TBST

The beautiful scary thing is hidden away. Its sheer power to change who I am frightens me and gives me bravado to be myself, unapologetically.

Every time I want to take this beautiful scary thing out and show it to the world, I know the world and I are just not ready.

So back into the deep dark recess I keep you there, the beautiful scary thing, where I will visit you often and shine a bright light on you and love you and nurture you.

That's when I realise, its not my job to present the beautiful scary thing to the world. That is for itself to decide. So I sit here waiting in anticipation for that day to come and I can announce to the world.

I have loved you, beautiful scary thing, from the day I met you.

Walking wounded

Takes a breathe
lets go
of the safe harbour
spiralling into the depths

Heart is strong but afraid
Head keeps looking  back
but can't turn around

this,is.it

well, do you?

Do you know you're drowning?
Can you even tell,
 or
like a slow boiled crustacean who is none the wiser to its
surroundings

Will you slowly be killed, suffocated
and not even realise

you could have just moved.