My Best Friend

[Intro]
Ever had that one important person in your life that meant everything to you?
The one who was always by your side when the whole world was on your shoulders?
And it was hard for you just to see them die in your arms?
And everyone telling you to move on But deep down you know they still looking down on you?
Well this guy, he wasn't a homeboy to me, he was my brother,
He took his life away at the age of 15,
Til this day he still in my heart...
[Verse 1]
My best friend he just lived around the block,
A safe neighbourhood where everyone get's along a lot,
Since his death, nobody bought his house, seems like everyone forgot,
Like if he dissappeared in a black hole and never came out,
But deep down in my heart, i see him still alive and living his life,
You were taken away from me in a quick instant,
I didn't even have the instant to say goodbye,
The distance wasn't far, your house was right infront of mine,
We always saw each other every day, no matter the weather,
That day was the only day we didn't hang out together,
And that same night you took your life away,
I'm sorry my friend you had to feel that way,
But now all your pain and sorrow have now dissappeared,
But taking your life didn't solve anything at all,
You always looked normal, you always looked peaceful,
And just a great friend, a great childhood friend,
Now everyday i pray and light candles for my best friend,
That night i saw you walking back from home down the street,
You looked really depressed and i knew you couldn't sleep,
That was the same night my best friend took a knife and commited suicide.
[Chorus]
I'm really sorry you couldn't have the best live to live,
I'm really sorry for the brother love i couldn't give,
I'm really sorry if i ever caused you shit,
But you the only person up there i could share a tear with.
[Verse 2]
That morning i came ringing at your door,
Your mom opened sobbing while crying and collapsed on the floor,
Your dad stood behind her and i dropped my schoolbag,
I ran up to your room, opened the door and gasped,
She said she found you laying on the floor with your pulse not beating,
And i knew you was dead, ye i fell into tears, seeing you there not moving a muscle,
Hurt me so bad i couldn't beleive that you did this to yourself,
Just seing the paramedics bring you away,
That was the last day i ever saw your face,
Skipped school that morning and stayed in my room and cried,
2 days later it was your funeral, many people showed up,
It made me feel good that you knew a lot of people,
So i stepped up at the alter and broke into tears,
Gave my friendship speech and everyone opened their ears,
I cried and paid for my respects, I wish i could bring you back from the dead,
You had an open casket so i came closer and saw your smile,
Then i saw your coffin slowly being burried in the ground,
That was the last time i felt your presence, it was scary,
Now in the present, your resting in a cemetary.
[Chorus]
I'm really sorry you couldn't have the best live to live,
I'm really sorry for the brother love i couldn't give,
I'm really sorry if i ever caused you shit,
But you the only person up there i could share a tear with.
[Verse 3]
It's already been 3 years since u left me,
I never had a best friend like you who was always there for me,
I'm so lonely, been isolated by death,
You left without even saying a word,
Deep down it really pisses me off,
Just left the world like that like it screw you off!
I feel like i cost you to take your life away,
And i feel like i killed you in every single way,
As time went by, i moved on with my life,
But when i look back, i can you through my eyes,
Every chance i get, i come to your tombstone,
Put a couple of flowers and say a few prayers,
Drip a few tears, and ask: "are you still here?"
It kills me badly every time i think of you,
You should of asked me for help, i was a friend to you,
You memory will be forever in my heart deep,
I know your in the heavens resting in peace.
[Chorus]
I'm really sorry you couldn't have the best live to live,
I'm really sorry for the brother love i couldn't give,
I'm really sorry if i ever caused you shit,
But you the only person up there i could share a tear with.