Saves the Day is an American rock band from Princeton, New Jersey, formed in 1994. The band consists of lead vocalist and guitarist Chris Conley, guitarist Arun Bali, bassist Rodrigo Palma, and drummer Claudio Rivera.
After forming under the name Sefler in 1994, Saves the Day released their debut studio album, Can't Slow Down, in 1998. It was followed by Through Being Cool (1999), which featured their first single, "Shoulder to the Wheel". Stay What You Are was released in 2001, peaking at number 100 on the Billboard 200. It spawned two successful music videos on MTV2, for the singles "At Your Funeral" and "Freakish", and has since sold 300,000 copies. After the success of Stay What You Are, Saves the Day signed to Dreamworks Records, who co-released their next studio album, In Reverie, with Vagrant Records. The band stated that the label had "completely abandoned it three days after it was released", with the album peaking at number 27 on the Billboard 200 and number 4 on the Independent Albums chart.
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Christopher Lane Conley (born February 29, 1980) is an American musician and songwriter/composer, and the lead-singer/rhythm guitarist in Saves the Day. As he is the only remaining original member as well as major artistic contributor, Saves the Day has been referred to, in recent years, as "essentially the Chris Conley show".
Chris and David Soloway (former Saves the Day bandmate) have joined forces with Max Bemis and Coby Linder from the band Say Anything to form the supergroup Two Tongues.
Conley formed a band with a group of classmates at Princeton Day School. The band was originally titled Indifference, but later renamed the band Sefler. Conley has cited some of his early influences as the Smiths, Led Zeppelin, Billy Joel, Superchunk, the Smashing Pumpkins, Sunny Day Real Estate, Archers of Loaf, Screeching Weasel, Jawbreaker, Gorilla Biscuits and Lifetime.
Sefler was originally composed of Chris Conley, Bryan Newman, Chris Zampella and Justin Gaylord. They recorded a 3-track 7" entitled "13 Hours of Everything" one afternoon in a friend's basement. They then recorded a nine-track demo at Trax East Studio in New Jersey. While recording, a friend of the band (and later bassist), Sean McGrath, suggested that they change their name to Saves the Day, which they did.
Max Bemis (born April 6, 1984) is the lead singer and primary lyricist of the band Say Anything. He is also co singer along side Chris Conley of the supergroup Two Tongues, which features members from Say Anything and Saves the Day.
Max Bemis was born in New York City on April 6, 1984. His family moved to Hollywood, California when he was a child. He had minor roles in some films due to his father's work in Hollywood, including an uncredited role as an altar-boy in Face/Off. Bemis took piano lessons which he credits for the realization that he wanted to make music. In addition, Bemis was raised "in a strong Jewish environment," which has influenced his music. His maternal grandparents were survivors of the Holocaust, which was the inspiration for the song, "Alive With the Glory of Love."
Bemis attended high school at Windward School, a private school in Los Angeles. He had also attended Camp Ramah in Ojai, California, where he met future band-mate Coby Linder. In 2000, Bemis, Linder, and friends from Windward and Beverly Hills High School formed Say Anything. The band was described as a high school band, but they released a full-length LP and an EP. In 2002, Bemis attended Sarah Lawrence College. However, he spent much of his time recording his own music and left the school after only a few months.
Temperatures rise, rising and reeling
from feral files found in the trash can
confirming all our deepest fears
Oooh television keeps us scared to death
Oooh don't go outside, better stay in bed
Mold in the air might cause a car crash
somewhere in France
leading to outbreaks of airborne plagues
violent earthquakes
Oooh television keeps us scared to death
Oooh don't go outside, better stay in bed
(Ah) Run to your momma's basement
bury your head
so you can't hear the TV singing
soon we'll all be dead
get up! get up! go on and see the very last sunset
Oooh television keeps us scared to death
Everything is for sale underneath the sun
send your dollars in the mail.
If you got what you want
well there's always more.
There's a sale at the store
better get there before they close the door.
Down the street there's a dog
selling socks to a frog
for a 100 dollar bill
but the bill blows away.
Goes round and round and drifts away.
All at once another day
begins blossoming right before your eyes.
Everything is for sale
so I'll sell my eyes
to a preacher who is blind,
and I'll carve off my arms
sell them to the lumberyard,
and i'll auction off my ears
maybe even pawn my fears.
Round and round and drift away
you are not what you would pay.
All at once another day
begins blossoming right before your eyes.
All is right,
tonight
All is right.
Everything is for sale underneath the sun
send your dollars in the mail.
If you got what you want
well there's always more.
Better get it before its gone
cause it all just goes.
Round and round and drifts away.
You are not what you would pay.
All at once another day
begins blossoming right before your eyes.
All is right,
tonight
Im all out of time
watching a swaying tide
tomorrow has died
yes no one gets out alive
The moonlight in the morning sun
sends shivers over my skin
my memories are slowly slippin'
and im sailing against the wind
Madness ensues
swimmin in ocean blues
the dream drippin sky
covers my insides
The moonlight in the morning sun
sends shivers over my skin
my memories are slowly slippin'
Could you tell me the next time that you're choking?
'Cause I'll rush right over
to shove some dirt right down your throat
It's nothing I have against you
You're just a creep and
you can't remember the last five years
What's a bond if it dissolves in water?
I took a piss that lasted longer
than you and your manipulations
I called my mom last night
She said, "Sweetie, you don't need someone
who's more fleeting than fall"
'Cause don't you love those leaves?
Don't you wish the orange stayed forever
And Crickets sang in the night all through winter?"
And I thought, slow down, Chris
Think of all the time this jerk
has fucked you up and left you down
And hey, I choose my company
by the beating of their hearts
Not the swelling of their heads
Besides, I'd rather forget the days we spent
And I grew up
on alcoholic evenings and slow jazz music to keep my heart beating
because after all that happens in a dissolving family
the need for a song to sing me to sleep still rings true
and I always knew that there wasn't glue strong enough
to sew these roots together
and now that I've wasted too many years
and I've lost track of where I started
I have to dream at night of who I was and why after twenty years of marriage
I am what is left and I'd like to go back now
and make myself up because I'd be a brick so I wouldn't feel
and I'd lift myself up and I'd throw myself at this house
to break windows and smash walls
And I will flail under these lights that seep down from the bitter sky tonight
and I will kick and beat my wrists together
and feel an ocean breathing waves, feel them licking at my face.
Ceilings don't exist and there are no floors beneath me.
If I were king of this night, would you become my queen?
And I hope, your majesty that you like your position.
I'll do everything I can to keep you by my side
and I'll stare off through the darkness to find us a kingdom.
Just kiss me before I go.
I'll have to walk a thousand miles just to find the ground deserving of your feet.
You could throw me down and walk on me
and I'd just look on through my love and through the haze.
And I hope, your majesty that you like your position.
I'll do everything I can to keep you by my side
and I'll stare off through the darkness to find us a kingdom.
Just kiss me before I go.
The nightingales are singing now.
They're calling out our marriage to our subjects on their knees.
Their jewelery is thrown into the air.
They sigh at their release as their shackles hit the ground.
The trumpets call out now.
We're home at last.
And I hope, your majesty that you like your position.
I'll do everything I can to keep you by my side
and I'll stare off through the darkness to find us a kingdom.
Every day seems the same to me
I sit around and think about how alone I feel
then I wind up rather enjoying loneliness because it's the comfort of being sad-
sometimes it feels so right
and sometimes I'd like to be around no one for ten straight years
but I know this feeling can't bring me places
and I know I'm losing lots of ground
but to keep up means to get up and why does it have to be
the world keeps on changing while I just stay the same?
I feel like being down doesn't mean enough to anyone anymore
and I guess the world has made emotion obsolete
and I don't think I feel the same 'cause after all
who says what happy really means?
Tonight I will redefine everything and tomorrow I will start in on my better days
and so each their own definition of happiness
but no one ever reaches it so I don't think I'll breathe that way
but happiness is when there's nowhere left to go
because in that state of mind there is no state of self
Hearing the words as they're leaving my mouth
I can't believe myself
Trying to be what you want me to be
I guess I can't catch up
Once in awhile, making you smile
by singing with the radio
You're singing with the radio
Staring into space like I'm not even there
I swear I'm not alone
You make me think that I live with a ghost
But my love still grows
Once in awhile, making you smile
by singing with the radio
You're singing with the radio
We heard it on the radio
They're singing (Ohhhhh)
Once in awhile, making you smile
by singing with the radio
You're singing with the radio
We heard it on the radio
Lets call it off
ive had enough of the games
if you could see into me
all my veins are tangled up
tied in knots
My heart beats slowly now,
it's emptying into the streets
Swirling straight away down the drains back to sea
Oh when is the time
where you aren’t in my mind
setting flames ravaging all my dreams
when can i finally wake
To the sunlight shining on my cheeks
and the wind sweeping me away
far away from every memory
with you face in the frame
that'll be the day
When they sky starts burning,
the earth ain’t moving.
We all become sane
and we rise in the morning
to kiss the scorching sun before it falls.
Let me take this awkward saw
And run it against your thighs
Cut some flesh away
I'll carry this piece of you with me
Because all I can say tonight
is that I hate you
But it would be all right
If we could see each other sometime
If I could somehow make you mine
And if not I'll take my rusty spoons
And dig out your blue eyes
I'll swallow them down to my colon
They're gonna burn like hell tonight
Because you're beautiful
Just not on the inside
Light comes from within
And your beaming eyes don't seem so bright
My heart is on the floor
Why don't you step on it?
When I think of all the things you've done
Boardwalks and breaking waves
Made our Saturdays
I'd buy you lemonade right now
if you were here
But then I'd throw it in your face
And I'd listen to you cry
And I'd remember how I miss
our nights under ocean skies
You and I are like when fire
Don't stare at me now
It's worse than death to be looked at
I'm writing this out at home,
Where there is nothing but walls
Hey mom could you run down to the store?
Stock up on soy milk and I need a few good books
But nothing interesting, I'd like to feel dead for a week
And sleep like I'm already gone
Walk around the house,
Tearing all the mirrors down
While I'm at it, I'll smash the windows, too
Then retreat to my room,
Throw my sheets around me
Blanket for the sky,
Hammer nails into my eyes
now I'll never notice
when you're staring at the ground
wishing that you didn't know
what I'm really thinking
you won't even look at me now
Say you'll never leave, please
this war inside my mind is killing me
See myself in shredded skin
sew my lips together
so I won't have to say a word
what I never meant to say
I wish I could erase it
make it right again some day
Say you'll never leave, please
this war inside my mind is killing me
I'll cut out my throat and I'll eat it raw
and drown in the blood as it fills my lungs
Say you'll never leave, please
this war inside my mind is killing me
it's killing me
I'm sitting here and I'm all alone. the yelling keeps me company cause mom and dad have forgotten how to love one another. now the tensions getting thick and mommy's running out the door. I wish I had another friend besides the one in the mirror. commissioned by the love in broken homes. everything just stops when you're sitting here all alone... I'm sitting here and I'm all alone. there's so much love in broken homes.
