Feeling guilty about No Contact with a narcissistic mother

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Feeling guilty about No Contact with a narcissistic mother: "I´m 59 years old and have always carried around a constant sense of shame and anxiety, but I didn't use to know why. My 2 siblings went no contact with our mother a few years ago and I have very little contact with either of them. In spite of the terrible feelings I have about my mother, I feel deeply sorry for her, so I continue to communicate with her and occasionally visit her, most of the time in a gray rock state, but on a bad day I resent and loathe her and it just sometimes just seethes inside of me. Even on a good day, I feel anxious about her. It´s like my little girl inside totally loves her and remembers good times when she seemed like a loving human being. But, now, as an adult, I realize I don´t like her at all. What kills me is that I am the mother of three kids myself and I can't even begin to imagine the heartbreak if one of them went NC with me. I'm all she has left and going no contact just doesn´t seem like a black and white decision to me, in fact, in my case, it seems a cruel thing to do. Also, even if I did go NC, I would continue to feel tormented mentally and emotionally. Just to let you know, I am in therapy and on medication for depression. I guess I would just like to ask you to talk about making such a decision when I know I would feel terrible about myself. I just can't seem to find my way out of her grip on my soul. I just signed up for your sana recovery course, but if you could speak a little about what I am describing I would really appreciate it." Mothers Who Can’t Love: A Healing Guide for Daughters https://www.amazon.com/Mothers-Who-Cant-Love-Daughters/dp/0062204343 Will I Ever Be Good Enough? Healing the Daughters of Narcissistic Mothers https://www.amazon.com/gp/product/1439129436/ref=pd_sbs_14_t_0?ie=UTF8&psc;=1&refRID;=W9JHW0G2TVRX9CN47TYT ***** NEW BOOK DECEMBER 2017 — THE JOURNEY is a roadmap out of the suffering and struggle after narcissistic abuse. It is a comprehensive, holistic outline of the recovery process so you can measure where you are and where you want to go in the journey of self-healing. If you want to change anything in life, you’re going to need to measure it somehow. This structure will help you get to the next level and keep moving forward out of the gravity of the past so you can create a life of peace, joy, meaning and purpose. Available on Amazon: http://bit.ly/TheJourneyMM When you enter your name and email on Meredith's homepage you'll get access to her FREE Fundamentals of SANA course. This is the most basic course she offers to help you start from the ground up. It's also helpful to review the fundamentals now and then no matter where you are on the healing journey! https://innerintegration.com Meredith's intermediate training is the 12-Week SANA Audio Series. This is a 12-week journey of Self-healing After Narcissistic Abuse (SANA). Each episode unfolds another layer of the self-healing process of body-mind-spirit and contains a lesson, a meditation for that topic, and exercises or suggestions to practice the lesson. http://bit.ly/12-WeekSANA The Self-Care Mastery Course is Meredith's advanced training. This is a powerful course for recovering codependents (people-pleasers) where you'll explore the 5 Domains of Self-Care Mastery so you can generate next level self-love. It comes with 8 BONUS exercises/guided visualizations on some of the most common practices she recommends for self-healing after narcissistic abuse. These are supplements to the core work of the SCMC and also available separately. http://bit.ly/TheSCMC To ask a personal question and receive an email response from Meredith within 48h please click here for Personal Email Support: http://bit.ly/CoachingEmail Or book a Strategy Session via Skype with Meredith to help you start to transform your life with actual steps that you can take now to move forward and self-heal after narcissistic abuse. Save money when you purchase 3 or 5 session packages! http://bit.ly/CoachingSkype NOTE: Meredith Miller is not a therapist or counselor — She is a holistic integration coach, helping you to self-heal after abuse and transform your life. She works with a mind-body-spirit approach to wellness that is a valuable complement to traditional psychotherapy. She recommends that you also seek out a therapist who has experience with narcissistic abuse and understands these dynamics extensively in order to help you with the PTSD/C-PTSD, especially in the early stages of recovery. Thank you for taking responsibility for yourself! Thank you so much for your support and for tuning into this message. If you find this content helpful, PLEASE LIKE, SUBSCRIBE & SHARE! I am grateful that you help me share my message with those who can benefit from it. Big hug! Meredith http://www.InnerIntegration.com http://www.facebook.com/InnerIntegration http://www.youtube.com/InnerIntegration