Atrox is an avant-garde metal band from Trondheim, Norway. The group originally formed under the name "Suffocation" but soon changed it because of numerous other bands with the same name. Formed in 1988, the band released its first material only in 1997, and followed it with two releases on notable French metal label, Season of Mist. While their early releases are firmly rooted in death metal, later releases incorporate more progressive elements.
-viNd- - Guitars
Rune Sørgård - guitars, Programming
Tor Arne Helgesen - Drums
Erik Paulsen - Bass
Rune Folgerø - lead vocals
Per Spjøtvold - Keyboard, backing vocals
Ole Marius Larmerud - Guitars (2002–2005)
Monika Edvardsen - Vocals, Keyboard (1996–2004)
Pete Beck - Vocals, Bass (2002–2004)
Daniel Stavsøyen - Bass (2001–2002)
Tom Wahl - Bass (1999)
Dag Rune Øyan - Guitars (1995–1999)
Lars Halvard Søndrol - Drums (1994–1999)
Tommy Sebastian Halseth - Bass (1995–1999)
Geir Tore Johansen - Vocals (1988–1997)
Svenn Tore Mauseth Bass (1988–1995)
Tor-Helge Skei - Guitars (1988–1994)
Tomas Smagersjø - Drums (1993)
Geir Knarrbakk - Drums (1988–1992)
Gunder Audun Dragsten - Guitars (1988–1990)
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Atrox - Contentum [Full Album]
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Plot
Based on the Korean legend, unknown creatures will return and devastate the planet. Reporter Ethan Kendrick is called in to investigate the matter, and he arrives at the conclusion that a girl, stricken with a mysterious illness, named Sarah is suppose to help him. The Imoogi makes its way to Los Angeles, wreaking havoc and destruction. With the entire city under arms, will Ethan and Sarah make it in time to save the people of Los Angeles?
Keywords: antique-dealer, antique-shop, army, battle-tank, building, cameraman, cave, cliff, dagger, dragon
They've made our world their battleground
The One and Only
Young Ethan: What are you talking about?
Sarah Daniels: I keep trying to understand, but none of this is making any sense.
Ethan Kendrick: You can't do this. This is insane. You're the FBI!::Agent Frank Pinsky: Trust me. I've done my homework. There's no other way.::Ethan Kendrick: Look. If you kill her, those creatures will still come back.::Agent Frank Pinsky: Right. In another 500 years. Until then... [pulls pistol]
Mr. Belafonte: I mean, this thing stared at me like my ex-wife.
Mr. Belafonte: All right. Fine. I didn't see a snake. For heaven's sake, there is no such thing as a giant snake. I must have lost my mind for a second.::Psychiatrist: Everybody makes mistakes. I'm glad you're seeing clearly.::[to the guard]::Psychiatrist: You may untie him.::Mr. Belafonte: I hate to say this, but the giant snake is in this hospital right now. Look out your window.::Psychiatrist: Tie him again. He has to be hospitalized.
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Atrox - Contentum [Full Album]
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Atrox - Orgasm [Full Album]
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LOL JmcCruz PentakiLL de Atrox!
Atrox
Razer Atrox Arcade Fight Stick Unboxing & Overview
Atrox - Serenity
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Star Trek Online: Fleet Atrox Carrier - Science Build
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Razer Atrox: Unboxing with Justin Wong
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LIVE /AtroX /PARECIA DIFICIL
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Phobia - Anima Atrox Live Cover
Live Leage of Legends | Atrox top con subs | Jorsi
League Of Legends - LIVE Fiora - Atrox Guapo!
League of Legends Atrox Live
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Voice of Atrox Live @ POLINERO Plovdiv BARTENDER
Atrox - live @Schlagstrom 2014
Atrox jungla - live 02
RP Band - live at bar ATROX, 10.10.2014
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Rev B Dangerous from Atrox on air with Dollar Bill & Madi
London MCM Expo May 2013 - Interview with Razer
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See Michael Jackson Dying from laughter on the set of "You Rock My World" (at 1:53-2:20!!!)
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Countered: Aatrox
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Lying here in this flower meadow
Feeling free
Hovering on a cloud
Worries vanished
Looking down on
These people
Do they deserve
This grief
All those people
Gathered arround me
Looking down on me
With dismaling faces
Why expose them to this hurt
This is not the solution-
wake me........
