To Die For is a British comedy drama film directed by Peter Mackenzie Litten in 1994. It stars Thomas Arklie, Ian Williams, Tony Slattery, Dillie Keane and John Altman. The screenplay was written by Johnny Byrne, Paul McEvoy, and Litten. The original music score was composed by Roger Bolton.
Set in London in the early nineties, the film portrays the bitter-sweet lifestyles of a young gay couple in a fiery open relationship. Mark is an acerbic drag queen with a sharp tongue, who finds it difficult to accept his much better-looking partner's highly-promiscuous lifestyle of non-stop clubbing and cruising. Worse still, Mark is HIV positive and his partner is negative.
Both of them are struggling to come to terms with Mark's deteriorating condition. Nowadays, Mark prefers to stay at home when not performing - working on his own panel of embroidery for an AIDS quilt memorial project. Simon however, prefers to turn a blind eye to the situation and continues to cruise London's gay bars at night looking for action.
Snow has covered her grave
And flowers have withered away
Cold wind cries in the trees
Frozen tears mark my grief
The flickering, weak candlelight
Shatters the dead of the night
I bury my face in my hands
I try to speak but I can't
With a breeze arrives a sparrow
Lands on her gravestone
I raise my head and realize
I am no longer alone
Haven of shadows in the garden of stones
Cold wind blows out the flame
And darkness surrounds me again
The sparrow starts silently singing
A song only she and I know
I shed a tear on her grave
And silently whisper her name
As cold wind still shakes the trees
I know she now rests in peace
With a breeze leaves the sparrow
Flies into the unknown
I bow my head and realize
music - Andrew LaBarre
lyrics - Ross Sewage
A liturgist in the realm of filth and gore
Augean bard of æsculapian deviance
Fables I've made, sick stories I've parlayed
For the rapt attention of my heinous
Despised rottrephile, the object of my infection
A gore hound obsessed with the extreme and obscene
In manic obesciance, I pledge my devotion
Composing sonnets of horror for my ghoul fiend
Penny dreadfuls are met apathetically
Asomatous, they are mere words
For a worthy offering I need tangible death
The pen has proved fallible to the might of the swords
For my Bathorial maiden, I'll kill and maim
For our victims, the future proves bleak
I'll slice throats in her bloody name
Rending other's flesh that in me is so weak
Excisions and slices and cuts to their integument
My finesse with cutlery, she doth inspire
Collecting a bouquet of offal, my regiment
Trophies to admire
Dislimbed torsos and severed craniums
Disinterred innards and human chum
Though I present this sanguine tribute
It's never enough and still I'm rebuked
A grandiose gesture, I require for a petulent madamned
Gutted, my entrails will be preserved in canopic vials
Formaldehyde and alcohol are meted into jars
Lacerating extremities, a fitting end to these trials
Incised omentum, avulsed intestines
Abdominal evisceration, self-dissection
Mellifluent gore is met with ennui
My tragic reward is naught but death's kiss
Consciousness falters as blood flows from my head
Where ever you will fall
I'll be there I will follow
Never let you fall alone
We thought we bled all we had
But out momentary joy was a lie
And heavenly moments never last
In the grave of our souls hope lies buried
Wasting time in our sweet wicked circle
Life's just a pain we go through
With broken wings me and you
No salvation in view
No angels on our shoulders
Only wolves howling beyond our walls
We thought we bled all we had
But out momentary joy was a lie
And heavenly moments never last
In the grave of our souls hope lies buried
Wasting time in our sweet wicked circle
Life's just a pain we go through
With broken wings me and you
The darkness whispers death
Shadows gain upon me
Running out of breath
Can't control the fear
Feels like someone's watching
Hiding in the dark
Silent echoes screaming
Paralyze my heart
Hey! Leave me alone in the darkness
Leave me alone with my sin
Nothing can save this heartless soul
This guilt ridden state I'm in
Isolation comforts me
Solitude brings safety
Pointing fingers blaming me
For something I didn't do
The blood on my hands ain't mine
I don't know where I've been
Did I cross the line
In our world no one else
Me and you
Folie á deux
While you're sleeping I' awake
I'm driving all shadows away
And when I bleed you're bleeding my blood
Dead line stone are those bitter hearts
Who haltingly live in their golden houses of cards
But all eternity belongs to you and me
You are all I have... you are all I have
All I need
I'm crying your tears and you cry mine
If anyone comes between us
We' ll make them all die
Where were you when I needed someone
To help me ease my pain
Where were you when I needed comfort
To get me through the day
There was no one to hold my hand
When I couldn't sleep at night
No one there to understand
Too scared to sleep 'til daylight
Another night without you
Another night of fear
Another night of loneliness
Wishing you were here
Can't find the light without you
Darkness calls me near
To another sleepless night
Whishing you were here
Years we shared have lost their meaning
Wihtout you by my side
Memories of all the good times
Dead like a stone
A withered rose
A weak soul
...and broken bones
Fragments in the middle of the crowd
Do you know the feeling I'm telling about
When a peace of mind can never be found?
I ran too close to the sun
I flied too high
The threshold of life is too fragile
I'm fragmented and lost
My blood still runs
But it feels too cold
Should I give up, give up, give up?
Should I be gone?
Burning fast from both ends
The racking hours come again and again
Fragile that's all I am
Hey! Was I born to suffer?
Did I ask to be born at all?
