Guys no bullshit it took me a week to upload this video. At first my wifi was slow as fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk and than when my video hit 98% two days ago my son pulled out my hard drive and I had to start over. I was like is this a sign from the GODS? But here it is....... TO BE HONEST: I was really on the fence about making this video because I've been friends with him for so long and he has to be one of the most stubborn human beings on the face of the planet. When he tries to prove a point or teach someone a lesson he goes HEAVY with it. So in my mind I was like ohhhhhh we'll get back this is a minor set back. We have way too much to throw away for him to be talking crazy and acting crazy like I ain't shit. Than he went out of his way to try to hurt me in a way that is unforgettable. And, one thing I do know about him is that he NEVER and I mean NEVER does anythingggggg not a fucking single thing without thinking about all the consequences, how other people will look at it, and who will be affected by it. And, what he's trying to do proved I never in his life meant a God damn thing to him, my son never meant anything and my family meant nothing to him. So I made this video and I took some time to really cry it out and let it go. And, even now some nights if I allow myself to think about it I get this knot in my stomach and I can't really sleep. This was a different kind of heartbreak. It's one thing when you get with a guy you don't know and he ends up mistreating you, abusing you, cheating on you, just ends up being a piece of shit. It's another thing to have someone know you inside and out and know all the stuff you've been through, cried over, conquered, accomplished, failed, etc. to come make you believe that there was something REAL going on....to than bring you to the exact same places he should of never allowed you to go back too. It's a different kind of heart break when you are being lied too by someone you trusted so much. It's a different kind of heartbreak when in the end all he thought about you was what a complete stranger who knows me from a tv show thinks about me. It's a different kind of heartbreak when you thought you knew someone but you don't know them at all. And, it's a HUGE HUGE HUGE heartbreak when your son is heartbroken too. He always told me I didn't think we'd go this far or feelings would happened so I never thought about a relationship. And, if he didn't try to juggle his exes with me and just gave us a shot it really could of been something special. But, he was too busy finding faults in me, while I was too busy overlooking his. I think everything happens for a reason and this was a true blessing in disguise because if people show you their true colors you should always believe them. I kept blaming myself for how bad it ended why it didn't work out, but honestly I didn't do anything wrong except fall for the wrong guy. I'm not perfect, I do dumbbbbbb shit, maybe I don't think things through...I'm a taurus I'm stubborn as all hell. But, right or wrong I was always real. I know I did more than enough and that's why I'm sleeping just fine at night. And, one thing I've learned from everything I've been through is that life goes on......... MY ADVICE: ladies OR gents, no matter how much you love someone sometimes certain people are just not meant to be in your life. Pay attention to the signs you asked GOD to show you. People will always show you their true colors. And, if you have a gut instinct about something or someone chances are you're probably right. It's hard trying to fight your mind with your heart, but sometimes it's our heart that gets us into trouble. And, if this person you care so much about has given themselves to others while being with you or played you or has you looking stupid.... DO NOT be mad at the person they did it with. They aren't suppose to have loyalty to you the person you are fucking with is. DO NOT SETTLE, EVER.!!!! DO NOT TAKE SHIT, EVER. DO NOT LOOK STUPID FOR ANYBODY. DO NOT THINK YOU CAN'T GET BETTER. AND, DO NOT THINK IT'S THE END OF THE WORLD IF YOU END IT WITH THAT PERSON. They didn't care about ending it if they could ever hurt you in the first place. AND, DO NOT LET YOUR INSECURITIES AND LONELINESS have you running back to them. THEY WILL NEVER RESPECT YOU if you do that. And, really you don't respect yourself either. Love you guys so much. See you next video.

• published: 27 Jul 2017
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