Kalyan Filmography

• Shortcut Romeo
  2013, role: miscellaneous crew
• Ishq
  2012, role: miscellaneous crew
• Teen Maar
  2011, role: miscellaneous crew
• Panjaa
  2011, role: miscellaneous crew
• Mankatha
  2011, role: miscellaneous crew
• Darling
  2010, role: miscellaneous crew
• Baava
  2010, role: miscellaneous crew
• Kasko
  2009, role: miscellaneous crew
• Billa
  2009, role: miscellaneous crew
• Oy!
  2009, role: miscellaneous crew
• Mitrudu
  2009, role: miscellaneous crew
• Konchem Ishtam Konchem Kashtam
  2009, role: miscellaneous crew
• Kick
  2009, role: miscellaneous crew
• Vaana
  2008, role: miscellaneous crew
• Kalidasu
  2008, role: miscellaneous crew
• Swagatam
  2008, role: miscellaneous crew
• Boss
  2006, role: miscellaneous crew
• Bangaram
  2006, role: miscellaneous crew
• Ashok
  2006, role: miscellaneous crew
• Saravana
  2006, role: miscellaneous crew
• Sainikudu
  2006, role: miscellaneous crew
• Rakhi
  2006, role: miscellaneous crew
• Pokiri
  2006, role: miscellaneous crew
• Anniyan
  2005, role: miscellaneous crew
• Ghajini
  2005, role: miscellaneous crew
• Ponniyin Selvan
  2005, role: miscellaneous crew
• Sri
  2005, role: miscellaneous crew
• Subhash Chandra Bose
  2005, role: miscellaneous crew
• Aaru
  2005, role: miscellaneous crew
• Idhaya Thirudan
  2005, role: miscellaneous crew
• Ninney Ishta Paddaanu
  2003, role: miscellaneous crew
• Naaga
  2003, role: miscellaneous crew
• Santosham
  2002, role: miscellaneous crew
• Hai
  2002, role: miscellaneous crew
• Eduruleni Manishi
  2001, role: miscellaneous crew
• Dheena
  2001, role: miscellaneous crew
• Judaai
  1997, role: miscellaneous crew

Kalyan Filmography

• Ram Jaane
  1995, role: miscellaneous crew
• Dalaal
  1993, role: miscellaneous crew
• Patthar Ke Phool
  1991, role: miscellaneous crew
• Chameli Ki Shaadi
  1986, role: miscellaneous crew
• Hotel
  1981, role: miscellaneous crew

Kalyan Filmography

• Fools
  2003, role: actor

• Lyrics: play full screen play karaoke
• Get Off My Back - Colony 5
• Commitment - Colony 5
• Heart Attack - Colony 5
• Ghosts - Colony 5
• Freedom - Colony 5
• Crackhead - Colony 5
• Is She Scared - Colony 5
• I Know - Colony 5
• Heal Me - Colony 5
• GOD - Colony 5
• Future - Colony 5
• Friends - Colony 5
• Follow Your Heart - Colony 5
• End Of Desperation - Colony 5
• Last Chance - Colony 5
• It Was Only A Dream - Colony 5
• Imaginary Girl - Colony 5
• Plastic World - Colony 5
• The Bottle - Colony 5
• Phosphor - Colony 5
• Pills - Colony 5
• Hate - Colony 5
• Misery - Colony 5
• Like Leaves - Colony 5
• My World - Colony 5
• Fusion - Colony 5
• Symphony Of Hope - Colony 5
• Liquid Love - Colony 5
• Fix - Colony 5
• Fate - Colony 5
• Trust You - Colony 5
• Nocturnal - Colony 5
• Fanatic - Colony 5
• Knives - Colony 5
• Reinforcements - Colony 5
• Before I'll Give In - Colony 5
• Suicidal - Colony 5
• Unaware - Colony 5
• Trackers - Colony 5
• Science - Colony 5
• The Zone - Colony 5
• Too Young - Colony 5
• Synchronized Hearts - Colony 5
• Second Hand - Colony 5
• She's A Planet - Colony 5
• Stay Young - Colony 5
• Psycho Blonde - Colony 5
• Fallen Star - Colony 5
• Black - Colony 5
• Closure - Colony 5