How long?
How long will I have to go on?
When I'm with you.
Take a gun to my head, swallow it!
I hope you're on the way,
To an early grave,
Nothing left to change.
And I don't know how long I can keep talking.
Till I come over and tear off your ears!
You'd never hear!
Cause I was gonna say,
Never meant a thing,
No one left to blame.
The stars are out tonight,
Will they fall out of the sky?
And come crashing down,
On your house...
Cause I was gonna say,
Never meant a thing,
No one left to blame.
I hope you're on the way,
To an early grave.
It was almost night time so we stayed inside, and closed our eyes. I whispered a thought that I had. We slept while holding hands couldn't sleep the cold. You said, "Just being near you for awhile is enough." I thought you have the most wonderful sense of feeling right, and the most wonderful sense of being here tonight.
The moon hangs like the blade of an axe tonight,
and it's poised to drop sometime soon enough
on this dump truck where I lie mixed up with the morning's trash.
There's a piece of glass sticking in my back and tar covering my mouth.
But it's okay cause I'm still breathing and my hands are free of the heap.
And I think that I see that big blade falling.
And I think that I see that big blade coming.
And the pressure is getting to me and the waste in which
I sit is just lurking beside me.
And I can't tell if it's me or the meat that's rotting.
I'm gonna have to give up sometime soon.
But it's okay cause I'm still breathing and my hands are free of the heap.
And I think that I see that big blade falling.
And I think that I see that big blade coming.
You can watch me disappear.
You can watch me.
All I'm losing is me.
And I think that I see that big blade falling.
And I think that I see that big blade coming to slice open a great canyon
If every limb were broken,
tires had all worn thin
and my toes are all in pieces.
Do you know
what I would do?
I would play can you drag yourself
200 miles
with just your fingernails?
A little game that I made up.
Do you know that I never ever lose?
There is nothing to
keep me from coming back to you
cause I can picture all the pictures of you
and me on your walls.
What would it take to make you mine forever?
Just your fingernails,
a little game that I made up.
Do you know, that I never ever lose?
Could I cut out my liver,
make a special potion
two parts my heart?
Three parts my heart.
Yeah, you know that I would do it in a second.
With just my fingernails,
a little game that I made up.
Do you know that I never ever lose?
With just my fingernails,
a little game that I made up.
Do you know that I never ever lose?
So I said, "lets forget these days and just try to build some solid ground.
Maybe someday we could stand straight up with our faces in the wind
and scream to the world."
We were at some boating dock oh somewhere
at the waterfront staring out across the channel-
a steamer blared its horn
and I wished I could say everything right like do you want to go for a ride?
I looked to your face and saw the sun reflecting off your skin
and I breathed in water smells-
the skyline filled with shipping yards and factories had me dreaming
of waking up-
am I dreaming? is this really me?
because I've never felt so not lonely
and if this could be real right now
then everyday for the rest of my life I will search for moments full of you
but let's hope tomorrow won't cave in 'cause I'm looking
for someone to change me
and you make me feel so tall- I always want to be this tall
'cause maybe I'll be original
and sometimes things you say just make me think in different ways
so this is my way of saying
I could be the one who's dragged home at night away
from all my hopeless dreams-
you and me will forge some future because we don't want to be waiting
This isn't the way we planned
I wasn't supposed to forget your taste
Like nights spent figuring all the ways that we came to this place
There we were alone on top of your old rooftop in Highland Park
But ask me now..
Say, "Chris look out across the sky and tell me which way the wind blows."
A core of coal
A core of coal and starches in within me
But even now that you're not here
I climb these mountains of houses every night
I know i can't come near you
Every time i do
I get shaken inside and the sun in my eyes
I'll stay away
I'd rather be here
than anywhere with you
Whoo
I'd be dancing with your ghost
Toasting note to note
So here's to the passing
of all that could be
between you and me
I'd rather be here
than anywhere with you
Whoo
I know i can not see you
even if i wanted to
'cause your light is the light of ten sunsets
Circled by eyes burned blue and opened wide
I'd rather be here
than anywhere with you
Whoo
I'd rather be here
than anywhere with you
You aren't the kind of person that I couldn't fall in love with, rather you are the kind of person that I could. And I'd like to spend an afternoon of laughing at ourselves, and hear all the wonderful things you might tell me. I'd watch your eyes gleam during that time of day when you can't really tell if it's day or night. I'd like to think of us in twelve years having a place and a daughter. I think she would look a lot like you. We'd be all the time smiling. Someone once asked me who I'd most like to be with. I said, "There's this really great gal that I'd like to hang out with sometime."
Have you ever had one of those days when all the
questions stink,
so you just move on and the days gets long and sad, and
you wish
I never thought I could watch someone come apart
from the insides to outsides
but every day I see strings fall loose
and every day I see hope lost-
with all this complicated I can't even get pass the thought of thinking
and wondering whether help or understanding rings truer
and I don't know how to do anything anymore for you
but I know that you should stop this world spinning right this minute
and take a look from higher up
and then you could realize just how broken your aim really is
so why don't you ask yourself to show up sometimes?
why don't you stand up tall and kick yourself in the mouth
to remember and to get that burn back
and scorch your stomach and bleed that passion lost
My gut is burning. Won't you find me some water?
Hey, just forget it can you bring me gasoline
and collect a couple forks, hold them three feet apart
and wait for lightning to strike to burn me up?
Cause I don't think that I've got the stomach to
stomach calling you today.
My head is swirling. It's been carried off in the sky
and where it lands is where is lands.
So I guess that I will get another head and then get on with my life
and leave you somewhere beneath the waves of time.
And I'll wear glass shoes and plastic wrap.
No, I'll just wear my insides.
You want to know who I really am?
Yeah so do I, yeah so do I.
Cause I don't think that I've got the stomach to
stomach calling you today.
Right now I am turning off the lights
cause I don't think that I've got the stomach to
all i want is you to come undress me
laying sideways underneath the windowsill
let's not say a thing, no, let's not even think
just hold each other here
i remember when we met on halloween
you and your red dress, your green eyes stared at me
the sidewalk yellow stars start t0 fade into the dark
when i first take you in my arms
i never want to let go
all my life i've been alone
no one there just to hold
there's lines along my face
from those endless wasted days
showing the sun shines through the shade
i never want to let go
all my life i've been alone
no one there to just hold
too many faces that turned away
start to believe that it's not worth the pain
but i know that i love you
ohh, all it was is a dream
Blinded by circumstance
I suffered and I strayed
Deny the fear inside
It's me that I betrayed
But now I'm here
Just to hold you in my heart
'til forever has come and gone
A hundred times
I'll be here waiting
Contempt
Controlled
Confined inside my withered skin
Don't look
The mirror makes you turn away within
But now I'm here
Just to hold you in my heart
'til forever has come and gone
A hundred times
I'll be here waiting
I know you have only seen me
In darkness and misery
I promise to trust this feeling
If you hold on to me
So let's be clear
In this moment
You're all I need
This is worth it
So now I'm here
Just to hold you in my heart
'til forever has come and gone
A hundred times
I've come and gone
A hundred times
I've got your face burned in my head
From the first night we met
You were lost, twenty-two, tired of it all
Eyes like stop on black holes
I was living alone
The world went by down below
Through the window I watched it all
You've been here seven years clothes on the floor
Shadows crawling along the walls
Reminisce reticence learn to move on
Without you 'I would be' is gone
Try or fail to forgive
Nothing left to relive
I watch your black hair blow in the wind
Can we love again?
Do you feel a thing?
Will you take my hand?
I want to live again
In your eyes I see the sky go gray
Looking down as I say
'give me one more day'
In the distance I hear the rain
Fall
Fall
And I'm gunna get to, the bottom of this
Gunna peal back my, skin
And look at myself shakin', and shiverin', yeah, yeah
And I'll get through
Come in the house
Survey the scene
Find the two of them tall as trees
And I turn myself up
I found the coolant
to dangle in my twilight, well
And I'm gunna get to, the the bottom of this
Gunna peal back my, skin
Look at myself shakin', and shiverin', yeah, yeah
And as my skin collects,in a pile on the ground
I'll radiate heat
And turn off my head
And just pretend, I don't insist
That I'll stay clearly til the end
Of the ropes that I've been hanging from
Whoa-oh-oh, I say loosen from the trees
I plummet to the ground, feel impaled and turned around
Turn me right around
Finally Free from the ups and downs
And I'm gunna get to the bottom of this
gunna peal back my skin
And look at myself shakin' and shiverin', yeah, yeah
And I'm gunna get to the bottom of this
gunna peal back my skin
if i see you again
i know it's just because either i'm dreaming
or standing over you with a gun in my hand
and i've just shot you between the teeth
smoke is swirling around my head
I'll go walking around in the dark of the day.
Right when everything's quiet, see stars as they change.
Trees sway, sag to the street drinkin' puddles of rain.
Right on the corner of your old street where we once
stayed.
Seem so quiet..
Can't hear nothing now.. but..
Once there was music that swam in the air.
Crazy laughing at dishes that smash in the sink.
Howling wolf on the radio, sing you to sleep.
Right now, the sun coming up through the cracks in the
trees.
I thought you'd save me..
From myself with Love...
Love...
But alone is how I stay, from the womb to the grave.
I thought you'd save me..
From myself with Love...
Love...
But alone is how I stay, from the womb to the grave.
That's how I stay, from the womb to the grave.
I don't know where to go
Ain't no light along the road
stumbling under the stars above
Somehow feel someone's stare
turn around nobody there
never knowing if I'm all alone
cause paranoia is the only friend that I know
and everybody else is gone
their eyes are burning into my heart
fall and feeling fear I can't go on
and nobody will sound the alarm
Sit around late at night
sitting by the fireside
planning out to bury me alive
and when I'm done they all will laugh about how I died.
Cause everybody else is gone
their eyes are burning into my heart
we'll fall and feeling fear I can't go on
and nobody will sound the alarm
In the darkness of my mind
I hear a voice that seems to sigh
I'm going to die before I save myself
And everybody else is gone
Their eyes are burning into my heart
we'll fall and feeling fear I can't go on
and nobody will sound the alarm
we'll fall and fearing fear I can't go on
I called you up to see if maybe we could hang out
and I told you I was nervous and feeling lonely
but I bit my lip and you said yes
and I thought of how beautiful the night would be
and I thought maybe we could drive around talking about your town
or we could just stay at home and I could win over acting cool
And I say, "Just go.
