Writing on a cup of coffee
As she waits my table
And she smiles when able
from the inside
And who would've thought a cup of coffee
Would make my legs unstable
Shaking
Under the table
Must be stagefright
And would it really phase me
If I had all the toys of
All the clumsy boys for you
And would it really kill you
If you would try to have a good time
Instead of screwing up mine
Like you usually do
Im in Love
Brings a cup of coffee as she sits down slowly
Now the chair is holy
From the inside
And who would've thought that a cup of coffee
Would make my legs unstable
Shaking
Under the table
Must be stagefright
Somewhere, far away from here,
I saw stars, stars that I could reach...(yeah)
It was a midnight, a silent twilight,
Fell down, beyond the ocean beach...(yeah)
I assemble all the sand that cover wedding beaches,
To build a castle so your mom would have a place to stay.
Behind the water slide and down the hill where heaven reaches,
Land and time is left to float away.(yeah)
So rest assured I have the key to every opening,
To every wishing well that's deep enough to dream. (dream)
I want to show you just how fascinating kissing is
When earth collides with all the space between...(yeah)
I'm reaching farther than I ever have before,
Leaving all who broke your heart upon the shore.
I may be some sort of crazy,
We may be some sort of crazy,
But I swear on everything I have and more...
So never look behind you, spooky people bring you down.
The world is ending there's a party by the bay.
I'll wear my suit and tie, we're eye to eye,
toasting to the way you put that smile upon my face...(yeah)
Fill up the air balloon and ride with me.
Yeah, hell is jealous of the rain...(rain)
Make love like time and space is ending,
While befriending fate's alluring way of putting us to shame.
I'm reaching farther than I ever have before,
Leaving all who broke your heart upon the shore.
I may be some sort of crazy,
We may be some sort of crazy,
But I swear on everything I have and more...
You make the sound of pulling heaven down.
You brought the rain's romantic pour...
You make the sound,
You make the sound,
Of pulling heaven down...
I'm reaching farther than I ever have before,
(God I've reached the top)
Leaving all who broke your heart upon the shore.
I may be some sort of crazy,
We may be some sort of crazy,
But I swear on everything I have and more....
(go, go, go, go)
I'm reaching farther than I ever have before,
(Tired of wasting time)
Leaving all who broke your heart upon the shore.
(Tired of wasting time)
I may be some sort of crazy,
We may be some sort of crazy,
But I swear on everything I have and more...
A heartbeat skip, relationship
Inside a bubble bath
An icing drip below your lip
So we undo the math
A sudden slip between
My pathetic sedatives
A real-life script of how
Mistakes became our medicine, so
Delay the hurtful words
Of complicated overcast
Please take the message that I'm
Picking up my chin at last
I said my confidence
It gets stronger when you're next to me
But we pray from miles away
In quest for what we long to be
I might crumble, I might take a fall again
(Still missing you)
I might crumble, I might take a fall again
(Still missing you)
I might crumble, I might take a fall again
But you're my everlasting friend
Everlasting friend
A heartbeat skip, relationship
So we would stay up late
A teardrop drip below your lip
Beside the airport gate
A sudden slip from where
We used to be a year ago
A real-life script of how
Our hands would hold and not let go
But delay the mournful words
Of complicated overcast
Please take the message
That you taught me how to live at last
But I said my confidence
It gets stronger when you're next to me
But we wave respect goodbye
In quest for what we long to be, but
I might crumble, I might take a fall again
(Still missing you)
I might crumble, I might take a fall again
(Still missing you)
I might crumble, I might take a fall again
But you're my everlasting friend
Will you be coming home?
(Everlasting friend)
My everlasting friend, will you be coming home?
(Everlasting friend)
I might crumble, I might take a fall again
(Still missing you)
I might crumble, I might take a fall again
(Still missing you)
I might crumble, I might take a fall again
I might crumble, I might take a fall again
I might crumble, I might take a fall again
I might crumble, I might take a fall again
I might crumble, I might take a fall again
I just want to know that you'll be coming home
I just want to know that you'll be coming home
I just want to know that you'll be coming home
Where do you go
When the day is long
And where does your heart beat
And who is wrong
Why do I feel this way
Why do I kneel
How could I let it go
Why do I feel
Why do I feel
Follow me home
Through the, the maze and on
I'll show you the road
That I led you the wrong way on
Why did I go that way
Why do I steal
How could I let her go
Why do I feel
Oh why did I go that way
Why do I steal
How could I let her go
Why do I feel
Why do I feel
Why did I go that way
Why do I need
How could I let her go
Why do I feel
Oh why did I go that way
How could I steal
Oh how could I
How could I
How could I
How could I
[Hey Justin, this is your mother. I was just calling to see how you were doing; you sounded really up tight last night, made me a little nervous. I just wanna make sure you are really okay, and......[record scratch] see if you were checking in on your medications. You know I love ya! See ya. Bye bye.]
I have to block out thoughts of you, so I don't lose my head
They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed
Dropping little reels of tape, to remind me that I'm alone
Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home
There's a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain
An ounce of peace is all I want for you, Will you never call again?
And will you never say that you love me just to put it in my face?
And will you never try to reach me, it is I that wanted space
Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me so you can finally see whats good for you
I'm sober now for 3 whole months, it's one accomplishment that you helped me with
The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing I won't touch again
In a sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night
While I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight
You never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate
You made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take
So I'll drive so fucking far away that I'll never cross your mind
And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind
Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you
Hate me in ways, yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see whats good for you
And with a sad heart I say bye to you and wave
Kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I had made
And like a baby boy I never was a man
Until I saw your blue eyes cry and I held your face in my hands
And then I fell down yelling "make it go away" just make a smile
Come back and shine just like it used to be
And then she whispered "How could you do this to me?"
Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you
Hate me in ways, yeah ways hard to swallow
Is that seat taken?
Congratulations
Would you like to take a walk with me?
My mind it kind of goes fast
I'll try to slow it down for you
I think I'd love to take a drive
I want to give you something
I've been wanting to give to you for years
My heart
My heart, my pain won't cover up
You left me.. hu hu hu hu
My heart can't take this cover up
You left me.. hu hu hu hu
I came to see the light in my best friend
You seemed as happy as you'd ever been
My chance of being open was broken
And now you're Mrs. Him.
My words they don't come out right
But I'll try to say I'm happy for you
I think I'm going to take that drive
I want to give you something
I've wanted to give to you for years
My heart
My heart, my pain won't cover up
You left me.. hu hu hu hu
My heart
My heart can't take this cover up
You left me.. hu hu hu hu
And I can't change this
I can never take it back
But now I can't change your mind
(You left me.. hu hu hu hu)
And I can't take this
I can never take this back
But now I can't change your mind
Can't change your mind
(You left me.. hu hu hu hu)
Can't change you mind
(You left me.. hu hu hu hu)
(You left me.. hu hu hu hu)
(You left me.. hu hu hu hu)
(You left me.. hu hu hu hu)
Just make it go away
Make it go away
I'm like a storm cloud eager when you go out
Calm again
I'll ask permission for the wrong to win
Drop the bomb and get your story out and get it on
In a haze the beginning of your days
Gonna fall down
Got to get back up but at your own pace
Got to fill your cup and find the way
Out of your own maze
Yeah boy what you said now
And hide the rule book throw it in the waste
Look strong
Like you belong cause you do belong
Whether right or wrong you belong
(Because) I'm on your side if you fail at least you tried
To keep your aching celebrating wonder making heart alive
Yeah and pride don't keep it all inside
Don't keep your aching celebrating wonder making heart alone
Write you own song
Whatever happened to our inner glow?
Whatever happened to the song the soul the me i used to know?
Whatever happened to my radio?
Whatever happened to my song?
It is my song
So here's a preview shove it under old-new
Or call it rock or pop or Bach or fuck
Goddamn where did we go wrong
Now there's a category for every song
Yeah we only want to sing when we want to
Yeah we only want a dream we can flaunt to
Yeah we only want to fly by the side making love to the rhythm be a Jekyll and a Hyde
Yeah we only want a field we can run through
Yeah we only want a beat we can drum to
Yeah we only want to fly by the side making love to the rhythm be a Jekyll and a Hyde
So stride if you fail at least you tried
To keep your aching celebrating wonder making heart alive
And pride don't keep it all inside
Don't keep your aching celebrating wonder making heart alone
Write your own song
Whatever happened to our inner glow?
Whatever happened to the song the soul the me i used to know?
Whatever happened to my radio?
Whatever happened to the song?
(Gonna wake up strong ya we're all gonna wake up strong...)
(Gonna wake up strong ya we're all gonna wake up strong...)
(Gonna wake up strong ya we're all gonna wake up strong...)
(yeah well write your own song)
(Gonna wake up strong ya we're all gonna wake up strong...)
(Gonna wake up strong ya we're all gonna wake up strong...)
(Gonna wake up strong ya we're all gonna wake up strong...)
(yeah we're writing our own song)
(Yeah we only want to sing when we want to)
(Yeah we only want a dream we can flaunt to)
(Yeah we only want to fly by the side making love to the rhythm be a jeckyl and a hyde)
Whatever happened to our inner glow
(Yeah we only want a beat we can drum to)
Whatever happened to the song the soul the me i used to know
Whatever happened to my radio
(Yeah we only want a dream we can flaunt to)
Whatever happened to the song
(Making love to the rhythm be a Jekyll and a Hyde)
Whatever happened to our inner glow
(Yeah we only want a field we can run through)
((Gonna wake up strong ya we're all gonna wake up strong... Gonna wake up strong ya we're all gonna wake up strong...))
Whatever happened to the song the soul the me i used to know
((Gonna wake up strong ya we're all gonna wake up strong... yeah we're writing our own song))
Whatever happened to my radio
(Yeah we only want a dream we can flaunt to)
Whatever happened to the song
By the way
By your side I'll stay
If that's okay
Then by your side I'll stay forever
Here I am standing up
Because I want to fall in love with you
A sunless day
It was a clumsy card house rape
If that's okay
Then by your side I'll stay forever
Here I am standing up
To say I want to fall in love, Forever
Here I am standing up
To say that I want to fall
All our kids will play
A sunless day
The rain will come
The rain always brings our heroes
All our kids could play
A sunless day
The rain will come
The rain always brings our heroes
Believe in heroes
By the way
By your side I'll stay
If that's okay
Then by your side I'll stay forever
The first born, my heart will call
Truly, a God-like boy of the sky
The fog hissed away, like a movie
And serpents go home for the night
The thundercloud rain hits the freeway
The clowns put on make-up for show
The nightfall, my "skin crawl" kind of evening
Yeah, how the wind, she blows
And how the wind, she blows . . .
But I want you to come in closer
Come in closer
Come in closer
Come in closer
Come in closer
Come in closer
Come in closer
In closer
Come dancing with devils
Need not know their name
But we'll waltz like an army
For the fear of our pain
And our souls become useless
As the day they were born
And the rusted arm rocking chair
Away from your storm
But still, the truth remains lethal
A lie made by man
Where my shoes become hammers
And my words become sand
I'm like a sour patch, a wedding batch
Of roses you threw across my floor
In the rusted arm rocking chair
Away from your storm
But I want you to come in closer
Come in closer
Come in closer
Come in closer
Come in closer
Come in closer
I want you to come in closer
Please, in closer
I really do . . .
Come in closer
Come in closer
Come in closer
Come in closer
Come in closer
Come in closer
Just come in closer
In closer . . .
I want you to . . .
I want you to . . .
I want you to . . .
Just to close in closer
I changed my color for you
I shed my coat with caution
I lack the beauty you display
See here there are the bruises
And some were self-inflicted
And some showed up along the way
So i nod my head
I'm ready for the world to see
The secret i kept here inside the man you thought id be
Slip into coma calm
The coma where i calm myself down
Here comes excuses why i let you down
Stand by for another breakdown
Sound off the alarm
Is this the chameleon boy i swore i wouldn't become
Chameleon boy
Chameleon boy
So now we've come upon the hardest thing I've ever done
Its telling you that I'm a mess
What sort of mess i mean
Is self-destructive gasoline
The kind that strips you of your best
And while i play instead the way that most would end up dead
You sleep alone at home and wish that i was in our bed
With this I'm telling you
My color changes back to blue
How do i ask you this
Will you help me through
Stand by for another breakdown
Sound off the alarm
Is this the chameleon boy i swore i wouldn't become
Stand by for another breakdown
Sound off the alarm
Is this the chameleon boy i swore i wouldn't become
Chameleon boy
Chameleon boy
I try to think of all the people i looked up to
while growing up who would i be
Now the twisted part
Where'd all my idols end up
They all passed away
Passed away
Stand by
Its chameleon boy
Stand by
Its chameleon boy
Chameleon Boy
I'm chameleon boy...
Innertube sunset
With a kiss and a cigarette
You're better than any midnight sex
I can't stop cause if feels too good
I won't stop but I know I should
Believe me I'm not always on a serious side.
Cause I can make you laugh, if he makes you scream
If he breaks you, tell me everything
Cause here we are alone again
Libby I'm listening
Cause I can make you laugh, if he makes you scream
If he breaks you, tell me everything
Cause here we are alone again
Libby I'm listening
It's hard to fill the empty space
When they're your prayers
Your love, your fucking grace
Closed eyed sleeping face to face
Sweet girl with such a tender taste
Libby, I just want to, listen to you...please!
Libby I'm...Libby I'm listening to you.
Libby Un...Libby unwind.
Libby I'm...Libby I'm listening to you.
Kneel down
Close your eyes
Hit the ground
I want you to, to kneel all day
Alone in this desolate cave
So I said
Scream if you want to
Cause no one is around
I want you to
To scream all day
Cause there's eleven words that I've rehearsed to say
And I say
How I love to hate you!
You're
not so brave
When I'm the snake
And you're my prey
Let me tell you I'll eat all day
Alone in this desolate cave
So I say
Squeal if you want to
Cause no
no one is around
I want you to
To squeal all day
Cause there's eleven words that I've rehearsed to say
And I say
How I love to hate you!
James, how I love to hate you
Oh, how I love
I feel that it's hard enough to say good-bye.
I feel there's the water. Should I sink or dive?
An empty plate, fill up my sentimental morning star.
I steal the art of putting truth in a lie.
I still want the girl that really caught my eye.
But, she lives in Oklahoma City, far away from me.
Well,an empty hope chest.
I quit the dope quest,
And remain independently happy
I said I'm finally happy...happy... independently happy...
I deal with the fact that I've forgiven the worst.
I feel that my social behavior may seem somewhat unrehearsed.
Another page,
A sullen rage,
And I'll be back to my normal self.
And I'm finally happy...happy... independently happy...
So I drive to the edge of my considerate plain.
I apologize to the people I hurt on the way.
I wipe the slate clean
I kick the daydream,
And remain independently happy.
How am I supposed to breathe?
I try to relax. I touch your still frame
So I can watch you closer
And study the ways I believe I belong to you... to you
so i.. I scratch at your waist line... your doll hair
I dig up the thought of how your eyes glow
So I make you my religion, my collision, my escape goat
So have I found your secret weak spot, baby?
[Chorus]
Can you pretend I'm amazing?
I can pretend I'm amazing...
