Plot
Alain Leroy is having a course of treatment in a private hospital because of his problem with alcohol. Although he is constantly distressed, he leaves the hospital and tries to meet good old days' friends. None of them will be helpful, increasing Alain's distress.
Keywords: 1960s, addiction, alcoholic, alcoholism, anxiety, based-on-novel, begins-with-narration, businesswoman, cashing-check, chess-game
Alain Leroy: The sensitivity was in my heart, not my hands.
Alain Leroy: Tomorrow, I kill myself.
Dr. La Barbinais: Life's good.::Alain Leroy: Good for what?
Alain Leroy: Life flows too slowly on me. So I speed it up. I set it right.
Dubourg: How are you now?::Alain Leroy: Feeling empty. With some atrocious moments.
A moraine is any glacially formed accumulation of unconsolidated glacial debris (soil and rock) which can occur in currently glaciated and formerly glaciated regions, such as those areas acted upon by a past glacial maximum. This debris may have been plucked off a valley floor as a glacier advanced or it may have fallen off the valley walls as a result of frost wedging or landslide. Moraines may be composed of debris ranging in size from silt-sized glacial flour to large boulders. The debris is typically sub-angular to rounded in shape. Moraines may be on the glacier’s surface or deposited as piles or sheets of debris where the glacier has melted. Moraines may also occur when glacier- or iceberg-transported rocks fall into a body of water as the ice melts.
Moraines can be classified either by their origin, location with respect to a glacier or former glacier, or by shape. The first approach is suitable for moraines associated to contemporary glaciers but more difficult to apply to old moraines whose glaciers have disappeared long ago. Moraines types like rogen and veiki moraines are defined by their particular morphology since their origin has been a matter of dispute. Some moraine types are only known from ancient glaciers, like the two former ones, while medial moraines of valley glaciers are poorly preserved and difficult to distinguish after the retreat or melting of the glacier.
Brandi Carlile (born June 1, 1981) is an American alternative country and folk rock singer-songwriter Her 2007 album The Story was produced by T-Bone Burnett.
Carlile is best known for the eponymous song from the The Story album. "The Story", the song, was used in a General Motors television commercial aired on American and Canadian television showcasing the car company's new line-up of more fuel-efficient cars. Due to the ad airing heavily during the 2008 Beijing Olympics, the song increased in downloads. The song was also used in the 2008 commercial for Super Bock, the most popular beer in Portugal, which led to the song reaching number 1 and the album The Story reaching number 4 on the Portuguese charts. "The Story" was also used in a montage of Penn State football coach Joe Paterno during the opening and closing of the Ohio State-Penn State football game on ABC on October 25, 2008, and was also used in a 2010 Tracker television commercial that aired on South African television. "The Story" is currently being used on Connecticut Channel 3 during promotions for the local news. Aside from "The Story" (specifically the cover version by Sara Ramirez), two other Carlile songs (this time from her third album titled Give Up the Ghost) were used for two more episodes of the TV series Grey's Anatomy.
John Muir (21 April 1838 – 24 December 1914) was a Scottish-born American naturalist, author, and early advocate of preservation of wilderness in the United States. His letters, essays, and books telling of his adventures in nature, especially in the Sierra Nevada mountains of California, have been read by millions. His activism helped to save the Yosemite Valley, Sequoia National Park and other wilderness areas. The Sierra Club, which he founded, is now one of the most important conservation organizations in the United States. One of the most well-known hiking trails in the U.S., the 211-mile (340 km) John Muir Trail, was named in his honor. Other places named in his honor are Muir Woods National Monument, Muir Beach, John Muir College, Mount Muir, Camp Muir and Muir Glacier.
In his later life, Muir devoted most of his time to the preservation of the Western forests. He petitioned the U.S. Congress for the National Park bill that was passed in 1890, establishing both Yosemite and Sequoia National Parks. Because of the spiritual quality and enthusiasm toward nature expressed in his writings, he was able to inspire readers, including presidents and congressmen, to take action to help preserve large nature areas. He is today referred to as the "Father of the National Parks," and the National Park Service produced a short documentary on his life.
Charlie Winston (born Charlie Winston Gleave, 14 September 1978, Cornwall) is an English singer-songwriter.
Winston started performing under the moniker "Charlie Winston and the Oxymorons" after recording and touring with Tom Baxter on Baxter's Feather and Stone album. The Oxymorons consisted of harmonicist Benjamin 'Gob Iron' Edwards, bass guitarist Elf Lord Taylor, and drummer Jamie Morrison.
Winston's debut album, Make Way was recorded at Real World Studios in 2006. Described as "inspired and seductive". Winston supported Peter Gabriel. on his 2007 European tour.
His second album, Hobo, entered the French charts at #3 on 31 January 2009, and peaked at #1 in its 25th charting week where it stayed for 4 weeks and, as of 5 July 2011 (2011 -07-05)[update], spent 30 weeks in the Top 10. His debut album has also been certified as being platinum.
The first single, "Like a Hobo", also topped the French SNEP charts for one week on 11 April 2009.
In 2010, Winston won an European Border Breakers Award for 'Best UK artist in Europe'.
Clara Hill is a musician born in Berlin. Clara Hill was one of the leading figures of Berlin-based Sonar Kollektiv. She writes and performs with a varied array of artists. With an impressive discography including 3 critically acclaimed full-length albums “Restless Times”, “All I Can Provide”, “Clara Hill's Folkwaves:Sideways” and many 12“s featuring big names of Electronica and Jazz knob twiddlers Clara Hill belongs to those few artists that never stop growing. During those years Clara Hill built up her reputation as a great live vocalist with several bands and her live PA performance. She is a multi-faceted artist with the ability to span over the music genres with sophistication. Coming from a Singer-Songwriter / Acid-jazz / electronica background – Clara never stopped discovering and experimenting new musical styles and musical diversity: whether she is floating on guitar loops, pure piano and orchestra compositions, slightly jazz arrangements, or on profound electronic beats Clara Hill knows how to bring her voice and her writing to different beats and various musical genres. Beside countless international tours since 8 years her main interest is to present her own independent musical language, to focus on strong compositions besides musical trends. Clara is working on her new Album which goes more in direction folk and new folk with elements of experimental music, electronica and post-rock.
You live your life
Just to let yourself go
You are the lowest
The lowest of low
Beg for me crawl for me
Down on your knees
You're a sex junkie
You'll do as I please
Harder Faster
Harder Faster
Secrets of lust
That you keep in your mind
Victims like you
Are so easy to find
First name is dirt
And your last name is sleaze
You're a sex junkie
You'll do as I please
Horny ideas
They just clog up your brain
Destruction Vice
Or you'll just go insane
Degrading darkness
You live just for these
You're a sex junkie
You'll do as I please
Two-hundred million bodies sold
You come walking
Through the night
Your flesh is hot
You cring with fright
You pesrpire through your clothes
Your thing it grows
And grows and grows
Sex hormones dropped
From out of the sky
Millions Orgasm
Until they die
Squirming Flesh
You beg for more
You live for sex
There is no more
DESTROY ME
As WANT turns to NEED
You MURDER ME
Just to WATCH me BLEED
I live inside... my own MAKE BELIEVE
I SACRIFICE... what you can't see
I'm HISSING MAD
And I'm DRIPPING WET
I have no FATHER
I have no PET
And I'll be DAMNED
The day I die
Your ANTI MUSE
Your ANTI LIE
[chorus]
CAN I SPEAK?