Please, Dave, just drive.
Get us as far as far can be.
Get us away from tonight."
And I say, "Oh, Dave, I'm sorry.
I didn't mean to yell,
But I'm having quite a bad week
And I miss my mom."
And we drive
Dave steps on the gas
The world that's flying by is slick and smooth
Just big waves of light
The radio is playing Queen
And we're rocking out
We're going now
'Cause, hey, this is it
This is where we are
Out here where silence is
Seventy miles an hour and the windows up tight
She is a dying dandelion floating on the breeze
Swirling sweetly in the evening
She is the stars glowing gorgeously
She is the sloping clouds
Forever scrolling
Unfolding
She is the sun burned blue and shadows on the moon
She is the morning dew
Dangling on leaves leaking into streams
Forever flowing
Unfolding
No one can say her name
Now she sits and sings something about my dreams
Hours go by before she looks at me
She breaks my heart
Crawling, all alone along the floor,
Woke up this morning,
with a trail of teeth under the door,
I took a wrench to my chest, cracked all my ribs,
let the blood run all over my hands
I can't stand my own face anymore,
The mirror is on the floor,
Shattered a million eyes all crying please,
Please don't forget about me
You say I'm gonna break up,
Drive my car into a wall,
No they're never gonna wake up,
And wonder why they didn't care
After I pull out my tongue,
Tie it round my neck,
Hang myself alone in the dark
I can't stand my own face anymore,
The mirror is on the floor,
Shattered a million eyes all crying please,
Please don't forget about me
(Pull out my tongue tie it round my neck)
Please don't forget about me
(Hang myself alone in the dark)
(Pull out my tongue tie it round my neck)
Please don't forget about me
(Hang myself alone in the dark)
I can't stand my own face anymore,
The mirror is on the floor,
Shattered a million eyes all crying please,
There's a beautiful sky tonight and
if you were by my side then we could share it but you are gone.
So come at me with your moon and burn me in the stars
cause nothing matters anymore.
If I could only see you now for about an hour
maybe just a minute
just to ask
What has he got that I don't have?
Is it his brown eyes?
I know blue eyes get boring but I'll wear dark glasses all the time and
hey if you want me to, I'll take a knife to my own bright eyes.
If I could only see you now for about an hour
maybe just a minute
just to ask
what has he got that I don't have?
Is it his brown eyes?
Well, I'll give you a thousand reasons that tonight
you should grant me this one wish.
Like the one year of my life that I gave to you and
now you put me through hell.
You break me up.
I should hate you, but I can't replace you in my heart.
Why am I so pathetic?
I don't get it why you won't return my calls.
Can't you look at me once?
And please if you got a minute,
enjoy this lonely sky with me.
It'll swallow us whole if we only let it.
If I could only see you now for about an hour
maybe just a minute
just to ask
what has he got that I don't have?
Is it his brown eyes?
Well, I'll give a thousand reasons
that tonight you should grant me this one wish.
Like the one year of my life that I gave to you and
now you put me through hell.
You break me up.
If this sky's going to eat us then I'd like to be digested
into a million pieces with you.
I'd love to be scattered to hell with you.
Her life was magazines and faithful TV screens selling an empty dream
of cars and calories and everything in between the sun and Saturn's ring,
but the price tag can't be seen and it took bites out
of her insides till she was just a hollow shell.
She grew up in east LA watching celebrities living out all of her dreams.
The plastic canopy of US royalty drew her gaze towards the sky
and away from her own mind.
And it took bites out of her insides till she was just a hollow shell.
And at home her mother cried cause daddy
had something on the side and they didn't look up when she sighed.
And when August came around,
the bathing suits were on the ground replaced by a cotton cloak.
To see her own reflection was like squinting in the sun.
And when all tomorrow brings is a set
Playing shows and writing songs could've been much more than you can get out of sitting around and being unproductive. There's a lot more than being like the other kids. At least I have something to do with myself. Did you ever notice how sometimes you take for granted what you need, like having friends and good times and never losing touch? But I guess you found something else to hold on to, like a girl or money or being bitter to the end. I'd like to think of the days when we didn't have to, and everything that ever meant some to you? You only thought you had to circle so far, and then come back down to sacrifice this one last thing.
Take my hand let me see you rise again
I know you said we don't have a chance to be saved
We're lost, we're torn, we praise, we scorn, we're stuck, and we'll stay
The same
Oh you are not the one to blame
The past, the pain, all that it had once became.
Too much to hold, too dark, too cold.
You lost your way that's all
Living without you, living without love... is it the life I need?
No more tomorrow, no morning sorrow - now it's all up to me...
I feel the rain as you turn my way... you say "It's not a waste"
Living without you, living without love, is it the life I need?
I think I'm starting to see
The love I need is inside of me
As I look to you now, vow and confess
You're the light in my eyes
Of all the things that I've said
Of all the things I'll never get back
The only thing I would change is walking away
When you needed me here
And I could see it in your eyes
You were blind to see me
You see the man I used to be
"Of course." I say to myself
I lost my way refusing your help
But here inside all along, waiting for you
To come home to yourself
So now it's just you and me
And yesterday is gone, we agree
As we open our arms up to the sun
We all collected in a room, you were there. your shirt was red, we got scared when everything stopped. I yelled at you for being so mean to me. off my head nothing sounds right. I'm mixed up and somewhat dead. I took it all so well. I'm so proud and I'm so quiet and I'm so in love. I cornered you outside, there were no walls, it was so quiet. and I'm so in love, just a little better now. big brown letters and a flower, we talk and its a good talk. I ask if we could kiss and we did. they all stopped and we talked down the hall. there's a whisper, everything's O.K. I took it all so well. I'm so proud and I'm so quiet and I'm so in love. I cornered you outside, there were no walls, it was so quiet. and I'm so in love, I still think of nothing all the time. just about you.
You say I won't forget what you said to me.
I won't forget you left, begging please don't leave.
I want to know
What in the world has happened to you?
It's time to learn to let it all go.
So you're forsaken cast aside and alone
Those haunted voices in your head are all ghosts
So long ago
Their sideways eyes cut through but you know
That now it's time to let it all go.
You know that I love you
And I can't stand living without you
But I don't know what now I can do
oh no no
You gotta do something
cuz you can't just keep it inside you
it's killing me and killing you.
Please save yourself
I'd like to help
but you won't let me through
it's time to learn to let it all go.
You know that I love you
And I can't stand living without you
But I don't know what now I can do
oh no no
You gotta do something
cuz you can't just keep it inside you
You say you're leaving
You don't know why you came back
You say you see it clearly
You're gonna have a heart attack
Because I, because I keep on talking
Sounding deranged and desperate
[Chorus:]
I drop down onto my knees
The sun is hanging low through the leaves
I know my love, I drove you away
I'm dying trying to change
I know it's over
What we once used to be
And so I say I love you
To see what you will say to me
And then you, and then you say you need me
To surrender to reality
[Chorus]
When will you learn to be you
When will you have a choice
When will you drop the defense
Find you have a voice, woah
I've got your face burned in my head
From the first night we met
You were lost, twenty-two, tired of it all
Eyes like stop on black holes
I was living alone
The world went by down below
Through the window I watched it all
You've been here seven years clothes on the floor
Shadows crawling along the walls
Reminisce reticence learn to move on
Without you 'I would be' is gone
Try or fail to forgive
Nothing left to relive
I watch your black hair blow in the wind
Can we love again?
Do you feel a thing?
Will you take my hand?
I want to live again
In your eyes I see the sky go gray
Looking down as I say
'give me one more day'
In the distance I hear the rain
Fall
Fall
The dimly lit walkways
and avenues.
Beneath bridges,
lead me through
dreamy days.
It's into the dark
everytime,
it's no wonder I lost my mind,
and my memory.
But I wouldn't have it any other way.
Wonder weary all along the empty streets.
And I don't mind my broken legs.
Walk myself home beneath the stars.
strolling along the ocean shore,
and I wish for tidal waves,
to carry me out to sea.
To an island that's all for me,
to fade away.
But I wouldn't have it any other way.
With no one there to tell me how to be.
I'll grow my hair down to my knees.
I'd befriend coconut trees.
the breeze,
breathe in through the sparkling seas.
Evaporating in the sun.
Is my number one,
Priority.
But I wouldn't have it any other way.
No I wouldn't have it any other way.
My Heart is gone,
It drove to the shore,
Swam out in the night,
Way out past the lines,
I heard that now,
It lives in the south,
of West Central Spain,
Drinking off the pain,
Because inside, I'm broke,
I'm cracked, I'm alone,
No hope for a change,
No way to erase,
The world would be,
Better without me,
So How could this be?
Somehow, you love me.
Somehow, you love me.
Somehow, you live me.
I stepped out to see the stars fall,
Alone on the neighbor's lawn.
I held my hand on my head,
Now I'm waiting to hear you call
I'm going out my mind,
I'm giving up the fight this time,
So love me all and go, no longer care if I die alone
The whole world is waiting, watching to see when your
gonna fall,
Ten thousand faces staring and your back is against the
wall,
Fucked up pass the point of fixing, so tell me what
went wrong
I'm going out my mind,
I'm giving up the fight this time,
Love me all and go, no longer care if I die alone,
Cause' in the darkness of my mind,
I used to dream of suicide,
I'm gonna pull myself out,
Before I die.
I'm going out my mind,
I'm giving up the fight this time,
Love me all and go, no longer care if I die alone,
Now it's eight in the morning,
up all night just walking around.
I'm hiding out here under the window
by the sink where we used to laugh all day long.
I wait till I see you walking
from the bedroom down to the kitchen.
Fingering your hand into curls while talking
on the phone resting on your collarbone.
Here I come again, head is hanging low.
You put down the phone, take me in our arms.
And I'm all alone with you my love.
And did you hear me coming?
Running over the words I said last night.
While wishing I never saw your eyes
swell up with tears dripping down your thighs.
I can't let it go, I'm lost inside.
I can get so low.
Seems like there's no up and I'm all alone
So take me in your arms knowing I'm the one.
I turn around to say how could you still love me.
Sun is shining, lighting up your face.
You stare off into space not knowing what to say.
Searching for the words to set things straight so I
say...
I'm a Zig Zag sideways, upside down, out of my mind
What's the point of living if were all just born to
die.
You say why?
Why ask why?
I say "I get fucked up."
You say "delusional."
Somehow will you still open arms.
"Come with me" you say.
We step outside to face the sun.
Yesterday I dream that it would all bend out to dust.
Take a breath, turn around.