Instead of what we both know x2
I cut to the punch line baby
Can we pretend I'm amazing
Instead of what we both know
and Now our history is for sale
And for that I apoligize
You see you're my only know how
The study of when I believed I belonged to you.. to you
You see I've made you into something more delicious,
My sweet ghost
So have I found your secret weak spot, baby?
A slow strangle with your feet on the floor
I've got 14 angels and we're sleeping alone
In the back of a cave, where the rest of us go
To feel normal
I call baby up. Leave me alone.
I'm in pain but I won't let you band-aid my wound
I'm mad at a stage where I can't seem to handle my own
Give me a quiet mind and I...
I love you
You give me a quiet mind and I...
I love you
Until the end
Give me strength to be kind... To combine
All the good things in life that are so hard to find
But I have and I won't let them go like I do with my friends
Still hearing voices... From front... From behind
They're the reason I choose... When to live... How to die
When to cast... When to reel
When to buy... When to steal
When to fiend for the friends that taunt you
Being inappropriate will
Give me a quiet mind and I...
I love you
You give me a quiet mind and I...
I love you
For 3 weeks, she sleeps
Through the rain
I've gotta try, to keep her dry
Or I'm out of ways
Self books, love crooks
Steel her away
I'ts who you know, and where ya go
All in a day
So, la-di-da la-di-da ah-haa
Ohh-ohh-ohh-ohhhh
La-di-da La-di-da ah-haa
When you holler baby
When you holler at me
What you want me to be
When you holler baby
When you holler at me
What you want me to
I won't be strong and I won't be brave
I never stay
Because you don't treat me the right way
I won't be a part of this drawn out game
I never stay
Because you don't treat me the right way
You're holding my back against the sunshine
You might not think its over
But it's over for me
I need your reflection like a thin line
You might not think its over
But it's over for
I won't be strong and I won't be brave
I never stay
Because you don't treat me the right way
I won't be a part of this drawn out game
I never stay
Because you don't treat me the right way
You don't treat me the right way
I won't be strong and I won't be brave
I never stay
Because you don't treat me the right way
I won't be a part of this drawn out game
I never stay
Because you don't treat me the right way
I touch the tongue to see
A devil's face in front of me
You blow your nose and cry
The clown demands a sad good-bye
A sad good-bye.
Black below the tree
White horses dead in front of me
A scar below the cheek
There's a sweaty man in a bloody sink.
[Chorus]
It's just a trip not a way to ease your pain
Self help...Tell another shrink the same thing
Stay cool, everything is going to be okay
Until you decide to drop again
Until you decide to drop again
A blue jean girl to be
Sweaty man is behind the trees
The flip side of sanity is the game
Fourteen million miles away from sane
A dark man in the restroom window pane
Whose words just pour out human pain.
[Repeat Chorus]
I'm wishing the bath water clean
She hides in the back and is unseen
I take off the mask that surrounds me
Look me in the face
What do you see
I feel like a boy the age of 13
My body grows up
But my mind stays the same
Look me in the face
What do you see?
How do you tell an angel
That you don't believe in God?
Why do I feel
Like such a stranger
I look around
I look around
And all my friends are gone
But oh would you be me?
Because I would be you
Oh you'd be happy
Only if you wanted to
And how would you treat me?
Because I would treat you
Oh you'd be happy
Only if you wanted to
How do you tell your Father,
That you want him to notice you?
Why does this seem like such a bother?
When mom says you'd be better off dead
But I want to see you
I still want to see you
Oh would you call me?
Oh it's not hard too
I'm the first one
You gave birth to
And oh would you write me
On my birthday
Graduation, was yesterday
Yesterday
Oh...
How do you hold the special victim?
When they push you away
When they've been
Raped on the inside
Torn on the outside
The dirt and ugly from the stain that they try to hide
Touched in private places
Embarassed faces
To scared to ask for help
Oh would you be me?
Because I would be you
Oh you'd be happy
Only if you wanted to
And how would you treat me?
Because I would treat you
You'd be happy
Only if you wanted to
I'm wishing the bath water clean
She hides in the back and is unseen
I take off the mask that surrounds me
Look me in the face
Trampoline
I'm your
Trampoline
Oh you jump so hard but I always catch your fall
So now I'll just
Hide away (you know I think I will)
Hide away
Oh, I run so fast but I always lose them all
I wish I could go to sleep and wake up with amnesia
And try to forget the things I've done
I wish I knew how to keep the promises I made you
But life i guess it goes on
Yeah I know it goes on
You see I've learned it goes on
But then I'll hang us on the wall
And I'll crawl in the open side
And I'm blind to it all
So why don't you
Crawl in my open side and become blind to it all
You know I think it's time to pray
For the contortion, my abortion
That I somehow shoved away
I think it's right for me (yeah I think it's right for me)
When I was young I was stung
And somehow lost God's faith
I wish I could go to sleep and wake up with amnesia
And try to forget the things I've done
I wish I knew how to keep these promises I made
But I guess life goes on
Yeah I know it goes on
You see I've learned it goes on
Way back when I must have sinned
I break down profound, beginning, end
Head trip re-grip what doesn't mend
I ended the book that I'm writing.
The part about you I'm tearing it out.
A simple goodnight, stop fighting,
There's nothing left to even read about.
I'm leaving you here my darling,
to search for a better and easy way out.
Through all of the pain that I'm causing,
There's nothing left to even sing about
And it goes......
Recorded Italian radio.
I changed up the words to make you happy though.
In front of the midnight music show,
I beat up, I beat up the boy that made her happy
though
I've noticed the things that you wanted me to be.
They outweigh the ones that make me happy.
So pull out your hand to meet my...my fine new lady,
She's rock n' roll,
and she saved me.
He's scared
Her ship arrived and came in yesterday
The darkest side of Houston's finest day
You fell alseep, my love
And i fantasize
That the wind blew harder than it ever did
This song we started, will it ever end
You fell alseep again
Well goodbye
With shaking hands I dropped it instantly
Then kicked the phone and stood invincibly
Oh, then started to cry
But i'm twenty now
And I wanna see my nineteenth year again
Hold on to me, you are the closest thing i've ever had
To a real friend
I walk like a burned out porn star
With aching feet for a car
My buddy had a baby with a girl named star
Makes me appreciate how the little things are
But crossing a road isn't easily told
To a young has-been centerfold
Labelled the winner's episode
Yeah, I'm really clean if you know what I mean
Except for this recurring dream
Of losing total feeling
While the windmills squealing
The windmills squealing
I paint to kill the dead saints
I paint to make it clear
My colors run in blue and gray
But they give hope to someone dear
Yeah, yeah, yeah, 2AM lovesick
With a walking pneumonia drumkick
And this candle doesn't have a wick
But I'm really not that scared
No, I'm not that scared
I walk like a burned out porn star
With aching feet for a car
My buddy had a baby with a girl named star
I see your heart beat through the bedsheets
I feel your pulse against the floor
I sleep the sadness that no one else sleeps
Feel me cunningly adore.
As the tic tock clock lies Goldilocks
What a sick enchanted view
Of the white blot sin that we all began
not the girl that I once knew.
Blue Sunshine
Ive got no vacancies
At the top of the clock was Jesus spying on me
I spoke of friends
point me which direction
I tried a bribe of when I die but swore he never
mentioned.
I kicked and screamed,
"Its simple, you must sing
the day I take you, youll be sleeping
I stood there staring at the street
a little bird from the broken lights
the spot where we should meet
i used the quater from the phone but noone's home
pulled up my coat to hide in snow
i slipped on the thought that
she would even show but i know
so torn to pieces fall apart
and that breaks my heart
maybe we'll laugh
and maybe we'll fight
but there's no one to blame
who's wrong or right
just push me away god
don't say goodnight
and if your needing someone
damn who am i
who am i
i hit the wallet lunch and break
i'm faced down in the holes of my mistake
but to empty out the sword of pain
you gotta let it drain
farewell but who am i to say?
that i could paint a butterfly
in empty shades of grey
let it go and fly away
but hear me say
sweety all i want to say is
maybe we'll laugh
and maybe we'll fight
but there's no one to blame
who's wrong or right
so just push me away but god
don't say goodnight
and the drug that i take
that makes it allright
well listen to the trash can
senatras on a saturday night
we're bording the plane
hold my hand on the flight
but if your needing someone
damn who am i?
who am i?
who am i?
What if we could
Put our lives on
Hold then meet somewhere
inside of the world
I would meet you
Would you meet me?
2, 3, 4...
On a park bench
On a skyscrape
On a mountain
Oh yeah, whatever it takes
I would meet you
Would you meet me?
Well, I'm glad to say that we've met
But I'm sad to say that the circumstances weren't
On our side
So go on
Go on be your own
Go on be your own star
What if we could?
Where would we go?
If it felt right
Would you want me to know?
I would meet you
Would you meet me?
It's like a last chance
For a first dance
You're a sunrise
Can't somehow exist
I would meet you
Would you meet me
Well, I'm glad to say that we've met
But I'm sad to say that the circumstances weren't
On our side
So go on
Go on be your own
Go on be your own star
You're a super star in my eyes
In my eyes
Look in my eyes
Just look in my eyes
My eyes
My eyes!
What if we could
Put our lives on
Hold then meet somewhere
inside of the world
I would meet you
Would you meet me?
On a park bench
On a skyscrape
On a mountain
Oh yeah, whatever it takes
I would meet you
Would you meet me?
God I would
God I would
I would meet you
Would you meet me
I would meet you
I would meet you
A blackout in the room again
a busted lip and broken skin.
I wake up in the bathroom
and dare not bother asking
why the mirror's craked and all I see
are shards of glass inside of me.
There's voices there to dare me,
my father's here to scare me.
My mother sits beyond the door she's
curled up crying on the floor,
look at what her son's done.
When the weight of all the world's gone wrong.
It's gone wrong again.
Gone fucking wrong.
It's gone wrong again.
Well liars they leave a guilty trail.
And let me tell you something people,
I've been lying for fucking years.
That must be why I'm standing in this space.
Disregarding that I've created these monsters
they're on fucking both of my sides,
So I wipe the blood from both of their eyes.
From all four of their eyes.
And while I wait for wounds to heal
I see you by the window sil,
your heart's torn out
a plastic spoon
when honesty lit up that room
so I stole the pillowcase to clean
this mess I've made of someones dream.
Now you've seen what I've done,
when the weight of all the world's gone wrong.
It's gone wrong again
gone fucking wrong
it's gone all wrong again.
This room is old and wise
I fall onto the bed and wonder,
"How did I get here?"
The little boy who would argue with a tree
just fucking thump his head
and he'll turn back to normal.
Now why is that what I see?
Don't bother trusting
don't bother waiting
don't bother changing things that won't give into changing
just let me go away.
I'm packed
whenever
I'm down
I must have sneezed, on knees I freeze
I mean, I just choked up
But somehow I slept, I dream, I mean
I dreamt of nothing
I'm able to breathe a sweet relief
Now that you're here for me
A northern degree dove into me
Now I'm recovering
I only want you to see
My favorite part of me
And not my ugly side
And not my ugly side, ugly side
So hook up a C.B
Wave a way for conversation flow
I'm shoved in your cage, to wage this rage
Don't let me go
A kick and a scream
Is all that seems to mean a lot, thus far
Yeah, I won't let you on my stage, my page
You can't know, yet you have to know
And that I only want you to see
My favorite part of me
And not my ugly side
And not my ugly side
I only want you to see
My favorite part of me
And not my ugly side
And not my ugly side
So calm, ohh ooh
And it's so calm
And now it's dark
I look for you to light my heart
I'm between the moon and where you are
Tomorrow
I'm gonna find a way to die
I'm living only for a lover
And the death of you and I
But if you find a way to break my back
With needles, thread, and guilt
Will you cover me in kerosene
And burn my strychnine quilt
Yeah, will you spit upon the path I took
Will you cry from all the drugs I took
Will be my little come down hook
And I'll never ask again
Will I wake up feeling half of you
Has been striped or torn in two
To kill a young man's point of view
Is to kill his only friend
Oh, oh
Tomorrow
We're gonna find a place to live
I'm packing only means for red wood dreams
It's a place that you'll be excepted
Oh fuck the world
Just a boy and a girl
But it's that leach you'll have to shake
Through the love we'll need to make
Call me sure
Yeah I'm sure I said
I said I'm open wide
But you really have to understand
We'll build a water slide
If you're brave enough to hold my hand
I'm standing on an open world
I've got to try so hard for myself
Now including the ones that I love
I call my family
It's not hard when your focus is a beautiful girl
A brand new baby. She's a baby girl
And yeah, she's a cutie like her mommy
Uh, yes, yeah, she looks like her mommy
We both know who we are
And I'm not changing a thing I've never changed before
If loving me is work, I'm not a job to take
I think we're heading for the crazy making heartbreak
I'm wondering why I'm sitting here alone again
Why you always crush me
Why it's never easy
Easy, easy, easy. It's not easy
This is you. This is me
You won't be a part of what we need to be
Not for me. For the future of us three
For our daughter, college, family
Sudden health emergencies
You think it's easy picking money off my money tree?
With two houses, both cars
I paid off your credit card debt
Did you already forget?
You threat and threat and threat
Just fucking leave. Find a man who will put up with you
We both know who we are
And I'm not changing a thing I've never changed before
If loving me is work, I'm not a job to take
I think we're heading for the crazy making heartbreak
I can't help but think of how great you are with the baby daughter
Half the time a single mother
When I go away, it is so you can always stay home
And let your baby grow. Bring her up the right way
You never take it that way
We both know who we are
And I'm not changing
I need support, not a slap in the face
You have to trust me or I'm sure it'll blow up in your face
I'm in love with such an angel and she doesn't even know
We've taught each other a thousand ways we don't even know
We both know who we are
And I'm not changing a thing I've never changed before
If loving me is work, I'm not a job to take
I think we're heading for the crazy making heartbreak
I can't help but think of how good you are with the daughter
Half the time a single mother
When I go away, it is so you can always stay home
And let your baby grow. Bring her up the right way
I must be the one who has his daughter's future at heart
As you're the one who never wants a family apart
We both know that together we can only believe
Let's get it straight
Let's get it straight from the top
You're beginning with the usual main ingredient
You're good at when you're talking when you say it
Are you meaning it?
Don't wanna give you my heart if you're not completing it
I'm blown away at how your family, your friends,
Just accept it though
No one's ever told you no
Can't expect you to know how to love
When it was something
You were never taught
But honesty
is the one true way to start again
just be good to yourself
and love those unspoken
instead of always broken
but honestly
when you're heart decides to let someone in
just be cautious of the next one
you win
i never wanted to play what was meant to screw me up
but i see you're in to playing it
makes me feel sorry for the way you like displaying it
and how the truth has really told you are betraying it
i gotta say
i don't think i ever felt you hold us up
were you embarrassed by me?
its something i'm gonna have to pay for
but honesty
shoulda been the one true way to start again
just be straight with yourself
and love goes unspoken
instead of always broken
but honestly
if your heart decides to feel again
just be careful of the next one
how completely let down
how completely let down i felt
how completely in awe
now i can't see at all
now i can see it all…
but honesty
could been the one true way to love again
just be straight with yourself
and love goes unspoken
instead of always broken
but honestly
if your heart decides to love again
just be thankful for the next one
gonna see it all...gonna see it all…
can't wait…can't wait…
gonna keep it up…gonna keep it up…
can't wait…can't wait…
gonna see it all...gonna see it all...
can't wait...can't wait...
