Outside the madness come to me
Feelings are much higher underneath
I would crawl up inside you
know that I'll try to
lonely is only as lonely as we
we're only so lonely
I don't mind where you go while you're gone
You let me know if it's better
And I don't mind when you go why you're gone
and I'll leave you alone if it's better
You could stand on my shoulders for air to breathe
and I would bow to kiss the ground cause
here is where I found you
and where I'd leave you
And brighter will find you
but don't let it blind you
you can't ask forgiveness for what you don't see
and what you don't see is that
And there are angels besies you
they keep and they guide you
but your eyes are just as sad as they can be
Abelene, the day is done
war was fought
war was won
I believe that
you believe that
We are not the only ones
Abelene, the truth is clear
we spend our time in love and fear
And I believe it
you believe it
and we are not the only ones
Do you recognize your life
looking through the eyes
of your angry youth and sordid past?
but Abelene, there is a difference
between the face that's in your mirror
and the one that's on the
carbon dated photographs
Abelene, your light still shines
purest reason, and plainest rhyme
And I believe it
and you can see it
and we are not the only ones
Abelene, the day is done
the war was fought
the war was won
And I believe it
And you believe it
And we are not the only ones
I believe it
you believe it
We are not the only ones
Why are you sitting on the side
Clockin' the time letting them do the decidin'?
Caught in the ebb without a flow
Watchin' the tide what kind of wave are you ridin'?
Pick off the hours of the day
This is a shade of your blue you've been hidin'
Walking through the shadows of your soul
Don't be afraid 'cuz baby I'll do your fightin'
You're the reason, you're my everything
You lift me up when I have fallen
You're the reason, you're everything
I'm higher up and you're the reason, yeah
I know the secret of your eyes
I may be wise or maybe paying attention
You're much better than you know
You're subtle grace with the heart of a lion
Shook you when the sky was falling down
You lost your place safe in the middle
Guilty by omission was the case
But this is home base where you will find your acquittal
'Cause you're the reason, you're my everything
You lift me up when I have fallen
You're the reason, you're everything
I'm higher up and you're the reason, yeah
I'm better since you came along
Now it's my turn
You're the reason, you're my everything
You lift me up when I have fallen
You're the reason, you're everything
I'm higher up and you're the reason, oh yeah
You're the reason, you're my everything
Lifting me up when I, I was fallen
You're the reason, you're everything
He casts a shadow down the block
He can't remember
Just how to start or when to stop?
Fight or defend her?
He shines the light into the dark
And empty corner
Right where the past had left its mark
Too late to warn her
But she's fine, she's not innocent
She's fine in all her discontent
And she knows it's always been the same
It'll always be that way, hey
He holds the secret in his fist
A burning ember
To stay or go? Now, that's the twist
Hate or befriend her?
But she's fine, she's not innocent
She's cool in all her discontent
And she knows it's always been the same
And she's fine, she's not ignorant
She knows there's no main event
And she's fine it's always been the same
It'll always be that way
It'll always be that way, be that way
But she's fine, she's not innocent
She's cool in all her discontent
And she knows it's always been the same
And she's fine, she don't give a damn
You don't have to understand
And she knows it's always been the same
And she'll always be that way
She's not innocent
She'll always be the same, yeah
She's always been that way
It was rain for a year drop for drop and tear for tear
On the girl who wouldn't stand out in a crowd
She was born to the son of a mini van salesman
On an early August morning under clouds
Sweet romance, like her dreams
Came in Spinster Magazine
Her romeo was on page 33
He buys her diamond rings, he's always listening
He tells her everything
All those things that a girl would ever want to hear
But that's not truly love Rosita dear
On a plane bags are packed with the bell jar on her lap
And a half devoured Harlequin novella
You are much much too young to be leaving with no one
But Fabio in tight jeans
He'll give her Mexico tied up in a bow
And all the girls she knows green with envy
Wishing they met one as cavalier
But that's not truly love Rosita dear
Ooo there was a time you gave
Your heart and soul away
Now, all that you give is up
Don't lose the love you save
He'll give her Mexico tied up in a bow
And all the girls she knows green with envy
Wishing they met one as cavalier
But that's not truly love Rosita
Romantic dinner date he'll never show up late
And all the girls you hate are green with envy
Wishing they met one as cavalier
But that's not truly love Rosita dear
But that's not truly love Rosita, no
But that's not truly love Rosita dear
Baby, don't give your love away
Lock down, locked down another day
Give it up 'fore you give it time
Are you sick with the needy need
split wide open for the frenzy feed
kick it, kick it 'fore it sucks you dry
I can hear your head
know what it say?