Misery loves company
And you're the chosen one
It doesn't let you go
Until it loves you to numb
You were searching for something
Something you don't know
You've been lost so long
Cannot find the light anymore
Remember the days
Your heart felt sympathy and love
Now your mind is dull
So lifeless
Whatever you do
Wherever you go
Misery will follow
Needs you everyday
Like a desert needs the rain
Your sinner soul keeps it alive
You try to run away
Away from your hell
From your inner cell
What you never thought to know
Misery loves company
And you're the choosen one
It doesn't let you go
I am seeking through the night
Seeking for unholy love
The love that will satisfy my need
Would you surrender to me
Would you let me inside you
And steal away your innocense
You are the victim of my love
I am haunting you I am deep in you
I am draining you of life
This night will be the night of fate
Tonight it happens once again
Your life will be mine
Let me touch you with my sin
Let me eat you from within
Don't try to chance your fate
Looking back to the way it was
I never guessed that it'd be you
We talked and laughed about our friends
And said that they were fools
It seemed pointless, hopeless
The way they lived their lives
I didn't even notice the closeness
Of you here by my side
Chorus:
I thought it was crazy, stupid
I didn't understand
The actions of a reckless heart
I didn't get it, I didn't feel it
'Til I met you
Then I found a love worth fighting for
And it's to die for
When you're living day by day
You're never really sure
People come and go so fast, it all seems such a blur
I wasn't looking, I wasn't thinking
I never even tried
I didn't even notice the closeness
Of you here by my side
Chorus:
I thought it was crazy, stupid
I didn't understand
The actions of a reckless heart
I didn't get it, I didn't feel it
'Til I met you
Then I found a love worth fighting for
And it's to die for
To think I might have never opened my eyes
And found the way it feels to let you inside
It was so pointless, hopeless
The way I lived my life
I didn't even notice the closeness
Of you here by my side
Chorus:
I thought it was crazy, stupid
I didn't understand
The actions of a reckless heart
I didn't get it, I didn't feel it
'Til I met you
Then I found a love worth fighting for
I know I found a love worth fighting for
And it's to die for
It's to die for
To die, to die for
Now I write this final letter
To whom it may concern
It is time to close a chapter
The last one in this world
Soon as I'm done writing
It's time for me to go
I make the final cut
And let the red stream flow
I'm thrown in death's embrace
I feel its soothing warmth
Calmess on my face
I close my eyes for evermore
Down the road to the unknown
I walk the narrow
And I feel the comfort
Of leaving life behind
Soon as I'm done walking
Life, like a poison in me
Destroyed my innocence and dreams
I've been told life is the gift
Oh, that gift makes me sick!
Smiling faces, those happy ones
I feel nothing
I'm totally numb
But in the silence of the night-time with you
I can feel momentary warmth
You are too much for me to lose
Endlessly I love you
My blood still runs just because of you
You are too much for me to lose
Endlessly I love you
You're my shine
You're my rain
When comes the day of my destiny
Without you I won't leave
You're the shining light in the middle of the dark
But you are the rose
In The middle of all depravity
I love you
Endlessly until the end
And there's no final end
You are, You're the smile
In the middle of all misery
Oh, you are
One of a kind
[Chorus:]
Fly higher beautiful(Don't burn your wings)
Don't get stuck into the flow (I'll go with you)
Much higher beautiful (I'm there for you)
I'll cover you, I'll cover you (I`ll die for you)
With my aching soul I will
Drive away all the shadows
Which are dancing in your room
I'm crying your tears,and you cry mine
It's more stronger than poisoned wine
[Chorus:]
Fly higher beautiful(Don't burn your wings)
Don't get stuck into the flow (I'll go with you)
Much higher beautiful (I'm there for you)
Oh, I just died in your arms tonight
It must've been something you said
I just died in your arms tonight
I should've walked away
I keep on looking for something I can't get
Broken hearts lie all around me
And I don't see an easy way to get out of this
Her diary sits by the bedside table
The curtains are closed, cat's in the cradle
Who would've thought that a guy like me
Could come to this?
Oh, oh, I just died in your arms tonight
It must've been something you said
I just died in your arms tonight
Oh, oh, I just died in your arms tonight
It must've been some kind of kiss
I should've walked away
I should've walked away
Is there any just cause for feeling like this?
On the surface I'm a name on a list
I try to be discreet but then blow it again
I've lost and found, it's my final mistake
She's loving by proxy, no give and all take
'Cause I've been thrilled to fantasy
One too many times
Oh, oh, I just died in your arms tonight
It must've been something you said
I just died in your arms tonight
Oh, oh, I just died in your arms tonight
It must've been some kind of kiss
I should've walked away
I should've walked away
It was a long hot night, yeah, she made it easy
She made it feel right but now it's over
The moment is gone, I followed my hands
Not my head, I know I was wrong
Oh, I just died in your arms tonight
It must've been something you said
I just died in your arms tonight
Oh, oh, I just died in your arms tonight
It must've been some kind of kiss
I should've walked away
I should've walked away
I should've walked away
[Cover of Ozzy Osbourne]
There are no unlockable doors
There are no unwinable wars
There are no unrightable wrongs
Or unsignable songs
There are no unbeatable odds
There are no believable gods
There are no unnameable names
Shall I say it again, yeah
There are no impossible dreams
There are no invisible seams
Each night when the day is through
I don't ask much
I just want you
I just want you
There are no uncriminal crimes
There are no unrhymable rhymes
There are no identical twins or
forgivable sins
There are no incurable ills
There are no unkillable thrills
One thing and you know it's true,
I don't ask much
I just want you
I just want you
I just want you
I just want you
I'm sick and tired of bein' sick and tired
I used to go to bed so high and wired, yeah – yeah, yeah, yeah
I think I'll buy myself some plastic water
I guess I should have married Lennon's daughter, yeah – yeah, yeah, yeah
There are no unachievable goals
There are no unsaveable souls
No legitimate kings or queens, do
you know what I mean? Yeah
There are no indisputable truths
And there ain't no fountain of youth
Each night when the day is through,
I don't ask much
I just want you
I just want you
I just want you
I just want you
I just want you
I just want you.
Yeah, yeah, yeah
I just want you
I just want you,
Hey, yeah
I just want you.
