Gaius Petronius Arbiter (ca. 27–66 AD) was a Roman courtier during the reign of Nero. He is generally believed to be the author of the Satyricon, a satirical novel believed to have been written during the Neronian age.
Tacitus, Plutarch and Pliny the Elder describe Petronius as the elegantiae arbiter (also phrased arbiter elegantiarum), "judge of elegance" in the court of the emperor Nero. He served as consul in the year AD 62. Later, he became a member of the senatorial class who devoted themselves to a life of pleasure, whose relationship to Nero was apparently akin to that of a fashion advisor. Tacitus gives this account of Petronius in his historical work the Annals:
He spent his days in sleep, his nights in attending to his official duties or in amusement, that by his dissolute life he had become as famous as other men by a life of energy, and that he was regarded as no ordinary profligate, but as an accomplished voluptuary. His reckless freedom of speech, being regarded as frankness, procured him popularity. Yet during his provincial government, and later when he held the office of consul, he had shown vigor and capacity for affairs. Afterwards returning to his life of vicious indulgence, he became one of the chosen circle of Nero's intimates, and was looked upon as an absolute authority on questions of taste (elegantiae arbiter) in connection with the science of luxurious living.
I won't cry a single tear
As autumn rain begins to fall
I remember, hear her voice
Through heavenly meadows we tried to run
As if we could touch the sky
Times are changing and so did we
Our love was never meant to be
She laid her body next to mine
It felt no pain, it takes no life
As she buried the shining blade
Her body trembles by it's touch
Sparkling love it gives to her
And while heaven cried... she died
Ohh i loved her... but now she's gone
The rain reminds me of the only one
Her breath still creeping on my neck
Fear covers your heart and your soul like a sombre shadow
Your whole way of life is a farce, bad luck seems to follow
Your mode of living is a path of debris
If you don't struggle, you won't resist
Don't drown your sorrows 'cause the can swim
Drugs are no solace, problems will begin
You can run, but you can not hide
The truth you dread stays by your side
So just relax and fear no threat
You have to fight the truth you dread
Try to live free
Don't flee from reality
Forget the fucking past
Hope will die at last
The suicidal thought is always by your side
Don not succumb, you have to fight
Don't drown your sorrows 'cause the can swim
Drugs are no solace, problems will begin
You can run, but you can not hide
The truth you dread stays by your side
So just relax and fear no threat
You have to fight the truth you dread
Thoughts are running amok
Your mind seems to break
The soul is forsaken
Emotions escalate
It seems as if the scars on your soul won't heal
But as time comes by redemption will reveal
Fleeing from reality
Fleeing from the truth
A life on the run
In search for refuge
Don't drown your sorrows 'cause the can swim
Drugs are no solace, problems will begin
You can run, but you can not hide
The truth you dread stays by your side
So just relax and fear no threat
You have to fight the truth you dread
I have to listen to the voice in my mind
Walking straight forward and don't waste my life
Life isn't senseless, don't wanna be dead
A land of snow and ice
Bound by indistinct Thoughts
A bloody piece of meat
Where once has been my heart
Nothing more remains
No future an no past
Forced to carry on
By the finally dying hope
Down by the bloody sea
Where silent rivers ran
Seems the place to be
To come and see the end
A thousand burning lies
Are cutting through my veins
Melting with her tears
To an everflowing stream
Pain - Is all that's left inside
Hate - Is all that's left behind
Hate and Pain - is all that's left behind
Hate and Pain - Solution suicide
As I see my broken body laying on the ground
As I feel the cold white light burning from inside
Through the spheres she's haunting me, trying to get my soul
Through the heat I can feel, how my body get's cold
Drifting through loneliness
Still not knowing where to stop
Pounding raindrops still are falling
Washing away the crimson blood
Voices calling through the air
Sweet they sound, almost near
Will my fallen angel appear
To rescue me or bring despair
Pain - Is all that's left inside
Hate - Is all that's left behind
Hate and Pain - is all that's left behind
The path of perdition
Is edged with the grief of sinners
Punished by their own creed
Banished from sanctuary
Leave me alone
I won't give up
No one can judge my way of life
The path of felicitounsness
Is paved with the blood of innocence
Raped by the light of christ
Falling into disgrace
Leave me alone
Shut the fuck up
No one should tell me where to stop
No more depression
Live your own life
Don't try to blame me
For the things you've done
Never knowing how to react
At the edge of reality
Don't try to fight me
You shouldn't dare
Don't stand in my way
Because now it's time for...
Bloody Silence - Blood on my hands
Bloody Silence - Now make my day
Bloody Silence - Time for my revenge
Bloody Silence - Now meet thy end
Leave me alone
Shut the fuck up
No one should tell me where to stop
It's time for...
