(Fuck with my heart)
I'll teach you what it's like.
(To be so used)
That you'll have to clean.
That dirt stuck in
Your plastic finger nails.
And just the scent of you is enough
(To make me sick)
And all I know is revenge is sweet when...
You know that you are worthless
And I am better than
The games that you play princess.
(I've played) and always win.
(I'll take my time)
To slowly plot your end.
(But now I will)
Spit bullets with my pen.
And all I know is you're cute when you scream.
You know that you are worthless
And I am better than
The games that you play princess.
(I've played) and always win.
I'll take you to the top,
Of this building and just push you off.
Run down the stairs so I can see your face
As you hit the street,
the street, the street, the street.
You know that you are worthless
And I am better than
The games that you play princess.
(I've played) and always win.
(This time I win. So here's your kiss goodbye.)
Is this what it's like?
A dream lacking serenity?
A wordless conversation, a "you and i" without me.
Well I try and i won't get far,
i'll die and i won't get far
i'll try and know that everything's ok
So I guess this is where I lie
where the days are endless and the nights, they just don't belong.
Dreaming my reality
where truth and fiction don't seem to exist
Confusion is home here, but believe in you is what you insist (it's what you insist)
Nights, don't belong, the nights, don't belong, and the nights, they just don't belong.
So let me take thee with a chainsaw
And take the glass against your wrists
You know I am your worst nightmare
Oh how you love my bloody kiss
But it's time to die
You're worth more dead
Tell me your fantasies
I'll make you believe
That I really care
I'll look into your eyes
I'll tell you all my lies
As I take you slow
So love me take thee with a chainsaw
I'll leave you like your father did
I'll bite your lip so fucking, so hard
And watch the innocence just rip
Down your chest
And into my mouth
Tell me your fantasies
I'll make you believe
That I really care
I'll look into your eyes
I'll tell you all my lies
As I take you slow
(So take your tears and go away)
So take your tears and go away
A bitter ending from a slow decay
So take your tears and go away
And I'll sit here with a smile, that I'll match
The pain, she cried, the heartache
(Enter your life)
The lies, she cried, the heartache
(Enter the life)
The life, she cried, the heartache
(Enter the life)
Enter the life, she cried
Just throw it back, for one more night
On a starlit and moon-struck night.
The ground did fold and eat us both
But all my love, I did devote.
Beneath the rafters the angels sing
Spinning violence and playing with my heart.
The song I wrote, it was for you.
To live inside of me, I'm dying inside you.
Lost inside another crash
The bones I had, turned into ash.
The world did cry, the night you died
And I am no good at suicide.
But I lost what was mine, and I want what was mine.
My heart now it always breaks, the blood did drip and I take,
another wish, another kiss, no more will for me to kill.
Just throw it back, for one more night
On a starlit and moon-struck night.
The ground did fold and eat us both
But all my love, I did devote.
Beneath the rafters the angels sing
Spinning violence and playing with my heart.
The song I wrote, for you to see.
And my heart it now breaks and the blood spilled down your spine.
Lost inside another crash
The bones I had, turned into ash.
The world did cry, the night you died
And I am no good at suicide.
Beneath the rafters the angels sing
Spinning violence and playing with my heart.
The song I wrote, for you to see.
And my heart it now breaks and the blood spilled down your spine.
And I lost what was mine, and I want what was mine. [x2]
My heart now it always breaks, the blood did drip and I did take,
another wish, another kiss, no more will for me to kill.
We'd run away in our dismay, but please, come back to me.
Take me to a hotel room
And tie me to the bed on my mistakes
Kiss me like I paid for this
Please don't stop 'til you take all my faith
And the white coats just don't get it
I'm a genius with a headache
And the white coats just don't get it
I'm a genius with a headache
Am I a little sick or a little sane?
Am I a little sick or a little sane?
Am I a little sick or a little sane?
'Cause I feel a little sick
I'm sorry I forgot your name
But this is the first time I've played this game
I know I made a big mistake
I'm paying you to suck out all my faith
And the white coats just don't get it
I'm a genius with a headache
And the white coats just don't get it
I'm a genius with a headache
Am I a little sick or a little sane?
Am I a little sick or a little sane?
Am I a little sick or a little sane?
'Cause I feel a little sick
She's grace, come and get some of this
She's grace, come and get some of this
She's grace, come and get some of this
She's grace, come and get some of this
And the white coats just don't get it
I'm a genius with a headache
And the white coats, they just don't get it
I'm a genius with a headache
Am I a little sick or a little sane?
Am I a little sick or a little sane?
Am I a little sick or a little sane?
'Cause I feel a little sick
She's grace
She's grace
She's grace
This island has become an ocean
And my boat's too small
The waves are crashing in
And I can't save this sinking ship
I sent out signal flares
But no one out there seems to care
Now the voice inside my head
Is the only thing that I have left
This is the part where I'll admit
I'm getting what I deserve.
And now I'm lost at sea
I'm drowning in what I won't be
I'm haunted by the sound
Sweet sound of my last breath
20 days at sea
My skin is blistered from the heat
I can beg and I can plea
But what I get is never what I need
This is the part where I'll admit
I'm getting what I deserve
And now I'm lost at sea
I'm drowning in what I won't be
I'm haunted by the sound
Sweet sound of my last breath
I'm going down
This is the part where I'll admit
I'm getting what I deserve
And now I'm lost at sea
I'm drowning in what I won't be
I'm haunted by the sound
To kill the whitest looking dove
To hate everything I love
And I'm trying to pretend
Oh in wanting life to end
That I am not another stupid
Little teenage fucking whore
And now I know
And we will see
And now I know
And we will see
To take this handgun to my eyes
And watch my cells start to rise
The flesh now starts to break as the
Bullet enters like a snake
Through one side of my head
And out the other one
And now I know
And we will see
And now I know
And we will see
And I'm too scared to live tonight
And I'm too bare to shed my plight
And I'm too scared to live tonight
Too bare to shed my plight
(Please tell me I'm not wanted)
(Please tell me I'm not wanted)
Watch the bones rip through my flesh
A catharsis of my own distress
(Please tell me I'm not wanted)
(Please tell me I'm not)
And now I know
And we will see
And now I know
And we will see
Well I had a dream last night and in my dream I took a knife to you.
I slit your throat from ear to ear
The wound was gasping for the air.....your scream so clear
But every dream could never come true.
Only in my sick mind can I do these things to you.
With every passing moment, it just keeps getting worse
The walls are getting smaller and I am six feet beneath the earth.
And I will be, oh I will be, lost.
I had a dream last night and in my dream I robbed a country club.
A 5 year old tried to stop me, but I shot him through the head, and now he's dead.
Your heart.
Oh it's better too...... Rush upon this blade
Then give into the fear in your heart.
Calling all cars we've got another victim
'Cause my love has become an affliction
What did you expect from me?
What did you expect from me?
I'm sorry but think I got to mention
That I lied at my very first confession
What did you expect from me?
What did you expect from me?
'Cause this has been building since I have been breathing
And I know how it's going to end
So will you scatter my ashes where they won't be found?
I kept my word when I swore that I would let you down
And now that I'm gone, try to forget me and just move on
So will you scatter my ashes where they won't be found?
I kept my word and you hate me for it now
But you knew all along, try to forget me and just move on
Oh, my dear what have I gone and done now?
It's curtain call, I'm about to take my last bow
What did you expect from me?
What did you expect from me?
Without giving away the entire ending
I ruined the evening again
So will you scatter my ashes where they won't be found?
I kept my word when I swore that I would let you down
And now that I'm gone, try to forget me and just move on
So will you scatter my ashes where they won't be found?
I kept my word and you hate me for it now
But you knew all along, try to forget me and just move on
I don't have love left inside, inside
And I don't have love left inside, inside
Are you desperate for an answer?
I don't have an ounce of good left in me now
That's why I walked out
So will you scatter my ashes where they won't be found?
I kept my word when I swore that I would let you down
And now that I'm gone, try to forget me and just move on
So will you scatter my ashes where they won't be found?
I kept my word and you hate me for it now
You hate me for it now, try to forget me and just move on
I am not the one that you should blame
So take what I left you for the pain
I am not the one that you should blame
So take what I left you for the pain
Rest in peace girl, your death is such a shame.
The paper said a bullet got in your way.
But I smell foul play; possible poisoning.
I had to bring you in for questioning.
I went to your grave, dug up your body.
Brought it to my house, where you lay.
So let's play doctor, babe.
We'll operate today.
Incisions must be made.
You could help solve this case
For me...
I headed downtown to share what I had found
It's not a suicide, it's a crime
I have a witness, it's clearly evident
There had to be someone else present
At the time of death, poison's in stomach
How could she pull it if she's dead?
So let's play doctor, babe
We'll operate today
Incisions must be made
You could help solve this case
We need a scalpel now
Under white lights you lay
We've got to hurry up
Before your flesh decays
Away... away
I'll catch the murderer
And send him away
I'll get the evidence
From your last day
Your last day...Your last day...your last day
So let's play doctor, babe
We'll operate today
Incisions must be made
You could help solve this case
We need a scalpel now
Under white lights you lay
We've got to hurry up
Before the flesh decays
It's so nice sitting very still,
in a room where no one else can feel the pain
that breaks my heart each day,
I'm not ok.
Sunlight shining through my window,
let's me know that I'm still alive
Why did I ever let you inside my heart? I'm such a fool.
Paint my face in shades of blood
and grey and take a seat right next to me
But I should have known that you were a killer.
But now I'm dead.
A gaping hole, shot through my heart
A lost connection from your poison dart
Shot from your tounge to end my life.
You're blowing at the fire to light your strife.
You'll never know.
The hardest thing about dying is,
knowing you'll never see the light of day.
A gaping hole...(shot through my heart)
A lost connection from your poison dart.
My head now spins and my ears bleed gold.
I try so fucking hard, but I can't fit your mold.
The hardest thing about dying is
knowing you'll never see the light of day(x2)
You ripped my heart out,
you tore my eyes out, now you're gonna pay
I'll stab you one time.
I'll eat your heart out so you feel my pain.
Don't you know that I always see you in all of my dreams?
I wanna kill you.
I wanna kill you now.(x2)
I'm insane.
(My father's sins are out tonight)
(My father's sins are out tonight)
I haven't seen him in years
I haven't seen him in years
(My mother's sins are out tonight)
(My mother's sins are out tonight)
I haven't loved her in years
I haven't loved her in years
But to those for loneliness sometimes it just makes so much sense
(Here's a toast for loneliness sometimes it just makes so much sense)
For every night I drink alone I'm happier than I could have ever known
(Every night I drink alone and I'm happier than I could have ever known)
(My father's sins are out tonight)
(My father's sins are out tonight)
My skin is on the run
My skin is on the run
(My father's sins are out tonight)
(My father's sins are out tonight)
My skin is on the run
My skin is on the run
I'm not waiting
I'm not waiting
But to those for loneliness sometimes it just makes so much sense
(Here's a toast for loneliness sometimes it just makes so much sense)
For every night I drink alone I'm happier than I could have ever known
(Every night I drink alone and I'm happier than I could have ever known)
I'm not waiting
I'm not waiting
I'm betting dreams upon my paper wings (upon my paper wings)
Because flying isn't just for kings (isn't just for kings)
I take the stairs to the very top floor (very top floor)
I paid the super to leave open the door (leave open the door)
A perfect sunset is sinking in the sky (sinking in the sky)
I know my body is ready to fly (is ready to fly)
I start the countdown backwards from ten (backwards at ten)
When I reach one my family name will end (sentiment will end)
Falling down as windows pass I start to cry
And curse the day my parents laid
In a bed of hopelessness where love was made
Please mark my grave "Unknown"
But to those for loneliness sometimes it just makes so much sense
(Here's a toast for loneliness sometimes it just makes so much sense)
For every night I drink alone I'm happier than I could have ever known
(Every night I drink alone and I'm happier than I could have ever known)
Here I lie
As the car begins to roll
I smile as I lose control
This weightlessness is such a gift
'Cause gravity has lost its hold
I see the sky and then the ground
Kaleidoscope of light and sound
Catching flashes of my life
Just then the house lights all went out
I want to know myself so bad it hurts
I am a shell holding on
I said goodbye so many times in my life
I'm surprised it's still so hard for me
To see that I should start living my life
Or I will die unfulfilled and empty
I come to, still in the chair
As yellow angels step with care
My spinal cord's still sending shocks
But my life's in need of repair
There's got to be more than this
I don't want to just exist
As a hollow house for bones
The more I look every minute
Is there a place where I can start again?