Everything was good, everything was fine
We walked along that yellow line
towards our future and our unity
in the midst of life and scholarly
Our eyes filled with stories we'd never tell
although we stumbled we never fell
we saw the world as something that smelled
we had our own version of hell
You should see my life today
It's never sunny it's always grey
and though I have my own way
to wish all the sadness away
Get off my back
Get off my back
Get off my back
Get off my back
Then you become infatuated
with a crashing bore I've always hated
I can't believe how my world degraded
feels like I've been suffocated
You should see my life today
It's never sunny it's always grey
and though I have my own way
to wish all the sadness away
Get off my back
Get off my back
Get off my back
Get off my back
You should see my life today
It's never sunny it's always grey
and though I have my own way
to wish all the sadness away
You should see my life today
It's never sunny it's always grey
and though I have my own way
to wish all the sadness away
Get off my back
Get off my back
Get off my back
Get off my back
Get off my back
Get off my back
Get off my back
Get off my back

Every now and then
Your seventh sense sees more than you
It covers you with lies and truths of
what to do
Knowing eyes, infected lies
And twisted truths
I'm far too old
To blame it on my youth
Commitment to a higher force than you
could put your faith in
These flames and fires make me too
tired to repress my sin
The world could never be so beautiful
Without you without me
without the symbols that we see
I could never say those things you
say to me in shame
I could never remember
the colours and numbers in your name
Your maker wants you back and there
is nothing I can do
I believe that you believe
your maker wants me too
Commitment to a higher force than you
could put your faith in
These flames and fires make me too
tired to repress my sin
The world could never be so beautiful
Without you without me
without the symbols that we see
Commitment to a higher force than you
could put your faith in
These flames and fires make me too
tired to repress my sin
The world could never be so beautiful
Without you without me

For once, love has stopped to bleed
A heart attack is what I need
To wake me up, a cappuccino death
Smell the meds through my morning breath
I take control, I change the scene
I throw away the key and just leave
A new look on life, the old was getting sad
Shifted perspective from the one I had
Highs and lows going to extremes
In quest of lust my soul has cracked its seams
Trying to feel, anything will do
Nostalgia is a powerful tool
I take control, I change the scene
I throw away the key and just leave
A new look on life, the old was getting sad
Shifted perspective from the one I had
I take control, I change the scene
I throw away the key and just leave
A new look on life, the old was getting sad

End of the night, all I see are lights
Sweat and smoke mixed with absinth
This is what I always seek
When the demons
Blurs in neon
Life begins just before the race
Ghosts
We can never be like you
Our day has passed
It can never be day again
Ghosts
We don't want to be like you
We are fashion slaves
Driving in the wrong lane
Dreary eyes, even sleepy still
Evening arrives with a pill
This is what makes me weak
My lovely demons
Turns the scene on
Life isn't life until the race
Ghosts
We can never be like you
Our day has passed
It can never be day again
Ghosts
We don't want to be like you
We are fashion slaves
Driving in the wrong lane
Ghosts
We can never be like you
Our day has passed
It can never be day again
Ghosts
We don't want to be like you
We are fashion slaves
Driving in the wrong lane
Ghosts
We can never be like you
Our day has passed
It can never be day again
Ghosts
We don't want to be like you
We are fashion slaves

Why can't I understand you, you made me believe
You showed me how to live, but now you make me feel so
For something I did ages ago, I didn't mean to hurt you
I'm trying to make this heal, don't look down on me
See me as I am, I'm letting you go free
I'm letting you go free
Sometimes I hear you cry, if you could only trust me
I will help you through, will you accept my words
It's a promise.
I'm trying to make this heal, don't look down on me
See me as I am, I'm letting you go free

So you thought you really were so cool
Every body smoked so why shouldn't you
Relax and feel so smooth
The world were looking brighter now for you
Skip reality and live in your dreams
It will soon become your worst nightmare
Take control of yourself, you know this can't go on
Let this end before you find yourself a crackhead
Won't you wake up just one day to see the world without
decay
Heal the feelings you have left, change your life,
change your faith
Won't you make this true one day, let us all see you
change
Raise your head up from the ground, if you don't fight
this now you'll die
I'm such a fool to think you would be listing to me
I thought you were that bright girl who could see
The consequences this eill bring your needs
But I was wrong
Skip reality and live in your dreams
It will soon become your worst nightmare
Take control of yourself, you know this can't go on
Let this end before you find yourself a crackhead
Won't you wake up just one day, see the world without
decay
Heal the feelings you have left, change your life,
change your faith
Won't you make this true one day, let us all see you
change
Raise your head up from the ground, if you don't fight