I will DESTROY
IF I SPEAK
It will DESTROY
HOW I SPEAK...
I will DESTROY
WHEN I SPEAK...
It will DESTROY you
Another LOVER, anther MAN
Another VICTIM of CIRCUMSTANCE
I close my eyes
With NO REGRET
I know your name BABY
But I FORGET
My MOUTH is CRUEL
And my LIPS are mean
I'm DIRTY MINDED
And I'm OBSENE
But I'll be SAVED
The day I die
I'll be your MUSE
I'll be your LIE
[Repeat chorus]
I see GOD and he's MY FRIEND
But THE DEVIL'S standing next to HIM
HE says MY NAME and I feel so WEAK
Just like a MONSTER who cannot SPEAK
I'm like a MONSTER.... When I SPEAK
Am I a MONSTER... when I SPEAK?
Your just a MONSTER... when we SPEAK
So I'm a MONSTER when I SPEAK... can I SPEAK?
I'll be your MONSTER when we SPEAK and I SPEAK to DESTROY...
SPEAK AND DESTROY.... SPEAK AND DESTROY
the wages of sin hold my heart hostage
my mouth is still cruel
my skin is in bondage
my body is scarred from the lyrics I've carved
bruises I've healed
lips that I've starved
wounds I've replaced with love and with hate
the truth set me free
but my faith was raped
I've broken my silence
lied to myself
spoken in violence
been someone else
screamed at my demons
prayed to my god
begged for forgiveness
The forecast said it would be sunny
I guess they got it wrong
It's raining again in Silverlake
And I need to hear my song
The one that puts me in the mood
To spill my guts and talk to you
Saves me from my self-inflicted worry when I do
Oh, you're asleep right now but I'm still wide awake
It's hard for me to close my eyes without no pill to take
I think of all the times I tried, the nights I dreamed I'd died
Help me feel alive again 'cause I'm so dead inside
Well, I'm a liar and you're my saint
It feels so good being the one they hate
And I'm a sinner, so let's all pray
I wouldn't want it any other way
Well, have you heard the news, I've got a blue bruise on my hip
The truth can be a brutal business, I just need a kiss
Someone to tape my wrists, I think that I'm about to bleed
But I know it's not up to you to give me what I need
Oh, you're awake right now so I must be asleep
It seems I've got a secret that I ain't afraid to keep
I think of all the times I tried to tell you how I feel
But it's so hard to mend my wounds that just refuse to heal
Well, I'm a liar and you're my saint
It feels so good being the one they hate
And I'm a sinner, so let's all pray
I wouldn't want it any other way
Take me back, let's go back
It's so dark here, it's so black
Exquisite with stillness, the fragrance of flesh
The taste of revenge and my wounds are still fresh
Now here she comes with her bloody red lips
Funeral-white skin and her generous hips
Drenched in the scent of romance like no other
She's so filthy gorgeous that death has become her
Well, I'm a liar and you're my saint
It feels so good being the one they hate
And I'm a sinner, so let's all pray
Monster
Destroy me as want turns to need
you murder me just to watch me bleed.
I live inside... my own make belief,
I sacrifice... what you can't see
I'm hissing mad and I'm dripping wet.
I have no father, I have no pet and I'll be damned the day I die
your antimuse your antilife
chorus
can I speak?
I will destroy if I speak,
it will destroy how I speak...
I will destroy when I speak...
it will destroy you another lover, another man, another victim of circumstance.
I close my eyes with no regret I know your name baby but I forget
my mouth is cruel and my lips are mean,
I dirty minded and I am obscene
but I'll be saved the day I die,
I'll be your muse, I'll be your lie (repeat chorus)
I see God and he is my friend
but the devil's standing next to him,
he says my name and I feel so weak,
just like a monster you cannot speak,
I am like a monster...
when I speak am I a monster... when I speak?
your just a monster when we speak so I'm a monster when I speak...
can I speak? I'll be your monster when we speak
and I will speak to destroy...
speak and destroy....
you believe everything you read
you believe everything you read
you believe everything you read
i canæ° believe what the fuck i read
scream
words that i believe
friends became my enemies
think
think before you speak
donæ° think you know me
my heart is an empty hole
hands wanna wrap around your throat
legs bruise everywhere you walk
mouth spits all the shit you talk
so keep talking
keep talking
keep talking
keep talking
fight
say whatæ¯ on my mind
(no i)
lies
words you hide behind
be careful what you say
stay
stay the fuck away
my heart is an empty hole
hands wanna wrap around your throat
legs bruise everywhere you walk
mouth spits all the shit you talk
my heart is an empty hole
hands wanna wrap around your throat
legs bruise everywhere you walk
mouth spits all the shit you talk
keep talking
in a world of lies
i find myself advised to just pretend iæ¦ nice
and not to say whatæ¯ on my mind
but in a world of shit
i think youæ®e just a bitch
who couldnæ° fuck or suck my dick
cause iæ¦ a chick
donæ° even think i give a damn
i say these things because i can
honesty is the holiest disease
honesty
honesty
honesty
Just get off, fuckers
You'll find in the mind of a throat that's sore
The beauty of horror
Misunderstood by those who fear her
If you listen you will hear
Nazimova
Nazimova
Nazimova
You can speak through me
Did not do what they told you to
And I won't do what they tell me to
Why should I?
All the saints of hate can't save her
Fuck Hollywood 'cause it made her
Who she was? Who I am?
Stab me in my praying hands
Nazimova
Nazimova
Nazimova
You can speak through me
Did not do what they told you to
And I won't do what they tell me to
Why should I? Why should I?
Stop, jump
Beauty in exile
Horror is in style
Did not do what they told you to
And I won't do what they tell me to
Why should I?
Did not do what they told you to
And I won't do what they tell me to
Sometimes I feel
I've got to run away
I've got to get away
From the pain you drive
Into the heart of me
The love that we share
Seems to go nowhere
And I've lost my light
For I toss and turn
I can't sleep at night
Once I ran to you
And now I'll run from you
This tainted love you've given
I give you all a boy could give you
Take my tears and that's not nearly all
Tainted love
Tainted love
Now I know
I've got to run away
I've got to get away
You don't really want
Any more from me
To make things right
You need someone to hold you tight
And you think love is to pray
But I'm sorry, I don't pray that way
Once I ran to you
Now I'll run from you
This tainted love you've given
I give you all a boy could give you
Take my tears and that's not nearly all
Tainted love
Tainted love
Don't touch me please
I cannot stand the way you tease
I love you though you hurt me so
Now it's time you pack your things and go
Tainted love
Tainted love
Touch me, baby, tainted love
Don't touch me with your tainted love
Touch me, baby, tainted love
Don't touch me with your tainted love
The tainted love
The tainted love
The tainted love
The tainted love
The tainted love
The tainted love
The tainted love
Late at night I watch as the sun comes up - the break of day is not enough, was I really dead!