I said goodbye so many times in my life
I'm surprised it's still so hard for me
To see that I should start living my life
Or I will die unfulfilled and empty
Wake up, you're sleeping
Wake up, you're sleeping behind the wheel
Wake up, you're sleeping
Wake up, you're sleeping behind the wheel
Wake up, you're sleeping
I waited for the light to come
To change my life, to change my life
But I am blind, my faith is gone
I'm finding out the good book was wrong
And I must face
That I won't be saved
We're destined to all die alone
I buried my cross with a rose
I won't kneel at your alter now that I know
It's a table for a magic show
I'm getting up from off my knees
The guilt is gone and I can finally breathe
But there is not a plan for me
You're making my tired ears bleed
And you can pray
But I won't be saved
We're destined to all die alone
I buried my cross with a rose
I won't kneel at your alter now that I know
If I think therefore I am
Where halos have been made
It's not that your an homage
Your a dead end philosophy
I'll never let a tie be my noose
I'll never stop searching for the truth
I'd rather die out on the road as another boy or man
Cause none of my possessions will make me who I am
Cause everything in my past is proof
I'll never stop searching for the truth
With my, with my last breath
The streetlights burst, we hope to rest
So bring me back to where all went wrong
So I can give up holding on
If I never love
Then I'll never learn
If I never fall
Then I never learned
Cause everything in my past is proof
I'll never stop searching for truth
With my, with my last breath
The streetlights burst, we hope to rest
So bring me back to where all went wrong
So I can give up holding on
Give up your false safety
Give up your false safety
The truth would set you free
If I never love
Then I'll never learn
If I never fall
How will I ever learn?
If it's one thing that I know
You gotta look inside to grow
So destroy yourself, just to find yourself
You gotta learn to let go
If I never love
Then I'll never learn
If I never fall
How will I ever learn?
If it's one thing that I know
You gotta look inside to grow
So destroy yourself, just to find yourself
You gotta learn to let go
The past burns slow
With my, with my last breath
The streetlights burst, we hope to rest
So bring me back to where all went wrong
(Just know)
(We are)
(A spec)
(In time.)
(So follow your bliss)
(And destroy the beauty)
I'll lock myself alone in a room
Drink until the clock strikes noon
With just a pen, a pill, and some paper
And maybe I will write a sad song
Or another cliche poem
Of the person that I long to be
I wanna die like Jim Morrison
A fucking rock star
I wanna die like god on the cover of time.
Just a blink and it's gone
So baby pour some fame in my glass.
(So kill the forest)
(And destroy the beauty.)
I'll lock myself alone in a room
Drink until the clock strikes noon
With just a pen, a pill, and some paper
And maybe I will write a sad song
Or another cliche poem
Of the person that I long to be
(Colors blind)
The eyes
(Sounds deafen)
The ear
(Flavors numb)
The taste
(Thoughts weaken)
The mind
I'll attack someone with a switchblade knife
So that I can see their pain
I choose to be a serial killer
'Cause the victims don't get any fame.
I'll lock myself alone in a room
Drink until the clock strikes noon
With just a pen, a pill, and some paper
And maybe I will write a sad song
Or another cliche poem
Of the person that I long to be
Just know, we are, a spec, in time
I'll light the fuse and I'll set that dam to blow flooding the entire town below
And all that I've known what wasn't nailed down will be washed away
My hands are shaking but I will not hesitate
I found the strength to face
The place I fear the most is the place I have to go to see the truth
It's ok to feel lost it just means you're alive
I've told myself a thousand times from the ashes we will rise
It's ok to feel lost walk through the flames and see
You're only left with that you need we're only here for the journey
Am I bold enough to be underlined like sand sifting through time
It all falls in line
Life is a mind field and on one side I'm stuck
I broke the key in the door I tried to unlock
I'm never giving up
The times that haunt you are the things you didn't do not what you did
It's ok to feel lost it just means you're alive
I've told myself a thousand times from the ashes we will rise
It's ok to feel lost walk through the flames and see
You're only left with what you need we're only here for the journey
We find the truth through tragedy
I'm finding new ways to make the same mistake
Putting my dreams on to paper and then folding them into planes
Then I left them go because when in Rome
I set fire to what I love the most
Goodbye
Goodbye
Goodbye
November 10th, a cold dark night
You could feel that something wasn't right
That night many hearts did cry
When we learned we had to say goodbye
All embraced under one common song
The body is dead but life lives on
All embraced under one common song
The body is dead but life lives on
Goodbye, Steven
Goodbye, you friend
You were so young
You were so young
Goodbye, Steven
Goodbye, you friend
You were so young
The cars lined the streets
As it was coming to an end
The sun shined so brightly
The day we buried our friend
All embraced under one common song
The body is dead but life lives on
All embraced under one common song
The body is dead but life lives on
Goodbye, Steven
Goodbye, you friend
You were so young
You were so young
Goodbye, Steven
Goodbye, you friend
You were so young
You were so young
Losing in the fall, lost innocence came down
An 18 year old boy was buried in the ground
A family's broken hearts, a friend's streaming tears
The light lost in death, the living's growing fears
Of eternal darkness or is it spiritual light
To come with terms with death on the darkest night
A brother lost a brother, a friend lost a friend
A mother lost a son but Steven's soul will never end
A brother lost a brother, a friend lost a friend
A mother lost a son but Steven's soul will never end
A brother lost a brother, a friend lost a friend
A mother lost a son but Steven's soul will never end
A brother lost a brother, a friend lost a friend
A mother lost a son but Steven's soul will never end
November 10th, a cold dark night
You could feel that something wasn't right
That night many hearts did cry
Ooh if you pull too hard
Then the string will break
And if you leave the slack
Then the string won't hold
So how can we find ourselves?
Trapped in our own private hells
Where we just scream, but no one can hear
X marks the spot where the dig begins
The treasure is found within
The broken hearts that are soaked with fear
Fill the glass to the brim
And it will spill out
And keep on sharpening the knife
And then it will, it will be so blunt
So how can we find ourselves?
Trapped in our own private hells
Where we just scream, but no one can hear
X marks the spot where the dig begins
The treasure is found within
The broken hearts that are soaked with fear
(To be at one with all your life)
So how can we find ourselves?
Trapped in our own private hells
Where we just scream but no one can hear
(So how can we find ourselves?)
To be, at one, with all your life
(Trapped in our own private hells)
(Where we just scream, but no one can hear)
And do, without doing a thing
(X marks the spot where the dig begins)
(The treasure is found within)
(The broken hearts that are soaked with fear)
Don't try too hard to understand
Ooh if you pull too hard
Then the string will break
And if you leave the slack
Then the string won't hold
So how can we find ourselves?
Trapped in our own private hells
Where we just scream, but no one can hear
X marks the spot where the dig begins
The treasure is found within
The broken hearts that are soaked with fear
Fill the glass to the brim
And it will spill out
And keep on sharpening the knife
And then it will, it will be so blunt
So how can we find ourselves?
Trapped in our own private hells
Where we just scream, but no one can hear
X marks the spot where the dig begins
The treasure is found within
The broken hearts that are soaked with fear
(To be at one with all your life)
So how can we find ourselves?
Trapped in our own private hells
Where we just scream but no one can hear
(So how can we find ourselves?)
To be, at one, with all your life
(Trapped in our own private hells)
(Where we just scream, but no one can hear)
And do, without doing a thing
(X marks the spot where the dig begins)
(The treasure is found within)
(The broken hearts that are soaked with fear)
Don't try too hard to understand
Take me to a hotel room
And tie me to the bed on my mistakes
Kiss me like I paid for this
Please don't stop 'til you take all my faith
And the white coats just don't get it
I'm a genius with a headache
And the white coats just don't get it
I'm a genius with a headache
Am I a little sick or a little sane?
Am I a little sick or a little sane?
Am I a little sick or a little sane?
'Cause I feel a little sick
I'm sorry I forgot your name
But this is the first time I've played this game
I know I made a big mistake
I'm paying you to suck out all my faith
And the white coats just don't get it
I'm a genius with a headache
And the white coats just don't get it
I'm a genius with a headache
Am I a little sick or a little sane?
Am I a little sick or a little sane?
Am I a little sick or a little sane?
'Cause I feel a little sick
She's grace, come and get some of this
She's grace, come and get some of this
She's grace, come and get some of this
She's grace, come and get some of this
And the white coats just don't get it
I'm a genius with a headache
And the white coats, they just don't get it
I'm a genius with a headache
Am I a little sick or a little sane?
Am I a little sick or a little sane?
Am I a little sick or a little sane?
'Cause I feel a little sick
She's grace
She's grace
She's grace
I spent the last year paying a stranger to listen
To childhood thoughts about the love I am missing
I've fallen for one of the oldest tricks in the book
We made it out of here
('Cause we made it out of here)
Because I wasn't thinking clear
Just save yourself
'Cause it's too late for me
Just save yourself
'Cause I've lost everything
Lying on the couches spilling all of my guts out
Walking out with nothing but a head full of self doubt
I take back every good thing that I ever said
'Cause it was all so meaningless
('Cause it was all so meaningless)
It didn't help clean up my mess
Just save yourself
'Cause it's too late for me
Just save yourself
'Cause I lost everything
Now I see
You rip me open, rip me up
Now I see
You rip me open, rip me up
I spent the last four years of my life
Lost kid, the question searched to find out
It was all a lie
Just save yourself
'Cause it's too late for me
Just save yourself
'Cause I've lost everything
Now I see
To all those people doing lines
Don't do it, don't do it
Inject your soul with liberty
It's free, it's free
To all the kids with heroin eyes
Don't do it, don't do it
Because it's not, not what it seems
No, no, it's not, not what it seems
Salvation, salvation, salvation is free
Salvation, salvation, salvation is free
To all those parents with sleepless nights
(Sleepless nights)
Tie your kids home to their beds
Clean their heads
To all the kids with heroin eyes
Don't do it, don't do it
Because it's not, not what it seems
No, no, it's not, not what it seems
Salvation, salvation, salvation is free
Salvation, salvation, salvation is free
Salvation, salvation, salvation is free
My memory,
Hangs like the stain glass of the saints past history.
I bury deep, Saint Anthony.
I hear that he can help me find the things I need.
Alaska winters pray for end of summer days
But the sun won't go away.
Just like me I'll bet they really want to change.
I can run as far as London,
But my past has first class seats.
The lighthouse lost it's beam.
Now all I see,
Is the face of the cliffs between the moonlight waxing.
I fear for my life,
That the current tonight,
Is stronger than the will that I have to survive.
So breathe you're alive.
So breathe you're alive.
So breathe you're alive.
Is it just me,
Or do you wonder if we're put here just to see,
How much heartache we can take,
Without hanging from the tallest tree?
I feel as lonely as a preachers wife.
My heart's a Russian Knight.
I drink to try to melt the ice.
The Cold War in my mind.
The truth hides between the lines.
The lighthouse lost it's beam.
And now all I see,
Is the face of the cliffs between the moonlight waxing.
I fear for my life,
That the current tonight,
Is stronger than the will that I have to survive.
So breathe you're alive.
Breathe you're alive.
Because we'll make it through this,
No matter the odds.
all bets are on.
It's always darkest just before the dawn.
The lighthouse lost it's beam.
and now all I see,
Is the face of the cliffs between the moonlight waxing.
I fear for my life,
That the current tonight,
Is stronger than the will that I have to survive.