Pride...
it leaves you hollow
another attempt
just to settle the score
a war, you know the one you built it up
it's real defining
humiliation
Oh it knocks at your door (at your door Ohh)
When you say i blow up
i say you cave in
we never found the line between
the real and pretend
you know you should accept it
this is really the end
i know for sure,it's what i have to do
is follow through
And you were everything i'll ever want to be
the only one i ever need to know
i'd wait for you til time lay down to sleep
and i'd sneak across the world to let her know
yeah that's what i do
Yeah i follow through
oh i follow through
Oh and here i stand
Yeah i'm too close but still you're far away
you never tried but i did
And we still remain divided
oh i can't believe that your heart's still beating
its beating for me at all
how sad of you,Oh but I'm not,
but i'm not sad at all
When you say i blow up
i say you cave in
we never found the line between
the real and pretend
you know you should accept it
this is really the end
i know for sure,it's what i have to do
is follow through
and you were everything i ever want to be
the only one i ever need to know
i'd wait for you till time lay down to sleep
Yeah and i'd sneak across the world to let her know
Yeah and as it falls down into night we run away
And once again divided
but each one knows just what we have to do
we do
we have to...follow through
i will lay down my heart
i will let you go
that's what's best for us all
(cause now we stand beneath the clouds and God above)
(like we did before)
(but this time for her)
(i'll follow through)
You're everything i ever want to be
the only thing i ever need to know
i'd wait for you till time lay down to sleep
and i'd sneak across the world to let her know
hold my heart
patiently
And take my hand
Yeah walk with me
cuz when the evening comes
we'll set the world on fire
And i was wrong
let me help you live on..
And you were everything I ever want to be
The only one I ever need to know
I'd wait for you til time lay down to sleep
Yeah And I'd sneak across the world to let her know
Yeah and as it falls down into night we run away
And once again divided
but each one knows just what we have to do
we do
we have to...follow through
(hold my heart
patiently
And take my hand
Yeah walk with me)
cuz when the evening comes
we'll set the world on fire
And i was wrong
Here alone, standing barefoot in our lawnWorms squeezing their way through my toes, tonight that's how it goesI'm at your window kneeling quietI thought at least I'd maybe try to get your head rightYour heart right, let him go
Then through the glass I see your dress fall to the floorAs he embraces every inch of you, the woman I adoreI can't believe the way you're bendingCan't believe this never ending moaning asking him for moreBegging him for more
How far will I go to make it feel right?Come home, I have to fix this on my own
Replace my heart'Cause I'm convinced mine broke the day I let us endReplace my heartI don't wanna live by coping, I'm done with hoping end
I creeped in close enough to see the way he touched herFrom her feet across her knees inside her sweetest spotHe pleased and pleased herI turned around and tried to take control, but no control was capableIt was a centerfold of how less than low can possibly go
I squeezed the life into my brain like pushing knives into a veinI've gotta get, I said I've gotta get insideSo to the back window I crawl in silent standing in the darknessOf my living room, this used to be my home
How far will I go to make it feel right?Come home, I'm moving forward to the bedroom door
Replace my heart'Cause I'm convinced mine broke the day I let us endReplace my heartI don't wanna live by coping, I'm done with hoping end
And I turn the doorknob with two fingers to be slowEnough to sneak into the room among the corner darkness gloomI had to see this happeningHe pushed himself so deep inside her clapping rangAnd bounced off every wooden walled room
And that's when all went silent blank except the color redAs I walked calmly numbing paralyzed beside the bedI said I know I'm not allowed to be hereI just had to see how good your new man really fucks you'Cause you both been fucking me
So now I planned the last thing you can both do as a pairI tie both blindfolds tight around your fucking eyes to blind your stareI don't want to alarm you, but I figured we could end this inWhat seems easy quick and painless, man
So I'll get down to businessI choose you first, there's a gun, it's at your headSo laugh at me one more time but keep your face inside the bedYou sit and watch me while I do this shit and learn from what I've saidI cocked the pistol pulled the trigger, and all I saw was red
How far will I go to make it feel right?Come home, I have to fix this on my own
Then the screaming oh, the screamingIt's nice to see you scared of such a weak and stupid husbandWho knows you never really caredI'll leave you with a question that I need to hear from your headWas all this worth it knowing you have just seconds left to live?
If I can't crawl inside of you,
I'm laughing with a broken face
I stumble across my self esteem.
But to picture the pleasure is making me want my space.
Understand...
that God wrapped you like a bow.
But in my head...
There's some shelves that need cleaning,
from basement to ceiling, control.
If what you're seeing is an open book,
that's great 'cause I'm an open book.
But I'm real shy.
There's a part of me seeking and desperately needing to open up.
That's strange 'cause I'm an open book, a confused boy.
I'm an automatic steeple for depressed and lonely people.
My heart while in its cage,
give and not receive a thing,
But the only funny thing is that I don't know how to give myself advice.
I've got this post dramatic thing
I've got this tattoo of a ring that lies
around my wedding finger and that'ss where I want to state this claim.
That I've got to learn to live and dream
before I go and get myself in love.
In love.
Before, before, before I go and get myself in love
There's Zoloft, Welbutrin, there's Paxil that's proven, no side effects.
But the rest left unnamed 'cause they worked like a charm on me.
But when your saving is drying,
you can't stop from crying
you've got to suck it up.
You're not her buttercup,
you're not her favorite book.
And I am an automatic steeple for depressed and lonely people.
My heart while in its cage,
give and not receive a thing,
But the only funny thing is that I don't know how to give myself advice.
I've got this post dramatic thing
I've got this tattoo of a ring that lies
around my wedding finger and thats where I want to state this claim.
That I've got to learn to live and dream
before I go and get myself in love.
In love.
The 21st. comes so soon every month
An anniversary of not being strong enough
You're much too co-dependent
A shrink is recommended
Your father tells you to try to be responsable
Your mother loves you, but not the way she did before
Your brother's torn to pieces
But no one knows the reasons
He loves the winter, but it smells too much like memories
The ornament she gave him still hangs from his Christmas tree
A jingle bell will glisten
That's when she loved to kiss him
So say farewell to all the little things she would say and do
The morning, sleepy eyed girl waves goodbye to you
You're much to co-dependent
A shrink is recommended
Yeah...
But yeah, who are the people you hang around with?
Who are the ones you're gonna call?
When you feel like ending it all?
But yeah, who are the people you hang around with?
Who are the ones you're gonna call?
When you feel like ending it all?
But I can't bring you down
But I can't bring you down
But I can't bring you down
But I can't bring you down
But I can't bring you down
But I can't bring you down
So you dropped me
Held me by my feet and let me go
I fell between the seat, but nothing broke
I've yet to feel that brilliant afterglow
The one I knew of years ago
Now I'm twisted
Twisted from the waist and spun around
Promised only sky but given ground
Realized the makeup is for a clown
The clown I knew of months ago
I only wanted to be somebody
So fucking bad, I came unglued
I only wanted to be somebody
So here we are now, face to face
And I'm fucking you
So you caught me!
Wishing I were better than the rest
You hit me and left bruises on my chest
And when I wouldn't cheat
I spit upon your test
The test I tore up weeks ago
And now my fist is
My fist is for your face to cock the jaw
When I begin to rise, you start to fall
Now you know how it feels to drop the ball
The ball I threw back days ago
So I'll just stand right here for now
I should have won, but how?
I break a smart ass grin
Who let the loser win?
Let's break a smart ass grin
Stop staring, you’re the reason I feel so unhappy all the time
Look, I’ve given you everything I know how.
You're standing on the top of my shoe
You're keeping me from gaining ground.
Look, I’m sorry if you feel like I let you down.
Can you tell me what have I done so wrong
To you
Tell me what am I supposed to do
I should be loved by you,
That I know is true
But I can't breathe when you’re around
I should be held at night
That I know is right
But I can't breathe when you’re around
You’re too scared,
Scared of all of it
I get that feeling I’m talking to the wall
Can you hear me at all?
My world was shaking, my mind was quaking, my heart kept breaking
I threw it against the wall
Can anyone feel me at all?!
Can you tell me what have I done so wrong... to you
Tell me what am I supposed to do
I've got a feeling, you’re falling out of love with me
Tell me who am I supposed to be
I should be loved by you
That I know is true
I can’t breathe when you’re around
I should be held at night
That I know is right
I can't breathe when you're around
I can't breathe when you're around
Look I can’t breath
I should be loved by you
That I know is true
I can't breathe when you're around
I should be held, oh I should be held
I can't breathe when you're around
No I can't breathe when you're around.
A silver plated numbing gum
And Jesus resting on my thumb
A hard to reach malaria
I've got the mood that seems to scare ya
I'm paranoid, self destroyed
Believe me lord I'm sorry
I've got the mood that seems to bury ya
I've got the nightmare called...
Schizophrenia
I cry. I cry and I don't know why
The fever becomes my home
I cry. I cry and I don't know why
The fever becomes my home
Becomes my hoooommme
Becomes my-he-ya-he-ya-he-y home
And I love it when you're holding me
You have a gentle way of calming
I haven't felt that way since 1993,
When my mother held me
I bet you're waiting for a long sob story
Of how I was mistreated again
No, but no, I wasn't built that way
I was strong and desperately brave,
And I didn't mean to scareya...
Schizophrenia
I cry. I cry and I don't know why
The fever becomes my home
I cry. I cry and I don't know why
The fever becomes my home
Becomes my hoooomme
Becomes my-he-ya-he-ya-he-y home
Becomes my-he-ya-he-ya-he-y home
I cry. I cry and I don't know why
I cry. I cry and I don't know why
It becomes my home
It becomes my home
It becomes my home
The fever becomes my home
Becomes my-he-ya-he-ya-he-y home
My home
My home
In the day by day collision called the art of growin' up
There's an innocence we look for in the stars
To be taken back to younger days when there was no givin' up
On the people we held closest to our hearts
Yeah, it is you that I remember in that glowin'
It is you that took my first away from me
It is you I set my standards to, to every walk of life
I haven't met another you since you were with me
Sing with me
A brief 'bout with a razorblade cut me
I freaked out, thinkin' people didn't love me
I watched closely as the you I knew forgot me
In lettin' go, I am so proud of what I've done, yeah
And in a way, I failed religion, I spit the wine from mouth to cup
And I reached for somethin' more than just your God
Uncle, you spared not your children and while your prayin' hands are up
There's no forgiveness for you, you sick fuck
Because it is you that I remember in their bedroom
It is you that took their first away from them
It is you they set their standards to, you wounded them for life
You were a preacher and suppose to be above men
Sing with me
A brief 'bout with a razorblade cut me
I freaked out, thinkin' people didn't love me
I watched closely as the you I knew forgot me
In lettin' go, I am so proud of what I've done, yeah
A brief 'bout with a razorblade cut me
I freaked out, thinkin' people didn't love me
I watched closely as the you I knew forgot me
In lettin' go, I am so proud of what I've done, yeah
I try, I try to let it go, I wanna be proud, proud
Ever carried the weight of another?
For how long?
I walk as far as they need to recover
For how long? (ha!)
I want to carry a piece of who I was before
So when I hit the wall, I really hit the wall
I want to tear away the death again
A whiter shade of fucking meth again
I want to stick to clues, I want to come unglued
I want to shape the world to fit the way you move
Oh, should I listen for a dress size?
I owned up, I've grown up, do you remember me?
I showed up and so what if I'm the used to be
I'm here to tell you that I'm sorry I was sorry
But I'm happy that you're happiness is no longer about me
Trade rules, switch sides for your beautiful eyes
Let him be you through your beautiful cries
Let him hold you up so you can touch affordable skies
Live your life just like a dream
Without the pain of goodbyes
Goodbye!
Ever carried the weight of another?
For how long?
I walk as far as they need to recover
For how long?
I been a drunk disrespectful little street punk
Unlock the back of my trunk
You see, you take this bat
And bash my head into the street again
No-ones around so I keep beating it
Pull my hair back, look me in the eye
There's a self-destructive meaning in the bleeding of a guy
It's the guilt of what reality has given me
Making sense of all mistakes and my stupidity
And when you're sick you seem to think
You've failed eternally
And that the people you let in are only crumbling
When you're sick of thinking life in this recovery
When my decision paved the road
That lies in front of me
So to my friends that even call but I don't call back
I want you deep inside my heart upon a hill
It seems to hide sometimes and run away and wonder
I'm really sick of saying sorry but I will
Ever carried the weight of another?
For how long?
I walk as far as they need to recover
For how long?
But are we scared to take the ride?
Or dare to look inside?
I'm floating far away (far away)
I'm floating far away (leaving home)
I'm floating far away (so far away)
I'm floating far away
I want to learn to walk with others as an equal
I want to treat the ones who love me with respect
I want to tell the world I'll give them all a piggyback
And try to take away my negative effect
I want to kiss the girl, I know I'll never lie again
I want to call my dad and tell him that I care
I want to let my brother know
He saved my life a thousand times
Throughout the years he's been my friend
Who's always there
Ever carried the weight of another?
Losing my control
Here it is the day I have to go
Just sit beside me
I can’t let this show
How sick I feel to leave you so alone
God I’m terrified
We’ve lost respect for decency
When one can turn our world into an ant pile
We run circles, no direction do I see
The dust has blinded you, the dust has blinded me
I kissed her on the cheek
And then I waved goodbye
She had the saddest look I’ve seen in years
A kangaroo cry
A warm pathetic ocean flow we have to live by
We have to live by
Because we have to live
Chorus
And you choose to break our families
Tell me you’ve used all precautions known
And I’ll stand beside the ones who stood alone
How long will we have to sing until you finally bring our sons, our daughters home?
We’ll let the prayers start healing, what time’s been stealing
We only want to feel as close as we can be
Use hands for holding on to your precious family
Just believe in all who shine
The light to help you see
Cause if I believe in you, will you believe in me?
I kissed her on the cheek
And then I waved goodbye
She had the saddest look I’ve seen in years
A kangaroo cry
A warm pathetic ocean flow we have to live by
We have to live by
Because we have to live
Chorus
Keep hanging on
Keep hanging on
Keep hanging on
Keep hanging on
We’ll let the prayers start healing, when time’s been stealing
Start healing
Start healing
I lost a piece of me in you;
I think I left it in your arms.
I forget the reasons I got scared,
But remember that I cared quite a lot.
You see but lately I've been on my own.
Yeah one, but one by choice.
You see, thats a first for me,
There's only me, yeah theres only me,
And now I realize for once,
It's just me.
It's just me.
It's just me,
And I'll find a way to make it,
There's noone left to stop me.
Here I go.
Can we take it from the top?
So why so long?
So sad, I wanna be strong.
Don't try to take this from me.
I'm already spent living half my life undone
So why so long?
So sad, I wanna be strong.
Don't try to take this from me.
I've already spent my life living half undone.
I've been talking to my aunts and uncles, mom and dad again.
I've been finding out that I have what this world calls friends.
I've tried to push them all away,
They push me back and wanna stay
And that's one good thing I have.
I'm gonna feel a peace in me,
I'm gonna feel at home.
I'm gonna make this cloud above me disappear, be gone.
I wanna feel a punch inside, my heart beat on the floor.
I don't wanna hurt no more.
Yeah it's just me.
It's just me
And i'll find a way to make it.