See the sun come through the clouds, the light alive in
your eyes.
Standing here by your side of an arm under the sky.
I know I want to hold on.
The letters left on the lawn.
The shadows crawling the wall.
The mirror shatters and falls.
I've been lost for so long, no more will to carry on.
So dark and dead in the seas.
Nothing left in the end.
And to pray is to pretend.
I'm tired of trying to believe.
So can we learn to forget.
I wanna hold you again.
Can we love remember our love.
I can get so low.
Seems like there's no up and I'm all alone
I'm dead inside and dying more everyday
Castrate my eyes and cut the lines in my face
The alcohol the empty walls regress regress erase regret
Return me now to where I was long ago
Yeah Yeah Yeah
I need you, I need your love.
I'm trying, to rise above.
I want you, to bring me back to life.
I feel their voices in the back of my head
I hear their eyes and turn when nobody is there
The TV screens, the magazines depress disease deny your
dreams
Dislocate drain to drifting losing control
Yeah Yeah Yeah
I need you, I need your love.
I'm trying, to rise above.
I want you, to bring me back to life.
The lack, the need, the fear, the greed
Redeem amend remember when
Return me now to where I was long ago
I need you, I need your love.
I'm trying, to rise above.
Where do we go from here?
Together for seven years,
Pull a polaroid from the lawn,
You and your red dress before it was torn
Was it all a waste of time?
What if we never met that night?
Would you be the same inside?
I wanna make it work, I wanna get it right
Criss-crossed power lines,
Strung over the billboard sky,
Oceans burnt to dust,
And shadows from bombs above
Is it all a waste of time?
We are born, we give in and we die,
Think of all the ways we try,
We wanna make it work, we wanna get it right
What if we never met that night?
Would you be the same inside?
When you think of it do you start to cry?
You wanna make it work, you wanna get it right
It is all a waste of time?
We are born, we give in and we die,
Think of all the ways we try,
I'm in a parking lot by myself
It's quarter to nine and I've been here since 5:45
Oh, there's no one but I can see some flickering lights
I can hear some dogs barking in the back yards
And I smell gasoline
I wish the sky were open 'cause if there weren't those trees
I think I could see for miles
The city is just beyond those clouds
I guess this is what it's like to be really down
And holding out for something
Remembering the warm nights
Remembering the open arms of two years ago
Oh there's nothing like this parking lot
And seeing the stars in morning
'Cause I can see them from where I'm lying
I can feel the cold pavement against my skin
There's something sweet about seeing the world
There's something great about Kansas
It's like staring across an ocean
Like seeing the first stars burn white
Through the swamp and trees of Southern night
Oh, I'll always have those mornings in
California where the mountains climb so tall
And waves crash blue around you
When everyone's passed out in the van
And I'm the one driving through the land
Alone in open roading
Ted's out in the seat right next to me
He's drooling on his sleeve
Who ever made up open skies and two of the bluest eyes
Must be some young phenom
Sometimes taking off can open up your eyes
To everything that lies in your heart
'Cause that's when you miss your home
And the trees seem a little deader
I think we're getting back tonight
Would you care if I came over?
I've missed you about three weeks now
I'm dying just to taste your lips
Could we stomp around your back yard
Don't leave yet
it's still early and I haven't even said a word
and I'm hoping that I might upset you by saying what I want to
'cause it's not like you don't know I've fallen for you
but it's in my head and that's where you can't see it
and I thought that maybe if I had to bite the tips of my fingers
I could stumble over words
and tell you just how far before I hit the ground
and I'm the type to think of all the wrong things to say
and I will shut myself up and I'll never come out-
I'll close all my doors and only show you the black spots
where my eyes once were-
I can say this-
I can collect myself deep down and then come out punching
Cut off my failing limbs
Pawn off what's left within
Land of the living dead
Time to face the end
Smile for the camera, suck in that gut
don't shame your family, you'll have bad luck
oh the whole world is waiting to see when you fall
the cracked coffee cup from the senior prom
faded red dress on the neighbor's lawn
oh the whole world is waiting to see when you fall
the whole world is waiting to see when you fall
I'm a danger to myself
always blaming someone else
got a grenade in my mouth
and my finger on the pin ready to rip it out
yeah that's right
Cut off my failing limbs
Pawn off what's left within
Land of the living dead
Tonight will be the night that we begin to ease the plugs out of the dam.
And we still stand knee deep in the flow,
the undertow will grab our heels and won't let go.
And while we hold, our legs quivering,
the water rises now to our teeth when we just let go
and sail belly up to the clouds, the rocks scraping our backs.
To breathe in the air will be the only thing that we have
and all the wasted nights and empty moments in our lives
are flushed away as we sway with the rhythm of the waves bobbing us up.
Crests fall to troughs as we feel our gills open up
and sail belly up to the clouds, the rocks scraping our backs.
To breathe in the air will be the only thing that we have.
And if the hook set in the bottom of our lungs,
we'll rip it out and lick the blood off with our tongues.
Despair could ravage you if you turn your head around
to look down the path that's lead you here, cause what can you change?
You're a vessel now floating down the waterways.
You can take your rudder and aim your ship,
just don't bother with the things left in your wake.
Just sail belly up to the clouds, the rocks scraping your back.
To breathe in the air will be the only thing that you have
and your love will be warm nights with pockets of moonlight
spotlighting you as you drift, the actor in this play.
And you walk across the stage, take a bow, hear the applause,
and as the curtain falls, just know you did it all
the best that you knew how and you can hear them cheering now.
Oh great
here I go again I'm stuck in this rut
and I'm not sure how to begin- should I tell you everything?
I'm feeling out of luck so I won't see you soon
'cause I know it's too soon for you to see me-
if this is the last thing you do just tell me that it's o.k.
for me to have these feelings for you
and that it's normal to want to call you.
Oh I'm dialing the phone and I'm letting it ring for hours
and I'm pretending to hear your voice-
Why does my heart always beat before yours does?
After a while you can make yourself believe in almost anything,
Leif and I are on the train to New York in car 1399.
There's a guy with a quarter in his ear
and I've seen Leif only once in the past two months.
His hair is sticking up a little in the front. He's losing it just a bit.
When I get home tonight I'll miss him in Hampshire.
I'll miss his glasses and the way he writes in purple pen,
the way his collar falls to the left.
Have you seen his ankles lately?
I know he's next to me.
I feel his sweater here,
but when I'm sleeping it's only green sheets and the hair down my legs.
I think I'll write you, Leif, when I'm near Tuesday,
The sky grows bigger every day
And the other week I hopped on a train
Cutting through state lines
To come to you as the crow flies
And out there in there offing everything was melon and orange
Did you know, my sweet
That I once took the liberty of watching you in your sleep?
I rolled over and over
Trying to touch your knees underneath the sheets
I just want you to know
that every pool of water reminds me of you
Is that all right?
I hope you think it's cool
'Cause sometimes a train can't go as fast as I want it to
Everything seemed a little easier
when we weren't one hundred miles apart
The person across from me
sitting in her train seat, reminded me of you
And I looked out past her cheeks
through the glass-light conduit
But the sun had sunk already
Disappeared into New Jersey
Don't you remember the last time we were speeding down this highway?
Anna slept in the back seat, dreaming in the autumn heat.
We turned up the country radio.
I said, "if you want me just say so."
I slicked back my hair in the wind.
I told you I didn't want my picture taken but you snapped it anyway.
Now I guess you won't have trouble remembering me someday.
So I floored it and swerved around the lanes.
I kept wishing it were you instead of me behind the wheel
so maybe with my camera I could steal a shot of you
and go home to put it in my room.
Maybe you'll never remember me.
Maybe my face will lose these scars,
'cause sometimes they keep me home at night
(I guess the only reality is the one you seem to believe in.
Well I'm walking out, this is the last time, I feel like shit.
This isn't the way to treat old friends...)
Let's go again
Set me up
Watch me stand on top of my old house
Watch me spinning and watch me seeing the melon sky
Oh, look it's so beautiful tonight
But I was feeling so sweet
I could barely breathe so deep
But you had to come along
You had to shatter everything
Why'd you even fuck her in the first place?
Friends don't mean a thing
when you can actually feel the knife sticking in your spine
For a second there I thought I was fine
But oh, whatever
I've tasted my own blood, and now every time you walk on by,
I feel like spitting in your eye
I wanna crawl into the ground and not come out
For 37 years when my life runs out
A demon in my mouth, it spits words out
Let everybody hate me, make me kill myself
I want to lie below the weight of the sky
And then I'll rise above the earth in a hurricane
Spun into the wind with the whirlin' rain
Reach into the top of a blackened sky
Screamin' as I fall to the earth to die
I want to lie below the weight of the sky
So into the basement and under the boards, I'll go
(whoa whoa)
To live with the leeches that lurk in the undertow
(whoa whoa)
I wanna rot all the roots of the rest of the life above
(whoa whoa)
And I will not rise
So into the basement and under the boards, I'll go
(whoa whoa)
To live with the leeches that lurk in the undertow
(whoa whoa)
I wanna rot all the roots of the rest of the life above
(whoa whoa)
And then I'll wait as the world wilts and nothing is left but smoke
(whoa whoa)
(ha ha ha)
Bottles breaking on my face are
only your reminder of your love
I lost a lifetime ago
was I dreaming when I knew you? I don't know.
So once again I swim In Reverie
without your love
so long ago I cant remember now
where we began
Smell of burning photographs slides
slowly to my nostrils I try
remember the soft silence of
summer sweating in the evening
So once again I swim In Reverie
without your love
so long ago I cant remember now
where we began
Now as I lay by your side
would you tell me why everything has to be lies
leaving everyone wondering when we'll all wind up dead
to all we are within
wednesday the third was the night that you rambled
alone in the fridgid white light like a leopard
about to dig in to trembling skin
with wind whipping your shins
haven't you heard the news
nobody came too soon
surprise our eyes are opening up to you
Now as I lean to the side
I can see all the thoughts that you're trying to hide
I've arranged for a ferry to France
where you should relax, don't worry about the pets
they'll be safe at our address
haven't you heard the news
nobody came too soon
surprise our eyes are opening up to you
nobody came too soon
surprise our eyes are opening up to you
you'll always be in our eyes opening up to you
you've left everyone wondering when we'll all end up dead
to all we are within
now as daisies dry off
and the wind scurries scarlet leaves like they were dust
we can see somewhere off to the east
a gaggle of geese are singing your goodbye
hear the sweetest lullaby
listen up to hear the sky will soon clear
And I'm gonna get to
The bottom of this
Gonna peel back my skin
And look at myself shaking and shivering
And I'll get the rope, from in the house
Survey the scene, finding two of the tallest trees
And I'm tying myself up, above the cool earth
To dangle in the twilight (whoah)
And I'm gonna get to
The bottom of this
Gonna peel back my skin
And look at myself shaking and shivering
And as my skin collects in a pile on the ground
I'll radiate heat, and turn off my head
And just pretend that I don't exist
Then, I'll see clearly to the end
Of the ropes that I've been hanging from (whoa, oh, oh)
I say, loosen from the trees, I plummet to the ground
Be impaled and turned around (turning right around)
Finally free from the ups and downs
And I'm gonna get to
The bottom of this
Gonna peel back my skin
And look at myself shaking and shivering
And I'm gonna get to
The bottom of this
Gonna peel back my skin
And look at myself shaking and shivering
All night long, ghosts with snakes
Stare at the ceiling as if there was somebody there
I start to wonder
What's he do when I'm not there
'Cause I've been calling,
But I stopped hearing from my friends
Did you think I'd forget?
