My life is changing again, it's so fast
I'm passing to another site
To resolve it isn't a simple fact
I can't pay attention to my doubts
Yesterday it was okay
Something's now awaiting me
And i'm afraid, confused and dazed (confusing days)
And i just want to pull through it
My decisions are not taken under pressure
But you always can show your views
Lost in complex system
Caught in my own cell
How was my sight in the mirror?
This freesing chair becomes my lonely shelter
Look at my goods, blurred
Under this gloom i sit still
I don't know for how long
Feeling changes not easy to accept
Facing all the troubles in my head
If you could hold on tight
Would it come the time for you to rest?
I'll stay away
Lean on myself
Hope you understand
I'll walk my own away
Seeking all the means
Means to smile again
Feeling changes not easy to accept
Facing all the troubles in my head
If we could hold on tight
Would it come the time for us to be?
Facing all the changes
Shortcut that will never end
Getting there
On my own
Seeking all the means
You disguise yourself
In fake smiles
That I have learned
Just not to respond at all
I feel sorrow when I see
Naive ones repaying you
Restless, uneasy
Obsessed and greedy
You made me count much on you
Great intensions planned
Then let me down
You capture me teeling over
That the flowers after spring will never fall
Cold I be deceived again?
Not by any chance
Can't you see you'd have to change
to have someone you trust?
Someone to be your friend by your side
Cause I know you'll need to find someone sometime to
lean on
That's all we're looking for...
You're always polishing the most precious stone
Determined to stare
Beyond a misty horizon
Sewing in gold the cheap steel
Too bad your brightnees blind my eyes
There's no point anymore
Go on passive, lifeless
Go on vulnerable
Seduced by the flashing lights
became a slave of your own goods
Does the TV keep you company?
Rub your rheumy
Resigned eyes
what can you learn?
try to stay immute to this
social numbness
Some say water has no taste or smell
But today when the storm poured
Ravishing like we hadn't seen before
Cold drips rebound in my body
Heated up by the warmth of the day
If i could only rest
It would be easy do find its taste
With my eyes shut
My face up
After deep sight i could
Sense its smell
Find its taste
Build its shape
With my eyes shut
My face up
After deep sight i could
Build its smell
Sense its taste
Find its shape
Thoughts run through my mind
It all made me rave for a while
I couldn't say what i meant
Would make no difference
You walked way
You look so hard for reasons and try to explain
The choices i make
There's no answer
I feel this way now
It's not your choice or mine
It's not something i can change
I'm getting to know
All the places i don't know
Places i can't and won't deny
Why can't you just see what i want?
Why can't you just stand by me?
It's what i want
Why can't you be someone to trust?
Why can't we just believe each other?
Try to realize
You're no more in charge
So don't come and try to rule my life
We will get no answers
For our differences now
His boat slides over the sea
Like sharp razor
Adrift, aimless
Just floating in deep water
Floating about with no control
Running over you
Even if you once told him your fears
And when he needed gave him a hand and shelter
And never distrusted a friend
He's so in need of attention
So! he keeps in evidence
So everyone can notice him
So he takes all those fake smiles and "hellos"
Like true gold medals
As an acknowledgement of his social status
He's still lost in his boat
Still being taken to the unknown
By the strong wind and the cold draft
Running away, escaping from himself
Patching the damage with rotten wood
But these damages will always remain in your memories
No matter how many times you change your route
Someday you'll wreck and find yourself
As a castaway in a desert island
Only then, you'll have to face who you really are
And then you'll be ready
And will be back to believe in yourself
I follow the way
Can't change just like you can do
But i'm trying my best to use my mind
Where do you pick your originality?
It was all that i ever wanted to be
It's amazing how different you can be
I'm always surprised
Your words come so detached
I just won't fit in
Gonna be with you
I will not agree
No!!!
Know we can be together
Wasn't or was it love at first sight?
I can assure we'll make it forever
I can be sure we'll make it through
If i get to be like you
Your frankness is touching
Now my outfit doesn't match
Even if i get hurt
I will keep following your steps, i know
Even in the cold weather i'll be with you
There's nothing left to be said
Doesn't matter if you're right or wrong
There's nothing to see
It's all in you
Today i woke up late
Sounds bring me down
Another world will open the doors
Maybe the future is cominh up
Day by day we suffer more
My friends are dying and i lost them all
I try to help them but i don't have the chance
The lights of destruction burn my eyes
Chaos and disorder build the fight
Brothers ans sisters kill themselves and i won't forget
Today my life is like a machine
The robots and cyborgs control the lights
Nowadays brains are like a shit
Everything and everyone's forget
Like the sunshine
They have the control and want to kill me now
I think that i will never be free
Where's my salvation?
My cybernetic world
When will all that be over?
I don't want to be a burden
I don't want to be alone
I just seem to keep falling
Through no fault of my own
Soft words fall on deafened ears
And goes in my fragile shell
So numb with no feelings
and so unable to tell
I can't see my way forward
I keep slipping away
Simply trying is not enough
I won't give in this way
There's a light I can follow on
But my way is damned
If I can't find the path ahead
Won't stay 'til I end
Let’s sit here for a while
I'll try to crack a smile
I want you here but I'm not sure
Take my hand will you lead
Dress my wounds so I won't bleed
I think we've been through this before
When I'm so down, you're not around
I now know I don't need you here
My broken mind, will someday find
a way to hold my dearest near
Who said this isn't murder
If Only
Try so hard to make things right
I need your strength to make it through
I don't think you realise
Just how much that you could do
I can't do right for being wrong
'Cause no matter what I do
If you know better than myself
Put the knowledge please to use
It's not so easy on my own
My smiles they wear so thin
The emptiness surrounding me
I'll gladly welcome in
I know that I should be home
I know it's not for me
I really can't break this alone
Amber
In the dark, would you kiss the damned for me, an ever constant stream
So Amber, in our tastes but dare we dream, drink deep the sight of me
So fill me, I feel your warm flesh on my skin, and finally feel my wake
Embracing, and emptiness that pours from you, a weakness I still crave
Tongues that whisper on leaves that fell from you
Rotting in the autumn dew
Broken feelings of how you made me feel,
With your body cover me
Heaven bores from your throat into mine
It's not that I don't care...
I simply don't know
It's no that I'm not there... I feel safe on my own... Nowhere
It's not that I don't see... I just used to be blind... For me ain't so easy, none by my side.
It's not that I don't feel... why get involved?
It's too much that it's real
A Close Study
The mourners bow their heads
But I am not above
Flow in the evening rain
Despite how hard I try
I'm left just to be
Lonely and afraid
My sober thoughts lie here
I have kept them away
A silence through the glass
It's colder when you're near
Your vanity makes me bleed
Illusions never passed
Your silence helps me pull away
I push farther from my thoughts
You made me pleased with how I feel
But a friend is all I sought
The days just blend into a whole
The pale skies just seem to grow
I have so much to give
More than you'll ever know
My useless pulse is through
My hope is given away
My trust has been misplaced
As I struggle through the haze
if you simply saw my face
I'd find a way to stay
We didn't speak at all
of how we felt
It doesn't matter now
And so you're gone
No one seems to watch
Need to be around
Losing myself
in nowhere
away from your eyes
But what do you care
if I'm not here