There's noone left to stop me.
Here i go, can we take it from the top?
So why so long?
So sad, I wanna be strong.
Don't try to take her from me.
I've already spent my life living half undone.
So why so long?
So sad, i wanna be strong.
Don't try to take her from me.
I've already spent my life living half undone.
I used to be the one who won before.
I used to smile but dont no more.
(Come here.. babe why are you crying?
Because I want to stay with you
Oh baby,Your mommy loves you very much)
Communication [?]
I'll wait to see if we could ever get together and talk like we used to
We get together and we talk...like we used to
But you don't want to
You want a separation
And now that's strike three
I try everything, I work so hard for you
To constantly hear how I fail and abandon you
I put my heart in a dream
And now that dream it makes sure the baby - she has food to eat-and your fancy house gets paid for you hear me?
You never learned one thing, no-you never believed in me..
So if you're gonna leave-get out - just remember this is what I'm all about;
I do it for the love,
I do it for the rain,
I do it for the passion, I do it for the pain
I Do it for the rush, I do it for the doubt..
I Do it for my daughter-man-she's what I'm about
I do it for my mom, I do it for my dad
I Do it for my sanity, it's hanging from a thread
I do it for the audience who understands the need
Standin on stage cut the shit and let it bleed
So pack it up, pack it in
Write it up, write it down
Just remember that I told you it's what I'm all about
Wait wait wait...
I missed the tour where you told me not to come home again
An ex boyfriend was taking my place at our first lamaze
(You've gotta be kidding me)
How hard that was because 'cause your voice so crooked and wrong,
You barely like a mother fuckin nuclear bomb (nuclear bomb!)
I lived in a hotel room until the day she was born
And I never knew what it was to say
That could get us through our first chance at divorce
You promised change and I believed
I walked right back into the same
So if you're gonna leave me- go away
I do it for the love
I Do it for the rain
I Do it for the passion, I do it for the pain
I Do it for the rush, I do it for the doubt
I Do it for my daughter, man she's what I'm about
I Do it for my mom, I do it for my dad,
I Do it for my sanity hanging from a thread
I Do it for the audience who understands the need
Standin on the stage cut the shit and let it bleed
I do it for my brother, I do it for his wife
I do it for my manager, cause god he saved my life
I do it for confidence
I do it for release
I do it cause I'm sick of feeling sad, it's war and peace
I do it for the sunshine
For my friends
I did it for you, for you over and over and over again
But you never understand
So fuck it!
So pack it up pack it in write it up write it down just remember that I told you it's what I'm all about
(get out! go away!)[?]
I do it for the love,
I do it for the rain,
I do it for the passion, I do it for the pain
I Do it for the rush, I do it for the doubt..
I Do it for my daughter, man she's what I'm about
I do it for my mom, I do it for my dad
I Do it for my sanity, it's hanging from a thread
I do it for the audience who understands the need
Standin on stage cut the shit and let it bleed
I do it for the love
For the love
Do it for the love,for the love
Yeah I do it for the love
Do it do it do it
For the love
For my daughter
So pack it up
Pack it in
Write it up write it down
I see the sun go down on the river..
I feel the wind blow up but it fades to grey,
and I feel the air around you, its kind of closing in,
do you feel I'd fall or do you feel at all I can.
I see the world keep moving as I stumble.
they seem to move much faster than me,
and while I sit in my 4 cornered room
Dividing hearts for a little girl
while I cant be anything but who I am.
And I wish you would stay,
And that was the beginning of the two of us, the start of our show.
Just stay, stay, stay
Oh I would never have let go.
I see the sun go up as your image
and I feel the weight of your eyes as you stare
I feel it all when you when you first when you kissed my lips
You used to make me feel at home
You make me feel at home, you make me feel again
And that's when you used to say, will you stay and not let go
That was just the 2 of us to think about, the stars of our show
and you would say that we should stay and never go
ooh I would never have let go!
So take this heart of mine
You've taken it a hundred thousand times
But this time, this time, I'm gonna take it with me
I see the door close down behind you
I watch your face turn from glow to straight grey
I see the moon go up and it shines this glory on my face
Who would've known, who would've known, who would've known
We would stay and we should stay and never go oh hell no
There's just 3 of us to think about now
In our show, our show, our show
And I think we'd stay, we just stay and then we'd know
And we should never let go
Now just something to think about, oh and her heart,
Just look into those big brown eyes and you just fall apart
Maybe should stay and if you'd stay at least she'd know
That we should never have let go
No, no, let go, go
I try to stay on top of you
To hold your body down
Your shaking seems to hinder
Every grasp that I have found
Moving every inch around you
To defuse your private bomb
I stretch myself surrounding
And protecting you from harm
I use a wallet for your mouth
So when you bite you will not bleed
I drilled a wire through my cheek
And let it down and out my sleeve
And now you're pulling out the best of me
Yeah which never ever comes
This wires all thats left of me
And its hooked within my gums
Within my gums...
So drill it, so drill it
So hard
I feel it
[Kirk screaming]
So drill it, so drill it
So hard
I feel it
[Kirk screaming]
Its proof to show that I bleed for this
And I'd cut myself to shame
To get to know this masochist
Who has stolen my first name
Pretending he's a teacher
Holding all my weight at ease
Yet the teacher seems to split in two
Destroying both his knees
And now crawling I position myself
Below your broken wings
I lift your feathered left arm
Where you hide your heart from me
I never noticed it was swollen
With a touch of brutal pain
I never knew a heart could live inside
The rust from all your rain
All your rain...
So drill it, so drill it
So hard
I feel it
[Kirk screaming]
So drill it, so drill it
So hard
I feel it
[Kirk screaming]
I didnt think to bring a wash cloth
Or to rub away the dirt
Myself and I we share
This barely beating heart of hurt
And when the hurt comes theres an argument,
A fight to save a smile
A small attack on human tears
To dry them for a while
A dream we all should count on ;
Yeah a vision I believe
Where confidence is found
Attached to wires on our sleeve
And where loneliness is history
Told to pack his shit and leave
And where guidance is a fortune
Told to help in time of need
And where crying isn't secret
It's the art of how we grieve
And lessons are the key
To every goal I will acheive
I will achieve
So drill it, so drill it
So hard
I feel it
[Kirk screaming]
So drill it, so drill it
So hard
I feel it
[Kirk screaming]
So drill it, so drill it
So hard
I feel it
[Kirk screaming]
So drill it, so drill it
So hard
I feel it
I try to stay on top of you
To hold your body down
Your shaking seems to hinder
Every grasp that I had found
Moving every inch around you
To defuse your private bomb
I stretch myself surrounding
And protecting you from harm
I use a wallet for your mouth
So when you bite you will not bleed
I drill the wire through my cheek
And let it down and out my sleeve
And now you're pulling out the best of me
Yeah which never ever comes
This wires all that's left of me
And it's hooked within my gums
within my gums...
So drill it, so drill it
So hard
I feel it [Kirk screaming]
So drill it, so drill it
So hard
I feel it [Kirk screaming]
It's proof to show that I'd bleed for this
I'd cut myself to shame
To get to know this masochist
Who's stolen my first name
Pretending he's a teacher
Holding all my weight at ease
Yet the teacher seems to split in two
Destroying both his knees
And now crawling I position myself
Below your broken wing
I lift your feathered left arm
Where you hide your heart for me
I never noticed it was swollen
With the touch of brutal pain
I never knew a heart could live inside
The rust from all your rain
all your rain...
So drill it, so drill it
so hard
I feel it [Kirk screaming]
So drill it, so drill it
so hard
I feel it [Kirk screaming]
I didn't think to bring a wash cloth
Or rub away the dirt
Myself and I we share
This barely beating heart of hurt
And when the hurt comes there's an argument,
A fight to save a smile
A small attack on human tears
To dry them for a while
A dream we all should count on ;
Yeah a vision I believe
And where confidence is found
Attached to wires on our sleeve
Where loneliness is history
Told to pack his shit and leave
Where guidance is a fortune
Told to help in time of need
And were crying isn't secret
Its the art of how we greive
And lessons are the key
To every goal I will achieve
I will achieve
So drill it, so drill it
So hard
I feel it [Kirk screaming]
So drill it, so drill it
So hard
I feel it [Kirk screaming]
So drill it, so drill it
so hard [Kirk screaming]
So drill it, so drill it
You must be broken by a thousand ways of wasted time
Get to the point then off the hundred lines awake
No need to change my mind, that clean a shade of thinking time
But i seem to think more than i act upon those things
And do you ever wonder
How hard you hit you broke my thunder
And do you ever wonder
A scar was sewn a drop of blood was saved for making wine
Still no repent on how you crumble when i shake
A mental jaw was used to pry me from this wrecking barn
But the sad details or the promises that i make
And do you ever wonder
How hard you hit you broke my thunder
And do you ever wonder
I'm cramped and crawling from under the dead and i
I'm sick of living without you in bed and i
I've made mistakes that i wrote, that i read but now i
Just can't seem to be pre-occupied
But the heart was tossed with a black laced chain
And with these hands that i write with
And the ode that i live by you know i will never be with you
And do you ever wonder
How hard you hit you broke my thunder
And do you ever wonder
Cus God made this night for me
A silly devil in me talking
Romantic company for walking
Over and out
Over and out
But this year's the year i write to be
That silly devil in me talking
Romantic company for walking
Over and out
Over and out
And do you ever wonder
How hard you hit you broke my thunder
And do you ever wonder
How hard you hit you broke my...
You broke my...
You broke my...
White kitchen walls with a thousand windows
Turn on Winston in the den
And I'm still asleep but I can hear the piano
When you make breakfast after 10
And I smell the coffee on your fingers
I still smell the perfume in the bed
The crushed linen roses on everything
And you're still inside my head
You gotta make her know how it feels to miss you
Let her know you're swapping sides
You're not the one with all the problems
You're the one with all the pride
So just pick your head up boy, and
Walk away
Walk the coolest walk that you know
Cause in a month or two she'll call you
You gotta hang up the phone
I hope she knows I've got this memory
That won't ever seem to break or bend
A thick lock & sheet rock is on my windows in the kitchen
I don't think I'll ever take em' down again
And I've learned a lot from all these break ups and make ups
And fuck ups and fake ups
Things that I wish you could comprehend yeah, comprehend
But for now I'll lace up
these wingtip shoes, boys
And I'll go have breakfast with my good friends
You got to make her know how it feels to miss you
You got to let her know you're swapping sides
You're not the one with all the problems
You're the one with all the pride
You got to make her know how it feels to miss you
Let her know you're swapping spit
You're not the one with all the problems
She's the one that's full of shit
So just pick your head up, boys and
Walk away
Walk the coolest walk that you know
In a month or two she'll call you
You got to
Blue skies
Calling on blue skies
Don't take them away boys
Don't take them away
'Cause I'll never stop
Lovin' my
I've been to both knees
Raise my hands up to the sky, forgive me
Is something out there far beyond the clouds
I'm asking help me
Help me to see the world
Through baby eyes and hold me closely
I need a fresh start on the roller-coaster made for coasting
It's time to wake up
Time to make up
Time to shake these memories
It's time to leave the past in the past and lace up a new set of shoe
strings
I want the world to know
I've got your back
Through up and down see
So we can sit together
Side by side through amazing
Chorus
Blue skies
Calling on blue skies
Don't take them away boys
Don't take them away
'Cause I'll never stop
I've broken every bone
And fought through what felt never ending
I thought my head was made of sadness
But my heart is mending
I scream at sunsets
Give applause to what I can't control
Then somehow laugh at how the moon divides an ocean solar
I wanna be that ocean
I want to shine like that
I want to smile so big my daughter jumps into my lap
I wanna tell her daddy's fine and always plans to be
Then take her in my arms
This is what we'll always see
Blue skies
Calling on blue skies
Never take them away boys
Don't take them away
'Cause I'll never stop
Lovin' my
Blue skies
Calling on blue skies
Never take them away boys
Don't take them away
And when I'm gone
I won't go screaming in the end
'Cause I'll give you everything my life amounts to
So raise this life up with me
And baby let's go dancing
C'mon lets go!
Blue skies
Calling on blue skies
Don't take them away boys
Never take them away
Have you ever been so lonely
there's no one there to hold
just pull me in or disown me
and then
climb inside
my arms are open wide
have a look inside
It is not that I am scared to learn
just why I'm empty inside
just hold my hand to show some concern
if I live or die
My eyes are are open wide
help me look inside
Singing (justin sings)
I hear the water drip from the faucet
it's sweetly falling into
who knew
I'm gently closing the closet
and I fall to the floor
and crawl to my room
the thought of ending it soon
just let me sleep in my room
hear me CRY...
No, I hear a knock at the front door
Don't come in
I try to look at you but I can't stop shaking
leave me alone just go away
Mother I'm soo scared
I'm so scared
An empty bed but all of my sheets
are gone
they're wrapped around me and you
all is quiet but the drop of my gun
'cause I...
I want to belong to someone
If I can't crawl inside of you I'm laughing with a broken face
I stumble across my self-esteem
But to picture the pleasure is making me want my space
Understand that God wrapped you like a bow
But in my head there's some shelves that need cleaning
From basement to ceiling, control
If what you're seeing is an open book
That's great well, I'm an open book
But I'm real shy
Now there's a part of me seeking
And desperately needing to open up
That's strange 'cause I'm an open book a confused boy
I'm an automatic steeple for depressed and lonely people
My heart while in its cage is used to give and not receive a thing
But the only funny thing is that I don't know how to give myself advice
And I've got this post-traumatic thing
I've got this tattoo of a ring that lies around my wedding finger
And that's where I want to state this claim
That I gotta learn to live and dream
Before I go and get myself in love, in love
Before, before, before I go and get myself in love
There's Zoloft, Welbutrin, there's Paxil that's proven
No side effects
But the rest left unnamed 'cause they worked like a charm on me
But when your savings is drying
You can't stop from crying, you've got to suck it up
You're not her buttercup, you're not her favorite book
I am an automatic steeple for depressed and lonely people
My heart while in its cage is used to give and not receive a thing
But the only funny thing is that I don't know how to give myself advice
And I've got this post-traumatic thing
I've got this tattoo of a ring that lies around my wedding finger
And that's where I want to state this claim
That I gotta learn to live and dream
Before I go and get myself in love, in love
Before, before, before I go and get myself in love
I close my eyes and I smile
Knowing that everything is alright
To the core
So close that door
Is this happening?
My breath is on your hair
I'm unaware
That you opened the blinds and let the city in
God, you held my hand
And we stand
Just taking in everything.
And I knew it from the start
So my arms are open wide
Your head is on my stomach
And we're, we're trying so hard not to fall asleep
But Here we are
On this 18th floor balcony...
we're both flying away.
So we talked about mom's and dad's
About family pasts
Just getting to know where we came from
Our hearts were on display
For all to see
I can't believe this is happening to me and,
I raised my hand as if to show you that I was yours
That I was so yours for the taking
I'm so yours for the taking and
Thats when I felt the wind pick up
I grabbed the rail while choking up
These words to say and then you kissed me... (yeah)
I knew from the start
My arms are open wide
Your head is on my stomach
And we're, we're trying so hard not to fall asleep
But here we are
On this 18th floor balcony...
