This is a memorial – to honor the long gone
This is a burial – my heaven has gone wrong
Those times we had – so long ago. Like yesterday – I miss ‘em so much – I
can’t let go!!!
My heart is full of hate – its bleeding love
Father – I have to say goodbye to keep my self alive
I can still see you – you’re fading away – but… I can still feel you –
though you’re drifting away from me.
This is a memorial – to honor the long gone
This is a burial – my heaven has gone wrong
Are you still here – still in this place? What’s left behind, where is
god’s grace?
You broke my faith
My heart is full of hate – it’s bleeding love Father – I have to say
goodbye to keep my self alive
I can still see you – you’re fading away – but
I can still feel you – though you’re drifting away from me.
My heart is aching – that’s all I know
Hope is fading – I’ll let you go…
Rain of death falls down
Polluted by this so called technology
Murdering to succeed, not seeing the price that has been paid
In the name, in the name of progression
Industrial insanity forces us to follow
We die they prosper
Only in death can we stop supporting them
Only in death can they not have their way with us
In the name, in the name of progression
(If it was real progression greed world not dictate our souls
If it was real progression we'd give back everything we'd taken
If it was real progression we'd burn these lies all down)
I am willing to suffer, to bleed, to die for things I care about,
But it?s like kissing the lips of my dead love, like touching her dead, cold, white skin.
I choose to look back, to see myself, I never wanted to hurt you again,
I choose to look back, to see myself, I never wanted to loose you again.
I have never been here before, ground zero, the past is a gaping hole.
My only chance is to turn around and face it.
I choose to look back, to see myself, for her love, for her heart, for her trust, for her love I?m reborn.
I choose to look back, to see myself, I never wanted to hurt you again,
Deep eyes. Subdued light. Hand in hand.
In the eye of the storm [x2]
everything is flowing and discharging into us.
My mouth open. Lava flow.
Eyes close in the eye of the storm
the silence is breath taking in the eye of the storm.
Substances join. Togther immortal.
We become one in the eye of the storm.
On the way agains the truth.
A trip through light and time all problems become smashed.
All pain becomes happiness eyes open.
Scream come out. Wishes turn into pictures.
My heart stop beating.
The ban breaks Just to remember smile at me one more time.
You are my world, my cage
My love, my hate
My everything!
When I'm blind you'll take my Hand
And lead me safe and sound
You are the one who makes me smile
You are the one who makes me cry
Next to you I feel strong
Next to you nothing feels wrong
I am here today (right now) to say I want you
I am here today (right now) to say I love you
More than you'll ever know
You give me hope for more
You show me how to fall
Today I will forget the pain
Because I know you're here
You are the one who took my fears
You give me wounds that will never disappear
Nothing you do could hurt me
But one wrong word could cause my end
I am here today (right now) to say I want you
I am here today (right now) to say I love you
More than you'll ever know
You are my world, my cage, my hate
You are my everything
You'll take my Hand and lead me, I'm blind
Lead me safe and sound
I am here today (right now) to say I want you
I am here today (right now) to say I love you
More than you'll ever know
A morning full of death.
Beauty trapped in miserable emtiness.
Offer me life. Offer me love.
Don't ask me where the sunshine's gone.
Offer me life. Offer me love. Offer me the moon.
All my figthing in this shadow land is in vain.
Searching the inner clarity - Reality of my existance.
Feeling empty. Endless the way.
Endless the search and the distortion of the present.
Shadow land a place of silence love?
Happyness? Emptiness! Lonelyness! Alone is the death!
Nigth the beauty of silence a different consciousness to complexe for reality.
Misunderstood feelings in the circle of life.
Bark skin. I'm lying here. Still.
Throughts hush eyes closing repeating this moment.
Waiting for. Your abscence veils my sleep.
My dreams. I'm moving in time.
No when And yet you don't now. But my heart does.
'Cause from the first moment I was caught and
delivered a long the vanished warmth regained life in me.
Revolution of the past is only spiritual at last the power to figth self,
evident become weaker
the will to stand up for your conviction has fade away,
Demons out of the darkness.
Fire of night. Allying existence of the evil.