The lighthouse lost it's beam.
and now all I see,
Is the face of the cliffs between the moonlight waxing.
I fear for my life,
That the current tonight,
Is stronger than the will that I have to survive.
So breathe you're alive.
So breathe you're alive.
I'm climbing out of the hole that I've been digging
Throwing out all the blue prints I have drawn up for the safe house
I stashed away enough food for forty days, gallons of water, first aid, and propane,
And some wine to entertain
I'm always planning for the worst
I signed my will right after birth
I've got my eulogy rehearsed
I fall to pieces and I get weak in the knees
When I think about eternity
Have I been led astray?
Feeling like they forgot me
He had the right name but the wrong street
I'm pulling nails out from the coffin
I'm gasping for air
My eyes are full just like the moon
I've got a silver bullet stare
The holy grail that I once thought
Was fiction but the fact is that it's not
In communion with my thoughts
The vultures circle overhead
Hanging like halos for the dead
But I'm not suited for one yet
I fall to pieces and I get weak in the knees
When I think about eternity
Have I been led astray
Feeling like they forgot me
He had the right name but the wrong street
I'm a number in a lottery
Life's a boardwalk game god rigged to cheat
As the snow falls all along the peaks
My minds an avalanche I'm digging through to reach
All the things I've tried to shove down deep
My minds an avalanche I'm digging through to reach
If I could run, but with its speed
I'm bound to be buried here underneath
A tidal wave triggered to teach
That life on an island isn't what it seems
I'm cutting off my toes just so that I can spite my feet
I fall to pieces and I get weak in the knees
When I think about eternity
Have I been led astray
Feeling like they forgot me
It's so nice sitting very still
In a room where no one else can feel
The pain that breaks my heart each day
I'm not okay
Sunlight shining through my window
Let's me know that I'm still alive
Why did I ever let you inside my heart?
I'm such a fool
Well paint my face in shades of blood and gray
And take a seat right next to me
But I should've known that you were a killer
But now I'm dead
A gaping hole, shot through my heart
A lost connection from your poison dart
Shot from your tongue to end my life
But if you're blowing at the fire to light your strife
You'll never know, no, you'll never know, oh no
The hardest thing about dying is
Knowing you'll never see the light of day
A gaping hole, shot through my heart
A lost connection from your poison dart
My head now spins and my ears bleed gold
I try so fuckin' hard but I can't fit your mold
The hardest thing about dying is
Knowing you'll never see the light of day
The hardest thing about dying is
Knowing you'll never see the light of day
You ripped my heart out, you tore my eyes out
Now you're gonna pay, I'll stab you one time
I'll eat your heart out so you feel my pain
Don't you know that I always see you in all of my dreams?
I wanna kill you
I wanna kill you now
I'm insane
I wanna kill you
I wanna kill you now
I'm insane
I wanna kill you
I wanna kill you now
And it's 4am
And we will stalk again
The princess, and her bitter queen.
On the 4th day of July
Deep in summer's eye
Naked like the truth should always be.
So speak your lives
(Don't follow with your foot)
All this pain here
(All comes from your dry lungs)
I won't listen
(Your retheric is fleeting)
My knives are fixed with glue.
Coming straight from out the water
Sun-burned face and drunken father
Crying and she's carving in her flesh.
And it's 4am
And we will stalk again
The princess, and her bitter queen.
On the 4th day of July
Deep in summer's eye
Naked like the truth should always be.
This false art
(Of palm trees and trash heaps)
This burning bed
(Where my ghost will now sleep)
Watching romance from a far seat
Bleeding from the glass on my feet
Learning that i love the smell of flesh.
And it's 4am
And we will stalk again
The princess, and her bitter queen.
On the 4th day of July
Deep in summer's eye
Naked like the truth should always be.
An angel on his two knees
Arms stretched towards red sea
Of violence and his sultry tongue.
The scenic view of carnage
Caused by the sword in his hands
The beauty resonates in birth.
It's plain to see, the wind beneath the trees.
Flowing free, the summer breeze is sweet.
I lay in space, choked by my own air.
I love the taste, of your blackened lips.
And it's 4am
And we will stalk again
The princess, and her bitter queen.
On the 4th day of July
Deep in summer's eye
I spent my life driving without headlights
I'm running from who I am
I've got my back laid across the iron tracks
Waiting for life to pass
I hit the floor so hard because I've been getting all my therapy at the bar
And this is the last time I'll try
When all the drinks are gone and it's just me in the honesty of the dawn
My shadow shows someone who's afraid of the morning sun
Just when I thought that it couldn't get much worse
I turned around and I saw you there tonight
So when will I get a break from life
It's driving me to drink tonight
You know that you were my worst addiction
Now you're here after two years of being clean
So when will I learn to break routine
And forget you like a dream
I'm gonna say this sober so I have no excuse
I need you in my life like my neck needs a noose
Just when I thought that it couldn't get much worse
I turned around and I saw you there tonight
So when will I get a break from life
It's driving me to drink tonight
You know that you were my worst addiction
Now you're here after two years of being clean
So when will I learn to break routine
And forget you like a dream
The telephone is ringing in the afternoon
I was talking to your mother about you,
Yeah, we were talking about you.
She said you were in a garden where the sunshine blooms
I can see you in the front lawn
When I'm gone,
My heart is with you.
When I'm gone,
My heart is with you.
I know, I know,
I'll always be thinking,
Thinking about.
I hope you know,
I'll always call you my home
Don't matter where I'm going,
Or what I do
I always come back, I always come back to you
And I've got this funny feeling,
That I'll be seeing you soon
I always come home, I always come home to you
I live by the freeway on a fabric bench
I wonder when next time that I'll be fed,
I'm fed up, I'm fed up with this.
You're probably sleeping in your plastic house,
I can see you in the front room.
When I'm gone,
My heart is with you.
When I'm gone,
My heart is with you.
I know, I know,
I'll always be thinking,
Thinking about.
I hope you know,
I'll always call you my home
Don't matter where I'm going,
Or what I do
I'll always come back, I'll always come back to you
And I've got this funny feeling,
That I'll be seeing you soon
I always come home, I always come home to you
I know, I know,
I'll always be thinking,
Thinking about.
I hope you know,
I'll always call you my home
Don't matter where I'm going,
Or what I do
I always come back, I always come back to you
And I've got this lovely feeling,
That I'll be seeing you soon
There's poison in my drinking glass, don't stop just sip it down
And in a swirling masquerade of sound, my body hits the ground
I'm beautiful when I'm asleep, Martini kisses land
On my blistered bloody scarlet lips, the bottles in my hand
Burn out not fade away
Burn out not fade away
Burn out not fade away
Burn out not fade away
Burn out not fade away
Burn out not fade away
I'll speak in riddles so you can understand
I'll draw in pencil so you can trace with pen
So in love with me like sand to wet feet
I'll write both our names into the wet concrete
We're glistening like silver spoons beneath the summer night
Oh can you smell the subtle hint of frost as the flowers start to cry?
The autumn winds are bringing graves to all the emerald trees
They're so beautiful in their dismay the colors slowly bleed
Burn out not fade away
Burn out not fade away
Burn out not fade away
Burn out not fade away
Burn out not fade away
Burn out not fade away
I'll speak in riddles so you can understand
I'll draw in pencil so you can trace with pen
So in love with me like sand to wet feet
I'll write both our names into the wet concrete
(The pawns will fade away)
Burn out not fade away
Burn out not fade away
(The kings and his checkmate)
Burn out not fade away
Burn out not fade away
(And I sit here with a sick grin)
(Choking as I laugh until I die)
Burn out not fade away
Burn out not fade away
Burn out not fade away
If I fall or trip back into love
I'm going to bring a ladder and gloves
So I can climb right back out
If there's ever even a shred of doubt
I'm gonna bring a flashlight too and
Leave a trail and stick to the plan
You can get real lost down there if you're not sure
Of the foreign territory
There are times when the path gets blurry
And the wrong turn feels right
But who would want me anyway?
I'm a lush with broken parts of paper-mâché
And I have nothing left to give, I don't think I ever did
There are times when I wish that someone
Would help me find the person I was
So give me a detailed map of the streets
Spelling out the traffic patterns and beats
I'm finding safety in lines
They are painted so they can guide
Empty tanks, broken wheels take me home
Right now I find myself dangling
On the edge, try not to fall in
Back to where I came from
But who would want me anyway?
I'm a lush with broken parts of paper-mâché
And I have nothing left to give, I don't think I ever did
Because I dove in way too deep with rocks tied to me
I should have had a plan
'Cause now these ropes won't come free
I do not have faith if I did then I would feel safe
I would wait here for fate but it's conveniently late
The bottom is a place that I know too well
So who would want me anyway?
I'm a lush with broken parts and I'll never change
And I have nothing left to give, I don't think I ever did
I wish I could find the person that I was
I always thought that I'd be happy if I was loved
I give blood to prove to myself
That I can matter to somebody else
Is what makes a man the dirt on his hands?
Don't put your faith in the desert sand
The wind is always blowing
There are gallows deep inside my lungs
That's where I hung ambition
Is it luck that's knocking right on my back door?
Because I've been breaking mirrors since 1984
I walk under ladders, I spill salt on sores
And I open my umbrella even when I am indoors
Give me seven more
I give blood not for the cause
But to slowly give up the person I was
Holding my breath won't help
Everything went to hell
So now I steal back pennies from the well
Because my wishes failed
I am screaming at my own shadow
To stop living like a ghost
Is it luck that's knocking right on my back door?
Because I've been breaking mirrors since 1984
I walk under ladders, I spill salt on sores
And I open my umbrella even when I am indoors
Give me seven more
I don't need her, I'm not that desperate
Come visit me in twenty years and maybe then
'Cause I'm not done screaming yet
You can call off the intervention
'Cause I don't need your attention
Is it luck that's knocking right on my back door?
Because I've been breaking mirrors since 1984
I walk under ladders, I spill salt on sores
And I open my umbrella even when I am indoors
Give me seven more
I don't need her, I'm not that desperate
I've gotta start livin'
Cause my life's passing me by
I'm a wreck, I'm unraveling
You're in the front row as I'm struggling
The spotlight shines showing everyone
Imperfect lines I tried to cover up.
I was born into a landslide
Now my hearts a perfect stone
It's a paper weight for bad ideas
Cause I always fly too close
I'll melt the ice caps in the Arctic sea
Making a boardwalk out of Philly streets
New Jersey becomes the new Atlantis
Ringing in a new age of romances (So I can feel alive again)
I was born into a landslide
Now my hearts a perfect stone
It's a paper weight for bad ideas
Cause I always fly too close, to the sunshine
It will burn my eyes
The sun is burning out my eyes
I've gotta stop living like a tornado
Uprooting everything that gets too close before it's roots get to grow.
I was born into a landslide
Now my hearts a perfect stone
It's a paper weight for bad ideas
Cause I always fly too close, to the sunshine
It will burn my eyes
The sun will burn my eyes
I've gotta start livin'
Just like the lady in the blue dress
You've got cigarettes on your breath
Hairspray and some cheap perfume
I'll put a little sour in your sweet
You've got so much fuckin' tongue in cheek
You want what you could never have
You say, that you want respect
Well then you better get some for yourself
'Cause all, that I see right now
Is someone whose lost and encircled
So you say, that I am rated X
You suffer from the lack of sex
Black hear, and your lipstick smeared
Your points are trite, and not too sober
To deal with your runnin' over
You're sane, but that ain't cleche lines
You say, that you want respect
Well then you better get some for yourself
'Cause all, that I see right now
Is someone whose lost and encircled
Don't try to be cute with me
'Cause I know you hate yourself
And you'd end your stupid lies now
But you're too spineless
Just like the lady in the blue dress
You've got cigarettes on your breath
Hairspray and some cheap perfume
You say, that you want respect
Well then you better get some for yourself
'Cause all that I see right now
Sometimes I try to do things
And it just doesn't work out the way I wanted to
And I get real frustrated
And I'm like, I try hard to do it
And I'm like, take my time
And it doesn't work out the way I wanted to
It's like, I concentrate on real hard but it doesn't work out
And everything I do and everything I try it never turns out
It's like, I need time to figure these things out
There's always someone there going, ?Hey, Mike
You know, we've been noticing
You've been having a lot of problems lately?