We're both flying away
And I'll try to sleep
to keep you in my dreams
'Till I can bring you home with me
I'll try to sleep
and when i do I'll keep you in my...dreams
I knew it from the start
So my arms are open wide
And your head is on my stomach
And we're, we're trying so hard not to fall asleep
So here we are
On this 18th floor balcony...
Yeah
I knew it from the start
So my arms are open wide
Your head is on my stomach
No...We're not going to sleep
Here we are
On this 18th floor baclony...
Some kind of light
at the end
when touching
the edge of her skin
Once so hard to speak
Now so easy to play around
Catching your eye you know
That eye that slapped you in your face
and called you a puppy
Well how do you say
I was hypnotized
Hypnotized
My words, they pour
Like children to the playground
Children to the playground
You make me smile
There's some kind of light at the end
Stoned, forgetful, and then
I'm drinking what used to be sin
And touching the edge of her skin
And could you be the one that's not afraid
To look me in the eyes
I swear I would collapse
If I would tell how I think you fell
From the sky
Yeah my words, they pour
Like children to the playground
Children to the playground
You make me smile
There's some kind of light at the end
Stoned, forgetful, and then
I'm drinking what used to be sin
And touching the edge of her skin
There's some kind of light at the end
Stoned, forgetful, and then
I'm drinking what used to be sin
And touching the edge of her skin
It's the feeling I get
My palms with sweat
Like some kind of daydream
I'll never forget
I'm stuck in this spin
Why does it begin
By touching the edge of her skin
There's some kind of light at the end
Stoned, forgetful, and then
I'm drinking what used to be sin
And touching the edge of her skin
There's some kind of light at the end
Stoned, forgetful, and then
I'm drinking what used to be sin
Did he really get to take you home?
I'm surprised that you chose him.
I'm surprised that i'm not in a halfway home
I'm not surprised i never saw you alone
when they brought me home.
so who does this separation work for?
so which one of us could wage one more
it's not about the feelings that we shared before, no
cuz your words don't calm anymore
no more, what did you want me for?
how do you call,what we have love?
when you don't even notice
that look upon my face?
yeah i've done this before
you'll be sorry when i'm gone
yeah you waited too long.
and did you really think id take it
with information fabricated?
look i give you credit for pathetically thinking that you could make this up.
watch this
she turns about face
He stays in a house in vegas place
helpless you know that im away
In my truck sitting in a hotel crazy
That guy on the phone, breaking records
telling me there's something wrong
already,don't I need to know ?
how do you call,what we have love?
when you don't even notice
that look upon my face
yeah i've done this before
you'll be sorry when im gone
yeah you waited too long
(x2)
this is urgent
call them emergencies
i don't know how to stop them
woke up gun and a pistol
you fill your clip with lies
then load each one and fire right over my head
i need a finish line
this pressures too hard
i should've seen the end was coming sooner than I ever did
reached down in the pit of my soul
i felt things that i didn't want to know were there
i guess the waiting is over
how do you call,what we have love?
when you don't even notice
that look upon my face
yeah i've done this before
you'll be sorry when im gone
yeah you waited too long
Relapse
Prevent trigger intent
Now drown
High strung
Say X amount of words
Your solar, bipolar
Panic disorder
Seems harder and harder and harder
Still you try to control it
You mold, you mold
Yeah you shape to mold
Oh you're bold you're bold
But your shape is bold
You're a symptom superficial
To what they call knowing you
Minus the speed,
Could you imagine the phobia?
Your brain is faulty wiring
the reason for tiring
Keep treating the curse,
Imagine the worst
Systematic, sympathetic
Quite pathetic, apologetic, paramedic
Your heart is prosthetic
A plate of quite peculiar
On a dish of my own
A tablespoon of feather
tickle me to the bone
Give me recipes for happy
with the chemicals gone
Drinking freedom from a bottle
to the tune of belong
I'm sick of shaking
never waking
from the hell I achieve
I never knew you till you left me
with the crying disease
Another curing, reassuring
way to buckle the knees
So mistreated, I repeated
Never blessing your sneeze
Now deleted and defeated
I will stand on my own
Yeah your memory that punches me
has broken the bone
Give me recipes for sorry
I'm admitting I'm wrong
Still your memory that punches me
Describe the pain
That choked your reality
It's all in your mind he said
You have to go graceful dancing
I closed the door on the war I started last Halloween
I'm gonna be fine again
I have to keep graceful dancing
Here we are
You're a superstar on your own
And I'm looking over your shoulder, getting older
And god only knows
That here we are
And you're a superstar on your own
Yea here we are
The sunset rains, like a bullethole
Trees only seem for hanging
The moon is a target range
And rivers seem only for drowning
You ball the blame
Then you starve to finish your painting
Its gonna take time my friend
You have to keep graceful dancing
Here we are
And you're a superstar on your own
And I'm looking over your shoulder getting older
And god only knows
Here we are
And you're a superstar on your own
My weaknesses,
Rear their ugly faces on a day to day basis.
Stay calm and try to see this,
I'm always sensitive relaxing,
always delicately asking.
But I can't seem to fly away,
I'm feeling small, tall and sick of it all,
and all I want to do is crawl.
You...fly alway,
I'm feeling small, tall and sick of it all,
and all I want to do is say...
How to cook up pride?
If you lemon your behavior
it will side a different flavor.
How to change my mind?
If you break apart the candy,
gently slip it in my brandy.
But I can't seem to fly away.
I'm feeling tall small and sick of it all,
and Esti says that it's my calling.
Fly away.
I'm feeling tall small and sick of it all,
and I want to do is say...
Hold your candle high.
If they jeopardize your meaning,
you must strike upon their ceiling.
If I'm right then who am I?
Well I am simply just the candy,
I'm tired, twisted, barely breathing, buried in the dark
Don't be concerned, it's just the power of a breaking heart.
How good am I hiding it?
Look, I've got some bad intentions.
Guilty as fucking charged.
Still standing stable, more than able 'cause I know who you are.
I know the birthdays, anniversaries, all the first days I missed.
I regret them all.
But now I know this:
I know that God exists.
I held her in my arms.
I never knew I was able to ever feel this strong.
Take me off your worry list.
It'll be better that way.
I'm really fine and there's nothing we haven't talked about.
So, take me off your worry list I said, "Throw it away."
This is what my life is about.
I might have been gone but I never walked out.
I've taken a thousand red eyes to change your point of view.
What kind of man would take the trust you break and still follow through?
'Cause I'm standin' right here.
And you may not show up.
This same gate 14 where, honestly, I'm just sick of calling your bluff.
And it's just embarrassing, that I nearly threw up
And I'm trying hard to change the things I always screw up.
And at the top of my list, this visitation's no relationship.
But I gotta make the best of it.
'Cause I know -
I know that God exists.
I held her in my arms.
I never knew I was able to ever feel this strong.
Take me off your worry list.
It'll be better that way.
And I'm doin' fine and I've got plenty of friends around.
Take me off your worry list.
Just throw it away.
Well, it's time to stand up on my own for her.
'Cause I'm packing it up, and I'm comin' today.
I couldn't wait to finally pick my family up.
Everything is quiet and covered in snow.
There's something wrong here...
Nobody's at home.
Oh, no, no, no, no, no.
Now, I'm back in the driver's seat.
Heading back home.
Yeah, back to Texas on my own.
Take me off your worry list.
It'll be better that way.
And I'm doin' fine and I've got plenty of friends around.
Take me off your worry list.
Just throw it away.
Yeah, it's time to stand up on my own for her.
I'm packing it up, and I'm comin' today.
This is what my story's about.
I might have been gone but I never walked out.
I'm packin' it up, and I'm comin' today.
This is what your story's about.
My pretty little girl, can you figure it out?
If it helps to know so there is no doubt,
Just listen to the stories.
Not everything is glorious.
Some hurt, some love, some shout.
I fought the world and I lost that bout.
And you are what my album's about.
INTRO:
I'm asking you one question.
You want me to sign away the rights as a father to my daughter
So that you'll leave me alone and let Liv be happy?
Everything is...
She's so happy.
I wish you knew that.
She is happy, I know but...
She's such a happy girl.
I'm I'm I'm I'm asking to just...
How do I...?
I think that your right.
I don't think your ready for a family Justin.
I'm not ready for a...?
And when you are, I hope that you have one with...
With somebody that...
That you treat much better than you did us.
But I think at this point you should probably acknowledge the fact that...
That...?
You have failed miserably…
VERSE 1:
No joke took a breath and then awoke.
I was standing in an airport looking like a joke.
Saying Sir can you help me, mam could you please?
So they lead me to the pay phone flagging down the police.
Mr. officer I know who I am but the rest of me my memory I just don't understand.
I do know that I'm an unsafe man with a plan
Of getting on a plane, fly away to kill a man.
Like a freight train; threat to myself.
I got a history of blackouts, bad mental health.
So… Both cops each arm, alarm, no harm, disarm, pat down, do the body check.
Next thing I was a walking on the airfield.
Backseat I was a heading to a hospital.
I'm sorry for the drama that I bring through the screen.
He said "Son you did the right thing."
CHORUS:
Please help me understand why you can't talk man to man.
But you can stand with your dick in your hand.
You're acting like a pussy man.
Hey! Hey!
Huhh
VERSE 2:
I was faithful to my wife and now we're separated.
Use to drive her in the back I underestimated.
Like a strong sinks down into the complicated.
Fact that she gave that ass up I never fucking dated.
See your better than that.
No it's not.
Well he's a rough real tough man going round the back.
Just a pussy with a dick stand up and be a fucking man.
Hiding from the husband scared I'll make a beating.
Now up in Lincoln
I'm in the deep end.
Think I'll I come and break you smash your fucking face in.
Cut you up vanilla juice and watch you try to fuck them.
(CHORUS) X2
BRIDGE:
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VERSE 3:
Is that beat up?
Is that beat up yet?
Please help me understand.
Why you can't talk man-to-man.
Is that beat up?
Is that beat up yet?
Ha! Ha!
Stand up.
Stand on top of.
(Whispered Grunts)
(Unrecognizable)
(CHORUS) X2
I tried and tried
i tried so many things that wouldn't take
like stop the leak prevent the flood some say
but nothing helped at all
and you're not listening
to what i say
you waste the time for memories made
communication has not made its way
to your agenda for today
or any other day
cuz this is the last time i'm gonna say it
if you come 'round here you know
we're gonna have some problems though
yeah we're over…get over it though…
i've seen that look before
leave that shit at your door
yeah we're over…get over it though…
now i'm shouted out
you gotta hear me
can you end this now
i'm tired of waiting
you don't get the point
and you don't get control
and we both have a chance
if you just let go
you can't have me tonight, tomorrow night
the next day, for anyone, or anything
and anyway i'm not asking you to stay
you're not my fucking problem
one you'd just throw away
let's burn this house we built up down
and simply walk away
if you come 'round here you know
we're gonna have some problems though
yeah we're over…get over it though…
i've seen that look before
leave that shit at your door
yeah we're over…get over it though…
i'm gonna win this conversation
look who's got the microphone, huh?
i can't believe you're stuck on always
trying to fuck me up
i think you ruined us all
i truly believe
you fuckin' ruined us all...YEAH!
if you come 'round here you know
we're gonna have some problems though
yeah we're over…get over it though…
i've seen that look before
leave that shit at your door
yeah we're over…yes we're over…
(i was wondering why i wasn't sad like usual)
(i'm not sad no more)
(you're just a mindfuck)
(but hey you got your facebook)
(so join the real world)
sweet and somber pigeon wings
can't we all recall when mama and papa
were the sweet toothed christmas ball
i said, picture as holiday family
yeah of course i was small and i all i knew was my grandpa
but i really didn't know him at all i said,
my blood, my cousins, my calvelry
yeah a piece of them gone but still i feel them strong
when i reach for david cause my granpa is gone
i shout out, i got love for the family!!
yeah my mother is a doll and my brother can stop any brawl
but uhm, i pucker up i'd like to kiss you all
i said
but open your eyes, a new song cause the family is wrong
so don't lecture me, don't lecture me
but as far as i can see
a step mom yeah the widow's palm is what's crushing me
and this family
it's beyond my time, yeah it's beyond my time
Whoa-ah-oh ah-ah-oh,
Whoa-ah-oh ah-ah-oh,
Whoa-ah-oh ah-ah-oh,
Whoa-ah-oh ah-ah-oh,
Whoa-ah-oh ah-ah-oh,
Whoa-ah-oh ah-ah-oh,
Whoa-ah-oh ah-ah-oh,
Whoa-ah-oh ah-ah-oh,
Take my hand
Maybe we should run away
Maybe we should disappear
Leave everything behind
Like the useless things
Boxes labeled memories
The sudden health emergencies
Yeah we could leave those things behind
Show me, show me arms that reach for all we can be
Through understanding, I tried forgiveness,
I faced the past, it's what I witnessed
Why do I only feel the chills when I'm with you?
I only hear your words that you say are true
But you keep thinking it over, thinking it over,
You can catch me if you wanted to, oh
Whoa-ah-oh ah-ah-oh,
Whoa-ah-oh ah-ah-oh,
Now, why you gotta say goodbye
When you know you're gonna come with me
No, can't afford to leave and stay
You're gonna have to just build one way
So tell me, tell me all the things you told me we could be
Through understanding, I tried forgiveness,
I faced the facts, it's what I witnessed
Why do I only feel the chills when I'm with you
I only hear your words that you say are true
But you keep thinking it over, thinking it over,
You can catch me if you wanted to
I only feel the chills when I'm with you
I feel like I'm so high, I'm feeling so high
C-catch me, c-c-catch me
Why does a heart always have to break
(When you're trying way too hard), have to break
(Yes she'll see right though you), have to break
Oh communication, yeah conversation,
It breaks down
Now there will be nothing to talk about,
(Absolutely nothing, just blah blah blah)
Whoa-ah-oh ah-ah-oh,
Whoa-ah-oh ah-ah-oh,
Whoa-ah-oh ah-ah-oh,
Whoa-ah-oh ah-ah-oh,
Why do I only feel the chills when I'm with you
I only hear your words that you say are true
But you keep thinking it over, thinking it over,
You can catch me if you wanted to
Whoa-ah-oh ah-ah-oh,
Whoa-ah-oh ah-ah-oh,
Whoa-ah-oh ah-ah-oh,
Can catch me, c-c-catch me
Many times, many times i fell in love with you and never showed it
Another way,another way, another way, another way to catch a sunny day.. It only molded
I'd run a mile, Run a mile, run a mile,Run a mile, I'd run a m hile for you...blind folded
And all the words,the words, the words, all the words you ever said to me will always be broken
So, so I put away, put away, put away, put away the words you never said to me ... and the scar thats open wide
You turn away,turn away, turn away, turn away, You turnded away from me... and never said goodbye
All the words, the words, the words, all the words you ever promised me were never spoken
And here I am, here I am, here I am, Im not afraid of you... but still broken
A hey ya, A hey ya A hey ya im still broken...
A hey ya, A hey ya A hey ya im still broken...
broken broken broken
broken...
And if you looked into my dark unhappy eyes... you would see tha tears that im choking
And if you touched, If you touched my heart ... you'd feel the the pain I call hoping
And dont you know, Dont you know i'd die from just a lie from you... yeah a tok
And even though.even though even though, zi know it could never heal... My hearts still broken
A hey ya, A hey ya A hey ya im still broken...