There she goes, she packed her shoes
Its one of her lows and that's an excuse
To leave herself and get onboard a new dream
To jump off the shelf and into the stream
Is she scared of seeing herself from above,
Or is she scared of letting herself be loved?
Here she comes back home again
A home among homes, she tried in vane
To discover the colours her heart paints at night
But perhaps tomorrow, tomorrow is another fight
Don't unpack, my dear

I know
I saw both of your faces
I know
I have friends in many places
You've got me pinned to the wall
I have a million questions
I'm out of ideas, it's your call
I'm open for suggestions
I know
I saw both of your faces
I know
I have friends in many places
I have known for a while
Since you changed your perfume
I've witnessed a change in style
There is a smile where there was gloom
I have known you far too long
Sometimes I wonder
If you're trying to get caught

Why, why is it so hard to explain
There's a hundred things I want to say
There's no time, it's no use, the hardest things to do
I can't stand it anymore, I've been so abused
There's no time, I've got no time to change the past
You made it clear there's no room for me and you
Why couldn't it last forever
I can feel your presence, but you are so far away
You could never stay a broken heart
I'm through with life this moment, heal me, make me
understand
I don't like your foot on my head, don't hurt me
When I'm almost dead, never again
There's no time, I've got no time to change the past
You made it clear there's no room for me and you

I run towards the eye of the storm.
I run so fast I hit the peak of my form.
I stand alone as a god in the making,
I wear you down till you are breaking.
I stand firm in the climates fighting.
I blow the wind and create the lightning.
I whip the rain from the face of the seas.
I spin a tornado that folds the trees.
I have to keep sane in a world of senseless noise.
I have to keep silent if I want to spare my voice.
I should hide underground
Where the silence sounds
Ill reach up and take the moon away,

Tragedies and suffering
I hear them scream
Screaming for help
The prophets preach
The end of the world
Only fools believe their words
No truth without evidence
Its easy to lie
Who can seek the answers
Who can see through the sky
Such a great temptation
Who can carry such a quest
And gain that information
We don't need no god
We don't need no god no more
We don't need a tyrant
We want to love
We want to breathe
We want to be
Rebuild the world
With the knowledge
We retrieve
We want to feel
We want to live
We want to see
Seek the wisdom
From the future

You thought you could make this up one day, all the pain
you gave me
When you talked behind my back
I used to call you my friend, but that was long ago
Now I know you as my enemy, and that can't be restored
What did you gain when you stabbed me in my back
Is that what you call a friend
Then you're better off alone
What did you gain when you broke the trust I gave
Is that what you call a friend
Then you're better off alone
You really fooled me, I gave you my innermost thoughts
That way I trusted you, like friends should do
You used it against me, like an enemy would do, leave me
alone
I don't know you anymore, and that can't be restored
What did you gain when you stabbed me in my back
Is that what you call a friend
Then you're better off alone
What did you gain when you broke the trust I gave
Is that what you call a friend

My mind is clear
My place is here
Ill stand my ground
Ill never leave
Im not a puppet on a string
Stand up for yourself
Stand up for your life
Make your own path
Follow your heart
I don't need someone to guide me through my life
I don't need someone to see things through my eyes
Although the goals I have are out of sight
I have to find them myself, this is my own fight
Please leave it alone
You are not my clone
We have different goals
And skills unknown
And I would like to discover my own
Stand up for yourself
Stand up for your life
Make your own path

It tastes like [half]
I'm never asked
For more than I could swallow
I drink it up
It never stops
Comes through my teeth
Half of enough is sweet
Pour a glass
Never gone at all
In my life
Before I met that creature
[He sings a song]
The [doonga-hangh]
And our desperation is once again
Emotion
Can you bring it up
To full speed
Can I take your soul
And pour in me
Can you give up your ideals
And come with me
To the end of our desperation
End of desperation
End of desperation
End of desperation
End of desperation
He smells like fuel
Define my rules
Am I deep or really sh-sh-shallow
I read the verse
The flaming words
I hate when life isn't
Surprising
[He place the glass]
Never been advanced
In my first
Before I met that creature
The drink is done
My soul is gone
And our desperation defines our
Relations
Can you bring it up
To full speed
Can I take your soul
And pour in me
Can you give up your ideals
And come with me
To the end of our desperation
End of desperation
End of desperation
End of desperation
End of desperation
Desperation
End of desperation
End of desperation
End of desperation
Can you bring it up
To full speed
Can I take your soul
And pour in me
Can you give up your ideals
And come with me

