(w. graber)
Here we are, here we stand
No one seems to understand
Afraid you've seen to much
To really know what's best
Ain't it strange when you don't know what's true
You without your book of questions
We missed out on all the best ones
Something we just had to do
Tried to feel so much better
Tried to make the easy way out
But there's nothing I can do
[Chorus]
And maybe I should really know... You
But I feel like I don't know... You
One more day - one more time
I can't find some peace of mind
Tell me that it doesn't matter
Tell me that I should know better
And it's just a waste of time
[Chorus]
Y'know it's all right
One last day - one last time
Now to find some peace of mind
All I know (I think I know)
All I know (I think I know)
All I know is I don't know
And I still don't even know - what to do
(s macdonald)
Is it the same old, is it the same again
Or will I find something new
Throw on a blindfold, throw out my name at them
Throw out my pride with it too
Why do I do it, nobody wants to starve
Don't want to bury myself
I'm a conduit, and that's my heart you carve
Into the base for your wealth
[chorus]
What do I want, I want to know
What do I want, I want to know
What do I want, I want to know
What do I want, I want to know
Please let me stay free, sit on my butt all day
Just throw the cash right on in
I'll make you happy, I'll stay the hell away
You think I lose but I win
Don't brush me off now, you think you don't need me
There's probably no time to think
I am your cash cow, moronic fantasy
I am the whole kitchen sink
[chorus]
[break]
(s. macdonald)
Wish that you could see thing the way I do
It isn't only me it isn't only you
I can't say it's bad but I can't say it's good
Makes me feel so sad I'd tell you if I could
[chorus]
I'm not giving up I'm not going back
But I'm not going forward I'm not going backward
Not backing out not turning heel
Just not moving just not moving
It gets hard to speak when all must be explained
I could take a week if I could find a day
I could hardly move when it all came to be
What do I need to prove what do I need to be
[chorus]
And you've had so much pain
And you've had so much sorrow
And I've had nothing
And I've had nothing
Believe me I know you only want what's best
I don't wanna go I only want what's best
Gotta stay close so we can work it out
Didn't stay close we didn't work it out
(music arcwelder, words s macdonald)
There's something happening to me that we should be talking about
I can't eat or sleep you don't think anything's wrong
If I want to talk to you looks like I'll have to take a number
At the rate it's going you'll never hear me sing this song
Why should I feel this way
Why should I feel this way
What we have happening here are two sets of expectations
What's so casual to you means a lot to me
I simply don't understand the situation
Is this the way that I always heard it should be
Why should I feel this way
Why should I feel this way
There's something happening to me that we should be talking about
I can't eat or sleep you don't think anything's wrong
If I want to talk to you looks like I'll have to take a number
At the rate it's going you'll never hear me sing this song
Why should I feel this way
(s macdonald)
I played my cards, I played them badly
I didn't think she'd move on to better things
I gave my love, I gave it gladly
How I hate when you wait in the wings
She wanted you, she wouldn't tell me
Told my self that it'd work out this way
My thoughts of you are quite unhealthy
Why do I feel like a big shitheel today?
I hate to lose to a man like you
After she said that you were no good to me
I hate to lose to a man like you
After she said that you were no threat to me
(music r graber, words s macdonald)
Gonna do myself a favor, quit while I'm behind
It seems like all this hanging on will only mess up my mind
And don't have many options at least none I can find
It always seems so hard to take when what you're weaving unwinds
Gonna do myself a favor, quit while I'm ahead
Take some time to lick my wounds and write some music instead
Take it out of me and purify what's left here in my soul
Funny how what seems so free can take a very big toll
Gonna do myself a favor, write it off as lost
What I have to show from this does not keep up with the cost
Gonna look around and think about the next step I should take
(r graber)
[instrumental]
(music arcwelder/words s. macdonald)
What is the nature of the giant that we won't fight?
oh no - I've lost myself again
And if I should become defiant, have I the right?
what did you call it that for?