A hey ya, A hey ya A hey ya im still broken...
She always said A hey ya, A hey ya A hey ya im still broken...still broken still broken still broken...
It’s all about steam
It’s all about dreams
It’s all about making the best out of everything
You’ll know when your fine
Cause you’ll talk like a mime
You’ll fall on your face
You get back up and you’re doing fine
“a considerate clown, a preachy preaching machine”
is one of the sweetest things you would say about me
but I don’t have the time for your distorted esteem
why are you toying with my mind?
I don’t wanna hear you say say say say say say say say it
I don’t wanna hear you say say say say say say it
I don’t wanna hear you say say say say say say say say it
Now you’re messing with my pride
Look, You think you’re smarter than me
Well everyone knows you will never be smarter than me
That’s how it goes
I gained forty pounds because of you
Was there an “S” on my chest
Well I confess, you were too much stress
I’d have a heart attack at best
So now I breathe it out, I breathe it out
I spit it on the crowd cause they lift me up, they lift me up, they lift me up
When I’m feeling down
What am I spitting out? spitting out, something we never talk about
It’s called my …mind
I don’t wanna hear you say say say say say say say say it
I don’t wanna hear you say say say say say say it
I don’t wanna hear you say say say say say say say say it
Now you’re messing with my pride
I’m sick of standing in your line
So now you’ll have to take it
take this to heart
I will never let you fuck me over
Stop talking down to me your war is old
your game is over
So here’s my colder shoulder
I don’t wanna hear you say say say say say say say say it
I don’t wanna hear you say say say say say say it
I don’t wanna hear you say say say say say say say say it
Now you’re messing with my pride
Something we don’t talk about
We talked
Together sharpening a knife
Like killing partners for a life
Hey, we can hide the bodies on the ride home
Now here we are
We're licking skin to wipe us clean
Strike a match, pour gasoline
Ditch the scene and watch this city burn
Sleep, my lap will be a pillow steering wheel turn
I'll be reaching for the stars with you (honey)
Who cares, no one else believes
(Yes) so I, set fire to everyone around
But you--I told you
I told you we'd do it
So ha ha ha ha
ha ha ha ha
Yeah we won
We Drive
To leave the past and clear the mind
to watch the sunset set its time
I swear you'll find
I'm your ride home
Now close your eyes
its' getting dark and the highways clear
No sign of life from front to rear
Its just you my dear
On the ride home
We're going home
I'll be reaching for the stars with you (honey)
Who cares, no one else believes
(Yes) so I, set fire to everyone around
But you--I told you
I told you we'd do it
So ha ha ha ha
ha ha ha ha
Yeah we won
We talked
Together sharpening a knife
Like killing partners for a life
Hey, we can hide the bodies on the ride home
'Cause we're going home
I'll be reaching for the stars with you (honey)
Who cares, no one else believes
(Yes) so I, set fire to everyone around
But you--I told you
I told you we'd do it
So ha ha ha ha (we won)
ha ha ha ha (oh yeah we won)
ha ha ha ha (we won)
ha ha ha ha
Yeah we won
(One big lie)
(One big lie)
(One fucking big lie)
I'm sorry for the way I treated you
I'm stuck in my ways to just run
In the opposite way when things get comfortable
I'll keep on licking 'till your flavor is gone
But it's getting more impossible
To keep a straight face
And be trusted with "I love you"
(One big lie)
Yes, I love you
So don't trust my words when I'm in the bed with you
I'll bring the message, but the message gets lost
Yeah, you opened your legs, and maybe
I promised you
Well, you didn't notice that my ankles were crossed
But it's getting more impossible
To keep a straight face
And be trusted with "I love you"
(One big lie)
Can you show me how to treat someone?
I don't recall ever learning how
'Cause I keep fucking up
Yeah, 'cause I keep fucking up
Will you think of me,
in time?
It's never my luck,
So never mind.
I wanna say your name,
But the pain starts
again,
It's never my luck,
So never mind.
Chorus:
And I had a dream that you were with me ,
it wasn't my fault,
you rolled me over,
flipped me over,
like a somersault.
That doesn't happen to me
I've never been here before
I saw forever in my never,
And I stood outside her
Heaven.
Will you wait for me,
In time?
It's never my luck,
So never mind.
And, yeah, I lost a lot of what I
don't expect to ever
return
I tend to push `em 'till the pushings turn from
hurting to burn,
I always take them to that place I thought they wanted
to go,
But end up dancing 'round
this clown commands,
applause at a show...
Chorus:
I had a dream that you were with me ,
It wasn't my fault,
you rolled me over,
flipped me over,
A somersault.
And that doesn't happen to me
I've never been here before
I saw forever in my never,
And I stood outside her
Heaven
Her heaven,
Heaven,
Heaven.
And I could only dream of you and sleep,
but I never see sunlight again,
I can try to be with you , but somehow I'll end up just losing a friend,
I can only reach for you
relate to you,
I'm losing my friend...
Where did she go?
Where?
Chorus:
I had a dream that you were with me ,
It wasn't my fault,
you rolled me over,
flipped me over,
like a somersault.
That doesn't happen to me
I've never been here before
I saw forever in my never,
And I stood outside her
Heaven
I stood outside her heaven
Let me in your heaven...
If I can't be a brave boy jumping of the head of a mountain
and I wonder why the thought of it brings me to the edge of my bed
if I can't tell the diffrence from a waterfall and fountain
is it the way that you looked at me then in a moment i said
that I could sit here for hours waiting on your arrival
I could sit here for days hoping you'd come out and play
I could die in a minute and the one chance for survival
would be the sound of your beautiful name
and if I cried would you hold me?
softly whisper everything is ok
because I live to breath the sky that hangs high above you
and the tears that I had before will simply say
that I love you!
that I love you!
Blue does everything I've never seen before
Blue does everything I've never seen before
She's the answer to the prayer I hadn't found
She's the answer to the silence, she's my sound
Ohh what a girl
Ohh what a beautiful girl she is
Blue does everything I've never seen before
Blue does everything I've never seen before
She's the answer to the prayer I hadn't found
She's the answer to the silence she's my sound
Ohh what a girl
Ohh what a beautiful girl she is
I said ohh what a girl
Ohh what a beautiful girl she is
Ohh What a girl
I really need to talk with you
I keep stepping on the vein that keeps my lifeline flowing through
I wanna be your perfect stick of glue
But I don't feel perfect at all
Sad and insecure, flawed
Yea, I find it hard to hold conversations
I get sweaty sick and I wanna walk away
No, it's not you, it's strictly me in this situation
But I'm wondering will it ever go away
Just go away, still
Chorus:
Sometimes I feel like weeping
Awake and when I'm sleeping
Perfecting how to put a game face on
And this puzzle I've been keeping
Has been in hiding, creeping
Out the closet door
Spilling out onto the floor
How long will I be picking up the pieces?
How long will I be picking up my heart?
Listen, I'll be as honest as I feel
I feel like I'm getting more paranoid
Cuz I'm hearing things and they never turn out real
It feels like my heart is made of pure steel
It just feels so heavy all the time
I'm scared of death, I'm scared of living
Shit, I gave up on the past cuz it's unforgiving
I misplaced my trust
I watch my word begin to rust
I'm that balloon about to bust
I need a place for reliving, still
Chorus
How long, in another space and time
Keep picking up pieces in the corner of my mind
How long, did I know so hard to find
Keep picking up pieces in the corner of my mind
C'mon
Whoa Whoa X6
I'm just a normal boy
That sank when I fell overboard
My ship would leave the country
But I'd rather swim ashore
Without a life vest I'd be stuck again
Wish I was much more masculine
Maybe then I could learn to swim
Like 'fourteen miles away'
Now floating up and down
I spin, colliding into sound
Like whales beneath me diving down
I'm sinking to the bottom of my
Everything that freaks me out
The lighthouse beam has just run out
I'm cold as cold as cold can be
I want to swim away but don't know how
Sometimes it feels just like I'm fallin' in the ocean
Let the waves up take me down
Let the hurricane set in motion, yeah
Let the rain of what I feel right now, come down
Let the rain come down
Where is the coastguard
I keep looking each direction
For a spotlight, give me something
I need something for protection
Maybe flotsam junk will do just fine
The jetsam sunk, I'm left behind
I'm treading for my life believe me
(How can I keep up this breathing)
Not knowing how to think
I scream aloud, begin to sink
My legs and arms are broken down
With envy for the solid ground
I'm reaching for the life within me
How can one man stop his ending
I thought of just your face
Relaxed, and floated into space
I want to swim away but don't know how
Sometimes it feels just like I'm fallin' in the ocean
Let the waves up take me down
Let the hurricane set in motion, yeah
Let the rain of what I feel right now, come down
Let the rain come down
Now waking to the sun
I calculate what I had done
Like jumping from the bow, yeah
Just to prove that I knew how, yeah
It's midnight's late reminder of
The loss of her, the one I love
My will to quickly end it all
Sat front row in my need to fall
Into the ocean, end it all
Into the ocean, end it all
Into the ocean, end it all
Into the ocean, end it all
[Zayra]
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
I want to swim away but don't know how
Sometimes it feels just like I'm falling in the ocean
Let the waves up take me down
Let the hurricane set in motion, yeah
Let the rain of what I feel right now, come down
Let the rain come down
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
(In to space)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Committed at twenty two
Just to get over you
My belly aches blue
Lorazepam flu
I'm down for the count
Always three times a day
Sometimes four
A bee stings right through the arm
The high swing I ride upon
My eyes can't quite focus on
The nurse with my Lucky Charms
Well a two step was just a laugh
Our boundaries were broke in half
It's a good thing to know
As you walk into group for the show
knock-knock on the window pane
My smoke break, the hour rang
My quiet roommate sleeps the same
Woke up when dinner came
The man's no more than forty old
Arrived scared two days ago
A family of earth and gold
But still nonetheless alone
I learned quick. Knew what to say
Then three angels walked my way
In Spanish tongue they knelt to pray
And said "God keep him safe
From screaming voices"
They became my family
Outstretched their hands are on my head
You know, I can feel them breathing
They actually knelt down and prayed for me
They actually knelt down and prayed for me
Don't you dare put me on H.R.S.A
Does self abuse extend your hospital stay?
I think I'll lie a bit
Lord I won't cry over anything
Over anything at all
Remember how you used to say
You couldn't wait till tomorrow for a brand new day
no fuss when ya had to ride the bus
You just add a little blush
To paralyze your school crush
Now you're older and the weight is on your shoulder
Make the world a little colder
No more hidin in the old day
Be strong
Don't you give up hope
It will get hard
Life's like a jump rope
Up down
Up down
Up down
Up down yeah
Cause it will get hard
Remember life's like a jump rope
Up down
Up down
Up down
Up down yeah
It will get hard
Cause it will get hard
There'll be a bump and there will be a bruise
There'll be alarms and there will be a snooze
There'll be a path that you will have to choose
There'll be a win and there will be a lose and
You gotta hold your head up high and
Watch all the negative go by
Don't ever be ashamed to cry
You go ahead
Cause life's like a jump rope
Up down
Up down
Up down
Up down yeah
It will get hard
Remember life's like a jump rope
Up down
Up down
Up down
Up down yeah
It will get hard
Come on
I want to tell you that everything will be okay
That everything will eventually turn itself to gold
So keep pushing through it all
Don't follow, lead the way
Don't lose yourself or your health
Cause life's like a jump rope
Up down
Up down
Up down
Up down yeah
You stomp your feet so hard you make it pound
Raise the bottom to the top
And now we're never coming down
Up down stomp your feet spin around
Clap hands to the rhythm
Then you slip down
You stomp your feet so hard you make it pound
Raise the bottom to the top
And now we're never coming down
Up down
Up down
Up down
Up down yeah
It will get hard
Remember life's like a jump rope
Up down
Up down
Up down
Up down yeah
It will get hard
Cause it will get hard
Up down
Up down
Up down
Up down yeah
Life's like a jump rope
Up down
Up down
Up down
Up down yeah
Whoa oh
To find the trail that I'm supposed to lead
You'll find that our roller coaster everything
But you kill me with your princess deeds
What a smile
I'd walk a mile
To see
Life's a crusade
God made you for me
And I don't wanna
Just coast through everything
Life's a crusade
God made you for me
You'll find that our roller coaster everything
But hear my prayer
I'll give you whatever you'll take me for
So hear my prayer
I'll give you whatever you'll take me for
So would you, take me far away
Take me far away
To find the man that I'm supposed to be
Yeah, I'll be rebel boy
I'll be your program toy
How it's supposed to be
And how you kill me with your princess deeds
What a smile
I'd run a mile to see
Life's a crusade
God made you for me
I don't wanna
Just coast through everything
Life's a crusade
God made you for me
But I don't wanna
Just coast through everything
Hear my prayer
I'll give you whatever you'll take me for
Hear my prayer
I'll give you whatever you'll take me for
So would you
Take me far away
Would you take me far away
Would you take me far away
Would you take me far
Take me far
Take me far
It would simply say everything if you would
Take a pen and write my name on a friend
Who never cared to let me in
And take a vast revine that for
Three years swimmin' straight upstream
And the wind...the wind will drag me down the end
You live inside my wall and I
I reach back, hit you harder than God falls
Christ, Amen, Amen, Amen
You're such a line to break and I
I'm so scared to make another mistake in the end
But I just wanna be happy again
Until it all falls down
And where does that leave me?
With things, things, I've got so many things to say
And with a broken heart, and a straight face
I'm sayin' Brother, help me
It's just a natural phase that I
I go through and then it's taken away
And then BAM! BAM! I'm fixed, I'm fixed, I'm fixed. I'm fixed.
Yeah, and I'm in another place to be where I
I can't sleep without the thought of me being so
So damned sick, But I'm sick, I'm sick. I'm sick.
So take this song, take this song away
Until it all falls down
And where does that leave me?
With things, things, I've got so many things to say
And with a broken heart and a straight face
And he says reach for the girl
Reach for the girl and hold her close
Believe you can shine when you're silver
And I promise you gold; I promise you gold
And whenever you're dark inside
Don't let go; no, don't let go
Remember there's rain and there's candy and Christmasy winter snow
And remember I love you the same
and I'll strangle your pain
And he tells me to sing
So I sing, and I sing
For my brother who keeps me sane
And tells me everything will be OK.
I'm like a ghost
I'll be living in a dirt room
Waiting for the day to be closer
To the window when you're home
I'll be standing by your back door
Reaching for the knife in my coat
I'm going to put it to your throat
You sweaty piggy, you're a bad man
What a fucking sad way to go
Your mother raised you as a joke
I should have wiped away a burden
Use the curtain in the kitchen to choke
You think you own me
You should have known me
You took the future and the food off my family's plate
You'll think you'll use me
I'm stronger than you
You take my money, but it's useless
When you see what I do to you
Look what I'm doing to you
Oh god then you awoke
You start screaming through the duct tape
Don't ever think I'm letting you go
I'm busy digging you a hole
Now you'll be living in a dirt room
Breathing through the straw of your own
Come on
I really think that this is fun for the money
I'll make it comfy for the time wasted making you rich
I want to cover you in ants, bees and honey
Then take a picture for the cover of our album!