Twist my words every time
Lie all along and you know I won't know it's a lie
And I remember what you said when I was there
It never happened like the way you said it did
Did you think I'd forget?
Whoa oh oh oh oh...
I thought I saw you
Outside my window last night
It's lucky for you
A shadow fled from the flashlight
I'll have to wonder how you look without your teeth
The hollow smile
You keep your tongue inside your cheek
I never loved you
I never trusted you at all
The stars above you
Are shining down upon us all
A month ago
there we were surrendering ourselves
to the local police
paying them not to tell
while we waited we all.....
Sang a song of sorrow
solely to remember
what went wrong
Leonard looked
like a ghost gave him a foot massage
molly shook like a fish
danglining on a line
walter wore womens clothes
Sang a song of sorrow
solely to remember
what went wrong
We sang a song of sorrow
solely to remember
what went wrong
In the darkness
we were all strip searched
nothing was found
Suffering
from the full cavity search
we fell to our knees
to repent
I can recal right now
what it was that we did
We sang a song of sorrow
solely to remember
what went wrong
In the darkness
we were all strip searched
Where are you?
and where am I?
we've been slippin slowly south
I guess my tounge is tied
to the stary sky tonight
Cause im not sure
whats goin on
I feel the earth quakin beneath me
It feels like elephants
tremblin my hollow chest
If i could move just one fingernail
to scratch your name on the back of my hand
so i would never forget you again
Remember when
was way back then
and as for now
just danglin
Why is it everything's all loneliness with me? I guess sometimes I try too hard, and sometimes you cause it, but it always carries on and on. "What did you ever become?" you asked. I said, "I was told to be smiles and bright eyed happiness, but sometimes I can't find anything to laugh at." "I don't want to be here." you said. It seems like I almost always have that effect on everyone. I say to myself, "You aren't the first one to think like me." And I just want to be like everyone else. Why can't I be everything to everyone else, or maybe just to you? Just once I would like to be something. And I wouldn't mind if you'd like to be with me.
I guess I wrote this song
To hear you singing along
Remember all those times
Laughing so hard we would cry
So many lonely nights
So many lonely nights
I hoped you'd call
Stare at the wall
Why do shadows crawl
All along the floor
I hoped you'd call
And that is all
I can say in this song
Time we were moving along
Remember all those days
Staring through the window pane
So many lonely nights
So many lonely nights
I hoped you'd call
Stare at the wall
Why do shadows crawl
All along the floor
I hoped you'd call
And that is all
Is it really what I wanted to say?
'Cause I've never even you before
The way that sad look'd come on your face
Is it really what you wanted to say?
And no, I never even gave it a thought
But i know we can't stay the same
Is it ever what you wanted to be?
Or am I living in the same old dream?
The one where nothing is as it seems
The one where nothing is as it seems
(nothing is as it seems)
Hello me
are you in there
making sure you're not dead,
smelled some rotting flesh
I heard you left him alone
suns up with open roads
get down
freak out
the time is right now
Drop your things
and burn your clothes
why we're here
no one knows
watch the bombs explode
He sold you a dream
and carved you up like meat
lay down
the law
locked your heart behind bars
While you were sleeping he would whisper in your ear
The monkey will bite
better eat your poultry
till' theres no use
don't try to
ask a doctor
what's going on inside you head
just fall out and get in line
like all good soliders do
You awoke to his game
running circles in your brain
can't belive you eyes
What's up what is down
he spun you around
what's near what is far
god knows what you are
can you remember when
this began
The monkey will bite
better eat your poultry
till' theres no use
don't try to
ask you doctor
what's going on inside you head
it's pretend
it's no meaning
When he said he wouldn't leave
well i punched him
broke his eye wide open
well he needed it
in a way, you see every girl i meet
just falls for him before they fall for me
and i'm sick of it
probably shouldn't have
but this feeling just came over me
yea-ha, sitting with a girl named molly
and i think she likes me
i don't want dave to fuck this up
better kick him while he's down
I wake up knowing that you're gone
The letter left inside the drawer
I stare through the window, window
Why would I ever say
Those words I cannot erase?
The look I saw come on your face
Is frozen there each time I blink
It's my kaleidoscope of pain
Why would I ever say
Those words I cannot erase?
I'll never know
If you're ever going to come back home
So I'll give in
To the pain that's eating me
Why would I ever say
Those words I cannot erase?
Tonight I'll stay awake long enough to stop breathing
and I wonder how long it will take before I pass out drunk off night skies
and lying on hills with wet grass below and blue black above-
I will carry all the weights tonight
'cause I keep remembering the day that you said you might go crazy
if you spent one more minute with me and I just don't know-
is one more minute going to kill you now?
Stop before I say too much-
so now I've been alone and it's been going but tomorrow might not come
if I don't let it so don't forget the mornings that we spent deep inside out heads
staring at blank walls 'cause that's what counts
and I don't know but I'm trying to let you go
but I can't cut so well these strings I have around my neck
and I'm trying to let you know that I'm doing this by myself-
so don't forget we sent letters to ourselves without words
If you've got a quarter you can stick in my neck
and I'll sing whatever song you want for whatever mood you're in.
Isn't that what you expect? I can sing you to sleep.
I've got a mouth full of blood.
Well I'll carry this casket if it's what I have to do.
So bring on the dark sky and let it cover me entirely.
Isn't that what you expect? I can sing you to sleep.
And all you want from me is a broken heart.
And I'll run down to the river and grab five buckets of water.
Wait right where you are and I will serve you at your table.
I hope you like my restaurant and the lighting is right.
The jukebox is in the corner. My mouth is the speaker.
It plays your favorite songs and you know where the coin slot is.
Isn't that what you expect? I can sing you to sleep.
Light beams through
windows stream into my eyes
my eyes explode like red ballons
as it reminds me of you so long ago
wind blows through
a hole in the roof
brings your perfume like lillies to me
and all I can do is remember you
When was the last time
I held you all through the nigh
feels like a zillion years
and I don't wanna wait more
to find you is to lose you,
what is that for?
tell me
When was the last time
I held you all through the night
Never a worry would run through my heart like a knife
feels like a zillion years
and I don't want to wait more
to find you is to lose you,
what is that for?
one more night and I might never know who you are
tell me
When was the last time
I held you all through the night
Never a worry would run through my heart like a knife
When was the last time
I held you all through the night
Never a worry would run through my heart like a knife
tomorrow is much too late
I need you now be my light
tomorrow is much to late
You know what?
The next time you see Nick
Tell him I'm gonna stick some needles in his face
And watch him on his knees
Watch him when he sees that I'm not fooling
'Cause I'm through being cool
And he keeps telling everyone about me
Like how I'm such a fool and that I'm so deceptive
I think I'll make him eat the ground
I think that I will turn around and notice the wind blowing tops of trees
I'll see the way the world begins to need color everywhere
And I'll realize how small I really am
And then I'll spin right back around
And say, "Nick, why are you such a prick?
Why can't you just marvel in the hopes that make up this reality?
Your world is what you made it
Burning a door in the back of my mind
Lying alone in the morning
I feel like swallowing my eyes
I walk around the house until
My feet begin to bleed
Still I can't forget somehow
Drowning in the darkness of my mind
I dream I'm setting fire to everything in sight
And if I die tonight and go to Hell, oh well
On that hill I see you
Cut off my legs when you tell me to walk
Slit my own throat when you say to talk
I've been swallowing your lies
And I recall you asked about
The one you used to know
I know him now
Drowning in the darkness of my mind
I dream I'm setting fire to everything in sight
And if I die tonight and go to Hell, oh well
On that hill I see you
My heart is burning black
My bones are cold and cracked
The venom flushed out my veins
And if you ever knew what I'm dreaming of
You would head for the hills
You'd better head for the hills
You'd better head for the hills
Drowning in the darkness of my mind
I dream I'm setting fire to everything in sight
And if I die tonight and go to Hell, oh well
I said, "that boy's handsome"
and a little bit of me wanted to be beautiful-
Carrie said, "It's hard to look in the mirror these days
when everyone has everything you'd rather be."
There's just something about his smile He looks so nice,
I wish I had friends like that
They'd always be there for me, I wouldn't look bad
From the fifth floor, I schedule my meeting with the moon
Stress, let it go, so it don't completely consume.
When the vegetables fight back, and the grass starts to sting
I yell up to Heaven to get me the hell out of this dream
I fell out of my stream of self-consciousness
And I've got welts on my mind to signify all my accomplishments.
No matter whose math you use to count to ten,
Progress will never rest in the hand that has no head.
Bought my brain a cane and asked it to be my pimp
You know, to make sure I don't stuck up in my fuck-ups
A little over anxious I was to bust nuts,
And find the answers making love, out of a canvas full of touch-ups
I dipped my brush into the what, I've wept for
And wonder out loud as I can, how long I've slept for
I should rob a pet store, let the dogs wild
I should close all the schools just to make the kids smile
Seize the limit, let the sky be the moment
Put the key to the ignition I'ma ride these donuts
And when it breaks, lock the door, walk away
There won't be nothing else to talk about, nothing left to say
See I'm just waiting for the moment I can break away
The only reason that I stay so I can save the day
I'm just waiting for the moment I can break away
The only reason that I stay so I can save the day
I'm just waiting for the moment I can break away
The only reason that I stay so I can save the day
I'm just waiting for the moment I can break away
The only reason that I stay so I can save the day
See I'm just waiting for the moment I can break away
The only reason that I stay so I can save the day
I'm just waiting for the moment I can break away...
Let's stand on the corner, throw rocks at people
So there's no surprises, written off as evil
I sleep next to women that I don't deserve
They like to hurt my pride, while I work their nerves
Once upon a time it was worth it when the urges get fed
And the purpose finds a path to the surface
Is respect considered a breakfast food?