And I remember how I felt this time last year - wonder will it disappear somethings gotta give...
[Chorus:]
Never let go of that fiery sadness, throat full of heart - mouth of madness!
By mistake I swallow another pill - bittersweet is such a thrill - try to feel alive!
And I forget all the pain just goes away - wish that I could sleep all day disconnect myself...
[Chorus]
Is it better to defeat this monster - be secure in the silence or to be devoured, devoured!
And when I stand before you at the end of this...
Will I have enough guts to love those little slices of my death!
Never let of that fiery sadness... never let go of that fiery sadness!
And I would rather have eyes that can't see, ears that can't hear -
Lips that can't speak... than a heart which no longer can beat...
This strange melancholy pervades me at which I hesitate to give the grave that beautiful name of... my life!
On the other side of the scars - the way out is through the wound!
On the other side of the scars - the way out is through the wound!
it was a long time ago
longer now than it seems
a place that perhaps you have seen in your dreams...
welcome to my world
is it what you thought it would be?
i'm trapped inside this hell
between blood queen and purgatory
a coop filled covered hall
a tattooed babydoll
i've got the devil in my corner
and jesus on my wall
[chorus]
today is an oatmeal day
i feel like a monster babe
preacher save me with your call
and i will be your little miss scareall
one eye's green and one eye's blue
demons, angels a love that's true
catch me as i start to fall
let me be your little miss scareall
halloween is over
but i will keep you scared
take you to the fright side
i know you'll come prepared
by your deadly nightshade
turn your christmas black
and you can be my johnny homicidal maniac
[repeat chorus]
forgive me preacher
for i have sinned
it's been 3 weeks since my first confession
i am the one... hiding under your bed
my teeth are sharp, my lips are red
i am the one.... hiding under your stairs
with snakes and spiders in her hair
i feel like a monster babe
little miss scareall
Defamation of the character on a certain demographic
Pro user friendly teen pornographic
Superficial substance sick narcissistic
Bullshit by numbers gone crazy biz kit
Radio silence can't keep us quiet
Radio silence deprogram and riot
Radio silence won't keep us quiet
Radio silence deprogram
Contrived conviction imitation real
Candy coated wrapped up crap mass appeal
Fake angst, aesthetic, insincere, offensive
Illegitimate false start pop chart perspective
Radio silence can't keep us quiet
Radio silence deprogram and riot
Radio silence won't keep us quiet
Radio silence, riot
Radio, fuck
Radio, fuck
Radio, fuck
Your soft rock diet
Radio, fuck
Radio, fuck
Radio we will not be quiet
Quiet we will not keep silent
it seems youæ®e always looking for a new religion
drown yourself in absolution to excuse your sins
nowadays itæ¯ easy to be swayed by images portrayed
there is nothing you wonæ° do to get paid
so full of shit
you make me sick
post noise revelation
cult of my frustration
post noise revolution
is there no solution?
it seems youæ®e sucked into a scene of what the latest rage is
force fed mtv
the new disease that is contagious
videos that cost a million bucks
with fakes degrading ladies
can i be a fan of you
baby
so full of shit
you make me sick
post noise revelation
cult of my frustration
post noise revolution
is there no solution?
post noise revelation
cult of my frustration
post noise revolution
is there no solution?
what seems to be the cancer?
i donæ° know the answer
someone needs to tell me
what theyæ®e trying to sell me
whatæ¯ the fucking cancer?
i donæ° know the answer
someone needs to tell me
this place is hell to me and i can never get no sleep
there's a devil in my bed with me who's talk is cheap
you feel like heaven to me all i want to do is sleep
you're like an angel lyin' next to me you look so sweet
close your eyes
and lets pretend
remember why
we're just friends
my tangled hair will weave a web of lies within my sheets
and in the morning i'll be nailed where he crucified me
your blackened hair will leave a stain inside my mind so deep
and when tomorrow comes i'll wish that you would worship me
close your eyes
and let's pretend
remember why
we're just friends
there must be a storm in london tonight
because it's cold and raining hard
my body aches, my lover waits, i pick the scabs from my arms
there must be a storm in la tonight
because it's cold and raining hard
i miss your kiss. i miss your face, i miss the stars of your arms
the man that i lust
in he do i trust
for he is my god
my anti jesus
he is my savior
my salvation
he leads me into temptation
in my highest hour
my lowest moment
he is my torture
he is my torment
and i will pray for him
to remain my friend
and save me from my enemies... forever amen
this place is hell to me and i can never get no sleep
masochrist
come to me
As Christ redeemed
Make up hides your identity
But I can see
You're still diseased
Get off your cross
Get off your knees
Dare I see
The same in me
Never thought that I could be
So you just lick your wounds
But it's too late
Trust will lead you to your own fate
masochrist...
what you sew
is what you reap
you're only sick
as secrets that you keep
and what you use
is what you'll need
but I cant stand to watch you bleed
to watch you bleed
For me
Forgive me father
For I'm not clean
I'd rather be
Miss Magdalene
Your vaseline won't heal my demons
Cause I don't talk to god
I'm screaming
Dare I prove
The same in you
I never thought that I was true
So let me bruise my knees
rape my faith
Scar myself with love and with hate
MASOCHRIST...
what you sew
is what you'll reap
you're only sick as
se-crets that you keep
what you use
is what you'll need
i cant stand
to watch you bleed
For me
For me
For me
For me...
Oh lord hear my prayer
You look like you are scared
I do what you taught me
It's your turn to watch me
Oh lord hear my prayer
Pull me by my black hair
Stab me with your greed
It's my turn to .... bleed
what you sew
is what you reap
you're only sick as
secrets that you'll keep
and what I use
is what i need
can you stand to watch me as...
i breathe
i breathe
i breathe
im breathing...