Longing immensely for something
My life seeems unfullfilled
Secrets I camt reveal
Thoughts tears and sears in me
Makes me hate immensely
Renders into insecure soul
One day this enormous grief
Drifts away
One day this scorching grief
Drifts away
One day this dreadful grief
Drifts away
Wake me........
If you can't cope with the answers don't bother to ask
If you can't cope with the sights don't bother to look
Once you've seen it you can't make it unseen
Once you've heard it you can't make it unheard
You just stay ignorant
The easier it is to fool you
All you'll know is
That you just don't know
- Relax my intention is absolutely not to tell you that...
Lalala I'm not listening
- Don't worry I can assure you my intention is not to tell you about...
Lalala I can't hear you
Don't bother your pretty little head
Knowing too much can't be good for you
If you can't cope with the knowledge don't bother to learn
If you can't cope with the stench don't dother to smell
Once you've heard it you can't make it unheard
Once you've seen it you can't make it unseen
Show me the warning
Show me everything I need to know
Show me the warning
I haven't tried this before
Gotta get away
Gotta get away
Oh, I'm tripping
Just one more time
And I know it's for real
This is my vengeance
And I know this time I will win
Don't you try and disappoint
The maker and the creator
Oh, it's that feeling again
Can't deny it
I have been without it for so long
Oh, it's a crazy idea, and I like it
You gave directions all the way
You came, you conquered
Took me for a spin
And i liked it
I was good, it was good
The questions are deleted
Found the essence
Want to keep it
And I should, and I should
See, did you see them colors
They were brighter
So much happened in such short time
We went along with the madness again
Oh, been down, been down
Rise
Get up and take control
It is good
Rise
Will not let you tempt me
Though I should
Seems like I'm searching again
There's nothing more to find
Seems like I'm leaving again
So long, leave it all behind
Don't know what's left of me
'Cause I gave it all to you
So thankful for what you took away
Been down down been around
How I'd love to experience a heartquake
But oh so afraid it will end up with a heartache
These untimely little deaths
Would leave me out of breath
Life would flash before my eyes
You might become a liability
And I a reliability
Still I'd know how it feels
The absence
Is highly present
It smothers me
Absorbs me like a black hole
The absence of longing
Fills up time and space
Tons and tons of emptiness
Weigh upon me
You're a bumpkin groping and falling
But you're my pumpkin prescious adoring
Wish for you to say it
First
Better to have failed in true love
Than never knowing what you long for
Better to feel pain
Do not leave. Leave me weak. Do not leave me alone with this loony they say is me.
A mooncalf - I am in panic, I am manic. A changeling. Pinioned, crippled. I am, believe.
I can't come to terms with the terrestrials. I can't come to terms with me.
A lifetime's worth of tears gathered up in me. I've been on the verge of tears all my life. How can you be me?
Here where the dead mourn for the living
We eat cannibals before they attack
We eat cannibals and ask afterwards
We can't control our headless horses
As the mongrels snap at their feet
Masturbating teens round every corner
Euphoric with daze and violent with lust
The virgin rapes in clumsy manners
Claims innocence and yells at his scapecock
We constantly move graveward but
We ache too much with greed to actually die
We practice compulsory revival
Of the suicidal
Producing child-size armour and straitjackets for kids
Lobotomizing angels as leper eats their wings
Building drive-thru brothels of glass
Aborting alien fetuses with drill
Serving fillets of genitals in restaurants
Lying here in this flower meadow
Feeling free
Hovering on a cloud
Worries vanished
Looking down on
These people
Do they deserve
This grief
All those people
Gathered arround me
Looking down on me
With dismaling faces
Why expose them to this hurt
This is not the solution-
wake me........
