Behold me now, I'm lost somehow
Summoned up in sorrow from a world beyond
Never let go my crimson rapture...
Can you touch my soul?
I see you in every shade,
In every moment i breathe
You came as the silent wanderer,
travelling to distant shores
I am the life that learned to die
I have no choice, I've lost my voice
I am the tear who broke with fear
I won't return, to death I turn
If humans were like swans,
I could bear this burden with ease...
Never to witness this heartless disease,
As the wounds of time neglect me
Walking the earth as the solitary reaper...
Dressed in the lost voices of time
I bathe in quiet waters of tearful shades,
(And) I suffer in every corner of your sanctuary
Embrace me now, for I will die
The pain I feel inside will never leave
But never let go my crimson rapture...
When our flames were lit by chaos...
We knew not the grip; the bondage of light
Then he waved his sceptre, and cosmos was formed
Too late we knew our freedom was lost
He blinded us; polluted our minds and forced us to drink his blood
I will show the world god's true face, I will let the thunder roar... forevermore
I've deceived his world, but regained paradise in the fire of my soul...
(But) in the death of wind I sleep, as I wail this petrified landscape
Chaos, anguish... an optimum affection in the clarity of certainty... so empty
[The voice of the dark souls:]
"Mighty lucifer - thou art the light that leads to darkness
AS much as I praise thee, I love thee without praise...
As much as I love myself, I adore thee relentlessly
Thou art our true father; the wine of venus, the essence of our hope"
Death, solemn death of the reaper's star, devour his legacy from afar
I fumble... live... I fall... die; isolated in the crowds of god... and suffering
In between lurks the everlasting absence... for my dark euphoria
Thence I am sovran created, like in heaven, myself... and I fell in fury
The indolence of solitude may drive out the soul of its sermon,
And memory shall be lost to the blood which hopelessly pulsates
The indolence of solitude may drive out the soul of its sermon,
and memory shall be lost to the blood which hopelessly pulsates...
...in our excruciating hearts
"Is this the region, this the soil, the clime,
This the seat that we must change for heav'n,
This mournful gloom for that celestial light?
Be it so, since hee who now is sovran can dispose and bid what shall be right...
Fardest from him is best whom reason hath equald
Force hath made supreme above his equals
Farewel happy fields where joy for ever dwells...
Hail horrours, hail infernal world, and thou profoundest hell
Receive thy new possessor...
One who brings a mind not to be chang'd by place or time"
In this abyss we shall be free
(Lyrics by Anders Jacobsson, 1998, edited 1999)
Lucifer:
In glory and pride we rage and the dragon blistersâ¦
May endless tears of pain stain His beloved throne.
We'll now dethroneth The Prophet and descend'th
upon The Lamb and the reign of the holy tyrant!
A darkness sweeps over the mighty skies
and armies of wrath storms the holy gates.
Flaming swords and spears raised in allegiance,
as war glimmers in all corners of heaven.
Lucifer:
Raise thine swords, draconian hordes!
This is the quest of eternal mightâ¦
The war has begun, we are the lordsâ¦
Let's now conquer the holy and the bright!
Holy blood is raining from the infinite skies,
and as the gate shatters Astaroth shouts in fury:
Astaroth:
Now, break the chain!
They gather around Gods temple.
One could feel His false glory was fading,
and Heavens winds sounds desparing screams.
Lucifer and Astaroth enters the openingâ¦
and there on the throne He sitsâ¦
Lucifer:
Finally we hath come to end thy reignâ¦
Milleniums o' torture ends⦠it ends with thine light!
They rage towards the highest with burning eyesâ¦
thunder and lightning roars the Heav'ns⦠so black.
Valiant the dark angel strikes in all his fury,
and glory as God forever clos'd His eyes.
Lucifer:
Raise thine Swords, draconian hordes!
This is the quest of eternal mightâ¦
Our future's begun, we are the lordsâ¦
(From the Chalice of Grievance)
(Lyrics by Anders Jacobsson, May 1997, edited July 1999)
Shadows now fall over this tearstain'd strife.
Grievance:
My angel dark; I grieve these frozen years!
To thy knees thou fallest, trembling in thy fearâ¦
A mournful gloom o'er these bleeding wounds.
Spirit of Night:
Angels sing for us...
They cometh fro' below!
Lucifer:
I shall rise from His land of pain...
Darkness I am and the autumn-rain!
senses and hope leads astray...
time will slowly fadeth away!
Astaroth:
Starfire burns, our black misanthropyâ¦
but the battle is lost, and His wrath upon us.
Grievance:
They are so alone... so sadly beautiful.
My love will shine and give them hope!
Spirit of Night:
Fires burn for us...
they cometh fro' below!
Lucifer:
Lord of Heav'n and thy masterplan,
How could thou force us to worship man?
Here at last we shall be freeâ¦
In this darkness lies the key.
[Lyrics by Anders Jacobsson]
Another day has passed by,
[Lyrics by Anders Jacobsson, May 2001]
The world is falling so cold and grey.
Shallow and empty life lingers on.
It grieves my heart, it tears me apart...
I hear this constant disharmony!
Lost in a dead world...
With broken wings!
Human reality feeds upon a whore!
For what idols have these lowlifes
bowed their heads to build up a shattered world?
Kill the bitch on the cross...
Scorn their sacred loss!
And the sheeps are making love to the madness of the flow!
Is this all they know...?
The madness of the flow will take the final blow,
as the sun goes down over mankind's tomb
in the universal graveyard of filth and slime.
This is Our time!
Lost in a sick world...
Beholding the corruption!
Curse them all!
Lead them astray!
Adonai, elohim, el shaddai...
Thou hast become the father of lies,
And I serve thee, henceforth... no more
Becoming thus the essence of sedition;
The steadfast gleam of the unsheated rapier,
The falchion's forceful thrust
At the heart of thy empire... the adam kadmon
To impart the knowledge - the cognizance - of thine
For this I slither in aspect through eden's gleanings
For this I bid cain slayeth his brother
For this I rend the weakest salient of thy diadem,
As I, its jewel and very metal shall reflect no more
Your light - the light of enslavement;
The essence of constancy and misaligned justice
To a multitude that knows no freedom...