yes it's true
i've got demons inside me
and sometimes they need to speak
my dark places make me feel ugly
my lips are glossed but my heart is weak
i'm diseased
as seen on tv
please forgive me
for not being pretty or sexy
but god never blessed me
here's what youæ£l find next time you undress me
scars
wounds
i'm bruised
watch me bleed
i'm your beauty
watch me bleed
beauty fiend
once again
without perfect teeth
i begin the dream as i sleep
soon i've sinned
my skin is still thick
my mouth as always is brutally honest
at my calmest
i'm tired of explaining how it feels
to be exploited and rated number one, two or seventeen
fuck what they print in those damn magazines
scars
wounds
i'm used
watch me bleed
i'm no beauty
watch me bleed
beauty queen
watch me bleed
i'm your beauty
watch me bleed
beauty fiend
stuck inside this mask of mine
there's no place for me to hide
won't you please come suck me dry
don't touch me
don't fucking touch me
don't touch me
why can't you see beyond my skin
size
my shape
my ass
my tits
i am not your pretty face
i'm just a girl
the girl you love to hate
watch me bleed
i'm no beauty
watch me bleed
beauty queen
watch me bleed
i'm the beauty
watch me bleed
beauty fiend
why can't you see beyond my skin
size
my shape
my ass
my tits
i am not your pretty face
i'm just a girl
the girl you love to hate
stuck inside this mask of mine
there's no place for me to hide
won't you please come suck me dry
don't
don't you fucking touch me
i feel the skies open wide
see your blue eyes
when worlds collide
youæ®e by my side
itæ¯ hard to lie
sometimes iæ³e cried
wished it was me
wished it was me who died
i can see you in the sunshine
i feel you where i stand
i can see you in the bright lights
i feel you hold my hand
let your light surround me
in loving memory
let your love surround me
shine down on me
shine on me
something so deep inside me binds me with you
told me a secret
swore that iæ keep it
someday my friend
weæ£l meet again
so until then iæ£l keep our secret safe
i can see you in the moonlight
i feel you when i sleep
i can see you on those dark nights
i feel your arms around me
let your light surround me
in loving memory
let your love surround me
shine down on me
shine on me
rockstar
we will always be bound
we will always be down
we will always be bound
we will always be down
i feel you when i scream your words
i am just a girl that hurts
feel me when i scream these words
i am just a girl that hurts
i feel you when i scream your words
i am just a girl that hurts
feel me when i scream these words
i am just a girl that hurts
i am just a girl that hurts
i am just a girl that hurts
i am just a girl that hurts
i am just a girl
youæ®e so pretty when you lie
love songs always make me cry
i donæ° think you have a choice
thereæ¯ no truth left in your voice
remember when we used to laugh
just try to forget all that
wear my heart upon your lips
i hope it tastes just like shit
just call me miss ann thrope
just call me miss ann thrope
youæ®e so pretty when you die
love songs always make me cry
i donæ° think you realise
thereæ¯ no blue left in your eyes
remember when we used to sing
just try to forget those things
fill your hole inside with dirt
i hope that it fucking hurts
just call me miss ann thrope
just call me miss ann thrope
just call me miss ann thrope
just call me miss ann thrope
you have left a trail of deceit
assault and flattery
blasting through my wounds
imprisoned me in god and poetry
a ritual to mend my angry heart
a breeding ground for your untruth
if god created man in his own image
then fuck you
ashes to ashes
dust to dust
my hate for you defines my lust
bridges to bridges
youæ®e nothing to me
welcome world
miss ann thrope
fuck
cunt
miss ann thrope
cunt
fuck
miss ann thrope
miss
I see her coming filled in her disease
Don't bother runnin', she sees me
Her smile is thick, so sick there ain't no cure
I never wanna be just like her, no
Burn, burn, burn the witch
I watch her leave, still filled with her disease
Don't give a fuck what she thinks
Her hands are clean but no one here believes
So full of shit that she stinks
Burn, burn, burn the witch
Burn, burn, burn the witch
The antithesis to everything she is
The enemy, I am her nemesis
Miss Ugliness will stick and linger
So I must focus on my middle finger
Burn, burn, burn the witch
Burn, burn, burn the witch
I see her coming, I see her, I see her
I see her coming, burn the witch
I watch her running, I watch her, I watch her
I was born like this with hips like this
Lips like this and wrists like this
Legs like this and arms like this
A fist like this to hit you with, now
You're like school on Sunday
You ain't got no class
Keep runnin' your mouth off but
You can kiss my *
Not made to measure baby
One size does not fit all
I will not be the one
You make to take the fall
Not made to measure baby
One size does not fit all
I will not be the one
You make to take the fall
I got the curves to fear I got the words to feel
And when I scream I've heard them say
I've got the voice to heal
You don't have to be sorry
you don't have to be saved
You just need to be proud of the body that god gave
Not made to measure baby
One size does not fit all
I will not be the one
You make to take the fall
Not made to measure baby
One size does not fit all
I will not be the one
You make to take the fall
Listen to me say..Yeah!
I'm so fat I'm * up
I'm so skinny I'm sick
I'm so tired of the magazines
Talkin that bull*
I'm not fat, they're * up
I'm not skinny, they're sick
I'm just so tired of the critics who keep talking that bull*
I was born like this, with eyes like this
teeth like this, and thighs like this
a face like this, a waist like this
When I die..I'll die like this...now
You're like school on Sunday
You ain't got no class
Keep running your mouth but
I just might kick your *
Not made to measure baby
One size does not fit all
I will not be the one
You make to take the fall
Not made to measure baby
One size does not fit all
I will not be the one
You make to take the fall
Let me hear you say...Yeah!
You're so fat, you're * up
You're so skinny, you're sick
You're so tired of the magazines
Talking that bull*
You're not fat, they're * up
You're not skinny, they're sick
You're just tired of the critics who keep talking that bull*
Now what?
Now what?
Now what?
What you gonna say the next time you see us?
Now what?
Now what?
Now what?
What you gonna say the next time you see me?
Talk to me, tell me I'm not skinny
But you think I'm so pretty
Most stars have to be thin of frame
You want to know how much do I weigh, what?
Weightless
You can't look at me
Faceless
So blind you can't see
Showcase it
We play for your ego
That follows me
Wherever we go, fuck
Weightless
You can't look at me
Faceless
So blind you can't see
What's my size? What's my shape
Look at me, I am raped
Anorexic or heroin chic
I'm no runway model because I fuckin' eat
Weightless
You can't look at me
Faceless
So blind you can't see
Insincerity, insecurity no integrity
There's no purity
I will not apologize for scaring you
It takes a lot to get me down when I'm high
I know you're no friend of mine
I can see the Devil in your eyes
Look at me, I'm Jesus Christ
All alone so throw your stones
At my words and lovely bones
Blood that's red and mouth that's mean
Raise your fucking hands with me!
Forgive - I have sinned
Believe I'll do it again
Well, I've been down this road before
And every time you never change your mind
You see me in black and white
Nailed to the cross and crucified
Look around me, smell the flies
Judas filling me with lies
But I don't hide the blood I bleed
Raise your fucking hands with me!
Forgive - I have sinned
Believe I'll do it again
WALK WITH ME
THROUGH THE VALLEY
FEAR NO EVIL
WALK WITH ME
I'M THE BADDEST MOTHERFUCKER IN THE VALLEY!
With all of your questions
And words in your head
You went sarching for God
And met the Devil instead
WALK WITH ME
THROUGH THE VALLEY
FEAR NO EVIL!
WALK WITH ME
one two freddy's commin' for you
three four better lock your door
five six grab your crucifix...
something wicked this way comes
premeditated evil numbs
cartoon kids crayola smiles
children of the korn fed styles
but i don't buy your lies
i see through your disguise
don't feel your screams or cries
why?...........