oh no - I've lost the game again
oh no - I've lost myself again
[Chorus]
Don't know quite how to say it
tell me I'm wrong
tell me I'm wrong
Don't know just how to do it
tell me I'm wrong
tell me I'm wrong
If it would only stop it's spinning, I might reach higher
oh no - I've lost myself again
Another game that's not worth winning, will I retire
what did you call it that for?
oh no - I've lost the game again
oh no - I've lost myself again
[Chorus]
(music/words w. graber & s. macdonald)
Believe the unbelievable - feel what it's like
Thinking the unthinkable - feel what is life
I'm doing the impossible - remember to forget
Deny the undeniable - I can't remember yet
So sing a little pop song - then everybody loves you
Just sing a little pop song - then everybody loves you
See the unforeseeable - and see that it's a choice
Perceive the unperceivable - my vision and my voice
Explain the unexplainable - to those who never feel
Convincing the invincible - is insight not for real
So sing a little pop song - then everybody loves you
Just sing a little pop song - then everybody loves you
So live a little pop life - real or pretend
(s macdonald)
(these are the entropy lyrics - the lyrics on the rev105 radio archive cd vary slightly)
I've stepped out I'm free
Now it's time to peddle my own wares
What's alright with me
Has never been a priority of theirs
I was so sick of it all
No way to be
[chorus]
Free me, let me out
Release me, from this doubt
And I know that I don't ever want to pass this way again
So glad to be gone
Living my life at a slower pace
I'm off with a yawn
Taking time off from the rat race
I'll have no regrets
When all's said and done
[chorus]
It was all I could take
It was all I could fake
It was all I could forsake
At the time
You go ahead
Screw yourself into the ground
I'll take it easy instead
Enjoy some life while I'm around
At the end of my time
It's me who'll be proud
[chorus]
It was all I could take
It was all I could fake
It was all I could forsake
(music: arcwelder lyrics: s.macdonald)
Wish I weren't so sensitive - that I could blow it off
and wish you the best but that's just me and I just can't
Didn't even care at first but you reeled me in
and now I'm hanging here deboned and gutted
[chorus]
What was I doing? What was I thinking?
Where was I going? Why did I care?
What was I doing ? What was I thinking?
What was I asking? Why did I care?
Keep your distance so I can heal - don't you pick at my scabs
I can't allow myself to feel but I'm weak and I want you
It's not my fault that you don't know what you want
I will laugh at this tomorrow if I can ever fall asleep
[chorus]
Some days are better than others - this must be one of those others
So I hide behind the fans - they make me feel OK
I will pull myself out of this - there is light at the end of the tunnel
As long as you don't blow it out with your sweet and sour breath
[chorus]
(w graber)
Pulled all the answers from the air
Believed in beliefs but didn't care
Visionaries lost without a clue
And all the lost will look for what to do
He's just blowin' smoke but still you're here
He's just blowin' smoke but still you're here
Taught and told so felt that this is true
So thought and fought to figure it all out
And see they made it up to end their fear
And never think about it 'till it's near
He's just blowin' smoke but still I'm here
He's just blowin' smoke but still I'm here
And those who see just seem more blind
Nicer to know than undefined
The more I think the more it seems unclear
(w graber)
(instrumental)
[Instrumental]
(music arcwelder/words w. graber & s. macdonald)
It's not Bill
And it's not Scott
It's not Brian
And it's not Rob
I don't know where to begin...
Begin where it's simple
Begin at the end
Begin with all you can't defend
Begin at the end...
And disappointment bring the least
Well this is less the you conceived
It ends with the first
Before the beginning
And after the end
It can't be funny
It didn't bend
I didn't want this at all... at all... at all.