You think you own me
You should have known me
You took the future and the food off my family's plate
You'll think you'll use me
I'm stronger than you
You take my money, but it's useless
When you see what I do to you
You think you own me
You should have known me
You took the future, the food off my family's plate
You'll think you'll use me
But I'm stronger than you
You take my money, but it's useless
When you see what I do to you
And now I see you, oh
'Cause your back's against the wall
And finally you're mine
You're mine
You think you own me
You should have known me
You took the future and the food off my family's plate
You'll think you'll use me
I'm stronger than you
You take my money, but it's useless
When you see what I do to you
I really think that this is fun for the money
We'll make you comfy for the time wasted making you rich
I want to cover you in ants, bees and honey
You must be broken
By a thousand ways of wasting time
Get to the point
And off a hundred lines a week
No need to change my mind
A cleaner shade of thinking time
But I seem to think more than I act upon most things.
[Chorus]
Do you ever wonder
How hard you hit?
You broke my thunder
Do you ever wonder?
(How hard you hit
You broke my
You broke my
You broke my
You broke my thunder)
A scar was sewn
A drop of blood was saved for making wine
Still no repent
On how you crumble when I shake
A mental jaw was used
To pry me from this wrecking bond
The sad detail is all the promises I make.
[Repeat Chorus]
I'm cramped and crawling from under the dead
I'm sick of living without you in bed
I've made mistakes that I wrote... That I read...
But now I just can't seem to be preoccupied
The heart was tossed with a black lace chain
With these hands that I write with
And the ode that I live by...
I will never be with you.
[Repeat Chorus]
God made this night for me, a silly devil in my talking
Romantic company for walking. Over and out...Over and out...
This year is the year I want to be, that silly devil in me talking
Romantic company for walking. Over and out...Over and out...
Let me start with I've let you go
But you don't get it, though
Politely I've asked you to leave,
But still you follow
It's hard when you're full of heart
When the house you built just falls apart
Well keep the paint fresh, keep the outside clean
Picture the neighbors see you wear that ring
Don't tell them a thing, they don't know you like me
You're the girl that cries at water in the basement
Everybody stop, wait, look, see
You're the girl that could lie to my face
And fabricate a flood to get through to me
I went away and you found a replacement
So call him, don't call me
To the girl that cries at water in the basement
You drama everything
I heard a good friend once say
"You got one life, live it, cuz they'll take it away"
From both of us, one day, you know they will
So colour it up, colour it up
Say your last goodbye, I don't give a fuck
Bottoms up, just watch me walk away
I'm here to say that -
I don't need your sorry dreaming
What makes you think you can -
Tell me how I to feel or how hard I should fall
No, no, no, no, no, no, no, now you listen
Oh my, you're not anything I need in my life
No, you're not anything I even want
Cuz they don't know you like me
You're the girl that cries at water in the basement
Everybody stop, wait, look, see
You're the girl that could lie to my face
And fabricate a flood to get through to me
I went away and you found a replacement
So call him, don't call me
To the girl that cries at water in the basement
You drama everything
Here's what you gotta do
Hold you head high
Shoot first, man, don't ask why
Yeah, you won't feel the pain at all
Well I guess I, grew this mind
I think for myself and I'm fine
No, I don't need anything from you at all
They don't know you like me
You're the girl that cries at water in the basement
Everybody stop, wait, look, see
You're the girl that could lie to my face
And fabricate a flood to get through to me
I went away and you found a replacement
So call him, don't call me
To the girl that cries at water in the basement
You drama everything
(Fabricate a flood to get through to me)
(So call him, don't call me)
You drama everything
Drama
Blue October
Calling You
There's something that I can't quite explain
I'm so in love with you
You'll never take that away
And if I've said it a hundred times before
Expect a thousand more
You'll never take that away
Well expect me to be
Calling you to see
If you're okay when I'm not around
Asking if you love me?
I love the way you make it sound
Calling you to see
Do I try too hard to make you smile?
To make us smile
I will keep calling you to see
If you're sleeping, are you dreaming
If you're dreaming, are you dreaming of me
I can't believe you actually picked me
I thought that the world had lost it's way
(It's so hard sometimes)
Then I fell in love with you
(Then came you)
(Then came you)
And you took that away
(It's not so difficult,
The world is not so difficult)
You take away the old
Show me the new
And I feel like I can fly when I stand next to you
So while I'm on this phone
A hundred miles from home
I'll take the words you gave and send them back to you
I only want to see
If you're okay when I'm not around
Asking if you love me?
I love the way you make it sound
Calling you to see
Do I try too hard to make you smile?
To make us smile
I will keep calling you to see
If you're sleeping, are you dreaming
If you're dreaming, are you dreaming of me
I can't believe you actually picked me
Well I will keep calling you to see
If you're sleeping, are you dreaming
If you're dreaming, are you dreaming of me
I can't believe you actually picked me
I will keep calling you to see
If you're sleeping, are you dreaming
If you're dreaming, are you dreaming of me
I can't believe you actually picked me
White kitchen walls with a thousand windows
you Turn on Winston in the den
And I'm still asleep but I can hear the piano
When you make breakfast after 10
I smell the coffee on your fingers
I still smell the perfume in the bed
The crushed linen roses are on everything
And you're still inside my head
GET OUT
You gotta make her know how it feels to miss you
Let her know you're swapping sides
You're not the one with all the problems
You're the one with all the pride
So just pick your head up boy, and
Walk away…..
Walk the coolest walk that you know
Cause in a month or two she'll call you
hang up the phone
And I hope she knows I've got this memory
and it won't ever seem to break or bend
A thick lock & sheet rock is on this window in my kitchen
I don't think I'll ever take em' down again
Cuz I've learned a lot from all these break ups and make ups
And fuck ups and fake ups
Things that I wish you could comprehend yeah, comprehend
But for now I'll lace up
these ( converse) shoes, boys
And I'll go have breakfast with my good friends
You got to make her know how it feels to miss you
let her know you're swapping sides
cuz you're not the one with all the problems
You're not the one with all the problems
You're the one with all the pride
You got to make her know how it feels to miss you
Let her know you're swapping spit
You're not the one with all the problems,
You're not the one with all the problems
She's the one that's full of shit!
So just pick your head up, boys and
Walk away
Walk the coolest walk that you know
In a month or two she'll call you…..
I dreamt you seduced me
Just walked away
I dreamt you inspired
Then rewired what I say
I dreamt you spread your bottom wings
And pulled me to the bed
But then I woke up feeling nauseous
You danced around my head
Chorus:
Tell me
How long, how long have I been down?
How long, how long have I been down?
How long, how long have I been down?
Down, Down
I dreamt you burned my fingers
Yes, an automatic sting
I dreamt you called me beautiful
Then asked to hear me sing
I dreamt your singing invited me
To crawl within your space
But then I woke up feeling nauseous
Girl, you danced around my face
Chorus:
Tell me
How long, how long have you been down?
How long, how long have you been down?
How long, how long have you been down?
Down, Down
Why can't we work when we both try?
We try, we try, we try, we try
Why can't this work, when we both try?
Why can't it work when we both try
we try, we try, we try, how we try
And how we try
I meant to sympathize I want to be your friend
I know apologizing wont erase the end
But I learn that moving on, is where I must begin
Because when our colors mixed
We couldn't fix the way they wouldn't blend
Chorus:
So tell me
How long, how long have we been down?
How long, how long have we been down?
How long, how long have we been down?
Down, down, yeah
And I wish that only greatness follow you around
I hope to God, you find a way to keep from down
When you do I hope you share it all with me
Please try to understand, yeah to understand me
Just try to understand me, yeah understand me
How long, how long have we been down yeah.
I haven't been quite the same
So sure the story of my life would never change
But in a bright eyed way
She rinsed out the soap in my eyes and wrote a song that I'm about to sing
She's a magnetic girl
That I hardly even know
So this is not another love song
Just a list of things that I should know
Every man should know that...
[Chorus]
One: You've got to take it kind of slowly
Two: You've got to hurry up and make your move
Three: You've got to tell her how your feeling
Four: You've got to be the perfect gentleman
When you shake the walls, you've got to make 'em bend
Yeah, you've got to show her that she is the balance beam
And I keep falling all around her fairy tale.
We took a walk in the rain
I suggested, she confessed
There's a park nearby to cast that shade
Stay cool but I'm giddy like a school boy
You've got to handle with care, this is not a toy
Gradually we touched
Though our clothes were wet
We sat and smiled
I never thought I'd smile so much
The first kiss always says the most
[Repeat Chorus]
Everyone should know that[Repeat Chorus]
Some kind of fairy tale.
Some kind of fairy tale.
Listen…
I only know spending time away
I only know the truth is spoken
Best when brutally, so honestly
I let you know you set the standards
Lyrically for me
One single middle finger saying
Raise it up. My speech will always be free
Like Martin Luther King, you had meaning to me
Singlehandedly, saving music starving industry
A hip hop legend with skin like invisible ink
Like even though he was whiter than me
He was the first to be colorless
Speaking for all of us
And you let us into your family
Mother, father, brother, sister, wife, daughter
Damn, right in front of me.
Just when I miss my daughter desperately,
Your mockingbird put dents in me
While touring press, and reliving my song "Hate Me"
I was losing custody
I never even saw that shit
How she played me, and planned and saw it fit
To turn the trick that financially she would benefit
My first and probably only Billboard hit
Was going to pay for my two-year-old's college
I should have hid that shit
So she couldn't spend that shit
It took twenty years of working just to earn that shit
Now word for word I've listened, heard, and I'm done. Done.
But you don't know. You act like you believe it
That you're in control
It's just your legal system though
Ya, they don't think about it
No, they don't care about it
Now every man in America take back your control
Now you don't know. You act like you believe it
That you're in control
It's just your legal system though
Ya, they don't think about it
No, they don't care about it
Now every man in America take back your control
So I kept my business quiet just like my lawyer said
And I tried to focus all my anger in my work instead
I was succeeding and self-reliant, but inside my soul is dead
I had to be the sole provider, but not allowed to be the dad
Literally they took her from me
Legally, they did, they did
But I'm not a fucking book, so fuck your book in Lincoln I said
Ya fuck that judge, fuck the county, fuck your family too.
Ya, fuck everybody that took my baby girl, Blue
And I'm way too strong, I work my ass off all day long
And I'm gone for months at a time,
When you keep sitting there, and lying, bitching, "come back home."
I hate you, hate you, god!
And then you came back home,
And filed for another fucking divorce
I'm sick of trying
I'm sick of you instead 'cause
I'm not sick, dope in my head
Any other man in America can get screwed just like me. Ya.
Now you don't know. You act like you believe it
That you're in control
It's just your legal system though
Ya, they don't think about it
No, they don't care about it
Now every man in America take back your control
Now you don't know. You act like you believe it
That you're in control
It's just your legal system though
Ya, they don't think about it
No, they don't care about it
Now every man in America take back your control
You don't understand, probably never will
Listen slowly, I'll let you know the deal
Lying ass, play the judge with your crying ass
Had your nose wide open when you saw the cash
Grimy bitch, growing tired of you trying shit
Women run the courts, men provide the chips
Well, eat up, bitch. 'Til you've had enough, bitch
But take my kids, you can kiss both my nuts, bitch
Telling lies, 'cause daddy's always on the road
But you're the one fucking like a groupie at a show
Money hungry, so you try and take my youngest from me
You a dummy, honey. I'll chase you cross the country
Bring your drama to your mama, and your mama's mama.
Cause we all know, you're chasing after commas
A couple checks, a few houses, and Gucci blouses
You changing dicks like you changing outfits
Constitution's now-a-days got the daddy's losers
While fathers getting fucked like prostitution
You don't know. You act like you believe it
That you're in control
Well, it's just your legal system though
No, they don't think about it
No, they don't care about it
Every man in America can lose control
You don't know. You act like you believe itThat you're in controlIt's just your legal system thoughYa, they don't think about itNo, they don't care about itNow every man in America take back your control
Now you don't know. You act like you believe itThat you're in controlIt's just your legal system thoughYa, they don't think about itNo, they don't care about itNow every man in America take back your control
Dead or cold
Nothing as it seems
Fly so far
But someone clipped the wings
I could beat my throat
Itd only turn to scream
When was the point god knew
There was no one listening
There was no one listening
My sweaty days
I close my eyes and sneak off to the sea
Drinking blood rain sky
And dream of family
I beg the world,
Dont turn
Itd only turn to scream
When was the point that god knew there was no one listening?
There was no one listening
If I can't be a brave boy jumping of the head of a mountain
and I wonder why the thought of it brings me to the edge of my bed
if I can't tell the diffrence from a waterfall and fountain
is it the way that you looked at me then in a moment i said
that I could sit here for hours waiting on your arrival
I could sit here for days hoping you'd come out and play
I could die in a minute and the one chance for survival
would be the sound of your beautiful name
and if I cried would you hold me?
softly whisper everything is ok
because I live to breath the sky that hangs high above you
and the tears that I had before will simply say
that I love you!
that I love you!
She paints an empty canvas
when she is afraid
she built a falling castle
with her body of sand
and although lost she found love in the eyes of him
shoulder she could fall on
was never taken in
and all the rain is falling
and the side walks are stained
with roses from her brushes and
the pictures from her hands
she cries a little harder
she only cried to me
now if she called my name
I would have ran to catch her
And the only tear left now comes from me
So now I say these words to say to you
I find it so hard to lose her
The greatest gift that God ever gave to me
was a girl I named December
she was a girl that I need
Do you remember what you said to me
Of all the people I could put my faith in
Do you remember what it meant to me
Of all the people I could waste my days with
Sometimes, I get as low as it goes
Other times I just miss you
Sometimes, I kinda like it on my own
Other times I just stumble through
When you make me out to be like a fool
I want to know where I stand with you
When you make me out to be like a fool
I want to know where I stand with you, stand with you
Do you remember how it's meant to be
Of all the times I could not forsake you
Do you remember what you took from me
I can't believe that I could so mistake you
Sometimes, I get as low as it goes
Other times I just miss you
Sometimes, I kinda like it on my own
Other times I just stumble through
When you make me out to be like a fool
I want to know where I stand with you
When you make me out to be like a fool
I want to know where I stand with you, stand with you
When you're in the darkest night and I wonder where
you've been
When you're in the morning light and I wonder who
you've seen
When you make me out to be like a fool
I want to know where I stand with you
When you make me out to be like a fool
When I had you
When your love would pull me through
When nights were long
When your love would make me strong
When time, regretful to say, in the gentlest way over
Maybe I should follow your lead and turn as is it never
meant a thing to me
When you're flying with your head down, feeling blown
away
When you're battered and bound by all the things you
When you're sleeping with the lights on, staring all
the way
When you're heading for a fall then roll over to me, to
me, roll over to me
When I had you
When your arms would hold me true
When nights were long
When your love would make me strong
When time, regretful to say, just go you own way and
you do
Maybe I should swallow this pride and turn as is it
never meant a thing to me
When you're flying with your head down, feeling blown
away
When you're battered and bound by all the things you
When you're sleeping with the lights on, staring all
the way
When you're heading for a fall then roll over to me, to
me, roll over to me
If we can take the chances, then there's nothing that
we can't do
If we can take the chances, then there's nothing,
nothing, that we can't do
When you're flying with your head down, feeling blown
away
When you're battered and bound by all the things you
When you're sleeping with the lights on, staring all
the way
When you're heading for a fall then roll over to me, to
A fresh start
Let me walk around your ball park
A fever we can learn from
Now just breathe it in
It's ok
To want
To have
To take
So embrace the one
You can't replace
She's the only woman
Soft spot
Shaking from the knees up
Got me screaming sneak a peak
Into my life dear
Now just breathe it in
In my sea
She's the water
When my ship is going down
She's my north wind
When I go south
She knows how far I’ll go.