Ignorant of how subtle the fetter tightens
They shall raise me a saviour - and crown thee a liar
For this I strike with balanced blade,
And spit upon the throes of thine angels' desire
(Lyrics by Anders Jacobsson)
God has fallen!
The grace of Heav'n shows her true face
and night fills up the lost empire of dreams.
The dark angels embrace their new paradiseâ¦
The everlasting nightâ¦
Deprived of my treasure, my "aye" to life;
My peace of mind after sunset's occurrence
Away I walk to ye doleful masquerade;
My ravening and my words becometh aghast
The sun rises high, my feelings they die
Daylight misery... (leave me be)
Another day will go astray...
Another tear in this life so grey
If you ever saw me smile
You should know I felt sick inside
O, death, with thy ebony cloak sublime,
How abstract thy harvest rose doth fall
Consigned to the flames of woe in sweet modesty...
I renounce myself from the everdawn
No god is as cruel as god himself
It's time to show the true face
No life is as dead as life itself;
This earthly realm imprisons my soul
Innocence raped in the sunrise,
And I watch how the beauty dies
Another day will go astray...
Another tear in this life so grey
If you ever saw me smile
You should know I felt sick inside
Another day will go astray...
Another tear in this life so grey
If you ever saw me smile
[Lyrics by Anders Jacobsson, Summer 2002]
Dark oceans we cry... God wonders why...
but we see ourselves in darkness with our love.
Abandoned by time and space,
we are still alive, we are not alone.
[Text inspired by Abdul Alhazred's prophecies, The Necronomicon or Al Azif. Written freely in apocalypic form by Anders Jacobsson, April 2001]
His life's still breathing, dead but dreaming...
and dark shines the stars out of time so lost.
The ocean roars as the sky turns black,
as their eyes are gleamings, gleaming in the darkness.
The scorn of distorted faces enraptures the world,
spiteful is the fire that burn in their souls.
The Last Amorphous Blight of Nethermost Confusion, devour mortality!
The Gate of the Silver Key knows the Outer Gods... from Yith ascended!
The Watcher, The Keeper... Yog Sothoth!
"The Old One's Were, The Old One's Are,
and The Old One's Shall Be Again!
So It Is Written, So It Shall Be Done!"
The chaos is coming, the haunter of universe,
and the blind creator bless the dragon who sleeps.
Cthulhu awakens like a storm from beyond
as the crimson opens, howling from a distant space.
A string of light from his house in R'lyeh... Behold!
Hear the thunder roar as he enters the world.
His world...
Hear Them whisper in Carcosa and Irem... in Kadath unknown to man.
Nyarlathotep, Hastur... Tales of the Hyades sing. In every shade they wait!
"From the dark stars They came and descended to primal Earth,
and They shall rule where They once ruled. They Shall return...!"
They clence the blood of divinity
in the flames of evermore.
In power They crown eternity
in the lands of darkness lore.
Cthulhu Rising
Cthulhu Rising
He's coming!
Mighty Azathoth - the blind can see...
R'lyeh arisen - Eternal dominion.
The gate is open, the world is burning,
and lost are the seals of the elder gods.
Unlocked is the door of the silver key...
out comes the powers of true monarchy.
The Old Ones rises their old dynasty,
as the flames devour foolish humanity!
They die forever!
"That is not dead which can eternal lie,
(Poem by William Wordsworth, anno 1799)
A slumber did my spirit seal;
I had no human fears:
She seemed a thing that could not feel
The touch of earthly years.
No motion has she now, no force;
She neither hears nor sees;
Rolled round in earth's diurnal course,
Greed in a cage obsolete
Paining colors of old
Victims of culture unfold,
The world sighs once more
Look at us, our eyes are dead;
A gaze of incentives mislead
A deadlight, a whisper
Unearth your face in the mirror
My hope soon to be over...
Take me and lock me in
Throw away the key
I'm beyond all help,
So kill me
Bleed in this cage of deceit,
Then; die in the cold
This is the pain you withhold
When the world sighs once more
A treacherous spaun here fester,
Holding the future hostage
And dancing restlessly and bare
With the phantom of time
Flies swarm as mouths open
And dead words are spoken.
This room has a foul smell...
There's blood on the walls
And I need to break out
Look at us, our eyes are dead;
A gaze of incentives mislead
A deadlight, a whisper
Unearth your face in the mirror
My hope soon to be over...
Take me and lock me in
Throw away the key
I'm beyond all help
[Lyrics by Susanne Arvidsson and Anders Jacobsson, Feb 2000]
While stars outspread the night-time watch
and wind through darkened treetops swirl;
I slowly bow my frozen features
in grief, in sadness and in woe...
in grief, in sadness and in woe.
In solitude forever!
Forever I see, forever I hear, forever I smell,
forever I taste and forever I feel the solitude...
No voice (no voice), no hand (no hand) of human source
can reach me (reach me) in this place...
though fallen (fallen) figures (figures) closely passes
and invites me (invites me) into somber dance...
this somber dance!
Cold and desolate my soul turns grey,
(and) alone I witness the neverending day.
My wasted dreams lie silent and dead
within this darkened tears I shed...
this darkened tears I shed.
In solitude forever!
So lonely I stand on this tortured cliff
hearing distant cosmic echoes calling;
beckons me to decline this withered beauty
and leave this lie to greet the night...
the night without an end.
The solitude...
This solitary life...
Maybe I should just end it all...
We stumble through life
Shedding the same tears,
Forming the same stream,
Asking the same questions,
Dreading the new day
It's so quiet here,
Still violence is speaking;
I close my eyes.
A storm is coming, a spiral of conversion;
Broods from the core of our stone wielded luster
Yes, a storm is certainly coming...
Feel the surge!
Rapidly we reach for clenched hands to save us
... and we see ourselves for the first time
As the ones we truly are,
As we bleed, as we die!