A blindered horse A wind up toy
I'm on auto pilot I am a cog in the machine
Am I a mindless drone Or heartless sap
Now matter how you slice it I am a cog in the machine
They say to stay in school then get a job
But mainstream society doesn't care if your happy
I play the fool go with the mob
Corporate America doesn't care if I'm happy
Settle down And play along
Die unfulfilled Just like anybody else
And well now damn it now I live a lie
Write it down I'm not like everybody else
Today I march along I follow blindly
I do what they tell me I hear and obey
I sing my song I treat 'em kindly
You are my master I hear and obey
I didn't want it... It's all the same No face no name
I didn't want it... It's all the same Big town small game
I didn't want it... It's all the same No risk no gain
I didn't want it... It's all the same Big weight small frame
(s. macdonald)
Hey - be wary of your heroes
They will always disappoint you
Ok I know that you are lonely
You're reaching out but only - they don't even respect you
Now I don't mean to make you feel sad
But I feel down when they treat you so bad
Always another passing fancy
And you only call me when you're feeling down
They, they all get to hold you
I get to console you if no one else is around
Now I don't mean to scare you away
But I have a need that won't go away
Oh no - be wary of your heroes
Again I don't want to hear it
Don't want to be near it, it only tears me apart
So now, call me yours or let me go
Call me yours or let me know and let me make a new start
Now I don't mean to scream at the stars
But you dodge the truth like so many passing cars
Oh no - be wary of your heroes
Change the way the wind blows
Change the way the wind blows
(w. graber)
Unlock the door
Up the stairs to see
And light shines through
A window near the peak
Here's the khouri
Here's a man
And someone cries
And someone cared
Did a good job
Was a good man
Got it all out
Better in the end
And no it doesn't count
Through everything on call
And no it doesn't mean
Anything at all
Searchin for (made everything sensation)
Something that might mean (and nothing too much)
And here's the box (lived up to expectations)
And opened everything (say something for yourself)
Here's the khouri
Here's a man
And someone cries
And someone cared
Did a good job
Was a good man
Got it all out
Better in the end
And no it doesn't count
I don't believe in fall
And no it doesn't mean
Anything at all
I don't believe, I don't believe
And now you know what I mean
But you don't know what I mean
Cause everything's all right
And nothing happens tonight
I have your ring
Down the stairs and lock the door.. again
(s. macdonald)
Life will have to go on
With or without you here
I've known it all along
And now it all seems clear
All my want for plans
You don't understand
All my want for need
Overcome by greed
You burn your bridges down
And yet you won't free me
Same life different town
As far as I can see
Unless you give it all
I don't want to fall
Unless your feelings grow
I don't want to know
Take a step back
And open every door
If the room is black
Will I be assured
All my want for plans
You don't understand
All my want for need
Overcome by greed
And I've tried to tell you
About what I go through
But I take the fall
Cause I want it all
If I mean something
But it's only passing
Could you really blame me
If I set myself free
Will my heart grow fonder
I can only wonder
And the point I've come to?
Happier without than with you
When you say you love me
I can hear but can't see
And I want to scream it
(w. graber)
Came for the green slop pie - all mixed together
It's that i... nobody's got one yet
You see I was mark merrill
And he was just another who dragged it out far to long to believe
Is it to be... is it to be...
Is it everything I was lead to believe
If it's good - then it's form without substance
If it's clear - it's all the thing that you hate...
[chorus]
All mixed together
With lamps of fire
We fixed another
With laps together
A lapse of reason
Stuck in the mire
If it was easy...
Another liar
Came face to face with death in the washroom
And I'm never not alone again
You see another door to door man
Another partial vision
On a mission learned, and only believed
Well it's not me... it's not me
It's not anything I'd pretend to conceive
If it's unknown... it'll burn in the fire
If he's pure... he's just another liar
[chorus]
It's all mixed together
But I cannot remember
Walk only where I'm s'posed to
With fear and only endings...