Life is hard, for some people it’s even a hell
The smell of lack of hope every day I pass this way
Begging for a way to get its own addiction relieved
No minor roof over its head covered with some plastic
bags
Constitutes its bed
The last chance
Look inside you
Analyze yourself
Review your life
Find out went wrong
What is causing you this sad song
Life is hard, for some it’s even a hell
To wake up spending the next hours working somewhere
Most people get used to this way of life
Only a few try to break the chain
Break themselves free from this useless way to find
them with no fear
The last chance
Look inside you
Analyze yourself
Review you life
Find out what went wrong
What is causing you this sad song
Let your sense show the way
Look inside you
Review your life
Find out what went wrong
What is causing you this sad song
Let your sense show you the way
Look inside you

It was only a dream but oh, what a dream!
Cut through my clouds, a midnight moon beam,
ravished my heart and made my soul scream,
blinded my eyes, a princess agleam.
Her eyes could stop a war,
like the painter in the sky
dipped his brush in a star
then painted her eye.
When God engraved
and chiselled her shape,
he unwittingly enslaved
my heart to her feet.
She said;
"I'm here for real
It's really me you feel
With your trembling hand
This is where your dreams land”
Her smile could stop the dawn
like the sun can’t decide
if he should leave the sky
and let her be the light
The Lady of Rain
she spoke to me
My mouth is drained

Like anyone brittle
I am too shy to believe you
you can not be serious
cause this, this can't be true
It must be wondrously empowering
To own a soul like you own mine
I'm tempted to fly with the angels
That dances up and down my spine
Cause you,
You are too perfect
You are the final,
the absolute
Cause you,
You are too perfect
You are the final,
the absolute
Unprepared to be turned upside down
Being in the sky and watching the world
It's usually the other way around
I pray to god you're not an imaginary girl
Cause you,
You are too perfect
You are the final,
the absolute
Cause you,
You are too perfect
You are the final,
the absolute
Cause you,
You are too perfect
You are the final,
the absolute
Cause you,
You are too perfect
You are the final,

If you have lost the genetic lottery
If you have had an unfair start
You no longer need to improve your personality
We have the means
It's our specialty, actually
Don't compensate -- imitate
Don't compensate -- operate
A Plastic World
Everyone wants a model look-alike
A Plastic World
No one cares how you look inside
First step -- immorality
Next step -- immortality
Next chapter -- design your own child
All you need is fantasy
Inspiration is all around, in every magazine
We have the means
It's our specialty, actually
Don't compensate -- imitate

Don't go away I'm trying the best I can
It's not easy to get out of this
It reminds me every minute I breathe
It was going so well for us, maybe a little too much of
partying
Every time I needed a little bit more, and who's to
blame for that
The beer felt so soft, the booze was welcomed by my
throat
And ever since it has been more and more
It's the most important thing for me
Make me understand what I have to do
I can't stand this anymore
The only thing I care to do is to fill my body with
booze
I can't understand how you're pulling through
For every lie that I've told you
All those times I've stumbled in and threw up in our
All those times trying to make me stop
And every time I disappoint you
But this time I am going to succeed or leave
Make me understand what I have to do
I can't stand this anymore
The only thing I care to do is to fill my body with
booze
It tears on my feelings for you
It's the bottle I love not you

Whirlwinds of beauty tormenting the heart
Less than light, more than dark
Chaos is tearing their lives apart
Less than something, more than nothing
Fake smiles are burning like phosphor
Modern men in their modern corps
Too much power to remain sane
Too much adrenaline to feel the pain
Figurines dance at the horizon
Puppets that drink acid and breathe ozone
Pieces when Gods are playing chess
Embodied lifelessness
Life and death at their disposal
Live or die, roll the dice
Too many decisions not enough facts