Push it Push it away
I know the advice
you give yourself
push it push it away
I don't care we're wasting time
you know you're already mine
desires grew from this simple game
long before today
Did you drown in a tidal wave
shot down, ashes in a lovers blaze
so sure this is just a passing phase
I can hear your head
know what it say?
Push it, Push it away
I can change your mind
it's not the same
push it push it away
I don't care we're wasting time
you know you're already mine
desires grew from this simple game
Blue tomorrows all your sorrows falling down like rain
roses grow and waters flow to wash your pain away
reminiscing deeply missing that which seemed so true
grateful eyes see darkened skies and turn to shades of you
Turn the page
the war was waged
la di da di da
discard the hate trust your fate
It's the promise of a friend
Souls lie bleeding deeply needing honesty to heal
battles fought the truth was sought by one who dared to kneel
violation, condemnation, medals for your race
inner rage your heart's the gauge for wiping clean the slate
It's not the first time
that I've been down this road
It's not the worst time
to spend some time alone
Tured to stone you're so alone when talking to yourself
judgement passed until at last it's tossed upon the shelf
burning pride deep inside you sacrifice and then
That girl didn't have time to waste
she spread herself way too thin
thought she could cut in and win the race
the pretty girl
did not fit in
I'm so tired of waiting for you
(pretty girl)
Pull the trigger
And as she stands there screaming
pretending that she's leaving
she's used to getting things her way
that girl didn't know what to say
she acted like it was no big deal
always spinning her tired cliches
pretty girl
she was not for real
I'm so tired of waiting for you
(pretty girl)
pull the trigger
And as she stands there screaming
pretending that she's leaving
she's used to getting things her way
Her whole life story's fiction
a walking contradiction
the same shit on a different day
Perfect life, perfect world, perfect smile, pretty girl
Surface life, surface world, surface smile, pretty girl
All your life's, an open door, this door's not open, anymore
And if at first you don't succeed
Pull the trigger
And as she lies there bleeding
resenting not succeeding
the pretty girl just fades away
She wants us all believing
that she's not even grieving
and that she got the final say
I've had a change of heart
This one's come to say
that it is awake
In this time alone
I have come to know
You'd be fine with one foot in
and one to go
Chorus:
If you
you don't know by now
Then you
you don't know by now about
Open hearts and doors
Once
I was the big mistake
That one was hard to shake
Forgiveness draws its first breath with hesitation
(chorus)
Bridge:
So I lead with borrowed light into your darkest night
where you're still afraid of me
Trade the sadness on your face with me there in its place
and set us free.
(chorus twice)
I've had a change of heart
This one's come to say
I'm through
I'm wrapping it up
I've been beaten by my own game
a shame
I'm over my crush
I used to have a good time
I couldn't be bought
It was easy, was a given
I'm in, whatever the cost
But now the cards are stacking up
against my inner politic
tell me something good
I need it
I've been looking for the real thing
I'm done wasting all my time there
I keep dying for the real thing
It may not kill me but it might
and who, who, who, who, who...
Tell me then
Who will lead me out when
I become Oblivious
Am I fool?
Forever I pined
I thought I was better standing alone
than standing on line
How much more of this heartache
can I stand?
How long can I be visually positive
until I'm making it up?
And I could die a complete unknown
bury me the counterfeit
spin the lie so I can
believe it
Lower than down
Sicker than sick of being tired
And I could die a complete unknown
bury me the counterfeit
could have, would have, should have
So it begins
the long winded story
from a distant day
sacrificed beliefs
unhappy endings
Once upon a time...