?You know, you should, maybe, get away
And like, maybe you should talk about it, you'll feel a lot better?
And I go, ?No, it's okay, you know I'll figure it out
Just leave me alone I'll figure it out
You know I'll just work it out myself?
And they go, ?Well you know if you want to talk about it
I'll be here you know and you'll probably feel a lot better
If you talked about it, so why don't you talk about it?
I go, ?No, I don't want to I'm okay, I'll figure it out myself?
And they just keep bugging me and they just keep bugging me
And it builds up inside
You're gonna be institutionalized
You'll come out brainwashed with bloodshot eyes
You won't have any say
They'll brainwash you until you see their way
I'm not crazy, institution
You're the one who's crazy, institution
You're driving me crazy, institution
They stuck me in an institution
Said it was the only solution
To give me the needed professional help
To protect me from the enemy, myself
I was in my room and I was just like staring at the wall
Thinking about everything
But then again I was thinking about nothing
And then my mom came in and I didn't even know she was there
She called my name and I didn't even hear it
And then she started screaming, ?Mike, Mike?
And I go, ?What, what's the matter??
And she goes, ?What's the matter with you??
I go, ?There's nothing wrong, mom?
And she goes, ?Don't tell me that, you're on drugs?
I go, ?No, mom, I'm not on drugs, I'm okay
I was just thinking you know, why don't you get me a Pepsi?
And she goes, ?No, you're on drugs
I go, ?Mom, I'm okay, I'm just thinking?
She goes, ?No you're not thinking, you're on drugs
Normal people don't act that way?
I go, ?Mom just give me a Pepsi, please?
All I want is a Pepsi and she wouldn't give it to me
All I wanted was a Pepsi, just one Pepsi
And she wouldn't give it to me, just a Pepsi
They give you a white shirt with long sleeves
Tied around you're back, you're treated like thieves
Drug you up because they're lazy
It's too much work to help a crazy
I'm not crazy, institution
You're the one who's crazy, institution
You're driving me crazy, institution
They stuck me in an institution
Said it was the only solution
To give me the needed professional help
To protect me from the enemy, myself
I'm sitting in my room and my mom and my dad came in
They pulled up a chair and they sat down, they go
?Mike, we need to talk to you?
I go, ?Okay, what's the matter??
They go, ?Me and your mom have been noticing lately
That you've been having a lot of problems
You've been going off for no reason and we're afraid
You're gonna hurt somebody
We're afraid you're gonna hurt yourself?
?So we decided that it would be in your interest
If we put you somewhere
Where you could get the help that you need?
And I go, ?Wait, what are you talking about, we decided
My best interest, how can you know what's my best interest is??
?How can you say what my best interest is?
What are you trying to say, I'm crazy?
When I went to your schools, I went to your churches
I went to your institutional learning facilities?
So how can you say I'm crazy??
They say they're gonna fix my brain
Alleviate my suffering and my pain
But by the time they fix my head
Mentally, I'll be dead
I'm not crazy, institution
You're the one who's crazy, institution
You're driving me crazy, institution
They stuck me in an institution
Said it was the only solution
To give me the needed professional help
To protect me from the enemy, myself
I take a final breath, breath it in my lungs
'Cause everything I've done has made me numb
If I had just one wish it'd be to let this out
So let go
And late at night I wonder
Am I lightning lacking thunder?
A Cabaret marque
Just flashing lights flickering a tease
Inviting freaks to a fantasy
A baited switch and blurry dream
But inside there's no skin to see
I'm not giving up
I'm not giving up
I take a final breath, breath it in my lungs
'Cause everything I've done has made me numb
If I had just one wish it'd be to let this out (So let this out)
Now hold on, so hold on
But I'm still struggling I need to let this out
So let go
Cause Heaven knows I've got Hell for home
A fallen angel looking for a rope
I'm standing outside the Pearly Gates
But no one is calling my name
I'm not giving up
I'm not giving up
I take a final breath, breath it in my lungs
'Cause everything I've done has made me numb
If I had just one wish it'd be to let this out (So let this out)
Now hold on, so hold on
But I'm still struggling I need to let this out
So let go
I've got to somehow let this go
Or I never will feel whole
I take a final breath, breath it in my lungs
'Cause everything I've done has made me numb
If I had just one wish it'd be to let this out (So let this out)
I hold on, I hold on
I take a final breath, breath it in my lungs
'Cause everything I've done has made me numb
If I had just one wish it'd be to let this out (So let this out)
I hold on, so hold on
Sometimes I feel so meaningless
Tangled up in the widows web
The more I struggle the tighter the noose will get
I'm screaming for help
Outside the school for the deaf
I'll spill my guts to anyone who will listen
I'm headed west, to try and test
My bravery
Face to face, with my thoughts
Is what I need
The rear view reminds me the futures passing presently
If I could just hit rewind, eject, and erase it
I've got to replace this tape, cause I can't sing along
Because you, you ruined so many songs
Even though it's been so long
All that I ever do is drink enough to try to forget
Let's sober up
And wait for the sun
Before we take back everything that we've done
I'm headed west, to try and test
My bravery
Face to face, with my thoughts
Is what I need
The rear view reminds me the futures passing presently
I spend so much time trying to see
Someone else, someone I could never be
You can't change yourself through changing scenery
The rear view reminds us where we've been
Wasting all my time, I'm looking for something that I'll never find
Wasting all my time,
I'm looking for something that I might never find
Let's sober up
and wait for the sun
Before we take back everything that we've done
I'm headed west, to try and test
My bravery
Face to face, with my thoughts
Is what I need
The rear view reminds me the futures passing presently
I spend so much time trying to see
Someone else, someone I could never be
You can't change yourself through changing scenery
I try but it doesn't mean I can
To kill the whitest looking dove
To hate everything I love
And I'm trying to pretend
Oh, in wanting life to end
That I am not another stupid
Little teenage fucking whore
And now I know
And we will see
And now I know
And we will see
To take this handgun to my eyes
And watch my cells start to rise
The flesh now starts to break as the
Bullet enters like a snake through
Through one side of my head
And out the other one
And now I know
And we will see
And now I know
And we will see
And I'm too scared
To live tonight
And I'm too bare
To shed my plight
And I'm too scared to live tonight
Too damn bare to shed my plight
(Please tell me I'm not wanted, please tell me I'm not wanted)
Watch the bones rip through my flesh
A catharsis of my own distress
(Please tell me I'm not wanted, please tell me I'm not)
And now I know
And we will see
And now I know
Empty frames on the floor
There's nothing left to prove who I was before
I'll burn the pictures before I leave
And wipe my prints off from the scene
The embers will help me to grieve
I need a drink to take, to take me through the day
Sometimes I lie awake and think of my mistakes
Was there ever a time we weren't dying and I wasn't lying?
I know I fucked up the last two years of your life
Empty boxes by the door
I'm throwing out all the clothes that I once wore
They just don't seem to fit my shape right now
My appetite for holding on has been washed down
I'm on a liquid diet of cheap beer and wasted love
Tomorrow I will pay the price
I need a drink to take, to take me through the day
Sometimes I lie awake and think of my mistakes
Was there ever a time we weren't dying and I wasn't lying?
I know I fucked up, this is my last goodbye, I've hurt you enough
I know the morning's gonna hurt but fuck it 'cause I know this works
So just take out another glass and pour
Send the shivers down my spine, calm the shakes with rotten wine
If I don't get out of this house I'll die or waste more of my life
I need a drink to take, to take me through the day
Sometimes I lie awake and think of my mistakes
Was there ever a time we weren't dying and I wasn't lying?
The garden state has never looked so pitiful and gray
As I awake to the garbage left today
I hope they take all of my old mistakes
'Cause I can't seem to shake them on my own
My eye it spins when I look at the mirror
Glancing at the man I see, with daggers for his eyes
I build my castles up in the skies
So when it rains, they melt away with shame
Here I am looking down at the bottom of the glasses
It's all my fault that I need a sign like shooting stars
To help connect the dots and turn my cuts into scars
Oh, all of my fears are getting checked by the medicine I take
All other guys just gather rumors of decent
There will be a riot in my heart soon
It wants to be beneath the open sky
Here I am looking down at the bottom of the glasses
It's all my fault that I need a sign like shooting stars
To help connect the dots and turn my cuts into scars
My regrets are what keep me still alive
I need to make up for all the lies
My regrets are what keep me still alive
I need to make up for all the lies
Here I am looking down at the bottom of the glasses
It's all my fault that I need a sign like shooting stars
To help connect the dots and turn my cuts into scars
Here I am looking down at the bottom of the glasses
It's all my fault that I need a sign like shooting stars
To help connect the dots and turn my cuts into scars
My regrets are what keep me still alive
I take a shot of Jameson or Jack to start the morning off with old friends
I'll celebrate like it's the anniversary of the day that we first met
I’ve been practicing our eulogy, separated all our things
I took my name off of the lease I’m leaving
'Cause dear, four years hurts less than five
(And it’s never a good time)
I am sorry for all my crimes
And the wandering gaze of my unfaithful eyes
Now I wonder as I am sliding under the subtle control of the drink
If I have enough left in the bottle to say all the things I’m thinking?
I’ve been practicing my exit plan, nervously checking time
I still don’t know how I’ll survive
'Cause dear, four years hurts less than five
(And it’s never a good time)
I am sorry for all my crimes
And the wandering gaze of my unfaithful eyes
It's clear I am an awful mess
(I had to get this off my chest)
Soon the only thing I'll have left
Is your memory and promises never kept
When she came home I made her sit
My feet tap out a rhythm as I draw breath in
To hurt the only one I've loved
“This is so damn hard but I am giving up.”
“The person that you love is dead,
I flooded him out with the Jack and Jameson,
So happy anniversary.
The best gift I could think to give you was to set you free.”
Wake up, you're sleeping
Wake up, you're sleeping behind the wheel
Wake up, you're sleeping
Wake up, you're sleeping behind the wheel
I tried to be the one that everybody loved
Where has that gotten me
I tear myself to shreds to prove
That I'm someone that I could never be
Now these unsightly marks define me
So help me, please someone come quick
I think I am losing it
Forget me, I inherited this
From a stranger I'll never miss, I'm sick
My father taught me firsthand how to be set free
Give up and run away
I wish I could drain out his half of blood in me
But I still have his face
I curse reflections every day
So help me, please someone come quick
I think I am losing it
Forget me, I inherited this
From a stranger I'll never miss
Here is my own family tradition
Following footsteps into addiction
So is there a way that I can find peace
While still marrying my pain? Is this my fate?
'Cause your only son still can't seem to find the way
So help me, please someone come quick
I think I am losing it
Forget me, I inherited this
From a stranger I'll never miss
So father where the hell are you now?
I think that you would be proud
Your son who's so unlike a leaf
Fell right next to the tree
I hope you're proud of me
So let me take this medicine
To quench my love for violent things
My swan song will
Be like a bullet laced in anger
As the razor cuts a soft spot
On your heel.
(Each breath) is getting slower
(This war) is getting harder
To fight by myself
(Sick waves) of bitter fashion,
(Ripped down) the shield that I have
Tears rain from above.
Do you see?
The life I lead?
So follow me into the sun,
And I will bleed, the poisons dry.
These bayonet scars never cease
To blind the light shed from the beast
And all we do is hate.
(Eyes shot) from constant visions.
(Angels) are rendered useless
Good has lost it's heart.
Do you see?
The life I lead?
So follow me into the sun,
And I will bleed, the poisons dry.
For you [x2]
(For you!) [x3]
Bite to break skin,
Don't give the secret,
My stoic face,
Beaten with passion
The phoenix will die
Inside the fire storm
I am the son
So follow my footsteps.