My life? Just a game?
Dependance and mania.
Desire shows you the way.
The gates to the coldness are open.
The way back is full of stones. Just like my heart.
My existence. Identity is breaking.
The coldness keeps pulling me into it's ban.
An unbelievable size of power.
Luck ans pain are close together.
Luck or pain. The pain is ripping my life into pieces.
Welcome to war!
Everybody knows you and everybody told you that nobody
needs you and nobody cares. Everybody is at war with
their fingers on the board. What's real (and) what's in
your head. You release your poison to the world.
This is the modern plague.
Welcome to war! You can't escape!
If this is real, I´d rather go blind then have this world
pulled over my eyes! Cause in the end, it's all in my
mind and you're the one who's left behind!
Everybody knows you and everybody told you that nobody
needs you and nobody cares. Everybody is caught in a
world of make believe.
Get a life - this is not real. We allow our-self's to be
deceived. A virus, no one could heal.
Welcome to war! You can't escape!
If this is real, I´d rather go blind then have this world
pulled over my eyes! Cause in the end, it's all in my
mind and you're the one who's left behind!
F Y I -
Now i'm sitting here writting about the lonelyness.
It's a bad day and the reasons for that are trivial!!!
Love taken away.
Throughts at the mercy of the past.
Destroying myself.
My inside is crying for help.
Who cares? [x3]
I forgot to live for the moment.
I don't want to be wath I'm am!
Wath will be in the future?
walls collapse onto me, I ride the storm of rage
a mistake became a chain ?reaction and the
reflection falls upon me
it's time for change, understanding and
faith are what friends are about, but on every corner
disappointment (is waiting, every wall would have
understood me better), I am cold.
I stand alone and all that remains is the hope
for help, the anger is strong and threatens to
destroy me, because what was will never be again,
too much has happened and the mind becomes dull,
it is the tragedy of time, a sea of tears for grief,
but from the shadows of my tears, of my past, you
come and give me your hand, tame my anger
my tears fade and together we fight as friend
tortured by the agaony of selfleceration - full of pain
and fear - my sense of self-preservation keeps me
alive - the whole way of life paved by affliction
and danger - more & more I recognize the cruelty
of reality - reality the greatest plot of life
one walks - talks - sees - breathes - but doesn'T
live - no - rather serve the growing edifice
that controlsour so - called life - death gives
way to the living - straight into freedom
way out of this edefice
everyone a brick in this stonework
and day by day more people live in it
hour by hour yheir power rises
a new day, a new struggle, blank walls scream
narrowness
but I'm my own prison, go, run rush into the woods
the vast unknown spurs on my will to fight
the energy, the magic of silence and I am immortal
my eyes become heavy, the mind porous
fire in the convergence
an inner force calls out my name and
says, everything is gone, everything is done, the
voice sounds
familiar, but my body is captured in fear and the
light leaves my way, fear is hiding in the
shadows, but I am the force and I light my
fire, the demon shall burn, the fire is my witness
look into the wide, wild liberty
look well, it's reality
close your eyes and turn loose,
all burden is impulse
drop the anger, the hate you cherish
turn loose, cry on me, let go, let all go
I hold your hand and lead you
we're melt together, becoming one
and we get the power to cry,
scoop for your life, cry, detect your liberty
fight for your freedom,
deeply hidden in the deepest wood
black is the night
the owls are singing between the worlds
the circle closes, the cycle of fire opens it's doors
the guard between the shadows searches for fear-
(to broken souls he reaches out his hand and leads the
way into the night)
fire walk with me...
pain shouts you down
you've split and I spit on you
(call my name and I'll catch you
oh dark night, in silence broken ban,
shackles of fear, I lie there, flat and merely
the valley lies deep, staggering in the past, shadows
hide danger and feed me in the coldness,
I don't see myself,
don't look at me,
you would burn
as my house lies empty and
I float against the time,
come here, come in,
my hope - our world - bursting due
to the closed - minded thinking
of the shortsighters
grinning faces - watching me
scared by my individuality
but these ridiculous attempt will
only leave me stronger
I'm living for myself and not for
anyone else
my fire will burn eternally
I won't accept your intolerance
what urge me to do right?