Half more than friends
and not really lovers
start the dance in time
premature relief
haulted beginnings
love was living blind
I won't be no more alone
I don't want to be no more alone
Show me a sign
guardian Michael
fill her full of light
for these eyes haven't seen
a break in the darkness
I can recognize
And I can hold my breath
until these eyes, they look familiar
Can I wait on the edge of
permanent midnight
will I lose my mind
I won't be no more alone
I don't want to be no more alone
When out came through the clouds a ray of revelation
So I lay down my doubts and bow in celebration
Hey hey see how they go
small city strange
the kind that I know
where you learn to play marco polo
learned how to run when you dared to get too close
All my guarantees are under one moon
called New Jersey where my sad song's
not the only one worth holding on and holding on to
So how do you how do you say
I am so sorry when it's far too late
Maybe if you could see who I've become
cause it's not like the other me
I was ankle deep but then I dove down
to the sweet and sour bottom
where your memory is holding on it's holding on to me
Singing waddle-ee-atcha doodle-ee-doo
Small city towns for me and for you too
where I learned to play marco polo
I learned how to run when they dared to get too close
so don't you dare to get too close
All my guarantees are under one moon
called New Jersey where my sad song's
not the only one worth holding on worth holding
I was ankle deep but then I dove down
to the sweet and sour bottom
I haven't been myself all year
too many changes around here
and the road to happiness has been a crash course
it's been a long year since you left
and a whole week since I last slept
dusting myself off to ride the wild horse
Don't know where I'm going
or just what it means
but the scars remind me of exactly where I've been
If you try to find me
my number's not the same
hang my hat up on negative lane
People keep asking how I've been
because of the state of mind I'm in
there's a million places I swore I would be by now
radio songs all sound the same
I almost played in to that whole game
but the boy's club hung a sign that said "no girls allowed"
Don't know where I'm going
or just what it means
but the scars remind me of exactly where I've been
If you try to find me
my number's not the same
hang my hat up on negative lane
you take the road of self destruction
to the culdesac of shame
hang my hat up on negative lane
I keep on coming around
I got one foot back on the ground
Of course I knew I shouldn't love you
So I fought with all the strength in me not to
To force this miles above you
Miles with nothing in between
There's barely anything to leave you now
but memories conjured up in both our minds
I'm so afraid that I might lose them
in the trajectory of time
Chorus:
In this happy home
I am so alone
The picture on the wall of smiling faces says it all
Of course I knew I couldn't love you
but then that would be a fairy tale
So I fell hook line and sink
I'm a fool who's suffered well
(chorus)
Bridge:
I'll never know you
Waiting turns to sleep
The only promises I'll make are ones that I can keep
Of course I knew I couldn't love you
Of course I knew I shouldn't love you
Driving down a dark road
on the last night of his life
Michael's in the back seat
Thinking everything's alright
He was young, and so invincible
The radio was blasting
in the car he got from dad
tail lights in the distance
are the last of him I have
and it's all so inconceivable
Chorus:
When they told me you were gone
I hated god for what he'd done
I'm trying hard to understand
And I know I shouldn't want this to
be someone else instead of you
I thought you were so invincible
Four o'clock in the morning
Before the break of dawn
Michael left forever
from the town where he was born
and I woke up crying, ‘cause I knew you were gone
Chorus:
And it hurts to miss you everyday
this feeling never goes away
I'm trying hard to understand
And I drive the streets we grew up on,
I can't believe it's been so long
I thought you were so invincible
Bridge:
I want to change the way the story goes
why can't it have a happy ending?
Driving down a dark road
on an endless summer's night
Michael's in the back seat
and he makes it home alright
Chorus:
And at night he whispers in my ear
I hear his voice so loud and clear
He tries to help me understand
that he'll always be right by my side
a part of him will never die
Rest assured, the truth it will unwind
could change your mind
make you stop
make you fall out of line
sit back
start to count your things
what does it mean
how loud does the alarm have to ring?
I lay down you blow
your wind in my soul
you lay down I know
Oh Messiah Girl
Blur my vision
heed your word
Oh Messiah Girl
bruise my ego
rule my world
That Chicago morning burned my eyes
now I am blind
from the brightest light that I've ever seen
If I'd read the cards right long ago
might I have known
what the face down hand would bring
you lived while I learned
I bled while you burned
savior save me
Now that you've got me on my knees
I beg for mercy
Does it get you off to watch me bleed?
You made the call
I watched the door to see you coming through
And every time it was a warm September wind that blew
then on the air that drifted in the faded smell of denial
See, I don't know so I won't ask I think it's best that way
can't be held responsible for what you didn't say
so let's pretend that I'm not me and it's not you for a while
This cigarette I'm pulling on
that second pint that's nearly gone
this hand that's sliding down my leg
If there's one right thing you've got to do
don't do it tonight
and for once enjoy the view just out of the light
if there's one last kiss we've got to have
let's have it tomorrow
it's a longshot, but a chance I've got to take
It's fair to mention from the first that
when you touched me there
you're starting something that I'll finish
so just be aware
and if you mention one more time we could be soul mates I'll
it's easy now when I look back
they call that "retrospect"
if I had known that night would have such a ripple effect
I might've been more likely just to let that sleeping dog lie
This T.V. set we're dueling on
my fighting words are nearly gone
there's something sliding down my leg
I foresaw the day when you would come and make it clear
some things do better where you found them
so we'll leave it here
I'm only crying cause this cloud of smoke is burning my eyes
and ever since the times when I am standing close to you
I see the person that you are, the one I never knew
Do you ever feel me anymore or are you too high?
