'I need to grow up': Danielle Lloyd wants to quit 'fake' fame for a 'normal' life with her fiancé... as she admits they have HUGE rows over set-up shoots

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Danielle Lloyd has admitted that she wants to quit fame and have a normal life.

The former WAG, 33, who has courted the spotlight since she was a teenage beauty queen, reveals she is ready to retreat from public view, admitting: 'I need to grow up.'

The mother-of-three, a regular on the reality TV circuit, also confessed she feared dragging her electrician fiancé Michael O’Neill to photoshoots would 'ruin' their relationship.

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'Fed up':Danielle Lloyd has admitted that she wants to quit fame and have a normal life, amid fears she is ruining her relationship by being in the spotlight

Breaking down on In Therapy on Channel 5, she explains: 'Doing the magazines – Michael says no, I end up putting him in that situation and we have a big row. That’s sad because I don’t want to push him away.

'It is scary because I don’t want to ruin my relationship. I don’t want to be this person any more. I don’t know who I am.'

The star - who has appeared on the likes of Celebrity Big Brother - admits she's ready to get out before she's forced to 'sell her soul'. 

She adds: 'It is a fantasy world, it’s like I need to grow up and become a real person rather than this whole show. I don’t want to become one of those people who just sells their soul.

Time to growth: The former WAG, 33, who has courted the spotlight since she was a teenage beauty queen, reveals she is ready to retreat from public view, admitting: 'I need to grow up.'

Fake: The star - who has appeared on the likes of Celebrity Big Brother - admits she's ready to get out before she's forced to 'sell her soul', as she gets Botox injections on Channel 5 show In Therapy

Pushing it: The mother-of-three, pictured on the red carpet on the NTAs on Wednesday, also confessed she feared dragging her electrician fiancé Michael O’Neill to photoshoots would 'ruin' their relationship

'I have the opportunity to live a normal life with a normal man who’s got a normal job. Deep down that’s really what I want to do. I’m fed up of this life.

'The world I live in is a totally fake life and it’s made me lose myself. I need to stop or try to distance myself from that fake life so I can find out who I really am.'

She adds that she's enrolled on a photography and design course so she can focus on a new career - something Michael admits he'll believe it when he sees it. 

'I spoke to Michael and he was happy but a bit ‘Believe it when I see it’ sort of thing. I’ve said things before like you don’t have to do this and then I’ve gone and made him do it,' she continued. 

'But I think he realises I am really serious about it. I’ve enrolled in a photography and interior design course. I am excited about that.'

On the same emotional show, Danielle bravely revealed that she was the victim of an attempted sexual assault aged 13. 

Traumatising: Danielle Lloyd has spoken out about how she was sexually assaulted by a ski instructor during a school trip to Austria when she was 13 - triggering her anxiety

Tough times: The former Celebrity Big Brother star revealed a predatory ski instructor had attempted to assault her in a toilet

Recalling the event, she admitted gravely: 'That predator took my innocence away and I can never get it back. It’s affected the way I’ve been in relationships, my self esteem, everything.'

She further explained that the incident had occurred during a dinner on a school trip to Austria, when the instructor followed her teenage self into the toilets.

The star recalled being dragged into one of the cubicles and the horror of the moment. 

While she confessed he had both inappropriately touched her and became violent, she admitted she was lucky things didn't take a turn for the worse. 

She had discussed the traumatic incident during the ski trip on Channel 5's In Therapy - which debuted earlier this week - and penned the event as the cause for her now crippling anxiety.  

Terror: She recalled: 'He dragged me into one of the cubicles. I can still feel his hands on me. I can remember him grabbing me, the smell, the colours, I don’t think it will ever leave me'

'The whole time I felt like I deserved it and I'd done something to make that man do that to me,' she confessed on the programme, adding: 'I am the way I am today because of that episode.'

Danielle has been very open about her previous abusive relationships in the past - even posting a photo of herself with a bruised face to social media on Wednesday, in a bid to hit back at haters regarding her abuse claims.

The mother-of-three shared the image after Aisleyne Horgan-Wallace blasted her recent This Morning interview on Twitter, writing: 'Girl get in the real world!!! There are real problems with real abusive ex partners. This self absorbed BS is boring'. 

Honest: Danielle has been very open about her previous abusive relationships in the past - with her even posting a photo of herself with a bruised face to social media on Wednesday

Hitting back: The mother-of-three shared the image after Aisleyne Horgan-Wallace blasted her recent This Morning interview on Twitter (above)

Danielle fired back with the harrowing image and wrote: 'You know what? @aisleyne1 is right there are some real abusive exes out there! This wasn't Jamie But don't tell me I don't know about abuse.' 

Having never confided in ex-husband Jamie O'Hara about the incident, she also admitted that her new fiancé Michael O’Neill was the first person to know - as she felt he was the first man she could properly trust.

Danielle and her electrician beau went public with their romance in November 2015 - and became engaged the following April. 

Moving on: She also confessed that her new fiancé Michael O’Neill was the first person to know about the event - as she felt he was the first man she could properly trust

Talking to OK! at the time of their engagement, Danielle was still quick to make a few snide remarks about her ex Jamie.

'Hopefully this marriage will be different to my last one and Michael won't cheat!' she quipped.

Before adding in a subtle dig: 'I get a lot more help and support from Michael, not just around the house or with the boys but emotional support.' 

Hurting: She also admitted that their three children, Archie, six, Harry, five, and George, two, have now begun to get picked on at school as a result of Jamie's remarks in the house

The revelations come days after Danielle hit out at critics who had mocked her claims of regular panic attacks, since ex-husband Jamie entered the Celebrity Big Brother house and spoke openly about their relationship. 

She revealed on Twitter that she suffered 'depression and anxiety', but that she 'has to be strong' for her kids - in light of hate received from Jamie's claims that he pays her up to £15k a month as part of their divorce settlement.

The beauty queen further admitted that their three children, Archie, six, Harry, five, and George, two, have now begun to get picked on at school as a result of Jamie's remarks in the CBB house.

Danielle explained on This Morning: 'He’s in there not understanding what he’s saying and the impact its having on me and the children’s lives.'  

Not happy: Talking about her ex's behaviour on This Morning, she said: 'He’s in there not understanding what he’s saying and the impact its having on me and the children’s lives'