Longing immensely for something
My life seeems unfullfilled
Secrets I camt reveal
Thoughts tears and sears in me
Makes me hate immensely
Renders into insecure soul
One day this enormous grief
Drifts away
One day this scorching grief
Drifts away
One day this dreadful grief
Drifts away
Guess who just got paid today
I've freed my back, got things to say
Step aside, I'm on a mission
To a higher level
Hurry boy, there's things to see
It's waiting here, it's waiting there
Can't recognize any other shape
But my own
Cleaner now than ever before
Steady lines aiming at the point
Reaching for the black coal
Waiting for the diamond
I've seen the better side
Always southbound-heading there
Wings are resistant, velocity high
Aiming for the next point
Yet I haven't seen it
Oopsey deysey
It's flibbertigibbet online
I can see you, I can see you
You should not be climbing here
Beware of the dog
This is my construction site
Fences around, keeping you out
I'm inspecting the work
I'm inspecting the progress
Seeing the work of the architect
Architect
Improvising yet another floor
Throw away the blueprints
Throw away the tools
I don't need your labour no more
Piling up bricks
Make me one more ladder
I'm going up
Building the houses
Leaving the walls
Rising forever
It will not fall
It will not fall
Deserts of vast eternity
from which I cannot escape
Oh, woe be upon me
The pain of solitude
Choirs of damnation
Chanting in my dreams
'Life shall be no more
Life - thou shalt diea
Not shall the knife
Sleep in my hand
I lament and bewail
As my soul withers
Alone I wander
This be the fate I choose
An inner, desolate void
My tentacles ache
This phantom pain is oh so confusing
I'm extraneous matter to the world
And so estranged
Look at me any way you want
My components are human and human and human and human
Strip me down to humanity
And cut me up into human and human and human and human
Into atoms of the fragile
I'm human I'm human I'm human
See I bleed red like you
What was that? Thought I heard you cuckoo
It may be I speak moron fluently
But you may be - if possible - even lamer than me
Yeah you could out-moron me anytime
We'll both stay with the mooncalves
Cause we're both aliens
Equally expendable
Equally valuable
So let's talk moron to moron
What's so great about being unique anyway?
Mesmerised
A minds escape
Rejection of reality
Mesmerised
If you can't cope with the answers don't bother to ask
If you can't cope with the sights don't bother to look
Once you've seen it you can't make it unseen
Once you've heard it you can't make it unheard
You just stay ignorant
The easier it is to fool you
All you'll know is
That you just don't know
- Relax my intention is absolutely not to tell you that...
Lalala I'm not listening
- Don't worry I can assure you my intention is not to tell you about...
Lalala I can't hear you
Don't bother your pretty little head
Knowing too much can't be good for you
If you can't cope with the knowledge don't bother to learn
If you can't cope with the stench don't dother to smell
Once you've heard it you can't make it unheard
Enslaved by the sea
You can't resist
Surrounded
By darkness
At powers devours
Your mind
Dark forces
Avenging the past
On a banished raft
Body so shrinked
Seared
This pungent stench
So abhoring
Fear
The ocean
Eradicates
Out of the dark
The flashing eyes
Hypnotise
Filled with disdaim
The ocean feels
Contemptuous
So profane
We've been blind pretending we can see
Been as dazed as dazed can be
We'd turn up to the light to see what the darkness looks like
Let's share this vigil
I would sing you a lullaby
If I wanted you to fall asleep
I would tell the truth
If I wanted you to fall from grace
I would make you murder me
Clouds of grief sweeps across the horizon
Drowning in crimson glory
Decayed remembrance of an ancient era
The fog of the ocean will always encounter itself
The air shed tears, from eternityis mighty well
An the distance, a mournful cry
Passed on by a guest of wind
A soul of solitude
Forsaken, forgotten
Crossing the bridge
A soul of solitude
Forsaken, forgotten
A young man astride a rocking horse. His petticoats bristling. His eyes closed with pleasure enjoying the euphony of his fork scraping his plate.
Facing him sits a filthy oldie shaking his dentures like castanets. Whistling through his nostrils, giggling with tears in his eyes.
The clattering of my teeth. Sometimes a coff, sometimes an achoo.
Heard a cry for help, but didn't pay attention. Thought it was only myself as usual - the beldam of the bedlam.
A toothless hag moving eyeball-beads in an abacus. They stare so, they stare so on her rope of pearls: A row of Lilliputian skulls on a string.
The oldie chants the alphabet in an order he has fixed himself. Once he strode down the aisle with a wedding gown on an arm's length.
His bride-not-to-be (anymore) in the soil right outside.
The youngster tells about how he once lay in a bathtub barely conscious in rusty-bloody-red water.
The bathtub tiptoed on lionpaws to the landing, tipped over and flung him down the stairs on a rusty-bloody-red runner.
Borrow my imagination for a little while. How can I comfort you? You say you like it this way. Night or day - it's the same to you.
Until that day I plant mercury globeflowers in my garden and until that night your beams make the flowers explode and spread your seeds.
Comfort? Yeah like putting plasters on a limb consumed by leprosy. Comfort? Yeah like sticking the head in the sand.