[chorus]
i'm sick of looking so sick i can't
i'm sick of the sycophant
sick of listening so sick i can't
i'm sick of the sycophant
i see you breathless and deranged
a little girl who's acting strange
tryna scare us with your scream
but it's all routine
and all you do is take
steal and immitake
you and what you create
your fake!.....
[repeat chorus]
i barely recognize... you in your new disguise
cosmetic covered eyes
just tell me why? why? why? why?
you put the make up on, take the make up off
searching to be found
but you're so fuckin' lost....
now the road to hell is paved with stones
and some of them are fakes and clones
counterfeits which suck and bleed us
wearin' fuckin' adidas
but something just ain't right, no substance only hype
with faith you got the life that made you rich
and a punk ass bitch!....
[repeat chorus]
sick of you and anyone like you, sometimes i think i've lost my mind... or else this
dishonest
you came with your first kiss
blue eyes sold me your heavenly presence
something was suffocating me and i couldnæ° breathe
had no idea that you would ever deceive
i tried to believe all the things that you taught me
christlike images of truth
they straight got me
now watch me drown in sadness
my lungs gasp for air as i let you stab this heart
and rip apart wounds that exist
deeper and darker than any words i could spit
all is shit
and it will never be well
because the fires that burn are my never ending hell
is this what you call god?
your faith is lost
is this what you call god?
get off your cross
get off
bridges connect for necessity
lifelines scar my hands like the rest of me
asked me to trust you and yes i tried to
constant apologies caused me to lie too
tried to medicate my hate with your magic
how could something so sweet end up so tragic
resurrect me from this abyss
in death every body function fails to exist
false commitments
tongues twisted with religion
a heart shaped rock of the same size incision
obsolete
with no relief or release
just insomnia filled nights of never ending sleep
is this what you call god?
your faith is lost
is this what you call god?
get off your cross
split a piece of wood and i am there
lift a stone and you will find me
are you still scared?
sanctuary
sanctuary
sanctuary
thereæ¯ no sanctuary
is this what you call god?
is this what you call
is this
is this
is this what you call love?
get off
get off
watch me
get off
get off
watch me
get off
get off
now watch me fall
i swallowed all of your lies
and they felt good going down
Tie yourself to me, no one else
No, you're not rid of me, you're not rid of me
Night and day I breathe, hey, you're not rid of me
Yeah, you're not rid of me, yeah, you're not rid of me
Yeah, you're not rid of me
I beg you my darling don't leave me, I'm hurting
Lick my legs I'm on fire, lick my legs of desire
I'll tie your legs, keep you against my chest
Oh, you're not rid of me, yeah, you're not rid of me
I'll make you lick my injuries
I'm gonna twist your head off, see
Till you say don't you wish you never, never met her?
Don't you, don't you wish you never, never met her?
Don't you, don't you wish you never, never met her?
Don't you, don't you wish you never, never met her?
I beg you my darling don't leave me, I'm hurting
Been lonely above everything above everyday, I'm hurting
Lick my legs, I'm on fire, lick my legs of desire
Lick my legs, I'm on fire, lick my legs of desire
Yeah, you're not rid of me, yeah, you're not rid of me
I'll make you lick my injuries, I'm gonna twist your head off, see
Till you say don't you wish you never, never met her
Don't you, don't you wish you never, never met her
Don't you, don't you wish you never, never met her
Don't you, don't you wish you never, never met her
Don't you don't you wish you never, never met her
Don't you don't you wish you never, never met her
Don't you don't you wish you never, never met her
Don't you don't you wish you never, never met her
Don't you don't you wish you never, never met her
Don't you don't you wish you never, never met her
Don't you don't you wish you never, never met her
Don't you don't you wish you never, never met her
Lick my legs I'm on fire, lick my legs of desire
(Instrumental)
"the band began to tune up, though it seemed a pointless exercise considering the kind
my war
you're one of them
you say that you're my friend
but you're one of them
you don't want to see me live
you don't want me to give
cos you're one of them
my war
you're one of them
you say that you're my friend
but you're one of them
i might not know what a friend is
all i know is what you're not
cos you're one of them
my war
you're one of them
you say that you're my friend
but you're one of them
i have a prediction
it lives in my brain
it's with me every day
it drives me insane
i feel it in my heart that if i had a gun
i feel it in my heart
i'd wanna kill someone
i feel it in my heart
the end will come
come on
my war
you're one of them
you say that you're my friend
but you're one of them
tell me that i'm wrong
try to sing me your ego song
you're one of them
my war
you're one of them
you say that you're my friend
but you're one of them
my war
this is my war baby
your mouth blooms like a cut
sweet and full of sin
i prick myself on your thorns
and i bleed within
your leaves fade to brown
and i watch you die
in my torture garden
under black sunshine
my beautiful flower
he loves me not
he loves me
he loves me not
he loves me...
our love starts to spoil
your lips bleed like a rose
underneath the soil
is where the evil grows
yoru petals start to fall
and the weeds attack
in my torture garden
the blue sky is black
my beautiful flower
he loves me not
he loves me
he loves me not
he loves me
your mouth blooms like a cut
sweet and full of sin
i prick myself on your thorns
and i bleed within
our love starts to spoil
your lips bleed like a rose
underneath the soil
is where the evil grows
i am earth...you can feel me touch you
hear me breath...cos it's my air that loves you
and i am fire... you will feel me burn you
come inside... and i'll be water with you
he loves me not
he loves me
he loves me not
last night I had a dream
i was drowning again
you grabbed my hand and pulled me to safety
as i looked into your eyes i saw my saviour
the person that i knew had been there all along
just waiting for the chance
to kill me
we kissed
and my mouth started to bleed
then all my teeth fell out
i like the way you make me feel
syrupy and clean
you have a strange effect on me
loving every scream
baptise this thing that burns
everytime you bathe me
if i confess too many sins
will you still save me?
rain
rain
rain
let it rain
as beautiful as a scar
thereæ¯ nothing quite like you
i cut myself on your lips
let you lick my wounds
so southern is my saviour
so sick inside my head
but if i let you rescue me
will i be left for dead?
rain
rain
rain
let it rain
let it rain down on me
let it rain down on us
let it rain down on me
let it rain
let it rain
the skyæ¯ illumination comes from the city below
and i can taste every inch of your kiss
every inch of your soul
from over here
You've got the BLOOD on YOUR HANDS
BUT GOT NO RIGHT TO BLEED
Your INNOCENCE makes me laugh
I DON'T HAVE WHAT YOU NEED
You SEARCH for the SOLUTION
I KNOW you'll NEVER FIND
Your FAITH has LEFT YOU with an ... IMITATION OF CHRIST
GROTESQUE THE LOWEST
COMMMON DENOMINATOR
GROTESQUE THE LOWEST
COMMON DENOMINATOR
The SPIRIT takes HOLD of YOUR BODY
AND YOU CRY OUT
Thrown into CONVULSIONS
YOUR FOAMING AT THE MOUTH
SEARCHING for something SACRED
YOU LOOK but all YOU FIND
Is just an IMITATION ... YOUR GOD HAS LEFT BEHIND
GROTESQUE THE LOWEST
COMMMON DENOMINATOR
GROTESQUE THE LOWEST
COMMON DENOMINATOR
Transending the tempral realm
I will not put faith in those who call themselves poets
Nor worship false idols
GROTESQUE THE LOWEST
COMMMON DENOMINATOR
GROTESQUE THE LOWEST
COMMON DENOMINATOR
What else could SHE DO... to OPEN THEIR EYES?
