Speech disorder

Cluttering Speech Disorder Real Life Example

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• published: 10 Feb 2014
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Hello. My name is Kyle. This video was actually meant to be used for purposes other then show casing a speech disorder known as cluttering, and for 27 years of my life, I sort of realized I might have a speech problems. It's very odd. My thoughts seem very clear as night and day when I am able to convert my thoughts in to words through writing, but not vocal speech. And I do not know why. I have been diagnosed with anxiety, depression, and schizoaffective disorder. And after watching videos where I am speaking and not trying to do a video skit, I realize my speech is all over the place! I always hated public speaking having anxiety disorder, and it is odd, when I talk to people I am comfortable and close to my speech seems, okay, but when I try to give a speech that dwells in to literature and theories and lessons and what not I am all over the place. It's very hard for me to convert my thoughts in to speech and for a moment I thought I was schizophrenic. But a lot of this has subjected me to feelings of stupidity and retardedness. Which I must not be too mentally disabled for I did always score high grades in school. But when it comes to social intelligence and communication I have been absolutely terrible. I would like to fix this problem and perhaps I could maybe one day develop confidence dealing with other people, but not matter what job, or relationship, I went into I always had a hell of time trying to communicate in intelligible words and meanings and actually be understood. I sometimes feel like I think so fast, my speech cannot keep up with it and I get lost! I feel stupid sometimes, but this video goes to show, whether it was me trying to make a blog about why I have issues with love and relationships and had bad experiences, I realized I have issues with communication and social interaction and always had. I am posting this example after watching a few videos on cluttering. I am glad I researched it. I thought it was a thought disorder, and even thought I have been diagnosed with some psychotic symptoms, my communication has never been good. But I feel like internally my thoughts are very clear and too fast it does make me anxious which makes me wonder if it relates to my mental problems. I don't know. But if anyone else can give advice if they had similar problems to mine, it will be great, perhaps I would actually feel confident to fit in normal society, hold a job, and relationship without getting anxious, misunderstood and emotionally and mentally unstable! I want to make note this video was unscripted and unedited and uncut. Some people told me I sound like Ozzy Osbourne with a few videos I done, I sort of got that but never had such a realization after realizing how of a horrible and unprofound and ineffective and inefficient speaker I was. I did take communication courses in high school and in college, but I was never able to practice and get better, which might serve me in the real world, and I don't feel forced to live in my own real world. I wonder if it's related to anxiety and introverted personality? I don't know. But I see I clearly do have problems speaking properly. I currently take Zoloft which is used for depression but I have taken anti-anxiety and anti-psychotics previously. Does anyone have any ideas how to cure this and can it be cured? Thank you. Kyle.