Yeah, yeah, yeah
I just want you, hey
I just want you
far too long I have known misery
and dying longing for your hell
so I fell down to the stream of eternity
finished my life but everything goes on
I kissed mortal life goodbye
I let my blood drain down
come on my love dare you dance with me
down below in my grave
nigth's black carpet embraces us
I dwell in darkness and so shall you
if you come all the way to the end
why don't you follow me
at nightfall all will belong for you and me
together we will be complete
all I need is you to be by my side
together all will be complete
eternity is too long time without you
come and dry my tears
better dead without you
than living without you
nothing can heal this loveless soul if you don't follow me
I think it was true when someone said
Happiness fades away fatser than pain
But you fools, you're breathing lies
Your sweet lies
You're looking for something you cannot get
Your hearts are lost in the vale of hope
Desperately you are waiting for
A miracle
But who'll catch you
When you falls?
No-one's there, you'll fall and you'll fall
You'll die with your sins
And then you're alone
Where is your god when things go wrong?
Again he leaves you alone
But still you fool
You believe he'll save you
With your religion you think you're saved
And blessed blood runs in your veins
Living in fear hoping that you'll find your promised heaven
You believe that you're better than me?
You believe those lies 'cause you're weak
I didn't find my peace but I can tell
Grief never dies
It slowly turns into
Another form of despair
Another form of pain
I gave you my life
You gave me yours
We thought it would last forever
We thought it would never end
For each other we took our lives
Where can I find my love
I'm frail without you
For a moment we shared one heart
In death we'd never be alone
But somehow we did part
In loving memory, that's what it said
Nicely carved in stone
Somehow alive
Somehow still alone
Somehow alive even in death
Walking in the garden, picking flowers in the sun
Madeleine is on her own
She can't see any of the other nuns
Is she blind or is it her mind
What's going on? What's going on behind these walls...
All the birds are singing, but Madeleine can't hear their song
Memories of screams in the night
Moaning coming from below where the prison cells are cold
She does not understand what's going on
Now the bell is ringing, communion time has come again
Is Father Picard really a friend?
The Bible in her hand reminds her of the wine
The sour tasting blood of Christ
What's going on? What's going on behind these walls....
summer is gone again
she is awaken from her sleep
frost opens her eyes
cold breeze moves her hair
she gathers the cold under her wings
she gets ready to fly for me
where can I go where can I hide
she casts coldness over me
among the cold and wind
her blue and frozen being
she is coming to breeze me again
among the cold and wind
through the glacier alone
she is coming to kiss me goodbye
it is time to fly away
we are awaken from our sleep
we gaze the pale grey sky
cold breeze fills the air
together we spread our wings again
we are ready to fly away
our pact sealed by blood
I close my eyes and I can see
something cold lives inside of me
how long must I live in this pain is it unforgiving
I think it is unforgiving
something cold is running in my veins
it is getting colder and colder day by day
and that fear it holds me in its arms
what is happening to me
I feel like I fall
deeper and deeper into the sea of sin
I never believed this could happen
I never believed this could happen to me
something has awaken this silence in me
it told me the things I never knew before
how long must I live in this pain
what is happening to me
How can it hurt
When I feel no pain
How can it heal
If i look the same
I've been searching all my mornings
For the last breath of a dream
Are you drowning or just waving
'Cos im tearing at the seams
I wanna live
And I wanna breath
Always thought you'd be the one to set me free
But i can forgive
'Cos you make me believe in something more
Now I only want to live if i can find
Find somebody to die for
Find somebody to die for
How can you lose
if its not a game
How can you love
if you're never going to change
Gonna find my way
Through this maze of my desire
Come what may bitter love or wasted time
You might say
I'm chasing shadows in my mind
But there's a light that guides my way to all I live for
Can't find a reason you should respect in me
you're happy when you get me on my knees
hate me, hurt me, kill me
do whatever you want
why should I care?
I'm not the one who'll lose
I'm not the one who surrenders
I am what I am
is it so hard to understand?
I'm the king on my land
hate me, hurt me, kill me
think about me what you want
you cannot trample me under your feet.
Hurt me once hurt me twice
I'm not the one who cries
Later it's you who feels pain
Kill me once kill me twice
I'm not the one who dies
My life is full of little deaths
Like a warm and gentle breeze of Arambol your love is
Like a Parisian night or under the Mexican sun
It's in your love I'll become intoxicated
Love's a sickness that I adore
A tormenting drug that I am craving for more
Like a soporific dream like a formidable scream
You love is...
In love I'm symptomatic of restlessness and chaos
In your love I'll be subordinate
For love's the devil and love's the saint.
Love's a sickness that I adore
A tormenting drug that I am craving for more
Love's a cancer deep in my heart
Oh, your love is
Love just ins...
Symphony of our souls - symphony of our souls
It's ugly and it's divine
Symbiosis of hearts - symbiosis of hearts
Look into your soul
It's quiet
I'm not sure whether
The sunset will bring
It to the light
My skin so warm
Rigid your face
Your eyes
Are closed forever
It is the time
In there we die
Side by side
It's so dark in this night
So dark in this night
I was born to die for you
We are together
For always and ever I hold you
In my arms
A ray of the sun
It strokes your face
Peaceful forever
To melt together you hold on me
Is there something more
I was born
[Originally performed by U2]
All is quiet on New Year's Day
A world in white gets underway
I want to be with you
Be with you night and day
Nothing changes on New Year's Day
On New Year's Day
I will be with you again
I will be with you again
Under a blood red sky
A crowd has gathered in black and white
Arms entwined, the chosen few
The newspapers says, says
Say it's true it's true...
And we can break through
Though torn in two
We can be one
I...I will begin again
I...I will begin again
Oh...
Maybe the time is right
Oh...maybe tonight...
I will be with you again
I will be with you again
And so we're told this is the golden age
And gold is the reason for the wars we wage
Though I want to be with you
Be with you night and day
Nothing changes
On New Year's Day
No turning back
I will fall
No-one can catch me
I'll break my own bones
My soul is ruined can't you see
I'm dead like a stone
Living dead as they say
Show me how to live
No... still you can't save me
(Even you can't stop me)
Watch me now
And how I'm sliding down
Into the stream of eternity
Someday
You will follow
You'll fall like I do
Like I do now!
