer live here, fear no longer takes the wheel
Don’t know what I am doing and I know I’m not indestructable but I can heal
Feeling I need to live right now in case tomorrow never comes
Doing things beyond my years only made me feel so numb
The road became dark feeling I had to remember
My words once a beautiful fire, barely a glowing ember
I ran so hard to my trusted, believing in me through their blind eyes
Pushed me back to the ground so I could learn to walk wise
Many moments, many words fell hard on the ones I love
Today, I hold a piece of peace and a glimpse of everything below and above
By Tracy Hays 2010