I blame myself for never saying anything
You`re dead to me but I`m the fool who still believes
That one day you`ll actually see that you missed out on everything
My innocence you devoured you fucking coward
I`m finding faith in myself tonight and finally I got it right
I must forgive you to move on
It`s my only choice cause you`ll never come
To fill up all the cracks in this foundation
All the fear all the panic and shame
I`m afraid I`ll be like you one day
Id love to hear the things you tell yourself to pass the blame
Your own daughter barely knows your face
You set the fire and then walked away
leaving everyone to clean that mess that you had made
Everything you passed down to me
The stiff right hand this fucking disease
What do I get for being your son
Nothing
I`m finding faith in myself tonight
and finally I got it right
I must forgive you to move on
Its my only choice cause you`ll never come
To fill up the cracks in this foundation
Jesus Christ look what you`ve done
Abandoning everyone that you should love
You fucking failed me
All that I have left is a choice to forgive or forget
Hold you`re hand to the fire
This head is haunted by a chorus in the sky
The voices aren't mine
I kiss the darkness as I see the whites of their eyes
They're crawling up my spine
They bloom at midnight in the middle of the moonlight
Strike a match, light the chandelier
This bedroom is a ballroom now
Strike a band, make the dead dance
This room is filled with corpses in costumes
My guests dress in black and blue, I raise a toast to the few
The orchids are in bloom
But there's a dead note in the choir of the garden
The sun will kiss the gloom, the warden's giving pardons soon
Strike a match, light the chandelier
This bedroom is a ballroom now
Strike a band, make the dead dance
This room is filled with corpses in costumes
Strike a band and make them dance
(I kiss the darkness as I see the whites of their eyes)
Strike a band and make them dance
Make them dance
This is your last night
Do you believe in what you write?
We open the sky and we hope you see light
Strike a match, light the chandelier
This bedroom is a ballroom now
Strike a band, make the dead dance
This room is filled with corpses in costumes
Strike a band and make them dance
(I kiss the darkness as I see the whites of their eyes)
Strike a band and make them dance
Follow your bliss, it beats on my chest
I know I got it tattooed for a reason
Why can't I just hold it true?
'Cause I'm still crashing all the funerals
Of these people that I never knew, yeah
I'm stuck in a coma
Stuck in a never ending sleep
Some day I will wake up
And realize I made up everything
I shut the door and turn all the lights out
And listen to all the song's that the night shouts
They go something like this
So go fill up a glass with tonic rocks
And jaded drink yourself to happiness
I'm stuck in a coma
Stuck in a never ending sleep
Some day I will wake up
And realize I made up everything
We cannot hang ourselves around gold chandeliers
A dream brought back to home, all the pain and fears
We send our sunken ships to a shallow grave
Washed upon the rocks, I won't be saved, I won't be saved
I'm stuck in a coma
Stuck in a never ending sleep
And some day I will wake up
And realize I gave up everything
(I won't be saved)
So bury your bliss, it beats on my chest
(I won't be saved)
I know I got it tattooed for a reason
(I won't be saved)
I shut the door and turn all the lights out
(I won't be saved)
Life, is floating fast away.
But I look, your head is turned away.
From the moment you left I knew that something wasn't right.
But the feeling inside has kept me up all night.
You and me are like one heart-beat.
So slice open my veins.
And let, the romance bleed away.
Back into I thought I knew, these words inside me, tell me what to do.
My heart held, in the palm of your hand.
(Forget my name)Now I know, the way to go, this place inside my demented mind.
(Forget my name)You saw me bleeding on the bathroom floor.
I just drove under the blinking sign
To where New Jersey meets the New York line
And through the tunnel for the last time
With everything crumbling behind
I stood still until I felt the shakes
Of two bodies that were parting ways
I didn't want to be the one to say
I know this hurts but it's time to break
In two pieces, two fault line's not secure
I'll burn a bridge if needed to get back to her
I feel like I am paralyzed
When I look at the empty space left in my bed
And think about all the things we did
At least I'm feeling more alive
But I still have some old weight that I've got to shed
Before I find happiness
I make mountains out of my worries
And I plant pain instead of sturdy trees
I have got to wash these old sheets
So I can fall asleep
There are times, there are times I reach for the phone
To tell you that there might still be some hope
Holding on, holding on to the slack of rope
But that's the whiskey talking, so
I hope that you can find some peace in life
Can you survive without me 'cause I thought I'd be fine?
Now I'm slurring every single line
I feel like I am paralyzed
When I look at the empty space left in my bed
And think about all the things we did
At least I'm feeling more alive
But I still have some old weight that I've got to shed
I've got to move on before I can find happiness
This isn't fair, nobody taught me how to let go?
Just be here now and you'll be set free from sorrow
But at this time I don't see clearly how will I know
What is the point, what is the meaning? How to let go?
I'm struggling, I blackout so I can dream
But I still see you sneaking through my weary head
I suffer from a drought of medicine to dull self-doubt
I just wanna drown you out with southern poison
If I had a drink for every goddamn time I think
About your pale skin dressed in pink
Then at least I could sleep
If I had a shot for every goddamn time I thought
About your face and what I lost
At least I'd get some sleep
Sleep, sleep
At least I'd get some sleep
Sleep, sleep
I don't give a damn 'bout my reputation
You're living in the past, it's a new generation
A girl can do what she wants to do and that's what I'm gonna do
An' I don't give a damn 'bout my bad reputation
Oh no, not me
An' I don't give a damn 'bout my reputation
Never said I wanted to improve my station
An' I'm only doin' good when I'm havin' fun
An' I don't have to please no one
An' I don't give a damn 'bout my bad reputation
Oh no, not me, oh no, not me
I don't give a damn 'bout my reputation
I've never been afraid of any deviation
An' I don't really care if ya think I'm strange
I ain't gonna change
An' I'm never gonna care 'bout my bad reputation
Oh no, not me, oh no, not me
Pedal boys!
An' I don't give a damn 'bout my reputation
The world's in trouble, there's no communication
An' everyone can say what they wanna say
It never gets better, anyway
So why should I care 'bout a bad reputation anyway?
Oh no, not me, oh no, not me
I don't give a damn 'bout my bad reputation
You're living in the past, it's a new generation
An' I only feel good when I got no pain
An' that's how I'm gonna stay
An' I don't give a damn 'bout my bad reputation
Oh no, not me, oh no, not me
I feel the city breathe at night
Beneath the stars and neon lights
And I've got nothing to lose
Drink up (drink up) drink up the loneliness
Drink up (drink up) drink up the loneliness
The streets outside, they burn with life
But I am dead on the inside
I think these pills are to blame
Drink up (drink up) drink up the loneliness
Drink up (drink up) drink up the loneliness
And I've got romantic ideas
But they're not meant for you
And my bed's filled with
Black roses to show that our love is through
I hope the fire licks my lips
And pulls me close against her hips
This town will go down in flames
Drink up (drink up) drink up the loneliness
Drink up (drink up) drink up the loneliness
And I've got romantic ideas
But they're not meant for you
And my bed's filled with
Black roses to show that our love is through
Like a broken mirror
They're pieces of me
Like a broken mirror
They're pieces of me
They're pieces of me
They're pieces of me now
Drink up (drink up) drink up the loneliness
Drink up (drink up) drink up my lonely
Drink up my lonely
I can't believe it's been a year
Since I kissed my fears
On their salty lips and said to them
I love you all
I carried the weight of the world on my shoulders
For 20 years and look at me now
I've got something to say
About the last 12 months I've lived
I'm not the same kid I was when I was younger
I just thought you should know
I take a pill every day to help me deal with life
And oh, my god, I've last control
I stare at accidents in a sick attempt to feel at all
I carried the weight of the world on my shoulders
For 20 years and look at me now
I've got something to say
About the family that I've lost
I hope my mother and my father think
That they raised a healthy boy
Who needs the help of a shrink to even leave the house?
And oh, my god, I've lost control
I stare at accidents in a sick attempt to feel at all
I'm not the same kid I was when I was younger
I just thought you, I just thought you should know
I'm not the same kid I was when I was younger
I just thought you, I just thought you should know
I carried the weight of the world on my shoulders
For 20 years and look at me now and now, and now
I'm finding a way to forget everything that I know
I can't believe it's been a year
Since I kissed my fears on their salty lips
And said to them, 'I love you all'
Don't ask, just follow, repeat and swallow
Don't ask, just swallow them down your throat
Don't ask, just follow, repeat and swallow
Don't ask, just swallow them down your throat
My best friend is a man
With a lab coat and a grin
I hold my shaking hand
And he gives me medicine
It almost makes me feel at home
But they slowly steal my soul
I tell him I still feel alone
?Don't worry someday I promise you will feel whole?
And oh, my god, I've lost control
Of the only thing in life I had a hold of
And oh, my god, I've lost control
Of the only thing in life I had a hold of
And oh, my god, I've lost control
Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye
November 10th, a cold dark night
Oh, you could feel that something wasn't right
That night many hearts did cry
When we learned we had to say goodbye
All embraced under one common song
The body is dead but life lives on
Goodbye Steven, goodbye you friend
You were so young, you were so young
Goodbye Steven, goodbye you friend
You were so, so young
The cars lined the streets, as it was coming to an end
The sun shined so brightly, the day we buried our friend
All embraced under one common song
The body is dead but life lives on
Goodbye Steven, goodbye you friend
You were so young, you were so young
Goodbye Steven, goodbye you friend
You were so young, you were so young
Losing in the fall, lost innocence came down
An 18 year old boy was buried in the ground
A family's broken hearts, a friend's streaming tears
The light lost in death, the living's growing fears
Of eternal darkness or spiritual light
To come with terms with death on the darkest night
A brother lost a brother, a friend lost a friend
A mother lost a son but Steven's soul will never end, never end
A brother lost a brother, a friend lost a friend
A mother lost a son but Steven's soul will never end
A brother lost a brother, a friend lost a friend
A mother lost a son but Steven's soul will never end
A brother lost a brother, a friend lost a friend
A mother lost a son but Steven's soul will never end
[Incomprehensible]
Just know
We are
A spec
In time.
So follow your bliss
And destroy the beauty
I'll lock myself alone in a room
Drink until the clock strikes noon
With just a pen, a pill, and some paper
And maybe I will write a sad song
Or another cliche poem
Of the person that I long to be
I wanna die like Jim Morrison
A fucking rock star
I wanna die like God on the cover of time.
Just a blink and it's gone
So baby pour some fame in my glass.
So kill the forest
And destroy the beauty.
I'll lock myself alone in a room
Drink until the clock strikes noon
With just a pen, a pill, and some paper
And maybe I will write a sad song
Or another cliche poem
Of the person that I long to be
(Colors blind)
the eyes
(Sounds deafen)
the ear
(Flavors numb)
the taste
(Thoughts weaken)
the mind
I'll attack someone with a switchblade knife
So that I can see their pain
I choose to be a serial killer
'Cause the victims don't get any fame.
I'll lock myself alone in a room
Drink until the clock strikes noon
With just a pen, a pill, and some paper
And maybe I will write a sad song
Or another cliche poem
Of the person that I long to be
Just know we are a spec in time
[Chorus and second verse in the background]
So the lie now is my weapon
Like a bush dried, weathered in the sun
With a spark I'll go up in flames
I'd lay my guts out but they're too small to see
It's kinda cute how I pretend to be
Everything but the instrument i am.
