Title | I dreamed a little dream of you (Part I: Softly sleeping Sam & Part II: Darkly dreaming Dean) Author | chewableprose (visit me at chewableprose.livejournal.com) Fandom | Supernatural Spoilers | It’s a terrible life (4.17) recut Pairing | Sam (Wesson)/Dean (Smith) Rating | NC-17 (for sex scenes and glimpses of dangly bits) Running time | 6'22'' (Part I) and 9'38'' (Part II) Summary | Part II: Darkly dreaming Dean After acknowledging that he too prefers men (or "dick", as Sam puts it), sexually naive sales and marketing director Dean Smith begins a tentative affair with the mystery man who cornered him in the work elevator. Together the pair set out to discover what two men who both like dick — and admit they both like dick — should do with that knowledge. Putting research into practice soon follows as Sam finds out that the real thing is so much better than anything he could have imagined. However does sex mean the same for them both? How much does Sam really know Dean and what will they be prepared to sacrifice to continue seeing each other? Will Dean turn out to be the man Sam’s always dreamed of? And if not, will Sam be able to return to a life of dreaming and give up the real thing? Colour key | sepia tone scenes = Sam dreams/flashbacks, cyan tone scenes = Dean dreams/flashbacks/love scene Notes (spoilers ahoy) | the premise of It’s a terrible day is essentially that Sam and Dean would find each other and hunt evil (Dean especially) even without their father’s influence, their mother’s death, their blood relation or their own memories (substituted with false memories courtesy of Zachariah). While Zachariah’s intention had been to show Dean that hunting was in his blood, the test also emphasised the deep bond that exists between the boys, a bond that transcends their blood relation. While you may find the end of my video implausible (essentially Dean’s inability to commit to Sam, a metaphor for ‘hitting the road’), a look at the obstacles presented in the episode suggest, I would argue, that it’s not such a stretch. As I read it, one of the obstacles that ultimately kept Dean from agreeing to ‘hit the road’ with Sam was that they weren’t related, as if two men driving through middle America hunting evil was more legitimate for brothers with dead parents and a score to settle than male friends who just enjoy killing things, suggesting that, while the taboo of incest may keep the two sexually apart, masculine taboos of appropriate and inappropriate levels of closeness (such as "sharing a hotel room”) are just as significant in preventing a Dukes of Hazzard-style adventure; this is shown time and again in the series when the pair are mistaken on the road for gay lovers, to which I would argue that the “we’re brothers” response to that assumption is more culturally believable than “we’re just friends”, and hence less threatening (think “two queens” in 1.17: Something wicked). This is the sacrifice I allude to in the video (in the eyes of a career-driven, image obsessed marketing director). It’s also worth noting that while the sexual naivety of Sam and Dean may not be realistic, their exploration, research and fifth-grade discussion of m/m sex was mostly for comedic ends. Further, the premise of It’s a terrible day provided an irresistible opportunity to view Sam Wesson and Dean Smith as ‘blank slates’. If Zachariah only provided the pair with enough false memories to enable them to understand their destiny and role in the coming war, is it not possible that Zachariah (an angel of God) would not provide them with a fully developed sexual awareness; hence, using a psychoanalytic framework, the Freudian/Lacanian (phallic phase = Dean’s discovery of dicks in the men’s room/mirror phase = ‘porn research’/Sam’s dreams = unconscious) sexual development the characters undergo. Warning | slash Supplementary footage | Bareback swim team, Cruising for sex: The best of Brent Everett, Dawson’s Creek, Latter Days and Roswell Soundtrack | Largess and Offer by The Itch Disclaimer | this is a work of video manipulation based on the CW series Supernatural, the author of this work does not, in any way, profit from the video and all creative rights to the characters belong to their original creator(s)

• published: 29 Apr 2010
• views: 7725

lyrics [Ester Dean] Voices in the air I hear 'em loud and clear Telling me to listen Whispers in my ear Nothing can compare I just wanna listen [Verse 1: Machine Gun Kelly] As my world turns, the heart beats Not only in my chest, but the heart in the streets So when they feel this, they feel me But I can't feel nothin', outside these Dre Beats I am from the city of people, came from the bottom Standing on top of what was supposed to be my coffin, whats up? Except for shows, we are the dead man walkin' But reflections show this kid's still got it Better be known I got the throne like I don't know that there's a king Never grew up around a family because I'm not a human being And anyone under my bubble thats coming in my spot, for the top Let 'em hav it, cause when I leave, the whole world drops Lace up Kells [Hook] I hear voices in the air I hear it loud and clear They're telling me to listen Whispers in my ear Nothing can compare I just want to listen Telling me I'm Invincible (3x) Telling me I'm Invincible (3x) I am [Verse 2: Machine Gun Kelly] Waking up sweatin from the stress of being caged out Everything I write is played out like what is this Tear the whole page out Man I come from holes in the wall but they don't know the past Even if I told them it all they wouldn't know the half So maybe I fill up my luggage with all these dreams And pull on my black coat and my black chucks and nothing in my jeans It's just one, til the day come like Rocky's movie scene The day I'm on top of the world, look up the screen like this is me, this is Kells Crucified by the public without the nails Do or die in my city but clearly I never failed Lost myself from the game when I found myself from the cell And I found myself from the fame when I lost myself in the pills And you cannot mess with me still, seen the boys and they winnin' Underdogs of the year, Cleveland boys in tha buildin' What the fuck is a ceiling? I'm taking us to the top And when I leave the whole world drops Lace Up Kells [Hook] I hear voices in the air I hear it loud and clear They're telling me to listen Whispers in my ear Nothing can compare I just wanna listen Telling me I'm Invincible (3x) Telling me I'm Invincible (3x) I am