Can't find a thing that I could respect inside me
My innocence was too fragile
It withered away
I don't want to paint life in rosy colours
No turning back
(Impromptu)
What are these scents around me?
What is this silence and peace?
Faceless light keeps me on its arms
And sings me into the deepest dream
Yesterday is history and tomorrow is unknown
Wow, here I am in a moment with my aching soul
I saw you there... you!... mistake
I... saw you there
And I saw you there...
What are these scents around me?
What is this silence and peace?
Faceless light keeps me on its arms
Stranded in this town
My machine slows down
To make me where the night begins
I'm playing everywhere
Loving here and there
I always take the chance to win
Drove a million miles
Gambling rules my life
I only stop to start again.
I reach out through the air
Good luck is everywhere
Can almost touch it with my hands
Just a little luck tonight will do and dreams come true
Just a little luck tonight
I can't stop the wheel that turns the ball of steel
When passion rules the game
I ain't got no control when my heart's in flame
When passion rules the game
I ain't got no control when my heart's in flame
I Stranded in this town
Life takes me up and down
I'll break the score until I'm free.
Can't stop to roll the dice and in the morning light
A girl like you is all I need.
Don't you need some love tonight ?
I do Yes, I do !
Don't you need some love tonight ?
How can we stand the heat when love is all we need.
When passion rules the game
I ain't got no control when my heart's in flame
When passion rules the game
I ain't got no control when my heart's in flame
Don't you need some love tonight ?
I do Yes, I do !
Don't you need some love tonight ?
How can we stand the heat when love is all we need.
When passion rules the game
when passion rules the game
How can I exist in the same
World with you my brightness
-loving you-keeping you
Deep in my darkness
There's something in my chest
To which thy light bring no rest
In silence my heart raves
Read the pain from my face
As the day and the we are
But love's unconditional
Shadows in my heart
And innocent-that's what you are
There's something in your chest
To which my darkness bring no rest
In silence your heart raves
See my life written all over my arms
White strokes of misery
I call 'em diary, some call 'em scars
Each one holds a memory
I' I make my last entry, this one sums them all
Last word I carve is too deep
No, no one will miss me, no one at all
Lay down and forever sleep
So many chapters, of pain and regret
So many years spent in sin
Entries of sadness, of tears that I've shed
She's by the window alone
Silently crying
Mourning the love that is gone
Desperately denying
Tears run down her face
Like the rain
Been crying now for days
Plaintive need to let go
I tried to tell you something more
But my silence tells you more
I don't love you anymore
Her blood runs down the drain
Like a river
Gave in to the pain
We're all children until the end
We're drifting around with the fire in our eyes
We barely see the road behind these flames
Where the road turns and where it ends
Beautiful thins will turn to rust
Meadow of roses is unreal
My brother - my brother!
We're from the same blood
I'm with you where ever you are
My friend - where ever you are my friend
With our insatiable hearts
We're still here and you are the star
Beautiful thins will turn to rust
Meadow of roses is unreal
We barely see the road behind these flames
Where the road turns and where it ends
Yet comes a day when we'll meet again
Someday, somewhere...
Memories of you
haunt me everyday
a never healing wound
and nothing left to say
i die a little every day
i die a little anyway
for the memories
for hell inside of me
no true emotions
no true regrets
no true devotion can live off bitterness
my hollow inside
my hollow heart
my restless soul is longing to depart
come surround me with your grace
wash away my deep disgrace
take me into your sweet embrace
where i can live in sin
i die a little anyway
i die a little every day
for the memories
for hell inside of me
Fly butterfly of freedom fly
Fly much higher to the other side
And take my within
There's blood on your flowers and blood on our hands
And we should kill for the fatherland
Carry me away from here
Here comes a new dawn with the hail of bullets
Run wild child - run child run
Nightfall awaits us beyond the napalm flames
Run wild child - run child run
They need our blood to make their history
More dead bodies means more authority
That's sick, sick, sick, sick, sick!
They want us to drink their poisoned wine
Money is god and deterrent is called Jesus Christ
The last breath of life,
It seems like ages when I really tried.
I wait, I wait for the night in daytime
I just can't see the light.
I'm awake,
I still the same.
Tighten your tie boy. You're something to die for. But don't hold your breath now. You're just killing time. Tonight you can dream boy. Imagine a whisper. If you can keep secrets, then I'll tell you mine. Remember a promise you couldn't hold on to. Though it brings me to tears now, i need you to know. Look in my eyes boy. Nothing like yours now. It seems that a lifetime is passing us by. So open your eyes. This is forever but it won't last long. This is a memory that fades away in neverending. In the death of all that's long been said and done before, we'll wish that we were something more. Stop wasting time boy. You're late all your life boy. They won't have the patience for someone like you. Your memory's fading. I'll love you forever. I'll try to remember. I'll try to hold on. You're standing alone boy. Waiting for dreams boy. Waiting for something to make them come true. Don't ever leave boy. I'd miss you too much boy. I'll never forget you, as long as I'm
In January trees are all snow-white
If I'd say so am I - I would lie
A new year's day is too cold
And all I wanna do is be alone
Days go by and February comes
Who would give me one bullet and a gun
I think my time comes in march
Sweet death -- comes in march
In April you may shed one tear for me
In May I'm nothing but a name in your history
In June flowers will wither on my grave
And that was my meaningless life -- hey hey
I think my time comes in march
Now our beautiful nation is dying and corrupt
politicians are just lying! Don’t believe the bullshit
they feed-Just take a look at your own streets!
Now every time I get out to the stores-I see tons of
filthy junkie whores! All I wanna do is to blow up
their brains, when they come to me to beg for some
change!
Mother Finland don’t you dare to die in my arms! I will
fight to keep you away from harms! I’ve seen so long
time how you bled-It’s time to wake you from the dead!
This used to be a place without dangers-Now every
street corner is full of strangers! I know exactly
who’s to blame-Our governments playing a deadly game!
Mother Finland don’t you dare to die in my arms! I will
fight to keep you away from harms! I’ve seen so long
time how you bled-It’s time to wake you from the dead!