the emptiness - the conciousness of living in
the void of the feral muting against the vacant - cold
void - the incensed endeavour to
rescing the fact of vacuty to be doomed
neverthless - my imagination - just symbols or
repressed desires? - vision of adoration and
death? - and the disillusion of living in
a world that has to be rescued - an age
that is sainted to mental decline and
my incapability to struggle for liberation
my last minute should not be marked
the image of the world I live in
born into to fall into oblivion
is the huge arena of illusion & deceit
nothing's real
not a thing curtain call & the show starts,
commonness and self-leceration against the unceasing
lape of redemption - clowns
the masters of disguise
are man's prototype my fear of the future increases
this arena is crowded with clowns
curtain call & the show starts
blizzards reign the fires by
the pod - their cold heat set ablaze my
burning soul - embodiment at least
a fear rises - the storm clams the choires
forever - maybe even death
the birds move forward and try to escape
always following life
my fire - an ice desert - I burn
laughter experiences death
This is a war.
Everything normal smashed.
Cruelty comes down the land and there only losers.
Fight up until the end.
Death becomes daily and the humanity boggy.
Blood flow through the streets.
Mandkind means sickness!
By the order of the devil they march and destroy [x2]
and the mind remains on the route.
Torture.
Destroy, kill, erase the enemy!!! [x4]
Give up your mind and be mechanism.
Who disobeys is hostile and enemies have got to die.
Human being or mechanism.
every day I see your face
every day I die
every day I feel your breath
every day I'm born again
you give me joy, but my thanks are just pain
and out of fear I pull myself loose again
for you I die
you are everything I need, what I desire,
but will I ever understand?
come on!
I die for you
please forgive my faults,
maybe one day I will realize what you mean (to me),
I hope it won't be too late
every time I cry,
I feel your lies
every time I die,
I believe in my dreams
For that as long as I will breathe
But I will never sacrifice
Myself for you again
I won't be chained to you
My heart needs something new
I will give you
I believed in what I saw
In what I had done
I'll keep my eyes wide open to satisfy
Myself more than once again
I won't be chained to you
My heart needs something new
I will give you nothing more, nothing more
Can't you see how I feel?
Can't you see?
I won't be chained to you
My heart needs something new
I won't be chained to you
Red, blood red, no matter where I look at, I?m waiting in a sea of blood
Where has time gone, what has happened in the dark?
Memories of fear, cries, noise, silence.
A new day, old routine, I refuse to keep on living such a sad life
Help me out, I try to run away, help me out, I know you can save me today, save me this time.
A new day, old routine, I refuse to keep on living such a sad life
Red, blood red, no matter where I look at, I?m waiting in a sea of blood
I?ll go out into the street, staring eyes, laughing mouths, what have I done, what have I missed?
(I run to escape from this storm of ignorance, but no matter where I end, ignorance)
Help me out, I try to run away, help me out, I know you can save me today, save me this time.
(The dark.
I enjoy the silence, no one there.
I see my self, circling wild, time lapse.)
Am I at home, am I save? I look into the mirror, screaming, laughter, worse than before
I turn inside of myself - look back into my past -
into nothing - the best time in life - barely present
I wish I could go back - tell that nice little boy
to be stronger - to be brave - bu I can't
he had his chance
I burn - scream - I despair on these thoughts of
the past - I realize that I had barely lived
but just existed - it's too late now
and my thoughts feed on this grief - the grief
creates tears that burn my skin
unable to ease the pain - I float in hoplessness
for the time is gone and the boy is a man now
the end - a beginning for everything flows and
we live to change - live to learn
the future's still open and to be lived like
the past has been wasted - with hope in my
Today I'll take revenge for my solitary life,
For the desolation and the devastating void.
You pretend love that pushed me
Into this darkness.
I was afraid of you,
But I loved you
Until it burnt me from the inside.
I adored you, I hated you.
Sometimes my love was like a gaping hole
That tried to swallow me.
With words came lies,
You took my world apart.
Back then I learned to hate
And you taught me well.
