Difficult days in the last week.
My youngest has been diagnosed with a gut problem that will be lifelong, relapsing and remitting. DV he will have a normal lifespan, but it won't go away. It was a diagnosis we had feared.
He is currently on an enteral feeding programme which means he cannot eat any solid food for the next eight weeks. He cannot receive Holy Communion until after the New Year. He and we were very upset last week, tearful and down, drained.
He has been braver and more phlegmatic than I would have been as an adult. He is 11. His first feed took the best part of an hour to take - sickly and sweet. He can now down 330mls of feed in 4 minutes. He has to take it six times a day - 2L in total.
Theodicy has been at the front of my mind, but it is useless to go down that road if one truly believes in the Incarnation.
A bit flat. Prayers required.
Prayer, prayer, prayer.....