I conjured a miserable creature for you. A restless moonling always on the move. It founded its own nomadic state - Translunaria.
The moonling can never be seen from earth.
Braiding moonbeams.
How can I comfort you? You like it this way, don't you? Slowly revolving a white horizon round your axis.
Your magnetism is so week, you can hardly keep the ivory tower I conjured for you.
Waves wander the sea
Millenium mirrors reflect
Disappearing without a trace
When time was restrained to descent
The ocean disappeared
and vast deserts
They were revealed
We sank into the desert
The Dreamking and I..........
I Died.... I Died....
And we became one
I left my mortal coil
there in the desert
As we sank desert
We were reborn.....
We wander the sea
All but one
All but one
If my senses won't come to me
I better come to my senses
But I can't
I'm too scared of being scared
Like saving cancer-mice from labs
Or half-eaten flies from cobwebs
No sense of reality
Or of concequence
Come come...
Oh don't bother
I'll just embrace myself
And while I'm at it
I'll just lift myself up by the hair
I'm not here
So you've all gathered here
To knock some sense into me
Go away, can't you see I'm busy
Dying of fear of dying?
- Imagine what the world would be like if everyone were to think like you
Well, they don't so shut up
Well I've got a candied heart
But I'm afraid to use it
So what more can I do
Than entertain my demons
Opting for research
Opting for truth
Seeing, believing
The digger, the dirt
Why one leads to another
i need to know
I'm being swallowed by evolution
I'm connected
Finding reasons or being alone
Need to go to a less disturbing place
I know I'm on to something
Receiving massive readings
The deadline is waiting
Shutting me down
That's not an option
Protecting my work
Protecting my brand
Wiping me out
That's out of the question
Again I will hide
It's a game on a much larger scale
I will stand in the end
I give as good as I get
I fiw my world
Expecting instant access
To all my cravings
I zap, I get always
This technological wonder
I'm in
This penetrating pain
arousing from its sleep
This pallid flesh hiding
in shades These hollow
orbits watering the
ground Frantic ghouls
lurking in my shadow
Reptiles crawling under
my skin Temptations
Swansong from the tarn
Cold caresses of a
quivering shroud The
phasma cradling me in
its arms Its wormwood
tongue rasping my face
Flee from me spirits of
ferocity and open the
gates of this limbo
Come to me bringer of
joy and disembody my
pain Hinder the inflow
of figments Let them
gather in me no more
Stop the bleeding Heal
my wounds Melt the
frost in my veins
Dissolve the sickened-
red haze round me and
Do not leave. Leave me weak. Do not leave me alone with this loony they say is me.
A mooncalf - I am in panic, I am manic. A changeling. Pinioned, crippled. I am, believe.
I can't come to terms with the terrestrials. I can't come to terms with me.
A lifetime's worth of tears gathered up in me. I've been on the verge of tears all my life. How can you be me?
I'm postponing my life again as so many times before. Self-pity is my substitute for others mercy. Contempt is my comfort.
Seeing how the lines keep crossing
And how we meet again
Observing how the coincidence is moving
The space I'm in
The room we're sharing
So much smaller now
Funny how the perspective is exceeding
Such a strange construction
Very badly drawn
He was a new engineer
He wasn't from here
Couldn't see it
The vantage point is rising
I can see it now
Got to go change my perspective
There's towers disturbing
My excellent view
Gotta go change all the angles now
Gotta go change my perspective now
Changing my perspective
Gotta go change all the angles now
Gotta go change my perspective now
Changing my point of view
Cutting to the bone and through it
Broken now is healing
Allowing myself to open
What was meant for me
Leaving what is safe
Leaving the garden
Such a strange sensation
This urge I've got for motion
Got to go looking around
I'm leaving what is safe
I leave the garden
Creating a map
Put yourself in the middle
Changing my perspective
Constructing a world
To fit with your plan
Changing my point of view
Pay close attention to every detail
Changing my perspective
There are images bigger than this
I got my headrush helmet on
I'm in a state of euphoria
I watch my display
I feel safe
I see pixels, that's all
I'm in a state of the art box above you
Nothing can harm me
Steady formation
Stay on target
We dive out of the sun
Steady formation
Follow the leader
Release your cargo now
There's nothing human in here
Just technology in air
Me – The bomb bomb dropper
Can't see no targets ahead
Know there's a city below
Me – The bomb bomb dropper