You will hear the sound of my broken heart
Before I'll destroy you
And before you vanish into the cold void.
You'll know what you've done to me.
I was afraid of you,
But I loved you
Until it burnt me from the inside.
I adored you, I hated you.
Sometimes my love was like a gaping hole
That tried to swallow me.
With words came lies,
You took my world apart.
Back then I learned to hate
And you taught me well.
I feel breathe, live alone with my love,
I gave it to you, I should have known,
reality will never be a dream!
in my dreams I walk around,
in the darkness of my ashes,
always following your light,
I feel no fear, cause your fire gives me safety
my fire burns deep and ardent,
but I radiate just coldness and hopeless
helplessness, awkward,
naive like a child
everyday I fell reality, the reflection of the wide void
I don't want to live, just want dream!
(my fire burns deep and ardent)
Tell me!
How will I ever forget this
24 years of isolation?
24 years of black.
I will never forget this
24 years of separation
24 years of pain?
I will never forget this
24 years of ignorance
24 years of hate.
How will I ever forget?
Raped and used with my own blood
You stole my life and dreams.
You are my darkest fear.
I will never be the same
I will never smile again
You brought the darkness into my life
You taught me how to cry.
Why?
Why?
My inner struggle will just end when I
Take my last breath
And I will see you suffer
Until you close your eyes.
I'm just an empty shell.
I will never forget this
24 years of trepidation
24 years of lies
How will I ever forget?
You stole my innocence
And gave me living death.
Just an empty shell
I'm just an empty shell.
SHELL!
My inner struggle will just end when I
Take my last breath
And I will see you suffer
Until you close your eyes.
I will never be the same
I will never smile again
You brought the darkness into my life
You taught me how to cry.
Why?
A hundred suns, born to kill
It is madness, a sun created by man
Once again a perverse irony of life
Earth creates, man destroys
Love and hatred
We are the butchers of the earth
A hundred suns will be born
Millions of lives will fall
The first lightening
A picture without protection and sense
The end, torture and death
When do they stop, when is it over?
One day they will all stand up
Rebel against us, exterminated us
The first lightening
A picture without protection and sense
A hundred suns, born to kill
It is madness, a sun created by man
Once again a perverse irony of life
Earth creates, man destroys
Love and hatred
We are the butchers of the earth
A hundred suns will be born
Millions of lives will fall
I was born into a hell
A living nightmare
My world is not real
My world is just fraud
I never saw the sky
Neither moon nor stars
A morbid world created of misery
I will never be free from fear
I'll never be free from tears
You took my chance to live a normal life
All these years, my life
Just lies
The denegation of humanity
A declaration of horror
No salvation for my soul
Desperation till the end of time
DESPERATION!
You created an endless hell
A place where there's no hope left
I will never be free from fear
I'll never be free from tears
You took my chance to live a normal life
All these years, my life
Just lies
I wish all darkness would fade away
I wish the sun would shine all day
The denegation of humanity
A declaration of horror
No salvation for my soul
Desperation till the end of time
DESPERATION!
The bogeyman is waiting in the shadows of your dreams. You‘re afraid to
fall asleep. You‘re awake ’til you‘re too weak.
Come sweetie come it‘s bogey time, let me in and you‘ll be mine.
This pain I bottled up inside. This pain you’ll never know. This pain
that‘s accusing you. My scars don’t even begin to show.
Your soul is broken and can never be mend.
You are trapped in a silent cage.
Come Sweetie, Come!
Come sweetie come it‘s bogey time, let me in and you‘ll be mine.
Run sweetie run, cry and fade, this will be your last serenade.
Run, Cry, Fight, Die…
This pain I bottled up inside. This pain you’ll never know. This pain
that‘s accusing you. My scars don’t even begin to show.
Here comes the bogeyman – penetrates your dreams.
Here comes the bogeyman -
taking white -
I buried my dreams out of my fear to fail.
But this fear created a hope that woke me up....
THE AWAKENING......
THE AWAKENING......
What can ever bloom again, when the power to live is
missing, dryness sows hate inside of my heart.
Fading lust, a flower made of stone, forgotten in being.
Broken of life, disintegrated of illusion.