I'm guilty of the type of attitude that wrecks your mood
The truth can be pain, and I hate to do it
Either face the music, or get away from me stupid
Super glue it down, now it better not move
See I'm not the best, but I'm in the top two
And I'm not that friendly when this cup is empty
It's a side effect from trying to find the fucks that sent me
See I didn't just happen, I was made this way
By the same egomaniac that paved this way
See I'm just waiting for the moment I can break away
The only reason that I stay so I can save the day
I'm just waiting for the moment I can break away
The only reason that I stay so I can save the day
See I gave up lying, but I still tip-toe
I'm as stubborn as they come, and I'm known to hit low
If I had a chisel
I would carve out a hole for me to hide in every time the mighty wind blows
Since no one knows, where the hell we gonna go
I'm a stand right here until the end of the show
I'm a clap my hands, so don't pass the chance
To unsnap my pants, get on my lap and dance
No longer am I mad about the things I don't have
All I'm living for is love and laughs
The last star fighter's weapons were rendered useless
Moving forward using all my breath
Making love to you was never second best
I saw the world thrashing all around your face
Never really knowing it was always mesh and lace
I'll stop the world and melt with you
You've seen the difference and it's getting better all the time
There's nothing you and I won't do
I'll stop the world and melt with you
Dream of better lives the kind which never hate
Dropped in the state of imaginary grace
I made a pilgrimage to save this human race
Never comprehending a race that long gone by
I'll stop the world and melt with you
You've seen the difference and it's getting better all the time
There's nothing you and I won't do
I'll stop the world and melt with you
The future's open wide
I'll stop the world and melt with you
I've seen some changes but it's getting better all the time
There's nothing you and I won't do
Remember that last Friday before we left for Mexico?
we kissed and nothing seemed to matter like Billie Holiday might sing
and it rained and everything was going to be just fine-
it was like music-
and it makes me sad to know I had gotten into something
that I could not deal with
and I will sit in my room and sleep all day
and think up dreams like I am the cutest kid in school
or I could be crazy and sing about memories-
hey I remember when I sat on those steps watching the moon
chase the sky back until the world seemed like it would explode
and I could picture going up with it
Where am I?
I've never been myself
Lived for someone else
In the dark I dig into my flesh
I'm calling out, I'm calling out
I'm crying for my death
I cry in woe
Why am I even here?
Everyone would be better without me
The sun is shining over city streets
But in my heart the dark is dwelling
It's all that I see
I cry in woe
Until I fall under a moving train
Last night I dreamt you called from Costa Rica
The place you've been for the last two weeks
You said, "I miss you, oh sweet boy, and will you come on down?"
I woke up to my cold sheets and the smell of New Jersey
When do I get to wake up to you?
Today I can't forget that I've got these open wounds
It's such a drag
I can't forget you've gone
My ribs have parted ways
They said, "We're not going to protect this heart you have."
Oh no, what can I do?
My lungs are breathing open air
And my spleen is dripping from my pants
You've left me here in the cold
And I miss you
You never told me it would be this hard
I think my body's saying so
When you're not here, it's leaving me
But I hope that you're o.k.
Even though I'm dying
I hope that you're still trying to have a killer time
Go see the volcanoes
Go see the rainforests
I'll be fine by myself
Oh well, you've got me under your spell
and I don't think that I'm kidding around.
I don't think I can forget you now.
I once sat up on my roof and examined the planning of my town.
I saw the structured grid and pavement cutting through grass
and I remembered the cold of winter running up the legs of my pants.
I picked the nicest lawn and imagined the two of us
rolling around down along the ground.
I saw myself touch your face and I noticed jets begin to race above our heads.
But I pinched my arm and remembered how much you hate me.
I remembered the fact that I can't see what you need
and I'm too stupid to be aware of the beauty that you give this place
and how shitty this town would seem without you in it.
When you aren't around I let the shades fall down to shut out
all the sun's light and make myself feel all right.
What am I doing with my life?
Remember that the only things we need sometimes
I don't know what to say,
The whole world's burning today.
Staring into the grave.
Hey...
Smoke into the sky,
See the flames arise.
Hell is here at last.
Bludgeoned buildings collapse
Bridges buckle and snap.
City swallowed by waves,
Hey...
Say another prayer,
Hoping things will change!
Here under the stars.
But I, I don't know why...
Everyone you know will someday die.
We all have to say goodbye.
Let go of the love we share,
Take one last look into my eyes...
Climb into the hearse,
To watch the ocean burn.
Ever think we should try to re-establish
that connection that we made during last summer's days?
Maybe I should be subtle or maybe I should be more pure
but I think we should talk about what we were going through
and I wonder what it would be like if we had
kept up that aversion and maybe kept listing
all the people that we hated
but isn't it ironic how you still have ideals and I still have nothing?
Somewhere under water maybe you could find my heart
'Cause that's where I threw it after you had torn it out
Three days ago
The doctor told me, "Every skyline and every night spent alone
Are tearing you apart."
Maybe I should get some help
Maybe I should fly out to Montana
I've heard it's quite quiet way out past the electric lines
Out where no one will ever know my name
Oh, I've had it now
I'm walking down to your house
I'm banging on the door
Please, please, please, Mr. Hox
Won't you tell your daughter I'm all alone
And I'm not handling this well
You never know just what you have
Until you get it yanked out of your chest
Well that's it
I'm walking to the water
I'm standing on the bank
I'm staring at my reflection
Oh my god, I look pathetic tonight
Well, guess what
I'm diving in this river
And I'm fishing out my heart
Your middle finger was clutching my thumb through the park
and over macdougal.
The torches were blazing about our street and just down from the sky.
Casey stepped with Anna off the curb.
His shoes are clogs, did you see?
They dipped in that puddle, the one catching green.
They were tripping up and slipping around,
singing 'Rolalita come out tonight' and oh I wanted to pull you down.
roll on top of me, baby. just roll.
we'll wreck our clothes.
we'll scrape our knees.
we'll taste the scabs.
you, sweet, are worth these next four months
until I bail out and kiss behind your ears, drive off in the van.
Life leaks from you fingertips
onto sparkling pavement
havent heard the news you stumble stuttering
confused
Helicopters line the sky
marching men are rolling by
babies in their baskets blankly stare through space
hey hey
Ever since i first saw you
standing in the black frozen night
Ive been blind
but im driving in the dark towards you
not stopping till i catch the sunlight
In my eyes
Sirens sing over the streets
Chimpanzees are on TV
everybody's working waiting for the week
to end
Ever since i first saw you
standing in the black frozen night
Ive been blind
but im driving in the dark towards you
not stopping till i catch the sunlight
In my eyes
and nothing's left to hide
Ever since I first saw you
standing in the black frozen night
ive been blind
im running out of time
Ever since i first saw you
standing in the black frozen night
Ive been blind
but im driving in the dark towards you
not stopping till i catch the sunlight
In my eyes
and nothings left to hide
I'm living in a dark and dying day
And everything is lost along the way
the feeling in my heart is not the same
so what's to say?
The pictures of the past are on the wall
they'll hang there in the dark until they fall
forever I've been lost in long ago
and it seems so long to let live a life that I don't live no more
and in the saddened sun my life leaves a shadow that'll soon be gone
I'm standing in the grave I wait to bleed
been tearing out my tongue in misery
been choking on the weight of my mistakes
though I can't change
and it seems so long to let live a life that I don't live no more
and in the saddened sun my life leaves a shadow that'll soon be gone
and all I want is one more second chance
I live my life under a trance
been blinded by the pain of my regret
wasted life reliving yesterday
I'm living in a dark and dying day
And everything is lost along the way
the feeling in my heart is not the same
I remember the time When everything was all different We didn't really know each other then I didn't know how much you made me so I guess it was all pretend when You decided you're those all are different things. I don't think that it was all that bad. Especially that time in Princeton was nice. Then we pretend to be so close Now we wait Try not to be not so different Than we have in the past You made me so but I don't know To everything I'll hope again. I never wanna be not so here. I never wanna be not so here again.
I see your eyes in my mind
but the moment fades slips away
and when I wake I curse the day
when I torch the sky see it falling in flames
I'd burn up to see you again
I'll carve out my lungs and it's all just to see you again
I'm sick in my gut from the poison I drank to forget
And since you've gone I can't forget
what I didn't say that it's much too late
I feel you here in my heart but sometimes I fall
I gotta crawl in the dark
I'll carve out my lungs and it's all just to see you again
I'm sick in my gut from the poison I drank to forget
I'm trapped in my withering skin oh no no
to rot and remember the dead
I'll dig my grave and wait here for you till the end
I'll carve out my lungs and it's all just to see you again
I'm sick in my gut from the poison I drank to forget
I said I'd walk you home after our third round
of pouring whiskey down the barrel of our guts
and I grabbed hold of your hand.
We're up and we're out and we're yelling through the streets
and I'm out of my fucking mind
and I know you're next to me but I must confess what's in my head.
Keep pumping now, legs to beat the ground, and our hearts to beat the band.
The sky's on fire again.
Run down this alleyway.
Lightning bolts again and we become fireflies just flashing at the air.
Rattle garbage cans.
Prepare to be ravaged by our lust burning mad, the fire that we've become.
And I know you're under me but I must confess what's in my head:
To me you are the light from a light bulb that breaks sometimes
and the tender warmth inside is released into my life
and it smothers me in flames that lick and scorch my face.
As the smoke reaches the sky know I'm burning tonight.
Know I'm burning tonight.
Know I'm burning tonight.
Know I'm burning tonight.
As I'm talking my words slip to the floor
and they crawl through your legs and slide under the back door
rendering me freakish and dazed.
Well here I am. I don't know how to say this.
The only thing I know is awkward silence.
Your eyelids close when you're around me to shut me out.
So I'll go walking through the streets until my heels bleed
and I'll sing out my song in case the birds wish to sing along.
And I'll dig a tunnel to the center of the universe.
Well here I am. I don't know how to say this.
The only thing I know is awkward silence.
Your eyelids close when you're around me to shut me out.
I'll make my way across the frozen sea, beyond the blank horizon,
when I can forget "you and me" and get a decent night's sleep.
Well here I am. I don't know how to say this.
The only thing I know is awkward silence.
Your eyelids close when you're around me to shut me out.