Peace or happines
So let it enfold you
A birth to life is what I am after
My first name won't be my last one
Let the light just drip into your eyes
So it's true my words are contrived
I tell lies just to get into your mind
I'm as fake as a widow's smile
This mask of glass is what I choose to wear
So I won't ever have the need to bear
To tell the truth to anyone but me
Peace or happiness
So let it enfold you
A birth to life is what I am after
My first name won't be my last one
Let the light just drip into your eyes
And I am dead, your eyes are light
I'm just a bad actor stuck with a shitty script
All of my lines are cheap and the cast is weak
There was no music for the first time I got kissed
There was no femme fatale, my mistress wasn't rich
So I've been formatted to fit your TV screen
The film went straight to tape
I'll bow out quietly
So quietly
Please do this now I beg
Duct tape my arms and legs
Throw me into the sea
(Please save me, please save me)
Please do this now I beg
Duct tape my arms and legs
Throw me into the sea
(Please save me, please save me)
Now watch the waves eat me
Setting my cold heart free
I'll wash ashore in weeks
(You can't save me, can't save me)
Now watch the waves eat me
Setting my cold heart free
I'll wash ashore in weeks
(Can't save me)
I wont forget the day that
that i came to
and i started thinking that theres more
than just perfect prom queens and silver spoons
and all i ever wanted
was someone
to knock me back to
the bliss of ignorance
cause i feel like running head first into traffic
and so I'm here to say
that thoughts in bed with pain
i wont forget the day that
that i found god
in a kitchen knife and on my arm
so pain the pale white floor with
with my red life
and tell me that this pain is
the pain I love
as i swallow the pills happiness
and you watch me fall like
new york in an earthquake
and so im here to say
that thoughts in bed with pain
i stand outside my pretty house
i light a match to start the fire
i called the cops to let em know
its 22 walthery ave
i thought i wanted this
im here to say
i said i wanted some more attention
i thought i wanted a story ending
I hate the pain,
I hate the pain, I...
I just can't win.
I hate the pain,
I hate the pain, I...
i think the truth is im scared
i think that im just scared to live
i think the truth is im scared
i think that the truth is
I spend my life driving without headlights
I'm running from who I am
I've got my back laid across the iron tracks
Waiting for life to pass
I hit the floor so hard
'Cause I've been getting
All my therapy at the bar
And this is the last time I'll try
When all the drinks are gone
And it's just me and the odyssey of the dawn
My shadow shows someone
Who's afraid of the morning sun
Just when I thought that it couldn't get much worse
I turned around and I saw you there tonight
So when will I get a break from life?
It's driving me to drink tonight
You know that you were my worst addiction
Now you're here after two years of being clean
So when will I learn to break routine
And forget you like a dream
I'm gonna say this sober
So I have no excuse
I need you in my life
But my neck needs a noose
Just when I thought that it couldn't get much worse
I turned around and I saw you there tonight
So when will I get a break from life?
It's driving me to drink tonight
You know that you were my worst addiction
Now you're here after two years of being clean
So when will I learn to break routine
And forget you like a dream
I set the fire as I play my violin
I spend my life driving without headlights
I'm running from myself
Just when I thought that it couldn't get much worse
I turned around and I saw you there tonight
So when will I get a break from life?
It's driving me to drink tonight
You know that you were my worst addiction
Now you're here after two years of being clean
So when will I learn to break routine
And forget you like a dream
You know that you were my worst addiction
Now you're here after two years of being clean
So when will I learn to break routine
My love for you,
ancient and true.
You are the flower,
out of frost you bloom.
Showing me beauty
that I never thought true.
Stop wasting time, and start to see.
This life is just moments and memories.
They are not like the [?] or [?] in the sea.
All that I am was meant to be.
You are, you are.
You are, you are.
You are the island where I lost home. [?]
You are the island where I lost home. [?]
Stop wasting time, and start to see.
This life is just moments and memories.
They are not like the [?] or [?] in the sea.
All that I am was meant to be.
I call to question, the things in question.
I think I think too much; I think I'm sure.
That that's a problem and that's a reason
Why I always fucking shut the door
On everyone I have ever loved before.
I'm willing to just shut myself down,
And let the good things go right under my door.
I finally found a reason I can open up to something more.
'Cause I was always taking the salt from the sea,
To water down the soil that's soaking deep.
I was suffocating something inside of me
When it just needed to breathe.
I would never dare call myself brave.
I have made a choice to walk my own way.
I would die than choose to stumble the roads unpaved,
Heading to an early grave.
But if I question, all this in questions [?]
Will that just take me back to where I came from?
'Cause I don't want to ever feel that way again, that way again.
'Cause all that I got was a dead end heart
Desperately conserving, searching roads in the dark
For a spark to help me hit restart.
'Cause everything I do will come back to me times two.
This is the first time that I've got something I don't wanna lose.
'Cause I was always taking the salt from the sea,
To water down the soil that's soaking deep.
I was suffocating something inside of me
When it just needed to breathe.
I would never dare call myself brave.
I have made a choice to walk my own way.
I would die than choose to stumble the roads unpaved,
Heading to an early grave.
Into an early grave.
I feel like I have finally found the balance
To rebound, and the waves in the sound they surround me,
Like a net to catch me in the act.
In the case and event that the present presents challenges over my head.
'Cause I was always taking the salt from the sea,
To water down the soil that's soaking deep.
I was suffocating something inside of me
When it just needed to breathe.
I would never dare call myself brave.
I have made a choice to walk my own way.
I would die than choose to stumble the roads unpaved,
Heading to an early grave.
As this cup empties,
I slowly fade from me.
As day's torn by night,
We drift from sight.
And as hope drifts away,
We're left with broken dreams and memories.
Lead us through this one,
And you'll find hope is gone.
Please don't fade away.
Use your mind and fly.
False memories of life
"Battle Hymn"
And this just in
We're killing ourselves slowly
And we're out to sea with cloudy skies
We'll never know the man behind the curtain
And so thank you and goodnight
And we're going down
At least we look good
Roll out the red carpet
Decide we'll not repent
And we're going down
At least we look good
I'm breaking, but standing
Looks like our debts are counting
I feel so cold
So weak, my lungs are failing
Maybe there's still hope
Or maybe I'll choke
I took the arm
I prayed for god to save it
But he left me here alone
And we're going down
At least we look good
Roll out the red carpet
Decide we'll not repent
And we're going down
At least we look good
I'm breaking, but drowning
Looks like our debts are counting
So pal, you ready to pay for my sins?
My eyes have seen the glory of the coming of the lord
I kneel down and the gates where I was born
Into a life I regret, in all my good intentions
I never said that I was heaven sent
Here's to a life I regret, will I be ending this?
There's no time to get away
There's no place left to hide
There's no time to get away
There's no place left for us to run
And we're going down
At least we look good
Roll out the red carpet
And welcome to repent
And we're going down
At least we look good
I'm breaking, but drowning
Looks like our debts are counting
We've got blood on our hands
We've got blood on our hands
We're going down as I speed at the sky
And for you, for you I'd weep
For you I'd fall down to my knees
For you I'd die, I'd die a thousand times
For you I'd take out my two brown eyes
Because darkness is only temporary
The crimson clouds and [?] will last eternally
I set sail onto waters of glass
I found love in the cold romance
Now I, I don't need a thing
You bring me back and I don't need a thing
I fall to pieces when you bring, you bring
And your eyes can [?]
We found each other in this life
We will find each other in death
We will find our souls in the next life
I promise, my goddess
I set sail onto waters of glass
I found love in the cold romance
Now I, I don't need a thing
You bring me back and I don't need a thing
Love, love, love set me free
Love, love, love set me free
It doesn't matter if you fall down
Get the fuck back up
There is a life that's worth living if you care to look inside
Look inside
I set sail onto waters of glass
I found love in the cold romance
Now I, I don't need a thing
You bring me back
Look in the basement of your heart
There is a light that just went dark
Look through the wreckage to find reverie
There is a truth that we all must see
You waited for someone to come and save you
But you are afraid to see the truth
The insecurities
That you cling to
Will steal the beauty of your youth
Take comfort to know, take comfort to know
That we are reborn together,
Reborn to follow
So hold high young hopes
Find what you love and let the rest all go
Hearts
Burn
And it takes
More strength
To move on
Hearts
Burn
Dig up the nails,
Pull up the floorboards
Come to face with your subconscious mind
The devil, the sinner, the saint
They're all in our blood
But we must choose the path that we walk
We get to choose the path that we walk
Light the flame in your soul and burn on
Hearts
Burn
And it takes
More strength
To move on
Hearts
Burn
And it takes
More strength
To move on
Don't be afraid
To stumble and weep
Enjoy the journey
Even when its steep
The mountains teach us
to rise up and reach
Enjoy the journey
even when you're weak
Passion pushes the urge
Your love of life determines what you're worth
Go now and unlearn
And burn, and burn, and burn, and burn
Look in the basement of your heart
There is a light that just went dark
Look through the wreckage to find reverie
There is a truth that we all must see
Hearts
Burn
this town had sunk its teeth
deep inside of me
and now i struggle just to breath
and this used to be my own safety
the side walks they're torn up
and the memories are grey
I'd rather keep them all that way
cuz i can't relive
all of those nights when i was
afraid that i wouldn't ever be the same
when i was shaking in a cold sweat
cursing all the pain I've had
i can't go back to all this!
(the pain I've had)
i can't go back to all this now
look at me
I'm a mess
a mess of everything
that i never wanted to be
i can't repeat
i can't relive
all of those nights when i was
afraid that i wouldn't ever be the same
when i was shaking in a cold sweat
cursing all the pain I've had
i can't go back to all this
(the pain I've had)
i can't go back to all this
i can't go back to all this NOW
all of those nights when i was
afraid that i wouldn't ever be the same
when i was shaking in a cold sweat
cursing all the pain I've had
i can't go back to all this
(the pain I've had)
i can't go back to all this
Looking back on all the times we strained to have,
Vacant eyes a sometimes smile.
Thinking back on all the things we almost did,
I hope you had a good time.
Angel, ever divine,
you'll never be mine.
Angel, ever divine,
You'll never be,
Never be mine.
About the pictures, that we hardly took,
I hope they come out alright.
Regarding the ring you always talked about,
I'm sure it'll fit you just fine.
Angel, ever divine,
You'll never be mine
Angel, ever divine,
You'll never be
You'll never be mine. (x2)
Just one question,
You never answered,
You never learned.
Just one question,
And your lips,
Never shaped the words. (x2)
Never the words...
Angel, ever divine,
You'll never be mine.
Angel, ever divine,
You'll never be...
You'll never be mine.
(Fuck with my heart)
I'll teach you what it's like.
(To be so used)
That you'll have to clean.
That dirt stuck in
Your plastic finger nails.
And just the scent of you is enough
(To make me sick)
And all I know is revenge is sweet when...
You know that you are worthless
And I am better than
The games that you play princess.
(I've played) and always win.
(I'll take my time)
To slowly plot your end.
(But now I will)
Spit bullets with my pen.
And all I know is you're cute when you scream.
You know that you are worthless
And I am better than
The games that you play princess.
(I've played) and always win.
I'll take you to the top,
Of this building and just push you off.
Run down the stairs so I can see your face
As you hit the street,
the street, the street, the street.
You know that you are worthless
And I am better than
The games that you play princess.
(I've played) and always win.
Daddy where did you go
When I was 5 years old
My new born sister left crying in her crib
Now with this shiny blade
I'm slicing not to make my heart and relationship to you
I have become the bastard son
and the bitch of everyone
The failure I've become
No one thinks it's so wrong to go to hell
You're all right so better leave it well
These words are running through my mind
Little black and art drawn kids
Just look at what you did
Just another bastard son like me
I have become the bastard son
and the bitch of everyone
The failure I've become
I have become the bastard son
The bitch of everyone
The failure I've become
You failed all and your kids
And eternity of blind hate
Both from your diamond rings
And the souls you smoke
Mock your face in hell
Lies
They're coming back to life
They're coming back to life
They're coming back to me
The revenge (oh) of a 5 year old boy
Lies
Coming back to life
Coming back to life
Coming back to me
Lyrics to Ali For Cody:
I'm giving up all expectations
That I will live a meaningful life
I once was filled with inspiration
That lion heart has lost his pride
I'm not the person that I thought that I would be
I keep tripping over the same steps
These words are beautiful
Advice is never useful
And I still walk the line held tight with my regrets
I'd rather die than live like this
I gotta give, I'm giving in
Some people never will go crazy
What horrible lives they must lead
I'm gonna try and pay to see it
And build a window to help me see
I'm not the person that I thought that I would be
I keep tripping over the same steps
These words are beautiful
Advice is never useful
And I still walk the line held tight with my regrets
I'd rather die than live like this
I gotta give, I'm giving in
I have got my eye lids stapled shut
I have failed but I'm used to it
My past is just that
It's a sunken old ship
There will be moments
I pretend that I can raise it up
Up out from the depths
Who the fuck am I kidding?