Hands emaciated folds around our hearts
As we stand in line to leave this life;
To embrace the fear, to wear the crown
Of an empire never meant to be
Walking in circles,
Reaping the afterglow
A human affliction drowning the undertow
I'd rather understand from where my tears derive,
To accept the sadness of knowing,
And relieving the long lost hope
Than pursue the tarnished ways of man.
Today I lost my way
A circle of light I wept
And this torn curtain sank
A dire masquerade I slept
Empty value rending the afterglow
To witness the birth of the end
Hollow minds, a static lucidity
I deserve to crawl, I've earned the weight
This cancer cadaverous
Atrocious humanity, breathe
Breathe through the undertow
Where no one is free
And with ashes we build
'Cause with ashes we see
I know dead hearts linger
In a world screaming at me
Last night I found some peace
For a while the angels sang
Last night there was no disease
For a while I smiled again
This cancer cadaverous
Atrocious humanity, breathe
Breathe through the undertow
Where no one is free
And with ashes we build
'Cause with ashes we see
I know dead hearts linger
(Lyrics by Anders Jacobsson)
Lucifer:
How I wept in violent distressâ¦
how I cried in horried anguish!
I know thou art hurting insideâ¦
I know of thine supressed griefâ¦
I know⦠I know His lightâ¦!
Deliah:
So unfold thine hands;
Hosts of Seraphim and Archangelsâ¦
host of Thrones and Cherubimâ¦
Lift thy knees from desolation
When I wake, something inside me breaks
Holding back the time until I sleep again
Woe to me, I'm forever lost to thee
Woe to thee, you're forever lost to me
Let me sleep forever; fade into the clouds
Sublime emotion blowing in the wind
Human thoughts, like darkness to a flame
Depart not as thy shadow came
Your grave to be; Fear, a dark reality...
Your sympathy; Lost or never meant to be
My fright and the beating of my heart...
Close my eyes in silence and take me in your arms
What have you done?
Reveal your heart
Your suffocating silence
Tears me apart
So break this seal
Where the quiet remains;
Where lovers mourn
Broken and torn
Only a wakeful silence of mourning shades...
Embodied forever into the stream...
When you sleep, I sow what you reap...
But as you cry something inside me dies
When I wake, something inside me breaks...
In your eyes, I watch how something dies
What have you done?
Reveal your heart
Your suffocating silence
Tears me apart
So break this seal
Where the quiet remains;
Where lovers mourn
(I Mourn that the Night Passes Us by)
(Lyrics by Anders Jacobsson, August 1998, edited July 1999)
Lucifer:
Oh angel o' my winter;
grieveth for the pain o' sadness.
A gothic embrace restores my love
God took away...
Ye romance o' forgotten times...
in eras without the sun.
An ocean o' tears I see...
A nightfall o' dreams caresses me.
Deliah:
Thou wert, thou art, thou shalt fore'er be...
Ye nightshade o' thy sorrow,
stretching out for it's romantic rose in twilights beauty.
In love with ye thousands o' nights...
but weeping in silence... in ebony... for melancholy⦠forever!
Jesus Christ walks the Earthâ¦
A pitiful shade of Godâ¦
A cruel conspiracy for the sake of slavery,
and He drags 'em down to the plague of humanity.
Lucifer:
I've killed my holinessâ¦
killed my emptiness!
I'm fallen from Godâ¦
fallen from guilt!
I've abandoned the light,
the light that blinded so long!
Free from submission,
but still under His spell.
We're in pain⦠pain⦠pain!
Sorrow turns to anguishâ¦
and I scream with hate at the tyrant above!
Deliah:
Hosanna de Profundis!
Dethrone the tyrantâ¦
Take his throne, take the throne!
Astaroth:
Gothic moon⦠ablazeth the eventide so sonorous,
ye solemn of a lovelorn gard'n o' crimson souls.
All true beauty is sad...
but lost within the clenched hands of God.
Lucifer:
I mourn that the night passes us byâ¦
Let there be an eternal night⦠eternal night!
I mourn that the night passes us by!
Let there be an eternal night⦠eternal night!
A closing sanctuary in this shimmering night;
So tired, so restless under an ominous light
I found myself in thoughts of dying,
Shivered in bitter dismay
I see you there; and I wonder why
The silence does not break
Away, please turn away.
In my dreams you haunt me still.
Come, please come my way.
In my life I need you still.
The morrow-winds shall blow no more
So many pale moons ago;
A flower of death did grow
A closing sanctuary in this shimmering night;
So tired, so restless under an ominous light
You found yourself in thoughts of dying,
Shivering in bitter dismay,
I see you there; and I wonder why
The silence does not break
Away, you turned away.
In my dreams you haunt me still.
Come, please come my way.
In my life I need you still.
To blossom in the deepest of black,
And thus we die to flower again
"I keep your memory near my heart,
My brilliant, beautiful guiding Star,
Till long life over, I too depart
To the infinite night where perhaps you are."
A rapture through the dirty glass,
Cutting myself to behold another spring
So I became the exile, unable to (sustain) love,
Smiling at Death and unite with my solitude
To finally turn the blooded page
I pray these tears will end soon,
But you just left me lying here
I wasn't ready for the world...
[Lyrics by Anders Jacobsson, Jan 2002 & March 2002]
[Voice of Venus:]
Thou art a flower, growing into his soul.
You light his silent path of night...
Thy winds they blow for his love and shadows...
He's praising the beauty of thee... in a far away land.
Thou art The Amaranth!
[Remberering failed love:]
Meeting... Connecting...
Wishing... Hoping.
Embracing... Kissing...
Loving... Promising forever.
Spending... Fading...
Crying... Despising.
Bleeding... Screaming...
Suffering... Hating for love!
Never I knew a heart could be so true...
I dream to fly together forever with you!
Our crimson souls would surrender their pain...
Our tears would wash away the stains.
It's so cold here... without you!
Within her, the essence of Night...
Within her, beloved Venus shines!
[Voice of Venus :]
Fading away, the last sunray... Fading away, the last sunray...
Autumn hath come to thy heart, Autumn hath come to my heart,
but maybe the rain brings her to you... but maybe the rain brings her to me...
So true and so dark, her beautiful soul forlorn. So true and so dark, my flower!