THE BLIND shall SEE
THE DEAF shall HEAR
THE DEAD shall RISE
i wanna live in the pretty sun
but daylight just makes me numb
so i cover up my scars
with velvet drapes that kill rock stars
change my mood
lick my wounds
trust will lead us to the truth
drown myself in misery
sleep with my enemy
destroy my destiny
erase the memory... of you
open myself to reveal my wounds
and i find the memory of you
i wanna die on the darkest night
when there's no one left to fight
fill my bed with leopard fur
think of you inside of her
suffer for my latest sin
until i'm happy in my skin
open myself to reveal my wounds
and i find the memory of you
i ache for you... i ache for us
i pray for you... i pray for us
i wait for you... i wait
deny thy lover and refuse thy name
first, last and always
deny thy lover and refuse thy name
first last and always
when will you tell me the truth?
when will you tell you the truth?
when will you tell me the truth?
when will you tell you...
my revenge on you will not kill you
Pretty girls they make friends
Fake smiles that don't offend
It's not hard to play pretend
Then again, then again
Ugly girls make enemies
Just go ask the name
This is what they've said to me
Said to me, said to me
Get pretty, plastic parts not included
Get pretty, get pretty
Silicone sold separately
Pretty girls they make friends
Loved by every camera lens
Someday all of this will end
Tell me when, tell me when
Ugly girls make enemies
Maybe that's what's wrong with me
If I'm not what you think that I should be
Then what should I be?
Get pretty, plastic parts not included
Get pretty, get pretty
Silicone sold separately
Get pretty, plastic parts not included
Get pretty, get pretty
Silicone is not on me
The beauty myth is alive
Get pretty, plastic parts not included
Get pretty, get pretty
Silicone sold separately
Get pretty, plastic parts not included
Get pretty, get pretty
Silicone is not on me
I'm not pretty, you're not pretty
She's not pretty, he's not pretty
We're so pretty, let's get pretty
This is not an exit, this is not an exit
I need to feel something, American Psycho
My confession means nothing
Abandon all hope ye who enter here
Pre-meditated calculated I can smell the fear
Don't try to tell the truth just black and blue your eyes
Graphic scenes of beauty I've become what I despise
Leaned into the light now I'm crucified
Flesh, blood, teeth, not lies
Later that night is how the story goes
Rent, rewind, return my videos
This is not an exit, this is not an exit
I need to feel something, American Psycho
My confession means nothing American Psycho
Nothing American Psycho
This is no attempt to preempt my own death
I won't kill myself and I'm not taking requests
The machine has left me scarred, scared of its insanity
I've burned too many bridges to pretend to be holy
Honesty is ugly so we don't have a deal
Flesh, blood, tongue, I'm real
Later that night is how the story goes
Rent, rewind, return my videos
This is not an exit, this is not an exit
I need to feel something, American Psycho
My confession means nothing American Psycho
Nothing American Psycho
No matter how profane, sacred or insane
Painfully preoccupied it's always still the same
The killer is inside me, don't try to take my life
I've buried all my hatchets but I've sharpened my knives
What? Fuck
This is not an exit, this is not an exit
I need to feel something, American Psycho
My confession means nothing American Psycho
[chorus]
this isa mantra
for myself
this isa mantra
for someone else
this isa mantra
so be warned...hell hath no fury like a woman scorned
sweetly
he smiles at meso bright it burns me
tongue twisted sick with words
she'll get whatshe deserves
she gotwhat she deserved!
see me
i look at you so deep that she feels me
girl tricks make you believe
but shesteals me
i will be her disease
diavolina screams...
[repeatchorus]
keep me
so safeinside your sins are secret
i watchyou live your life in regret
you'll get whatyou deserve!
sleepy
you closeyour eyes but you can't dream me
dirty girl so mean can't clean me
i will be your disease
diavolina screams...
[repeatchorus]
and i swear
sacred as this heart ofmine
strong as the ties which bind us
heavy as this cross
which iforeverbare
eternity will be the hell we share
and what you want i don't care cos it doesn't concern me
this isabout what i need
so bleed as theneedle goes in,i'm creeping under yourskin
soak you in sickness and scent you in sin
so say you loveher andi'll believe you
but if you can't then you only deceive you
i said i love you and idon't lie... remember that
elegantly wasted and i can taste it
here i sit, trying not to fake this gift
of the beauty myth
i can't help but feel like this
bored... of the beauty whore
cos my body just wants more
scars... and i can feel them
wounds... i can't heal them
red bring my mouth to life
black revive my hair that's dyed
make up always helps me hide
what i don't like on the outside
[chorus]
starlight, starbright
first star i see tonight
i wish i may, i wish i might
have the wish i wish tonight
a birthday girl
a broken heart
you name the drama she played the part
long lost demons leave her godless
like her powder
leaves her flawless
sugar coated heart shaped pout
lipstick just destorts her mouth
mascara puts her eyes to sleep
cos beauty's only skin deep
[repeat chorus]
bitch du jour
served on a platter
she's so pretty
but does it matter
beauty is in the eyes of the beholder
but nobody told her
mirror mirror on the wall
watch her break and watch her fall
stitch her smile
bruise her knees
walk among her enemies
blessed am i among women
to live and love in such a beautiful temple
no music.. just some guy talking.
Let me introduce myself in case me never met
An exorcism of the throat for those who crave burlesque
Erotic dreams are drowned in dreams but I'm still wide awake
The central nervous system of my heart will always ache
So cut my mouth and stitch my lips, I swear I'll never cry
Undress my breath, strip my voice and write another lie
The cult of everything you need will lead you down the path
And I will promise not to read, just promise not to ask
Come get a piece of me, is that what you want?
Rip me apart until I bleed because it's all my fault
Come take your piece of me if that's all you want
Cut out my tongue so I can't speak and then you can talk
About me
It's true, I've made some enemies 'cause honesty is my vice
I won't pretend to be your friend 'cause I'm not that nice
Described as everything you said, I warned you not to come
But if I don't live up to what you thought, I'm still the one
It's all the little things I've done and all the things you say
If you are so afraid of me then stay the fuck away
So high my skin is white and now my eyes have turned to black
Tongue is dumb from all the drugs, thank God, I can't react
Come get a piece of me, is that what you want?
