Friend Stories

There was a girl I was friends with in school, lets call her Lisa. We were not bosom buddies in the way that teenage  girls sometimes are but I thought we would be friends for a long time.
Soon after we left school, Lisa's younger brother, who was her only sibling and very close, was killed in a car accident. I think I was 18 at the time and Lisa is a week younger than I am.
I attended the funeral ( I will never forget the primal scream of their mother when the casket slid out of view) and I phoned a few times asking how she was going but she just told me she was ok. I knew she had to be glossing over her real feelings but I had no real idea of how to support her when she wasn't prepared to be vulnerable. There were no hard feelings on my part and looking back I might have been secretly relieved that she didn't seem to need me.
I think it was a few months after Glen's death that I received a photocopied letter which Lisa was obviously sending to a few people. The letter talked about how let down she felt, how lacking in support and how her friends had failed her. 
I didn't feel guilty, I was a little mystified but decided that grief might be making her angry. I don't remember replying to the letter in any way. I'm not sure if I made any attempt to fix things between us but I think I took the letter as a break up which I had no control over. I didn't ignore it but I also might not have responded.
Some time after that I heard that others received apologies but I had not.

I stayed friendly with Lisa for probably ten years after that and I don't think that bit of history was the cause of our break-up but I will always be haunted by the whole thing..........

Inspired by Going Gently

Poor doggo

Poor Harry has been carrying his back leg today. We don't know why, it could be a torn cruciate or a muscle sprain but with greyhounds the threat of an aggressive bone cancer is always a possibility. Have no fear, he will be taken to the vet if it doesn't resolve quickly. I have been sitting quietly to save him the effort of following me around and designed a few more graphics. 
I promise I'll think of something else to talk about next time!

The heart flower plant is my logo: pink for nurturing and the plant for growth

Designer?

I've just spent a little while trying to design an attractive graphic to put on Instagram.....

Trying to get clients is a constant worry, I get a few referrals from another doula when she is booked up and I get a few from birth groups on Facebook. I have never picked up a single client from my Facebook business page or from Instagram (although I'm new to Insta) but I still feel the pressure to have a social media presence for the business and I mix it up with inspirational/ birthy posts and personal type posts: trying to give potential clients a glimpse of the person they might hire.

If only I  knew more about graphic design and marketing........

Anyways, I thought I would show you some of my latest