Bloody Silence - Blood on my hands
Bloody Silence - Now make my day
Bloody Silence - Time for my revenge
Confrontation against a daily hell
Meaningless movements all around me
Mortal frames only shadows of their self
Feelings of hate
Revealing my mind
Thoughts of fear
Controlling my life
Two-faced people praying for life
Ignorance, don't care if it's right
Total frustration becomes to common
Show no weakness, believe in yourself
Feelings of hate
Revealing my mind
Thoughts of fear
Controlling my life
Tell me your secrets, tell me your dreams
Teach me the things you want to see
Tell me your secrets, tell me your lies
Teach me the things you have in mind
March on through life
Don't look aside
Find what you seek
Forget about the weak
That's my self-fulfilling prohecy!
Tranquilize your senses, become one of us
Builded upon ruins, a foundation on trust'
Loose yourself in the deep dreams of hope
Freedom of the soul, the meaning of life'
Feelings of hate
Revealing my mind
Thoughts of fear
Some chose to follow others
Don't think just act
Like the mighty men have told
Theses man know how to talk
Make you believe
But they don't practice what they preach
The food for the fools is served for us all
Get your place at the table and you will fall
Grub for the gulls
Filled with sorrow
Grub for the gulls
Spit or swallow
Mankind is marching
Like marionettes
Towards money and might
Isn't that sad'
Grub for the gulls
Filled with sorrow
Grub for the gulls
Spit or swallow
Beware the choirs are calling
To pull you down
Into the mud of stinking lies
Filled with misanthropy
Common people
Stand up and fight
The pool of decadence is forced with might
Common people stand up and fight!
Mankind is marching
Like marionettes
Towards money and might
Isn't that sad'
Grub for the gulls
Filled with sorrow
Grub for the gulls
Spit or swallow
Don't be a fool
And serve liars
Once again I lost my way
In this false world
Searching for reality
Did I lose my mind'
All hope has died, at the point of my soul-mutilation
No hope inside, when I try to escape from my fears
A thought burns inside
This thought of destruction, the word suicide
No more feelings inside to awake, awake from this nightmare
All senses clear
One with my feelings, one with my mind
The pressure grows inside to be free, free from this pain
Deep inside, there's a thought in my mind: Suicide
Bring me to life in the death of my life
All love is lost
Feelings always hurt
My soul imprisioned in cage
No place to find my rest
At this point of no return
Myself seems to be lost
Gathering of all the hate
Is this my fate'
Buried in Life!
The wish to die!
Buried in Life!
A thought burns inside
This thought of destruction, the word suicide
No more feelings inside to awake, awake from this nightmare
All senses clear
One with my feelings, one with my mind
The pressure grows inside to be free, free from this pain
All hope has died, at the point of my soul-mutilation
No hope inside, when I try to escape from my fears
Buried in Life!
Still wish to die!
Burden of Past
Chains of subconsciousness bound me to the past
Hate and depression, all this seems to last
Just like a shdow, I can't hide this
I can't run away to the life I miss
I wear a mask every time
Nobody knows whit lies behind
My inner self is cut in two
Nobody knows the hell I'm through
In the claws of destiny
This is the burden of past
It brings you to your knees
This is the burden of past
I wear it on my shoulders, sometimes I break down
The man who stands in front of you is often a false clown
I wear a mask every time
Nobody knows whit lies behind
My inner self is cut in two
Nobody knows the hell I'm through
In the claws of destiny
This is the burden of past
It brings you to your knees
This is the burden of past
The time which lies behind me is sometimes far away
But it has the power to turn my life into grey
The wound deep inside me endanger my present life
But I will go on, this can't bring me down
I wear a mask every time
Nobody knows whit lies behind
My inner self is cut in two
Nobody knows the hell I'm through
In the claws of destiny
This is the burden of past
It brings you to your knees
As the season begin to change
Sadness fills my heart
Like a tree without a leave
I start to search for life
Once upon a time
I was lost in life
Drifting away
Don't know where to stay
I search my way
In a place I never seem to find
Lost in my own mind
Where winds of darkness blow so cold
It's all so cold!
My dreams turn into nightmares, Heaven becomes hell
Total isolation saves me from frustration
No more tomorrow, yesterday is gone
My life just seems to be a waste of time
Leaves fall to the ground
Time is running low
It feels so unreal
To live this lie
But now I try to escape
From the things I once loved
To become one with myself
Before I leave to die
Seasons change
Life goes on and on
Surounded by hope
Which won't fit on me
Offering me love
But inside I still feel so cold
It's all so cold!
My dreams turn into nightmares, Heaven becomes hell
Total isolation saves me from frustration
No more tomorrow, yesterday is gone
My life just seems to be a waste of time
Leaves fall to the ground
Time is running low
It feels so unreal
To live this lie