• published: 30 Apr 2012
• views: 5241

Title | I dreamed a little dream of you (Part I: Softly sleeping Sam & Part II: Darkly dreaming Dean) Author | chewableprose (visit me at chewableprose.livejournal.com) Fandom | Supernatural Spoilers | It’s a terrible life (4.17) recut Pairing | Sam (Wesson)/Dean (Smith) Rating | NC-17 (for sex scenes and glimpses of dangly bits) Running time | 6'22'' (Part I) and 9'38'' (Part II) Summary | Part II: Darkly dreaming Dean After acknowledging that he too prefers men (or "dick", as Sam puts it), sexually naive sales and marketing director Dean Smith begins a tentative affair with the mystery man who cornered him in the work elevator. Together the pair set out to discover what two men who both like dick — and admit they both like dick — should do with that knowledge. Putting research into practice soon follows as Sam finds out that the real thing is so much better than anything he could have imagined. However does sex mean the same for them both? How much does Sam really know Dean and what will they be prepared to sacrifice to continue seeing each other? Will Dean turn out to be the man Sam’s always dreamed of? And if not, will Sam be able to return to a life of dreaming and give up the real thing? Colour key | sepia tone scenes = Sam dreams/flashbacks, cyan tone scenes = Dean dreams/flashbacks/love scene Notes (spoilers ahoy) | the premise of It’s a terrible day is essentially that Sam and Dean would find each other and hunt evil (Dean especially) even without their father’s influence, their mother’s death, their blood relation or their own memories (substituted with false memories courtesy of Zachariah). While Zachariah’s intention had been to show Dean that hunting was in his blood, the test also emphasised the deep bond that exists between the boys, a bond that transcends their blood relation. While you may find the end of my video implausible (essentially Dean’s inability to commit to Sam, a metaphor for ‘hitting the road’), a look at the obstacles presented in the episode suggest, I would argue, that it’s not such a stretch. As I read it, one of the obstacles that ultimately kept Dean from agreeing to ‘hit the road’ with Sam was that they weren’t related, as if two men driving through middle America hunting evil was more legitimate for brothers with dead parents and a score to settle than male friends who just enjoy killing things, suggesting that, while the taboo of incest may keep the two sexually apart, masculine taboos of appropriate and inappropriate levels of closeness (such as "sharing a hotel room”) are just as significant in preventing a Dukes of Hazzard-style adventure; this is shown time and again in the series when the pair are mistaken on the road for gay lovers, to which I would argue that the “we’re brothers” response to that assumption is more culturally believable than “we’re just friends”, and hence less threatening (think “two queens” in 1.17: Something wicked). This is the sacrifice I allude to in the video (in the eyes of a career-driven, image obsessed marketing director). It’s also worth noting that while the sexual naivety of Sam and Dean may not be realistic, their exploration, research and fifth-grade discussion of m/m sex was mostly for comedic ends. Further, the premise of It’s a terrible day provided an irresistible opportunity to view Sam Wesson and Dean Smith as ‘blank slates’. If Zachariah only provided the pair with enough false memories to enable them to understand their destiny and role in the coming war, is it not possible that Zachariah (an angel of God) would not provide them with a fully developed sexual awareness; hence, using a psychoanalytic framework, the Freudian/Lacanian (phallic phase = Dean’s discovery of dicks in the men’s room/mirror phase = ‘porn research’/Sam’s dreams = unconscious) sexual development the characters undergo. Warning | slash Supplementary footage | Bareback swim team, Cruising for sex: The best of Brent Everett, Dawson’s Creek, Latter Days and Roswell Soundtrack | Largess and Offer by The Itch Disclaimer | this is a work of video manipulation based on the CW series Supernatural, the author of this work does not, in any way, profit from the video and all creative rights to the characters belong to their original creator(s)

• published: 29 Apr 2010
• views: 7725

lyrics [Ester Dean] Voices in the air I hear 'em loud and clear Telling me to listen Whispers in my ear Nothing can compare I just wanna listen [Verse 1: Machine Gun Kelly] As my world turns, the heart beats Not only in my chest, but the heart in the streets So when they feel this, they feel me But I can't feel nothin', outside these Dre Beats I am from the city of people, came from the bottom Standing on top of what was supposed to be my coffin, whats up? Except for shows, we are the dead man walkin' But reflections show this kid's still got it Better be known I got the throne like I don't know that there's a king Never grew up around a family because I'm not a human being And anyone under my bubble thats coming in my spot, for the top Let 'em hav it, cause when I leave, the whole world drops Lace up Kells [Hook] I hear voices in the air I hear it loud and clear They're telling me to listen Whispers in my ear Nothing can compare I just want to listen Telling me I'm Invincible (3x) Telling me I'm Invincible (3x) I am [Verse 2: Machine Gun Kelly] Waking up sweatin from the stress of being caged out Everything I write is played out like what is this Tear the whole page out Man I come from holes in the wall but they don't know the past Even if I told them it all they wouldn't know the half So maybe I fill up my luggage with all these dreams And pull on my black coat and my black chucks and nothing in my jeans It's just one, til the day come like Rocky's movie scene The day I'm on top of the world, look up the screen like this is me, this is Kells Crucified by the public without the nails Do or die in my city but clearly I never failed Lost myself from the game when I found myself from the cell And I found myself from the fame when I lost myself in the pills And you cannot mess with me still, seen the boys and they winnin' Underdogs of the year, Cleveland boys in tha buildin' What the fuck is a ceiling? I'm taking us to the top And when I leave the whole world drops Lace Up Kells [Hook] I hear voices in the air I hear it loud and clear They're telling me to listen Whispers in my ear Nothing can compare I just wanna listen Telling me I'm Invincible (3x) Telling me I'm Invincible (3x) I am

• published: 30 Apr 2012
• views: 5241