As a singer or a song
Trying to change my mind
Trying to push me over
One way or another
To release me or to smother
It's hard to remember what I want
To love me or don't bother
It's hard to remember what I want
As a movie or a show
Influencing my morals
It's a feeling It is stronger
Than lust or love itself
I am sorry
If I hurt you
I had run out of my pills
I am sorry
If I failed you
I had run out of my pills
I am sorry
If I hurt you
I had run out of my pills
I am sorry
If I failed you
I had run out of my pills
Stabilizers
Neutralizers
Ultra strong
Harmonizers
I am sorry
I promise.
I tried to hurt myself
And not you
Can't bare it or tear it
Out of my thoughts
Can't bare it or tear it
Out of my thoughts
I am sorry
If I hurt you
I had run out of my pills
I am sorry
If I failed you
I had run out of my pills
I am sorry
If I hurt you
I had run out of my pills
I am sorry
If I failed you
I had run out of my pills
Stabilizers
Neutralizers
Ultra strong
Harmonizers
I am sorry
I promise.
I tried to hurt myself
And not you
I am sorry
If I hurt you
I had run out of my pills
I am sorry
If I failed you
I had run out of my pills
I am sorry
If I hurt you
I had run out of my pills
I am sorry
If I failed you

Ive seen this before
But not so close to heart
So much anger to release
The chemicals put it there
Life is not a movie
This is fact not fiction
Push the trigger
And kill your addiction
How does it feel
To be like you
How can you hate
The way you do
Time heals disputes
At least it does for me
No anger left to release
Ive felt it disappear
Crawl out of your misery
And defeat your insanity
Don't push the trigger

Still seeking wisdom
Something to fulfil my expectations
Embrace my needs
I have lived in solitude for so long
Broken every single record to maintain strong
Shadows dancing on the wall
Nail marks embedded in the concrete wall
I walk alone on this path
Searching for answers -- searching for love
Regret the acts from the past, disguised as light
I uncover a window -- I fill the room with light
I struggle for my life -- revived for a second
Disguised as light
This is my misery
This is my doom
The path I choose to walk
The burden I have to seclude
I'm done with freedom
I'm done with every other excuse
To remain safe
A life in solitude's a waste
Taken every measure to maintain alone
I'm sick with this life, I need a change

It's getting colder
The wind tore up the sea
The rain is flooding the streets
And we are falling
We crawl back in our shell
So weak
So beaten
But still we regain
We are falling like leaves
We release
Too hard to hold on
So hard to stay warm
All that kept us strong
Within the darkness
It's all gone
It's like a disease
That could break a man out in tears
A man that nothing fears
Except himself
The colours are dead and pale
Fighting for survival
Waiting for the winter day

Dim the light, it hurts my eyes
It scars my skin and shatters my lies
Fold the blinds, let's stay inside
Take my hand, I'll give you strength
Come with me, well make our way
Through the light
Into the night
Welcome to my world
It's calm and cold
Welcome to my soul
It's withered and old
Welcome to my mind
Tread lightly and slow
Welcome to my love
Touch it and make it grow
We belong to this, this protected room
The world outside is for the ones
That's not afraid to lose
So take my hand, you are invited in
Share my darkness and my lusts

Hold your breath
Don't let those words out of your head
I want peace, I'll bury the hatchet
Drop your guard
Drop your shield
And the sword you wield
Why do you need
To see me bleed
Refren:
Close your eyes
I need you tonight
We dream away from fearful fights
Feel your way ahead
Close your eyes
I need you tonight
Feel your way ahead
I'm love in disguise
Hold your breath
Don't ruin this needlessly
Let's start again
Let's see what this will take us
No sentence of death
No words of violence
Embrace the silence
You don't need
To see me bleed
(Refren 1x)
I'm Love in disguise (4x)

I have begun to hold on to hope
Am I enough to star in the scene she plays
In her dreams
Hope is a storm and I am so weak
I hold on to her, I feel like a freak
We fight the winds, love is a kite
We hold on to the rope
We hold on to hope
We walk over mountains
We walk over crystal lakes
A magic moment, we embrace
Caught inside the fairytale
The lovers' secret place
Fear is a shield and I am afraid
Love is so strong, it's like a grenade
We stand our ground, love is an anchor
We hold on to the rope

Can't believe my eyes
She's so sweet and still so clean
Have to make my move
I have to get you this once
No time to lose
Do you mind if I put my arms around you
Would you be pleased if I took you home with me
Do you mind if I gave you a kiss and touch you
Then we make love until the sun will rise
And we wake up, looking at each other try to remember
But the headkick reminds me how drunk I was
You are not so sweet and not so clean anymore
I've got to get out
Please can you leave
Do you mind if I put my arms around you
Would you be pleased if I took you home with me
Do you mind if I gave you a kiss and touch you