It's ok
To want
To have
To take
Embrace the one
You can't replace
Embrace the one
Who held your fate
Embrace the one
You can't replace
How did he make the
waves crash over?
Care so much
Is there anybody here?
So I poked my head out
Through the wounded stormy night
Now I leave my door open
Crushed salt and I've gotta learn
To take flight.
Breathe in......
Sway
We sway
Grabbed her by the hips and hand
Then off we went
Across the sanded floor
She said "that's not sand, it's salt
It will get worn like we did before"
I only wanna dance with you
Every time I try
We only get an hour or so
It's time to get personal
We've got these times of our lives
Lets take this time to let it show
these are ours.
These are ours
We sway
The moon shines down
And everybody's safe.
Christmas lights all day
And rightly so
We feel high as fuck
And everything is good
Good to go
I watch the snow fall down
Feels great to be honest
Forget about the trouble
Forget about the drama
Cause I ain't Casanova
Baby I can dance for days
This time with you
Is just amazing in so many ways
I only wanna dance with you
Every time I try
We only get an hour or so
It's time to get personal
We've got these times of our lives
Lets take this time to let it show
these are ours.
These are ours
We'll stay until we want to
That's how it use to be
We never fell apart
We stay here until we want to
Now we just sway
Come on.... Dance with me
These,
These are ours
These,
These are ours
I take a spiritual drive
Down by the coast of her eyes
I keep seeing cowboys ride by Indian style
She's twisted fumbling by
She scratches paint of my sky
Whenever feelings run dry
I just go hide because we all
We all have sorry hearts
Because yeah we all
We all have sorry hearts
Alive and striving for rain
Full time control of the game
Dressed like a French whore in Spain
Add water to my frame
There's not appropriate classes
Just put a lens on your glasses
You'll see how some people's asses can be kicked twice
Cause yeah we all
We all have sorry hearts
Cause yeah we all
We all have sorry hearts
We all take spiritual drives
Down dead end streets of our lives
Weeping rock bottom cries with our head high
I'm here to tell you why
We all
We all have sorry hearts
Cause yeah we all
You said "Always" and I said "Yeah"
(Just) Like a movie ending the day
Will we walk together and down that road
Finding "paradise" in the haze
It's gone two in the morning
With all hope slip
Sliding around our blues
Don't show me no "cul de sac"
When we've both got something to lose
Sometimes, I remember it too
Get a glimpse of you
Sometimes, I remember it too
Catch a breath of you
Sometimes, I remember it too...
One man's fallen, the women's saved
How they've both had loving to burn
Hands so close to an only flame
They've got an age old lesson to learn
It's gone five in the morning
I feel the warm air rising up out the blue
And are tears laying cross the land
Just an early morning dew?
Sometimes, I remember it too
Get a glimpse of you
Sometimes, I remember it too
Catch a breath of you
We sway, grabbed you by the hips and handed off
We went across the sanded floor
She said that’s not sand, it's salt, it will get warm
Like we did before
I only want to dance with you,
Every time I try
We only get an hour or so
It’s time to get personal
We’ve got this times of our lives
Let’s take the time to let it show
‘cause these are ours, ‘cause these are ours
And we sway and the moon shines down
And everybody’s safe
Christmas lights all day and I’m rightly so
‘cause we feel high as fuck and everything is good
It’s good to go now as the snow falls down
Feels great to be honest forget about the troubles
Just forget about the drama
‘cause I ain’t casanova
No, baby I can’t dance for days
And this time with you is just amazing in so many ways
I only want to dance with you,
Every time I try
We only get an hour or so
It’s time to get personal
We’ve got this times of our lives
Let’s take the time to let it show
‘cause these are ours, ‘cause these are ours
And we stay until we want to
And that’s how it used to be
And we never felt apart
And we stay until we want to
And we just sway
It wouldn't work couldn't work
Now it's everybody wants some
Whose to say whose to say
That we'd never really go far.
I wouldn't care wouldn't care
If that's all you ever hoped for
"I used to follow you down,
Now I follow you"
Why walk away, walk away
And take the fun out of a Cold War
“I used to follow you down,
Now I follow you”
Everybody wants some
It's always just the same same same
Everybody needs some
I am the only one to blame.
I never knew my life
Could be remarkable
Because I always used to play
Just the tip.
But I know, I know that I
Could live like this forever
If I go ahead and put it in
Everybody's saying that it’s possible
But it never seemed
To make any sense
Now I know, I know
That I can stay like this forever
If I go ahead and put it in.
Head on collision my decision
Is I'm never gonna back down
So bite the pillow while I watch you
Like I'm DEA to crack town.
I'm the roof, you're siding
The tooth from Tyson biting
Hard as a piranha
Take a look at my big wrecking balls
So this is me inviting
You to come out from hiding
Is this what you call fighting?
Wrong in righting nature calls.
Everybody wants some
It's always just a shame shame shame
Everybody needs some
I am the only one to blame
I never knew my life
Could be remarkable
Because I always used to play
Just the tip.
But I know, I know
That I could live like this forever
If I go ahead and put it in
Everybody's saying that it’s possible
But it never seemed
To make any since
Now I know, I know
I can stay like this forever
If I go ahead and put it in.
I can be one
I can reach for the sun
Tear my old world down
To build back up
I know that promises fade
From the hell that I've made
When I'm circling the drain
I used to act like a soldier
I never even picked up a gun
I used to dress like a hooker
But never seemed to hook anyone
I used to flow like a river
Burning bridges people could cross
I used to think I was a looker
But look at all the shit that I lost
I took it all the way
Full throttle ‘til I lost control
Hard candy all the way
Full throttle ‘til I lose control
A hard candy sick
A hard candy crawl
A hard candy pill
You take and dissolve
How can we say
That we ever stood tall
How can we fill you up
And make you tall
I used to think I had flavor
‘til I left an awful taste on her tongue.
I used to think I was a savior
But never seemed to save anyone
Take it all the way
Full throttle ‘til we lose control
Hard candy all the way
Full throttle lose control
I took it all the way
Full throttle ‘til I lose control
Hard candy all the way
Full throttle lose control
A hard candy sick
A hard candy crawl
A hard candy pill
You take and dissolve
How can we say
That we ever stood tall
How can we fill you up
And make you tall
Take it all the way
Full throttle ‘til we lose control
Hard candy all the way
Sit up on my lap
Are you ready for bed
Wait just a second
Let me clear my head
I've got something to talk to you about
I think it's gonna be
One of those nights
We sit up and talk awhile
To completely empty
I've got something on my chest
I've gotta get it out
I won't let the ceiling
Fall and break us down
I don't know how to tell
But I think I'm falling in love with you
Through things we don't know about
That help us see
So take my hand if you want to
I promise I'll never leave I'll stand right by you
I swear I won't betray you
When I see you smile
It's such an innocent smile
Such a beautiful smile
It's one of those smiles
That I only see in my dreams
Me and you
Through things we don't know about
That help us see the way
Even only for a moment
Through things we don't know about
Stand by me and I'll find out
What person I can be
When we stand through it all
Together we stand tall
Through things we don't know about
Through things we don't know about
I've sat at the back of the line for years,
Wishing the world wouldn't spin,
I give in, alone again it appears.
There were pieces of me that lived in corners on a hard wood floor.
Until an Angel walked in through my door.
Time stopped, the arch of her back grew wings.
And pulling me further from a devil to a heaven, she said "Believe."
True peace as she looked into my soul.
She said "I'm here to show you faith, and to help you when you fall."
[Chorus]
Can you feel my heart,
Beating underneath these stars?
You're the Angel that came, and took these clouds away.
You made me believe!
Never be weak, be strong.
Live every moment like an Angel,
Flies...
I'll whisper in your ear,
You are mine, and you will never have to be alone.
And when I pull you near,
You'll know I love you like I never loved anyone.
So let me be the one to lift you up,
I'll carry you home.
'Cause now I'm here to keep you safe,
And to catch you when you fall.
[Chorus]
Can you feel my heart,
Beating underneath these stars?
You're the Angel that came, and took these clouds away.
You made me believe!
Never be weak, be strong.
Live every moment like an Angel,
Flies.
Only you can see the true me,
Through all the right, and wrong.
Take hold, the best has yet to come.
(Yeah)
You've given me the strength to believe in my heart again!
And now we're here to share this faith.
Stand together through it all.
[Chorus]
Can you feel my heart,
Beating underneath these stars?
You're the Angel that came, and took these clouds away.
You made me believe!
Never be weak, be strong.
Live every moment like an Angel,
Flies...
Can you feel my heart,
Beating underneath these stars?
You're the Angel that came, and took these clouds away.
You made me believe!
Never be weak, be strong.
Live every moment like an Angel,
Flies...
Oh, oh, oh, oh,
Oh, oh, oh.
That's who you are!
You're the Angel that came, and took these clouds away.
You made me believe!
Never be weak, be strong.
So really strong!
OhOhOhOh,
OhOhOhOh,
OoooOoooh!
That's who you are,
You're the Angel that came,
I know how to let you leave
How am I supposed to let you go
Now you stand in front of me
All the rain is turning into snow
Can you tell me that you're real
So I can really know
That everything I feel
I can finally show
Standing next to me
The person I can be
Is finally here and he won't back down at all
But I can't stop thinking
How you just keep making since
Of all that was broken before
I won't keep faking
I'm done with taking
With you,
I'm not broken anymore
I've seen the empty deep
I damned up the water flow
You’re the touchstone, my complete.
You're the ship that kept me afloat
Can you tell me that you’re real
So I can really know
That everything I feel
I can finally show
Standing next to me
The person I can be
Is finally here and he won't
back down at all
I can't stop thinking
How you just keep making since
Of all that was broken before
I wont keep faking
I'm done with taking
With you,
Thing we do at night
Keeping it together
‘til the morning light
When you’re nobody’s somebody
You want to be somebody’s somebody
Things we do at night
Keeping it together
‘til the morning light
When you’re nobody’s somebody
But somebody forgot to say
Hey, where’s the party baby
All you have to do is show
I know
Wave goodbye
So loud
We can be one
So lay down
You caught my eye
So loud
Why can’t we be one
Things we do at night
Keeping it together
‘til the morning light
When you’re nobody’s somebody
You want to be somebody’s somebody
Things we do at night
Keeping it together
‘til the morning light
When you’re nobody’s somebody
But somebody forgot to say
Hey, where’s the party baby
All you have to do is show
So I say let that shit go and take control
She knows
Wave goodbye
So loud
We can be one
Let me show you what you mean to me
Baby you can take every piece of me
I know that I’m safe
When you look at me
Anything anything anything
Things we do at night
Keeping it together
‘til the morning light
When you’re nobody’s somebody
You want to be somebody’s somebody
Things we do at night
Keeping it together
‘til the morning light
When you’re nobody’s somebody
But somebody forgot to say
Hey, where’s the party baby
All you have to do is show
This is life
I know exactly what the fuck I’m doing
Everyday I wake up
Knowing who and what I’m pursuing
I know my life is beautiful
Not far away
I’m trying to make it through the night
All my life
Been running from a pain in me
A feeling I don't understand
Holding me down
Rain on me
Underwater
All I am, getting harder
A heavy weight
I carry around.
Today
I don't have to fall apart
I don't have to be afraid
I don't have to let the damage
consume me,
My shadow see through me
Fear in itself
Will reel you in and spit you out
Over and over again
Believe in yourself
And you will walk
Fear in itself
Will use you up and break you down
like you were never enough
I used to fall, now I get back up.
I'm up here
I'm looking at the way down there
I'm staring through the I don't care
It's staring back at me
The beauty is
I'm learning how to face my beast
Starting now to find some peace
Set myself free
Today,
I don't have to fall apart
I don't have to be afraid
I don't have to let the damage
consume me,
My shadow see through me
Fear in itself
Will reel you in
And spit you out over and over again
Believe in yourself
and you will walk
Fear in itself
Will use you up and break you down
like you were never enough
I used to fall but now I get back up
I'm moving on
Oh god just move on
Today,
I don't have to fall apart
I don't have to be afraid....
Get back up
Get up
Fear in itself will use you up
And break you down just like you're
never enough
I used to fall
Breathe,
Ask for more
if you're bitter still
Close my eyes
Feel you sigh
A desperate aching wonder
Will you ever, ever let me off my knees
Wide awake
Like a dream
As simple as a secret
Being told, told to everyone but me
Will I
Bleed out
I gave it all
But you can't stop taking from me
And way down I know
You know where to cut me
With your eyes closed
Bleed out
It won't be long
Til this heart stops beating
So don't let me
Bleed out here alone
Hear my plea
You won't hear my plea
Sudden rain
Coming down
It all comes back to me
Waking up, falling down
Another day
Come undone
I keep trying to heal your pain
In return, you cut me over and over
One more time and I will
Bleed out
I gave it all
But you can't stop taking from me
And way down I know
You know where to cut me
With your eyes closed
Bleed out
It won't be long
Til my heart stops beating
So don't let me
Bleed alone
I finally feel like I'm supposed to be, yeah, oh
Don't you take this moment away from me
But before you kill me wont you
Wont you look back in my eyes and watch me
Bleed out
I gave it all
But you can't stop taking from me
And way down I know
You know where to cut me
With your eyes closed
Bleed out
It won't be long
Til my heart stops beating
So don't leave me don't let me
Bleed out here alone
Hear my plea
Bleed out
I gave it all
But you can't stop taking from me
And way down I know
You know where to cut me
With your eyes closed
Bleed out
It won't be long
Til this heart stops beating
So don't leave me don't let me
I'm never gonna give up
Remember what abuse did
It's time you look at facing
As if you in anyway understood
It always lowered me to downsize
It always lowered my faith
It's in the corner rising next to me
It's in the corner like it upstage
I can't explain the way
I feel inside
Maybe because it’s...
I'm through
Yea you heard it
So I light you up
You can't admit that your poison
Go run and hide
Fuck you
Yea you heard it
I'm gonna light you up
I said I wouldn't fail you
It's something sorry couldn't sell you
A slow rain
A time bomb
Disconnect it won't erase
what I'd done wrong
In no way is it worth
Losing everything I am including
these words
Your heart in my hands
I'm sick as all my secrets
That's why this hurts
I can't explain the way
I feel inside
Maybe because its...
I'm through
Yea you heard it
So I light you up
You can't admit that your poison
Go run and hide
Fuck you
Yea you heard it
I'm gonna light you up
It put me in the crazy house
Put me in the crazy farm
I'm never gonna get back out
Never ever gonna treat you wrong
Get down to the earth
and the people
Get down to the earth in your bed
That's where I'm gonna go
And where I’ll never go
When I'm in my mother fucking head
So tell your mom
Tell your dad
Tell your family
I'm beyond the unreasonable sinking ship
You see I never took
the time to learn
all about this thing we
call a relationship.
I can't explain the way
I feel inside
Maybe because its...
Fuck you
Yea you heard it
I'm gonna light you up
You can't admit that your poison
Go run and hide
Fuck you
Yea you heard it