Ready get set here we go
what's been going on? I don't know
I've been standing tall on my last leg
It's a longshot, from a world away
in a time slot, on a passing day
I remember you
Baby, it's you who's forgotten
I remember all the things
You said and stood for way back then
I remember you
Popping up in sunny weather
Making for a hand out now
That you know I've got it together
Important while I
Do not want to steal your thunder
I'm building a dam at the bridge
So water can't get under
Take a good look at me
Running, running for the last time
Burning fast and headed for the finish line
And take a good look at me
Winning, winning on the last try
Winning when all bets were taken off my side
I remember who
Who joined the mob mentality
I deserve the sun and moon
And at least an apology
Finally I graduate to fit the bill
May I remind you until
[Incomprehensible] are a bitch
And take a good look at me
Running, running for the last time
Running fast and headed for the finish line
And take a good look at me
Winning, winning on the last try
Winning when all bets were taken off my side
Take a good look at me
Running, running for the last time
Running fast and heading for the finish line
Take a good look at me
Winning, winning on the last try
And winning when the bets were taken off my side
And take a good look at me
Running, running for the last time
Running fast and heading for the finish line
Take a good look at me
Depression sets in
no one's looking at you
they figured you out
they know your routine
they know the score
They've done all they can for you
I've done all I can
The road is long the road is wide
I buried myself half alive
but I'm seeking truth, higher ground
I'm humbled when I make
an honest mistake
The timer is set for guilt to set in
you taught me the dance with Pavlov's approach
and heavy hand
I used to perform for you
I just can't perform
Burning in the sun
dyring up the tears as they fall
one, by one, until there's none
Detachment sets in
I'm done looking at you
Does that make me the stronger man?
Is victory mine?
Funny, I don't feel so strong
Hello...hello
It's good to see you my friend.
Hello...hello
It's good to see you again.
I keep falling on my face
I keep dodging stones
I've got a black hole in my vein
where all my money goes
I keep coming up empty
I hear life in tones
I've got a black hole in my heart
where all my sorrow goes
I used to wander
through the backyards of your town
I used to holler
"can you hear me? Don't leave me alone"
Grey fog overcast cloud nine
I feel over thrown
Round and round around it goes
where I'll stop no one knows
I know your father
and the back roads of your town
If you would bother
Can't you hear me? Don't leave me alone
I used to wander
through the back woods of your town
I used to holler
Can you hear me don't leave me....
I know your mother
and I've looked you up and down
if it's no bother
Well I think, about things
in fragments, with pictures
I get worried, I get happy
I get nervous, and then I get tired
when I think (I know everything)
but when I speak ( I don't say very much)
Feel like I know nothin'
well, who's there (who's knockin')
to talk to?
well, who's there (who's ringin')
when I call?
You're my best friend
you're my worst enemy
you're always at my mercy
to do what I want to do
well that's good (do you think so?)
well that's bad (light another cigarette)
feel like I know nothin'
feel like I know nothin'
caught in the crossfire
between right and wrong
living the good life
but can you tell me how long
this is all gonna go on
taking for granted, the time, the love and the passion
I'm handed
it's a cool frustration
if you use a bit of your imagination
it's a self relation, it's a love that I'm chasing
now ain't that something
So I live and I learn
and I take the best and the worst of times
find the humor, ignore the pain
find the crazy,a md baby ignore the sane
Hey I'm here (make your mark now)
Hey I'm gone (some will cry and some won't care)
well that's good (do you think so?)
no, that's bad (light another cigarette)
Are you gonna take me home tonight
Ah down bedsides the firelight
Are you gonna let it all hang out
Fat bottomed girls
You make the rockin' world go round
Hey!I was just a skinny lad
Never knew no good from bad
But I knew life before I left my nursery
Left alone with big fat Fanny
She was such a naughty nanny
Hye' big woman you made a fat boy out of me
Hey hey!I've been singing with my band
Across the wire across the land
I've seen every blue-eyed floozy on the way
But their beauty and their smile
Went kinda smooth after a while
Takes me to them dirty ladies everytime
Come on!Are you gonna take me home tonight
Oh down besidies the red firelight
Oh and you give it all you've got
Fat bottomed girls
You make the rockin' world go round
Fat bottomed girls
You make the rockin' world go round
Ah listen now!All your mortages and homes
I got stiffness in the bones
Ain't no beauty queens in this locality
(I tell ya)Oh but I still keep my pleasure
Still got my greatest treasure
Heap big women you gone and madde a fat boy out of me
Now get this
Are you gonna take me home tonight (please)
Ah down bedsides that red firelight
Ah and you give it all you got
Fat bottomed girls
You make the rockin' world go round
Fat bottomed girls
You make the rockin' world go round
Get on your bike and ride
Oooh! O h yeah
Fat bottomed girls
Alright!