The dread lets me feel the force of love, to refuse my
power, I hate the thirst of love.
It will judge me, judge me until death.
The finest breeze of wind, born is the beautiful, lonely in a wide open space.
There's nothing to see of the world.
Only dream.
Lonely in a wide open space, lonely.
Just to be me, only dream.
The sun is low, the moon is high and in the middle my consciousness.
The middle of day and night, no fear, no pain, immortal for one moment.
I'm screaming up to the sky right into infinity.
Silence!
Blood overruns my body, I'm tumbling down, imminent to drown in my own blood.
(Heaven Shall Burn)
Suffocated in the exhaust of our machines, as we turn our faces away, and hold our tongues driven by ignorance and greed, climatic changes, floods and quakes.
Agony of mother earth – wounds nobody will ever heal.
We produce and consume more and more, we kill and we rape again and again.
Collective suicide – our future entranced.
A sea of ashes, where deep forests grew.
On our way to the top we just left deserts behind cleaned and burned.
Barren landscapes.
Contaminated soil.
By polluting our rivers, we poison our blood.
By devastating our forest, we slaughter our souls.
The signals can't be ignored.
The time to change is long overdue.
This disease will be cured.
The simple fact of being sad grants my self
Importance within my own eyes
On the edge of an incessant existence
Alone the awaking and cognition of this difference lights
my mind
I made one step back and reached out my hand
To touch my picture in the mirror
I'm sticking in an armour of fear
Observing my image from the outside
I can't believe what's left of myself
I can't believe what's left of myself
I always tried my best and I never justified
I tried so hard but in the end it doesn't even matter
Nobody's out there, no one to hold my hand
No one to hold my hand
I can't believe what's left of myself
I can't believe what's left of myself
My time is up
My time is up
My time is up
My time is up
I feel like I'm gone as long before my time is up
I feel like I'm gone as long before my time is up
My time is up
I made one step back and reached out my hand
To touch my picture in the mirror
I'm sticking in an armour of fear
Observing my image from the outside
I can't believe what's left of myself
I can't believe what's left of myself
I feel like I'm gone as long before my time is up
I'm here to kill, I'm here to die
I feel this pain, I have this hate,
You teach me to love
You teach me fear,
But now you're getting it all back (and my reasons are just trivial)
Try to run away, but believe me, to die this is your fate
This is a song about killing, a love letter just for you,
Let's make it right, let?s make it clear, no one wants you here!
All I want is to kill, I want you dead, the price is too high
My life's too short (I'm sick of hunting you)
You are my shadow, you are my demon
You have to burn for my joy, I'll watch you burn
So you better run, before I'll watch you burn
Try to run away, but believe me, to die is your fate
This is a song about killing, a love letter just for you,
I have no energy to be, where is my will and drive to be happy?
You´re giving me hope, but everything seems to be illusion and smoke
For love, for life, for surrender!
Just one word and I´ll be yours, just one touch an I´ll burn again.
Just one word for a new time, cause in your eyes I see myself, I´m sick of running away.
But in your eyes what do I mean?
A name, one among of thousand others?
Nasty and sweet are my thought, but my desire can´t be satisfied.
For love, for life, for surrender!!
The worst shall be over now, your mental beautyness was stunning,
My feelings for myself is overgrown of dried plants and I´m sick of running away!
Just one word for a new time, cause in your eyes I see myself, I´m sick of running away.
What have we done?
How could this be done
We are so mean
Everything bleeds to death
We are burdened with guilt
(Heaven Shall Burn)
Here we march through the snow, here we lie in the mud.
The wind aches like a thousand on my skin, my walk mechanic.
My thoughts far away, unable to act, feel numb to the distress.
I can't remember freedom, forgot all faces I loved.
No cry for help through the wire, my existence a number on my skin.
It will take all my power, my last will to live.
I hear the sirens.
Searching lights roam through the night, reports, bloodhounds and hunters – orders are clear, our tombs already dug.
Our names on the crosses.
I'm running, no looking back, no feelings at all, will I be free?
Will I be free at last?
Will I ever kiss your face again?