I was born with the curse of always giving in
Every day is another chance to make peace with myself
But I would rather play dead
Sure it looks easy when it's through my lies
A hero has a thousand faces, none of them matching mine
Fuck the world, fuck the stars, fuck the person you are
But nothing will matter if I don't give up folding my cards
I keep tripping over the same steps
These words are beautiful
Advice is never useful
And I still walk the line held tight with my regrets
I'd rather die than live like this
So I'm done with all this pain that I kept.
Like a boxer whose been knocked down and lost his step.
The doctor said
(The doctor said)
I'm sorry son
(I'm sorry son)
Your can't win,
you can't win this one
I've been fighting life on my knees
(over and over)
I'm standing up above the ropes so I can see
So I'm sorry I'm such a mess,
and I promise I will do my best
I perched myself of all this pain,
like cheap,
like cheap champagne
I've been fighting life on my knees
(over and over)
I'm standing up above the ropes so I can see
I've been fighting life on my knees
(over and over)
I'm standing up above the ropes so I can see
There's one thing that I know
Somewhere I lost my hope,
I've been wasting so much time
So I am standing up and I am screaming out
That there is love inside, oh there is love
I've been fighting life on my knees
(over and over)
I'm standing up above the ropes so I can see
I've been fighting life on my knees
(over and over)
I'm standing up above the ropes so I can see
(up above the ropes)
I'm standing up above the ropes
And finally I am free to breathe,
Now I'm finally able to breathe,
Now I'm finally able to see.
I'm so fuckin' over this
My sins mean everything
Subconscious thoughts are what I need today
They said they're gonna get me
You ain't getting out alive
They said they're gonna kiss me
Right between the eyes
You gotta watch it, son
You better fuckin' pray
That Jesus Christ will save you
It's coming, Judgment Day
Leave it up to me
Just leave it up to me
If you leave it up me
I'll fuck it up
I'm so fuckin' over this
My sins mean everything
Subconscious thoughts are what I need today
Mother Mary, did you see?
Your son turned his back on me
Cause everything I do is killing me
You've gotta listen, baby
I don't think you understand
These men are serious
And they have dirty plans
I turn my back to them
And I looked them in the eye
And I said if I'm gonna die
You're coming by my side
Leave it up to me
Just leave it up to me
If you leave it up me
I'll fuck it up just like I always do
So I give up
I'm giving in
I get down on my knees
I'm nothing but a sinner
I can not stand
Waking up everyday
And staring up at a God
Who never stares back at me
I'll fuck it up
I'll fuck it up
I'm so fuckin' over this
My sins mean everything
Subconscious thoughts are what I need today
Mother Mary, did you see?
Your son turned his back on me
Is this the end of my life or just the end of the world
Skeletons rule the cities as the innocent burn
And if you stand up and fight with your black flag tonight
They'll put tape on your mouth as they kiss you goodbye
Dance, Dance, Dance, Dance
Come dance with me, come dance with me
Dance, Dance, Dance, Dance
Dance Dance, come dance, come dance with me
You know you can't stay neutral
On a moving train
So pick a fucking side
And place the blame
'Cause there's nothing worse
than a bird with wings who doesn't fly
So wake up and smell the flowers today
Don't they reek of shit and bloody money
There's not an ounce of love that's left in the world
You're not alive any more your a possible sale
Dance, Dance, Dance, Dance
Come dance with me, come dance with me
Dance, Dance, Dance, Dance
Dance Dance, come dance, come dance with me
You know you can't stay neutral
On a moving train
So pick a fucking side
And place the blame
'Cause there's nothing worse
than a bird with wings who doesn't fly
There's still war on page six
America don't die like this
there's still war on page six
A-ME-RI-CA!
There's still war on page six
America don't die like this
there's still war on page six
America don't die like this
You know you cant stay neutral
On a moving train
So pick a fucking side
And place the blame
'Cause there's nothing worse
than a bird with wings who doesn't
You know you cant stay neutral
On a moving train
So pick a fucking side
And place the blame
'Cause there's nothing worse
I'm leaving home
Above the clouds with silver wings
I feel my guts slowly drop as engines sing
My teeth are clenched
'Cause gravity is defied
I'm at a place where I feel dead inside
I know I can't take back what I never lent
'Cause all my plans, crushed in the end
Desperate
As I slip the screws out from the seat
I need a way to breathe
The wind
Tears the fuselage from the tail piece
I hope it sets me free
With my nose pressed up to the window pane
I watch the lights as now they dance in rain
I breathe out to make a canvas for your name
I can't relax my shoulders carry the blame
I know I can't take back what I never lent
'Cause all my plans, crushed in the end
Desperate
As I slip the screws out from the seat
I need a way to breathe
The wind
Tears the fuselage from the tail piece
I hope it sets me free
I look below and weigh the rip
And now the bag is up, I'll be dropping weight
I'm diseased just like my father
He says it comes from my mother
I hope my son does not catch it
Look at what I have to do to survive
I hurt myself just to feel alive
I don't know if I'll make it back home
'Cause I don't know if there's no hope left there
Everyone's looking for someway
I am looking for the one way out
I've been wasting my time
Standing in line
And this is what life is all about
Desperate
As I slip the screws out from the seat
I need a way to breathe
The wind
Tears the fuselage from the tail piece
This captain goes down with his ship
All hands on deck, stand hip to hip
I shout the orders, shoot to kill
I'm dressed to thrill, I'm dressed to thrill
And to all my enemies
I want their eyes to see
Their captain walk the plank
Destroy them rank by rank
Sail with me into the setting sun
The battle has been won but war has just begun
And as we grow emotion starts to die
We need to find a way just to keep our desire alive
Now set the sails to quarter mast
Well jump their ship we'll sink them fast
Men follow me to victory
Red as the sea, red as the sea
And to the cannons roar
Their bodies dance a shore
A pirates life for me
I wont go quietly
Sail with me into the setting sun
The battle has been won but war has just begun
And as we grow emotion starts to die
We need to find a way just to keep our desire alive
And to my damsel in distress
You've made a mess of your new dress
You've made a mess of your new dress
Sail with me into the setting sun
The battle has been won but war has just begun
And as we grow emotion starts to die
We need to find a way just to keep our desire alive
I'm dressed to thrill
Just to keep our desire alive
I just want to feel alive.
And love myself from the in and the outside.
'Cause every time that I start to feel whole,
I knock myself on the ground because it's all that I've known
Just like the streets burn a hole through your shoe.
My soul has been worn out too,
I'm 25 and I still don't fit in
Directionless, like a blind man painting
Mother I'm so sorry, I can't go on like this.
The lifeboats are leaving with or without me.
What's the point of falling in love?
If I don't love myself.
What's the point of being alive if all I want is out.
So I thought that it only feels right
To make the decisions that endanger my life.
Late late at night under black and blue moons.
I question in the reasons that I self-abuse.
I'm so pathetic.
It makes me sick.
I'm a fingerless pianist.
I see reflections.
I clench my fists.
I'm a violin without the strings.
Mother I'm so sorry, I can't go on like this.
The lifeboats are leaving with or without me.
What's the point of falling in love?
If I don't love myself.
What's the point of being alive if all I want is out.
There is no love.
There's only this:
Just lust and lies, and selfishness.
A black hole where the sun once was.
I'm never falling back in love.
'Cause it has never been enough.
Ever since I've been a young boy I was alone
Now that I've become a man, the feeling's grown.
Through the therapy and through the pills, I can't let go.
But what about the fuckin fact:
I'm still alone.
What do you do when you got nothing left?
Give up! Give up! And hope for the best!
I fell into the ocean, I and I feel sick,
Waiting on a nameless rescue ship.
What do you do when you got nothing left?
Give up! Give up! And hope for the best!
I fell into the ocean, I and I feel sick,
Waiting on a nameless rescue ship.
Mother I'm so sorry, I can't go on like this.
The lifeboats are leaving with or without me.
What's the point of falling in love?
If I don't love myself.
I stand alone on the verge of 24
I can not doubt, I'm left unsure
Everyone I know has a casket made
The black spins out, the roads are paved
Do I still have time to make mistakes?
Is this the point where I bend or break?
Am I too far gone to medicate?
Is this a birth or is this a wake?
There was a part of me
That I lost when I was seventeen
I can't get back
The innocence I gave to scenes
In between Jersey plays
Was just an act
I would slit my throat and blinded through my lies
Desperate I am matched with two black eyes
At the mouth of a river people sit
With concrete shoes ready to jump in
Do I still have time to chase my dreams?
Or did that pass, sail out and leave?
Is there still room for me to grow?
Or is this feud all that I know?
There was a part of me
That I lost when I was seventeen
I can't get back
The innocence I gave to scenes
In between Jersey plays
Was just an act
Sometimes I want, to just give in
Accept the answers without a question
It's easier, I must confess
To treat this life like it's a waiting room for death
How can I make sense of this mess?
I'll share my emptiness with a glass
It's my best bet for happiness
There was a part of me
That I lost when I was seventeen
I can't get back
The innocence I gave to scenes
In between Jersey plays
Was just an act
There was a part of me
That I lost when I was seventeen
I can't get back
The innocence I gave to scenes
In between Jersey plays
Embrace each day with amazement inhale the sun
Two dying stars reborn as one
My god is a metaphor that transcends time
Much more than paper held in a spine
When you carry a cross you carry a stone
Set your mid free let your young heart roam
Walk down unknown roads before you build a home
Follow the stream until you reach the beach
It's all the same book just a different speech
I believe your god is dead
Wake up wake up
There is truth in your head
Your god is dead
My heart will see me through
I don't need a crutch nor excuse
We're all searching for something we're searching for love
Regardless of the form we want to bask in the sun
So bury the ax and give up the gun
Courage of the knife
But not of the blood
I believe your god is dead
Wake up wake up
There is truth in your head
Your god is dead
The dust of stars
You wore a summer dress,
I wore my Sunday's best.
We were a pair, that night.
We dined like royalty,
Kissing beneath the tree.
We drank all the, bottles dry.
And then you said,
"Diamonds are girl's best friend."
I turned my head.
I bit my lip, and bit my lip again.
That night I closed my eyes,
Swimming through all my lies.
In my regret, I laid.
I turned to kiss your cheek,
Your body was grieving.
You opened your eyes and said,
"We need to talk..."
My story gets it's wish tonight.
I feel all the blood rush away from my face.
When you said you can't do this,
I plead my case.
And I'm sorry for, running away.
I feel all the blood rush away from my face.
When you said you can't do this,
I plead my case.
And I'm sorry for, running away.
I need a drink, like a fish out of water.
My head is spinning, around.
I don't know what to do.
My pillows smell like you.
I see you in every mirror.
I feel all the blood rush away from my face.
When you said you can't do this,
I plead my case.
And I'm sorry for, running away.
I feel all the blood rush away from my face.
When you said you can't do this,
I plead my case.
And I'm sorry for, running away.
I need you, like fire needs oxygen.
I need you, like fire needs oxygen.
One last kiss, (like fire needs oxygen)
Before you go. (like fire needs oxygen)
One last kiss, before you go.
I feel all the blood rush away from my face.
When you said you can't do this,
I plead my case.
And I'm sorry for, running away.
I feel all the blood rush away from my face.
When you said you can't do this,
I plead my case.