Ride 'em cowboy
Fat bottomed girls
Heard you talk about leaving
Heard you talk about leaving before
Heard you talk about giving up on me.
Heard you talk about changing
but talk is cheap and I've heard it all before
Used to be that I'd fall apart
but that don't work no more.
'Cuz you can't leave half way
and I can't let you stay
Chorus:
Take your promise take your pain
Take your restless heart
If you go
go all the way
Don't look back
'Cuz in my heart you've been gone so long
that I won't miss you that bad
If you go
go all the way
Don't look back
So you ask me why I'm not crying
I did all of my crying before
I took off my pity party dress and
I don't dance no more
I don't need someone else
to make me feel myself
(chorus)
Bridge:
Don't look back...don't look back
Not long ago
I was inside
your downward spiral
dying slow
distracted life
keep it all down
deserted, not another soul around
fair weathered friends
covenienece wins
Keep it, keep all of your madness
drown in all your sadness
Choke on all your pain
cause I don't want to
You had me pinned
under your thumb
my mind divided
for protection
illusion with
mirrors and screens
black and white
dragging through the in between
Farewell my friends
survival wins
Keep it, Keep all of your madness
drown in all your sadness
Choke on all your pain
cause I don't want to
Keep it, keep all of your sorrow
suffer through tomorrow
choke on all your shame
Keep it, keep all of your darkness
don't forget to mark this
bitter holiday
CHOKE!
You asked 1000 times
please write a song that's mine
well this is what I have to say to you
You drank yourself half blind
I lived inside your lie
I-I am a diamond and I cannot be broken
I-I am a diamond and I cannot be broken
Mother please don't cry for me
I rolled the dice
just give it some time
If you could just be kind
to me
'cuz I don't care
The life I waste is
mine.
It don't mean much in the grand scheme
I've given up and given
everything
Chorus:
It's worth repeating
over again
I'll keep my head up and swallow my pride
again
I'll give it away
again
It's been dead so long it can't die there
again.
I-I am a diamond and I cannot be broken
I-I am a diamond and I cannot be broken
Mother mine's a foolish game
the same could be said
said about yours
He took your youth and he took your name
What did YOUR journey here ensure?
(chorus)
Bridge:
I'm all grown up
I've got my pride
Why let me live
to let me die?
I'm all grown up now
I've got my pride
Let me live
Let me die.
(chorus)
I-I am a diamond and I cannot be broken
I-I am a diamond and I cannot be broken
You're a diamond too
Hello
Are you listening?
Your miles away from here and now and still
you think that you're standing right on top
Promises, were wishful thinking
Oh valentine, I fear we're near the end
the knowledge of someday's what I've got
You said don't leave me now
I said I tried
You said try harder
and I said let go
Thrown
out of frustration
Are wasted stones, they're better used to build
your anger will leave you unfulifilled
And what I'll miss is air to breathe
and validation
you'll miss the blank stare
of my bloodshot eyes
circumstance and compromise
You said don't leave me now
I said I tried
You said try harder
and I said let go
You said don't leave me now
I said don't cry
You just cried harder
and I just let go
Don't sink into this valuable lesson with me
I, I, I didn't love you
Here I go again I walk among the fires of my afternoon
ignoring all the signs that line the edges of the avenue
I'm not naked, I don't have to beg
I'm not making peace with my brother on the 7th day
I believe that what you give is what you get
but what I gave I haven't gotten yet
I, I, I didn't love you
I, I, I didn't love you
But I wanted to, I did
You are not as hard as this and I would not be jealous
It is not your fault
I would be this heavy either way
I believe that what you want is what you find
but what I found's not what I had in mind
I, I, I didn't love you
I, I, I didn't love you
But I wanted to, I did
Open up your heart
wake your sleeping lies
Don't make that mistake, don't make that mistake again
I believe that what you give is what you get
do you get it?
don't you get it yet?
I, I, I didn't love you
I, I, I didn't love you
But I wanted to, I did
Here I go again I walk among the fires of my afternoon
ignoring all the signs that line the edges of the avenue
I'm not naked, I don't have to beg
I'm not making peace with my brother on the 7th day
I never loved you, I never loved you, I never loved you
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