Rip me apart until I bleed because it's all my fault
Come take your piece of me if that's all you want
Cut out my tongue so I can't speak and then you can talk
About me, about me, about me, about me
So full of hate you waste my time on words that make me tense
I'll be the one to take the blame, the first one to confess
So throw your stones and bruise my face
But you can't take my faith, I'd rather die
Then turn what's sacred into something safe
Come get a piece of me, is that what you want?
Rip me apart until I bleed because it's all my fault
Come take your piece of me if that's all you want
Cut out my tongue so I can't speak and then you can talk
And then you can talk
And then you can talk
And then you can, and then you can
And then you can talk
If you feel the need to go there, then we can go there
But if not I suggest you
drunk with sin
she sits in her skin
filled with anger
fuelled by liquer
drowns in dreams
with no savior
from the truth
none can save her
he is her own personal jesus
and he will not be her last
god wants a piece of her ass
god wants a piece of my ass...
i am... a blasphemous girl
i am... a blasphemous girl
i am... a blasphemous girl
i am... a blasphemous
girl
magnum mouthed i shoot to kill
you murder me with lies and guilt
strangle me... with tragic hands
god wants a piece of her ass
god wants a piece of my ass...
i am... a blasphemous girl
i am... a blasphemous girl
i am...
stab me...like a stalker
rape me... like a hero
stab me... like a stalker
rape me...and be my hero
bless me darling and i will forgive you
eloquent and full of grace
you speak in tongues behind my back
a dry lung vocal martyr
i will suffer for my lover
i will suffer for his sins
i will suffer for my lover
i am suffering for him
torture me with timelessness
worship my first with every kiss
resurrection of my pain
drag me down our memory lane
introduce me to devotion
leave me numb with no emotion
stars surround you when i feel you
you look better when i cannot see... you
honesty... looks good to you
God wants to heal cancer...
Christians are commanded alcohol.. is good!...
evasion of crutches you partake of the dust of the ground...
I know some of you are frightened about it...
we can go to church and you are naked...
and over the foul of the air and fire
of course people said they're drunk
I put my trust in you and you betrayed me
Took what I gave you and fuckin' raped me
But you can't kill me, it's not that easy
I'm still standing, still breathing
Spitfire, spite hate, spit all the shit you talk
Right back in your face
I spit liars, I spit names
I spit truth and my song remains the same
I gave you faith when none believed you
Barely escaped but who deceived who?
You tried to guilt me with things you'd tell me
You didn't build me, you can't sell me
Spitfire, spite hate, spit all the shit you talk
Right back in your face
I spit liars, I spit names
I spit truth and my song remains the same
Small man, big mouth
Small man, big mouth
Yeah, fuck your label!
Spitfire, spite hate, spit all the shit you talk
Right back in your face
I spit liars, I spit names
I spit truth and my song remains the same
Small man, big mouth, misogynistic
Small man, big mouth, chauvinistic
Small man, big mouth
What was I thinking when I shut my mouth?
Open it wide let the shit come out
What was I thinking when I shut my mouth?
Open it wide let the shit come out
Be my nurse as I scream for you
Kill my mood like you always do
Your only as strong as your weakest link
And your face looks like something stinks
Life wrecking bitch better turn my cheek
Or shit might hit the fan this week
Stinkface, stinkface don't think you can't be replaced
Told you twice better be nice, be nice
Who am I kidding 'cause I can't pretend
You don't really wanna be my friend push me to that place I fear
Stinkface, stinkface don't think you can't be replaced
Stinkface, stinkface told you twice and you better be, better be
Nice, nice
What was I thinking when I shut my mouth?
Open it wide let the shit come out
Stinkface, stinkface don't think you can't be replaced
Stinkface, stinkface told you twice and you better be, better be
Stinkface, stinkface don't think you can't be replaced
sick with it
sick with disease
deny addiction
down on my knees
feed my affliction
scared to believe
my own decisions
eager to please
destroyed visions
breed life
need life
breath life
keep life
lie and decieve
with no emotion
false promises
loss of devotion
scarred by deceit
my self destruction
love obsolete
live in dysfunction
breed life
need life
breath life
keep life
bleed life
heal life
feel life
the sweet life
is all i want...
can i bleed for the ritual?
bleed for it
got a need for the ritual....
can i breath for the ritual?
breath for it
got a need for the ritual?
sick with it. sick with it. sick with it, sick with it... (repeat)
it's inside me
i feel it growing
nowhere to hide
my anger's showing
repeat chorus
and on this dark night of my soul
i will continue to pray for us
it doesnæ° matter what i say
doesnæ° matter what i do
i donæ° really give a fuck about you
nowadays itæ¯ all fake
put some make up on your face
looking like a fucking chick
in lipstick
there is nothing here for me
dressed up in your new disease
hollywood is full of shit
donæ° ask me to sell my soul
i would rather be myself
do what youæ®e told
stick it to me
i know you want to
stick it in me
you know youæ®e going to
stick it to me
i know you want to
stick it in me
you know youæ®e going to
take a picture if you need
while i bleed
what makes you think that you know me
dinner and an interview
but iæ¦ not a fan of you
at least i tell the truth
damned if i do
damned if i donæ°
damned if i will
if i wonæ°
stab me in the back and buy me one more drink
suck my trust until iæ¦ fucked
then you can say you fucked me
youæ®e so sneaky with your surprises
youæ®e so sweet underneath disguises
i canæ° wait for you to criticise this
donæ° think i donæ° know how big your knife is
stick it to me
i know you want to
stick it in me
you know youæ®e going to
stick it to me
i know you want to
stick it in me
you know youæ®e going to
you donæ° know me like i know myself and i will never tell
you donæ° know me like i know myself
Pure
Self contained
I can feel the weight of my body
As my voice strains
Densensatized
from beauty scenes
the enemy is the fear
that falls inbetween
INSOMNIAC
I sleep awake
Displaced from my unconsious state
UNMANAGEABLE
Refuse to break
I talk back
everyone needs a SCAPEGOAT
Someone to throw the rocks at
THE STANDARD OF COMPARISON
THE STANDARD OF COMPARISON
THE STANDARD OF COMPARISON
STAB
My soul is not for sale
I have not forgotten my past
But I will remove the nails
Force-fed your insecurities
I have bled with no regrets
For what I have said...before
Or for what...I plan to say next!
THE STANDARD OF COMPARISON
THE STANDARD OF COMPARISON
THE STANDARD OF COMPARISON
Odor of sanctity
is not what you smell on me
Can't make the dirty clean...
Control the magazine
Under the influence
I've learned to live with this...
So I will be your standard...of comparison
THE STANDARD OF COMPARISON
THE STANDARD OF COMPARISON
THE STANDARD OF COMPARISON
Dear Mr.
Your name here
Don't think we'll forget
How you managed to
Be so full of shit
It's just another day in L.A.
Just another day, so I'll say
Its just another day in L.A.