Watching the moon moving to the ocean floor
Standing on the neighbor's lawn
It's four am on Friday
All night long I'm dreaming of your loving arms
I'm staring at the fading stars
And waiting for your call
But every time I think about you
I get fucked up
I feel like all the stars are falling
Inside my heart
Inside my heart
Gone are the days
Staring through the window pane
To watch the world wash away
Down rain soaked gutter drains
No now we're alone
Two lights along a distant shore
Our love the light that leads us home
Away from wasted days
But every time I think about you
I get fucked up
I feel like all the stars are falling
Inside my heart
Inside my heart
No more waiting for the days
To end so we can run away
To hide the pain beneath the drink
No now we're moving on
And every time I think about you
I get fucked up
I feel like all the stars are falling
Inside my heart
Inside my heart
Inside my heart
I don't need nobody, not at all
'Cause I'm going to end it all in the light at the
break of dawn
And I don't why or what went wrong
I'm tired of trying to pretend to believe that I can go
The pain won't let me get away
And now I know we'll never be the same
I don't want to live, not another day
I don't want to live this way
I said the pain won't let me get away
I'm going to get my staples and a bottle of booze
I've got these skewers in my mouth now there's nothing
else I can do
Except to run out naked in the road
Reaching up into the air
Got the taste of blood in my throat
The pain won't let me get away
And now I know we'll never be the same
I don't want to live, not another day
I don't want to live this way
I said the pain won't let me get away
Oogacha, oogacha, oogacha, oogacha
Oogacha, oogacha, oogacha, oogacha
Oogacha, oogacha, oogacha, oogacha
The pain won't let me get away
And now I know it'll never be the same
I don't want to live, not another day
I'll never let you live this way
There must be something wrong with me.
I get so tired, I can't sleep.
The voices in my head are haunting my dreams.
No matter how I try,
To kill the thoughts inside.
I cannot, I cannot, hide.
The mirror staring back at me.
The cracking lines along my face.
The times I try to get things straight, but could not.
I know how hard I try,
To keep myself alive.
But I don't know, I don't know why:
Funny how,
When the darkest of nights falls down.
Worry that I will never see.
The sun is shining again.
The world goes round,
What was up is again back down.
Wonder if I could stick around,
Feel the light of the day:
Sometimes I feel like I am,
Dying, down here.
I feel a raging storm,
Inside of my skin.
The dial tone is there
But no one's calling...
I feel the weight of time,
Wonder when I will die.
I'm not sure what to do
because sometimes I see your legs,
want to eat them with honey mustard sauce
I've been told that it's not okay
to eat human beings
even when they've passed away
told me once when I was five,
that only bad boys try to eat their sister's arms
So I'll have to stick to canabils in the pool
just after school gets out when boys and girls play
Do you know what I love the most?
Even suburbs would be o.k.
With you between my sheets
And the breeze in the window
'Cause we will go there and ignore all our neighbors
I think I'll bring you breakfast and play Johnny Cash on the stereo
I'll sit in the lazy chair all day remembering the things you do
So when you come home
I'll jump up to kiss you and it will knock you back
You'll fall over our TV set
I'll pick you up and dust you off
Oh, Baby let's give it a go
I'll kiss your thighs to make you feel all right
And then I'll get closer to taste a little sweat
Oh I think I'm rearing to go
You're gonna get knocked out and tied up in my trunk
Im never in my waking life
dreaming is my all the time
wheather its the weather
or my mind its all too much
callin' in the frigid wind
a whisper is my dearest friend
leading me along a lilly laden twisting trail
Where we go
will tomorrow know
into the vast and empty alley's we procede
Im never in my waking life
dreaming is my all the time
wheather its the weather
or my mind its all too much
crawlin over cloudy streets
streamin with a billion feet
fumbling along into the dark and dismal day
Where we go
will tomorrow know
into the vast and empty alley's we procede
forever winding our way
weary without sleep
forever winding our way
weary without sleep
oh oh oh
Im never in my waking life
dreaming is my all the time
wheather its the weather
or my mind its all too much
callin' in the frigid wind
a whisper is my dearest friend
They're at the house
They're breaking down the doors
They came to kill us all
There's no way out
All night I dream that they're really out to get me
The lines on my face are getting deeper every day
Drag me out
And hang me from the trees
Upside down and leave me
To die alone
All night I dream that they're really out to get me
The lines on my face are getting deeper every day
All night I dream that they're really out to get me
The lines on my face are getting deeper every day
But I'm not at all delusional
And it's not fair-why do I have to be so?
Oh I feel everything much more-
much more than you ever will
and it's too hard when I can't even catch your eye
so I can't send you messages
and at night I dream of reasons that I can't let you go
but I don't know if it's time to crack through your walls so thick that I can't see past you
and last summer wasn't enough for me
and now that winter comes the cold beats harder
and no one is left alone and I'm offering you me right now-
take me I'm yours
and I won't have it any other way
so don't let fools be carried by what I say because the night keeps looking our way
and you're not seeing what I'm missing 'cause I am missing you
and I think that we should run as fast as we can into what we don't know-
I don’t need anyone
Don’t need no mom and dad
Don’t need no pretty face
Don’t need no human race
I got some news for you
Don’t even need you too
I got my devil machine
Got my electronic dream
Sonic reducer
Ain’t no loser
I’m a sonic reducer
Ain’t no loser
People out on the streets
They don’t know who I am
I watch them from my room
They all just pass me by
But I’m not just anyone
Said I’m not just anyone
I got my devil machine
Got my electronic dream
Sonic reducer
Ain’t no loser
I’m a sonic reducer
Ain’t no loser
I’ll be a pharaoh soon
Rule from some golden tomb
Things will be different then
The sun will rise from here
Then I’ll be ten feet tall
when you walk out on the street
it is always quite important to look both ways
before crossing
and i once knew a boy
whose mother never taught him well
he stepped off the curb and got knocked down by a
suburban
he spent fours days in a coma,
his mom and dad stood over his hospital bed
the nurse brought in a plastic bag for his shit
the neurologist did a few tests
and on the fifth day he died
his sister didn't even cry
Three years and now I feel like completeness has set in
'cause it's something to keep time with time
and I know it's not true that I can't keep on like this
'cause I know I feel right and I don't think I miss a thing
and I remember when I heard that song sing,
"if the world doesn't understand then the world has to learn"
and maybe that's true but not everyone has to-
when ten million people all believe in the same thing
how could they be wrong and what is sometimes?
So now I'm stuck under the boards
No room to run, not anymore
I'm left to die here all alone
Or choose to live now on my own
I reach my hand above the ground
Feel for a root to pull me out
Now there is nothing I can do
I'm turning over in my tomb
I'm turning over in my tomb
When I get my feet on the ground
I notice there ain't no one around
Everybody, go home
To hope to hide from their ghosts
But they're living all alone
The stars are finally falling down
The trees reach up from underground
I'll never be the man you want
I'll never give you what you need
The only ting I wished I'd said
I'm sorry for the things I said
Now there is nothing I can do
I'm turning over in my tomb
Its been so long since I had a smile
I've stayed sad for such a long while
If you can cheer me up I could learn to love you
You kiss me now and I turn away
I think I'm still kissing yesterday
If you can cheer me up I could learn to love you
So love me, and cheer me up
Show me you're the one who can make me happy
So love me, and cheer me up
Show me you're the one who can make me happy
Cheer me up
Come on and Cheer me up
I don't want to spend the rest of my days dreaming yesterday's daydreams, no.
Out with the bad and in with the good
You feel my heart girl, you're knocking on wood
If you can cheer me up I could learn to love you
So generous, I'm being kind
With selfishness in the back of my mind
If you can cheer me up I could learn to love you
So love me, and cheer me up
Show me you're the one who can make me happy
So love me, and cheer me up
Show me you're the one who can make me happy
Cheer me up
Come on and Cheer me up
I don't want to spend the rest of my days dreaming yesterday's daydreams.
Don't want to spend the rest of my days giving yesterday's promises.
Its been so long since I had a smile
I've stayed sad for such a long while
If you can cheer me up I could learn to love you
No more giving my mind away
Tomorrow's love will be yesterday
If you can cheer me up I could learn to love you
So love me, and cheer me up
Show me you're the one who can make me happy
So love me, and cheer me up
Show me you're the one who can make me happy
Cheer me up
Come on and Cheer me up
I don't want to spend the rest of my days dreaming yesterday's daydreams.
Don't want to spend the rest of my days giving yesterday's promises.
Don't want to spend the rest of my days living yesterday.
Don't want to spend the rest of my days singing yesterday's love songs.
And now I finally see that the further we go
we're only treading ground that we already know.
I could write you a song, send you a note, or empty out your trash
and buy a bucket full of diamonds but
even the most beautiful of all roses must someday crumble to dust
and fade away.
It's a certain tragedy.
So it's on into the lonely nights and all the rest of it.
The empty space between me and the sunken walls
and feeling someone's hand around my neck
choking away the life that i have left.
And I can finally see that the further I go I'm only treading ground
that I don't wanna know.
I'll probably hang upside-down from wooden rafters in my home
and look at old photos of you.
So it's on into the lonely nights and all the rest of it.
The empty space between me and the sunken walls
and feeling someone's hand around my neck
choking away the life that i have left.
I miss the warmth of the summer when we were on our own,
but now it's winter and my bones are cold.
And now I finally see that the further we go we're only treading ground
that we already know.
I could write you a song, send you a note, or empty out your trash
and buy a bucket full of diamonds but
even the most beautiful of all roses must someday crumble to dust
and fade away.
Her life was magazines and faithful TV screens
Selling an empty dream of cars and calories
And everthing in between the sun and saturn's ring, but the price tag can't be seen
And it took bites out of her insides till she was just a hollow shell.
She grew up in east L.A. watching celebrities living out all her dreams.
The plastic canopy of US royalty drew her gaze towards the sky and from her own mind.
And it took bites out of her insides till she was just a hollow shell.
And at her home her mother cried
cause daddy had something on the side
And they didnt look up when she sighed.
When August came around,
The bathing suits on the ground replaced by a cotton cloak.
To see her own reflection is like squinting in the sun. And when all tomorrow brings is a set of broken wings
Well, it takes bites out of your insides till you are just a hollow shell
And it took bites out of her insides till she was just a hollow shell.
As I'm talking my words slip to the floor
and they crawl through your legs and slide under the back door
rendering me freakish and dazed.
Well here I am. I don't know how to say this.
The only thing I know is awkward silence.
Your eyelids close when you're around me to shut me out.
So I'll go walking through the streets until my heels bleed
and I'll sing out my song in case the birds wish to sing along.
And I'll dig a tunnel to the center of the universe.
Well here I am. I don't know how to say this.
The only thing I know is awkward silence.
Your eyelids close when you're around me to shut me out.
I'll make my way across the frozen sea, beyond the blank horizon,
when I can forget "you and me" and get a decent night's sleep.
Well here I am. I don't know how to say this.
The only thing I know is awkward silence.
Your eyelids close when you're around me to shut me out.