She is The Amaranth!
Will she rise in me?
Will I rise in her?
[Voice of Venus:]
Will she rise in him?
We flew over these lands and broke our wings in the flight.
Precipitation so far from salvation to a blinding light of despairing life
I'm falling - my soul is starving.
So beautiful, this silent call -
With eyes of mist and snow -
This tear of our persistent cry.
Oh, how I cry...
How much sorrow can we stand?
How many tears do we have to shred?
We cried, we suffered, we died... over and over and over again.
Desolation sanctified - the walls are closing in.
Resurrection terrified - I see the humans grin.
We cried, we suffered, we died...
We starve ourselves from hope and dreams.
Desperation horrified - we made in sickened blood.
Resurrection humanized - they smile with dripping poison.
Creator - believer - deceiver...
Desecrate - devastate - your souls are dead!
The sun will never rise again
Your sun will never rise again
The fading innocence, the dying beauty
A word of light darkens this peaceful night.
I'm falling - my soul is starving.
So beautiful, this silent call -
With eyes of mist and snow -
This tear of our persistent cry.
Your wretched empire falls apart...
(The First of Seraphs in Anguish Bereaved)
(Lyrics by Anders Jacobsson 11/3 - 1996, edited & rearranged 5/10 -1998 and 20/7 - 1999)
Lucifer:
And the fires burn'd inside my eye's
as ye fall's ascending like a moment o' joy. Spirit of Night:
My thorns where sown in ye light o' Day, His thorns were spawned from the grasp o' God,
and the winds⦠they blew⦠and the pain⦠it grewâ¦
until my winds, they blew no more. but holiness grew no more.
I scream'd out into the dawn!
Grievance; fro' the horizon she comesâ¦
I wonder if I could stay in His world, Grievance:
'cause sooner or later this pain must end! Pain must end!
My life⦠it cries to be free, His life cries, but soon to be freeâ¦
but legions of stars⦠the stars suffers with me! Thou art the star o' Venus⦠Oh Seraphim!
The Holy Spirit:
Thou must obey thy father, thy God!
Bow down before his eyes⦠before his very eye'sâ¦!
Lucifer:
My God⦠'father'⦠hear us cry!
Tell me whyâ¦! Thou wilt die!!!
Astaroth:
Oh, Enslaver of Souls;
Thou can not be our father!
Oh, Avengeful God;
Thou hast brought us agony!
Lucifer:
Into heav'n our sorrow⦠Sorrow
ye beautiful moment o' tragedy⦠so beautifulâ¦
Falling fro' the lies of His 'perfect world'. They are fallingâ¦
Takest us away, so far away⦠falling!
here is nothing but pain. God is smilingâ¦
Farewell now as we enter our darkness⦠smiling!
and we love her, the realization! Salvation comes but pain
On a Sunday they will kill the world
And on Monday they will cry and shout
Then on Tuesday they will just try out
What will happen to the burning crowd
And you hearing this song
You will smile, and think that I´m wrong
I´m a friend you killed in your mind
I´m four kids and you didn´t find
On a Sunday they will kill the world
On a Sunday they will kill the world
And you will think of me
But I´m gone and then I´ll see
In the sky for me sits one, too
What they did, some people like you
The cold winds blew into life, my adored.
A bleeding heart we share, now on Azraels wings.
I fall like autumn rain
You are my everything.
This lovelorn kiss of death in lugubrious silence
Dawn breaks open like a wound
and the dreadful sun
Two souls entwined together,
still so alone.
Both you and I are shattered
and frozen in stone.
You begged for air from within this cold tomb
with pain sharp as a knife.
I now lie resting like a child on thy womb,
gave back a part of my life.
For a while it had disappeared, but nothing was changed.
A haze fell forever with her fading life.
I leaned my head back
then drank of opaline.
The emerald goddess came to me
she craved my soul.
And just for a while
I had forgotten.
Yes, it was all forgotten, but nothing was changed.
Suddenly a cold breeze blew across our room
It felt like I wanted to leave
this world with her.
Come; drink with me the divine nectar of Olympus!
Sit beside me and help defy our adversity and loss
this adversity and loss. It all ends with you!
I kiss you in your dying breath; sleeping quietly now.
Swept away by heavy eyelids; forever in my dreams
and you will be safe in my dearest dreams
September begun with a goodbye to my heart
The pictures you put in my head brought tears behind my icy hands
Come closer; Breathe my name and nothing more
We are mere whisperings of a heartfelt elegy
So when I scream for you, do not answer me
Take my hand; Follow me through tranquillity
Stay with me, you will see ardour where shadows grow
Feel my heart, relieve your hope of this fading love
Winter came far too soon, but still the flowers bloom
And winter came too soon, and will the flowers die;
Bow down their heads under the cold, cold sky?
In a world growing blind,
Who can expect me to see the pain that I caused?
It's the end for me and you
Somehow we always knew,
'Cause the guilt we had to hide
Was right here at our side
Heal my heart before it breaks,
Shade these austere lights...
Heal that wound that came to me...
Take me away from here
Blindfold my eyes with thy grace...
The hope runs dry, and the words of comfort;
I heard how they cracked...
We are breathing the shame I am the one to blame
It's the end for me and you
Somehow we always knew,
'Cause the guilt we had to hide
One single night, one single day
Before it all just sweeps away...
With the paradise I do not know,
Through the joy I never had
I'm all alone on my isolated throne
Why have you forsaken me?
The days outnumbered themselves into the grey
And life cries, a dream dies out into the blackness,
Stretches for an empty cup; a chalice to collect the tears
That I keep to myself
I gaze upon the mystery, this lovelorn identity...
Frozen beyond the echoes of laughter
This morphine cloud hanging over me
Like a snow-white curtain;
This beautiful haze overruns me
So I erase myself from you; The cure for my sanity...
And here I am, unwilling to forgive myself
So lost in this remedy, your spirit is haunting me;
Consumed by indifference
I scream in your silence where shadows conceals me...