Falling in love, like in a plastic bag
Suffocating, lungs deprived of air
Have to back off, I have to take care
Not prone to romance, not Byron's heir
Here is my heart -- take it and explain (how it works)
It has stopped my soul from love
Too many times before (too many quirks)
Rumours of hollow shells
Whispers in my head
Dismal affairs, like infected scars
Unable to mend, unwilling to open up
Another afternoon in Wayne's coffee shop

This must be fate
Like on the movie screens
It's the first time for all
Is this really what I need?
Come back to me
You belong here
All the gods of this age
Will become enraged
If you are not by my side
Give me time
Give me your life
Ill give you mine
Two lovers entwined
This is fate
It has to happen
Its bound to be
I know you're not free
But fate can't be too late
Give me time
Give me your life
Ill give you mine

Trust you
Why did I trust you?
Left me here to die
Like in a desert without the most significant life supply
We were meant to be for eternity
At least I thought it was
The way we walked through pleasure and pain
But most the pain
This world is giving us
Why can't we move on?
To the other side
The side you convinced me exists
The way to eternity together we shall leave
Trust you
Why did I trust you?
Left me here to die
Like in a desert without the most significant life supply
All those lies you fed me with
I believed you
What a fool
I have been the paradise on the other side

I'm getting up, it's oh so cold
Come over here and warm my soul
You are so hot; I take what you've got
And I ask for more, never been so cold before
I can climb the mountains I can sail on the seas
But only if you have faith in me
The clock strikes noon, dinner is breakfast
I'm feeling alright
I hate my life but love is a light

A dreadful feeling, feasting on the courage I still
have left.
Should I be scared, is this the end of my eternal pain?
I gather myself for one last time. Is this the end?
Should I fight these fears when they have become like
friends?
Alone towards our destiny
We've been through hell and everything
We dry, and fill up again
On divine odium
Away on our eradication
The world is approving and fear is here
we walk the steps toward
our final podium
A lustful feeling. I keep my thoughts locked up in my
head
Should I be free, would it be safe for me and you
I make this journey for one last time to meet the end
A chance for someone like me to meet my friends
Alone towards our destiny
We've been through hell and everything
We dry, and fill up again
On divine odium
Away on our eradication
The world is approving and fear is here
we walk the steps toward

Claiming ever higher grounds
Look out sky, we're coming down
Like flying daggers or raining spears
Watch out God, you know we're here
Sharpened knives, slicing fears
Sharpened knives, swallowing tears
Obeying far too many rules
Rules in books cause rules are tools
We don't read them ourselves
Better men have better sense
All we have and need is here
Bombs away and everything is clear
Remember what they told you to see
Fight the things you don't believe in
Sharpened knives, slicing fears
Sharpened knives, swallowing tears
Sharpened knives, slicing fears
Sharpened knives, swallowing tears
All we have and need is here
Bombs away and everything is clear
Remember what they told you to see
Fight the things you don't believe in
Sharpened knives, slicing fears
Sharpened knives, swallowing tears
Sharpened knives, slicing fears
Sharpened knives, swallowing tears
All we have and need is here
Bombs away and everything is clear
Remember what they told you to see
Fight the things you don't believe in
Sharpened knives, slicing fears

We stood on our toes
With our faces against our foes
I put my hands to my chest
Wishing it all away
Even the thought of them making it all the way
On one of those awful, dreadful days
Makes my heart collapse and skip a beat
Inside napalm it's less heat
We saw them coming in
Waving a blood red flag
Our hope was wearing thin
Their victory was in the bag
Desperation breaks our spirit
And crushes our fighting will
We call for reinforcements
And brand new means to kill
We rush towards the frontline
To take back what they stole
To take back our motherland

Should I be scared, how do you all fight the thoughts about death
The feeling of emptiness in our hearts do we exist to be or go on to a higher place
Or a lower and not so loved, we can call it hell
When I die will the emptiness eat me like alive
Will there be a tunnel of light like a sign
To guide the way to something greater than the mind
I want some answers fill me in before I'll die
Whos to say how we choose the way we want to go
Maybe even possible to reborn in different shapes
Its all a question mark printed in my head

It's late again I'm finishing up and going to bed
Completely drained my body is like a plant before the
rain
No life sparks left suicidal I'm crawling near the edge
Nothing seems nice anymore I'm so fucked up
So sorry for the world
Suicidal that's what I am
I have no feelings left for life itself
My monotonous life will disappear
Bring down Jesus and let him slave before my god
What have I done so wrong I try to live my life the way
I was taught come kick me hard kick me until I wake up
No life sparks left suicidal I'm crawling near the edge
Nothing seems so right anymore I'm so fucked up
So sorry for the world
Suicidal that's what I am
I have no feelings left for life itself
My monotonous life will disappear