(music arcwelder/words w. graber)
Sign - like the sign of things to come down
To the wire
And if i... minded half of let down
To the wire
[chorus]
I have no fear
I have no pride
I have no right
I do not mind
I was the one who lost this time
I was the one who saw the lie
I have no drive
I have no hate
I do not mind
I was the one who lost this time
And it's like everybody wants a peace that i.. can't
Give - what you wanted to give away for free
Down to the wire
And say - what you wanted to hear next time around
Down to the wire
[chorus]
I have no hate
I have no hate
(music arcwelder, words s macdonald)
I'm not gonna tell ya cause you'll just say to me that these things happen when you don't take care of yourself
I wanna know why it has to be that I can feel this nagging pain all the time
I wanted to be invincible I wanted to be made of steel all I had to do was take a box from the shelf
All I know is I'd like to feel the way I did when innocence was once mine
Oh what have I done to me now
Oh what have I done to me now
I'm not gonna ask you cause there's do much to do when money is your only goal you live and die by the knife
Soaring building fall down on you happy people never use the old roads
Better put the blinders on cause I don't wanna see the way all of these little things take away from my life
Competition grinds on me the business world is dominated by toads
Oh what have I done to me now
Oh what have I done to me now
I won't even tell ya cause there's too much to say when I say nothing but should have spoken for hours
You always go back to the start people with fragile hearts shouldn't be building glass towers
Morals come crashing down when passion gets in the way I think we both know what he wanted to take
I always seem to back my heart into a corner where I know it will break
Oh what have I done to me now
Oh what have I done to me now
(w graber)
Such a very long time (s macdonald)
It saddens me to see it go 'cus I've been waiting such a long time
And I already miss it so because it's only been a short while
It's walked away it's disappeared but I've been waiting such a long time
It's gone away for good I fear and it's only been a short while
And I've been waiting such a long time
And I've been waiting such a long time
Such a very long time (time)
My only chance in many years and I'm about to lose it now
I'm unaccustomed to the tears that want to flow out
I feel like I'm an amateur playing in the major leagues
I always feel so insecure and all I want to do is scream
And I've been waiting such a long time
And I've been waiting such a long time
Such a very long time (time)
My face is white and my shoes are black and all the rest of me is gray
And I can't get my colors back because it's thrown them all away
I want it to come back right now because it's only been a short while
I lie awake and wonder how I could have waited such a long time
And I've been waiting such a long time
And I've been waiting such a long time
Such a very long time (time)
(music arcwelder, words s macdonald)
The devil works inside the man
The man who hides behind the make-up
How many say I shook the hand
Of the man behind the make-up
There's a tornado in my mind (my mind contracts in the scope of a year)
Where the echo never stops (stop all the love and the hope and the planning)
If you turn and walk away (away from the sadness and lies and the fears)
What will happen to me now (now that it's said and been done all over again)
How did wrong become a right
For the man behind the make-up
What's so blinding is the sight
Of the man behind the make-up
There's a tornado in my mind (mind if you do if you don't I don't care)
Where the echo never stops (stop all the doubts and give in to emotion)
If you turn and walk away (away from the thoughts that are too much to bear)
What will happen to me now (now that it all is uncertain again)
A nation bows before the name
Of the man behind the make-up
Singing songs won't hide my shame
Of the man behind the make-up
There's a tornado in my mind (mind that the panic has lead to a meltdown)
Where the echo never stops (stop the lies and tell us the truth)
If you turn and walk away (away from the people enough this is wrong)
(s macdonald)
Are you ready to die
For a moment of passion
Can you take a lifetime of regret
Are you ready to die
For a moment of passion
Can you take a lifetime of regret
Are you ready to pay
For a moment of passion
Do you wanna have any doubt
Are you ready to say
To your moment of passion
(s macdonald)
There's a word above and the word is love it won't change it won't change
And the sky is blue and so are you it won't change it won't change
And he treats you bad like he always had it won't change it won't change
(music arcwelder, words s macdonald)
All I want is everything
Any less is the same old thing
So many know you well
And it never seems to stop
Don't I know it well
How you never want to stop
I can understand
I can run away
I can blow it off
To another day
If I had it all to give
I would give it all to you
If I had the world to give
You would have the world in your backyard
Competing living legends
They wake up and they strangle us
I hate the competition
From breathing living legends
Get that man out of my face
You make it seem like some kind of race
All I want is time with you
All you want is time with him
Why do you spend my time with you
Trying to spend your time with him
I can understand
I can run away
I can blow it off
Or let it fade away
If it wasn't there
You could be some kind of friend
Why is it always there
To be a friend is not that hard
(music: arcwelder lyrics: s.macdonald)
You are floatingawash in your sea. where does that leave me?
You slashed me and when you slashed it altered the past.