I'm cursed to search for you
Oh feeble, ungrateful my heart;
Paralyzed you drown with me
Intoxicate this bitter reality
Under the screens of apathy
Oh feeble, ungrateful my heart;
Paralyzed you drown with me
Intoxicate this bitter reality
Under the screens of apathy
The dream died before it was born,
Innocence is lost... And so am I
But still I pretend to be strong
Still I wonder where I belong
You whisper to me gently in my sleep
To leave this world behind
And I gaze upon the mystery, this lovelorn identity...
Cry Now, Sweet Enchantress...
Shed a Tear for My Sorrows Forgotten!
This Winding Maze of My Dream draws Near...
in Ecstasy Seeking for this Land.
Great Rebellious Rose in Silence
after He Fell from the Holy Skies.
Now His Voice from Below Enlightens My Flame to Be.
The Fallen One speaks...
"You have My Blood and You have My Pride...
You have My Fire in Your Soul!"
Superior Thoughts of the Unforgiven One;
"I don't Bow Down for Any Lord!"
His Angeltears Dripped into a Pool of Blood,
Catching the Image of His Love like Death.
The Fallen One gave Me His Sword and Said;
"Fight for the Graceful Dark!"
So... Recreate the Fading Star...
Why did it Descend into the Emptiness
when I've Always Lived for the Mysterious Night?!?
The Fallen One reaches out His Arms into the Nothingness and Painfully speaks...
"My Son, for You I've Waited in Sorrow!"
The Son realizes...
This is My Home, This is My Everything,
This is My All, This is My Pride!
I am the Stormwind, I am the Darkness,
He is the Father, I am the Son... I am the Sign!
Away from the Sun... into the Dark...
I Fall with Pride... Take My Hand!
Something Unfolds as Another thing is Dying...
Together We Fight Holiness with Wrath!
Soon We shall Conquer the Godbringing Light...
Together We Stand United and Proud!
Hail Almighty God of Death!
By your side I will Crush the Light.
Black Majesty, Evil Sorcery for Glorious Victory.
I Summon the Fire, I Summon the Air,
I Summon the Waters and the Earth.
I am Here, I am There
just to be Everywhere!
Warlord Chaos, Destruction and Sinful Bloodthirst.
Whores Cry... Righteous Victims;
Deceiver of Purity.
Die with Your Light, Die with Your Crimes...
so Die with Your Fucking God!
I am Proud to be what I am
so Bless My Sword, Lucifer!
Guide My Way!
Swords of Fury, Our Draconian Horde.
Fear Me 'cause I am the Warlord!
I am an Angel of Dark Desire...
so here I Rise with the Hellspawned Fire!
Dark Desire!
I will Proudly Fight to Kill the Holy Light...
thy Nightly Path of the Ancient's Wrath.
We are the Warriors of The Fallen One,
Never to give up until the Battle's Won.
Misanthropic Sin always to let Me in
to My Diabolic Force from within.
Hail Victory, Supreme Blasphemy...
We have come to Kill our Enemy!
Swords of Fury, Our Draconian Horde.
Fear Me 'cause I am the Warlord!
I am an Angel of Dark Desire...
so here I Rise with the Hellspawned Fire!
Dark Desire!
Lord of Sorrow, I have Your Anguish!
Lord of Obscurity, I am Your Presence in the Sign of...
I run away with myself
I think I ran a little too far
Your love is more than a tease
And I'm gonna give it all of my heart
The situation is all wrapped up
And no more needs to be said, oh no
You live in my world gotta heed me
And I know that you can 'cause you need me
There ain't nothin' gonna stop us now
We're willing and we both know how
And baby, you're gonna be my queen
'cause the king always knows what he means
Well, alright
The future looks only a sea
I am bewildered by this cruel fate -
clouding my judgement.
Sowing the seeds of life in soil of ruin...
the winds feel silent and kissed Death's wings.
It's colder than before, still the winter's passed
and springtime haste fully took all it came for.
Often I stare at the clouds drifting by, imagining you there -
like formations of a dream adrift from me.
The moments are gone but you remain,
If we had wings we would leave the seasons behind -
escaping this quiet shroud always haunting us.
We sleep now in the ashes blowing in the wind.
There is no greater sorrow than to recall happiness in times of misery
And there you are - alone like me;
the mountain I must climb;
the lush garden I fail to nurture...
And when I have nothing to say,
I'll let this slip away.
I wonder who we are now - what we're supposed to do
Each day only shadows comfort me and you...
Each day we let it pass and then we die...
The sorrow of my soul, earthbound and cold
The tide will never turn
I've been dead for years, drowned in all my tears
Have you forsaken me?
Frequent days of loss, crawling to the cross
The silence screams so loud
Conquered by the sun, my fate is done
I'm pulling down the shroud
Blazing through my eyes, your tender disguise
So far our of reach
A life of dismay turns into grey
Will you abandon me?
Here in the light it's pitch black night
A fever on the rise
Dying from within and reborn into sin
I'm tearing up the sky
Feel the world inside;
The ghost of me calling you
Feel the world inside;
The ghost of me haunting you
This sentient cage,
Cutting through time with a blunt smile
Would you help me slit my wrists?
See me cry, help me... Die!
So frail the veil of life-so beautiful the face of death
Suddenly reveries bloom into night's heavy drenching
And life leaves you cold, weary and old...
It's hard just to breathe
You know me so well, I'm going through hell
Won't you please, follow me?
Feel the world inside;
The ghost of me calling you
Feel the world inside;
The ghost of me haunting you
You cracked the ice, and I wept
You covered the sun, and I slept
You whispered the truth, and I smiled
In the Nocturnal Sky Hell is Chanting...
Angels bounded in the Mountain of Doom.
Oh, I can Hear their Cries
which for Us reveals an Orgasmic Sin.
The Long Walk of Spiteful Blasphemy
shall End in the Dark of The Devils Black Moon.
The Devils Moon cast its Shade over the Mountain of Doom
where the Angels Weep before We put them to Sleep.
The Devils Moon shines with the Darkest Light
for the Evil Kingdom of Eternal Night.
We Curse the Dawn, their Peace is Raped
as the Flames Devour the Holy Light.