From the dead!
In the end, truth will prevail and to the days of glory
we will sail! It might not be before the next
generation, when our people can announce the victory
declaration! ‘Til that day we have to keep our heads up
high and cannot let the flame of freedom’s fight die!
Mother Finland don’t you dare to die in my arms! I will
fight to keep you away from harms! I’ve seen so long
time how you bled-It’s time to wake you from the dead!
Mother Finland don’t you dare to die in my arms! I will
fight to keep you away from harms! I’ve seen so long
time how you bled-It’s time to wake you from the dead!
I've seen the rain and the sun
Some I've lost some I have won
Some I've destroyed and saved
I'm digging a grave for myself
I am not afraid
Roses will bloom and roses will fade
Follow me into damnation
(I'll rock your world down there)
Fly with me into the skies
(I'll show you heaven)
Cry or laugh it's all the same
(Hey, no one will care)
The world keeps turning anyway
My soul is aching
Like never before
Tonight I'm so alive
Dance with me now
Like never before
'cause we never know
About tomorrow
No matter what it takes
As long as blood runs in my veins
My candle will burn from both ends
I'm digging a grave for myself
I am not afraid
Roses will bloom and roses will fade
Anything for a high
Treason and lies
Don't care about the payback
Don't care about the price
Words without a meaning
Staring glassy eyes
Shaking human wreck
See through liquid lies
A shot is all it takes
To life you from the low
It's not the right way
But on and on you go
Ripping wounds wide open
Give it all you got
There's nothing left to say
Erase the sinner's blood
Ripping wounds wide open
Give it all you got
Poison words and life astray
Addicted to the rush
Playing with the devil
Addicted to the rush
There is no other way
Blood runs poisonous
But on and on you go
Show me your face
Under the mask
Show me who you really are
A shattered man that's what I am
It never was the plan
Drowned in lies whith despise
Bitterness is no surprise
I lost my future lost my hope
Day by day I try to cope
Emptiness spreads from within
The walls are closing in
Just ignore me I don't care
If I die I am prepared
In years of hate I lost my everything
The only way is down
In tears of rage I drown my every sin
In tears of rage I am
Empty walls keep staring back
Best friends that I ever had
To hell whith all your sympathy
It's all the same to me
Just ignore me I don't care
If I die I am prepared
Now it's too late
The walls are closing in
In years of hate I lost my everything
The only way is down
In tears of rage I drown my every sin
In tears of rage I'm flow
In years of hate I lost my everything
The only way is down
In tears of rage I drown my every sin
Here comes the dawn of a new day
Comes without a light, it's grey
Grey as yesterday
The frozen ground keeps sleeping
Under my feet
Everything feels cold
It's my inner fear
Could you save me
Break the chains around my heart
Set me free
Let me breathe and let me fly
Away, away
Faces look cruel in the twilight
No smiles for anyone
Darkness has captured my mind
It's eternal autumn
Lives in me
No place to hide
No place to escape (I've tried!)
I never meant to hurt you so
But here I am again
Embracing someone else
It never seems to change
I know my heart belongs to you
But it yearns for someone else
I cannot help myself
I've begged you to forgive me
A thousand times before
This time it's impossible
Don't want me anymore
And you took your things and at the door
You waved a quick goodbye
There is nothing left to say
Just bitter tears to cry
Living a lie ain't easy
Truth comes out and kills our jaded love
I want you to forgive me
Wind blows through the bones
Innocence will die in our souls
While we're sharing our love
Sweet smell of herbs and taste of tequila on our lips
And we will share our love
Sing a song for our freedom
Write love letters for the fire
Shell we dance for self-destruction
Shell we make love for our lives
I'm not the one to die for
Don't grieve for me
After I am gone
No one remembers
Let me die in solitude
Under pale grey clouds
Let me sleep forever
Six feet under ground
My life ain't what I wanted
Don't cry for me
I'm not worth your pain
I'm not worth your tears
I say goodbye
And raindrops taste like tears
In the pouring rain I stand and die alone
In my final hour
As I kneel on the leaves
I can feel a wave of warmth
Wash over me
Then it's really over
My earthly misery
I'm not to be remembered
when i look back upon my life
it's always with a sense of shame
i've always been the one to blame
for everything i long to do
no matter when or where or who
has one thing in common too
it's a
it's a
it's a
it's a sin
it's a sin
everything i've ever done
everything i ever do
every place i've ever been
everywhere i'm going to
it's a sin
at school they taught me how to be
so pure in thought and word and deed
they didn't quite succeed
for everything i long to do
no matter when or where or who
has one thing in common too
father forgive me
i tried not to do it
turned over a new leaf
then tore right through it
whatever you taught me
i didn't believe it
father you fought me
'cause i didn't care
As the earthworm burrows into the ground
I will burrow into your heart
Like a cancer I'm there
It may hurt you, yeah, I know, I know, I know,
But that's what sickly deep love's doing
I'll die in peace with you
In love, in freedom
You may be just someone for the rest of the world
For my you are the whole world
Blessed be my damned rapture
It's all about love
It's all about...