I'm post trauma sorting the shards of my scattered cards
You left me one more judgment day for my resume.
[chorus]
We're never the same
We both share the blame
So why did I ask you?
'cause now that I've asked you I'd have to say
That love won't find a way
You were thinking of running away from the first day
You were hinting but I couldn't see meant too much to me
I'm obsessing turn off the brain and lock out the pain
I'm struggling trying to get back what my ego lacks
[chorus]
So why did I ask you what I didn't want to know
Thrashing and sinking in your ego's undertow
You are floating awash in your sea where does that leave me
Bruised and battered alone and afraid mistakes have been made
What an honor when you ran to him he took off again
In the long run so I was betrayed but all wounds will fade
(music: s.macdonald/arcwelder lyrics: s.macdonald)
He who hesitates is me[
My indecision's yours to see
I have these words to say
But they don't come til you're away
All I want to do is define
The grey areas yours and mine
Mind races excuse excuse
I can't pry my tongue loose
[chorus]
I am a chickenshit
Libido's low my heart's with it
So I write this dubious hit
I am a chickenshit
The subject's getting old
I strike while the iron's cold
I could tell you anything
Except what my tongue won't bring
I've had enough of this
Wounds with a lemon twist
What's that on your left hand shadows of a wedding band
[chorus]
Why repeat the past
Memories will last
Not a lot to say
Say it anyway
What is past you now
Seems a sacred cow
All I wanted was to give us both some hope
I'm not good enough
I'm not strong enough
To be creator and destroyer of the rope
Are you sitting down
Yes you're sitting down
You should be running but your past's a ball and chain
You know all about the first step
But can you take what comes next
The wind's direction doesn't need a weather vane
Are you happy now?
Are you happy now
I was open but your walls were in the way
Just a little faith in me
Just a little empathy
You could be dealing with a different man today
Siddown
Sit down
Siddown
Sit down
(music: arcwelder lyrics: w.graber/s.macdonald)
(scott's part - there is a completely unrelated bill's part as well)
The thing that gets me down
On the second time around
Is I left but now
I'm back in the same place
Shoot an arrow through my heart
Tie an anchor to my cart 'til
I've lost my sense of self to self-efface
The business end's grown cold
Cause you're not allowed to be old
And I'm rooting for a horse that never pays
And I take it out on me
Repeat my history
And waste the time that no one can replace
My subjects stay the same love and work and fame
You could set your clock to follow my retrace
So here I am again
Unhappy where I am
(music: arcwelder lyrics: s.macdonald)
Try to do a favor it catches up later when I don't give a mile
Write a little note murder's all you wrote why don't you put me on trial
Ok I know that i am wrong
Really like to walk the talk that I talk but you make it so hard
Didn't want to hurt you selfish not a virtue I played the wrong card
Oki know that I am wrong
[chorus]
But it's not my fault
If your treasured island
Won't open up
To be filled with your love
Guess that I will punt after your little stunt drove me away
Odds are getting thin I lose and you win that's what you want me to say
Ok I know that I am wrong
Rather be a help not your little whelp not a curse but a friend
End of my rope I can only hope things work out in the end
Ok I know that I am wrong
(w graber)
Hold me to something besides this 'i don't mind'
'cause I'll line the streets without you and your kind
If you feel like lying you'll fit in after all
But nothing's as clear as the crystal of clueless
There's nothing so clear
And you want to see through the fear
And it seems to mean what it seems to mean
But it dies no matter what
No matter what
And somehow you know it will
Like captain allen says
It feels like less than it is
Stop me before I say too much again
'cause I'd like to think that there's something in nothing
If you feel like dying just hang around awhile
'cause nothing's worth less than the less of what you know
And you have no rules
'cause you wanted to be so cool
And it seems to mean what it seems to mean
But it dies no matter what
No matter what
And somehow you know it will
Like captain allen says
It feels like less than it is
Voice 1:
I wanna feel just like captain allen feels
And I wanna live just like captain allen lives
I wanna see just like captain allen sees
And I wanna be just like captain allen is
Voice 2:
How many times have I heard that one before
How many times how many times how many times
Voice 3:
(w graber)
Hey - and did you want to help me out?