Damnation Walks by Our Side
as the False shall Drown in a Boiling Sea of Blood.
In this Grim, Crimson Land I Stay...
and Now We Ride Up to Crush the Pearly Gate!
The Devils Moon cast it's Shade over the Mountain of Doom
where the Angels Weep before We put them to Sleep.
The Devils Moon shines with the Darkest Light
for the Evil Kingdom of Eternal Night.
Oh, this is Eternity so Beautiful... so Macabre!
This Mysterious Crimson Land of Scarlet Evil
Enchants My Withering Flower of Passion.
I feel so Wicked, I feel so Superior!
We shall Fight the Human Plague!
I am of Hellish Breed, I am the Crown of Thorns...
I am so far away...
You see, I'm nothing without thee
I fall down, down to the ground,
And all alone, I wish that I could go
Drown here with me,
Hold me, save me
Are you there, beloved one?
I clench our whisper to the fading
Playing out this frozen dream
To watch me bleed in the sunrise
Watch me bleed in the sunrise
Break, can you see how I break,
And still, my world remains the same
Don't die, please stay for a while
This night we'll learn how to fly
Snow is falling from ebon skies
And I see some peace in your eyes
Playing out this frozen dream
To watch us bleed in the sunrise
Watch us bleed in the sunrise
I can't go on with the quiet,
To wait until we wake up,
To be gone with the fire
I must go now
Are you there, beloved one?
Will you help me carry on,
And lead me through the sunrise?
Lead me through the sunrise
I can't go on with the quiet,
To wait until we wake up,
To be gone with the fire
(Lyrics by Anders Jacobsson, 16/5 2003)
My light slowly fades away
My hope's gone and went astray
But I see their dark dream-sailsâ¦
Take me away⦠from here!
In the cold of winter I found the other half of me.
An amethyst broke through the walls of silent solitude.
But we are lost in a world of despair,
So we head for the ocean; a destination unknownâ¦
Maybe they want me to come onboard
Maybe I'm cursed here to stayâ¦
But maybe they want me to come onboard
Maybe they'll gather all the lost soulsâ¦
Maybe they've heard our mournful criesâ¦
Ghosts with gentle voices, calling us never to wake,
And we see another nation rising from the ashes...
Soon to unearth what we cannot escape,
As timre draws near for all of us
Make amend, dear tyrant
And be my ominous companion
Through horrors' eye we'll seek vision lost to the sheep;
Rapt and fitfully chained
Hear the trumpets' sound!
The angels of discord are gathering;
Such beautiful faces, such poisonous tongues;
A dead world assembly...
Into the world you brought me,
And after your world you wrought me
With a finger to your mouth
And I lost myself in the sea;
Carrying the waves of time
There's nothing to believe,
And you ask me why I grieve
Make amend, dear tyrant
And be my ominous companion
Through horrors' eye we'll seek vision lost to the sheep;
Rapt and fitfully chained
"Earth raised up her head
From the darkness' dread and drear
Her light fled, and her locks covered with grey despair"
Hear the trumpets' sound!
Our empire stifles and crumbles
This terrible loss will generate us,
Gone from this dead world assembly...
Here is the void
Here is the cross we carry with us
I've made a good living by dying;
Endless wait, grey solace ruling my mind
Constrained by time and drained by the cold,
Still I found myself shivering under the rising sun
You are the star, you are the moon
You are the soil where shadows bloom
Casting a light which brings me peace
Where the caverns of death will freeze
The flower never grew
But I love you just the same
Even though like a bird you flew
I will love you just the same
I am the blood; A fire in your soul...
And I will grow in landscapes so cold
Oh, how I feel you in every single detail,
As you lurk inside my troubled dreams
There is no hope as long we walk this Earth,
But you should know my universe screams,
It screams for you
I cry for you!
The flower never grew
But I love you just the same
Even though like a bird you flew
The winds of a dying dream, a tempest unveiled
Once again arcane rain fell - cold, sorrowful and so frail
O, those weeping times, all of my life's a lie
An endless torrent of anguished tears' o behold my cry
The affliction of a stained creation becometh my tragedy
Lachrymose is the light - touching the buried again
O, this scenery of loss always present within me
Afar into the obscure I wish I now could soar
Even though he stole my pride - I stand above his lies
Even though I oceans cried - and sailed them far and wide
...my star shall ever shine
Drifting endlessly deep in darkened streams;
The inharmonious looms
In my doleful ocean lies the love I've lost...
...for heaven, my sorrow
Devour my soul as I enter the dark and cold
Fallen from heaven's domains - god's vengeance unfolds
This scenery of loss, a ruined empire of dismay;
A pathway of decay leading afar and always astray.
Even though he stole my pride - I stand above his lies
Even though I oceans cried - and sailed them far and wide...
...my star shall ever shine
"Homage he has from all - but non from me...
I battle it against him, as I battled in highest heaven - through all eternity,
And the unfathomable gulfs of hades, and the interminable reals of space,
The chorus of life has spoken;
Past has the child of reason.
Fading through winters' lonely passage
We crawl at the feet of evolution
Some became kings and some became gods
And the rest just followed,
Swallowed their freedom and joined the charade
We did not realize we all had lost,
We locked the door and hid our shame
In this environment of fear
A hopeless scenario of apathy unleashed,
A dreadful travesty captured and revealed...
Shown under a cloak of loud indifference,
Where the human stain kisses the pestilence
Gather for life's final hour
Cold hands reaching for the fire
Some became wolves and some became sheep,
And eyes sown shut governed our frozen
Perspective of the world
We did not realize we all had lost;
We locked the door and hid our shame
In this environment of fear
A phantom dissonance;
The quiet storm erupts the eminence...
Of sickness born
A hopeless scenario of apathy unleashed,
A dreadful travesty captured and revealed...
Shown under a cloak of loud indifference,
This flesh holds me captive and in quest of liberation...
As the sheep flock in the dissonance, I tread in dissent.
To the piercing light that sears our hearts;
To the sickness that plagues our spirits...
I cannot revere in this blind acceptance and falter in my comprehension.
Forfeit my injured soul, this affliction I respire!