It's all about you
I'll die in peace with you
In love, in freedom
Looking deep into your eyes
no better place to hide
when i'm scared and i'm weak
you can help me before i bleed
you can help me forget the pain
that i feel deep inside
let me shed these tears
let me just be with you
you're my saviour again
you are my angel
my blood runs in you
your blood runs in my veins
we love this kind of immortal love
open up the scars
and give your blood
i will give you mine
i think it's what unites
this is all i believe
you're the one i trust
i believe in our love
she stalks at night with hunger
she takes you down and leaves you cold
lady in black the fallen angel
nocturnal beauty with looks that kill
dripping down all red
night by night down to it
night by night she gets what she wants
one by one they fall down
one by one they do as she pleases
they're all crying for their lives
as it is dripping down all red
begging on their knees to stay alive
she leaves you cold
yeah you know she will
gets what she wants
they are all down on their knees
It's the hour of fading light
Embers of my life
Save me from myself
You touched the fire
And took it out of me
The flame is gone for all eternity
Nothing can hurt me
I'm safe within your grace
Whatever comes our way
You will protect me
You gave me something
More precious than this life
You touched the fire
And took it out of me
After all I still believe
In life and blood relation
I know I'm drained of both
Now it's all the same to me
I'm safe in isolation
Surrounded by your love
With a silent whisper
You came from the dark
Left me whith splinters
I stared until you were no longer in view
Just dust in my eyes
A dot on the horizon
Blends with the sky
Fades out of sight
When I close my eyes
I see you appear
I'm drawn to you my dear
I dream of you
No chains can bind me
In this dream I'll keep you forever mine
Until the end of time
I was longing for your blessing
But you were a devil in disguise
My sweet mistress of despair
You turned my dreams into lies
I follow you to the darker side of night
You take my hand and pull me closer
I realize there's no way I can wake
In my dreams I'm longing for your sin
The warmth of your caress
I was longing for your blessing:
You were a devil in disguise
Turned my dreams into lies
Until the end of time
In this dream I'll keep you forever mine
Until the end of time
In this dream I'll keep you forever mine
Forever, Forever
Salvation what it is?
Quiet conscience and creed?
I'm too lost to be saved.
I've done what I've done,
Never dreamt about babylon I've built my own heaven!!
Save yourself if that's what you want?
I feel powerful to be CHAOTIC ME!
THERE'S NO GODS IN MY NIGHTS AND DAYS
I'M MY BIGGEST LORD AND I ALWAYS WILL BE
YOUR RELIGION IS NOT FOR ME!
I'VE BUILT MY OWN WORLD
SWEET CHAOTIC ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm guilty alone,when something goes wrong!
It's not the punishment from gods.
Conscience doesn't bother me about yesterday
...I'm proud of myself
I'm too lost to be saved..lost in my nights and days
I obey my own rules
Sweet rules that I've made
Salvation what it is? nothing but a piece of shit
Come and drown with me
In the sea of apathy
Deeper in we're drawn
On this downward spiral
We passed the point of no return
The moment we intertwined
On the shores of misery
Washed by crimson tide
Blood is what unites
Crimson twins we are
Blood is what unites
Our darkened hearts
Death is not what it seems
It's just a new beginning
For a lifetime of pain
Your crimes paid off well, you know what you tried for
Your crimes paid off well, you know what you lied for
Your crimes paid off well, you know what you cried for
Your crimes paid off well, you know what you died for
Your soul was allright, when
You didn't scratch it
It all went quite well, when you attached it
But you couldn't feel, what you were fighting for
You didn't know it all, when they closed the door
(What you tried)
I know enough for sure
(What you lied)
That's enough – coz I know my fate
(What you cried)
I know the one you hate
(What you died)
I know when I fall
(What you tried)
Stay far away from me
(What you lied)
Don't ever talk to me again
(What you cried)
I know it's all for the best of man
(What you died)
Hide and run away
Your crimes paid off well, you know what you tried for
Your crimes paid off well, you know what you lied for
Your crimes paid off well, you know what you cried for
And now you know it all, what you died for...
When your life was turning against you
When your life was turning against you
(What you tried)
I know enough for sure
(What you lied)
That's enough – coz I know my fate
(What you cried)
I know the one you hate
(What you died)
I know when I fall
(What you tried)
Stay far away from me
(What you lied)
Don't ever talk to me again
(What you cried)
I know it's all for the best of man
(What you died)
Hide and run away
(What you tried)
I know enough for sure
(What you lied)
That's enough – coz I know my fate
(What you cried)
I know the one you hate
(What you died)
I know when I fall
(What you tried)
Stay far away from me
(What you lied)
Don't ever talk to me again
(What you cried)
I know it's all for the best of man
(What you died)
Hide and run away
She's to die for
A little murder on the dancefloor calls her name
A little further to his heart she holds the flame
She is still so unsure
She always leaves him wanting more
You let me down but I can't let this go now
Time to turn it round again
She is dressed to kill
And he is to die for
She knows he would kill
Just to hold her on the dancefloor
So do we dare take this dance
Cause I'm willing to take the chance
And tonight could be the night baby
Just take my hand
I swear we'll make it right
And he's to die for
A little heartache in the shape of a girl
His little heart-shaped box just waiting to be filled
She knows what she came for
She always leaves him wanting more
You let me down but I can't let this go now
Time to turn it round again
She is dressed to kill
And he is to die for
She knows he would kill
Just to hold her on the dancefloor
So do we dare take this dance
Cause I'm willing to take the chance
And tonight could be the night baby
Just take my hand
I swear we'll make it right
She is too
Caught up in moves
And the moonlight plays so soft
On her skin
And she's singing, he's sinking
Its the sweetest sin
Oh the state
That she has got him in
But she
She is too
Caught up in moves
To even notice you
And she's singing, she's swinging her hips
He keeps saying and praying
That one day he will know her lips
She is dressed to kill
And he is to die for
She knows he would kill
Just to hold her on the dancefloor
So do we dare take this dance
Cause I'm willing to take the chance
And tonight could be the night baby
Just take my hand
I swear we'll make it right
I swear we'll make it right
Cold wind blows again tonight
Caressing total silence
Darkness wraps us in it's veil
As we open our eyes
In the moonlight our souls are free
On wings of sorrow we face eternity
Frozen leaves for our bed
And mist for a blanket
It's time to rise into the night
And satisfy the need
Evil lives within our hearts
Where no blood resides
Once awaken cannot sleep
Old souls are rambling
Through your room
'Cause night-time belongs to them
Time of shadows and whispers
Your room is so dark
And you are
Too scared to fall asleep
But I'm always there for you
So warm is my heart for you my love
Sleep well my darling
And leave
This vale of tears behind
Land of nod is a better place
Don't feel fear in the darkness
You can't see
But there I am with you
I'm near, close to you
Night is like a hand
That feeds our lust
Darkness, like a temple of love
No sorrow in us
Stars above make us feel alive tonight
Wake up when night drives sun away
Feel the rush burn in our veins
Fall asleep before the dawn
Hearts ache
Under a velvet sky
Faces look cruel in daytime
And we are weak under the sun
We're strangers in the middle of the day
You are the moonshine child
And I am the one
Who's been blinded by the daylight
Come and follow me
Wake up when night drives sun away
Feel the rush burn in our veins
Fall asleep before the dawn
Hearts ache
All I need is anything
That makes me feel alive
To end this pain and suffering
That others may call life
And when the wave
Comes crushing in
I cry from within
Too much ain't enough
I reach the peak of ecstasy
My way back down begins
So much for the luxury
It's payback time for sins
Another wasted youth
Another way to get kicks
To escape the truth
Too much ain't enough
I don't regret
I won't forget
The vivid high I never thought that I could get
The highest high
The lowest low
The mirror lies and never lets me go
Can't lay my heart to rest
I'm filthy and unkind
I'm heartless
A disbeliever and unclean
Nothing is what it seems
I'm a liar
I'm here in the right place
This world belongs...