Unaware
She is unaware
Of what I dream of when I dare
Afraid to lose her even there
In my secret sleep where she really cares
I hear her voice and beg for more
Never found myself doing that before
I know I should try to act so cool
Or at least obey my own rule
I let the shyness be my only friend
I want to taste the forbidden
I want to open what lays hidden
Why do love keep me outside
I let the shyness be my only friend
I want to taste the forbidden
I want to open what lays hidden
Why do love seem to hide
Never ever fall off that hill
Love never pays for that bill
The pain isn't worth the thrill
Why do love keep me outside

They're closing in I feel their breath
I cannot live without the secrets of my past
Their scent is strong my will is weak
They read my mind I cannot hide
Kill my sorrow I could die tomorrow
If you don't forgive me, my heart is still in me
I run through the night and leave neon-trails
My fluorescent blood shines through my skin
My heart is a beacon they're homing in
From probing tongues or eager lips
I brace myself from their fingertips
They touch my skin my shield is down
My eyes are black
My darkness is back
Kill my sorrow my soul isn't borrowed

Science, eternal life,
Clones replacing each other on a line.
Who are you, deceiving nature?
Who are you?
You're not a god!
An enhanced gene pool, perfection in the bin
No need for schools, he who dares wins
We have turned biology into technology
We have the factory but not the entire recipe
Breeding humans; mutants for special needs.
A perfect DNA, a killing machine.
Superior species, developed for special needs.
A nature in chaos, science or madness
We fail to see (the difference)
White coated hubris, creating life
No first kiss, you construct your own wife
Who are you, eluding nature?
Who are you?

The Zone in the middle of that Zone
Where natures laws has been overthrown
Trapped inside the Russian winter mist
Calling you in a voice that's hard to resist
Its the Room
Where your wishes all come true
Its the Room
Where your dreams take shape and forms
Its in this Room
Where you will find yourself
Its the Room
The story is in your mind
So lock the door and throw the key away
The soundtrack of screams is not for fake
The room is just behind the poison lake
Where only Stalkers dare to walk
They know the creatures in the dark
Inside the razor wire fence
The glowing fog is dense
In the Room you give in to your desire
Its a gamble, are you a player?
Do you dare to open Pandoras shrine

I do believe in the things you say
Although I don't agree, agree today
That life is cruel to live without me
The dark that clings on to me
makes your deception hard to see
Nothing in life is worth to die for
Eyes to see with that's what they are there for
But I am just too young to die
I am too young to care at all
I trust in God to make me see
If there is something wrong
Something wrong with me
I need to know,
put my faith in you to make me feel
to distinguish between fake and real
I use my youth
Nothing in life is worth to die for
Eyes to see with that's what they are there for
But I am just too young to die

I look towards the stars tonight
Silhouettes are dancing in the clouds tonight
I search my soul mate where is she?
I scan the skies and the seas
To electronic eyes the night is day
Light is white and dark is grey
My carbon fibre heart has fallen asleep
It dreams of love, the kind to keep
Our synchronized hearts they beat as one
Like a movie theme that's just begun
A movie shot in black & white
That we replay all through the night
A female shape is taking form
Blows through my skin, a tornado storm
Defensive systems go off line
Optical recognition of your design
I embrace your intrusion
We disappear in seclusion
Cloaked from human view

I always see you as my queen
I could do everything for you to make you pleased
I saw you as the most precious thing I could have
I thought you were reflecting the same feelings I do for
But, I was wrong, yeah, I was wrong
I was second hand to you all along
I saw you sneak away in a car
With the darkest windows but even then
I could see it so bright like stars
I followed you like the shadow I am
And what I saw tore me apart
I was your second choice and not your star
And now I can see it there when I held your hand
I can feel the dirt you're covered in all along
I despise you I don't like you anymore
And still I held on to you like your second hand clothes