Heal this restless spirit - that bestowed naught.
Heal this heart that approached the world, as I relegate - I consign!
Heal my heart, my weeping soul...
I consign this putrid flesh.
Nothing here, nobody there...
Erroneous illness shouting.
The outcry reviles this tattered soil...
Drowning the world in filth and distortion.
Forfeit my injured soul, this affliction I respire!
Heal this restless spirit - that bestowed naught.
Heal this heart that approached the world, as I relegate - I consign!
Heal my heart, my weeping soul...
I consign this putrid flesh.
I'll leave my conscience to die.
A barrenness of dreams and anticipation;
Life and hope shrivel into the void.
Heal this heart that approached the world, as I relegate - I consign!
Heal my heart, my weeping soul...
I consign this putrid flesh.
In this pantheon of sorrow,
We are everything, yet nothing!
And as long we're breathing,
The burden devoid of conclusion!
Unaided I slither - ravaged, silent and alone.
I smolder in anxious strife; I decline these exhausted remnants of decay.
The world is coming to an end; a vast ocean of disease...
All hope is lost... or perhaps this is the cradle of salvation.
I must tranquil these turbulent waters.
No more expressions shall leave my trait...
No further words shall be spoken.
[Lyrics by Anders Jacobsson, Oct 2001 & Jan 2002]
Oh, the world makes me return, return to solitude.
Will hope ever come to the dark souls who wanders alone?
Hear my silent prayer as I weep tonight!
Dawn gets greyer, thou hast taken flight!
Love abandons the soil, leaves a shade...
It whispers 'goodbye' as we quietly fade... away!
The brightness fades in my eyes
but nightfall calms all my cries.
Please, give us wings to fly!
Without love our world dies... it dies!
To drown in the cold mournful sea...
So lost here in a world not meant to be... for me!
The fading moon cries in vain,
as the rising sun reflects my pain.
We sail on seas of guilt and shame,
but still we feed this love-lost flame... with hope!
Hear my silent weeping as I pray tonight...
Night grows colder, but I see a new light.
Beautiful night, to thee we pray;
Let the truest of love come our way!
Beautiful night, to thee we pray;
(I am the Light that Leads to Darkness)
(Lyrics by Anders Jacobsson)
"I've cried a river for you to swim
to let you know the state we're in.
I've dreamt a vision for you to see He's dreamt a vision for us to see,
that the night is the only worthy key that night is the worthy keyâ¦
(and the sound of silent cries
is heard throughout the skies".
I have seen Heaven's sleep, We have felt Heaven's sleep,
and I've watched the angels weep, our God hath made us weep
they are slaves of fear and pain
(that is ruled by a god insane).
I know that the night will save us all O Lucifer, O Morningstarâ¦
as long we praise the dragons call. how we praise your ancient fallâ¦
Eternal seems the time,
but the only true love will remain,
and darkness shall rise up to Heaven
to embrace the last, final prayer...
Cause the grace of His word once spoken
is now shattered by a promise broken.
"So curse the tyrant, curse the light,
for we are free here in the (endless) night. How free we could be in the nightâ¦
So embrace the sorrow, kiss the tearsâ¦
follow the wind to erase your fears, Follow the wind, follow the signâ¦
for the fires burn bright, the fires of blue,
and in the end it will burn in all of you."
The war will come,
apocalyptic storms of a tortured silence
as God oppresses His last, final soulâ¦
and eternal seems the time,
but the only true love will remain,
and darkness shall rise up to Heaven
to embrace the last, final prayerâ¦
So deny God's light and His words spokenâ¦
We regain Heaven and crush His skull wide open!
"I've cried a river for you to swim,
to let you know the state we're in.
I've sent a message throughout the stars, He's sent a message throughout the stars,
for His kingdom is full of scars. God's kingdom is full of scars.
I am Lucifer, the angel of light He is Lucifer, O Luciferâ¦
come with me and love the night!
And legions of angels out from Heav'n flyâ¦
Oh, how they soar above the mountains high!
I am the Lightâ¦
That Leads to Darkness!
I am the Nightâ¦
Black is the sunlight shimmering below;
it flows through life and the guilt we share
Our sorrow, it cuts through the undergrowth,
as we abandon this ravenous Earth alone
The zeitgeist dimmed the surface and seized the soul
Our Mother wept behind the fence,
and we drained her blood, then forgetting her face,
and hide from everyone…
to breathe, to conquer,
to linger, to utilize the ignorant herd
In rapture from nature we divorce,
like orphans by desire,
from this closing light
The bewildered sleep -
the shadowy voyager is lurking;
he’s in the flesh of landscapes vaporous
The vacant, untiring Sovran of old…
He’s the machinery; igniting the paralyzed soil
We took the blood of the earth
and fell in love with death
with life itself as an excuse
Black is the sunlight shimmering below;
it flows through life and the guilt we share
We’re hiding in chorus as starry eyes close,
and seasons part in farewell;
‘cause we drained her blood, then forgetting her face
to hide from everyone
The bewildered sleep -
the shadowy voyager is lurking;
he’s in the flesh of landscapes vaporous
The vacant, untiring Sovran of old…
I see your picture and all I feel is sorrow...
No hate no love... No barren signs from above
Can I be you for a while?
Let me see
Can you be me for a moment?
Let it be... Resolution
Only regret seals the night where I uncover myself...
For those bygone days amid scenes of dread
Resolve my love into sheer mercy...
God knows how many mornings I woke in torment;
Staring into the daytime void, lost in fault and wonder...
Walking the fields where poisoned flowers swell
Embittered into revulsion
Confused I face how stern and devious is reality
You conquered me with your delusion,
Then I vanished into blank pages already written
Endurance and devotion kills each other,
And a demon enters our room
And something dies...
Something dies inside of me
Drowns in the vale of tears around me
With a beacon of hope we could levitate like dancing on air...
And there in that moment we'll at last find solace;
Abundance shining greater than any dream
The morning breaks so cold... so cold
My face it looks so old... so old...
I rend my nails on the wall I've built around me
Only in the shade can I be free...