God damn I am in my wicked machine
And I like it
The bomb bomb dropper
Wish I could stay up here for a while
I'm controlling
The bomb bomb dropper
I flick the switches
I press the button
i know my timing is right
Release your cargo now
I receive my orders
From the ones with the binoculars
Can I trouble you for a ride
I've lost my track
And need to get moving on
If I can just go with you for a while
I'll get the distance that I need
To see clearly
My plan backfired
Didn't see the signs
Consumption
Way too high
I hear the ticking of a clock
Distance growing
And I flee
This time I'm ready for it
Clearing my path
Not going back
Getting a grip on it
This time
Moving towards
Wherever you may take me
There's no obstacles no more
I'm changing my scenery
I guess I'm ready for it
Ever tried, ever failed
Never mind, try again
And fail better
Starting a new
Starting again
What is left, what is found
Recognize it, supervise me
Did you ever reconsider your life
Did you ever try to turn your motion twist
Did you ever believe in yourself
Do you still need the proof
Been choosing to walk under ladders
For much too long, much too long
Been trying to get back
To where the connection starts
White solitary statues
Looking at me
Standing sideways
White solitary statues
Wearing nothing but time
If you can relate to this
We can be on top of it once again
The climber needs something
To be getting over
Going into overdrive
Readjust to the level I am on
just as I turned away
you came and changed it all
Because your eyes kept seeing
Traces, traces of phases
Leaving traces
Leaving traces on faces
Did you ever reconsider your life
Your position changing
Following your flow
Are you willing to climb once again
Do you stay on the ground
Could you ever hear that knock on your door
Banging louder, louder
time is catching up with you once again
And you know you're in charge
Just as I turned away
You came and changed it all
Because your eyes kept seeing
Waiting for the moment to arrive
Waiting for the moment
Wearing my tight tie
My new white shirt
The official image
Is ready to start the day
Flawless on the outside
Deciding what role I'm playing
Got my lifestyle habit
I will not change
Polished I am...
Who do you want me to be?
Visions of grandeur
Big– big fantasy
Fixing what's dull in the reality
Change around
So I can soothe them all
You have no idea what's going on
And how I hide my tracks
I will deny every wrongdoing
This might be the cover story
This might be the big breakthrough
I'm in the news – I'm in the news
Marking off my territory
Putting up my fences
So you took him moonward from the cellar. Put him in the black garret. The window's spotlight chasing him into the dusty sheets tossing.
Did he wince at the stuffed woodwose lined up with the manikins by the end wall? And when he made his way through the mishmash and
crawled into the casket - did you, didn't you lock him in?
Mercy, have mercy. He's harmless, don't you know? Pity, pity - he pities you. You're harmless, defenceless.
These tears of sadness
Falling with the grace of autumn leaves
I have walked the path
Carried my mournful wounds
A burden I am (to you)
That is why I spilled my tears
These tears of sadness
Symbolise the absence of thoughts
(What have I done to deserve this)
That is why I cry
As the silence withers
In the shade, in the cold, a grey pastry, a sallow dough. A giant lump of some ý/&%/ substance.
Wallowing in an over-sized glass jar. Quivering, gurgling. Reminding of muddy aspic. It looks so "/)&/"ý%. It makes me feel so ?)#/&?=`*,
Like a giant mite about to burst after gorging ichor. Taking *ý&()?*ý#"%& shapes. Stretching flabby limbs. Worming out of the jar
towards the yellow light.
Excreting a trail of milky pus through the surface rendering.
Outgrowths form in no time, falling off. Tongues emerging from the orifices. Froth and drool drying up as all crumbles away. The pus
smouldering and steaming off.
Looking is not seeing is not understanding is not believing is not agreeing. It looks so *%#ý()=. It swells, it grows, it expands. I
think it will #ý/$L@(?.
Waiting is not longing is not hurting is not bleeding in a world trapped in a world trapped in a world. The dough's gurgle ceasing
with the yellow rays scorching it. It's throwing a crust, which cracks and unpeels, reminding of flocks of mangy dogs running downhill.
You know you should lay your ghosts, but you've become used to them.
You make your bed at eve, stretch ghosts over the mattress, let the insane bed tuck up your dunes, hide your dreams under the pillow.
"You have made your bed, and you must lie on it"
At dawn you wash away the nightmares and wait for the daymares and the spectral echoes of canned laughter.