She comes to me unwillingly
I take her hands and hold them tight
Her eyes are sad as if they had
Seen all bad and not a single right
The last few years were filled with tears
First of joy but now of grief
When she slept, her life was kept
A conscience stolen by a thief
Her fragile face and shyish grace
Leaves me bereft
As much as I adore her skin to her core
She is in love with death
She wants to be the tragedy
The king of dreams wants to keep
She touch her hand to see if she can
Pinch herself back to sleep
She wears her depression, it's like her fashion
Shes a planet in her own galaxy
My beautiful friend has reached the end
Of what she can take of reality
She wants to go back to the heart-attack
Which gave her a decade in coma
Her only desire is to expire

Until death do us part and you sell your life
For a wife, kids and a house, is this the meaning of life
To make a family, raising a child, no not for me
I want to be free, as free as I can be
I want to stay young, at least in my mind
I want to feel free, to do whatever I want to do
I want to party all night long, making love to all the
girls
That's what I want
You think you're going the right way, like most people do
One day you take a close look at yourself and what do you
Was this your dream, to lock yourself up like this
And stay together for the kids, that's not for me
I want to stay young, at least in my mind
I want to feel free, to do whatever I want to do
I want to party all night long, making love to all the
girls

With or without me she plays
And she comes two or three times a day
She is born to love and lust
Without that she crumbles to dust
She is born to love and lust
Without that she crumbles to dust
Therapy doesn't seem to work anymore
It only adds to the hurt and the sore
When we are out she makes me wear handcuffs
She's far too much and not nearly enough
Refren:
She never ever gives me room
I fear I'll suffocate soon
Psycho blonde -- I'm not your toy
She never ever gives me room
I fear I'll suffocate soon
Find yourself another psycho boy
I begged her to get herself fixed
I'm tired of games and I'm sick of tricks
I had to move to stop seeing her again
She has a way to crawl back into my head

Here you are waiting for the applause
Eager to come back into the game
Addicted to the sideshow
Addicted to the fame
You were in, but long ago
Failed to reach the top
Not knowing when to stop
Going out, but not in style
It's a fallen star breaking up
In the heat of the atmosphere
Collapsing core, media whore
I can't watch that
It's a fallen star breaking up
In front of those who were there
Throat so sore, the show's a bore
I can't watch that
Here you are waiting for the applause
A new era, a new project name
Or is it the same
Prototype again
You were in but long ago
Failed to reach the top
Not knowing when to stop

Black eyes, black lips, black nails.
We are dancing a slow dance.
Kiss of ash, my tongue fails,
At the sharp blade of romance
Black eyes, black lips, black nails.
We are dancing a slow dance.
Kiss of ash, my tongue fails,
At the sharp blade of romance
Tongue of ash catches drop
From sharp and bloody steel.
Weve danced too long to ever stop,
Its time for a broken mind to heal.
Black stare could shatter stone.
Black knife rests - white body prone.
Dark angels watch the play below
Black soul wants to die young,
Black lips smile when dark tongue
Tastes the wine from your kind
Black eyes, black lips, black nails.
We are dancing a slow dance.
Kiss of ash, my tongue fails,
At the sharp blade of romance
Black eyes, black lips, black nails.
We are dancing a slow dance.
Kiss of ash, my tongue fails,
At the sharp blade of romance
Crimson tongue catches drop
From nails like razorblades
The dance is done, the game is won
Its time for a broken heart to feel
Black eyes, black lips, black nails.
We are dancing a slow dance.
Kiss of ash, my tongue fails,
At the sharp blade of romance
Black eyes, black lips, black nails.
We are dancing a slow dance.
Kiss of ash, my tongue fails,
At the sharp blade of romance
Black eyes, black lips, black nails.
We are dancing a slow dance.
Kiss of ash, my tongue fails,
At the sharp blade of romance

I have never tried to wish
For something quite as good as this
Your catwalk face means nothing here
In silent screams you share your fear
The Smile I heard so much about
Is torn into a terrified shout
The Smile I heard so much about
Is torn into a terrified shout
Lovely murder you taste so sweet
I love to see you when you cry
Make-Up running as you lay
wide to receive the screaming knife,
which separates you from your life
Lovely murder you taste so sweet
Oh murder you taste so sweet
Anger, remorse and distress
What should I do about this mess?
I better clean before it dries
My ears are still ringing with your cries
Lovely murder you taste so sweet
Oh murder you taste so sweet
Lovely murder you taste so sweet
Oh murder you taste so sweet
Do you even remember me?
I was only seventeen
You were the girl in teenage dreams
Humiliation in the school canteen
closure closure closure ha-ahhh
Lovely murder you taste so sweet