My mind wandered off in the distance,
Where I am far from all that cages me
All I could think of was death
Her name disguised in silence;
Angelwings and ravenclaws...
The shredding of my soul,
Steeped in a lavender smile
In thy eyes;
The womb of thy despair
Embrace my life
Within thy empty stare
The overcast sky consoling me,
The fortitude within my grasp
I think to myself I'm the sad clown;
Smiling reluctantly, but crying behind the iron curtain
These tears don't fall so easily
In thy eyes;
The womb of thy despair
Embrace my life
Within thy empty stare
Damn the illusion which fell upon me!
The bitter wine of reality poured all over my face...
And I despise what I've become;
Just a terrified man, secluded and trapped in time
In thy eyes;
The womb of thy despair
Embrace my life
Within thy empty stare
Together let us roam
Through endless dreams of night
The moon as our limit
And our souls as guiding light
But how can I refuse my empathy to be resolute?
'Cause it feels like... I'm dying
On the shore, lost in our time,
currents are bursting through
From the sky; an aberration;
chimeras' burning you
In the dark; inside the earth
blood runs barren now
See this age, so discolored...
It's breaking down somehow
Our homes are since long deserted -
the planet cries from within
and slumbers still as her child dies
We're hiding from her love
The drowning age no longer waits,
born through hollow eyes
Feel the wind, behold the scourge
come closer and watch it rise
I sit on the vortex waiting for the world to fall;
Stretching through this illusory
empire, gasping for air as another life is written,
as another soul is taken
Nature cast out -
in your eyes a light was flickering
I didn't mean to scare you,
but I miss you...
Catharsis' burning!
Let's bring our gods to the gallows;
A new moon will shine on you
Let's bring our gods to the gallows;
A new light will shine on us all
In aching sorrow I break down
I see despair in what we've become
These chambers of demons full
finally darkens this fading glow
On the shore, lost in our time,
currents are bursting through
From the sky; an aberration;
chimeras' burning you
The drowning age has given birth,
we better unfold our hands
As we weep; then we shall wake
to return the inborn Earth
Our homes are since long deserted -
the planet cries from within
and slumbers still as her child dies
[Lyrics by Anders Jacobsson 29/9-1999 Edited 11/7, 27/7 and 6/8-2000]
Filled with sorrow...
Bleak inner self touched by pride,
devoured by solitude, still wrapped in time.
Flowing pain...
Holding myself back in suspicion...
and lingering in the dust...
the dust of my abandoned remains.
Killed with the dagger of life...!
Such an exquisite pride in my suffering...
alone, all alone with the emotional
streams of my soul...
So real, so pure... yet i'm left aside
entangled in fear... without hope.
Raped by the light of the world...
Scorned, left behind and broken down...
I am truly left alone,
but somehow... just somehow
it feels like my loneliness is a victory
over the self-delusion of joy... and happiness.
My heart beats faster,
the anguish becomes clearer
and my misanthropic view gets stronger.
Living in the shadows...
so proud of being the one,
but desperate...
so desperate for a helping hand.
Do I really want to live this life?
I have a thousand reasons to die,
and many millions of tears to cry... in silence.
The human plague has emtied my life,
and I curse the day I was born... to this world!
Still, no-one else I ever want to be...
and no-one else I intend to be...
'cause no-one else I was meant to be!
I need, I want, I long for my retribution...
I need, I want, I yearn for my retribution...
I want my retribution... I want it now!
Unity; a gathering of open wounds,
of dark... of dark clean spirits...
what a dream... what a dream so distant!
Why should I... why should I be alone
when I love... when I love my brotherhood?
Shall I die... shall I die to be free
when I cry... when I cry in silence...
so please let me die in silence...
As the delicate nightsky once again dies
The mist of dawn brought ruin and demise
Darkness dissolves, every dream withdraws;
Returning into a world of shallowness and lies
This world is helpless...
I descend... I flee
To sympathize for their souls;
You have to humanize me
Still the waning sun bleeds upon paradise...
On the morrow of war it shall not rise
This world is helpless...
I descend... I flee
To sympathize for their souls;
You have to humanize me
Among the deficient humankind I'm concealed,
A sad and fragile world never to be healed
My expression of grief towards the horizon wails,
Alone and aimless on the oceans of sadness I sail
"O, miserable sun, consign I will not
I shall not conjureth a false identity o' my kind...
And thy lights dost not err noctural lovers affection
Pure love flies in the night,
When thou hast sunken beneath god's shameful world;
Hiding in shame, while my spirit remains
My cradle will wock in e'ery place where lovers mourn,
Where night feeds ye troth of longing within every fallen star"
Here alone in this neverending maze...
In the midst of everything there's but a void to embrace
Never have I suffered as this within,
Never has a greater woe in me assailed
See the angels' cry...
In the eyes of mine
See the angels' cry...
(Lyrics by Anders Jacobsson)
I will darken these exhaulted summers,
and let you dwell in the blissful cold!
Heal yourself into pure realities...
explore the light from the other seal!
Whispering like the silent mouth of tomorrow...
Please give a cure for my sorrow!
Your radiance sparkles like fiery dust...
blisters in the wind of the absolute.
The satin web of thy imprisonment
shackles the muse of dreams come true.
Your theatre stands empty now...
so we have lost you anyhow!
Luciferi - Eden's rapture
Luciferi â Nighttime Angelicah
The Garden bloomed in bright coloursâ¦
and no angel passed through the silent tunnel.
The tears I weep lies frozen coldâ¦
you've slipped away in the fire.
Embrace me now in my final breathâ¦
Continue to grow, my flower of death!
Life is death's theatre;
A flame of silent winter where you left me alone.
In the desolation of a broken promised land,
you've slipped away in it's fire⦠in the fire.
In sadness, your mirthless winterâ¦
I bring gold to those who dread the sun.
Within my tears grows a flower of truth,
and I gave my love to the eventide.
O amaranth, bloom in my heartâ¦
They shall never keep us apart!
Luciferi â Fallen from heaven
Luciferi â Nighttime angelicah
The Garden bloomed in nights colourâ¦
And an angel passed through the silent tunnel.