And help this fear and help this doubt
For what it's worth I have my doubts
So - when all is good and all is right
And you make day from what is night
I found this balance nature's right
[chorus]
Take this down and put it somewhere safe
And when it dies you'll call it rape
If thoughts are life then I don't think
So tell me who it was this time
Now - now climb the side of marburg cliff
With blood red moss instead of dirt
It's filled with every fear that's lurked
Well - well if you're counting, count on us
We'll help you find what you have loss
Well if it counts you've lost my trust
[chorus]
So this right I have my doubts
So this is something I have my doubts
(music arcwelder/words s. macdonald)
I have this dream involving you and me
It grows then fades changing every day
Fine tune it then it fades out again
Feel like I'm a criminal
[chorus]
Could it be - you don't try to understand
Now could it be - you should lead and not command
Now could it be - I won't give in to your demands
Feel like I'm a criminal
Am I that dense - you tell me "no offense"
Then criticize right between the eyes
Black dirt white grain - ideas wash down the drain
Step back away - listen to what you say
It's got to go and I think you should know
Feel like I'm a criminal
(s. macdonald)
A close encounter a combined iq of thirteen
Time spent memorizing the paint on the walls
Move it outside a hint of lemon and protein
There's no slowing down the swimmers at all
And then it was over and done that's it
And then it was over and done that's it
There was a problem the solution a problem again
The other side set on laissez faire
A crack in the image another form to amend
If a tree fell in the forest would anyone care?
And then it was over and done that's it
And then it was over and done that's it
Get out your instruments and play a sour suite
Cue the credits and fade to black
Round up the horses and make a hasty retreat
And pray to yourself that it's not coming back
Because it is over and done that's it
(music: r. graber/s.macdonald lyrics: s.macdonald)
Can I get a witness
To your constant pain
Hear you're spinning downwards
Thought you were the same
Take some pride in who you are
Stop the tide of self defeat
Can I get a witness
Not someone to blame
Throwing rocks at glass houses shatters everything
Is there anyone I know who hasn't done the same?
But it's all their fault and you didn't do nothin' did you now?
And it's all their fault and you didn't do nothin' did you now?
Can I get a witness
Where's your sense of pride
I know you used to have one
It's been pushed aside
Think about responsibility
You don't have to be the victim
Can I get a witness
Not just one more ride
And you want to play all aces, all you have's a duce
You're the last one at the table anyway
And we all make mistakes but we all learn from them and move on
And we all make mistakes but we all learn from them and move on
Can I get a witness
Is there one at all
What's the best for yourselves
Is what you both recall
Drop it now and move along
Everyone has forgotten it
Can I get a witness
To your free fall
Cause I worry that this story's just the iceberg's tip
It gets so hard to know just what I believe
But it's all about trust and you know I trust you I do now
And it's all about trust and you know I trust you I do now
Can I get a witness?
(w. graber)
And you say you will when you won't
Thought that you do but you don't
So far lost it's hard to find
Felt all alone but I don't mind
And now you'll sing a sad sad song
And all those friends that did you wrong
Well who was right and who was wrong?
And where's the one who's just like you?
[chorus]
(I has it all he said)
What if the universe is cold
Y'know
What if there's nothing there at all... at all... at all
Tears of joy and tears of pain
But it all starts to look the same
How do you say what you don't know
You make the words up as you go
And now you'll sing a song so sad
And think of all the friends you had
Well who was right and who was had
And where's the one who's just like you?