I don't lie
I love you all
I do
And to all of you guessing
Just tell that I'm betting to stall
It's true
We will capture you in open arms
When you're tired and alone
My life is better than it ever was
My life is better than it ever was
And I'll give blood to your dry veins
We do this for the passion and not the fashion or fame
We will capture you
In open arms
When you're tired and alone
My life is better than it ever was
My life is better than it ever was
This could be your home when you're all alone
Tired and desperate
My life is better than it ever was
To all the crowded rooms that say you gave me a home anyway
To all the crowded rooms that say you gave me a home anyway
To all the crowded rooms that say you gave me a home anyway
To all the crowded rooms that say you gave me a home anyway
I'll give blood to your dry veins
I'll give blood to your dry veins (To your dry veins) (I'll give blood)
To all the crowded rooms that say (To your dry veins)
To all the crowded rooms that say (You gave me a home anyway)
My life is better than it ever was
My life is better than it ever was
This could be your home when you're all alone
Tired and desperate
This could be your home when you're all alone
Today my past
Has come alive to eat
All of the guts that I use to just keep my feet
Moving left and right
As my legs shake like trees
Oh how I curse the heavens for not taken' me
GOD DAMN!
This whole mess that's me
I DON'T TRUST MYSELF!
I'm in way too deep
And every night I erase the day
With the strongest drinks they'll give to me
And I awake
Much to my dismay
To find that I'm still staring at the same ceiling
I just wish once
I could get this right
And have the angels from the South take me at night
GOD DAMN!
This whole mess that's me
I DON'T TRUST MYSELF!
I'm in way too deep
And every night I erase the day
With the strongest drinks they'll give to me
And all I have
Is meaningless
And all I found
Is nothingness
In this self loathing sickness
And all I have
Is meaningless
And all I found
Is nothingness
In this self loathing sickness
GOD DAMN!
This whole mess that's me
I DON'T TRUST MYSELF!
I'm in way too deep
And every night I erase the day
With the strongest drinks they'll give to me
And all I have is meaningless
I used to live this life like I was dead
So scared so trapped so alone in my own head
I wasted
The fire in me
I wasted
The choir in me
I was drunk in the gutter where no one could hear me scream
We are the lost
We are the damned
We are the broken the battered and banned
I finally found a way
I swallowed the only sun
And sank beneath the waves
As I burst with golden rays
I know that only love
Can resurrect and save
This life is part of a struggle
Searching for balance and truth in the rubble
The answer that you seek
Always right at your feet
If you want the proof then go dig up the grave
Fuck what you know
Fuck what you believe
I am the architect of my destiny
There is only one truth
I was the chapstick in your purse, to keep you smooth
I was the finger in your throat, to keep you cute
My liver hates you for walking out on us
My kidney's drowning in a pool of a long lost love
I stole your perfume to spray in my room
You will always be here
So much for the past year
I poured it down the drain with all the alcohol and pain I got from
Your Eyes, oh your eyes
I'm burning out my bedside
And I'm rotting out my insides slowly
I was the hand that held your hair back from your face
Now I must forget the way you taste
I stole your perfume to spray in my room
You will always be here
So much for the past year
I poured it down the drain with all the alcohol and pain I got from
Your Eyes, oh your eyes
I'm burning out my bedside
And I'm rotting out my insides slowly
I love you so damn much
I'll even start to pray
I'll put my faith in all your bullshit
If it means you'll stay
I love you so damn much
I'll even start to pray
I'll put my faith in all your bullshit
If it means you'll stay
So much for the past year
I poured it down the drain with all the alcohol and pain I got from,
Your Eyes, oh your eyes
I'm burning out my bedside
And I'm rotting out my insides
I'm burning out my bedside
And I'm rotting out my insides
I love you so much, I started praying
I love you so much that I stated praying
I love you so much, I started praying
Last night I found heaven
It's on the tip of my tongue
And it reminded me of
All the times I was young
I've got you right in my view now
I used to smile till the day I fell down
I have no idea who the hell I've become
It's not who I was, it's not who I loves
I want to drown, in a sea filled with Novocaine
I want to burn, on a beach where the sand
Has thousands of needles poking at my skin
I lie in bed to the sound, of the wolves at my door
They are speaking in tongues
While they claw at my floor
I never thought it would come to this
I'm more yellow than my abyss
(They're making branches) to even the score
Just open the door, just open the door
I want to drown, in a sea filled with Novocaine
I want to burn, on a beach where the sand
Is littered with razer blades
Littered with razer blades
Blades
Littered with razer blades
I can't hold on, the path is clear
I can't ignore, what's been building for years
There's wolves at the door, I won't hide here in fear
Wolves at the door, wah!
I look at myself and the things that I've done
Stare away from the mirror and right into the sun
I forgive myself for all of my mistakes
When will I learn, when will I, when will I burn
I want to drown, in a sea filled with Novocaine
I want to burn, on a beach where the sand
Is littered with razer blades
I gave up on myself a long time ago
To the black clouds I'm swallowed
And spit me out whole
Some times it feels like I'm losing my soul
At least that means
Look in the basement of your heart
There is a light that just went dark
Look through the wreckage to find reverie
There is a truth that we all must see
You waited for someone to come and save you
But you are afraid to see the truth
The insecurities
That you cling to
Will steal the beauty of your youth
Take comfort to know, take comfort to know
That we are reborn together,
Reborn to follow
So hold high young hopes
Find what you love and let the rest all go
Hearts
Burn
And it takes
More strength
To move on
Hearts
Burn
Dig up the nails,
Pull up the floorboards
Come to face with your subconscious mind
The devil, the sinner, the saint
They're all in our blood
But we must choose the path that we walk
We get to choose the path that we walk
Light the flame in your soul and burn on
Hearts
Burn
And it takes
More strength
To move on
Hearts
Burn
And it takes
More strength
To move on
Don't be afraid
To stumble and weep
Enjoy the journey
Even when its steep
The mountains teach us
to rise up and reach
Enjoy the journey
even when you're weak
Passion pushes the urge
Your love of life determines what you're worth
Go now and unlearn
And burn, and burn, and burn, and burn
Look in the basement of your heart
There is a light that just went dark
Look through the wreckage to find reverie
There is a truth that we all must see
Hearts
Burn
Fireworks at dawn as I sip for assistance
This flask keeps me calm, it reflects back my bent image
Of someone who's lost and getting older by the minute
laugh lines are like growing scars, someday they will be finished
I've got so many places that I want to see
And I've got so many faces that I want to be
So get on your feet, wipe the dirt off and get with it
Destiny waits at your door (all wrapped up with a ribbon)
It's time to move on because the past can't be your passion
So what if you did something wrong? Find someone who hasn't.
I've got so many places that I want to see
Here I lie
I'm staring At
Clouds in shapes
Of dogs and cats
I hear a woman
Start to yell
"Oh dear God, I think he fell"
I'm the arrow,
Shot straight to hell
From the bow of William Tell
My body lies
Kissing the ground
Like a cross turned upside down
A priest is rushing
To my side,
Begins to read me
My last rites
Father, you're too late
My faith is weak
So won't you save your
half-hearted speech
I'm the arrow,
Shot straight to hell
From the bow of William Tell
My body lies
Kissing the ground
Like a cross turned upside down.
A man bends down and says
"Son, we're gonna get through this one
take my hand and let us pray"
I scream, "Please get the fuck away."
I'm the arrow,
Shot straight to hell
From the bow of William Tell.
My body lies
Kissing the ground
Like a cross turned upside down.
The ambulance is singing
As cops push back the crowd
I start to take my last breath,
As blood pours out my mouth.
The medic's walking my way
I think this could be it.
I hear them start to state
The time of death is half past six.
I'm the arrow,
Shot straight to hell
I'm the arrow
Now that I see this all so clearly
I know your love is everything to me
I guarded my emotions when I should have let them breathe
I untied the knot in my chest and released
Tears of joy, years of pain, tears of fucking peace
There was a bird in my heart that never got to sing
Screaming bloody grace and passion pacing
Round and round the race is always waiting
I was lower than dirt underneath my fingernails
I was a snake never shedding its scales
I used to hate the person that I was
Come and find me young love
Now that I see this all so clearly
I know your love is everything to me
You are the thundering sound
You are the solid ground beneath my feet
I know your love is everything to me
This pain in your body that you're struggling with
Is a snake bite from childhood that you only bandage
We've got to draw it out, draw it out, draw it out quick
I'll never stop yearning until my heart quits
Ancient branches wave in winter winds
Bravery begins when you open your heart
Let life touch you, let life touch you
Now that I see this all so clearly
I know your love is everything to me
You are the thundering sound
You are the solid ground beneath my feet
I know your love is everything to me
You're not a statue, you're not made of stone
The blood in your body flows and flows
The mountain is high the valley is deep
But your sense of self is what you'll always keep
Now that I see this all so clearly
I know your love is everything to me
You are the thundering sound
You are the solid ground beneath my feet
I know your love is everything to me
Is everything to me
Half smoked cigarettes and you're the trash that infests my sheets
can't make a wife out of a whore, don't want your skin on me
And you're, and you're addicted to the drug of lust
A detox in the cold sweat of shame
and i love your pain
I gave you these roses now but i left in the thorns
I'd rather hurt someone than hurt myself
I'll dispose of you like a lighter out of fuel
I'll lose you somewhere on a dusty shelf
So this love's been worn down, like songs on a tape
The sex has lost all of its fun, like gum loses taste
And you're, you're addicted to the drug of lust,
A detox in the cold sweat of shame
and i love your pain
I gave you these roses now but i left in the thorns
I'd rather hurt someone than hurt myself
I'll dispose of you like a lighter out of fuel
I'll lose you somewhere on the shelf
I'm here lying in your bed babe
Remember what you said to me
"You can be my James dean, I'll be your sweet queen"
I said that you were my first, but you weren't even close now
Like a frame in a movie, you're just one of many
Can you grant me one last wish
Play Russian roulette as we kiss
I'll be your cheap novelty
Blow your brains out on me
I gave you these roses now but i left in the thorns
I'd rather hurt someone than hurt myself
I'll dispose of you like a lighter out of fuel
The gate you're afraid to enter
Holds the treasures you seek
Your flesh, my bones
Young hearts, old souls
The gate you're afraid to enter
Holds the treasures you seek
Silver and gold
Young hearts, old souls
This is the death of the subconscious you knew
Follow the inner voice, follow the truth
Forever we are bound to this burial ground
Unless we let the light shine through
(Reborn)
My heart it no longer bleeds[?]
(Reborn)
I've got the love that I need
Stop wasting your time waiting on misery
I'm reborn eternally
When you look in the mirror
Are you proud of what you see?
When you look in the mirror
Are you the person you thought you'd be?
The gate you're afraid to enter
Holds the treasures you seek
Your flesh, my bones
Young hearts, old souls
The gate you're afraid to enter
Holds the treasures you seek
Silver and gold
Young hearts, old souls
Your flesh, my bones
And do you ever ask yourself
If the person that you are
Is the person you were meant to be
Or are you too afraid to go that far
Courage is to walk
Through the valley of our thoughts
And in the desert that you fear
Sit down with open ears
Because we were made to wander
Between the mountain and the sea
This body is a vessel
To house eternally
So what are you gonna do
When everything you love is taken right away from you?
And what are you gonna do
If the person that you thought you were is not the person you knew?
So what are you gonna do
When everything you love is taken right away from you?
And what are you gonna do
When the person that you thought you were is not the person you knew?
You got nothing to lose
You got nothing
Do not wait 'til angels sing
Do not wait 'til angels sing
And don't fear the unknown road
What is diamond was once coal
There is a devil in the cold dark streets
It leaves us starving and suffering
And there's a weakness that we cannot see
For we all feel it, and it is deep
And there is nothing that will set us free
It's the silence and inner beast
There is a passion that we all must seek
But we are silent, and we are weak
There is a devil in the cold dark streets
You got nothing to lose
You got nothing
Do not wait 'til angels sing
Do not wait 'til angels sing
And don't fear the unknown road
What is diamond was once coal
You got nothing to lose
You got nothing
Do not wait 'til angels sing
Do not wait 'til angels sing
And don't fear the unknown road
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