...for the restless
For the anxious and for the hopeless
For the heartless
...this world is made for me...
Quiet conscience sleeps through thunder so they say
But I'm alright
I'll be punished later so they say but why should I care
The sun has gone down
Left me alone
In the dark
In the cold
And wind blows again
It comes from far away
So far away
Is the peace of my soul
Here it comes again
This racking feeling, I don't belong here
Mother earth, beautiful world
Can't give me anything
I have heard so many lies
And I've seen those empty smiles
Knowing that somewhere else
I could see the smile that means something
My mother earth, beautiful world
Is drawn into faceness
Sorrow of the unknown
Follows me everywhere
In my heart I know
I don't belong here
Here it comes again:
I sit and I wait
In the quiet room
Cover my face with my hands
I've been here for hours
But nobody comes I know you are gone
'cause it's taking too long
For someone to bring me the news
'cause somehow I know I've already lost you
Alone in the quiet room
At home it's more quiet without you
I knew this day would come
For me it came too soon
Alone in the quiet room
At home it's more quiet without you
A knock at the door I stand up in fright
Somebody finally came
He says he is sorry
Did all that they could
But your life they couldn't save
I let my tears flow
'cause somehow I knew
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No one here to take away
The pain I'm going through
No one here to share
This moment
Empty walls stare back at me
Laughing at my pain
I can't face reality
Can't face tomorrow
I've bid my last farewell
I've shed my final tear
And cast aside the fear
I've bid my last farewell
I've shed my final tear
And cast aside the fear
The scars were never healed
I have hidden my despair
When I pulled the shortest straw
No one even cared
Empty walls stare back at me
Laughing at my pain
I can't face reality
Can't face tomorrow
There's nothing more to give
I've bid my last farewell
I've shed my final tear
And cast aside the fear
I've bid my last farewell
I've shed my final tear
When hope has faded
The road goes on and on
Wrong decisions made
In each and every crossroads
Like a living dead
Deprived of all emotions
Someone else instead
Decides my destiny
Sorrow remains
It's branded into my soul
Never lets me go
Dreams die young within me
Sorrow as company
Along this narrow path
I've learned to know the unknown
The only friend I have
Reveals it's unseen face
I walk along with sorrow
Each footstep echoes pain
Still I want to follow
you've been hurt so many times
you always seemed to buy their lies
but that's all gone
forget your past
go on and dry those tears
now come with me
I'll take you someplace safe
the world is cold and so alone
we've got no place to call our own
but I don't care
come run with me
and we will find a way
believe me now
I'll take you someplace safe
will you take my hand
'cause nothing never ever lasts
I'll seal our love for eternity
but I don't care
come run with me
and we will find a way
believe me now
I'll take you someplace safe
will you take my hand
'cause nothing never ever lasts
I need you like a vampire needs blood
am I in love for real
my whole soul is aching for you
should I be happy or should I cry
I don't know I've never felt this way before
there's nothing sacred but you
if you'll bleed I'll bleed with you
if you'll die I will die with you
is this the feeling called love
will you take this death from me
if it makes us feel that we are alive
there is nothing sacred but you and I
as the blood runs in your veins
I wanna be inside of you
I wanna live in you as the pain you
wanna keep inside (you)
as the blood runs in your veins
I wanna be inside of you
I wanna live in you as the pain you
wanna keep inside (you)
I need you like the devil needs sin
you are my obsession
I will never let you go
should I be happy or should I cry
I don't know I've never felt this way before
there's nothing sacred but you.