[chorus]
And worry 'bout things that come and go
If no one knows then no one knows
(I has it all he said)
What if the universe is cold
Y'know
(and I didn't say a word)
(music r graber, words s macdonald)
Think about the earth and the sun and the moon
Tell me how we should react when they turn into your spittoon
You'd like to make as much as your age by twenty five
I'd like to make a lasting impression while I'm still alive
When you're gone
Time to take a serious look at what really counts
I won't judge people by sizes of bank accounts
It makes no sense when the working is so hard
Money is money is cash you can't send me a postcard
When you're gone
You somehow come you somehow go is there something more you need to know
No insight love or lasting pain but you know it isn't just some game and all this means
I know one thing this is this is happiness I guess and all I really know is this
(s macdonald)
And she's been fishing for compliments
Makes her cast over the water
She is still weak but growing stronger
Like a web you don't attend to
And it's always good to see you
But don't use me for your vengeance
Her heart's been peeled like a grape
She's looking for someone to cling to
And if I throw her out a life line
Will I be sucked into the whirlpool
And it's always good to see you
But don't use me for your vengeance
One never knows
She let her guard down
I could say too much
The day you don't look twice is the day the train comes by
He just pretends he doesn't see her
She sees too much to pretend
Her disappointment his indifference
Is something she can keep forever
And it's always good to see you
(w graber)
The pit of fear and the roots of fools
I took the lies and made them rules
If it is over why do I doubt
If you don't feel then let me out
You can't become a different you
Why did I think instead of do
With all there is to lose or gain
Why do I only see the pain
'cause I feel. . . feel. . . I feel. . . feel. . . unknown. . . unknown
I have no pride for what's been done
I fought the war that no one won
I'm guilty of the guilt unclear
I only wish that you were here
A fenceless sky for the first time
I could not recognize the sign
It's how it feels like getting old
I hope the universe ain't cold
(music arcwelder, words s macdonald)
Gleaming steel reflects a coldness
Pasted smile faking flair
i'll never smile again? the song goes
Plate is empty nothing there
Why try when there's no understanding
Why try when there is nothing left
Why try when there's no understanding
Understand there's so much to be felt
Decisions past future decided
The one that counted forgot how to add
Multiplying means division
Slide the rules I'll be glad
Chorus
I'll get this last one in and then stop writing about it
I'll get this last one in and then stop thinking about it
I'll get this last one in and then stop
Chorus
Understanding
Understanding
Understanding
(w graber)
Your plans to be king
You're the edge of the world's smallest ocean
If you had to concede
Concede that truth is just a belief now
I was hoping to lie around and wait
For one more chance at conjecture
Just by happenstance
I never lied like I'm lying about it now
[chorus]
And I don't know who to turn to
Is there something that I should know
Crossed for free when no one was looking
Never paid so you never really know
How far back can it go
How far back in anyone's logic
How mortal to be
How tragic. . . should life be tragic
I was hoping to lie around and wait
For one more chance at confession
Just by happenstance
I lied like I never lied before
(w. graber)
And everybody wants to know somehow (just don't ask me for the truth)
And change is change but that ain't wisdom
An endless track of endless tracks - pretend
And never leave this track once it begins
[chorus]
Explanations, expectations - I'll find some other way
No here's how to help hallucinations - it's just from day to day
And junior finds some strange salvation - I'd say he's wrong
'cause maybe when it's all done - this is just a song
If no one knows then how can they be wrong
Deplete it all it seems before to long
Insanity - a blink ten thousand years
Insanity - well there is nothing here
[chorus]
Today it seems some wounds will never mend
A simple thought but clouds of doubt again
(s macdonald)
If I turn my head the other way won't nobody know better
If no one has a thing to say nothing will ever upset her
If I never wear a suit or tie I don't think it will matter
If I strike out while I'm at the plate they'll forgive me with the very next batter
[bridge & chorus]
It seems this thing is killing me and
I can't find a way out
Everything that's been done 's been done for ease
Eliminate possibilities
I choke myself with my own hand
I'm drawing circles in the sand
When my hands are cold and my hair is gray will they ever remember
When my eyes were bright will it all be december
When it comes down to my own true thoughts I always think about leaving
When I run away and I leave the rest who will be doing the grieving
[bridge & chorus]
And I don't know what I do this for is it only a living
And I forget it all when I close the door could it be mine for the giving