At times I'm so preoccupied running
I forget paying attention to where I'm going
At times I'm so busy reaching ecstacy
I forget paying attention to all other needs
We've all got our methods of survival
These are mine
Shoo away the annoying dandelion seeds
Chase a katzenjammer violin up a tree
Startle the birds so they take off
With the entire lake in their feathers
At times I'm so busy avoiding trouble
I forget paying attention to what I miss out on
These everchanging methods of survival
I may be too deep into the darkside
But I know we need to be a bit naive as well
One thing though - how to regain naivete
When already cynical?
Have some bittersweets
They're good for you
Please help yourself to some bittersweets and light refreshments
Paper aeroplanes crash into bottles spilling wine
On flies hanging around washing their hands
Maud lin flies reel all over the table when suddenly
A turreen of soup tips over as the cloth woos
and stretches for the sheets on the clothes line
I need my escapism
I'll hold on to it till I learn new methods of survival
I am the constant comings and goings of my selves.
Some of them settling within, some going on. Others sojourning indefinitely, tuning in, tuning out.
New attendants join - cynicism, misanthropy, indifference. Should I embrace them or have them exorcised?
Oh this inevitable madness. Let it come. Transmute it by enduring it.
Let sorrow in. It will leave eventually. Otherwise it will stay knocking on your door forevermore.
Are you possessed still? Yes? Then what about now? Possessed still? Are you addicted still? Yes? Then what about now? Addicted still?
My hour of sanity. The unpredictable.
Re-connect to an earlier time
The place of understanding
Seeing, knowing
Everything has changed
The memory keeps it open
Tick-tocking like a time bomb
The memory keeps it clear
Somehow the pace is higher
Got to adjust my timing skills
Somehow the taste so sweet
Swallow the pill and make it there
Popsicle
Leaving sticky marks on the floor
Leaving fingerprints on the door
Using mirrors, to see around corners
Play the game, hide away
Using cameras to re-connect
The memory keeps on spinning
If I return I will stay there
The schedule keeps me on time
Keep me runnning
Keep me awake
Keep me runnning
Keep me awake
The fading image is now
Deep down in a smiling bucket swimming clouds.
If it was up to me this house would be almost seven hundred years old and more than thirteen kilometres tall.
I would sit in a rocking chair, creaking along with an out-of-tune piano and an orchestrion that always tricks me with ever-changing tempo
I'd be able to walk in the ceiling. I would eat nebula for supper. I would wear a necklace made of strung hailstones.
The well outside would be an eye that stares itself blind at the moon. The water would sob. There would be two winds moaning.
The shadows would converge when the clock struck twenty-five.
Oh how I wish I could walk about on the walls. And how I wish there were more hours in a night:
When I can't wish for more - the vision of scarabees crackling mandrake roots in soil breathing ghosts of worms and scolopendras
Got me some secondhand traumas
They transformed mind into flesh
And lead to the untimely death of the child inside
Fall asunder... now!
And bleed like me, see it's easy
Don't want to be the only one to feel this way
They say when a wound is deep
It hurts the most when it heals
Growing inwards in the quick
Don't want to build a womb around me
Don't want to drown in amniotic fluid
Don't want you to say what I want to hear
Can't you see or feel at all?
Must we turn to such drastic measures?
Is suicide attempt the only cry for help you can hear?
A hand on a shoulder that writhes away
The mnemonics of this play is way to strong
Don't want your help but I want to heal
Cross my heart I hope you die
As you go boohoohoo
No hate no more
No more bitterness no more
Nothing matters anymore
Out chasing kites and dragonets, loosing the track, jerking out of scrubs. Getting clasped by the creepers of a tumbledown stone wall.
Shattered gargoyles on the ground. Their eyes staring up on their pebble-drooling congeners and on moss grown sculptures.
Beheaded dismembered marble figures. Corroded disembowelled marble humans.
Marble limbs sprawling. Marble heads nuzzling. Marble genitals gaping and heaving in the grass. Marble fig leaves eroding on the compost heap.
Friezes on the walls where grotesque granite creatures revel. Stone reptiles strangling stone gryphons. Stone maggots consuming the struggling monsters.
Stealing through, you'd expect to find the skeletons of the Sleeping Beauty's wooers in the hedges and perhaps her spindle and the witch inside.