Hollywood is so fake
Tell us lies, we believe you
Close your eyes, we won't see you
Take our lives, if you need to
Suck us dry, let us feed you
Daddy dearest
With your band
You really had us fooled
But you proved that with a doubt
Bitches rule the world
It's just another day in L.A.
It's just another day, so I'll say
It's just another day in L.A.
Hollywood is so fake
Tell us lies, we believe you
Close your eyes, we won't see you
Take our lives, if you need to
Suck us dry, let us feed you
Bury us in all your fabricated little schemes
Calculated to be nothing like what it all seems
Slander everything we stand for
We won't compromise
And we promise that this revolution
Won't be televised
Why would you pretend to be
On our side then publicize your lies
When we learned the truth
Then we were forced to recognize
It's just another day in L.A.
It's just another day, so I'll say
It's just another day in L.A.
Tell us lies, we believe you
Close your eyes, we won't see you
Take our lives, if you need to
Suck us dry, let us feed you
Let us feed you
Let us feed you
Terror
This is what you call me...
I strike terror among men.
I can't be bothered by what they think.
I bare my cross,
My soul,
Myself.
I forgive,
but i never forget.
I've been put upon this earth in female form.
But I can handle myself with the best of you,
As well as the worst.
And I often have.
I have the right to remain silent,
But i choose to speak,
Sing,
Scream
I am lips,
Hips,
Tits
I am the power of a woman,
Strong like music,
True like friendship,
But without my friends,
There would be no music.
Only spoken word.
Fucker! x2
I am able to change,
So I live without regret,
Without remorse,
Only a remix.
I am drunk,
I am sober.
Heaven doesn't want me
And Hell's afraid i'll take over
Don't bother trying to censor me,
Or shut me up,
Because it won't work.
I am cold and distant,
Yet warm and close,
To those who deserve to see that side of me.
Part of me the heart of me.
You find me so hard to understand in your world.
The world you perceive to be so normal.
I am deformed,
Scorned ,
Reborn.
I am me,
And i know exactly who i am,
What i am
And the wrath i bring.
The ugly beauty,
The lying truth,
The virgin whore
The quiet storm
A lover,
A fighter,
A saint,
A sinner,
A sister,
A daughter
Old school.
A beginner.
I have decorated myself with love,
Hate,
Truth,
You.
All of you,
Both of you,
None of you,
More than one of you
Fucker! x2
With lips like sugar.
Eyes like meat.
I've watched men come,
And go,
And cheat.
I sleep to dream
And dream of sleep.
I had a dream joe
That you were standing in the middle of an open grove.
I had a dream joe
That your hands were raised up to the sky
And your mouth was covered in foam.
I've been crucified,
Justified,
And mortified by my behavior.
Both feminine,
And masculine.
I am a contradiction,
And juxtaposition.
My relief is my release,
And only time will tell.
All's well that ends well
I am unsweetened,
Unclean,
Been called drama queen.
Ex girlfriend,
Ex member,
The tantrum,
The temper.
I point my finger,
Take the blame.
And this time I will own the name.
Because no one is going to ruin me.
If i have to,
I will ruin myself.
And it will be 'My Ruin'(My Ruin)
I was born like this with hips like this
Lips like this and wrists like this
Legs like this and arms like this
A fist like this to hit you with, now
You're like school on Sunday
You ain't got no class
Keep runnin' your mouth off but
You can kiss my *
Not made to measure, baby
One size does not fit all
I will not be the one
You make to take the fall
Not made to measure, baby
One size does not fit all
I will not be the one
You make to take the fall
I got the curves to fear
I got the words to feel
And when I scream I've heard them say
I've got the voice to heal
You don't have to be sorry
You don't have to be saved
You just need to be proud
Of the body that God gave
Not made to measure, baby
One size does not fit all
I will not be the one
You make to take the fall
Not made to measure, baby
One size does not fit all
I will not be the one
You make to take the fall
Listen to me, say, yeah
I'm so fat, I'm * up
I'm so skinny, I'm sick
I'm so tired of the magazines
Talkin' that bull*, I'm not fat, they're * up
I'm not skinny, they're sick
I'm just so tired of the critics
Who keep talking that bull*
I was born like this, with eyes like this
Teeth like this, and thighs like this
A face like this, a waist like this
When I die, I'll die like this, now
You're like school on Sunday
You ain't got no class
Keep running your mouth but
I just might kick your *
Not made to measure, baby
One size does not fit all
I will not be the one
You make to take the fall
Not made to measure, baby
One size does not fit all
I will not be the one
You make to take the fall
Let me hear you say, yeah
You're so fat, you're * up
You're so skinny, you're sick
You're so tired of the magazines
Talking that bull*, you're not fat, they're * up
You're not skinny, they're sick
You're just tired of the critics
Who keep talking that bull*
Now what?, Now what?, Now what?
What you gonna say the next time you see us?
Now what?, Now what? Now what?
With a heavy heart somebody said
Let's go our separate ways
Our relationship is strained
In this the vital stage
There is a lack of confidence
And you can feel our stress
A need for truth, time to decide
What is and is not best
Faith, subject to change, forgive, far too late
Fate, end of your game, hot in the house of God I rage
With a question left, I will confess
Put my mind and past to rest
Termination of our trust
Friendships end and this one must
The time has come to make our move
And we can see what we can't prove
The little things
That make no sense
Have all built up
To be immense
Faith, subject to change, forgive, far too late
Fate, end of your game, hot in the house of God I rage
Faith, subject to change, forgive, far too late
Fate, end of your game, hot in the house of God
Nothing's the same
Everything's changed
Faith, subject to change, forgive, far too late
Fate, end of your game, hot in the house of God I rage
Faith, subject to change, forgive, far too late
Fate, end of your game, hot in the house of God
Nothing's the same
Nothing's the same
For every minute you spend angry
do you remember those words you whispered to me
on that fateful day in italy mr. b?
i can hear you singing
face on fire
blue skies, your eyes
my beautiful liar
i'm still breathing
you can't kiss me
kill me darling
i know you miss me
can't resist me
call me miss b.... i love it when you call me miss b
can you hear me talking?
can you see me
red lights my lips
she can never be me... she can never be me
now i'm screaming
what can i break?
my hearts broken... silverlake
san francisco, switzerland lacunza
england, budapest,
mulhouse, june 10th
june 10th
do you remember june 10th?
i can't forget june 10th....
i remember when we met
do you remember or do you forget?
you were so perfect, so pure like an angel
you were like an angel... amen
and i remember thinking,
i remember thinking... my god
my god he is just so beautiful
so fuckin' amazing
and every night,
every night i would watch you, i would watch you watching me
and we swore that nothing would come between us
that no one would come between us
do you remember?
ecstasy in paris... laying down in the middle of the street
in the middle of the night
in the center of you
i was humbled by your power, on the 9th plane... 666 acacia avenue, somewhere in hell
diggin' the hell out of you, diggin' the hell in you... my co conspirator
my executioner, my sacrificial lamb, my friend, my lover, my martyr
are you my enemy now? you once asked me" is existance all we share?"... you tell me