Don't shut me out
Bye bye, babydoll
You know I'm never coming home
For any reason I should call
Don't pick up the phone
Just know
I'll love you from afar, and that is all.
You know as well as I we're both alone.
So bye bye, baby
Our love can't save me
So bye bye, baby
Bye bye, babydoll
There's letters littering the lawn
The police in the parking lot
Every time I wake, you go
I'll love you from afar, and that is all.
You know as well as I, we're both alone.
So bye bye, baby
Our love can't save me
So bye bye, baby
Don't pick up the phone
Just know I'll love you from afar and that is all
You know as well as I we're both alone
My heart, my love it died so long ago
So bye bye, baby
Our love can't save me
So bye bye, baby
Bye bye, baby
Our love can't save me
So bye bye, baby
Bye bye, baby
Our love can't save me
So bye bye, baby
Bye bye, baby
Our love can't save me
So bye bye, baby
Bye bye, baby
Walking down the hall but all the doors are locked inside
Searching for somebody just to stay with for the night
Please, help me, please
I let my heart go
I'm dead, I'm diseased
I'll drain my life of sorrow
Sifting through the pictures of the ghost inside my mind
Somehow can't forget the times I fail to get things right
Please, help me, please
I let my heart go
I'm dead, I'm diseased
I'll drain my life of sorrow
Head hangs low
Stare at the telephone
Forget the things you'll never know
The night is long
Shadows grow on my wall
I'm calling out, but no ones home
Please, help me, please
I let my heart go
I'm dead, I'm diseased
I'll drain my life of sorrow
No strength left to scream
I think you're a really neat person. and I think I want to spend some more times with you, cause you aren't boring and your phone skills are really rad. you call me up again. I think I really like you. you're in my thoughts all the time. I remember what you look like. I can picture us walking hand in hand and side by side. then I look into your grey-blue eyes. I like you an awful lot.
Playing shows and writing songs could've been much more than you can get out of sitting around and being unproductive. There's a lot more than being like the other kids. At least I have something to do with myself. Did you ever notice how sometimes you take for granted what you need, like having friends and good times and never losing touch? But I guess you found something else to hold on to, like a girl or money or being bitter to the end. I'd like to think of the days when we didn't have to, and everything that ever meant some to you? You only thought you had to circle so far, and then come back down to sacrifice this one last thing.
I wanna move the town to the clash city rockers
ou need a little jump of electrical shockers
you better leave town if you only wanna knock us
nothing stands the pressure of the clash city rockers
you see the rate they come down the escalator
now listen to the tube train accelerator
then you realize that you got to have a purpose
or this place is gonna knock you out sooner or later
so don't complain about your useless employment
jack it in forever tonight
so shut your mouth
and pretend you enjoy it
think of all the money you've got
an' I wanna liquefy everybody gone dry
or plug into the aerials that poke up in the sky
or burn down the suburbs with the half-closed eyes
you wont succeed unless you try
you owe me a move say the bells of St. groove
come on and show me say the bells of old Bowie
when I am fitter say the bells of Gary Glitter
no one but you and I say the bells of prince far-I
no one but you and I say the bells of prince far-I
So now I've made the decision
to walk behind you in the dark for the rest of my life
and I'll never show my face again
because it's too scarred and bloody to be enough
and I don't have the right stuff-
all I have are the empty boxes to carry away your heart
and I think that tonight I will sneak into your house
and I'll sing songs and wake you up
and I'll take you blindfolded dancing onto bridges
and you'll say you don't to be with me
'cause no one ever does and no one ever thinks of me that way
but I will even drive you home if you never let me forget about you
and if you promise me that I'm good enough for someone
'cause I've got to be good enough for you
and someday soon I'll get it right
and then you'll see just how good I can be
so don't ask me about forever because right now I'm feeling lost
but there's got to be some place for me because if there isn't where will I go?
Will there be some place for me and will you be waiting there for me?
If and when we get there please catch me before I crawl all the way home
They're all going out to meet inside an empty warehouse
to hatch a plan to run me out of town
They'll come when I sleep
They'll circle the house
put cyanide into the water pipes
wait till I walk out fall onto my knees
to surround me
Then they'll drive me out
to the wasteland
to leave me for the wolves
to eat my face
We'll sit and stare as the maggots eat out my eyelids and my ears.
We'll sit and stare as the maggots eat out my eyelids and my ears.
They'll laugh about it tomorrow
when my body's rotten and hollow
and the lights are finished on time
I stepped out into the night and put my feet down on the wet patio floor
The sky's air had been cooling and steam rose from everywhere
I could feel drops of rain slipping off tree's leaves and splattering to the ground
It's always misty after a summer pour
And I'll remember turning around and looking out
And staring in and focusing on this one beautiful girl
And I said, "Oh who is this?
Where was she all those crazy years?
Where was she when my heart couldn't take its beat?"
I sipped down some warm ginger ale
And drew back a breath
And headed over to see about this girl
I couldn't say a thing and I just stared open and wide
And I connected with her eyes to feel my gut fall through the floor
I come before you wake
Watching while I wait
There's only one thing left for me to say,
"Tomorrow never come home gotta let go all that you know
you'll never make it out alive unless you go"
No more warning signs
No more shallow lies
I'll dream of you from hell
My love goodbye
I'm fetching all of the rope
Gonna tie you onto this post
You'll never make it out alive
And now you know
When you start to move
I start to cross the room
To give you one last kiss
Before we die
But when I turn to come near
I see myself standing in the mirror
The hollow eyes, The blood I cry
It's all so clear
Now I know that hell has been here
Inside my heart that's swallowed by fear
I fall onto the floor
And it's not fair-why do I have to be so?
Oh I feel everything much more-
much more than you ever will
and it's too hard when I can't even catch your eye
so I can't send you messages
and at night I dream of reasons that I can't let you go
but I don't know if it's time to crack through your walls so thick that I can't see past you
and last summer wasn't enough for me
and now that winter comes the cold beats harder
and no one is left alone and I'm offering you me right now-
take me I'm yours
and I won't have it any other way
so don't let fools be carried by what I say because the night keeps looking our way
and you're not seeing what I'm missing 'cause I am missing you
and I think that we should run as fast as we can into what we don't know-
it's time to let me in because I feel just fine.
(Jessie! Jessie!)
this is a song off our acoustic e.p. it's called 'jessie and my whetstone'
To me the only thing left after a while
was that night we watched documentaries up through morning,
you kicked me out.
Open up your screen door and threw me off of the porch
it was summer then and i drove home whistlin' down the pike, yeah.
and that was that, our one sweet night together
and under highway signs
i watched our love start fluttering, disapating
i counted all the head lights to make sure i was alright.
now wondering is it me, or is it me
who can't see silver linings
well i fucked it up
i watched you go
i saw my hand not dialing the phone
and all i've left to do
is sit in the dull room
where we sat in blue stream light
watching the strike of '59
dreamed of wrecking my underwear
oh can i touch your cheek somewhere?
under dirt filled rainy nights with my socks stuck in the mud
yeah please come dive in puddles with me
our one sweet night together
our one sweet night together
our one sweet night together
i watched our love start fluttering, disapating
and i counted all the headlights to make sure i was alright.
This is the tide of our times
The last time a war was on ratings or soot
The network of businessmen clamored for more
"The conflict and competition on TV
Will keep them all watching for weeks," they would say
[Chorus:]
This is the story of territory
The target is taken
No one forsaken
Love take my hand if together we stand
Then we won't have to worry
This is the tide of our times
The minister of public surveillance found
The president of population control
The riots and regular robbing of stores
Have stopped coinciding with the call for war
[Chorus]
We all march along
Our mothers, our fathers
Our soldiers comply
While starving at home
Behind enemy lines
Without knowing why
[Chorus]
Go, if you want to go
Don't want to lie here while you cry yourself to sleep
Say what you want to say
'Cause I can see by your face that something's not the Same
Hey hey everything's okay
I love you more than I can say
But we can't stay the same
Yeah
Do what you want to do
Don't want to keep you here holding so tight you can't breathe
Stay not another minute stay
'Cause I don't think I want to live here dying all alone
Hey hey everything's okay
I love you more than I can say
But we can't stay the same
Yeah
Well I've been thinking about the words I've said before
When I was locked outside and pounding on the door
I wish I said I'm sorry sweetheart I can't be
The man I lead you to believe that I would be
Somewhere deep inside I know something's wrong
I know you're never safe around me anymore
Hey hey everything's okay
I love you more than I can say
But we can't stay the same
To me, the only thing left after a while was that night
we watched documentaries up through morning and then you kicked me out.
You opened up your screen door and threw me off the porch.
It was summer then and I drove home whistling muddy waters down the pike.
And that was that: our one sweet night together.
Under highway signs I watched our love start fluttering and dissipating.
I counted all the headlights to make sure I was all right.
Now I'm wondering is it me or is it me that can't see silver linings?
So I fucked it up. I watched you go.
I saw my hand not dialing the phone.
All I'm left to do is remember the dull room we sat in blue stream
light watching the strike of '59.
I dreamed of wrecking my underwear.
Oh can't I touch your cheeks somewhere
under dirt filled rainy nights with my socks stuck in the mud?
The last time that I saw you, August of '99,
I should've had my hammer and a few rusty spikes
to nail you on a wall and use bottles to catch your blood
and display you for the neighbors so they know your time had come.
And I'd drink your blood and feel it dripping down my throat
as it heads for my heart.
And as your body sags and the stench rises in vain,
the people on the street are collecting in dismay.
Before your eyes your head lifts towards the sky
and that's the last thing they'll remember of you.
And I'd drink your blood and feel it dripping down my throat
as it heads for my heart.
You've become a ghost.
You're floating somewhere in between
the waking world and a landscape of dreams.
Well it's nothing but dying.
You've got a grenade stuck in your teeth and you're pulling at the pin.
You're an illusion, just a shadow flickering underneath the sun.
And I'd drink your blood and feel it dripping down my throat
This song will become the anthem of your underground.
Your two floors down getting high in the backroom.
If I flooded out your house do you think you'd make it out,
Or would you burn up before the water fills your lungs.
And at your funeral, I will sing the requiem.
This song will become the anthem of your underground.
Your two floors down getting high in the backroom.
If I flooded out your house do you think you'd make it out,
Or would you burn up before the water fills your lungs.
And at your funeral, I will sing the requiem.
I'd offer you my hand, it would hurt to much to watch you die.
And you can bet when we mourn the death of you that night.
(of you that night)
When they lay me on the dinner table, I will be the pig.
With the apple in my mouth. The food that celebrates your end.
And at your funeral, I will sing the requiem.
I'd offer you my hand, it would hurt to much to watch you die.
And at your funeral, I will sing the requiem.