Inside Rooms without walls. Columns without ceilings to support. The capitals shedding dead Acanthus leaves which descend in slow
motion to become parts of the rustling on the floor.
Doors leading nowhere. Stairs spiralling into open air. Formerly secret passages now exposed, leading deeper into the woods.
In one of the rooms a pile of tiny bones and a pointed hat atop of a tiny skull staring into the corner.
Strange... it seems as this palace decayed so quickly as if someone wanted to get rid of it.
As this path was never
meant to be trodden by man
These flowers have been
nurtured for none's eyes
These pebbles have never
been washed ashore These
inner organs have never
been exposed to light
Hyperion and Mimas orbit
for the pleasure of none The
marmot whistles for none's
ear The acrobat performs in
his invisible-suit and mind's
eye has never met anyone's
glance None has tore off the
moss to see what crawls
underneath Or lifted the veil
drained the pools
dissolved the bloodstains
None has unriddled my
Archaic smile Or turned the
russet key in my feeble lock
But someone might have
been scratched by the claws
and impaled on the spears
and pierced by the thorns
and the needles
In a transparent myriad of men
I stand, transfixed
I am lost, searching
"Am I the Crestfallen?" I ask
There is no light...
"Am I the Blinded?" I ask
...nor serenity
Redeem me, I yearn
I yearn for an answer
I am lost, searching
"Am I to vanish like water?" I ask
The desert is my daily bread...
"Am I to wither like trodden grass?" I ask
...and tears of threefold my drink
Redeem me, I yearn
I am lost, dear God
The autumn sun is restrained to wither
as the winter assumes with its pale pride
The last of life is smothered
Only the remembrance of a season’s departure is left behind
as a ghastly hand sweeps the landscape
The eternal conquering of seasons
And deprivement of beauty and life
The sun is restrained to wither
Only to perish into the twilight of seasons
Peek through the hole
And enjoy the lizard dance
Come see the lizards' dance
Out of their skin
See them throw their first tails
Watch the hundredth tail
Form behind a purple body
Come see the lizards' hypnotic dance
See them dance out of their skin...
...and slip into the cauldron
"poor lizards
swimming naked in icy water
I'll light a fire under you...
...if I can only find other matches..."
"you fool!
You can't cook soup on me
I can stand the heat
I'll sprawl in your mouth
I'll curl round your tongue
And I can assure you won't relish me
But...here, have my tail
And now give me my swim mask
Some time ago
And for a period of time
I lived on another planet
And in another galaxy
Where time
Didn’t exist
There were no seasons
No nights or days
There were no calendars
No hourglasses
Sometimes I wrote letters to earth
To ask what year, what season it was
Sometimes I wrote letters to earth
To find out how old I had become
And sometimes I was seventy years old
But other times my granddad wasn’t even born
So my letters to him were returned
And I had to note on the envelope
Which year it was supposed to arrive in
Once, for a test, I sent a letter addressed
"Planet Tellus anno 2050"
But I never got neither an answer nor the letter in return
I don’t know how long I lived there
I forgot the meaning of words like
"Tomorrow" and "soon" and "suddenly"
I became both patient and impatient
The strange thing, though
Even if time didn’t exist
Now is the third season
The season I don't long
Cause it is here
And you are gone
You were the Incubus
Who raped my sleeping mind
Awake - pain was the master
I crawled in a chasm
But now
Unsown seeds germinate
Unplanted trees bear fruits
The spell is broken
Unsummoned reveries gather
Unwinged thoughts fly
Wind rapidly swings its arms
Takes fruits from the trees
And flings them away
But what's ripe falls
Nevertheless
The days lean against
One another
And glide slowly into slippers
Of gathering darkness
Eve walks with velvet tread
Towards my orchard
Sinks in the tarn within me
A motion in the corner of my eye
Someone's heart beating time with mine
Your heart glows through your skin
Your heart expands and contracts
Your smile in my hair
Your laughter all in me
You're travelling through my veins
Florid embrace
Strawberry mouth
I am the Ignoramus But he believes he is concealed when blindfolded And he believes he can
read minds Words written in ink on
cerebral paper And he believes if he becomes learned he'll die, therefore he ignores all
wisdom And he believes sweetness
My whispering poems My treasures My arch images My treasures They honour me Dead,
creaking trees They praise me Mute, mossy
rocks They worship me Empty shells Why exalt a man murdered by his own muse To prevent