as the blood runs in your veins
I wanna be inside of you
I wanna live in you as the pain you
wanna keep inside (you)
as the blood runs in your veins
I wanna be inside of you
I wanna live in you as the pain you
wanna keep inside (you)
as the blood runs in your veins
I wanna be inside of you
I wanna live in you as the pain you
wanna keep inside (you)
as the blood runs in your veins
I wanna be inside of you
I wanna live in you as the pain you
it's all pain and it's all tears
it's all chaos and it's all fears
it's all sin it's the feeling that I'm not alive
I'm afraid to face my fate
misery sorrow and hate
despair lives on lives in everything
despair lives on and on
lives in everything
life's just a pain that I'll go through
it's all pain and it's all tears
it's all chaos and it's all fears
it's all sin it's the feeling that I'm not alive
I'm afraid to face my fate
misery sorrow and hate
despair lives on lives in everything
despair lives on and on lives in everything
Silence fills the room
calmness is complete
misery is fading away from her face
her restless soul
is forever gone
always running away from here
she left me alone
She left me her warmth
for the cold days ahead
down pours the rain to wash away
because of you
my heart is cold and loveless
there is no love no more
when you seal my fate
love turns to hate
when you give me a smile
inside of me something dies
you are killing me
when you embrace me
calmness in my soul turns to misery
walking hand in hand with you
we bled all we had
wouldn't like to bleed again
we have suffered too much
wouldn't like to suffer anymore
there is no hope in our souls
only cold chilling our bones
ones with misery
ruining life for evermore
our candle melts away
despair has a hold of us
another day to fade away
through all those painful ways
into hearth of misery
and season of gloominess
has arrived for eternity
all what is left is pain
ruining life for evermore
we are crying in despair
our candle melts away
flame of hate burns out the air
pain dwells within my heart
it is growing stronger everyday
grief eats away my soul
I am weaker day by day
nothing can heal my wounds
alone I hear the pain inside
no one to hear my cries
the screams of agony
one with sadness
please let me die just one more time
to be with you
all this sadness
release my soul just one more time
to be with you
this pain is killing me
it slowly carves away my life
can't (not can not) stand the misery
in tears clench the knife
I bleed for you my love
for you my blood keeps running red
until we meet again
Shadows are dancing for me
Celebrating the death of my humanity
Ashes to ashes dust to dust
I am fading away with my sins
With forbidden lusts
Feels like I'm here only to wither away
Catch my fall
Rip the pain out from my chest
Show me a new heaven
Lift me up from the deepest grave
Catch my fall
Show me that life is worth living
Reality is killing me
Vanity blocks my rusted veins
New dawn is nothing but a dive into a thick haze
Apathy conceals my passions behind black lace
My only joy... writhing in pain
Without grace
My vanity is rankling me like the chaps on my skin
Catch my fall
Get up its a minute to midnight
And we've got, the whole world coming after us
So we're running and running, Oh,
and your eyes are the colour of wanting
And my heart is a runaway
And our hands seducing them to coincide
And there's something about you
And there's something that you see
We both lay, here broken
Cause we both know that this can't be
And it cuts like a gun
The poison in battle
Sinking straight to the blood
And it awakens your dreams
And kills all the demons
that you thought wouldn't leave
Cause this is love to die from
And to die for
Could this be, oh dare I say it
Oh this could be,
This could be love I've been waiting for
This could be love I've been asking for
From the stars to the gravel
That we used to light up shadows
From the slits it was finger
Pricking once in my fingertips
Passion for glory
Impossible in this story
And there's something about you
And there's something that you see
We both lay, here broken
Cause we both know that this can't be
And it cuts like a gun
The poison in battle
Sinking straight to the blood
And it awakens your dreams
And kills all the demons
that you thought wouldn't leave
Cause this is love to die from
And to die for
So if the world comes tumbling in
I will be there with you
And if the devil comes to town
I’ll be there to protect you
And it cuts like a gun
The poison in battle
Sinking straight to the blood
And it awakens your dreams
And kills all the demons
that you thought wouldn't leave
Cause this is love to die from
And to die for
talk to me, want my love
talk to me, but not that stuff
you ain't enough
using my love
and you call, for me
again, I'll see
in the heat of the night
you'll lose your heart and sell your soul
I lose control in the heat of the night
it's much too late to leave the trade
but I can't stand it anymore
you'll lose your heart and your soul
I lose control in the heat of the night
talk to me, want my love
talk to me, but not that stuff
who's on my side
losing my pride
and you call, for me
Tighten your tie boy.
You're something to die for.
But don't hold your breath now.
You're just killing time.
Tonight you can dream boy.
Imagine a whisper.
If you can keep secrets, then I'll tell you mine.
Remember a promise you couldn't hold on to.
Though it brings me to tears now
I need you to know
Look in my eyes boy.
Nothing like yours now.
It seems that a lifetime is passing us by.
So open your eyes.
This is forever but it won't last long.
This is a memory that fades away in never ending.
In the death of all that's long been said and done before,
We'll wish that we were something more.
Stop wasting time boy.
You're late all your life boy.
They won't have the patience for someone like you.
Your memory's fading.
I'll love you forever.
I'll try to remember.
I'll try to hold on.
You're standing alone boy.
Waiting for dreams boy.
Waiting for something to make them come true.
Don't ever leave boy.
I'd miss you too much boy.
I'll never forget you
The lies!
Oh, the lies have shattered us all.
I speak from my perspective.
The lonely fears he bore have inspired me.
These writings can only say so much.
But it's still your fault.
I have seen disaster. It all came down, and I have witnessed tragedy.
To lose it all, to lose it all. And I can't take it anymore.
I bear no comfort, and give no peace.
What is it that he saw?
Brought him to sacrifice.
I forfeit all apprehension for you.
To escape affliction from your existence.
The lies!
Oh, how the lies have shattered us all.
Fabrication of the truth from the widow's mouth.
Just to justify of being bereft of fucking life.
Is there anything left in life that's worth dying for?!
this is all we have
this is all we need
you better believe
there's something to die for
we don't need you
or your rules - this is ours
there's something to die for
we hear every word you say
don't turn your back no us
dive in the crowd
shout out load
this is our town
there's something to die for
black bandannas
black wrist-bands
this is our land
there's something to die for
we hear every word you say
don't turn your back on us
bringing back all the hate
we remember 88
jordans, construction gloves
violent dancing
in a scene we were proud of
ban us
from your fucking clubs
To die for money gives life no meaning
To die for glory would be too easy
To die for pride ain't good enough
But love love love love is to die for
To fight for something that you believe in
To give as much as you're recieving
To fall asleep each and every night
In love love love love is to die for
I believe love's the key
That opens up your heart and sets you free
And that love isn't blind
It just chooses not to see the flaws of you and me
Baby I'm mistaken but I always let my feelings show
And I'll give it all away to be with you
'Cause in my heart I know
To die for money gives life no meaning
To die for glory would be too easy
To die for pride ain't good enough
But love love love love is to die for
Don't you know that
Love hurts you sometimes
But it can wipe away your tears
'Cause love is like good wine
It gets better through the years
I've lived for possessions
And found them wanting
Driven by ambition that led to nothing
I've learnt in time though life's not sure
That love love love love is to die for
That love love love love is to die for