The sun will be mine again and I'll feel the rain, feelings return from my body.
I can't believe that I'm still alive.
Yeah, I've got the space I need
I've got the air to breathe
I've got the mood to bleed
I need to breathe to bleed
I need to breathe to bleed
This senseless fight will never end
You teach me to forget I cannot win
I feel weak and helpless
This prison make me sick
You teach me to forget
But forget means disrespect, yeah
This senseless fight will never end
(Will never end)
You teach me to forget I cannot win
Yeah, just let me go and don't look back
While my flesh begins to burn
Just come back to bury my forsaken soul
And tell my heart goodbye, goodbye
This senseless fight will never end
(Will never end)
come on, tell me who you really are
Stop with your lies, I've looked behind the mask and
now your time is over
day by day deceived, you blind my senses
you have never been a friend,
without scruples you've driven me to the point I am
standing at now
A long distance run without any tension
Raptured soul, raptured life
A long distance run without any tension
Grow in the half of a night, bloom
Live this life in straight lines
Step aside, step below
Watch yourself falling
Flight lines, light lines become clear
Slightly I remember the way to the origin of despair
Reality is what comes first
Attempt to see through my eyes
Careless and senseless devotion
Nothingness is a part of me
On the behalf of you imagination
The blackened curtain seems to fall
Beside the stage we lose out soul
A different place, a distant time
Say goodbye salvation
Blacken the earth and darken the sky
Blacken the earth and darken the sky
The blackened curtain seems to fall
Beside the stage we lose out soul
A different place, a distant time
Say goodbye salvation
A long distance run without any tension
Raptured soul, raptured life
A long distance run without any tension
Grow in the half of a night, bloom
Live this life in straight lines
Step aside, step below
Watch yourself falling
Coldness surrounds me, I?m filled with fear, in this room of nowhere.
Tell me where?s my soul, I move in the dark, tell me where?s my soul, we?ll fed from hatred.
Scream surrounds me, kill or die.
(Your soul is our desire)
In this room of nowhere
Tell me where?s my soul, I move in the dark, tell me where?s my soul, we?ll fed from hatred.
Masters of fire, teach me your art in this room of nowhere.
you look back
and the ocean
are colored black
animals are going sick
the reason is the black slick
no green
is able
to remain
by the toxic acid rain
Your god sent war into my world but I will fight to clean
my mind, no looking back for me, you crossed the line,
all my feelings turn to hate, a power you won't stand, a
mighty force strikes all temptations down. Never I will
surrender, I throw it all against, I hold my ground I
will resist, a holy war won't strike the demon back, I
raise my fist against the slavery, this war won't spare
your door, in battle there is no law. This fire is in my
Waiting to breath out, I saved my last breath to blow this darkness away, sweet shadows are calling me
My heart feels free to beat, it?s all about you, my fiction beauty, you are the one who could save me!
Save me, you were the avenger, a shining illusion of my lust, a shining illusion of my trust!
Sweet shadows are calling me, my heart is scared to beat, it?s all about my fiction beauty,
You are the one who could kill me.
Save me, you were the avenger, a shining illusion of my lust, a shining illusion of my trust!
Sweet shadows are calling me, my heart feels to weak to beat, it?s all about you my fiction beauty,
You are the one who killed me.
Save me, you were the avenger, a shining illusion of my lust, a shining illusion of my trust!
I will not forgive you for what you've done to me.
For all the lies you spread,
For all the pain you caused.
You smiled straight to my face with no shame or regret
And just told me almost perfect lies.
You used me like your toy and pretended you were a friend.
But now I know you are a liar.
You liar, go fuck yourself.
You'll never make us believe.
You liar, betray yourself.
I won't swallow your lies.
You are weak and selfish,
That's why you must hurt.
But let me tell you, you will just get burnt.
You feed on illusions and lies
And pretended you were a friend.
But now I know you are a liar.
You liar, go fuck yourself.
You'll never make us believe.
You liar, betray yourself.
I won't swallow your lies.
No lie will last forever.
You will die alone like you lived your life.
You liar, go fuck yourself.
You'll never make us believe.
You liar, betray yourself.