And I try to bring myself around think about something or other
And my head is down and I hide myself from the eyes of a staring big brother
(s macdonald)
I've an appointment today with a cultural slave to the snakepit called the music biz
So I'm hanging around just to meet this clown who lies and says the pleasure is his
He seems to think I'll be impressed by the hair upon his chest
'cause his shirt's unbuttoned down to his navel
He begins to decree that the problem is me
I want out of here as soon as I'm able
[chorus]
Snake oil man
He draws a line in the sand
And he dares you to cross it
'cause he knows that you won't
Take it all away
Sell it for gain
Take away everything
And you can never have it again
He praises to excess the current success of a new band past the million mark
That was two years ago and he should have known that today nobody knows who they are
His ideals revolve around how we should kneel down
And give service to his symbol of power
I've got myself in a jam 'cause I don't know where I am
I've had enough of this waste of an hour
[chorus]
The uphill climb
Is not worth the time
How can he sleep at night
Power is a crime
(w. graber)
And all you want to do is smile
And take it everywhere you've been
Advice like yours a moral play
I'd walk from hear to here you say
And death's not knowing that your dead
Never life or fear or trial
So you want happiness instead
All you got is just a smile
[chorus]
All you want to do is smile
All you got to do is smile
Can't help the helpless with your help
Can't be the selfless by yourself
Can't turn an inch into a mile
Can't make me happy with a smile
Stood in a forest for the fools
And said what no one wants to hear
A tree that falls without a sound
Take your smile I'll be around
(w. graber)
Look for answers you've never gotten
You knew them once but now they're forgotten
So you go
And you want me to see how to see
You don't want me to feel all alone
And you want to believe I'll believe
But I'll never believe that at all
[chorus]
Have you found the time
Is it just another lie - is it just another lie?
And time is time is time this time
And you tell me to lighten up now
I'm much to serious about it all
And you know
I can understand what you say
Day by day when there's no other way
But I wish you could feel what I feel
Cause you'd never say that again
[chorus]
There ain't no reason why
(music arcwelder/words w. graber & s. macdonald)
Take down
And now take along
What you can't now
And sorens eyes
Good for value prize
Where's your head now
40 times
Maybe 50 times
Where's your heart now
Compromise
If you can find the time
Where's your pride now
When I walk out the door it'll be a sunny day
And the breeze floating by blowing worries away
From my mind
I feel fine
Come around all of the fear and the paranoia
Maybe half a pound all of the stress is unhealthy for ya
Where's the sky now all of the pain and the aggravation
All of the grind and the desperation
Cut it down til you feel proud if you want heat you should start a fire
Where's your thoughts now if you want hope you should fuel desire
If you want help you should try to find it
Hit it and quit forget the pride that you leave behind it
While we still can
And we'll end pound
Hit it and quit it
While we still can
(w. graber)
Blood the martyrs seed
An altruistic greed
And it all is lost... this is just a passing thought
Words too big to know
And fear you can't explain
Hope at any cost... this is just a passing thought
[chorus]
Where to start... where to begin
Pass you the note... pass you the note along...
Nothing long... nothing long
Leaves of many loves
And root of only one
There's no place to go... this is just a passing thought
Tabula rasa
Suggestions only rule
When it's all unlearned... the truth is not a passing thought
(w. graber)
You were the only one
I was the one who never tried
You were the one.. the only one
I'll build your hope - then make you cry
While others broke the rules
And everything is open
I build them up - I hide away
If no one would tell - no one would say
And self righteous lonesome's still lonesome
Love of my life, where are you now?
No decisions left - it's only sideways glances
If it tastes like shit - it's probably shit
Re-use old ways to disappoint
Another set of claims - like open ended fear
These are the terms, or no return
These are the terms, or no return
And you, you believe far too much
You believe far too much in good
If there's really no one
If there's really no one
Love of my life, where are you now?
If I let you down - I let you down
I let you down - I let you down
And it is everything I never wanted
It's everything you ever hoped for me...
(w. graber)
And he says lahabim (I will know)
And he knows what that means
I heard a wise man lie
He knows what that should mean
He was his right hand man
Fought for the good of man
I watched this wise man die
He knows what that should mean
[chorus]
Lahabim
(don't be sad)
The group of seven falls
And question who's to blame
I watched this river die
He knows what that should mean
He was his left hand fool
Fought for the good of man
I watched this wise man die
He knows what that should mean
